non-lucid

Train fun

Spoiler for 18+ stuff :P :

I'm in a sprinter train, sitting second class. I'm sitting on the right side of the isle, in the seat directly next to it. Most of the seats around me are occupied. To my right is someone, in front of me are people as well, whom are sitting in a four seater. To my immediate left are two white girls and behind them is a white woman. I'm not sure what I'm doing, but I'm busy, presumably with my phone. I start to hear some moaning. Soft enough for me not to know what I'm hearing at first. Eventually the sound becomes louder and I can see that the girl to my left is fingering the girl to her left, who has her pants somewhat down. The moaning is quite intense and it's reached an embarrassing point where everyone obviously can hear it, but no one wants to say anything. The girls seem oblivious. After they're done, at least one of them starts to notice and become embarrassed. She had no clue how loud they were.

Fragments
> I'm going around on a tropical island, together with other people. I think we had to complete some assignments, though I can't recall what.

> I'm with a close friend and my housemate, though I'm not certain I'm with them at the same time. First I'm in a bus and later I'm in a school with my friend. We're looking for a classroom. I'm already late for class. Eventually we venture down a long hallway where a white woman is standing who I think is the teacher. She's waiting. She's talking to someone or multiple people... guards? The class I'm going to attend is a coffee brewing class I think. The other students and I form a huddle before we leave.

Ex

Spoiler for Some more 18+ stuff :

I'm in a room which isn't really dark, but also not really light. There are two mattresses next to each other and there are a total of 5 people lying on them. I'm on my back, on the left mattress. To my left is my ex girlfriend. To my right is a girl who is/was a good friend of hers. To her right is a boy/girl couple. I don't recognise them but apparently we're friends, or at least acquainted. My ex and I start messing around a bit, making out, until we're at the point where were nearly having sex, despite the others being here. In this dream we've already had some fun together with her friend, so it doesn't matter much anyway. It's all good until I accidentally hurt my ex. She immediately has a bruise on the right side of her stomach, quite large as well. She's mad and sees it as a sign that we broke up for good reason. I'm pleading, saying it was just an accident. She ends up moving to a mattress that's a few centimetres to our left and a bit lower. After a while her friend also wants to move, so she and the guy scoot right, while the other girl takes her place (still get it? ).

Cinema
I'm in the cinema where I used to work with a friend of mine. Not sure if we've already gone to the movie or still want to go, but we figure we need to pee. We go to the toilets on the third floor, which aren't there in reality. Pretty much all occupied. Ow lets go to the second floor. There's another guy with us who doesn't quite get why. I tell him that that floor is always less crowded. It turns out that the second floor is totally under construction. There's not a single working toilet. Damn.

In the main hall against the wall, there's an animation or a statue of a smurf holding a big platform. He's squatting with it and every time he pushes out, he goes up a bit, bringing the platform closer to the ceiling every time. That's quite fun.

Okay I don't have time right now to do this elaborately so I'll jot down some keywords so I won't forget anything.

Went to bed: 22:00
Fell asleep: 22:30
Awakening 1: 04:30
Fell asleep: 04:32
Final awakening: 6:15

My recall was fuzzy at first because I did not wake up during dreams, and there is no recall from before 04:30, but after thinking about my dreams during breakfast a lot of things slipped into my mind again and I ended up with one fragment and two dreams.

1: Obstacle race

This is merely a fragment and some feelings along with it. I don't really recall what I was doing but I know it was an overhead perspective and I got the term 'obstacle race' popping up constantly. I remember that it was a really strange situation although I really can't say why. It was competitive and pretty intense.

2: Flirting & football at high school/university
My recall starts in a classroom. I am talking to a few people, I think girls, of which I find one quite interesting and the other not very much. We walk out of the classroom as the last few people and the people of the next class are already sitting in the classroom as we leave.
The girl I find interesting walks ahead of us and doesn't seem to be interested in me, while the other girl walks with me. The place we're in resembles the central hall of the university I go to but I feel like it's high school. The girl is blonde and not unattractive but not really my type.
As we walk up a big flight of stairs she gets a little flirtatious, and in my head I try to decide whether or not I like this, and whether or not I should play along. Without really making a decision on that I do play along a little, until we reach the top of the stairs.
There I see the girl from before standing in a small group of 5 people, of which one is apparently her boyfriend. I think about talking to her but decide it wouldn't really do any good. The blonde girl is gone now and to my left is a huge window, filling up the wall completely. T, a friend from high school, is standing by the window looking outside. I go and stand next to him.
Outside I see a field of grass looking exactly like the sports field of my old high school. Somehow, even though we're on the first floor and there's a window inbetween, we are kicking footballs to people on the field. Even though T doesn't play football IRL and actually really sucks at it, he takes some amazing shots with strange curves and perfect precision. I think I take one shot as well but I don't recall whether it was any good or not (it should, I played football for 9 years).

Forgetting my bag and putting on cologne

Recall starts on the doormat. I have just put on one of my shoes as I realise I forgot to put my sports clothes in my bag and I forgot to take the bag itself from upstairs. I don't want to take off the shoe as I'm in a hurry, but I am not allowed to have shoes on in the house so I hop through the living room, up the stairs and to my bedroom on one foot. I'm actually surprised at how well and how fast I got up the stairs this way. All the while I try to make sure my mom doesn't see me hopping through the house with one shoe on. I cram my sports clothes and shoes into my bag and close it. Before walking out of my bedroom I suddenly realise I didn't put any cologne on yet. I quickly do so while watching for my mom. The smell of the cologne is unbelievably accurate and I even feel it sting slightly because I had shaved before. Then I hop down the stairs and take a glance at the clock. The time is 6:37 or something (it's an analog clock), which would be far too late, but I don't really care.

Nothing last night neither (d'oh) - what a life!

Still with the white lines tho', which is actually quite interesting in its own right?

It really feels as though you're seeing the room through closed eyes!

I know it's probably not really doing that, but why is it happening + why also the strange consistency?

I'd have thought of 'inventing' something like that to happen!

I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it 'might' be something!

One can but live in hope...

1/3/16:
I remembered about 3-4 dreams when I woke up but I forgot to write them down as getting extra sleep was a major priority, so I can only half remember one or two now.
Dream 1: I was in a room in a building underground with a ladder reaching up to the surface level. I kept on trying to climb up it to escape but was continually forced back down, because I was a heretic or something. I kept on trying with different costumes and tried flying and stuff but nothing worked, they weren't fooled.

Dream 2: I was on a large waterslide with my little brother. I was facing backwards and watching him to make sure he was alright. The slight was pretty cool with a massive drop where we got some air at the end.

I was in home. My sister was tidying the house, everyone was preparing for some kind of holiday. I took a little kitten to train for a tournament. I heard a voice that told me to look a cat into its eyes, and if it roars, the cat would serve me forever. Then I went to help my mother drill into a thick glass plate using electric tools. Next day it was the tournament time. I went to my kitchen and saw a samurai sitting on a chair and holding a box full of kittens. I went to him and said "Greetings emperor! I am from a Ponk restaurant, joining in to fight to restore my honor!" Suddenly I looked inside his box, there were many different little kittens inside. One of them looked into my eyes and roared.

I have decided to, from now on, note bedtimes and times of awakening in this journal. I think this will help me analyse what sleep schedule is best for my dream recall, since it has been quite inconsistent the last few days.

Went to bed: 22:30
Fell asleep: 23:00
Awakening 1: 01:30 (no dreams recalled)
Fell asleep: 02:00
Final awakening: 06:30 (two fragments recalled)

My recall was not amazing this night but tonight it's going to be great!

I recall two fragments. The themes were all a bit negative and a dark atmosphere persevered through my dreams.

Fragment 1: alone at the carnival

I was outside some seemingly desolated building. It felt like it was late at night, it was dark and gloomy. Inside the building I knew was some carnival attraction. I think it resembled the Break Dance (see this picture). I was negotiating with myself whether I wanted to go or not. Part of me wanted to ride, but I didn't want to be the only one on the thing. I walked into the building and to my surprise I found that the attraction was packed. From there I don't recall what happened, but I think I decided not to ride in the end.

Fragment 2: college friends played a prank on me

I was sitting in a hall that I think was supposed to resemble a lecture hall, but it was not sloped and quite small. S was sitting to my right, R to his right, and N to his right in turn. I have no idea what was going on to my left. We were looking at a powerpoint that was being presented. On the current slide were four pictures equally divided over the slide. I have no idea what was on three of the slides, but on the bottom right one was a picture of a bodybuilder with my face from a photo from when I was 12 photoshopped on top of his face. I felt really miserable and disappointed in my friends seeing that. I looked at them and all three of them were laughing. I got a little angry and asked them why they did this. They apologized but couldn't stop laughing. Their eyes held not the slightest trace of regret. I got angrier and shouted at them (I don't remember what) and felt really disrespected. Then I think I went on to other dreams, or I would've recalled it better.

I find it strange to have had three of these negative, dark and unfriendly dreams in the last two days. I wonder what it could mean, but most of all I hope my dreams will be more positive from now. It doesn't really affect my mood negatively, but normally my dreams do affect my mood positively, so I would like to get back to that again.

FAILED REALITY CHECK

1) My wife is driving a car, we have to get across a wide gap.

2) I in the garden of my old house. I'm running around doing laps and timing myself. It's midnight so I decide it's time to go in and start picking up my things. I see my father looking down from his bedroom window. I unplug everything (there are mains sockets at the end of the lawn) and have difficulty holding everything. Then I'm in the house, for some reason I'm in the front bedroom and I'm trying to clean some marks off an old cupboard. Then I'm at the back and I'm cleaning a toilet using a high pressure hose. A man walks in behind me and he is angry that I woke him and his family up, so I explain that I didn't realise there was anyone else in the house. He seems quite happy with my explanation and we end up chatting like friends. The scene shifts and I'm outside a pub in Hampstead and I have just bought a pint of beer. The landlady comes over to me and says I have to have my pint inspected by a pub inspector, there's a sticker on the window telling me that this could happen so I accept it and walk inside. The inspector looks at my beer and puts it on the table whislt I sit and wait. He starts eating some cake but doesn't offer me any, then some of his colleagues behind him talk about getting some lunch and order sandwiches, the inspector asks me if I know where the ladies toilets are as his colleague needs to go. I notice that he has drunk most of my beer so I give up and walk outside feelign a bit disappointed. I think how late it is and I need to get home but home is miles away so I need to get to my old house in Hampstead to get some sleep, but then start worrying that there won't be any sheets for the bed. I walk up a hill and it's very grassy with a lovely path through the trees. Then I get into an old house and I find myself in a back room - it's slightly odd becasue it's dug straight into the soil with a door higher up and the door is locked. I THINK THIS IS EXACTLY THE SORT OF THING THAT WOULD HAPPEN IN A DREAM AND DECIDE TO LOOK AT MY HANDS, I SEE I HAVE 2 THUMBS BUT CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I COULD REALLY BE DREAMING AS IT ALL SEEMS TOO REAL, I DO A MEMORY CHECK BUT REMEMBER THAT I WAS IN A PUB A WHILE AGO, LOOK BACK AT MY HANDS AND I HAVE 2 OF ALL MY FINGERS. I THINK THAT I AM REALLY TIRED AND CONCLUDE THAT I MUST BE SEEING DOUBLE AND CARRY ON, I'M CONVINCED THAT IT CAN'T BE A DREAM AND IS REAL. As I walk outside through another door I look at a sign and my vision is back to normal so I'm happy. I walk into a shop looking for a comic, and now I'm carrying my dog with me, I have to push past a security guard dressed in red to get out of the shop.

I'm not participating in this dream, just witnessing it. There's a white couple (m + f) standing outside on a parking lot. The man is holding a baby in his arms. Judging by the fact that this baby is still wrapped in a blanket, it can't be much older than a few months. It's daytime. There's a SWAT team or something similar which is going to burst into a big building, a supermarket I think. The man with the baby is part of the team, but because of the baby he's on the sidelines right now. I get the feeling that the man and woman are somewhat famous actors.

Someone mentions that the SWAT team is going to use a car/truck to ram a hole into one of the outer walls. This person mentions that the car is driving backwards to confuse the people who are inside. From what I see the dark coloured car/truck is driving normally at the wall, just at an angle. It breaches the walls. The man with the baby convinces his wife/girlfriend that they should also go inside. No you idiot, not with a baby, it's dangerous!

Once inside the couple is at the fresh produce department. Both of them have a gun. The guy tells his wife that now is the time to jump out into an aisle and shoot. The woman does so while still holding the baby. The baby gets shot by a woman with a gun. I think the wife goes for cover and comes back and gets shot as well, though she lives. The woman who shot the baby gets shot too, not sure if she lives. She has a sister who is present here as well. That sister and the couple finally come to terms about stopping this, cause they've all lost someone they care about.

Was reading today about someone once spending 35 minutes trying to see through his 'third eye' (or something) and eventually succeeding in seeing the sky at dawn as though through a hole in their roof...

has anyone else here had similar experiences perhaps? and if so, what did it eventually all turn out to be?

anyway, i'm gonna try this tonite just to see what happens seeing as I've been seeing these what 'appears' to be white outlines of my room as though seen through closed eyes

i've more chance of this than some lucid dreaming with my history innit heh

wish me luck!

I'm in a nodescript house, sitting at the kitchen table with another girl and her mother. They're talking while prepping diner. I'm not really helping, mostly I listen to their chatter and the sound of cooking. The room is sunny, with long rays of lights cutting the walls.
The night falls, and we're in a park, under the streets lamps. There's a man with us, with short brown hair and a pâle, blandly handsome face. He's talking to the mother, very close to her. The girl is frightened, hiding behind me.
Her mother disappears and the street lamp over him goes out. He laughs and introduces himself as Lucifer. He moves for the girl, but I take her arms and run. We go from light to light, until I have enough and pull a knife. We turn around and the girl grabs the man.

Spoiler for don't fear the devil:

She pulls his head up and I slash his throat, again and again, the skinsplitting on the fleshe, bones and cartilages. The flesh is dark, almost purple, wiry and pulsing. I keep at it, the knife slipping easily through all, until I decapitate him. The girl keeps her hold on his hair as the body slumps foward. I grab his arm and start to drag it with us. The girl holds the head away from her body, looking disgusted. He's still speaking, trying to sweetalk us into reattach him.We end up at the top of a cliff, overlooking the ocean. The water are wild, full of foam. I tell the girl to throw the head first, so he can't see where his body land. She toss is hard enough for it to land almost on the face of the cliff on the other side. I drag the body and dump is once the head has disappear under the waves.

29/2/16:
Dream 1: Watching a movie on dvd with a few other people, can't remember what it was about really.

Dream 2: I was at my grandparents house with my family, there was some discussion about the pros and cons of old age going on between my grandparents and my parents.

Dream 3: There were a whole bunch of people at my house and we were playing a bunch of games that involved throwing objects into small holes. I was in the study with someone else and we had to throw a couple of fish into a hole that was moving. We got pretty frustrated as it was quite difficult. Another person came in and gave us some advice, so eventually we managed to get it in successfully.

Dream 4: I was in a prison, not sure why but maybe for expressing a political view or something. I was in a ell with a couple of other guys, with the cell next to me full of black gang members. I tried rattling the bars of the cell but wasn't having much luck, however I saw the bars on the other side of the cell looked much thinner. The people in the other cell noticed this as well and starting bending the bars, and they actually started to warp. The guards noticed and ran over, yelling at them to stop. They continued and started making a bigger and bigger hole.

Dream 5: I was out in the front yard of my house. There was something about making pizza, and there were lots of people moving around and sort of parading off stuff, I can't really remember the details on that. Someone showed me off to the side what they were working on, which was a huge, self sustaining tank thing. It had food and wood farms and weapons and could drive around and sustain a lot of people. I travelled with her to this other town on a cliff and worked on creating a few of these tanks and then came back to my house where I think one was parked in the street outside. I received news that China had declared civil war, north vs south, and the north was winning handily. I decided to join the fight on the side of the south and used the tanks, however I think we were still being pushed back a lot.

Dream 6: Fragment, something about a kids tv show and Ella.

And yup... sunday nite... big surprise: nothing! as well... just those whitish outlines in the dark

This has gotta' be like some kinda' record no? 2 years of seriously tryin' has gots me nowhere??

Everyone else lucid dreams except me!

Nothing much else I can do around here then really, no-thing to contribute otherwise but maybe just keep this journal going until... 'something happens'

Anything!

Why can't I do it??

Ain't gonna give up though, oh no...

I'm comin' to get you you lucid dream you! - Just you wait!

I was working as an archivist in local government building. My boss was a bit fat man with moustache. He was wearing a black suit. His vice was a man wearing brown suit. He had fake red hair. They were arguing, my boss said to him "I'd best leave you working on beetroot field, this is your place!" After a while of consideration he added "Go hunt some monsters, I won't fire you yet." He went away, I recalled a previous dream in which I was such archivist, but hunting creatures around fields and villages. I said "I used to hunt monsters before". I looked around the office, and there was nothing unusual. Boss told me to write a paper of firing someone, but whenever I started, words changed into pictures of random objects. Like a clock for example. Suddenly my boss turned into someone else, he had long brown hair and different face. He was playing a song on harp.

a short one:
(first person)

flying/hovering above the highway, going fairly fast until i fall forward on my face and wake up. this one was cool because flying is something i like doing in dreams and i think is also a dream sign of mine. i think the highway was based on the highway 99 in reality because i got a sense of the mountains and ocean around me. this dream was more like a fragment that i had near to the end of my sleep cycle.

Tonight's sleep was really quite restless (probably due to the combination of my cafeine sensitivity and 3 cups of coffee) but it resulted in some interesting dreams.

1: Mom should never drive again

I'm leaving the birthday party of my grandpa along with my whole family (mom, dad, R and K). We get into the car, my mom in the driver's seat, my dad in the passenger seat and my siblings and me in the back. My mom starts driving and at first it's just a little wild and uncontrolled, but it gets more and more reckless. She drives much too fast and takes the corners as if we're in Formula 1.
After every corner we end up on the wrong side of the road because she just can't make the turn otherwise at such speed, but fortunately there are no cars driving towards us. I warn her a couple of times, and so does my dad, but were being completely ignored. After one turn we once again end up on the left side of the road, and now someone is driving towards us. My mom panicks and yanks the wheel to the right harshly. To our right was a highway, but it was higher than the road we were driving on and a hill led up to it.

So, after turning sharply right to get off the left lane she drove straight towards the hill leading up to the highway. My dad and I started yelling at her to turn away from it but it was too late. I think that from this point my own perspective changed to an overhead view and with that change I achieved a very low level of lucidity; I didn't realise I was dreaming but I knew somehow that what was happening did not matter at all. We shot up the hill and flew over the wall, onto the highway. My mom managed to dodge 3 incoming cars but the fourth one hit us in the side of the car.

From there the scene changed to a hospital. The whole family was standing around a bed in which my mother was lying. We helped her out and walked through the hallways. Meanwhile I was telling her that she had been so miserably drunk during that drive but she didn't really seem to care. A few moments later I got really emotional and hugged her saying "you could've died, I'm so glad you're still alive" but she kind of ignored me and seemed embarassed for some reason. That's when I woke up.


2: A rose for my ex and throwing bulrushes

I'm at home and in the living room. My mother is also there. On the coffee table by the sofa is a pink rose with photograph next to it. On the photograph I see a man handing a pink rose to a woman. Apparently I am in a relationship with my ex in this dream (this has gotten me lucid before, but not this time) and I decide I'm going to give her the rose. As I get to the street I see my ex (who in reality lives literally 100 miles away from me) and she takes one of our cars (she doesn't even have a driver's license). I take the other and go after her. As we take a turn I try to pass her but then the dream fades.

I shortly wake up but then fall back into the dream.

I am explaining to my mom that sitting in bulrushes next to a pond is actually quite comfortable (what the actual f***!?). Then the scenery changes to what I was visualizing while explaining this. I am now standing on a small footbridge over a narrow part of a pond near my old house. In my left hand is a bundle of bulrushes and reeds. I yank the brown head off of one of the bulrushes and throw it into the water, while still explaining to my apparently flabbergasted mother that this is really not that uncomfortable. Which is the moment I woke up.