non-lucid

Just hanging around
I'm standing/hanging wrapped up in a hammock/sleeping bag which is standing up right. I'm in front of the door to the balcony at my grandma's house, with my back to the door. The hammock/sleeping bag serves to keep the cold away, as the door is damaged. The upper right corner is bend outwards, as if someone pushed with a lot of force at that spot only. Somehow I've seen that corner of the door, though I'm facing away from it. My phone is placed on a flat platform to my left. I've got an incoming message. I ask my cousin to rotate my phone so that I can read the message. It's easier for her to do so than for me to get my arm out of the sleeping bag.

Fragment
» My friend Janet has sent a message on whatsapp to a group which we're both a part of. I ask her what she's doing and she tells me that she's studying. She mentions that a mutual friend of ours is a complicated guy. Dave, also in the group conversation, responds to that, though I don't remember what his reply was.

31/1/16:
I had 4 dreams tonight but they all sort of disappeared when I woke up unfortunately. I can just remember a fragment about me giving someone a car that was automatic instead of manual or something like that and another fragment about money. Ah well the rest might come to me.

At school miffed at not been in time for something. I walk back into a white carpeted area with a stairwell with silver banister and cube glassed window. There is an elderly man there not unlike samuel l jackson, here has a grey checkd floppy berri on his head. i knock it off his head in my fit of rage and it flys across the the room. It falls to the floor spilling out many lead unformed objects.
I immeditetly realise the error of my ways and apologies. He agrees to help me out of my predicatment by singing with me.
But when I leave to return he is no where to be seen.

I walk into the white and silver studio, with large round platforms for the performers to stand on, with hanging microphones and headsets.
Robs group is currently performing in black outfits and time is rapidly running out. There is a main control panel where an old style cassette tape should be placed. I am convinced it is missing and question Georg about its possible whereabouts she is quite aggressive and berates me.

It is time for the performance, but I do not even know the tune let alone the song, reminscient of whiplash.
I flounder about, then the music starts, it was there all along and the performance goes fine, except for my hystronics

[Comment[
I think the lead objects represented unmanifested though forms (being situated under his hat) and that is why it was not his "time" to perform the actions I wanted him too, despite his conscious thoughts.

Otherwise usual worry about worsed case scenario for no reason but habit.

#13

This is an image depicting two planes/worlds merging together

I was in my old highschool. I carried around a Shadow the Hedgehog plush doll and I can remember finding myself in my old science class room with my former teacher. There weren't that many people in the classroom but it was dark (the light was off and the projector was going) and it was spacious with plenty of desks. There was a few students present in particular a boy who used to bully me.

I sat my Shadow plush on the table but then when the boy decided to sit on the opposite side of me, I moved it to the chair next to me. I was angry, and the boy looked at me and asked, "Hey, what happened to all that Sonic stuff?"

I then told him if he spoke to me again that I would kill him, with "one punch" if I was Saitama from One Punch Man *lol*. He didn't say anything back but I remember heading out of the room without my plush into the crowd of highschoolers walking through the hallways. I then remembered that I left him and rushed back. The science teacher was giving a lesson and I tried to sneak under the shining light of the projector and he asked what I was doing, so I told him. He replied that he would get the plush in a minute but I didn't want to wait as I feared some nasty student would put their dirty, polluted hands on him.

I then could remember seeing glimpses of a monster crashing through the wall of the room for a split of a second. It was only a glimpse though as it my third eye had caught a wiff of something. Then I heard screams coming from the hallway and monsters physically appearing and destroying everything in the school.

I stated in a whisper of a voice that, "Things from my world are now coming into yours (Earth presumably)" A spark of thought came into my mind after I said that as I started calling out Shadow the Hedgehog's name. I figured that the planes have merged (something I will discuss in my notes) and that Shadow would be here since the monsters were here. But nothing happened. I then left the classroom avoiding all the monsters who wanted to harm me and I found Sonic and Silver the Hedgehog attacking the invaders, but there was no Shadow. I couldn't get to them to communicate but I did end up finding a little dock area, similar to the one in Soleanna from Sonic 06 as I bounced on DK barrels that were scattered around the area. I do not know for what purpose but I did it anyway. I also remember flying up higher to get an area view of the city like landscape getting destroyed by the monsters and Sonic etc. battling underneath. I also can recall bringing up some sort of holographic roster board that listed various video game characters classified specifically in their universes and such. One in particular was Dragon Ball Z. Before I could do anything more, I had awoke.

Notes: I sat and thought about this dream for a bit. For one thing the planes merging came into my mind. It was something introduced to me by a former friend at college (Who became a fucking asshole btw). He told me that one day Earth would be able to "merge" itself with other worlds and on that day various things will begin to happen. Individuals who would have only been seen as fictional would begin to appear physically. Physics would have bend and twisted as things like magic casting and flying would exist on Earth and such would have never been able to exist due to the planet's mechanics. This was something that I agreed with and something I would talk to Shadow about.

Shadow told me that if something like that did happen that he would be the first thing I'd see. This was years back mind you, so we hardly speak about it anymore. But having that phenomenon happen in that dream made me retrace that memory and perhaps the hope for something of that nature to still occur.

The absence of Shadow the Hedgehog has been a reoccurring thing throughout my dreams. Indeed he has appeared in the few I have mentioned in entries but I still proceed to search for him and have failed attempts for getting him to appear when I call out his name. This could problably signify that there is the slight lost of hope that I would never see him. Or perhaps that I always assume that he will magically come to this planet physically and solve all of my problems. I know he cannot do that and he even stated that such things just...couldn't happen at the moment but I guess due to the stress I deal with on a daily bases I just want him to be here and fix everything being as desperate as one can be.

This dream could also show that I lack the certain kind of appreciation I lack to give to Shadow for all that he has done even though he can only do so much within his limit.

Overall, this dream has taught me a lesson that I shouldn't ever forget. I know there are a few more things I forgot to mention about my dream but honestly...I'm not really in the best of moods to continue on explaining.

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• Date — 1/31/2016

• Went to bed — Around 2AM

• Woke up — 8:00AM

*Time logged — 9:00AM

• Total sleep — 6 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Depressed due to the reason I stated with a friend on Skype before I headed off to bed:

[1:57:02 AM] Mobian★Angel: mmmm....I can't be happy...My mother yells at me for everything and people are always treating me like I need to believe their ideas and thoughts or else I'm dumb and childish....
[2:08:16 AM] Mobian★Angel: And I'm the fool going around telling people I'm in love with a video game character..............

• Techniques/Practices

*Daytime — N/A

*Recall — N/A

*Inducing Method — N/A

• Dream Signs — The Obvious

• Perceived Length — 25 Minutes

• Emotions — Angry, Adventurous

• Awareness — None

First dream

Everyone was preparing for brothers wedding. We drove to some kind of swamp, where we prepared everything on floating lilly pads. We even slept on those. When everything was ready, we wanted to fall asleep. It was really dark and we couldn't see a thing. To get toour beds we had to jump into the water and swim to our pads. I jumped and swam for a while, until I realised that I can't swim. I floundered in the water and barely got to my pad, but I climbed on it and fallen asleep.

Second & third dream

I was a witness of a car accident. Car hit a girl, and drove away. I saved her, and later on when she was in hospital, she wanted me to visit her. I drove there, first floor looked really similar to my previous school. From the entrance I went left and found a staircase. It was impossible to go there though, as path was blocked. I went back and moved right from the entrance, and found a way to the upper floor. Finally I got to hospital on the second floor - white wall, gray tiles and... suspiciously looking police officers. One was a receptionist. I went to him and told that I want to visit that girl, but he said that it's important government project running there, and that I should leave her a message and go away. I written a note quickly, and the dream faded away.

When I woke up, I realised that it's a recurring dream. Notable differences are that the first floor in the original dream was a hospital, not a school, and reception was already on first floor. Next difference is that in original dream, I broke through all the guards and saved that girl from a secret government project. I fallen asleep and tried DEILD to recreate it.

I found myself at second floor again. It was really dark. I had to move around blindly, until the guard turned on the lights. I heard a voice behind me. I turned around - that suspicious police officer closed way outside. He smiled to me. I received a feeling of lucidity, without realisation that it was a dream. I managed to say "Son of a bitch." and the dream faded away.

Fourth dream

Everything looked like an old DOS shooter game. I was running around an abandoned shipwreck. My pal was somewhere there too. It was full of ghost and strange monsters. We had weapons, and killed every monster on our way. Then we split up - he went to search for exit, while I delved deeper into the ship. Behind one doors, I found a cultist ghost. He was floating around and screaming. Behind other doors, I found wraith of ships captain. It was an evil, vengeful spirit. My pal called me to go out, and fight with the captain in the open air. I had a quick duel with him and defeated the ghost. Then we moved on to destroy a city while escapnig from cops.

Dream Notes

-Yesterday's dream was about a medium sized singing owl on a
tree. I called it to me after it made me lucid and it flew onto my arm. Next thing I recall is my sister distracting me with some nonsense I didn't think was appropriate.

Two days ago, I think it was than...Well I had a dream about becoming lucid and looking for Eye. I asked Dawn to take me to him and he grabbed me. Took me into the big closet we have upstairs. And used it as a elevator after pulling me closer to the wall. It was a funny moment but also those silly dream moments.

We than got out and he showed me to another room in our house and pointed to Eye who was snoring as he lay on a bed. I poked his cheek telling him to wake up but than a group of girls were present and a blonde lady, shirtless, distracted me. I got the feeling she was a smut and told her to put her shirt on.

Another dream i recall is being downstairs and thinking about Jade and Manei. When I'm lucid I tend to think about lucid things or things I use to do when lucid. I than noticed I was starting to be sucked by an ocean whirl pool that was supposedly coming from under the bed or something like that.I got help from a dc though and was fine.

Morning of January 31, 2016. Sunday.

Dream #: 17,940-03. Reading time: 1 min 10 sec. Readability score: 70.



This dream branched off into today’s volcano and “circling the globe” dream (without any apparent waking transition or consciousness shift other than the second dream situation becoming more vivid over time).

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My wife Zsuzsanna, our children, and I are going to a public Halloween celebration. My dream self does not perceive the presumed October date as incorrect.

I will be wearing a hooded cloak, though I perceive it as light-colored at one point rather than black (of which seems more suitable to my implied character as the Grim Reaper). There is minor difficulty getting it to fit.

My only other costume feature is a silver skull ring which goes on the middle finger of my left hand. The skull is upright when viewed by others when my arm is naturally at my side. There is a slide switch in the back of it that makes its eye sockets shine with brilliant light, so bright that it would light up the street. I see the two beams, but they are not overwhelmingly bright.

As with many of my dreams, I take to the air in flight without thinking much about it. I notice an unknown young girl also flying to the party, ahead of me by about half a block. In these types of dreams, I decide to fly while considering it a completely natural event.

My dream changes into the type where I need to push through barriers at times due to the unusual maze-like layout of various unfamiliar buildings. At one point, there is a very thick window on a high floor of a commercial building. I attempt to push through it and eventually succeed. I walk or fly through walls, with slight difficulty at times. Mostly, I fly around enjoying the view.

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Assorted bad guys and monsters are after Lydia from the Teen Wolf television show, and my gang and I are trying to keep her safe, with a few romantic interludes between her and I.

There's a wanted poster with Lydia face offering a reward, and now even ordinary people are tempted to turn her in, so we hide her in closed store. I leave her there for a bit and head outside when I see a giant approaching, searching for her. A REALLY BIG giant! I probably only come to the top of his toe. It's crushing everything in it's path, and I book back to where Lydia is, almost getting stepped on in the process. Luckily the giant isn't interested in me at all.

I go back inside to get her out of there, when soldiers dressed all in black pour in and point their guns at us. Just as I wonder what to do, I see the flash standing against the wall. He zooms us all out, then goes back in for the soldiers. He phases himself out so you can only see his suit, but not his head or hands or anything, which confuses the soldiers (and me too).

Next thing I know, we're all waking up in some basement after having hid out for the night. I wonder if Lydia is still into me, or if it was just a spur of the moment thing. I am like 20 years older than she is after all. But she leans over and gives me a kiss, and I'm ecstatic!

This dream felt like it lasted several hours so I was in a deep deep dream. Anyway to start off, my nephew and I were playing grand theft auto and sometimes it was split screen, other times it wasn't but it got to the point where we were both actually inside the game like VR Sword art online style. We stole cars, broke into houses, flew helicopters, did missions, killed each other and re spawned and did it all over again. I sort of knew I was dreaming I just didn't want to alter what was going on because it was really fun as it was. We "woke up" into another GTA style game but it looked way more realistic like real life and I hurried outside and found a Ferrari and drove off. We were in California because I remember speeding down the golden gate bridge but what I was most focused on was trying to put the car into gear as it was manual and I have never driven manual but it ended up working out. Night time came and we were by this river, it wasn't flowing a certain direction it was just there and we decided for some reason we were going to kill ourselves (we could re-spawn like I said before) and he jumped in first and I just stood there and watched him drown, when he died a fire like essence that was rainbow colored started to flow out of his side like a flame thrower type thing and I jumped in and I layed on my back underwater looking up at the beautiful nights sky while drowning. I was slowly dying but it was a very happy death. At that point I reminded myself that I was dreaming so I forced myself to wake up but i woke up in a different house, in a dark room and I walked toward the door and when I opened it, I woke up in the real world... sometimes I just wish I could stay in my dreams forever...

Ok, this was definitely someone else's dream. I was in this weird cafe, and the woman that worked there was talking with me in the back when a little bell rang that sent her running to the the street to catch someone that didn't pay for the food. This happened several times in the dream. Then this family came in, all dressed in what looked like 90's raver clothes. They looked stupid, one kid had on a a blue shirt, with a blue towel sewed together to look like a kilt, with a black dog collar and face paint, like one of those insane clown possie people, i made fun of him and said that I like his outfit and laughed, he said thanks, but don't hate...I said If you want to dress like a clown, you're going to get laughed at because that's what clowns are for. The mother looked equally as dumb, as well as the kid's little sister, it looked like a tornado had dressed them at a yard sale. Anyway, I kept asking the woman, who apparently I was dating, who the hell they were and what were they doing there, and she said "bringing her some tops" and I laughed out loud. Then the woman said that the family likes to go for walks, and If I went on walks with her, then she wouldn't hang around them. The whole thing was weird and awkward, and then they left and got into a van, which now I was in the passenger seat of the van with this circus family wondering where the hell they were taking me. ( I think I took too much melatonin, this is what happens when you play with melatonin...you wind up in a raggedy van with juggalos) Then I was in a cafeteria sitting with strangers while they ate, I didn't recognize anyone, but thought I recognized this Asian girl walking down the street. Everyone in the cafeteria told me not to talk to her because she was crazy and would cut my throat?? I looked at them, and asked HOW DO YOU KNOW? It felt like I was looking for someone to go to a movie with? ( Like I said, this is melatonin) It really felt like someone elses dream, all of the dream characters were not recognized by me, and there were at least 30 people.

The last dream took place on a beach, where the ocean was so far out during low tide, that me and a crew of about 10 went out digging up clams and oysters. The ocean floor was so fouled, it looked horrible. We were digging up oysters and putting them in buckets. I warned everyone to keep an eye on the ocean that not to let it get above their ankles because the sharks were bad. I didn't pay attention and the ocean all of a sudden was up to my waist, I told everyone to get back to shore as fast as we could. On the way back, I saw the eyes and teeth of a shark in the wave beside me, and punched at it and it went away. It felt like a mile back to the shore but we made it back, and then woke up.

This from day before yesterday.

DR 1:

I'm in a hangar sized room in even bigger building. I work at this factory. I'm some kind of a manager and my boss tells me to find a quiet place for our department meetings.

Place looks kinda empty, only bunch of cardboard and wooden boxes.

I find a place in the large room that looks like a mess hall. Thats where I keep my bicykle too.

It's time to go home. It's dark outside and big storm had kicked up. Very windy, I can hear it blowing. It's raining. I decide not to ride my bike home but to call a cab. I do that. Cab takes me like half way. From there I'm walking. Now one of my friends is walking with me. We are passing an old building that looks like renovated castle or something very old.

DR 2:

I am walking through some mountain passage. A nurse is sitcking a thermometer into my mouth to take my temp. I fight her but she says something and I have to comply. Not liking it.

DR 3:
My work is getting remodeled. (it is in WL). I'm looking at the front sliding doors and they are all new and working properly. There is also a sliding screen door and I laugh and wonder how the heck is this going to work.

1.30.16

Last night bed at 11:30pm - 3:30am. Had a day off but working my second job.

I am with another person in a long room on the second story. I'm looking down at a structure to my left.

It's a structure with 3 buildings that is built into the side of a mountain. Mountain on the top is flat and it's an airport and these 3 buildings are hotels. They are build very crudely, just bare huge building blocks. They each have a name on the top.

I am thinking if the airport is secure from attacs and if it is, if these hotels are vulnerable. If someone would attack the airport, they would probably start at these hotels.

Across the place where I am at, I'm looking at a column of people coming from left. They are all man, dressed in drab, with some kind of a military type of a rain poncho on them. They all have weapons and a mask on their face. I'm looking at this huge muscular black dude and his facemask is makeshift piece of military green cardboard covering his mouth and nose, leaving his eyes free.

They are walking slowly and nonthreteningly, but they seem manacing to me. They just don't want to panick us.

Two of them come up to the room. Me and my friends are laying down away from the window, our automatic weapons next to us. I'm thinking we made a mistake and shoud have hid them. They are not saying anything, but I know we are in danger. I mouth to my friend to look at the banner they put up. It has swastika on it and some writing. Now I know for sure they are not on our side.

We find a box with some old weapon and my friend wants to toss it. I look at it and the sniper rifle in it is kinda of warped for being old, but I say we keep it. Caliber is etched in the weapon. It reads .38.

First dream

It was dark evening. Moon was shining up in the sky, the church bell rang. With whole my family and my three pals we were going to church for a funeral. I was thinking who would want to have a funeral at dark, Saturday evening.

Second dream

I was in my home. I took my laptop and started browsing the web. Suddenly I found myself in some kind of temple. I wandered around it, and found an axe lying on the floor. I heard bell, and guards tried to fight with me one by one. The guard captain was the strongest foe. He parried all my strikes and when he found my weak spot, disarmed me. It was really irritating, I was scared that he would chop me to pieces, so I decided to use more power. I pointed my hand at the axe lying on the floor. It started to shake and flied in my hand, so I could continue fighting. I used this ability a few times, but then the axe landed behind captains legs. I tried to shoot a fireball at him, but it only gave me a strange feeling. I tried to retrieve my axe pointing at it again. It shaken, but then everything turned red. I found myself in my house, holding an axe in the air, trying to hit my sister. She told "It's ok, as long as you won't hit me for real." I swung the axe without hitting anything. Sister laughed and went away. Suddenly I felt great fear and an urge to run away. I sensed that my grandma is coming.

Waking up, I realized that the strange feeling I get when trying to shoot a fireball was the same as getting lucid. I didn't realized that it was a dream though.

Went to bed at perhaps 01:00 and woke up around 08:00.

Wasting time
It's daytime. I'm riding my messed up bicycle on a street somewhere in a neighbourhood. My mom is driving her car just behind me. From the opposite direction another car is approaching. It makes a strange maneuvre and blocks the way for my mom for a moment. I keep going. I come close to a flat and my cousin is calling out to me. I join him. I'm not sure what happened to my bike at this point. He tells me to be quiet because his ex-girlfriend is around here looking for him. We move around a bit and then I spot a girl I went out with twice. She has huge cleavage. I spot a girl I know from high school and there's a 3rd girl whom I can't remember. I think they are wearing badges of some sorts on their chest. They are with the ministry of foreign affairs and they're out here not doing anything important. I make a condescending remark about it, as if there's a bit of rivalry.

Fragments
» My friend has offered his macbook for sale. When I come over to check it out, the upper right corner is totally bent, like a Dali clock. When I make a remark about it, my friend is really casual about it, as if it's no big deal. I don't think I'm still willing to buy the laptop from him.

» Something that had to do with Harvey from Suits

Morning of January 30, 2016. Saturday.



This dream mostly involved a focus on “forcing” energy from my hands. Typically, the energies that flow from my hands in dreams where I heal people is a sort of blue lightning. In real life, I had discussed this with other posters on the dream journal website who had the same experiences. It was interesting that directing blue lightning from one’s hands is not that rare a dream event with certain dreamers.

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This dream does not feature the blue lightning but instead has a sort of “hissing” emerging from the palms of my hands. The force seems less automatic than with the blue lightning dreams; that is, I sort of mentally initiate the sound and implication. My wife Zsuzsanna and our children and I are present as we are now. My mother-in-law and Zsuzsanna’s youngest sister are also present. The setting is completely unknown. It seems to be an unfamiliar residence my mother-in-law lives in near a rural area. There seems to be a backstory of her having to move out soon. There are many small items everywhere in her house, including a miniature yellow rubber duck on her kitchen table.

The situations where I mentally force my hands to “activate” certain inherent energies create a sound that is similar to that of a garden hose. Perhaps this is a play on rainfall due to a very intense period of thunder and lightning in reality here yesterday (which knocked our power out for several hours) - and it is interesting that lightning and rain go together and my blue lightning is replaced by the “sound of rain” (again, in a situation that does not involve healing). I do not seem as confident here as with previous dreams of various forms of energies from my hands and I do not seem to have a specific reason for doing it. Curiously, my mother-in-law and her youngest daughter do not act aggressively and obsessively as they do in real life. The energies that flow upward from the palms of my hands seem like small and long transparent cylinders of very pale silver light, almost like a “raining upwards” effect but no feeling of wetness or impression of water. These scenes take place outside at night (or just before dawn) in a rural park-like area.

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