non-lucid

I come back home from school early today and since I was feeling down in the dumps I tried at getting a lucid dream. What I recall happening was that I almost had a WILD. I observed as a image of a forum began to appear than a box. Than sketches of a cartoon man in a box. It was as if the person's followers were watching a art live stream. But as I kept observing I started thinking of something else on purpose and after a bit I fell asleep... When I woke up I recall dreaming of nothing.

I than tried at a lucid dream with more motivation. I ended up on my bed and it was dark. A figure began to appear above me and as I observed it I noted that it was in the form of a strong yet slim looking guy. Had a cloak that was layered a bit. It was also open in the front and long in the back. The skin was like a light white/ violet color. The cloak was the color orange and like a reddish purple with pretty designs. But what stood out the most was that the one Eye he had was huge and covered his whole face.

"Are you Eye or Dawn?"I asked knowing that I wanted to be lucid with one of them. But than I noted that the dream character's form was still morphing and becoming invisible. I grabbed the dream character than hugged it. It seemed to be morphing less so I told it."You remind me of Poe. That character from the legend of Zelda ocarina of time. I had a dream with a poe like character before". (The only reason I brought about this comparison was because Percy Lucid commented about it in my dream journal before)

The dc didn't really speak to me though. So I just gave it another hug and it accepted it. After that I tried asking it more questions but it didn't respond. The next thing that happened was that the dream shifted after a bit of trying to get an answer out of the dc.
I was now in a subway station and my lucidity wasn't there. I was trying to get in the train but it seemed too far from me.

As others around me began to contemplate how to get in I saw the word "spaghetti"on the train. I thought of the game Undertale when I saw it than remembered I was in a dream and still was. After that a man said out loud "spaghetti starts with a B". Only proving I was lucid dreaming again.

I got up than saw the tall like poe dc appear in front of me. It grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to it. Than flew me above the track and than into some tunnels. I wanted to see where it would take me but than I started thinking about OBE like dreams. I didn't want a OBE like dream. But once we passed the tunnel I could feel the wind hitting me and things were starting to feel more like reality does even though I still knew it was a dream. However, I wanted to wake up and ended up on my bed.

It became a false awakening but when I saw papyrus (A character from Undertale) in my room I hid under the covers thinking I was just seeing a quick passing image. But as I thought about it I eventually woke up for real.

In my dream I didn't see anything, rather it was all feeling and hearing. I was laying down somewhere, probably in a bed. My arms were around a man, I could feel his hands around my waist and back. We were enjoyably pressed together. He said something and I nibbled either his jaw or part of his shoulder or even his neck. He held me tighter and said something along the lines of,"You're getting smarter doing things like this to me." I'm not really sure about the dialogue though, honestly I wasn't focused on it at all.

First dream

I was inside a bus, my father was driving it for some reason. We were driving through a city, picking up people on the way. I was taking different seats all the time, sitting with different people. In the end there was only me and my father inside it, driving through fields with a plow plugged to the bus.

Second dream

I was in a bus (again). It was a school trip to a nuclear power plant. Everyone was arguing all the time, and I was thinking if that trip would be successful. We left the bus and had to follow a road. I recalled this place from previous dreams, and knew where we had to go. I took the lead and we went to buy some tickets. Someone asked where is our destination, I said that I'm not sure, but I knew where the lakes are. We entered a building and went high up stairs. I had troubles walking up these stairs for some reason. Everyone was arguing. (This is where voices from TV turned on nearby added up, and story changed from school trip to student and teacher arguing about a dress that she has bought). I fallen down the stairs, and went outside. My father was waiting there. I said that we have to wait, the trip might not be successful.

I had a dream last night that I partly remembered..!

I was on a bus, going somewhere.. I'm not sure where, and a guy, who looked about my age sat down next to me. He got really close. Then he whispered words in my ear; "Are you taken, because if you are I can't touch you.." For some reason I said I wasn't, and he began to touch me with his hands.

When I woke up, I didn't realise why I told him the truth, knowing what that guy was going to do..!

2.23.16 Tuesday
Yesterday third night of midnight shift.

Can't really sleep, bed at 5pm - 10:30

DR 1:
I'm waiting at the dentist. She announces through a PA system, that she will work an extra hour for more profits and I hear 2 names of patients she will take. Somebody declines or something so it's my turn. But then she says she is getting a headache, lol, so I will go back the next day.

DR 2:
I'm following someone through some dirt path in the fields to see where the end up.

DR 3:
My brother is visiting so we wanna go to eat out. We are in some smallish elongated town on the edge of something to the south. I grab a turist brochure and show him restaurants marked with stars for ratings.

DR 4:
I'm in a room that has huge glass windows on at least 3 sides. I'm sitting and kinda meditating, while looking at the yard in the back of the house, or at least trying to have a quiet moment. This is not my house, not sure why I'm there.

I look to my right at a distant scenery of fields and small towns. I point out some very low hanging dark clouds that are touching the ground and it looks like it's raining over there and very windy. Suddenly there is a huuuge gust of wind and everything is moving. The huge metal electric towers are swaying, trees going back and forth, cars on the highway in front of the house are moving left and right.

My mom opens the front door all worried and even before she says 'tornado", I see the fully formed skinny funnel. I grab my socks and shoes and start putting them on, when someone says it's about 3 miles/km away and we are ok, and should go inside.

Back inside, I see "stuff" flying in the air. Huge chunks of debris. There is a porous building block bouncing off the road and a piece of the wall size of a WV Beetle flies by the window. I say we should go to the upper floor to find a room without glass, but I realize if something like that hits us, it will obliterate the whole house.

1) At a London Tube station. I need a travel card. Someone tells me the exact price £2.30. The ticket machine is located at the far side of the station on the other side of a gap so I have to lean across the gap to ge to the machine. I drop some of my change down the gap. I have to scramble down the gap to get the change but it's a narrow gap so it takes some effort. When I get down to the level below there is another ticket machine but for some reason I can't use it. I find my change buit it's only 5p and realise that I had enough anyway. I climb back up. Now a car has parked in front of the ticket machine, then a lorry pulls up and double parks. I have to climb over them. I'm not sure if I ever actually got the ticket.

2) I'm in my local town in a shop, not sure why I'm there. I notice some of the receptionists from work working in it and think of course this is my local town, why shouldn't they be working here as well? I walk over the road and into a Chinese Restaurant. I notice a very large table with a lot of people at it and recognise a few of them then realise it's all my work colleagues and it's our night out. A group photo is being taken so I find my place at the table. I'm a bit disappointed about who I am sat next too they are a bit boring. I notice that all the other tables in the restaurant have been cleared away and we are the only people there. Everything shifts and suddenly I'm at a table with only about 6 other people and the rest of the restaurant is full of people at tables I watch them all eating. I ask what just happened and everyone seems unaware as if nothing has happened. A waiter comes over and tells us that we need to go downstairs to get pudding as it's self service. I set off downstairs through a maze of corridors and doors. All the good food has already gone I spend a long time looking around at what is left and eventually decide the only option is sponge and custard, the custard is in large jugs covered with a layer of warm water, I laddle some out it's very lumpy.
I'm at Hampstead Heath it's daytime and I talk to someone then I walking barefot back towards the road avoiding the sharp thistles in the ground. I reach the top of the hill in Hampstead and it's night and I'm on my way home from the work party I realise that I'm lost and my phone isn't working I decide to put a wire from where I am to the Royal Free Hospital the I will know where I am. I start nailing the wire to a wall. Then other people appear and it's a police investigation, the wall becomes the outside of someone's house, the officer knocks on his door, TV cameras are everywhere. Someone opens the door and is wearing a suit, there are mumbles from the press behind me about why he is wearing a suit and he must be guilty. The officer asks him to explain what he is wearing as it is most unusual. He makes a very clever comment about pop groups wearing suits and everyone laughs and I think how clever he is. Next we are all writing down hundreds of names of pop groups, I ask the person next to me why we are doing this in the middle of an important police investigation, he tells me it's fun and I feel like a complete killjoy.

D1 - fringle the magician is making magic, his old friend mouse-fringle makes magic on the same wavelength causing a overlapping of waves of energy, enveloping all.
Someone is bending to get through a white doorway.
D2 - Staying on holiday in italy, trapsing through the streets, as staying away from the centre means the food is lousey.
Everyone we meet is planning on moving as we head through the busy streets. Nice houses but we are quite lost if we venture further, but we are drawn despite the danger.
D3 - ?
Feelings of acceptance and non-resistance on coming out of third dream.
By the time I came out of the third dream, i had strong feelings of acceptance and non-resistance, to everything.
The dream and me were one entity, on waking the world and me were one entity.
I now experienced what it meant to say that lightning and a drop of rain were one. All was the same essence. All me.

I hope you can understand my feeling, my sensation at the time.
The feeling you get when you get to slip back and the duvet for some extra sleep but without the exited emotion about the extra sleep and without the worried emotion about having to eventually get up. Just a lovely syrupy feeling like the world is one big glob of golden honey.

People were talking on the radio, all I heard was words, people talking talking they didn't realise that it didn't matter what they said it was just sounds, They had talked yesterday and everyday of their lives, they're was no resolution to be had through words, they just generated more, like thinking just making more thoughts. Just a noise going on forever, talking was fine but not nonsensical talking.

Anyway the feeling enveloped me further, and I was in a kind of beautiful daze as I had a shave, my mind was clear.
In the shower I felt a breeze, as it was a chilly morning, the wind felt like it was a part of me. The water that rained down on me was also part of me.
It was wonderful, but such a calm warm feeling. Just a constant emotion, if it could be called that, unbroken.
Then thoughts tried to make ther way into my mind, my ego was returning, as soon as I started to fear this feeling would depart.
So I experienced first hand that the ego is generated by fear.

I got up because I couldn't sleep, and I went out to the balcony. I was several stories up, and the balcony looked out over a grassy lawn, on the far side of which lights twinkled from the windows of other apartment buildings. To my left, I could see more lights from the night skyline of the city.

I was surprised at how dark the sky still was, though full of brilliant stars. Wasn't it almost morning? I remembered that I had gotten up for a while and didn't go back to bed until the sky was starting to lighten. (That part was true.) Shouldn't the sun be rising by now? For some reason I felt strangely tempted to jump off the balcony to see if I could fly, which made me wonder if I might actually be dreaming. But I realized that would be a terrible test, because if I was wrong, well...

I didn't think it could be possible that I was dreaming, because I was sure that ever since I had gone back to bed, I had lain there unable to sleep. How could I be dreaming if I hadn't gone to sleep first? I'd better do a test anyway, just to be sure. I reached out my left hand and tried to invoke a ball of glowing white light in the air above it. Nothing happened. Oh well, I must be awake after all... was my last thought before I woke up. In retrospect, it was a terrible choice of RC, but the only one that occurred to me at the time.

Waking up was confusing at first—hadn't I just been suffering from insomnia? But if I had been dreaming all along (and only now did I notice the profound discrepancies with WL: that I have no such balcony, and moreover live in a completely different kind of building with a completely different kind of view), then I must have been asleep the whole time, only dreaming of insomnia.

I was at the road surrounded by fields of wheat. I was there with the black dudes, we were stopping any car that would drive there and take money from them. It was a really hot afternoon. Received money we spent in an exclusive hotel. There was a huge swimming pool.

Late night after very long day at work. Very bizarre disorganised dreams last night.

1) Driving down a busy dual carriageway and I realise I'm going the wrong way. I have to turn off as quickly as possible, and I get into a petrol station. There are little furry cartoon like foxes serving customers. I pull back out onto the dual carriageway then off again. Then I'm walking down a spiral staircase in a dark very old brick building. I reach the bottom, then my memory fails.

2) This is a whole collection of semi-related scenes:
- walking outside my house with my mother we see someone picking the paint off a window as if looking to buy the house, but we had only invited them around to vist, then we see someone else in the house without permission looking around again obviously interested in buying the house
- eating supper with my wife and children, we remember that there are lots of guests still outside and it's dark, there are a few visible outside the window,and talk about whether we should go outside again. My wife suggests I have a quick drink with hte guests and then I can set off to where I was going (?where).

3) Sitting in a cinema, I shine a very bright torch onto an usher walking along the front row and think it's funny. A film starts it's pictures of a very nurdy person explaining about the 'Ben 10 fraud collection' and pictures of him grinning showing off things that people have pretended to be genuine Ben10 items. Then he is demonstrating a remote control helicopter that is the size of a hand, it looks quite impressive. Then I'm out in a garden being shown the helicopter, and then we are in a garage. Somehow we are playing with paint and it flips all over the person I'm with, I think it was my old room mate from medical school. He says it doesn't matter he is wearing old clothes anyway.

4) Sitting up in the balcony at an odd concert where someone is reading out a speech. Next door Blink182 are also doing a concert so I keep running across to watch a bit of that. Then the concert I am at is on TV and it becomes very moving. A man with a very badly fitting toupee is playing the organ and the crowd goes mad, he smiles to the camera. I look behind me and another female friend from medical school is in tears.

5) I have put several very large live maggots in a brown roll and I start eating them. They taste amazing. Then I realise that I'm vegetarian and start to feel very sick, although I'm still amazed how good they tasted.

Ok due to the reoccuring dream character (male) last night whenever I saw him I asked him if he was my dream guide. The man became frantic, almost scared. He grabbed ahold of my arms, very very firmly, and said,"Do not listen to them, I am no figment of your imagination. I am real amd waiting for you. Please do not give up on me. I will come when the time is right." Then I wake up and my boss is calling me in early.

22/2/16:
Dream 1: I was helping a guy getting married online. I gave him some advice about it and then travelled with him to Fiji for the wedding. Before the event I was standing with him outside of a building and he was vaping.

Dream 2: I was with a group of schoolmates on an island of some sort. We were involved in some massive competition that I think involved building and then flying a plane, like formula SAE but for planes. I helped construct it for a bit, and then the competition began. I drove a little cart thingy towing the plane through huge hallways on the way to the competition hall. I drove in there slowly and there was a huge hangar like stage where I drove the plane to, on the side there were huge rows of chairs where competitors, judges and spectators were seated. I then followed my group to sit down on the side, but then I got up and went to hop into the plane to fly it in the competition. I think I woke up before I started flying.

D1 - Someone repeatedly tried to copy my super powers. I thought they were crazy as they were doing it all wrong
It was a beautiful woman standing infront of a cresent moon, the moon had a yellow light on it.
She tried seven times making a low tonal sounds. On the last attempt she succeeded.

D2 - On holiday heading back with luggage to a car park, car was gone had to hike up a trail to another car park, feeling lost.

D3 - Going out, on way down the stairs, look in on Sam to see if he wants to come. He is already heading out with a new mate, I feel lost again, and look for an old coat reminscent of past times.

[Comment]
After dream one.
My mind is contemplating dream meaning, one syncronitiy after another coming to mind of recent times.
Dream meaning comes to me with an accompaning strong physical sensation.
Meaning was that not only do opposites change into each other but other elementary forces can interchange,
such as love becomes fear, fear of losing control changes into pure love.

I felt a burning heat that moved like larva in a tight stream up my chest. At the same time the world seem to flip between waking and dream state, with everything in waking state appearing as a dream sign and sync. My mind was a total rush, as everything seemed to become clear for a moment.
It subsided and the sensations remained for about an hour.

Dreamed that some bubble thing was attacking Ponyville and only Fluttershy could stop it. I recall Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie were consumed by the bubble thing (not dead though, just more or less trapped by it) and then F.S. went off with her pet rabbit Angel to stop the bubble thing. The dream then went off to me going across many miles at once, by using my arms and rafters in the sky.

I have so many dream fragments I remember this morning. I can remember a lot of detail about what I saw in my dreams, the plots remain quite vague.

1) I'm in bed. there are two other men with me one of them is famous. A woman is telling us that we need to practice our routine (for some sort of show?). I offer to get the vegetables ready and walk over to a sink where there is a bag of greens to chop up, they look a bit yellow. I start chopping and realise that most of them are mouldy and there are insects all over them. I show it to the woman. I have to go to the shop to get more vegetables. I remember in detail the path up to the shop, I'm running, jumping past other people and their dogs, over some rocks I see my feet landong on the rocks and lots of stones on the ground. I get to the top of the path and there's a GP surgery there I try to get in but it's the wrong side and I have to go around to the front. then I'm back in the hotel room, it gets a bit sexual for a while, then I have to go back out to the shop (can't remember why). I'm in the hotel lobby and I have a conversation with one of the staff. then I'm back out on the path. I have to cross the road.

2) At some sort of large holiday complex. I can't remember the order of events exactly. I'm outside and I start tieing my shoelaces, a child sits down beside me, then an official looking woman comes up to me and starts telling in French that I should not ask a child to sit next to me. I tell her I can't speak French, then we have an argument in English and I tell her that the child came and sat next to me, we agree to disagree. I'm inside with a group of people a childrens's entertainer is setting up, he tells us that everyone on camp has a 'routine' and I tell the group that I've seen it before and I'm going outside. I take a long time sorting out what I need to take with me from my coat. I step outsode and look across at the mountains they are covered in snow I can see it extends right down to just a short way away. There are 2 main ski runs down the side of the main mountaintop, they look quite scary near a ledge and very tight turns, I tell my wife I'm going for a walk but I'm going to fly so I won't be long, and tell her I'm going up to look at the snow. I stand a bit longer and watch some people skiing down another run.

3) I'm in a room with a window looking out onto a snowy scene. Then I'm with a young girl and we are watching something happen outside, I think she was a bit frightened and I made her feel better.

4) In some sort of spy film. I'm on the phone saying that I can help with a mission, looking at some sort of advert. The man on the end of the phone suddenly becomes unwell and has to go. Vague recollection of the rest of the dream, something about walking around a large vehicle.