non-lucid

Fragmented sleep, with very little REM. Only dream remembered was... interesting.

Had a nail pounded into the... nail of my thumb. With blood spurting and everything. Didn't feel anything, wasn't even scared. Weird.

Dream 1 - Murloc hunting
I remember hunting murlocs (from WoW) with a dwarf who had a gun. He would shoot them and the whole dream kind of felt like a video game. I remember trying to kill a murloc before it reached me, it was running down these stairs and I was firing at it through these iron bars. It then rounded the corner and leaped at me and killed me (though it was like a video game death and I wasn't really connected to the feeling of dying).

Dream experience: 2 (video game)
Dream awareness: 1 (disconnected)

Dream 2 - Supermarket
I remember standing outside a supermarket which didn't resemble any I think I've seen in RL. There was a pedestrian crossing nearby and lots of cars going past. I was waiting for my friend Olly who had taken my backpack to the bag drop zone where you apparently leave your bags while you shop... Now that I think about it, this place kind of resembles the airport O_O. While waiting I looked around as I had heard the sound of a Morepork Owl hooting somewhere. I saw behind the window of the 4th floor in a nearby building an owl. It was just sitting there and I thought it may be stuck inside. I pointed it out to a couple people. My friend arrives back and I think we cross the crossing but I don't recall what happened after that.
Next thing I know is that I'm heading to the bag drop area and I need to go take a leak. I head to the men's room and I have bare feet, I have to avoid puddles of 'water' ... I was pretty aware at this point as I ended up focusing in on the details of the floor to avoid the watery areas reflecting light. I saw some stairs heading up and figured that there would be less water on the ground.

Dream experience: 4 (vivid, good hearing)
Dream awareness: 3 (average recall, body awareness, some detail)

Dream fragment
I remember reaching into a cookie jar that resembled the one my parents had when I was a little kid. The cookies in it were the same as the ones I had found in the kitchen cupboard yesterday except there were 2 types. 1 was exactly the same as the one in real life, the other was the same type but much larger and flatter. I vaguely remember eating a big cookie and it tasted nice .

Dream 3 - Raining
I was talking to someone else who had started no PMO, I think it was my friend Daniel. He had told me about how it had affected him and all that. I then confessed to him that I, too, had started no PMO. I said that I had been on it for 32 days, and showed him the Brainbuddy app I was using. I felt like his entire reaction to this was kind of off. Like he wasn't reacting the way he should have been. The scene seems to change.
I remember being in my bed in my parents house which exactly resembled the room I'm actually staying in. I was rolling around and fantasizing and trying to resist the urges of NoFap, until I realized that I was in this state. I immediately stopped myself and knew that I would need to bring myself to my senses and get out of my bed. I willed myself to sit up... I opened the curtains to my right and peered outside. The deck was right there (in reality the deck is a few metres to the left and doesn't reach my window), it was raining outside and my dad was sitting at a wooden table eating breakfast. It didn't occur to me that this was particularly weird. I opened a window and got his attention, we said good morning to each other. He said "it must be beautiful in there", referring to how warm and cosy my room was and how cold and wet it was outside. Even my windows had fogged up a bit from the heat and my room just felt warm.

Dream experience: 5 (vivid, interesting, odd behaviours of characters)
Dream awareness: 4 (vivid, good recall, good detail, attention to character behaviours)

Notes: I need to reflect on how I rate dream awareness and I think I may do it to the 5 'layer's of lucidity. Whereas with dream experience I think I'll just go by how much I enjoyed the dream on a personal scale. I managed to get my recall back a little bit, I think tomorrow night I'll be able to get the standard clarity back and from there I'll work on getting lucid again.

Date: Sunday November 15 2015, 6:48 AM
Important: No

Scamming Bum
Lucid Dream #/

Total sleep: 3:20
Daytime Techniques: Lucid Dream Experiments + impossibly harmless DDA
Lucid Techniques: "I remember my vivid dreams." + WBTB (for 7 MINUTES ONLY!) + DEILD + "I am a boss Lucid Dreamer" while looking at my hands and knowing it. + no BG noise + no mental imagery + holding onto my consciousness WITH Dreams
I put in 9 DJ templates and tell myself that for my next dream, I just need to focus on getting ONE Dream Experiment done because I have EIGHT more shots to get others done.
Recall Techniques: "I wonder what Lucid Dreams I'm having tonight..."
Asleep - Awake: 7:10 AM to 10:36 AM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 8
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 6
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 0:20
Emotions: mad, surprised, sad
Dream Signs: when I'm talking to people




- i'm walking to school on a street that I never take. A female seemingly homeless person comes up to me while I'm walking asking me for money. I see that I don't have any and continue walking. She continues following me and I get fed up with her and decide that I'll give her money. I pull out three bills out of my pocket: 10, 5, and a 1. I decide to give her the five after she is surprised when I pull it out. When she takes the five, she says something like, "ha ha. No me and my friend don't have to spend as much of our own money." And start running ahead of me. I see that I was scammed and start running towards her. We somehow end up in a life with a lot of people. I yell out, "Scammer! Scammer! Get her!". The people stop her and she is caught. She is detained somewhere and I don't know where exactly it is. When I go meet up with the people that stopped her, they say that I have to fill out a report. I somehow know that it will take too long and it will cut into my school time making me late for class. But, I just saw that I will fill it out. Apparently, I have a security system installation with these people and it will affect that negatively. I somehow end up home in my room and wear my white board is, the security system is installed. There are settings on it that I'm not sure. One of them deals with lucid dreaming and wakes me up in my dreams by making an alarm so that I will become lucid in my dreams. I think there are many lucid dream settings and I choose one. Then, somehow I end up outside of my house in the front and I'm talking to someone about the scamming situation. They say something like,"Well, at least you got them." I am sad and say something like,"Yeah, but, it's 3:35 PM and I missed my lab."

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Date: Sunday November 15 2015, 12:35 AM
Important: No

Pookey, a dog, and vet
Lucid Dream #/

Total sleep: 5:30
Daytime Techniques: Lucid Dream Experiments + impossibly harmless DDA
Lucid Techniques: "I remember my vivid dreams." + WBTB (for 7 MINUTES ONLY!) + DEILD + "I know when I'm dreaming NOW" while looking at my hands and knowing it. + no BG noise + no mental imagery + holding onto my consciousness WITH Dreams
I put in 9 DJ templates and tell myself that for my next dream, I just need to focus on getting ONE Dream Experiment done because I have EIGHT more shots to get others done.
Recall Techniques: "I wonder what Lucid Dreams I'm having tonight..."
Asleep - Awake: 12:38 AM to 6:09 AM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 3
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 2
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 0:01
Emotions: neutral
Dream Signs: neutral




-I think I remember something about my cousin, a dog, and vet.

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Date: Friday November 13 2015, 11:42 PM
Important: No

---Visionary Roommate
Lucid Dream #/

Total sleep: 5:30
Daytime Techniques: Lucid Dream Experiments + impossibly harmless DDA
Lucid Techniques: "I remember my vivid dreams." + WBTB (for 7 MINUTES ONLY!) + DEILD + "I know when I'm dreaming NOW" while looking at my hands and knowing it. + no BG noise + no mental imagery + holding onto my consciousness WITH Dreams
I put in 9 DJ templates and tell myself that for my next dream, I just need to focus on getting ONE Dream Experiment done because I have EIGHT more shots to get others done.
Recall Techniques: "I wonder what Lucid Dreams I'm having tonight..."
Asleep - Awake: 12:38 AM to 6:09 AM
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness): 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid): 4
Length (how long it felt like! Because that matters): 0:20
Emotions: strong like
Dream Signs: strong like, being around people



-I am in some place that is kind of like a dorm. There is DJ, W, and myself and other people there. There is kind of reality-type game show going on where someone has to predict who is a killer and how they know. The first set is over and someone wins. Then, DJ, W, and I are dorming with a new contestant who seems to be psychic because he magically knows how everyone else is a killer and what they did. Do you got visions and just so easily told the game show host who was the killer and how they did it. I remember the dream escape changing to a bathroom and I was washing out my mouth towards the right in the sink. Kamillah is next to me on my love and I smile really hard(not creepy hard). By doing this, I let make your kind of obvious that I really like her. I kind of regret making that decision but, I also don't care because I do really like her.

I also remember something about Super Mario's hat.

House full of distractions / You're not real!
I'm with my wife walking through a dark, mostly empty parking lot. Now we're walking somewhere else discussing something music-related. Whatever it is, we have differing opinions.

Now we're in a house getting ready to go somewhere. We need to take showers before we can leave, but first we need to pack a change of clothes. We're in a smallish (10'x10') room putting clothing into small reusable grocery bags, planning to change into them after taking our showers. Now I'm dressed in my bathrobe walking down a long hallway towards the bathroom at the end. I see my sister-in-law (wearing a bluish dress) preparing to sit on the toilet, door still open, and turn around - I don't want to see that. As I turn, I see I'm next to another bathroom, but for some reason I decide to wait for the one at the end of the hall instead of using this one. Now I'm walking through another part of the hall and pass a doorway into a living room. Looking in, I see my children and my sister-in-law's kids (her oldest son stands out in my memory) watching TV. They don't see me.

Now I'm at a coffee table flipping through a magazine. An ad catches my eye - lots of text, very colorful. In fact, the page with the ad seems to be really long, longer than the magazine. Now I'm watching something on the TV. It's some kind of weird documentary. Women in very ornate clothes, with an Asian cast to their features, are swimming with dolphins. They've got something metallic covering the fronts of their torsos - it seems to be that they're making metal molds of their chests by getting in the water and letting it cool the metal against them. Now I'm watching a different documentary about two kinds of bird that are very physically similar and differ only in their behaviors. Both birds are smallish, blue, and seem too stocky. The narrator shows two nests and asks which one is which. After a few seconds he points out that the bird in one nest is making one kind of sound while the bird in the other nest is making another kind, and identifies the breed of each bird. One of them makes a very odd, un-bird like noise for a moment. Something else happens and one bird flies of the nest holding a wine bottle cork, and the narrator comments about the decoy nest and being fooled, that it's really hard to tell a decoy from a real one unless you know that male birds only ever sit in the decoys - but from a distance you really can't tell which is which ...

Now I'm playing a video game. My character is running downhill quickly, and a friend's character is to my right and slightly ahead of me. As I'm running, I see heaps upon heaps of equipment, BL2-style. The equipment is probably 50% white, 40% green, and 10% blue. At one point I see a couple of oranges to the far left but can't get to them in time. There aren't any enemies - just this endless downhill run - very odd. Now we're no longer on the loot covered hill, and enemies are near. I equip a fusion canon and something else. I don't remember getting any ammo for either, but I think I must have. Now I'm firing on someone, but the fusion canon is just a tiny beam of purple light that doesn't seem do anything. The other weapon is also a flop, so I change weapons and try again, still to no effect. I try every weapon I have, and I just get laughed at.

Now I'm dealing with a home intruder, still using the weaponry from the game. Again, I try everything I have, but he just ignores me, laughing, and does whatever it is he's come to do. Now we're in the kitchen. His accomplices are taking a friend hostage, saying they'll release him when I publicly post a bunch of embarrassing information about the current operation. He puts sticky notes on the fridge detailing what I need to release. As I'm looking at some envelopes he left, wondering if the return addresses are legit and could use them to track him down and find my friend, I remember I have a real weapon - not just virtual - upstairs. I run upstairs to get it, afraid of using it, afraid of not, hoping I can get it and get to them before they leave and it's too late.

Now I'm upstairs, standing in front of my closet, and I realize I'm dreaming. I do a quick nose plug RC to check, and it works. I slow down, trying to stay calm but not become too detached. First, I shout "INTENSIFY DREAM!" a few times. Nothing really seems to happen, but it feels good. I take in my surroundings and see that I'm upstairs in a kind of open loft. The closets are behind me, the stairs (and a wall-railing) are to my left, walls are ahead and to my right, and I'm standing on a dark green carpet. The ceiling is very low, and a pair of ceiling fans are hanging down even lower. It's dark up here, so I try to cause one of the fan lights to turn on. Nothing happens; oh well. I remember that I'm supposed to remember that my real body is asleep in bed and that everything I see is fake, so I tell myself that I'm asleep in bed and that everything around me is created by my mind. I really get into it and start getting dramatic. I touch the back wall (which is textured drywall) and shout "YOU'RE NOT REAL!" and the wall moves back a few feet. I turn around and (with no fear at all) grab one of the spinning fan blades, stopping it instantly, and shout "AND YOU'RE NOT REAL!". I place my hand on the ceiling and shout "AND YOU'RE NOT REAL!" and move the ceiling up a few feet. I'm having the time of my life, and every time I shout at something I feel like I'm going to burst with laughter.

Now I notice what seems to be a short pull-chain coming out of what looks like a smoke alarm and focus on it, focusing on my desire to have light, and the room becomes much brighter. I remember that I had three things I wanted to do, and that remembering the true state of my body and of the dream was the first. I try to remember the second, but I have trouble - and I think I'm starting to lose the dream since I think (and don't catch) that I added this goal to the list when I was dealing with the people a few minutes ago. I wake up.


Inappropriate ads
I'm watching an ad for something sleep related - maybe a better mattress? It shows people who are well rested and compares them to people who aren't - but the weird part is that all the comparisons are sleep related. One shows a woman rolling over in bed showing how easy it is for her, contrasting it to someone who can't seem to roll over. Another one shows her sitting up in bed, contrasting to the woman who's slouching. After a few like that, it switches to toilet-related stuff. These ads are actually showing people using the toilet, putting black bars over inappropriate bits. I'm surprised they're able to put this kind of thing on TV, or that people would view the ads favorably. I do actually briefly consider the toilet, but then I remember we have a dual-flush toilet and that doesn't seem to be an option for thees, so oh well.


Battling lava creep
I'm standing with @Jakkarth next to a pond. I know I'm dreaming, but I believe he's also lucid with me, and I'm completely absorbed in the plot of the dream. On the far side of the pond is some kind of temple building. It's kind of like a pyramid skyscraper, looking like a normal office building except for the slight slope to its walls and the staircase coming down the middle of the building. Something like hardened lava has worked its way down the steps and across the water, and it's almost reached us. I believe @Jakkarth and I have had a continual battle against this lava stuff, and that if we don't beat it tonight then we will have completely lost. We decide to give it one more try. I thrust my hands forward (I believe he does the same), close my eyes, and really push with my mind. After a few seconds I open my eyes to see if we've done anything, and I'm amazed at the transformation: the water is now crystal clear, and from what I can see there's no remnant of the stuff on the building. The sky is also a gorgeous light blue, and the sun seems to be hanging directly over the building. It's beautiful, but it's so dazzling I can't look up past the base of the building without being blinded. I try to hold my hand over my eyes, but most of the building remains hidden by the light. I ask @Jakkarth if he can see any better than I and he confirms that the stuff is gone. I'm overjoyed and jump into the water to swim across. Even though the pond is fairly wide I swim across in just a few strokes. I don't know how I managed to do that, but it felt great! I consider that it felt as though I were larger than life swimming across a much smaller pond. Now I'm standing in what seems to be a fire escape balcony. The railing is at the wrong height, as if I'm way too tall for it, as if confirming my theory that I'm too large for this world.


Leaked artwork
I'm looking over a booklet of leaked artwork for a new game. I keep flipping page after page, but it seems to be the same couple of pictures repeated over and over. Now I'm using a blank sheet of paper to write out a spell that will turn someone into an anthropomorphic bear based of off one of the sketches. As part of the spell, anyone affected by this form will be unable to sew.

This morning I had some of the realest lucids in a long time.

I'm at Kings Dominion which is an amusement park and I'm with my friend Ryan under the Anaconda rollercoaster. We're at this sort of food market place where a bunch of people are sitting down and talking. I'm trying to convince Ryan and his girlfriend that we should go on it but they aren't really responding. I start to ride on the Anaconda towards the actual beginning of it thinking it'll just loop and I'll be on it. When I get closer to it, I realize the track is ending and it stops at the end under the place where it normally starts. The dream sort of pauses and I start to get suspicious about this dream.

It starts in my room. I'm laying in my bed but perpendicular to how I usually sleep. My view is of my wall. I'm just staring at it when I start to wonder what I'm even doing. Then, I just remember that I'm dreaming and my mind agrees. I sit up from my bed and try a reality check, I start to breathe with my mouth closed. It works. I sort of cough but it works, so I decide I'm going to explore my house. My mind wants to do another reality check so I imagine there's a mirror on my wall next to the door. I look in it to see I'm me but my hair is sort of shaved on one side which isn't right. Then, I look into my bathroom mirror and see that I look like an old man version of me with white spiked hair. I laugh and start going in between the mirrors thinking its funny while chanting this weird song that I can't remember. Then, I go through my door and look down my stairs. I can hear this sort of noise that sounds like "ticka ticka ticka ticka" really fast. I call someone out and a guy dressed in a horse suit appears smiling at the bottom of the steps and we both start laughing like it's okay. I walk down stairs and there's a couple of guys just hanging out in my house, but it's not my roommates. In fact, I don't even know who these guys are. I remember thinking that these are the guys I'd be friends with if I never met my freshman year friends. We talk about something and then I walk towards the door. The dream starts to collapse as I'm starting to not think this is a dream. I panic and think "no no this is a dream come back to it" and then I reset in my bed. I get up and I do the same thing by looking in the mirror back and forth, seeing that I'm an old man in the mirror again. This past week I wrote an "A" on my hand so that I could use it as a reality check in my dreams so I look down at my left hand where it's supposed to be but instead it's this weird symbol that looks kinda like a "G" but different. I start to think that I'm not doing enough and I should challenge myself to more challenging things so I imagine I'm with Drake and sure enough him and I are in this room at our fraternity house with a bunch of random guys and girls. He talks to me about some things and then him and I are in this laundry room that's long and skinny. There's a black portable speaker thing that I'm playing music all of the sudden. The song is a version of one of his songs but it's different. I felt amazed I was playing a song that I had never heard before. Him and I are dancing around the room with a few other people having fun. We go back to the room we were in and there's people having sex everywhere. I go up to this one girl who's laying on her back with her legs up and this guy is giving her drugs so that they'll have sex. He gives her this powder stuff and puts it in her gums. She starts making that "ticka" noise I was talking about earlier. I remember that I almost decided to have sex with that girl but it was just too gross. I look around at other people having sex and think that it would be funny to see the guy in the horse costume in this situation but he never appeared. I climb on a bed in the room alone and decide I'm just going to have someone appear. I think about it for a while and someone sort of appears but nothing actually happens. I turn to some of the guys and tell them "Hey you guys know this is a dream right" and they just kinda laugh and push it off. There was this excited feeling I had like I was accomplishing lucidity. I walk over to this door and say that I'm going to challenge myself. I close the door and then say, this will now be a bathroom. When I opened it again it was a bathroom! Then, I said this will be my bedroom. I close it then open it again but it was still a bathroom. I try harder and finally it works, my bedroom is now through the door. I can see my bed. I get so excited the dream collapses.

I'm in this place where there's tickets being sold under a large sort of open building that has a roof and large open doors. There's a ticket place and then a place to turn in your tickets to go into the show. The show is ODESZA, but I don't have my ticket. I remember talking to my friend Madonna and some other person which both had tickets in their hands when I realized I didn't have one. They go in and I freak out because I don't want to pay 40 dollars for a ticket when I already had one at home. Somehow, I end up being let in. The way the show works is you sit down on these circular couch things that move you from room to room. I'm alone on one moving down this hallway where there's other couches in line and in front of me. Before the hallway ends the couch sort of follows the path on the ground which spins the couch. I end up in this giant room where there's a stage at the front. This was apparently the pre-show. People are walking around handing out wristband things that you apparently need a ticket to get and stay. They sort of just throw one to me even though I didn't show them the ticket. I start to look around when I notice the bald man is just staring waiting for me to put mine on. I do so and then he walks away. Suddenly, there's this small stage right in front of us with a rock band playing on it. No one really seems interested. We are moved through another hallway and into another room. Inside, my mind is now playing World of Warcraft. I'm this Tauren Warrior tanking in this boss fight. The boss is some weird Cathulu looking thing and he's throwing all of this fire and shit at us. At some point in the fight my character flies up over these dinosaur things that are running at me. I do a couple more mechanics before it ends. Then, I'm walking up the hill to Ironforge. I'm in 1st person mode now. My friend Moo and someone else are walking with me and they ask me a question about the game that's weird. I say "I don't know I haven't played in 3 years." There's realistic guards outside walking around. We go inside and it's just way different than IRL. The auction house is placed over where the bank is with the bank. I fall down to where I see battleground people are. I don't really remember much else.

I'm at a party that is half inside half outside. There's a game where you put a beer can on the ground and then throw a spiked hockey stick onto it. Then, someone jumps on the beer can. This girl jumps on it after a guy throws the stick and then they give it to me to drink. I drink most of it and then my friend Kolby is there next to me. He wants to chug with a few other girls so we do but I end up spilling most of mine because I was leaning over too much. I go to this room and sit down where supposedly the best part of the party is but in reality I look around and everyone is on their phones not saying a word.

Fragment: I'm at my house waiting to go to class. I remember hanging out with a bunch of hood guys so I start walking towards their neighborhood which is towards campus. I'm walking up this hill when I see my friend Chappy walk by. She kind of looks at me and then looks away several times and I just think she's really sober and I'm not. I get to the neighborhood which is to the left of the hill and realize I can't just walk around people's houses looking for these certain guys so I change my mind and walk somewhere else.

Fragment: Really stressed about a test walking around campus. I see my friend Ryan but I act like a don't since I'm from afar. I see my friend Lauren near the stadium and our moms are there talking too. I think there was a dog.

Fragment: Dream where my friend Kolby and I are in this music class though it's taught by my Accounting professor. He's testing us by having us sing by ourselves to the whole class. I start to freak out because my friend Kolby isn't a good singer and I'm afraid for him. Half the class goes and then apparently a couple of days goes by and it's our part of the class' turn. Kolby says that he's sick and doesn't go. The professor asks a random Asian kid to go and he's just really confused. I look over Kolby's shoulder when he's working on some test thing.

#1 I was talking with an old friend and we discussed the possibility of video game mapping. Essentially how could we create maps and turn them into a virtual reality. One issue that we faced was that on the newer gaming systems the amount of hit points one could receive were no longer transferable. Thus if you got shot across the map, you'd just die regardless of how strong you were. In other words, in the newer systems, one shot one kill would be the norm every time... which doesn't make for great gaming. Therefore we stuck with the older module and worked that. Somehow my friends moms lasagna became the proposed outline for the map... and from what I remember, we started vibrating in a lasagna like virtual reality. Eventually I transferred into FIFA 12 and wondered what it would be like to be in FIFA 15. I played in the home play stage as Ronaldo and Oozil practicing my bicycle kicks. I especially focused upon kicking the ball back over my head and then blasting a goal.

#2 I was looking over a massive expanse of land with beautiful mountains and pastures. There was an old cow in front of me and I wondered how he survived this long out here; where were the wolves? I then saw his barn next to me and figured that he must have gone inside during the night times. My Dad was way up yonder to the left on top of a mountain near the car. He wanted to get going to the vacation house. Subconsciously I knew that I was purposefully delaying but I also knew what better view was there but here? It was a testament to how my dad just goes and doesn't reflect. So I sat back and eventually he called out towards me hollering that I must have misplaced his swim bag. I remember that I may have put it in the car but wasn't for certain. Then I realized all the contents of his bag were stored on my smartphone in a folder.

Somehow we ended up in a snowstorm car of last year's winter in Boston. We were cruisin' through powder and I couldn't help but notice how close my dad was to the person in front of us; tailgating in a snowstorm. The person in front of us put on the brakes but I felt a bit more comforted when I took a bird's eye view of our car and realized the snow tires were in full effect and efficient.

Lastly I was in my home kitchen and excited to eat Rice Crispy Treat cereal. What was funny is that when I opened the bag, there was literally half rice and half crispy. This concerned me and could have easily been a dream trigger but I happily went on pouring my bowl of Crispy's and played with the rice balls all the same. Then I went to do the dishes and there was a strainer that was filled with red and nasty hamburger meet. I knew how much it meant to my mom to clean the kitchen and her to come home to a clean kitchen, so I broke out the soap and bubbles and did my duty.

Notes: I am developing the correct balance between recording too much and recording too little. If I record too much of the dream, I run the risk of not being able to fall asleep due to active mind and light stimulation. If I record too little, I run the risk of falling into a poor habit of not recording. I know it is wise for me to err on the side of too much recording. Then the worst that can happen is an elongated WBTB. This will be my plan.

I skipped a few days writing down my dreams because I haven’t been sleeping very well but I’m up north now and sleeping like a rock.

-Harry Potter dream where I’m trying to defeat the Dark Lord

D1: I was at some train tracks with 3 other people who I didn’t know but had met in the dream. I was watching them cross the train tracks and trains were coming from both sides(there were two sets of tracks). I yelled for them to hurry up but they were taking their sweet time. They made it across, but I noticed this man, maybe in his late 60’s, sitting on the tracks. I didn’t know if he was there on purpose or if he was going to move at the last second, so I just watched. The train hit him.

Now I was at my house, it was a flashback to before the man had died. I had a “feeling” that he was in danger, kinda like Allison Dubois from tv show Medium. I called his number, which was only two numbers, 75. My dad tried to stop me because he didn’t want me to bother him, but I had to call. He answered. “Hello” he mumbled, sounding very depressed. “I uh.. just wanted to know if you’re okay. It’s perfectly fine if you’re not okay, and I have a strong feeling you’re not.” He says nothing and hangs up.

D2: I was in a waterpark and this girl was telling about her experience drowning. I was transported to a very, very large pool with a huge drop off from the edge of the pool to the water, and very deep water(maybe 100-200 feet). I was terrified. Some time during this dream I was drowning and it felt like I couldn't breathe. I was thinking about how I have a phobia of deep pools and was wondering if there was a word for the phobia, but I realized I was dreaming. The dream wasn’t very stable so I rubbed my hands together and then I yelled “CLARITY” and it kinda felt like I yelled that in RL too. I knew I would lose the dream soon so I decided to jump off the edge because I wasn’t scared anymore. It was a very peaceful, relaxing feeling and then I woke up in a FA and tried to write down my dream.

I tryed to incubate using a song...to send loving thoughts into my dreams...didn't quite work as expected.

D1 - I was in a large room with artificial lighting and lots of mats on the floor. Everyone was wearing white karate like suits and everyone was young. We were practising dance moves that a sensei was teaching us. I was doing fine coping his every move. The song I had been incubating was in my dream to start with then...
more and more people started joining in and it was getting to crowded. I couldn't see properly what I was meant to do and I stumbled and knocked into someone. Next it all fell apart my rhythm was gone and I just jerked about out of time :/
I got fed up and left the floor. There were partners waiting watching for all the dancers, except of course me.
In fact the people I looked at averted their gazes, although I felt this was because they were sad and disappointed with me.

I left the hall and made my way along a hallway that was glass (ds) with white painted frames (old wooden style).
Along with others I walked to an end section, which looked like an office or a shop (maybe both). At the end was a counter top with lots of different coloured notes (like bills in a restaurant). I looked at the notes and the squiggly handwriting. Thought about picking up one note then decided not too.

I went to leave the shop but saw that along the hallway, to one side some large pigs had been let out of their pens. These were not cute little piggy wiggys but more like large boars that would happily munch on your bones. I shrank back when I saw a large slobbering black ones jaws , hanging open.
I made for the back of the shop panicked. There was a door at the back and I escaped out onto a grassy bank (ds), wet with mud, into a Grey gloomy day. Further on was a housing estate. I reached the top of the bank and went to cut back round.
Unfortunately several people from the estate came out...they were zombies...one particularly scary one an old man, with a black suit, and grey hair slicked onto his face from the rain, homed in on me. I couldn't make it I was paralyzed with fear.

I woke up, I was determined to WBTB and give the DCs a hug, I tried the song again for thoughts of love...

D2 - I again thought I was trying to get back to sleep...but I was in a dream again.
I was in a large manor house at night. It soon became early morning and I found myself in a dormitory surrounded by little kids. I needed to go to the toilet but couldn't remember my password. My partner ditto. So we wandered around the house looking for a toilet with a hoard of kids. I was to embarrassed to say I couldn't remember.
We ere standing in a large room with ceiling high windows looking out onto lawns and woods beyond. When a parent who had entered the house came in. They asked if they're children could not stay here unsupervised and play while they went off out. Surely they could go out into the grounds and roam, as long as they were told not to go to far. I thought of making a joke about a nuclear reactor being near by but thought better of it. It had started to lash rain and I looked out at the woods as the rain splattered the windows.

We left the house only to see the parent kids standing outside completely drenched in the rain. We reached a some shops inside it was packed. We made our way to the end of the building. There was a bar. As I went through a bottle went flying up into the air. The barman gave me daggers, I explained it was just a trick.
I said I could make anyone here at the bar their favourite drink. I used telepathy and magic to fill people's glasses with their favourite drinks. I could taste the bitter taste of the alcohol.
The barman was still not impressed so I made a drink for him, filling his drink magically up, up and up till full. He downed it in one the frothy brew swilling round his upended glass. Then he spat the last of it at me :/
I had had enough of this sour faced barman, and made for the door. Flinging the door open I flew up into the air and was gone. I could hear familiar music as I ascended into the stormy grey sky.

I was in the living room with the fam and I was facing the fam except my dad was also on my side of the room. they were all watching the TV so it was kind of weird that I was facing the same way as the TV was. Anyway as I was sitting there rosemary and rachel and someone else were laying down facing away from the tv but kept looking back at it by leaning their heads back and rolling the eyes, I thought about how it would make a good picture if I could set them up for one and then out in the park I saw a little girl in childs pose and I thought she was meditating before she popped up suddenly and had been taking a photograph of the cotton wood, I then saw that some of our cedar trees in the back yard had died and been given the same color and coating as the ones at Wilderness Ridge only they had spikes that made them look like cedars. at this point I was no longer asleep but in the realm between, I thought of how in my backyard I was going to grow cedar tree's like a forest and then have a huge group of cottons woods in the middle of the clearing with aspens in the first rind and then husker oaks in the second ring and then the coolest tree (prolly a weeping williow in the middle with a clear pond and cool rock formations and the encouraged growth of vines and moss.

I'm driving a down a road, there is forest on either side, a grey day. I see a man on the right with his dog. He's stopped but I'm afraid that the dog might just jump in front of the car. It doesn't and I drive by. A see another man stopped by the shoulder of the road with his motorcycle, I see a lake he's looking towards. He's smoking a cigarette and the smoke get in the cabin of the truck as a drive, smells irritating.

Suddenly I see that the asphalt is new, there is road construction. Cars are coming right at me, another truck comes right at me on my side of the lane. I narrowly miss it, but with all the traffic coming at me, I'm afraid that this is a one-way road. I drive all the way to the side of the road in a panic. I go down a small side track, it leads to a downhill path. The truck dives down into the ground, burrowing into the earth. As I go down I see I'm in a fallout shelter, but looking back I see the light of the outside world getting dimmer and dimmer. I try to turn back but can't, the walls of the tunnel will cave in. I'm safe now in the shelter but trapped, like being buried alive.

11/14/15

Afternoon sleep after sleeping all night last night (was off).

I hear a sound outside of my moms kitchen. I go out on a balcony and don't expect to see anything, because it;s cloudy. But I do see a large commercial airplane. It's making a sound that's not consistent with it's size. There is some writing in blue cursive on it's trunk, but I can't make it out. I yell at my mom to get me the binoculars. She says they are in a sock drawer. I'm frustrated coz that's not helping me, I want her to bring it to me.

By then the airplane landed and it's a small helicopter with cockpit made out of clear plastic in a shape of a bubble. It almost looks like a model controlled from ground, but it's a full size one. The place it landed on is a small frozen lake surrounded by ice and snow and hills.

Now I see water to the right, under the full moon. I say that's strange, because it should not be visible. Then I notice that the water is all the way to the second story balcony and windows. I tell everybody that the house is floating away now, same way as in other 4 dreams I had about house moving/floating away.

Water starts to come in through the windows and I jump there to close them more tight, and so does my dad. I yell at my brother to get some more towels, but he says no.

Dream - Genghis Khan
I remember being on a grass hill with a large mountain outcropping in a steep cliff shooting upwards to my left. To my right there was another obstacle, likely another mountain. There was intense fighting going on with swords and stuff. I was far more powerful than the other warriors which were just grunts. I quickly disposed of a large handful of them, but one of them remained. He was Genghis Khan, a strong warrior who refused to give up and leave. He moves back down a slight slope towards a small wooden building about 20 meters away. Inside are two weapons, one is a kukri and I can't recall what the other one looked like. They were displayed as if they were treasures. He grabs the kukri and we fight I think.. He's still no match for me even though he was considered to have 'powered up'. I then said "Laters Genghis Khan, I'm going forever", but in the funniest voice. It sounded like something from a Disney cartoon which I intentionally put on for some reason, but it really made no sense.

I've had to put on hold the DEILD attempts until I can get my recall back up. Dealing with those alarms with the addition of having to move back to the North Island.. Seems like it has impacted my recall ^_^

11/14/15

I had a night off last night. Slept from 11pm or so - 8am

DR:
I am in Asia, perhaps Vietnam. In some kind of a run-down hotel. Something about bathrooms.

A chef makes scrumptious looking asian meals, like General Tso's and some pork belly.

I'm stocking some chocolate cake. Now I'm in the office of US envoy in this asian country. He is telling me that there is no escape for us, we are gonna be all killed no matter if we are trying to escape on a bus, or oter way, or stay in his office. So I ask him if it's ok to eat that chocolate cake. He says sure.

I go back and eat the whole damn thing. First I only take a chunk of the frosting and want to cut it up so nobody notices, but then I say srew it and eat it all. But before that I make me a plate of that asian food and add some mustard that my friend is asking for. I remembered after I woke up how it all tasted.

Just before this I'm watching an opposite wall in this hotel, where on top part mice start to pour out of an invisible opening. There is hundreds of them. They stay on this short ledge on top of the wall. I tell this to the envoy and I tell him that good chunk of the wall is missing there.

(Just before bed I watched the movie Chef where he was cooking these awesome looking dishes. This is the food part of my dream. The mice - I saw a roach farm on tv that same day.)

I'm walking in a city, it's a summer afternoon, the sun is high and bright, it's by some water. In the shade of a large building, I'm walking and I see up ahead some people who are a little too happy and cheerful, they must be religious or something. I see to woman, their backs are turned to me. I want to walk by and ignore them, but I know they are going to come up and talk to me anyway, so I slow down and wait for them to turn. I assume they are Mormon.

They smile and start to talk to me, they are dressed in old-timey Amish like clothes. They point out that I'm wearing nice religious robes. (Did I secretly want them to talk to me after all?) An Indian man with robes and a turban comes up to us and pulls me away, saving me from a long and awkward conversation on religion, saying he's never really been into the stuff. He knows me and I know him apparently.

He says he has a headache and I go to find a pharmacy to get something for it. I go up to people sitting by the water, I'm a bit awkward and don't know who to ask. I end up talking to some Asian tourist, realizing as I talk to them that they are not going to know where a local pharmacy is. Next to them is a group of guys. They tell me one is around the corner. One of them is a celebrity known for his travel shows. I pretend to be unimpressed.

Inside, I play a game of Hearthstone. I'm playing a game where there are an impossible amount of minions in play, my opponent, playing a Priest, has 1111 life. I take a screenshot, no one is going to believe this.

I spill some ink from a pen on the floor of the kitchen. I try to clean it up but it just spreads it further around.

I was a girl who'd been forced to pretend I was a boy by my family for some reason. I always wore a wig that hid my long hair, a t-shirt and shorts.
One day I ran away from home. The weather was pouring down with rain, and I came across this lady. I asked her if she knew a place that I could stay, and she told me there was a police station I could stay in. So I went, and found the place.
The police were taking in people from the street as a way to amuse themselves, and have sex with them. Upon finding out that I was a girl and not a boy more crowded around me, and started to rip my clothes off..!

Then I woke up..!