non-lucid

Morning of October 3, 2015. Saturday.



I seem to be younger and living with my parents again, though I do not feel that much like a child in my dream. (I am not sure where we are living. It seems vaguely like the Stadcor Street house where my wife Zsuzsanna and I lived years ago with our two oldest children.) My mother is also present and is concerned about my father.

My father (deceased February 14, 1979) is home early from his work in construction. He has his shirt off and is in pain because of a large creature wrapped around his abdomen as well as being partly inside his stomach. Apparently, it is some sort of very large tapeworm or parasite but actually looks like a sea snake. It is wrapped around at least three times in horizontal layers and there is a section that goes inside his abdomen. He sits on the bed and seems in distress. He appears as he did perhaps in 1960 (or even the late 1950s before I was born).

I start to contemplate why he waited so long to consider having it removed. Now it would be more difficult than ever to have it removed due to its large size. I think about how they would have to put the creature to sleep before removing all of it. The imagery is very clear and continues for at least (seemingly) fifteen minutes. It does not seem it will be fatal, though it does seem to be painful and devitalizing to put up with such a problem. I consider how my father could have gotten around and done his work with that creature there all the time. Apparently, it has only started to worsen recently, as it has gotten bigger.

At one point, the creature’s head seems to be disconnected but is somehow still alive and clamped on, though I still get the impression that it will soon die from having its head detached.

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Although a snake typically biologically symbolizes the raw RAS waking trigger (likely the case with all primates), it depends on the dream. In this case, it is a rendering of my own intestinal discomfort, of which a snake has represented since early childhood. My father has been validated to represent my waking life status as me being a father in a number of cases (including in prescient dreams most often related to health), more so only as I have gotten older. Due to their shape and coiling, snakes have direct associations with the human intestine (and bowel discomfort and cramps - as well as quite obvious associations with human waste, which both I and another boy dreamt specifically of in childhood), which is even more obvious in this dream, as the creature was almost the same as an “external intestine” in its appearance. However, this is certainly not always the case. (For example, in one dream, a snake served as a frayed electrical cord warning and in a more recent dream, served as a warning to have our electricity off when it began to rain inside our house after the roof was torn off. In another case it was validated to symbolize a human umbilical cord.)

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Edited for clarity on Tuesday, 2 January 2018.

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I'm on my phone, so I'll have to keep it short.

I was walking around some streets, until I found a house that belonged to a relative of mine. My aunt was saying that she wanted to go to Europe in February. I saw my cousin and he told me to go to this other place.

I left and found the place. It was a bit of a party on a street, kinda like a family thing, maybe a fair? My parents were there and we saw an uncle of mine. He had gotten himself into trouble. My dad and my uncle are clearly brothers, so I was afraid people would target us, so I said we should go.

We were sitting at this really tall chairs - like five stories high. The chairs colllapsed and I thought we would die, but then I just thought "nah, I can make us survive".

So we were back on the streets and I told them we really had to go. We were running and my father said we could jump over a few houses and fences, he said he knew the way.

Turns out we ended up at a very high wall. Again, I thought "no problem, I can survive the fall and then get them", which I did.

Then my father said we could stay at this place, ot was a bit of a B&B. I had been angry with him, cause he kept stopping when we should be running. So I got extremely pissed off and told him he was fucking dumb for even thinking we could stay there.

My mother agreed with him, though, and they were the majority, so we got a room and went to the living room. The owner was serving dinner, which was a plate of rice and beans and it lookes awful.

My grandma was there too and I once again shouted at my parents, saying that if my grandmother could find us, so could the "bad guys".

And that was it.

Me Harrison and one of Harrison's friends were sitting in our basement (on a couch we just threw out a couple days ago) in the school room. My family was preparing for a party and they had been over before. They had come early and we started talking as they pulled out a bong. They ripped it a couple times and I was like "homie we have to spoof that. He said "oh right my bad bro" and started to spoof but not really because I couldn't find the dryer sheet in my room. I knew they were there because I had just seen them the night before. I finally found them and I walked back over to find harrys friend on the couch and Harry about to rip it on the bottom of the stairs. THey were becoming more nervous and I was trying to talk them down. Harry went over to the stairs and started preparing for a rip trying to figure out how to stand for a quick escape. I watched him for a bit then made a suggestion and it was to face the PC and just lean back a little so his reflection wouldnt catch in the picture on the landing. I walked back over (my dad was vacuuming up stiars) and when I made it back to the couch in the school room I noticed the bong and it looked like Disny castle with two of the pillars on the left side smoking. I was taking hits off of rolling cherry's. I then looked at the back door and started when I saw Harry walking in from the park *that was way to quick* I thought. "What happened to bro?" i asked and he just started shaking his head and had a very surprised look on his face of "you dont want to know" I rationalized that he had gone out the storage room door and left it at that. For some reason the smoke didn't smell that bad and I wasnt too worried until I woke up. then I started kicking myself for smoking until I remembered . I was just dreaming. Yes that only happened in a dream!

I normally prefer to write down my dreams in a physical DJ, but since I'm taking part in the dreambuddy programme I'll be keeping this DJ. I took some quick notes on my dreams from last night, since I didn't want to write them out fully twice, but that's probably led to some details being lost.

Dream 1
I'm on the train platform, waiting for the train to go to my destination.* I board a train, but it is not the correct one. I'm aware of this, but follow the logic of 'atleast it will bring me closer to my destination'. That is until I realise that this is some crappy logic. Simultaneously I'm sitting on a couch in a room, with 2 other people in the room. I have my laptop on my lap and I'm looking up travel information online to help me out on this trip. I also go on Facebook and see a message from one of my friends to another friend on the event page of an event called 'legend...[something]', to congratulate him with his birthday. The event will take place in England. Makes sense, because my friend moved to England.^ Suddenly I feel something in the back of my throat. It turns out to be some leftover breathmint. This is weird... where did it come from?

*I dream about trains more often and just about always end up boarding the wrong one.
^He totally didn't .

Dream 2
Right before I went to bed I borrowed my bicycle to a friend of my housemate. Then this dream happened:
My bicycle is gone somehow. To compensate me, my housemate has bought me a new one. This one is all banged up though and my bike was in good condition. I'm not gonna let this slide.

Dream 3
I'm walking around in what seems to be a combination of a library and a hipsterbar. There are books in bins and long brown desks where you can sit and read or work. I'm not sure where I got the info from, but the bar owner has stated that he isn't in it for the money. I don't believe him, due to the fact that he's a millionaire.

Dream 4
I'm sitting or laying down. My 1 year old cousin is sitting on my lap, facing me. Suddenly he pukes a small amount of green vomit. Yuck. In the mean time his mom explains to me that I shouldn't wander off too far to the [it was either north or south] side of town, because there are a lot of homosexuals there. Somehow it feels as if I'm in Sweden.

+ (f) church, priest, service, altar under a protruding "ceiling"

+ outside on steep slope, my cat is fat, because it is walking to a place where there is free food. I see an outdoor market (where food is on the ground?) besides me on the slope. My cat is behaving like something is stuck in its mouth. I think it's bones. I try to pull them out, and I take out a small segment of what looks like a fish spine of a small fish about half an inch long. I wonder if there are chicken bones in its mouth, too, but it appears to be just fish bones.

+ playing chess on a crowded dining table, it's my move, pull board to me, the table is quite crowded with plates and things and I have to push them aside first before I can reach for the board and start pulling it to me so I can make my move. Our fingers are dirty from the food we're eating, and the pieces have sticky bits of food residue on them, we'll have to clean them later. I get a look at the position and I'm confused, there are weird looking things on the board, a lots of what look like olive pits are all over the board. I ask what those are and my opponent says they're pawns. These olive pit "pawns" are everywhere, I don't remember them being there before. There are large clumps of them all along his 7th rank (my 2nd rank) about to be promoted. There are also a full row of them on his first rank. Now I know he's cheating because pawns can never be on the first rank. I say "there's no way! My queen is in the center of the board and I would never allow you to get so many pawns so close to promotion!" I'm quite upset at the cheating and we exchange angry words.

+ S2's girlfriend L is messing around with the airplane and we're getting concerned. I see myself(?) sitting under the airplane. I see that L is causing the propellers/engines to spin around, which are getting close to hitting my head. This could also damage the airplane. We run to the plan and stop her and roll the plane back to its proper place in the room.

+ pour myself a glass of champagne (or some sparkling beverage) in a quick gesture (wonder if it will foam over the rim of the glass but it doesn't, I stopped pouring soon enough) and drink it from a large champagne flute while sitting at a counter in a large, open atrium (in a casino?). A dumpy middle-aged woman with big blonde hairdo come and sits near me. She has some hair sticking out of her nose. I wonder if I should invite her to my room, I imagine being with her and it's not really an exciting prospect.

+ at the blackjack table, playing a hand. I'm sitting in the middle, directly across from the dealer. The guy next to me on my left says he's already seen 3 aces come out. I get dealt (face up) and ace. I think there can't be any more aces. I have a $10 chip in play. I take hits, I'm getting small cards, I'm trying to add up my hand. Soft 13? I get dealt 3 more aces. Still a soft total? No it's like hard 15 now. Hey, how can that be [so many aces], I ask the dealer how many decks we're playing with, he says "two," I say "ok that explains it." He deals me more cards. He's waiting for me to add up my hand. It's definitely over 21, I've busted. I bring out a $3,000 bill and say I want to change it for more chips. The dealer says "changing $100,000?" and I get a sinking/scared feeling in my stomach. No way, that's way too much money to be gambling. I look down and no it's just the $3,000 bill on the table. I tell the dealer I want it changed into half $10 and half $5 chips. The dealer is having problems figuring out how to do this change. I try to imagine how many $10 chips that would be, then to divide the amount in half and to double it to get the number of $5 chips. I think I should give this suggestion to the dealer. At some point I wonder what the minimum bet is at this table and I look around but I don't see the sign.

I imagine a guy doing a trick with his cards to change the amount of his bet after he's been dealt his cards. He waves his hand holding the cards over his chips and picks up on of his chips with his thumb and hides it against and underneath the cards he's holding. I think that's why they don't let the players hold the cards any more.

+ I arrive back in a small town to interview the residents, it's for some documentary. I've been here before, numerous times. I'm in a beauty salon, and I approach two seated people. I know them both but I've forgotten the name of the one to the right. I start interviewing them. More DCs approach, they're somewhat hostile, they don't like me doing these interviews. I recognize some as the founders of a startup I worked for. They're upset because the town (company?) is not successful and don't like the interviews. I see one young man who I "remember" was an underdog in life yet he became the successful founder of this beauty salon.

+ (f) talking (to SaPav's mother?) about how once I fell into a tide pool and got all wet. I imagine myself trying to walk around a hole in the ground, I must have lost my balance and fallen in.

+ I've given a gift to SaPav [S2 classmate]: a large self-standing clothes drying rack. It's quite tall, it reaches to my eye level. S is really excited about this gift, and starts hanging all his family's clothing on it. I say in a foreign language [incorrect I think] that "you can also hang a lot of hangers on it!" and I run my hand through the dozen or so simple wire hangers hanging down from the wires on the right side of the rack. I look at the rack, S has hung up about 40-50 pairs of really brightly colorful men's briefs. They have filled the entire drying rack's surface.

+ in some campground, I call for my son S2 to bring me "some ice cold fresh water from the lake." He says that's a great idea and goes to get it in a bucket. I bring a dirty bucket with me but decide against that, I go back and see my Sierra cup on the ground and will use that to accept and drink the water.

+ I'm walking up a path that leads out of a building to outside. I'm talking to a female university student (behind me?), I say how I used to live in this neighborhood. We're walking up an outdoor stairway (over a small chasm?) leading to a theater. "And the great thing about this location is that you're so close to the theater!" This is the back entrance to the theater. As we enter the theater I hear a rehearsal in progress, we're a bit early. I wonder if they'll let us in to the seats yet. I hear two young women singing. They're supposed to be singing unison but they're not quite perfectly together. The very slight dissonance creates a lovely effect, more interesting that perfect unison. I'm wondering if we can go to our seats, (open a door, see a lobby?), (there are groups of young people hanging around here?)

+ (f) church, priest, service, altar under a protruding "ceiling"

+ outside on steep slope, my cat is fat, because it is walking to a place where there is free food. I see an outdoor market (where food is on the ground?) besides me on the slope. My cat is behaving like something is stuck in its mouth. I think it's bones. I try to pull them out, and I take out a small segment of what looks like a fish spine of a small fish about half an inch long. I wonder if there are chicken bones in its mouth, too, but it appears to be just fish bones.

+ playing chess on a crowded dining table, it's my move, pull board to me, the table is quite crowded with plates and things and I have to push them aside first before I can reach for the board and start pulling it to me so I can make my move. Our fingers are dirty from the food we're eating, and the pieces have sticky bits of food residue on them, we'll have to clean them later. I get a look at the position and I'm confused, there are weird looking things on the board, a lots of what look like olive pits are all over the board. I ask what those are and my opponent says they're pawns. These olive pit "pawns" are everywhere, I don't remember them being there before. There are large clumps of them all along his 7th rank (my 2nd rank) about to be promoted. There are also a full row of them on his first rank. Now I know he's cheating because pawns can never be on the first rank. I say "there's no way! My queen is in the center of the board and I would never allow you to get so many pawns so close to promotion!" I'm quite upset at the cheating and we exchange angry words.

+ S2's girlfriend L is messing around with the airplane and we're getting concerned. I see myself(?) sitting under the airplane. I see that L is causing the propellers/engines to spin around, which are getting close to hitting my head. This could also damage the airplane. We run to the plan and stop her and roll the plane back to its proper place in the room.

+ pour myself a glass of champagne (or some sparkling beverage) in a quick gesture (wonder if it will foam over the rim of the glass but it doesn't, I stopped pouring soon enough) and drink it from a large champagne flute while sitting at a counter in a large, open atrium (in a casino?). A dumpy middle-aged woman with big blonde hairdo come and sits near me. She has some hair sticking out of her nose. I wonder if I should invite her to my room, I imagine being with her and it's not really an exciting prospect.

+ at the blackjack table, playing a hand. I'm sitting in the middle, directly across from the dealer. The guy next to me on my left says he's already seen 3 aces come out. I get dealt (face up) and ace. I think there can't be any more aces. I have a $10 chip in play. I take hits, I'm getting small cards, I'm trying to add up my hand. Soft 13? I get dealt 3 more aces. Still a soft total? No it's like hard 15 now. Hey, how can that be [so many aces], I ask the dealer how many decks we're playing with, he says "two," I say "ok that explains it." He deals me more cards. He's waiting for me to add up my hand. It's definitely over 21, I've busted. I bring out a $3,000 bill and say I want to change it for more chips. The dealer says "changing $100,000?" and I get a sinking/scared feeling in my stomach. No way, that's way too much money to be gambling. I look down and no it's just the $3,000 bill on the table. I tell the dealer I want it changed into half $10 and half $5 chips. The dealer is having problems figuring out how to do this change. I try to imagine how many $10 chips that would be, then to divide the amount in half and to double it to get the number of $5 chips. I think I should give this suggestion to the dealer. At some point I wonder what the minimum bet is at this table and I look around but I don't see the sign.

I imagine a guy doing a trick with his cards to change the amount of his bet after he's been dealt his cards. He waves his hand holding the cards over his chips and picks up on of his chips with his thumb and hides it against and underneath the cards he's holding. I think that's why they don't let the players hold the cards any more.

+ I arrive back in a small town to interview the residents, it's for some documentary. I've been here before, numerous times. I'm in a beauty salon, and I approach two seated people. I know them both but I've forgotten the name of the one to the right. I start interviewing them. More DCs approach, they're somewhat hostile, they don't like me doing these interviews. I recognize some as the founders of a startup I worked for. They're upset because the town (company?) is not successful and don't like the interviews. I see one young man who I "remember" was an underdog in life yet he became the successful founder of this beauty salon.

+ (f) talking (to SaPav's mother?) about how once I fell into a tide pool and got all wet. I imagine myself trying to walk around a hole in the ground, I must have lost my balance and fallen in.

+ I've given a gift to SaPav [S2 classmate]: a large self-standing clothes drying rack. It's quite tall, it reaches to my eye level. S is really excited about this gift, and starts hanging all his family's clothing on it. I say in a foreign language [incorrect I think] that "you can also hang a lot of hangers on it!" and I run my hand through the dozen or so simple wire hangers hanging down from the wires on the right side of the rack. I look at the rack, S has hung up about 40-50 pairs of really brightly colorful men's briefs. They have filled the entire drying rack's surface.

+ in some campground, I call for my son S2 to bring me "some ice cold fresh water from the lake." He says that's a great idea and goes to get it in a bucket. I bring a dirty bucket with me but decide against that, I go back and see my Sierra cup on the ground and will use that to accept and drink the water.

+ I'm walking up a path that leads out of a building to outside. I'm talking to a female university student (behind me?), I say how I used to live in this neighborhood. We're walking up an outdoor stairway (over a small chasm?) leading to a theater. "And the great thing about this location is that you're so close to the theater!" This is the back entrance to the theater. As we enter the theater I hear a rehearsal in progress, we're a bit early. I wonder if they'll let us in to the seats yet. I hear two young women singing. They're supposed to be singing unison but they're not quite perfectly together. The very slight dissonance creates a lovely effect, more interesting that perfect unison. I'm wondering if we can go to our seats, (open a door, see a lobby?), (there are groups of young people hanging around here?)

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1 - Moonwell of Love
It's almost like a game, I'm a character who seems to be stronger than everyone else. Everyone else is kind of a newbie. There's a girl who I'm with (although it's a 'game', it seems it's more like a real world with levels?) who I race to reach a moonwell. There are two moonwells, they resemble the moonwells you see in Warcraft. I reach one first, so she has to go to a different one. The water in it is blue and glows slightly, I wade into its shallow depths and feel my power being replenished... My mana is recovering, which I seem to have used earlier on in the dream. Almost like an announcement, something occurs saying that I've reached the stage 1 of the love blessing. The requirements were that you have to love someone truly and unconditionally. There are 6 stages and when you reach the end you attain special powers. Because everyone else is new I thought I was the first to discover this power, but I was apparently wrong. A man approaches and he is buff as, he apparently has the blessing of love and kind of seems like an enemy.

Dream 2 - Seeing old friends
I'm wandering down a hallway at school (so many school dreams O_O) and see a class with its door open. I peer in an see Hanno, and old friend . I strike up conversation, surprised that he recognized me after not seeing each other for so long. Some other friends show up and gradually I feel myself being pushed out of the conversation. I decide to leave to go to form class (a class just before period 1 begins to check attendance). As I wander out of the door I see Aditya, an old friend who shared the same form class, except he's HUGE now. He's really tall, and his body looks badly proportioned too. Like his legs were way too long compared to his upper body. We talk a bit and another friend shows up, this is around the point the dream ends.

Dream fragment - There's a school trip on today, it's occurring at my university Marine Science class where we have a trip to go skiing (not related to the class itself for some reason). But I completely forgot we were going on a trip, I thought we just had to meet up and do some test and then go home... I ended up realizing I wasn't wearing warm enough clothing and that I had no gear, like towels and a toothbrush so there was no way I could go no the trip. I approached my teacher and asked if she could step to the side with me for a private conversation, where I admitted embarrassingly to her that I hadn't prepared for the trip .

Dream 3 - First day back at school (yet another school dream )
It's the first day of school and I think I'm unprepared because I haven't got the right clothing on (green shorts, a black shirt with a thin black hoody and a dressing gown over top). I seem to have headed out to the streets around the school (which resemble the residential area of my university) possibly to get food. I start heading back and arrive at school, but on my way back (I was running for some reason) and spotted a girl I knew called Mikayla. She was sitting on the deck of persons house chatting with her friends, I decided to ignore her because I didn't want to intrude. I continue running through the school, not sure where I'm going. I pass a girl who looks like Mikayla who was hanging with another girl I knew, Rhiannon. I pass them and stop, then spin on my heel and yell out "Hey, Mikayla! Is that you?".
"Yeh, hey" she replies. Kind of seemed hesitant which was pretty lousy -.- we were best friends lol
"Did you dye your hair?"
"Yeh I did haha" this time she seems more interested, and we talk a bit more. But then for some reason we all like... Fell over? And they bumped their heads on a wooden seat and nearly knocked themselves out. I propped them both up against a wall sitting down to help them out. A teacher then shows up and WOW she was a bitch. She started accusing me of assaulting the girls! Couldn't believe it, I used my syllogism to figure that she had been told to be strict with students because it's the first day at school. She had a whole bunch of students with us now and we were all in trouble for some dumb reason. The bell went and I wanted to go to my 3rd period English class so I could get my bag which I had apparently left at the field camp in the previous dream fragment. We weren't allowed to leave though, because we were supposed to be getting on a bus to go to detention or something... She (the old bat of a teacher) ordered us all onto the bus, but for some reason I had the feeling she forgot about me and I realized I could just... Walk away . So I did.
I headed off to my English class, and a long the way I spotted my old friend Oliver from school. I had thought he had also been on the detention bus though. He told me that when we got onto the bus he went to the rear exit and hopped off without the teacher noticing haha. Sly dog. We ended up talking and just catching up with each.

This was perhaps one of my most interesting experiences yet when trying to lucid dream, and is possibly a sign that I'm getting close. This night was my 9th attempt.

As I was falling asleep, I completely unintentionally slipped into the WILD method. This happened as a result of allowing my thoughts to race, yet keeping myself on the edge of sleep and staying completely mentally aware. Without noting at all what just happened, I saw myself playing a game in my head - Counter Strike: Global Offfensive. I was lucid at this point, despite only being half-asleep, and questioned the future of how humans may later develop technology that allows us to play games in our minds. After getting a few kills, I ran down a hallway in the game with an assault rifle, and held a molotov to throw it out a window, but chose not to and re-equipped my rifle. I was hoping desperately for there to not be an enemy at the end of the hallway, and my mind was already getting petrified and frozen in horror, to something which I had no idea about, and only seconds later did I come to realise it - I was entering sleep paralysis. The visualisation immediately seized, and I felt my body getting paralysed and an intense ringing in both ears that grew overwhelmingly strong, supported by a type of wind-blowing sounds. Even though I knew that this could be turned into a lucid dream, the experience frightened me too much, and I therefore chose to abstain and wake up.

Later at some point after falling asleep again, I started to dream about being in my school at night. I was staring at a truly beautifully, illuminated moon at what seemed to be midnight. Then a few seconds later, I visualised a man swimming in a pool, looking directly at me and discussing the topic of lucid dreaming, making it go over my head without any notice. This was where it concluded for the night.

NON LUCID
*Trying on a very strange hat as my hair shapeshifts
*Seeing andre as a kid with a full grown beard
*Trying on a new high tech device that using eletricity for an anti-depression effect.
*Being shown this video of a beautiful furture like city, I was personally involved with the video somehow.


LUCID*I met with my old friend I use to live next to when I lived in The Reflections apartment complex. Shortly after running into her this random DC attempted to kill us with the gun he was holding. This all took place on a baloncy at night.

Had a long, confused dreams about a debilitating sickness slowly crippling me. Don't feel like writing about it here, but making the entry to keep both my private and public DJ consistent.

False awakening -
Awoke and started having sex with partner then....partner walked in room. Now there are 2.
I felt so uncomfortable guilty that I hid partner no.1 under covers
then real awakening came...thank god

WBTB attempted: 10:30 - 5:45 (7.25 hours) Felt first wave of heaviness/vibrations stage then lost awareness to a racing mind. I think I slept to long before I tried.

I was going to a new world with a bunch of people and we entered a beautiful valley with a bunch of people. It had a weird feel to it like it was a mine-craft world but much more detailed then that, at least for certain aspects (water). Me and Simon were the creators of the world and we were almost done making it. We were just setting up objectives now and putting hidden objects in tough places to be found by players. We were debating whether or not we should be putting the lamp in the mouth of the water fall (It was a mouth of a face, really cool look). Or the skull shaped rock. As we were talking Simon soon got fed up and launched the lamp up at the water fall with inhuman strength and accuracy. Here is where the dream got cool. The genie popped out and started busting a tunnel through the back of the the water fall, it shook the whole earth and he kept going into the valley walls and busting back out. The whole place shook. He passed under us like a mole and that was the height of the shaking sensation then I woke up.

I was wandering aimlessly in the swamps of the Zone, avoiding anomalies and mutants. I checked my inventory and saw that I'm low on ammo. I entered a building in an abandoned village. It was dark everywhere, I could only see the entrance. The building had wooden floor. Suddenly I became lucid. I told myself "This is dream." and proceeded with a nose-plug RC. It was cold, there was something wrong with that place. I wanted to leave it quickly, so I phased through the wall, but instead of coming out from the other side, everything went black. Shortly after I have awakened.

LUCID DREAM YAYAYAYAY

Okay, so first things first:

I was walking around the uni campus. Then I met Callie, from The Fosters. We went to class together, but I kept feeling there was something going on between us. We got to class and she sat somewhere. I was gonna sit behind her, but the seat was taken, so I told her I was gonna sit on the other side of the room. She followed me so we could sit together.

Then, we were supposed to work on a project or something, so I told her we could go to the aquarium of the campus. We went there and I took her hand. She actually smiled at me and it was super sweet. We walked around the place some more and I asked where she wanted to begin. She said she wanted to go to the highest floor and make our way back to the ground floor. I said okay, but she decided to go to the bathroom first.

Then her mother (Lena, also from The Fosters), who was also the teacher, ran into me and asked me if I wanted to see a new room they were working on. I said I would, so she opened a door. And there were frogs in there. She walked in, showing me around. And then a frog jumped at me and I freaked out, but I didn't to look stupid, so I slapped it away and ran to the door.

When I left the room, I was outside the aquarium and it was night. Lena asked about a couple of teenagers and I said I didn't know cause I don't pay attention to people all that much. Another The Fosters character, Mariana, was there too. We were friendly enough and Lena laughed and said oh you teenagers. And I was like "uhm, actually, I'm 25. But Mariana here is a baby, she's only 21".

And then. I thought "I haven't done a RC in a while now. But that'd be stupid. I know I'm not dreaming. Wait. Am I?" So I looked around and it hit me that YES I WAS DREAMING!!!

So I felt myself on my bed, knew I was about to wake up, so I let myself... uhm, be on my bed. I wasn't very corporeal and the dream wasn't too stable. But I made myself get out of bed, walk around it, until I was in front of the wall. I kinda went forward, thinking that I could go through the wall and find myself at a park.

The park was blurry and I was still aware enough of my real body. I figured I had to do the TOTM, so I shouted "ME" and it was a bit like chat (I was there for quite a while yesterday). Another me showed up and I was like "So what were you going to tell me?" and then the other me started yelling "FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID LITTLE FAGGOT, JUST FUCK YOU AND LEAVE ME ALONE" and he ran away.

I didn't care much about that and I knew I was about to wake up, so I shouted "LEA" and someone showed up. She didn't look like Lea, but she was supposed to represent Lea. We were kind of avatars and I wanted to declare my love to her, so the avatar me had a dialogue box and lots of symbols showed up there. I knew they were bad, but Lea just kept smiling. Then, she opened a dialogue box too and more symbols appeared. After she was done, she walked away.

I woke up and my bedroom looked way more brighter than it had been in the beginning of the lucid dream, which made me realise the dream was a bit more stable than I had thought.

Fragment: there was something about taking the subway? I dunno.

I went to a party and it was for something that I cant really remember but it was just a small get together and Buskis parents and sister were there and I was disappointed that he was not. After that we headed up heading out through this town and suddenly I was with a baseball team of which I was part of. We were heading down this long highway in cali that stretched for miles and had a winding snake pattern. the coach said this i where a bunch of start ups are started and the stops along the highway are cool. We stop at a field to take a break and there is a hill which blocks our view into a stadium. There are yellow bars that are hanging off the from of the stands which are facing away from the stadium (lol) I decide to jump up on them and climb. There were a couple cute girls close by and that probably influenced my decision as well as the coach talking about how yellow and gold the famous filed was. As I pulled myself up I started to fatigue and remembered that I had just lifted today (in waking life) and that risking my life wasn't the best idea when relying on the muscles I had just burned out. I made it to the top which had an object that I had to grab above in the pole ---(&&&)-- si I reached and grabbed above it as the older couple that was sitting right where I was climbing up got up and moved so they didn't have to watch anymore. The bars hunf off with an open slot so that a screw and bolt could be used on flat surfaces. I put a couple fingers in there and prepared to hull myself over, remembering that if I failed I fall and most likely break my neck or leg. I then woke up, I never did clamber over the top. My heart rate jumped skyward as I woke though and my chest flet like it was getting a beating from inside. deep THUMP-UMP THUMP-UMP