non-lucid

There was a video about child soldiers. They fought and murdered people but they were only children. Many of the older kids would lead the youngest ones around the battlefield by the hand.

A program is started to save them. Me and mom have some of them in the van with us, we’re either fostering them or taking them somewhere to be helped.

Mom starts talking to them about pop culture references that they know nothing about. She says that ‘Christina Aguilera is in a band called Looper’, and I was like ‘??? I didn’t think Christina was in a band…’

Inspirations: Thinking about Kony yesterday. Christina from watching The Voice. Looper maybe from seeing the movie was coming on a while back, but I’d already watched it before.

Two nights ago I dreamt that I was outide building a toilet out of wood and my dad was mocking me or something. He was annoying me and getting in the way.

Last night I dreamt I was in my room with my mom but we were dead. I was telling her how you could close your eyes and imagine a beautiful ring and when you open your eyes it will appear, because we were in "heaven". I did that a few times and it worked. Then my dad came in my room and all of a sudden I wasn't dead.. yet. There was an axe leaning against the wall and he took it and said, "I'm going to cut off your finger." and he did just that. It didn't hurt. Then he was going to kill us.. I woke up.

Now, my dad is the kindest, most caring dad out there and we never ever fight and I can't figure out why I'm having these dreams. Is there something I should know?

Non-luicid
2:00PM - 2:30PM nap
I'm at home, and it has just become spring. The temperature rises quickly, and I sweat. A lot.
"It's spring, but it feels like summer! I shouldn't have to be dealing with this right now!" I say, in vain. Sweat rolls down my face and drips off my chin.
I look down to see a pattern of blue eyes, six of them in three rows, that have been painted on the lower part of the wall. The black pupils are in the shape of hearts, and the eyes themselves are rimmed in black, with long black eyelashes.
Then, I wake up.
I know the nap was only 30 minutes, but it felt like it went on for hours.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Dream - Getting on the bus
I was with my friends (the only face I can recall is Isaac's) and we were approaching the bus stop, it was quite late at night. I noticed the lady bus driver was getting impatient, I hop onto the bus and she starts ringing the bell and saying "Get a move on!" angrily. The sound of the bell is too much for me, it hurts my ears, I kneel from the pain and cover my ears. I'm pissed off now, she's still ringing the bell and I get my right hand and start pounding it against the interior of the bus yelling "Stop justing ****ing stop!!!". She ceases, looking confused... I can't recall much past this but I was about to give her a piece of my mind.

Note: Haven't been able to do much with dreaming due to a damn cold I've had for the past 3-4 days... Trying to keep recall up as a bare minimum.

from what i can remember, I was in a large building with a group of people trying to stop a tank that was made of legos i think, so we took the drive chains off it's wheels and that was really it. Another part i was walking to a class and the ground was covered in snow. in fact i only remember seeing the one brick building in the snowy landscape without anything else around it for miles. just the building was in view

this bad recall was my fault(of course) for moving and thinking too much upon waking before i had time to get the dream in m head. some useful details can be pulled though.

First dream

I entered my old school building. I was invited to a party for graduates. I was going down the crowded corridor, and went down the stairs. There were two security guards - a man and a woman. They were wearing blue uniforms. The man had short, bright hair and somewhat square chin. The woman had dark brown hair made into a pigtail. She was quite attractive. They were standing near the entry gate, and everyone that wanted to get inside, had to go through it.

I moved towards the gate. When getting close the security officers tried to make me a hearing test by pushing a pencil deep into my ear. I felt strong pain, and went through the gate. After a few seconds I had troubles with hearing. All I could hear was strange noise, and I felt that I have something inside my ear, even though they took the pencil back, as they were doing the same thing to everyone passing by.

I decided to catch up with the rest of my present class, even though most of them weren't even studying there. They ran inside the sports hall, when I was checking if the cloakrooms changed. I remembered a room with showers. Entering it I saw only an ordinary bathroom. Suddenly a teacher appeared and told me to take the chainsaw operator suit, and go to the sports hall.

I changed my clothes, and entered the building. It was really tall building. I saw some gigantic posters hanging on the walls. The teacher appeared, and told me that I'm going to take a ladder, and take them down.

Second dream

It was in unknown future. I have put on a protective suit, and went to an elevator platform. It was dark all around. Lamps were giving really bright light. Everything was made of steel, and heavily wired. I stepped onto a platform, and pushed the lever. I looked at gearwheels moving, nad giving a squeak of rusty metal. I turned around and waited until the elevator moved all the way down.

After a while I saw a huge antechamber, it was a dome. I could see the outerspace through the window, but it was just a black, empty void. There was nothing over the horizon, only darkness. I look at the middle of the chamber, and see a weird spires pointing at one point. They were wired to an electrical box with a lever, standing close to me. I push the lever, and a strange rotating disc of purple energy appeared in the middle of the room. I came clsoer, and stepped into it.

Then I found myself back in the room with elevator platform. This time however, there were two construction workers. They were talking, but I couldn't hear what they were talking about. I stepped onto the platform, and pushed the lever. Then I heard one of the construction workers: See this guy? It's third time in ten minutes he's using this elevator! The second one said: Yeah, I heard about a girl that was doing absolutely the same! I turned around on the platform, and drove to the huge antechamber with portal.

I came closer to the electric box, and came closer to the portal. Just when I was about to step into the portal, I realised that I was doing the same all the time. Whatever happens after I go throuh the portal makes me go back to the starting point.

Black: Non-dream
Blue: Non-lucid
Red: Lucid

Dream 1 - Ship Wrecked onto a Paradise (And turtles boning?)
I'm on a large sailing vessel, like a galleon or something (the tone is somewhat 18th century). The vessel is in the middle of a huge storm, and the next thing I know I'm waking up on a beautiful beach, tropical trees and crystal clear sea water surround me and the sky is calm. Parts of the ship can be seen floating around or washed up, but I ignore it all, I seem to have a handglider which I use to glide around the place a bit.. I head off along the beach to where a group of natives are relaxing under a low wooden sun shelter next to the bushline. I prostrate myself before them and beg for help, explaining my situation, a jump in time occurs (like a minute ahead) and we're all buddy-buddy. I turn to see a huge tidal wave rising up (should mention there are about 4 of us together), I grab a native and dive to the ground so I don't get swept away, a man behind me also gets down low, but his wife isn't quick enough. Next thing I know we're searching for the wife, I glide through the air a bit, then I continue running in shallow water, sprinting in a panic state to try save her but we can't find her. I see a small turtle float on by a few metres away, it was so realistic. I then turn to see even more turtles, but this time they're HUGE, about 2 metres in height. Also they're boning hard out, I think to myself that it must be mating season, it was quite weird to see a bunch of turtles pounding their meat into a mate. Ruined the aesthetic scenery a bit tbh. I spot in the sky a woman gliding around on her handglider, and remember that 'oh hey, they obviously all use handgliders too'... Next thing I know, I'm gliding around 4 square block rooms connected by large doors so that they can be glided through. My friend Mikayla is here and she has a miniature glider that she throws like a paper plane. There is a large dome made of a kind of net in one of the rooms, I run and jump, gliding through the air and circling the dome without colliding with the net, wall, ceiling or floor, then smoothly land in the room I started, a full circuit. I seem really proud of myself for doing this... I also noticed a family of 3, they were really white trash. One of them I remember as having missing teeth, quite young, but fat and had a shaved head. He wore baggy clothing too... I guess that must be what I consider white trash? O_O never knew.

Dream 2 - Dinner with my old flat mates
I couldn't be bothered writing this in my journal diary this morning, and I've lost a lot of detail, but it just felt SO boring >_<.
I seem to be on a cruise ship, there is a dinner party on these long tables with white sheets set out and beautiful cutlery, plates and fruits in bowls neatly placed. I'm with my ex-flatmates Emma and Sam, but we never really got on well with conversations... We were the first to enter the room and pick 3 chairs out near the end of the table. We seem to start some kind of subtle 'argument'. I don't remember much more than this though.

Dream 3 - Continued
Seems to continue on from where dream 2 ended... I don't remember much about this except that we were still on a cruise ship and eating dinner.

March 5, 2015

I was driving down some very twisting a winding country roads on a small mountain in my truck. The rounds had tight turns almost one right after another. It was in a pine forest with the uphill side on our right and the downhill side on our left. For some reason it was extremely difficult to see out my window, like it was fogged up beyond belief, or the glass just distorted the images coming through. Also i was on the right side of the vehicle(normally my passenger side) driving rather than the left, which I found strange but didnt become lucid. I tried turning the defroster on, and opening a window to clear it up but it didnt work. Eventually after not being able to see and the turns being to sharp to turn on safely, the truck rolled over on its side, then its roof. I got out and looked around and had no injuries. I was in a big pine tree forest standing on a dirt road. I saw a cell tower but as i got close it fell and some kid ran away who had cut it down. I eventually decided i needed to move to get cell service and walked through the trees and made it to a busy highway. I called 911 and told them what was going on but they were of little help. Once I told him i was at "Cedar Falls" he stopped for a moment and said that would be difficult to get there.I stopped by the highway and these people started throwing berries at me for some reason. I didn't get mad at them, i just kept calm. It was weird at first but they were nice and could help after I explained my situation. I started walking back to the vehicle and went to call the county sheriff but my phone was dead! (Somewhere in here i lost part of the dream)

I was hanging out at my Fraternity's Annex property and the rooms didn't look at all like they should be. There was a lot of clutter, like clothes lying around, a big red carpet, a fish tabks, and i was on a bed with a black blanket on it. The room was square in shape. I was just talking to some friends, not sure who, when one of my other "sort of" friend came in and asked if i wanted to go swimming at a lake and i said sure after some time to talk about it. I spent a lot of the dream looking for the right clothes for swimming that were decently warm because i remembered its cold out. I left the Annex and went back to the main house. In the front yard at lot of people were playing some kind of sport, maybe whiffle ball. I got into the main house and everything looked as it should at first, but when i went into my room it did not look like my room but i didn't become lucid, even though i stared at a feature and questioned it but passed it off as normal. I was still looking for the right clothes but then i woke up. Thats twice in this dream i questioned something and passed it off as normal. Its more progress

March 01, 2015

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I was walking through a dark labyrinth of hallways... It reminded me of the hallways of a church I once went to a youth group sleepover thing I went to with one of my friends in Middle School... The place creeped me out a fair bit. There were a lot of ramps and short stairwells to get to the room I was looking for: The room in which my students were all doing their Language Arts rotations for the day. I got to the room, and had just met my MT or someone else who was going to work with the kids that day... but there was no one i the room. We panicked for a bit, but then realized they were just in the next room over. The room was connected by a door at the back, so we went into the other room. It was bright and cheerful and loud. We found the adult who was with them currently, and found out that the class cat (I WISH we could have class cats, but allergies...) had just had her kittens, but one of the kittens was very, very sick and was about to die. They didn't want the kids in the room when it happened, so they had moved the kids to another room. Then I helped my MT put things on the wall; they were masks, or faces or something. Actually a little creepy. I then had to pass out to each student a contraption of some sort that involved a magnifying glass. One of my students (who is notorious for loosing things left and right) lost most of his contraption.

This is what happens when you don't write your dreams after you wake up. ^w^"

-I was playing Zelda and went to a secret place in the forest area. There I met with someone but i forgot what we did.

I was at a glasses store looking for the right blue glasses. The lady who worked at the shop kept annoying me by suggesting the wrong color glasses.When i saw the perfect blue glasses i put them on happily than went home.

I became lucid and was running from these weird troll or gremlin like characters.I think i ran with my younger brother or someone else. The guy carried me to my downstairs bathroom and we closed the door. But the trolls or whatever they were went threw the corner of the door. We tried hitting them but they just kept coming in. I gave up on running from them because they weren't scary anyways.

. I heard a girl talking in front of my house door. For some reason i did not want her to come inside so when she came in i tried to attack her. It didn't go so well though because someone said that the world would be distorted if i destroyed her or something like that.After that I was in my parent's bedroom and noticed a blue ring on my middle finger. There was something important that was given to me too but i can not recall what it was.

-Forgotten fragment that I didn’t write down because it didn’t make enough concrete sense too. Really annoying when that happens.

-We’re at a woman’s house, standing in a room. I’m to her right. For some reason I know her secret - she’s a werewolf. She sneaks a look at me and mouths something, something that’s part of her secret. I think she’s telling me where something is, some keys or something. I wonder if it’s near a full moon, if it’s affecting her.

I’m in another room with the woman and another person and we’re looking through some kind of history or genealogy book. In the front, it has really thin pages width-wise and are made of different material, and normal length and paper after that. We’re flipping through it and are excited to see a couple of familiar names, but we turn to one that means something to the third person in the room. Romano Romaine.

There was another name before that that I recognized but I forgot it.

Jump.

I’m playing with a small toy house with a little girl. We end up taking it apart and I have to figure out how to put it back together by myself because she falls asleep. I’m bad at this stuff so I’m worried I’ll get in trouble.

Jump.

I’m in a room looking over at Spice on some kind of balcony room, he’s on the other side of a clear door and I talk to him.

Jump…

In yet another room, mom gets on the woman’s computer. The woman is standing in the room too but she’s not moving or look at us in particular.

Mom shows me a zip drive and asks me a question with her eyes. I know she’s asking whether or not to download something from the woman’s computer (her secret). I gave a real decisive answer by shaking my head both yes and no (lolol).

She puts the zip drive into the computer and a folder opens up full of other folders (about four rows). One is labeled ‘Sarah’. I guess that if the woman gets suspicious, mom can easily show that she’s just looking through her own stuff.

Mom, dad and Rane were watching something in the living room. I heard them talking about this surprisingly explicit sexual scene in it.

There was a show coming on at 1:45 that I wanted to see so I went in, but it took 20 minutes to come on. Meanwhile, Sailor Moon was on.

I looked in the refrigerator (while someone had it open?) and saw packs of meat and a wholeee lot of cheese. I said something about it and mom said yeah, now we can just… (something about convenience of eating it).

It was just me and Rane by then. The anime was a historical type with a lot of bishounen. The opening was playing (though I didn’t hear any music) and I was worrying about Rane’s reaction because it wasn’t really her thing.

But then there was this scene she found really funny where these guys were ‘fighting’ by having sex, and they were taking it so seriously. I said that I cracked up too the first time I saw it.

She told me not to tell anyone about it and I was like, “Why? No one’s going to care; heck mom saw the whole Jack/Ianto thing in Torchwood and didn’t care then, so I highly doubt she’d care after that.” I actually didn’t feel 100% certain of this because I wasn’t sure mom had seen all of it.

She was really surprised. “She did?” And she started talking about a het couple in a fic with some guy named George and a woman I can’t remember the name of (Iris or some such), even though I didn’t know any characters named that. I was thinking about how at least she wasn’t messing with the gay couple, although I was fine with other pairings that involved the characters (if it was slash).

I realize that this wasn’t the anime I had wanted to show her after all – I had wanted to show her Tiger & Bunny, and it was x10 better! Though I didn’t want her to think this wasn’t any good. She actually didn’t seem to dislike it so that was good.

Jump.

I’m looking at a post I made on LiveJournal. At the top was a bowl with gravy-covered popcorn in it, and I thought there was something weird about that when I realized what it was. At the bottom were about five lines of a knitting or crochet pattern with two or three marked off.

I also remember something about writing about the anime we were watching.

Jump?

Then was something about a webtoon I had started to read, and I was really enjoying it, but I couldn’t figure out what this shadowy-looking character was going to look like, every time I’d get a glimpse of him I’d waver on how I felt about him. The clearest view I had of his face was pretty scary, he had really pale - almost a powdery - face, with gray lines or something running along both cheeks. There was another guy character, kinda reminds me of Mase from Ability.

Inspirations:

Sex scene: I read a chapter of Kyou Kara Yonshimai! the other day that was a lot like it. I thought it was surprisingly explicit (though I shouldn’t have, really).

Sailor Moon: Saw some old Sailor Moon anime pictures on Tumblr yesterday.

Meat & cheese: Me looking in the meat drawer yesterday for something to eat, and mom opening the new cheese pack and me asking her about it, because there was still some of the old left. May also have something to do with her eating Ritz crackers with cheese on it yesterday.

Historical anime: Maybe it’s just déjà vu, but I feel like I was thinking about historical anime recently.

Torchwood: Maybe because of the random Torchwood wallpaper that popped up the other day? And I’m pretty sure mom has seen all the TV series of Torchwood, not sure about the Children of Earth and such. On the other hand, I don’t think Rane has ever seen Torchwood, she’s not really into that genre. I think that part was inspired by me wondering what she thought when she watched gay couples on Glee. Did she gloss over them, enjoy them, not care for them?

Tiger & Bunny: Maybe from thinking fairly recently about the new guy and wondering what part he plays? I still need to watch that movie.

LiveJournal: From thinking last night about how I don’t post there to my rec journal anymore. And maybe also from thinking about all the old fics on there and wondering if some are deleted now.

Gravy-popcorn: Ew. Inspired by wonder if there was any gravy left in the fridge and looking. I had some popcorn a few times this week, last time being yesterday.

Pattern: My mom knits and crochets and sometimes shows me things.

Webtoon: When I was lying in bed last night, I was thinking about how I rarely dream of media when I’m heavily into it. I’ve been reading the Ability webtoon for the past week constantly and it never made it into my dreams that I recall. So I guess at least -a- webtoon made it in?

It was bright, cold morning. The sky was covered by a few clouds. With my older sister we drove to school, where my practical lessons teacher told me to take a bus ticket, and drive to work. I was wearing my forester uniform. I took the bus, and drove to the nearest big city. From the bus stop I went to a square through the alleys, looking at the ages old cobblestone pavement, buildings covered by vines and gambrel rooftops.

When I finally arrived at the square, I saw a small restaurant building, a rusty street lamp, and some houses. I went to the restaurant, where my aunt was working. She told me to go the kitchen, and use some kind of a machine. This machine was a chopper, and from looking at it I saw that it could be easily used to shred someone to pieces. It was covered with green painting, and looked like new. I turned it on, but haven't used it. After some time my aunt come, and told me to help with the dirty dishes. I went there, and suddenly she told me to put some bread to haversack. I did it, and then helped her with washing the dishes. Then I took a bus back home. In the middle of the road the bus has broken and I had to go home on foot.

I have finally arrived at home. I was tired, in dirty forester uniform. I entered my home, and then everyone jumped out from behind furniture. They screamed Surprise! I didn't knew what to do, but I was kinda happy at the same time. Then a girl that's my friend came and hugged me. Other persons also hugged me, but I just wanted all the hugging to end. Then we hugged with the friend again. I went to another room. We were partying all the night, dancing and drinking. A few times I went to the toilet. In the end I have talked with that girl, but I can't recall what we were talking about.

Non lucid
*About to go on a date with a random dream character I realize that I already have a girlfriend and don't want to do so.I didn't immediately take out my phone as I'm driving down a main highway and try to call my girlfriend.when I attempt to call my girlfriend I reached the huge supermarket Whole Foods and they tell me I have the wrong number.the lady over the phone told me to dial a 1.I hung up the phone and tried to call my girlfriend a couple different ways but could not reach her.I thought that if I don't reach her I will just drive to her house and reconnect with her that way.as I'm going through my phone attempting to find her number I notice that there are pictures of us at a high school dancing in front of a huge crowd.also a random scene of a girl I used to date from Brazil appears.then out of nowhere I was trying to find my girlfriends number someone told me to meet my uncle Bob who in the dream was a Mexican but I am not Mexican.my uncle in the dream was a tall Mexican dude in Chevy and he told me that he's proud of me and I'm doing well.it was a very quick greeting and then he was on his way.

Bedtime: 12:20

Well, I guess bedtime doesn't determine everything.

It started off with some dream about driving and walking through an urban area trying to get my cousins to a baseball game.

Somehow or other, I wound up in what felt like the woods behind my neighborhood. It was tropical though, and everything was green. The dream was very clear despite being nonlucid. I was showing them houses that had been overgrown and abandoned many years ago. We were talking about how we would have liked to live in them in their prime.

We came to this one house, a huge four story mansion. (Or the frame of one anyway) A massive tree, about 20 feet in diameter and easily 500 feet tall had cleaved the entire frame in half, leaving only two smaller sections standing. Myself and the party of DCs (there were two or three of us total.) were hypothesizing about how the middle must have once looked.

We made our way around back, climbing over fallen trees. We saw that a river ran along the back of the house. There were waterfalls flowing from the cliff-side into the river.

"How cool would it be to live with 3...4 waterfalls in your backyard?!"

I then made an observation of some of the tropical flora. There were fern trees all around us.

This for one reason or another made me become lucid.

I stabilized briefly. I then decided that I wanted to go and see my subconscious and tell him/her/it that I wanted more lucid dreams. I shouted "I want to see my subconscious right now!"

I saw that there was a small double door between two large boulders on the forest floor. The two DCs that I was with walked through it.

I opened the door after them. It was nothing but blackness. I let myself fall in. I fell for awhile before arriving at this location suspended in the blackness.

There was a throne chair with a small child sitting in it. Built up around us was the back wall of the throne room, made out of castle stones, and the floor, made up of tiles. This crumbled away about a hundred feet from the chair in every direction, as if this one slice of the castle had been removed from the rest and placed into this void.

The child (who I guess was supposed to be my subconscious) was wearing a red king robe, golden crown and had a long scepter. Though none of this quite fit him because he was so small.

There were a couple of guards in strange white armor positioned on either side of his throne. I think Manei and Marcus manifested into the room behind me. I could feel their energies.

SubC "I am your subconscious, and I am very busy! Each time you say something to me, it's gonna cost you [some kind of special money]. You have 1,800 of it. Go!"

Me "How come so many of my efforts to lucid dream fail?"

1,750

SubC "Because you didn't do the work I gave to you. Remember Jonathan? Why is he not dead?"

Me "I did the right thing. He said that he wanted to go peacefully, so me and Manei agreed to let him go."

1,625

SubC "But that wasn't what you were supposed to do!" His tone of voice started to sound a bit whiny at this point.

Manei "If there is one thing [my name was garbled] taught me, it's that you shouldn't let other people decide who you are. You should [follow your own path or something.]

I saw that Manei had some kind of money counter for talking to this guy too. She only had about 600 of it. Marcus had no money and therefore wasn't allowed to speak.

SubC "What? You're taking his side?"

Manei (mad) "I wish I was never on your side to begin with."

SubC "Guards, show of force."

Me "Look at you. You try to control people and [mold them into what you want or something.] And when they start rebelling against you, you threaten them. [If you want people to respect you, you have to earn that respect, not force it out of them or something.]" (My ability to recall dialogue is horrible.)

1,333

SubC "Stop it! Stop it! It's not true! Guards, Seize them!" (He started sounding more and more like a whiny child.)

The two guards began to advance on me. The dream started to fade. I saw my 'money' was starting to tick down.

Me: "The way you choose to remove me from your presence rather than learn from me proves just how weak and immature you really are. When you [grow up a little], you will see that I was right about everything. I see no way we can come to an agreement if you are going to act like this."

545

The dream cut to black here. I had an FA, but somehow still remained semi lucid. I was on the steps of one of the dorm complexes at my college.

Spoiler for Sexy Toys:

There was a huge blue dildo toy. There was a bottle on the back end of it that you could fill with whatever liquid you wanted, then squeeze it and it would squirt out the front. It was also covered in this soft fabric.

I was trying to hide this object because I didn't want anyone to know that I dreamed about it. I was also thinking about how I was going to describe this scene when I woke up and started writing about it in my DJ. Dang partial lucidity.

At one point I tried to throw it away, but it wouldn't fit in the trash can. It seemed to be continually growing. Eventually it started getting so heavy that I couldn't carry it.

There was also a part where I dreamed that I was trying to send one of my cats away in a cardboard box that would float like a boat on a lake. I felt like the lake we were at had taken the place of my old middle school.

Interpretations:

I really don't know what to make of this. I don't know why my subconscious was so childlike and closed-minded. He wanted things done a particular way, his way. He wanted no part of anyone else, and didn't want to earn their respect. (Sure, sounds like a much younger me, but I'm sure a lot of us acted that way as children since we simply didn't know any better.)