non-lucid

I wrote this up earlier and forgot to post so I'm just going to write up a very brief version...

Dream 1 - Gingerbread man
Evil doctor gets put in a sarcophagus by these teenagers who wanted to act as the hand of justice. I'm an investigator and try to find him, I enter the crypt where he's supposed to be and find one of his evil experiments (a zombie). I'm in a room and the zombie is now a small gingerbread man with a missing leg. A delivery man enters and sits down, I tell him not to because the gingerbread man is under the table, it bites him and he gets infected. I try find it but it's missing, which means it's learned to crawl. Me and the man turn to look at one another and share the same thought of "Oh shit... It's... LEARNING?!?".

Dream 2 - Waterfall
I'm on a field trip with a bunch of people, it's a nice sunny day. We're on the side of a road taking a lunch break, there's a waterfall which everyone is keen to jump off but it's too high. A guy told me that my friend Daniel jumped off with goggles, I knew he was lying. I go find my friend Daniel and he tells me he didn't jump, he's also surrounded by girls. Everyone is now heading to jump off the waterfall (it's not too big anymore but it still is.. So it doesn't make sense). I catch up to the people at the back, one of them is a different Daniel I know. We're about to cross the railway, a train is coming so we have to wait while the rest of the class goes ahead. Now there's an obstacle course thing we're navigating, I lose Daniel and this other guy I was following and they hop onto a minecart. I just manage to spot them before they disappear into a wooden tunnel ride. I follow on foot and duck my head to crawl through the entrance. Eventually I catch up and I get pissy, "Where is the waterfall?!?! It was right in front of us so what the fuck is going on?!".
I didn't really understand it was a dream I guess.

I went to sleep again today around 11am, I just felt so comfy and tired and my cat cuddled up to me for a while. I had a similar dream again.. The same idea of trying to get something but not being able to do. It should be right in front of me but just keeps getting further away. Weird, I've only really just noticed that my dreams have a sort of underlying story theme. I'll try pay more attention to this I guess.

1) I was in a class and was asked to read. I looked at the page and couldn't understand the writing, looked back and it had changed. I knew immediately that I was dreaming, but looked at a hand to check and it looked very odd. For some reason I remember then thinking "I'm dreaming" but it shouldn't be like this, and lost lucidity immediately. I was then in a playground and I can't remember anything else from that dream.

2) Looking back over a skyline and seeing a tennis court with 2 high chairs at each end. Then I was playing football with a boy with a tennis ball.

3) Looking at a clockface, it was raised and golden. The clock was really old and in a wooden case. I was fiddling with the mechanism and adjusting how fast the clock was going. Then I was with someone else and it was like being in school we had to collect our drawings from the week, I collected a few they were some that I remember my children drawing when they were younger. Then I was in a university canteen chosing lunch. I looked at all the food and remember it in detail. There was a vegetarian moussaka, a girl sitting to the side had her elbow in the salad of the one I wanted and I was abit annoyed that she was touching it but decided to have it anyway. The serving lady said I had to eat the salad first then she would heat up the moussake. I ate the salad then she took it away to put it in a microwave. I looked at the time and notice dthat I had an appointment and couldn't be late so rushed off and didn't have time to eat. Other things happened that I can't remember. Then I was outside an old people's home and someone had been put into an ambulance thatset off on blue lights, it didn't go very fast and I was discussing with someone about why they bothered using blue lights.

4) I was stood by the front door of my childhood home. There were two black panthers outside, and I was struggling to lock the door so they couldn't come in. Then my family arrived home in the car, I could see my wife looking at the panthers. A young man was then fighting with one of them, he was losing and he was bleeding heavily from his neck. My family came over to the door with the young man, they were talking at the front door rather than getting in and I started kicking one of the panthers. I think I woke up then.

Fragment

It was evening. I went to toilet and back to my room. I thought about making a prank to my pal, and took a costume of a horrifying ghost - a woman with dark hair, wearing a white dress.

Second dream

I was at a wedding. With family we drove to a small restaurant, where a black woman in a purple dress was telling random stories and jokes about marriage and stuff. I didn't listened to her, going outside and entering sewers instead. It was dirty all around, but it wasn't stinking. I saw one of my classmates playing with spiders, and met a man working in sewers. He told the classmate how to tame spiders, and then he went away saying "I have to meet up with Irene! Goodbye!". I went back to surface and met my father, then I entered the toilet. I wanted to pee, but there were people disturbing me. First a girl entered my cabin, then my father just tore the door to it and thrown it away. I thought "Screw it, I'll just do this!" and started peeing blood.

I was dreaming that my first husband's family & I were all at some shopping mall & bowling alley but it was all abstract & jumpy like scenes. I don't know another word to describe it. It's like the scene changes all the time. Like we would be talking in a shower, at a table, in a restaurant that has those half wall looking things that have those glass cubes. We all were just talking about what to do about something but I can't remember what it was. It wasn't the normal banter w/ these ppl but it didn't feel real off either. Dreams about these ppl come & go because my first husband was the bio dad to my oldest son & my twin daughters. My current husband is their dad however & I am the mom to our youngest son (his bio mom is not in the picture). I would have remembered more but my Meesha (cat) was all over me during the night. I found out she has worms so I guess she wasn't very comfortable but I bought her some meds today & hope she calms down.

The first dream is from yesterday, I was too tired to put it here.

Space opera:
I'm in a gigantic spaceship, watching two men argue violently. One of them is obsviously military, trying to keep the other in rank. The other is some kind of scientist with psionics abilities, and he abrutly end the discution with what amoung to a force-shock, effectivly killing the military man. I run away before he sees me, along a curved corridor with lights embedded in the wall and shining white panels. I reach a vertical shaft cutting the corridor and flight myself upward using some kind of telekinesis, until I find a sas that open into a lab with a lot of people in lab coats, busy working. Some of them have a light halo around their heads, and are in charge of the other. I tug at the sleeves of the worker closer to me and gently levitate them into the sas. One of the man with a halo tells me "I'm not allowed to carry butterflies with me." I understand that butterfly is a slang to designate non-psionics peoples. I grab the railing and keep picking up the butterflies to get them away.


Relativity in time and space.
I'm in a big house, almost a manor, with another woman around my age. We're trying to protect a child from someone, and we have the help of a two men: a young, good-looking one with the face of a cursed poet and slighty curly brown hair, and a taller, more brutish one with a gentle streak. Both of them know of a place in which time is folded on itself, and the door keeps changing place. The poet seems to like me a lot and each time we find the door and get inside he welcomes me with a hug. The child, the woman and me keep changing outfits, matching the place and the time we get in each time the safe haven moves, leaving us behnd.

Preface
Sleep at midnight..
In the past many times, I've had dreams where I am a 3rd party watching a story. The people in the dreams are unknown to me in real life, but they seem strangely familiar. I attach myself to a character in the story and I feel emotions.

DR1
I am watching a rockband, that has a female singer. She's thin and tall with long dark brown hair. She has a boyfriend in her band, but it's not clear what instrument he plays. Immediately, I attach myself to her, and it feels as if I am hovering over her or standing behind her, wherever she goes.
The band is talking to their manager, about a gig they are going to play soon. The girl isn't too happy because things aren't ready. I feel the emotion of frustration.
Her boyfriend tries to calm her, and it works. She and I feel secure when he touches her hand.
The band is outside, in the evening time, walking towards a stage. However, they have to walk through an area of people, fans. The girl has a beautiful body, so she likes to wear clothes that show her stomach. But she doesn't really like people staring at her (I think this is odd but I roll with it)and so she is constantly covering her bare mid drift with her hands. When she does so, we both feel naked in front of the crowd. She stops and starts to feel violated and panicked. Her boyfriend comes up behind her and puts his arm across the lower half of her back. Instantly, we feel better, and we keep walking. All is well.

D1 - Only remembered one dream.
In a room with large wooden desk chock full of paperwork and ledgers. I am pawing over a large ledger.
Someone needs the information and I am looking down columns for name underlined. I answer a phone on the desk.
Later someone comes in and takes the ledger and photocopies it so they have their own copy to relate to when calls come into the main office. Noooo! the information is not uptodate. I try to sort out the mess.
The information is all to do with the xmas play ~^ what the... and the boss is there in his office waiting to see me, uh oh

[comment]
Ok I have recurring dreamsign here
that i am going to try and use as a trigger

I dreamt something awesome but don't remember what it was. Anyways I know it was awesome because as soon as I woke up I tried hard to get back to sleep and continue the dream but it didn't work. My little brother came in and screamed to wake me up. I was pretty angry (obviously) and told him to get out or else. After that I forgot what I dreamt .

I dreamt of meeting a brother from church somewhere (I don't know what this place was) and all the people I saw were somehow wearing a red jumpsuit. I and my friend just walked around and talked. I blinked and after my dream-eyes were open again, he disappeared. I was searching for him and somehow got in my classroom (and I don't know how I got there, first of all I have easter-holiday and I didn't even walk near the school). I was there and once again everyone wore red jumpsuits (don't ask me why I didn't wear one). I saw a friend and classmate, let's just call him D. I was very happy to see D again because he was pretty sick before the holiday started and I haven't seen him for 2 weeks now. Since D's got a girlfriend he hugs everyone important to him and so he hugged me. I just hugged him back and somehow I couldn't let go anymore and after about 15 seconds of hugging I woke up.

After this dream I realized, that I dream alot of people I'm emotionally attached to.

I've dreamt of seeing my grandmother again. I was at her house with my uncles and aunties including an uncle who moved away after a family feud. She was pretty happy to see everyone and even cried when she saw me. I remember talking to her but not what I said. We all sat in the kitchen (pretty weird because her kitchen is not that big) and including me we were at least 15 people.

I was actually supposed to get lucid but I didn't. I knew it's just a dream but I did not get lucid....

This dream only lasted a few moment but Seen that same car again. This time I was in the same driveway where the owner had moved it to and there was people outside with me. Someone said that the energy was taken from the car and when I looked at it again, it had stuff on the inside that looked like plaster with cracks on it and the car next to it I think was completely turned into that stuff.

Split second wake.

I'm back in the same spot and I see the silver car in front of me The windows were less tinted. I look for the tree shaped air freshener and it is gone.

Some things have happened earlier in the dream but forgot upon wakening. I'm outside with people and we are talking about something. My sister and brother along with my mom and her friend was there no one was talking to me some I left the group and wandered about. I ended up in a drive way that had a silver colored car there. It was updated and had dark colored windows yet I can still see the tree shaped, yellow, vanilla air freshener hanging around the mirror. I walked to the side of it and into the back yard that was over grown. I decided not to go back there and went back the way I came, not looking up at where I was going. I suddenly began to smell he vanilla freshener and when I looked up, I realized that I was climbing around in the back seat of the car. What the... It was dark inside with dark green reflections and I quickly got out of there before the owner comes out and gets me. The door of that car somehow opened but no one was inside, how the hell did that happen? However, my mom saw me and yelled at me about it. I tried to explain to her what happened but she was talking to her friend, ignoring me in the process. Pissed I stormed away from them but then my brother wanted to know what I had to say. What can he possible do about this? Nothing. I shook my head and then stopped as I find out that my path to where ever was blocked off by a web. Mom and them showed up and saw it too. "we are going to have to find a way through this stuff." As I looked at the web I seen what looked like little tiny gnats and some plump maggots crawling around on it. No spider. There was no way my mom was gonna be touching that stuff. I turned and walked away and neither was I.

Dream 1 - Plane-jack
I remember being in the sky flying a plane, there's some context about the Joker (from Batman) being a terrorist. There was another plane or two on my side, I think a black guy was the leader of the troupe and he seemed reminiscent of an actual comic character. I think I shot down a couple planes, and then swooped in to land at the airport. It was chaos here because of all the planes getting shot down nearby, I was now the Joker too. I hid my face a bit just in case the security recognized me and snuck out of the building.

Dream 2 - Sex lucid
I was in a house, I seem to remember having sex (non-lucid) and then progressing into the dream a bit more. I walked into a business meeting room with a large oval table and some nice looking chairs seated around it. There was a blonde lady in here which I approached and hooked up with. As this happened I realized I was dreaming, but I had the feeling that by becoming more aware I would wake myself up due to the precarious instability associated with sex-lucids. But it wasn't stable enough regardless and I felt myself wake up, though it was probably a FA. When I woke up I saw next to me my friend Sam, asleep. I woke up properly a while later to let my cat out I think.

1/4/16:
(I will be away this weekend so tomorrows DJ entry will come a day late hopefully)
Dream 1: I was a master debater (lol at my subconscious) at a big company. I went into an elevator where a woman was already standing. As we went up she asked me what I did and I replied with that, things got a bit awkward after that.

Fragment: Something about singing.

Dream 2: I was at school in an art room. A student was giving a powerpoint presentation on some sort of -ism topic, all SJW like, so I was pretty bored. I started talking with a girl next to me who agreed the whole thing was stupid, then we walked out.

Dream 3: I was at the airport and waiting for ages to catch a flight. In my boredom I read up on thievery in airports and discovered that supposedly every year $50 million worth of stuff gets stolen from airports in South Korea ( I don't know if that is the airport I was in or not). I went to a phone bank and picked up a phone. Someone was calling me, and asked my something in Chinese. I responded and they asked me if I was or had seen a university professor. I stammered and replied that I was just a student not a professor and I could hear laughing from behind me. I turned around and saw a Chinese guy laughing his head off and looking at me while on his phone. I walked past him and told him quite loudly "you are very naughty" in chinese. A whole bunch of people then turned and stared at me in shock but I kept on walking past them. This would have been good, but I slipped on my socks and fell over in front of everyone. They all giggled a bit but I yelled out "stupid qualitative research!" and they all shut up and began nodding in agreement. I then carried on and went down an escalator to a platform like a train station and found the rest of my family waiting for me there.

Dream 4: The Age, a great newspaper in my area, was shutting down and I was distraught. A couple of friends and I went to their head office in the city to see what was going on and we were told because not enough people were buying the newspaper they couldn't carry on. We were all very upset and we went around buying the last ever edition to preserve it in our memories.

Dream 5: (This was very long and weird dream) I was with three other people, all dressed like me, and we ended up somehow in a strange suburb. WE were lost and wandering about when we were approached by 4 people all wearing red shirts. They told us about jesus or some shit, I guess they were Mormons or jehoah's witnesses, anyway somehow it ended up that we were in debt to them and had to work at their shop to pay off the debt. WE did what they wanted but then they refused to let us go until we believed their lunacy. Eventually I saw an opening as one of their guys parked a car in front of the shop and left the door open as he was bringing stuff inside. I sprinted out and weaved through other roving groups of wearing different coloured shirts and dove into the car. I shut the door and spun round and drove up the street. I yelled out to my 3 fellow people who were returning from collecting something to jump in. They did and off I sped. The red shirts had saw me, though, and jumped into another car and sped off into hot pursuit. We made it down a few streets but they were catching up to us and our car had ran out of fuel, so we jumped out and began sprinting down the street. We saw a parked van with two people inside, so we begged for them to let us in and drive away. They let us, and we zoomed away, losing those red shirts.

We drove away for a little bit and then talked with our drivers. They were a middle aged couple, and we asked them where they were taking us. They said we would head back to their place, and we started getting a little uneasy. I saw a giant mower in the back of the van, and I asked them if they were going to make us mow their lawns to pay off the debt. They said yes, and as we pulled into the driveway as the sun set I saw they had square kilometres worth of lawns. We did the mowing for a little bit, but then I decided to get into their car and try and escape again. Trouble was, they spotted us and began chasing. Long story short, they caught us again but we did manage to secure some money from the endeavour somehow. As they were going back to their house they needed petrol so we stopped for that, however this time I managed to find a fast car and upgrade it with the money I had found, and suddenly it was like Mario kart. We zoomed away and they couldn't follow us for a bit as they were refuelling. The race was on, 200km to home and us with a 5 km head start. A succession of people from the react youtube channels were driving us in turns, people like markiplier, Rachel, lia, a girl called andrea was really good, pewdiepie did as well. they were catching up to us but we had a secret boost with the last of our money and pulled ahead again. We made it into the final straight with 100m between us, and although we slowed down at the end we managed to just cross the line ahead of them, thus we were saved.

I remember I was teaching at my second elementary school. (IRL, I went to two elementary schools. One was from first and second grade, and another was from third grade onward.) I remember I was an assistant teacher for a class of first graders in the first room down the main hall, and my Taekwondo master was supposed to be my assistant.

I don't remember exactly what happened but I needed to get something from the art room. In the dream the art room was where the gymnasium was IWL, just down the hall from the first grade classroom. I went to leave and my Taekwondo master asked where I was going. I told him I needed to get something and if he could just watch the class for a minute. For some reason he started crying because he thought I was quitting being a teacher and leaving him with the kids. I just ignored him and figured he'd perk up as soon as I came back.

(I guess this was trying to reference my waking life work at the Taekwondo studio in some way.)

I went down the hall to the art room. It was very dark in there because they were doing electrical work. The art teacher said she had been expecting me and while she didn't have [whatever it was I needed], she did have an extra shipment of markers she wanted me to have. So she filled up my backpack with them and told me to take them back to the class. She also gave me an AV cart with some video tapes from the school library.

I came vaugley remember coming back to the classroom with an AV cart and told the kids that we were going to watch Kung Fu Panda as part of our unit on chinese culture. I said something about how it was directed by a Chinese woman and was supposedly at least somewhat accurate.

...

The movie was nothing like any of the Kung Fu Panda movies that I remember. It didn't center around Po but rather another bear, a brown bear who also knew kung fu and had shown up from another land. I remember he encountered Po in the woods (who was wearing a cape and straw hat) and the two started fighting.

It was one intense fight too, they were kicking one another through trees and stuff. A thunderstorm started as their fighting moved into a field. They both began employing these energy attacks, kind of like a hudoken that would shoot these little homing energy balls at one another, and making magical shields. I feel like Po projected golden energy and the brown bear projected blue energy.

Eventually they ended up breaking through the ground and winding up in some kind of spirit realm. (I think it started off looking like the spirit realm from the third kung fu panda movie.) But eventually the fight faded out to something else.

...

Some narrator character explained that my dreams have two layers. One layer of dreams is based in reality, while the other layer is based in a sort of spirit realm. The difference between the layers is that one of them uses locations from reality and simply overlays them in different ways to create a slightly different dream experience. The other is a fantasy, where it can be any location. This was the lower layer.

The lower layer is further subdivided into four sections. Mountian, Plains, Forest and Sea/Islands, with a city in a center and each of the four sections spreading out in a 90 degree slice from a central city. We approach the central city. I remember there was a huge spire, it looked like an oil refinery, but had to be over a mile tall. The entire thing was covered in pipes, tanks, girder structures and smoke stacks. There was a transition zone at the cloud layer, and at the very top of the spire was a small compact city skyline of glittering modern glass skyscrapers.

Next to that main city were some huge docks. I remember there were these flying tanker ships. They were sections of huge spherical tanks held together by steel trusses. Four tanks, then a control tower, then four more tanks and a cluster of engines. On the bottom were two glowing blue energy conduits that presumably kept the things aloft.

The world looked fairly sapped of color, everything was yellow, brown and toxic green. Even the top part of the city.

I remember I realized I was flying at this point. I turned away from the city and flew around it. I remember seeing a cluster of volcanoes. But the volcanoes were capped by these oil-rig structures, and the lava was being channeled down the sides into collection areas. I landed atop a cooling tower. (It looked like one of those huge cement towers you see on nuclear plants) I was standing on the edge looking down at the lower levels of the city, where it looked like a shanty/slum.

Someone said something to me about it still being Halloween at the train station. (I feel like it was Marcus.) I looked down at the train station and saw people loading giant pumpkins, three to a car onto flatbed cars of a train. I remember the pumpkins were really bright orange and stood out against the other colors of the dream world. I flew down into what I presume was supposed to be a park of some kind. I remember the ground was paved with rusty metal and crumbling concrete and there were areas of dead trees and grass.

I began thinking clearly and decided to summon Manei. I didn't need to say the command, she materialized in front of me as soon as I thought of her, along with a computer desk, computer and chair that she was sitting at. Apparently when that manifested her in, the computer was disconnected from its power source and she lost whatever she was working on. She threw her hands up in frustration at this fact. She turned and saw me.

Me: "I want you to come with me, I need to be with you alone, so we can talk."

Manei: "No."

Me: "Well then I'm going to look around the city myself. That part sure looks interesting... " (Looking towards a portion of the city lit up with neon.)

Manei: (Still staring at the computer) "No."

Me: "How about some dream reading. (The part of the city that is lit up with neon shrinks and ignores spatial relationships for a second, with the buildings becoming racks of books to read, then reverting to their original state.)"

I look at the cover of what I have taken from the rack. It looks like a manga, though it reads left to right like a regular book. I can't read what it is titled, but it looks like mostly vertical characters, like a mixture of upper and lowercase I's, J's and L's. There is a picture of an anime girl on the front with white hair and silvery blue eyes. She is covering herself with a white blanket. I open to a random page. The right hand page is some kind of advertisement. The page has a red background with black text and seems to be selling some kind of robots. The other side shows the character from the cover, naked, talking to another female character while sitting on a bed for three panels. The speech balloons were in the same weird vertical language.

Manei: "No, no reading, either!" she snatched the book from me and ripped it in half down the spine.
Me: "Well then, what do you want me to do? I'm lucid and it would be a shame to waste it."

Spoiler for Language (And not me swearing up a dream for once):

Manei: She laughs at me. (I feel like a couple of other DCs laughed too even though I didn't see anyone else.) "I want you to come over here and fuck me!"

Me: (Irritated by the laughing DCs) "Well, at least your direct about it."

The dream shifts to my living room. She begins to take her clothes off, and I can tell the dream is starting to lose clarity. I remember we were both wearing disgusting dirty heavy coats from the previous environment. I think I stopped after taking my shirt off and realized there was one bit of business I need to take care of first.

Me: Metatitakiatientes, (I rub my hands together.)
Manei: What are you doing?
Me: Stabilizing the dream before we start. You know how the dream will-
Manei: That's not the right command word.
Me: Yes it is, you're the one that taught it to me...
Manei: I have to go to the bathroom.
Me: Dream Guides don't have to go to the bathroom.

She walked out on me anyway. I feel like I used some trick to fast forward time to where she came back. The dream is still losing clarity at this point.

Me: Wait, you taught me the wrong command? Why? (No wonder that never seemed to work...)
She doesn't really say anything. Everything starts to go dark about here. I snap my fingers and make a small flame to keep things illuminated around us.

Me: Oh well, now it's your own fault we can't do what you want.
Manei: [Isn't the pursuit of selfish desire while ignoring the consequences what dreams are]
Me: [Not to me, not anymore, not in their entirety]
Manei: [Why do you even bother, just give in to me for once.]
Me: [You think I will just accept your mistakes you because of the physical nature of sexuality. I see beyond that. Marcus said it himself, your dream body is nothing more than a facade. It's who you really are that matters, and I will do no such favors for somebody who, on the inside doesn't deserve my affection, regardless of my own desires, or yours. This is exactly what I wanted to tell you about. Your role as a dream guide comes first, and you seem to have forgotten that.]
Manei: [So you're listening to Marcus more than me now?!]
Me: [It's the only logical thing to do, move to a more reliable person for consultation.]
Manei: [You're not very loyal, using an outside source like that to get information.]
Me: [You have to earn my loyalty back. Reliability ranks well above sexual desire.]
Manei: [I want to fix this.]
Me: [Me too.]

I was so intent on the discussion that I realized I could feel my body back in bed, and everything was black now. I thought I would just wake up.



-+-

I think there was a false awakening after this part that resulted in me waking up in my bedroom. I remember something was going on and I had to use my telescope to see it. I feel like there was much more. A 'Dream Computer Error' happened and I took a vacation in the tropics.

For some reason that whole final thought-discussion was undertoned with the idea that Manei was some kind of impostor. I don't know what the heck is going on here, but I feel like I'm about to learn something I don't want to know...