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I didn't remember anything from last night.

At my dads there is this old highschool building thats been there for like 200 years. For some reason its abandoned and a bunch of teenagers are loitering there just kinda being mischievious. I'm walking around the school whenever I notice a girl with blond hair and bright blue eyes following me. I start running she's getting closer and closer still. Somehow I'm now wearing skates and I'm flying down the hallway. She cries out," Wait Katelyn, let me see your face! I'm dead! You went here with my descendants!" I fly into a window AWAY from her. The last thing I remember is seeing a browser pop-up and one of my friends's picture is up there. And he's got long blonde hair like when he was in high school.

Woke lots last night but too tired to write dreams down, so forgot most of them.

A very depressing dream

1) In the lounge of an old stately home with big windows. it was dark and foggy outside, we had to go outside to look for the dog. We were chasing around moorland. Then an old 'friend' appeared who used to bully me at school, he started to make fun of me, he was trying to get me to buy a really tacky loking old mirror with plastic on it I think as a present for someone, and I refused and he made fun of me even more. Then I was in the kitchen of my childhood home, there was a pile of presents on the table, I opened the ones from my mother to me. They were obviously very expensive, I think she had bought them in the shop of the stately home we had just been in. I didn't like them though, then started to feel very depressed and angry with myself that I didn't appreciate her presents. About now I think my parents mentionned that they had booked a weekend away for themselves for Easter and started telling me how marvellous it was, and I was jealous. I thought that killing myself would be the only way out, but decided that I didn't agree with suicide. A half empty plate of food landed on the kitchen table, I asked if dinner was being served, my mother told told me yes and I needed to go and get some, she poured herself another glass of wine and walked off. I went to the dining room, my whole family including grandparents were sitting around the table and had almost finished without even inviting me, there was no plae mat or cutlery in my place. I started to get some food but my brother and a friend had started clearing up and moved everything before I could get much food. I followed them to the kitchen but still couldn't get at the food a they were all crowding around so I gave up.
This was the saddest dream I can ever remember. I woke up feeling very depressed and suicidal, then realised that this was real life and that I am actually quite happy.

1. I had just woken up(false awakening) and I was laying in bed. I looked at my phone and saw that the time said 11:07 a.m. "Holy fuck I'm late!" I said as I sprung out of bed. School started at 10:30 today so I was already 37 minutes late. I stopped worrying about how late I was as it wasn't going to change anything and I got up and walked into the restroom to take a piss. I pulled down my boxers and immediately noticed(it gets explicit here) that the tip of my dick was as blue as blueberries, or even as blue as the cookie monster. "What in the fuck" I said as I looked at my dick in astonishment. Just then I got my phone and searched online for "what causes blue tip of dick" (lmfao wow). My phone brought me to twitter and somehow brought me to my friend Alex's twitter.
I saw that he had just tweeted, but it wasn't a normal tweet; he tweeted a dick pic. "Wtf is Alex thinking? Everyone can see this shit he's screwed" I said out loud. He captioned his dick pic "Why is the tip of my dick as red as a cherry?!!?". It then occurred to me, my tip was blue; his was red. "What does this mean?" I thought to myself. It then also occurred to me how gay this was, and I immediately exited out of twitter as I found no joy in looking at Alex's dick(lmao). I looked out the bathroom window and saw that the sky was overcast. Suddenly I found myself to have teleported on Alex's street right in front of his house. "Maybe I should talk to Alex about this? What if there's something wrong with our dicks?" I asked myself.

2. I was inside of a grocery store walking around and getting food with my dad. The store's lighting was dim as it tends to be in my dreams, and the floor was a buffed concrete that was so buff you could see your reflection in it. My dad and I started walking down one of the frozen food aisles. It was slightly cold. Every where I looked on this aisle I could see all sorts of frozen pizza. "You see that over there son?" my dad asked me. "What?" I replied. "Over there" he pointed not far from us in one of the frozen sections, "That's pizza that has dog meat all over it" he told me. "What in the fucking hell" I remember thinking to myself. I was now semi-lucid. "Who would ever eat that? We don't eat dog meat in America" I said. "Yeah this one guy bought it not too long ago and it was on the news. He died after eating it" my dad said.
I remember feeling a little sick to my stomach despite how I have a strong stomach and don't get sick by just looking at things. I walked over to where the dog meat pizza was and got a closer look at it. There was only one left. It seems that people really liked it and many of them were buying it. As I looked at the dog meat pizza I noticed that it was just a regular piece of pizza except its crust was pale white and there was a huge slab of frozen dog meat on top of the entire slice. "How could anyone ever eat this? Why would anyone ever kill a dog and sell its meat?" I thought to myself. After that my dad and I continued walking around the grocery store and I remember getting alot of food and putting it in the grocery cart.

3. I was in my own car, but I wasn't driving it. I was sitting in the passenger seat as my sister drove. I don't know what led me to let her drive but something told me to let her try it out. We were driving home from somewhere and were now on the feeder. The sky was completely covered in clouds and it looked like it was about to rain. Suddenly we came to an intersection and the light was red, but my sister kept on driving. A car was driving towards us from the right and had to slam on the breaks to avoid from crashing into us. "What the hell are you doing?!?" I asked my sister. She then continued to drive across the intersection and she ended up running into a curb and driving over it. I felt the entire car bump up and I could hear the concrete slamming into my front bender.
"Okay that's enough Kayla pull over. I'm driving us the rest of the way" I told her. She then pulled over and we switched seats. I started driving. We came to the last intersection before our house and as we passed it I noticed that under the bridge we had to go under, there was 2 firetrucks and an ambulance. Lying on the road not far from them were 2 guys. One seemed to have gotten both of his legs torn off and half of his face was gone, and his skin was pale white and he was bald. The other guy wasn't far from him and he was missing an arm and was covered in blood. "Holy shit dude are you seeing this?" I asked my sister. "Yeah" she replied.
I then "realized" that it was all just acting for some sort of show and continued driving home. Suddenly I found myself driving down a deserted road and it was now nighttime. My sister was still in the passenger seat. There were lights all down this road, but it was still fairly dark. Beyond the boundaries of the road on each side was thick forestry. I remember coming to a stop and parking in a col-de-sac to find out were we were. We were completely lost. I pulled out my phone and looked at my location. My GPS said that I was in Virginia. "What.The.Fuck" I said out loud. Just then my aunt Hope and my other aunt Beverly walked out of a house in the col-de-sac. At first I didn't recognize Beverly as I haven't seen her in years.
Hope was quiet, but as usual, Beverly was no where near it. "What's up Cory?" Beverly said in an energetic tone. She then walked up to me and picked me up by my nutsack with one arm. Oddly enough it wasn't painful. She was now holding me up above her head with her right arm all by my nutsack(I must be strong down there **insert slick emoji with shades on** xD).

Alright After many times of waking up during the night by the time morning got here I was no longer sleepy however, upon laying down and thinking about my previous dream this is what happened.

I'm in some kind of kitchen and it is daytime. My mom is in the dining room and I'm looking through some windows. There is water in the sink and it began to fill up. I quickly became lucid and mentally warn the dream to stop now. The water continues to fill up until it is over flowing. There is a coffee maker plugged in on the floor and I ran out of the kitchen before I get shocked. I feel like I'm being drawn back into the room and gets fed up with the dream. I wake myself up right into SP. I was expecting this. It is a way for a dream to continue to work even after you wake up, while in SP I warned the dream that I can end this here and now and look for a new dream to take your place. I was in my bedroom and and there were no vibrations that usually forces me to break out of SP. I allowed myself to drift back into the dream and found myself in the same dream I just woke up from. I forgot to think about the previous dream first, shit. I'm in the kitchen next to the windows I was looking out of, the sinks were gone it was only a counter with some things on top of it. I looked around for the coffee maker, it was gone then I realized that I was in a different room and the one I was in was next to this one, so I went to it. The sinks were there but this time was full of dishes and pans, seen some water there that was dark in color under the pans and turned away fast then found the coffee maker. It was still plugged in where it was the last time but looked like it had seen betterdays the glass container (what ever the part that holds the coffee is called) looked like it was water stained and had been there for quite some time.

I will be doing this! I don't mind the wait. Maybe I can get a few more friends on here by then. Any takers?

Right now I'm reading "So You Want to be a Medium". I was in this section at the library looking for Lucid Dream books & came across this. It has really good meditation technique's & visualization excercises so I highly reccommend it to others who need help w/ meditaion & detailed dreaming... Never discard a book by its title. Instead look into the table of contents. Here's the link to the book. https://g.co/kgs/Okucr

29/3/16:
Dream 1: I went to a window near the back of my house and saw an owl outside, looking at me with big yellow eyes. I marvelled at this as I had never seen an owl IRL before. I then noticed my cat was next to me, hissing and spitting at the window. The owl and the cat got up as close as they could to the window and starting taunting each other. Somehow the cat got out though, and the owl was no more. My brother came and asked me what was going on but I told him to go back as he didn't want to see what was going on.

Dream 2: There was a gun which shot backwards, a sawn of shotgun which sprayed pellets everywhere out the back end of the gun, so a guy was going around tricking people into thinking they were safe before he shot them.

Dream 3: I was at a high school, not my own, in class. I was on my computer and playing a game, something star wars related I think. The bell rang and class ended so I ran outside to get to my locker. I passed a cafeteria and then got to my locker only to realise I had left my computer and books and stuff in the classroom. I decided to get the rest of my stuff from my locker first before going back for that. While at the lockers I bumped into a friend discussing with some other people how he had royal/noble blood. His mum was related to the second most powerful family in Malaysia, however they were under threat of attack from the most powerful family so they had to defend themselves. Their house there had an extendable spiral wall to protect them at night, which he gave a demonstration of at his locker, pulling out a wooden spiral fence around it that grew and grew. I went bac to the classroom to get my stuff, passing someone I knew on the way, only to find there was an after school art class going on in that room. I went inside and saw my stuff was still there, so I began packing it away but the art teacher stopped me. She tried to get me to join in with their activities, making a big balloon sack thing, so I went along with it a bit before just packing my stuff away and getting out of there.

This one was several days ago. I was in my old apartment in the livingroom. Kuvira (a military dictator/conqueror from The Legend of Korra) was there. I can't exactly remember what happened, all I remember is thinking that her next move was going to be her calling her army to catch me, so I jumped onto her and covered her mouth. I remember seeing the front door as well.

A couple of days ago I had a dream that I and a group of survivors were hiding in a severely damaged house. It was a good-sized one story house that looked like it had just been through a hurricane. Walls had been knocked down and about half of the ceiling was torn off.

The house was our only cover from a T-Rex that was trying to kill us. I never saw the T-Rex, because I stayed behind the walls and went the opposite way that I heard it going. Anyways, I cautiously go through the livingroom and kitchen into the garage. There are other people evading the T-Rex as well. A guy told me about a gun that was somewhere. All I remember was that it didn't have ammo or had some other problem. I back track through the kitchen and into the livingroom, evading the T-Rex. END.

#9 LD - Low quality vision
As always my room. I was laying on my bed with my bf. I was looking at the wall and thought that I shouldn't be there (I wasn't at home in RL then). I did RC and get lucid. It was dark. I tried to make some light by commands but I only had some strange quality vision. Sth like that: [KLIK]. I didn't write it down but I think that I saw also some disco colours and I said that I didn't mean this kind of light. I wasn't calm much. I went to the shelf and took a red figure. I touched some towel. I went to my mom's room and tried to fly through the window. I heard an alarm but I knew that it's still a dream. I saw on the phone that it's 2:10AM. I flew away and on purpose I was falling down spinning. I thought that it was a bad idea. It started to be dark and my dream changed to NLD. Some bird or 2 were falling down on the hill.

With a slight delay...

Non-lucid parts
Lucid parts
My comments

#8 LD - Wardrobe
During NLD. I was in my room and I saw purple flowers behind my window. It was a day. I thought that they shouldn't be there. I did RC (nose plug) and get lucid surprisingly. I flew through the window near the trees. I did a flip and I thought that it was a bad idea. It started to be dark. Fortunately I teleported to the kitchen, still lucid. I went to my room again. I opened my wardrobe (I wanted to see some magical scape). I saw a blue picture, there were some things and characters. When I started to look more carefully it was less and less pretty. The wardrobe was like computer. I skipped to the next picture and another one (with woman). I didn't draw them then and I forgot how they looked like. I started to lose lucidity I think because I was thinking about saving these pictures by screenshots. I tried to flew through the wardrobe and I stuck. I rubbed my hands (?). I went to the bathroom and thought about summoning my bf but I didn't do that. I recalled a TOTM (basic II, DC's favourite dream) so I went to my mom's room. I wanted to ask her about her fav dream but during talk I wasn't sure if this is a dream. I tried to fly but I couldn't. I think that also nose plug failed. She told me that I should go if I don't want anything. So I did. I don't remember anything else so I probably woke up.

It was late afternoon. I was in a huge mansion, sneaking around the rooms. I held a pistol in my hands, it was silenced. I tried to sneak past cloaked figures and take something out of the mansion. I moved really carefully as I felt immense danger. I moved between rooms and floors, finally I found some book and jumped to the streets through a window. Suddenly all the robed people, police and soldiers appeared and started shooting at me. Someone called me from the other side of street. It was a black man, he said "Run bro! I'll keep them away!" and took a pistol, then ran to shoot at them. I ran away to a square, it was getting late. I saw two girls from my class park a small car. I stolen it to escape. I barely fit inside, I was driving in a small alley. A thought about lucid dreaming went through my mind. I looked closely at beams of light falling on the cobble road, then everything went black and I woke up.

I died. I don't know how, I don't know why. I just knew that.
I found myself hovering in void. A few hundred of metres away there was other man hovering. It was absolute darkness there. I felt that I'm stuck there. It didn't matter to me. I observed my surrounding... unattached observer. No will, no want, no need of anything...
Then I saw that that man started to glow stronger and stronger until he dissolved in blinding white light. I remained there alone, not that it mattered anything to myself. But I started to be curious- what happened? And I got answer. That man started to show humility. He was taken away. The place where we were was purgatory. And I felt that I have to do the same to be taken too.
So I tried. And I failed. And I failed again. And I asked- how can I feel humility, when I feel nothing at all? When I feel total peace? No answer. But I started to feel inadequate. With that I started to feel many different emotions... the peace I was in was taking cracks. But I observed it and concentrated on countermeasures till I was again in total peace and timelessness. I felt that I do right thing. I can't be dependant of outside forces, it is way of slavery... I concentrated... on transfer... Actinic flash and I vanished.

Remarks
The consciousness was really strong in this dream, much, much stronger than in waking life. Although I didn't know that it was only a dream. Therefore I marked this as nonlucid dream even if level of lucidity was so strong.
This dream got me thinking about my life philosophy. I deviated from what I learned from my parents... we are roman catholics... But I took quite different philosophy as time went... my experiences are stronger than any books or speeches of priests... It got me thinking whether my way is right. Whether I'm not lead by other, darker forces. Away from "god". I was unable to feel regret... I felt regret that I can't feel regret for a short time until I found what I do. But that doesn't feel right in light of what I learned from my parents. On other side... what is right and what is wrong... I need to research this in fullness, in changed state of consciousness.
I had this dream probably because of discussion I had at previous dream.

[comment] sleep pattern messed up, since I programmed myself to awake after each dream, now I awake approx 3am which would be ideal time for mild or something but instead I am finding it nye on impossible to get back to sleep LOL

Awoke about 7am after fitful sleep, any recall i had evaporated and I decided to just see what I could see while in hypnogoic sleep state.
Friend of mine labelled this my trance state as I do this fairly wide awake also but i'd never tried it on waking before Oo
Each scene in trance exited into the next without any morphing, much like
cards being turned to reveal a new scene.

1) scene that came into my mind was of a large tree on a skyline, tree totally black due to lighting,
picture was in smokey watercolours, dark storm clouds in a purple and yellowy sky.
I can't remember which way round it happened but the tree which had appeared densly foliaged
had all its deep blackness turn into a vast swarm of black birds which swept into the sky
becoming like a million tiny black particles forming themselves into a cloud.

2) Again in watercolours, a shamen lay taking up most of the bottom portion of the scene.
He was old and wearing full feathered headress layed out on the ground.
In the sky was a yellowed figure, half cloud half face of a indian spirit.
I could not tell if the shamen was sleeping or dying or being brought back to life?

3) A close up of a group of elven face lit by a bright white light, also hues of green and yellow.
They were smiling with bright eyes.

4) A photo realistic scene of being on a small island, with gravel paths and tended lush foliage.
A very sunny day with the sea sparkling, flashes of light from reflected light on the waves.
As I grow closer, I could smell the sea and see that a part of a gigantic lizard the scales a dull grey,
was raised above the water. The island itself was an amphibian of some kind.

5) Another photo realistic scene, outside a house, my eye was drawn to something near the roof
I zoomed in on part of a scene, within a triangle, was a viscous liquid
golden dark brown, inside it was moving, it was alive, inside was a man.
i could tell but not see.

6) I see myself sitting in bed awake. The bed has a metal back.
Next to me I cannot see who is there but I am stunned by the mirroring
of my circumstances, after the other seemingly abstract scenes and its realism.

7) Against a darkened blue, night sky. A large circle is being held by the
hand of some unseen person. Within the circle they're are to forms, one is me
another on the other side a woman, we are both held in an energy field. The currents
of which can be seen zigzagging like lighting strkes, binding us together.

8) The symbolic outline of a man is on one side of the scene, his is in the figure
of a anch sign, his legs angular and stylised. His shadow is thrown forward to
the other side of the scene. Large reddy, orange dried leaves are grouped
pointing away from him. In the distance a swarm of black birds flys towards him
out of the orange tinged sky. They turn to black dots and stream into him
I am hit by a surge of energy, like a sledghammer. My heart starts to race.
Leaves turn into phoenix feathers, with flames on edges.


my dream journal sketch of ankh man.

I awake and sketch what I can remember.There were some dreams as well inbetween
but I can't recall them, now.
I go to make coffee for my daughter (humble servant that I am)
As I look into the coffee jar, the granules are alive like a thousand
moving people.
I add the sugar and they appear to move before my eyes like the swarm of birds.
I look down at the work top and its texture moves like clouds on a large stormy
sky.
A pattern to my right again looks like many people moving and another birds.
I sit down on the carpet and the room rocks, the floor looks and is moving
like the sea, a thousand waves set in motion.

Thankfully things calm down after that. I have the reverlation that everything
is alive and in motion, time is the thing that stops us from seeing this.
I laugh as the clocks hand moving, makes me jump thinking it is another vision (?)

I open the french windows, and a large plant pot of earth is hit as the door
is caught by the wind, it scatters earth like a million black birds across the
ground Oo