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Before I get started on my dreams, I'm doing something different so I figured I'd state what it is and what you can expect on the next week or possibly longer depending on my results I'm trying to learn DEILD, wich means instead of taking notes when I wake up between dreams, I'm just going back to sleep. So last night my dreams were all fairly interesting enough that I remembered them and took notes when I got up for the morning, none of them were lucid though (I'm struggling with the whole not opening my eyes thing ) In the future though, I don't foresee remembering any where near my usual without my notes. I gotta get past the feeling of disappointment I get when I can't remember at least 3 dreams too. But without anymore rambling, here they are!

Dream One: I'm watching a documentary about a fish. It looks like some sort of alien world, the water is a dark blueish black, not "clear blue" like in cleans ocean on earth, but not greenish brown like the oceans I've always been to, lol. In the dream documentary I learned that this particular fish hatches, and then it attaches it's self to the underside of certain other type of fish, then it would eat the bits that fly free when the other fish was eating.I watched videos of these two fish swiming (and they looked very odd, the host fish was very rounded and more like manatees than fish, but they were also definitely fish... maybe similar to Beluga whales only dark grey instead of white) and the parasite fish kind of reminded me of a white fish skeleton, only it's spiky parts weren't just bone, but flowey fin thingies. The documentary also said that they were having trouble in the north west islands because the host fish (I can't remember the fish names now ) up there had evolved with a mouth lower on it's body and when the parasite fish attached, it would block the host fish's mouth and the host fish would slowly starve to death unable to open it's mouth, then the parasite would move on to another host and kill it as well. Apparently the parasite could eat the food the host would try to catch by acting as the mouth so it didn't starve.

Dream Two(Fragment): I'm at a star wars convention. All I remember is being there with my mom, seeing clone troopers, and going into the bathroom.

Dream Three: I'm standing inside a big warehouse/convention style building. I'm waiting for someone, but he's not showing up. I know I'm waiting for him though, and I know he's going to be there (and I knew who in the dream, but it was one of those things that slipped my mind by the time I woke up for the morning) I grow tired of waiting, and decide to explore. I start to walk, and suddenly the floor becomes water, so I lay back and start floating. I see a wall at arms length from me, so I float towards it, and plant my feet on it, then walk on the wall letting my body float in the water rather than wasting energy swimming. (That would so only work in a ream, lol) Then I see a boat nearby, and I listen in on what's being said on the boat. There's a woman with pretty long black hair, and I think she reminds me of an Egyptian queen, she's wearing lots of gold and red and her boat looks similar to something you'd see in hieroglyphs. She says, "In this world I could just blink and report my goods where I want them but its so much more fun to play and pretend like I'm transporting them. " and in my mind, I understand this concept that I am not in the real world, and that I can do... special(?) things that I can't in the real world, but I just don't get that I am dreaming. And it's important to realize, I felt this way from the beginning of the dream, that logic didn't apply here, but rather than being a dream I just thought I had traveled to another world or something, lol. My senses also tell me the person I was waiting for is nearby though I can't see him, but since he's not coming to meet me like he's supposed to I feel abandoned for a moment, then decide to move on and explore so I can forget again. I look around me, and see these big rugs hanging from shelves on the wall above where I'm "walking" and I notice that they would be really pretty rugs, except the company that makes them has their logo on all the rugs, even bigger than the design. In some rugs, the logo is twice the size of the actual design. I wonder if people of this world like things that are "branded" like that fad where teenagers are wearing clothes with their favorite shirt brands names on them... it's not that the logos are nice (I find them very ugly!), I really think sometimes they just want everyone to know that they shop at those stores and should be viewed as somehow higher class or more important than those who shop at other places. Anyways, my opinion of those who would buy such a rug is the same, and I wonder if everyone in that world is so concerned with brands or if the manufacturers are overly concerned with advertising their brand that they miss the point of a rug... to be decorative! Then the floor becomes land again, and I step back onto it and wander over to some anime prints, but they look like fan made stuff, and some of them even look like foil prints. The dark haired girl is looking at the prints too, and talking to a girl with big long curly bleach blond hair. The curly girl seems to be the artist who drew the pictures. She's telling the dark haired girl to pick the prints she wants in exchange for something. The dark haired girl says they're all nice, but none of them are really her style.Then the curly haired girl tells her that she has something else she made for her, and takes her to the right. I follow out of curiosity, and we walk into a move "warehouse" looking area. There are three cardboard cars. The artist girl has been making a card prop for the boat girl's next costume. She goes on to say she's hand making this one herself and making her assistants work on the other ones because she wants to make sure THIS one is perfect for the dark haired girl. Then the dark haired girl says that she'll look at the pictures again. We walk back into the room with the pictures, and I see a rotating postcard display I walk over to it, and it has postcard sized pictures in it. I start to turn it, and my eyes land on one that is the characters of Hakuouki sitting on and around a cherry tree. The difference being the girl character has been replaces by a curly brownish blonde haired character. In the dream I think she looks a LOT like me when my hair was long, but after waking up I realize that being a drawing, it could have been meant to be the girl who drew it, curly haired girl! The whole thing makes me feel off emotionally, because it reminds me that I'm waiting for someone who didn't come. The artist girl notices me looking at the picture and she leans over to say something, then stops and makes a face like she's not sure if she should, then decides to tell me after all. She says, "I loved that game, but if you ask me, I felt sorry for Yukimaru (the female lead character) because I felt like the whole time she was just being taken advantage of." This comment makes me feel even worse, because In a way I wonder if I'm being taken advantage of the way I'm waiting for someone, and even though I can feel him nearby he's not showing up. It feels like I'm being strung along or something. I walk off quickly, as tears start welling up in my eyes, then I RUN back to where the rugs were and try to hide in them and some boxes to cry. But as I start crying I feel like the person I'm waiting for walks by on the other side of the rugs, stops for a moment, then hurries off. I feel even worse, and burst into another round of tears, then someone moves a box. It's some random warehouse worker, and he tells me I can't be here, so I get up and run away. I decide I'm going to go far, far away. I run into a little room that I somehow think is my dad's house. I call out to him, and some strange man comes down from the attic, but in the dream I know he's my "dad in this world" not my real dad. I tell him I'm going to leave and go "back to the desert" because I'm tired of waiting for someone who's not going to show. He tried to talk me out of it, telling me it's hot and that I need to think of my babies who won't like the heat. I tell him I'll be fine because we won't be walking we'll be riding in the car. He reminds me that my AC is broken, and I tell him it'll be fine, there's no humidity in the desert so it feels cooler than home even if it IS hotter. Then a mans voice is practically yelling in my head, "Please just wait for me. If you want to go to the desert I will take you, I have AC. Please wait just a bit longer everything is almost ready." I ignore it though, I don't even bother trying to tell him I'm going anyways. I just walk out the door, and I'm in a little playground with a dirt ground rather than mulch and such like modern playgrounds have. A few of my friends are there with their kids, and I suddenly notice one of my friend's husbands look like the dark haired lover guy from Uraboku (spelled?) and I reason that my friend must be his "Juliet's" reincarnation in this world (couldn't remember the names in the dreams as I've only seen like one or two episodes of that and it was a couple years ago, so we're going to use Shakespeare to draw an analogy here. lol). Then I feel a familiar presence, and feel arms around me, and I know that I'm not waiting anymore and all my anger and feelings of abandonment fade. I'm sure he'd never abandon me. I look over my shoulder and see long dark hair and eerily pales skin. I'm told something about how he was trying to get everything ready so... and then I woke up. Looking back on this dream from an awake POV, I'm pretty sure this was some sort of communication with the "spirit guide" I know as Vesta (not the goddess, lol) He usually takes the form of a black panther in dreams (sometimes Clifford the dog sized, lol) but he also has a human form that he takes that loosely resembles Johnny Depp is Sleepy Hollow The reason I'm sure this is him, is that often when I have dreams of him, I'm always aware that I can do things that I would normally not be able to do, and feel like I'm in "another world" but I never realize it's a DREAM world. Also the part where I hear his voice in my head, and the part where he's Getting something ready... those are big arrows


Dream Four: I'm watching a video of Animazement on a hand held video camera with my husband and kids. I notice a strange pyramid shape in the video, and insist that they rewind it so I can see it again because I think it's an important clue or symbol to something. When we rewind it, we can no longer see the pyramid, it's gone. Then we end up inside the video somehow, reliving being at Animazement. But the things that happen, aren't what really happened while we were there. There are men in gold masks spraying everyone who comes too close with strawberry yogurt. Then we're at the door of the con, and we can't get in because we didn't bring our badges. There are some artists set up outside though, so I talk to one about commissioning her to draw a picture of my daughter with some Pokemon for Christmas. Then My husband says we should leave and look for our badges. We start out the door, but then I feel like I need to go back, like there's someone important in there after all. I turn around and step back inside leaving my husband with the kids and scan the crowd really quickly. I don't see anything out of the ordinary. I lock eyes with some guy, but I don't recognize him so I keep scanning and ignore him. After a moment I realize that feeling is gone and maybe there's no one important here after all, and I walk back out to my husband. He glares at me all mad and says, "Well? Did you find your blond guy?" Then some girls erupt into laughter in front of us and I notice my daughter has pulled away from my husband who is too angry to notice and is walking through the girls crowd. I rush over and apologize for her stepping on them. They tell me she's so cute and that she came over and put her hands on her hips and said, "Move it!" I'm mortified, I did not teach my kids to be so rude!!! But they girls are laughing about how cute it is. I notice one of the girls looks like someone from the con who FB friended me that I never even spoke to! Then I wake up.

Dream Five: I've got one of those little dolls with the wires attached that you move and the computer translates into movement and animates ( http://gizmodo.com/5913553/over+dram...animation-easy ) and I'm playing with it because I think it's so cool. I'm makeing it do all kinds of dance moves, and eventually the perv in me comes out and I make it mime humping things just to see the animated character on the screen dance and hump things, lol. The animated character on the screen was a man in a trench coat with short blond hair.

This one's going to be a doozy, mainly because I had long DEILD chain, and I can't remember everything in perfect order, but I'll do my best. First I want to admit, that I took a 5-HTP last night before bed, around 1am. This is after not taking it for about 2 weeks I think? I woke up the first time at about 7:15am when Danny got home from his night shift. He had to take his daughter to her mom's, and they left the house at about 8:30am, which woke me up again for a moment and I think that's when I went pee. I woke up again around 9 or 9:30, and that's when the crazy vibrations started.

These were so odd. First, the vibrations were all over my body, and had a really strong electrical feeling.. not to the point of uncomfortable, but almost. And they came in waves. At the height of the waves the first few times, it was accompanied by the most horrific screaming.. like a man who was a combination of psychotic, homicidal, and in maximum pain. It was horrible. But I knew it wasn't real, and it would fade eventually. After a few seconds, the waves were just vibrations, but I could control them with just my thumbs. Kind of hard to explain, but when ever the vibrations would subside, I could intensify them by curling my thumbs in. I've been able to do this in the past with just my mind, but this is the first time I could with bodyparts. Kinda cool. I was getting a little frustrated though, because the last 3 times I've had the vibrations, no Julio and no DEILD. just vibrations then oblivion. So I just kept curling my thumbs and hoping for the best.

Finally I felt like some time had suddenly passed, and I was just lying in bed thinking of nothing, but I felt weird, like it could be a dream. I looked at my thumbs, which still had the tingly feeling form being connected to those vibrations. They looked all mangled and contorted, so I knew it was a dream! First thing I did was get out of bed, and TOTM immediately popped into my mind. Mirror time (I was so excited). I went to the hall bathroom, pitch black and the light switch didn't work (ffffuuuuuuu). Neither did clapping, shouting, gnawing hacking biting breaking burning (/LOTR). So I crawled up on the sink, opened the glass cover of the lights, beat the shit out of the lights until they came on, replaced the cover, and got back down. Nothing like a little lucid brute force . I looked in the mirror.. it looked like me but the hair was wrong. Anyway, I just pushed my head through the glass, and there was quick moment of feeling like I was sticking my head through a membrane of water, then I could see. My head and torso pushed through the membrane and appeared on the 2nd story balcony of a loft apartment, overlooking a restaurant by the ocean. I remember the rails on the balcony were unusual, they were the first thing I saw and noted. Anyway, there were 4 people sitting at the outside table of the restaurant. I yelled at them "Hey, where am I?" One lady yelled back at bit rudely "This is the FLORIDA KEYS!" I thought it was pretty cool, but kinda uninteresting. It was a cloudy day, and looked more like a dirtyish city than some tropical islands. So I popped back out of the mirror (I never went fully through).

I saw my reflection again, and was excited because I succeeded AND because I was still lucid and hadn't woken up yet! I went back through the mirror again, only partially again, half expecting to see the same scene, half hoping it would be different. The front half of my body passed through the mirror again, and this time appeared inside a building. It was some kind of animal rescue or vet for exotic birds. There were no cages, just giant glass rooms. The place looked like it was funded pretty well, all clean and spacious. There were parrots and cockatiels and cockatoos, and birds of every color of the rainbow. And it sounded like I was in a rainforest with all the bird sounds. Some didn't fly, and just kinda walked around. I guess they were rescues who'd had their wings clipped. I'm not much of a bird person, so I left again.

I think this is where I woke up and went back to sleep. Hard to remember, I may have in between the other 2 experiences too. I know I woke up and went back to sleep at least 2 more times, because I remember getting out of bed and thinking "YES I'm still DEILDing" a couple more times. I'm just fuzzy on the order, sorry about that. I had more luck with bathroom lights from here on though. I remember walking down the hall, and the bathroom door was closed. But I could see light peeking under the door. Thank you subconscious. I opened the door, plenty of light, and looked in the mirror. I noticed 2 cats I used to have were sitting on the bathroom sink, Henunu and Gepiepe. I gave them a few pats, then returned to the mirror. I pushed my head through and saw a really pretty creek that reminded me of the Guadalupe River, with lots of Cypress trees. And it was a beautiful, cool sunny day. I wanted to go all the way through and explore, but then I noticed the water. It was all green and murky, and looked too deep for the creek size. I said "HELL no" and popped back out. Then I thought, "Chicken." So I went back in, only partially (I have to remark at how easy it was to pass through the glass each time.. I had expected some resistance, but it was just like liquid. More thick than water, kind of like a gel), and I saw the same scene. I looked down, and I was right over the bank, and there were rocks below. So I picked up some rocks and threw them at the water to see if anything creepy would stir. I didn't notice anything, so I went completely through for the first time. I picked up the largest rock and carried it with me, just in case hehe. I just walked along the bank, and looked at the ground and the remarkable cypress roots, avoiding the water. Then I woke up.

Again, hard to remember the exact order, but I remember going through 3 more times. I peeked through the mirror and found myself looking at the back of some chairs in a restaurant. It looked like teatime... oooo fancy! So I went through and sat at a table with 3 other women. They were passing around a menu and ordering tea sandwiches. I was the last one to get the menu, and before I could place my order, the first lady grabbed it out of my hands! Obnoxious looking rich blonde bitch. She said "Oh I'd like to go ahead and place my order for tomorrow as well." I yanked it right back out of her hands and said "Give me that back!" Then I just kinda looked at her for a minute, and she looked down. I said "This is stupid." And I got up and went to the bathroom, specifically with looking for a mirror in mind. There were several mirrors in the pretty little restaurant bathroom. I took the smallest one off the wall, it was just a thin rectangular mirror, trying to figure out how I was going to get through it. Then I heard a voice on the other side of the bathroom.. it was a lady sitting in a chair. She said "That bigger mirror would probably be better." Haha. So right. So I went through that one and found myself back on that 2nd story loft again, overlooking that restaurant again. The same rude lady was at the same table with her same friends, and she saw me and said "Yes, it's still the Florida Keys." And I screamed back at her "YEHAAAW!! THE FLORIDA FUCKING KEYS, HELL YEAHHHH!!" and came back out of the mirror.

I went in one last time, from that same mirror I think, and came out in the most boring looking residential area I had ever seen. I thought, meh, why not. I walked around but the place seemed deserted. I went inside one house and didn't' see anyone. I started getting randy of course.. tis a side effect of lucidity for me I'm afraid. But since I was alone, I decided that I wanted to really see what my anatomy looked like when it changed to male parts. I won't go into detail, but I was looking in a full length mirror in one of the bedrooms, and I saw an awful lot. Finally a guy showed up a bit later and we had sex but I woke up half way through.

The End, shit.

i am with my friend in the jungle when we find this kind of old massive play ground going high into the trees, next thing i know we are on a very high bridge between two trees and for some reason my friend has a paper bag on his head. i look at the leaves in one of the trees and i can see a pair of eyes, evil eyes so i tell my friend he takes the paper bag off his head, looks at the eyes and jumps off the bridge without a scratch but im still to scared to because logic tells me he should have died. i am conflicted between weather i should risk the jump or deal with the evil eyes bu then they come out and it a tiger! i made my decided to jump and landed wih no harm bt the tger did the same then chased me into a corner and that was the end.

a few nghts later im back in the jungle with my friend and we are in a sort of base where we decided to climb the highest tree in the jungle to hide from the tiger. before we leave we stock our bag with chips and for some reason the tree hase no branches but we climb to the top easily. at the top it just stops as if someone sawed the rest off and there was only just enough room for both of us so we sat back to back and ate salt n viniger chips

This dream is so random. I don't even...

[COLOR="#483d8b"]I'm not entirely sure who was in this apartment with me, but it started out with me playing guitar for a bit. Then there were a bunch of my relatives sitting around, I think we were celebrating something. There was a cake, so it's not a lie after all. We all could suddenly hear the neighbours' 6 y/o daughter playing the piano (or trying to play it). Since it was late night, we were very surprised by that.
Someone from our group mentioned to relative E that I played guitar before. Her face was all D: cause she knew that I'd never agree to doing it again. Then Joey appeared out of nowhere and I hugged him :'D (I blame lurking senseless banter before napping, dat damn hugs thread).
Randomly, relatives Mt and Mn opened the neighbours' apartment's door and shoved someone from our group in there o__o.
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I use all those confusing code names, cause you guys don't need to know their real names xD. Same for some locations. And schools.

so all i remember was that my mouth was full of bees, so i ran to tell my perants, i tried to talk but i couldnt because my mouth was full of bees.

I go to the Temple of Chaos with Eris, goddess of Chaos. There is giant chaosphere floating in it.

I had nice recall that morning, so I thought I'd post some dreams.

[COLOR="#483d8b"]I was in my old hometown, thinking of this meeting in the beach on Saturday. I think it was the beginning of the week. All I planned on taking with me, was my DJ.
So, Saturday came and we went for a walk with a few of my family members. It was sunny, but it had just stopped raining, I remember seeing the drops of water on the park benches. There was this old man, he couldn't sit down cause the benches were wet :D.
We were walking in the shade, there were big trees blocking the sunshine. I told mom that I'm going to that meeting now and she gave me a bus ticket that can be used 35 times. I took the bus to the beach and I went inside this dark, wooden hotel. The place felt really familiar, like I've been there thousands of times.
Three wooden steps went into the sand from the back door of the hotel, I wasn't wearing any shoes and the sand felt warm and nice. I saw a table in the middle of nothing, nobody was there. I walked to the table and thought that I really should've taken other things than the DJ as well.[/COLOR]

I took 10-15 pills of Melatonin last night (3mg each)

Lol, WOW....stop trying to get into a coma Link!!!

Anyway, slept like a baby, until I woke up 2 hours before the alarm was supposed to ring, and probably slept after I turned the alarm off too instead of staying up for a WBTB.

06.14.2012

Taxi (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outside again, and I'm looking for some kind of transportation service, more specifically, a taxi. I believe I had the intention of heading to an apartment, probably to see the status of it.

I felt as if I was going to my apartment, but later on in the dream, it wasn't the one I'm renting now in waking life.

Anyway, I was in that cheapskate mentality and finding whatever service that was decent and not too much in terms of cost. I find that there's an Indian lady (she looked Indian) that was using her fancy white van as a taxi service.

The door opens, and there's a long green cloth over the dark gray passenger seat. I believe she had a baby behind the back, probably her own, and I guess I told her that I needed to go to a certain location.

She turns on the meter, and apparently, it's $6 per X amount of miles or something like that. I feel like I'm going to be ripped off, but seeing as I didn't really have a lot of time to think about that, I just went with it.

I eventually reach the area, and I think I only had to pay $6 bucks to get there, guess it wasn't so bad.....and I also think she was probably waiting for me somewhere further away from the apartment I'm going into (but not too far).

I go up a few stairs to enter the apartment complex, like the ones packed in together that you can see in most parts of New York. It seems the apartment that I'm looking for is to the left of me near the front section. There's a sign up that says that the Tenant has not paid their rent.

Wait...

I.....for some reason I felt that this was my apartment, but I know this can't be my apartment because it isn't like an indoors apartment

(You know, where there are rooms inside a building rather than individual doors being located outside, like a complex...even though I said I was heading for one before just now).

NEVER MIND, doesn't matter...

I call my father, and then I realize there's a dream fragment where my father had $3,000 withdrawn from his bank account.

I still wondered why I should care what happened in his account, because I was worried about my own account. Apparently, our accounts are temporarily linked together....sigh......

Now back to this dream, I'm calling him to see if the money was transferred back again, and he said "Yes."

Sigh....this means I'm going to have to go to the realtors or investors and tell them they made a mistake here......because I felt that I already paid the rent in this dream, even though it technically isn't my apartment, I just felt like it was.

So I was stressed out over nothing, but still believed it was my apartment. I get out of the building, go downstairs, and the Indian lady is probably expected that I need a ride to go to wherever it is that I'm going to...

Nope, I completely ignored her. She gets pissed that I don't need her taxi service, but she can't really do anything about it. She just flings her arms in anger and goes back to the vehicle to drive away.

I can't remember much after that.

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06.14.2012

Dark Knight Ingrid (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember the lady from the Dark Knight Ingrid Series sitting at the corner of walls that were white all over. She was wearing that black costume like she did in a certain episode *cough* Episode 4 *cough*.... >.>

I get close to her, and I have a feeling she has a few things to sell, weird vibe coming off from her. She looked like she was happy to see me, or maybe just had drugs injected to make her looked relaxed.

For some weird reason, while she's sitting down, I decided to sit on top of her large breasts and I looked down, and she's just looking up at me waiting for me to do something.

She's really doesn't mind me on top of her. Then I see a laptop is near her that looks like mine. I'm still on top her large breasts, and I think I open the laptop to check what's in it.

So much for a potential breast job....you choose the freaking laptop over an anime female.....

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06.14.2012

Counting (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Just a small fragment, I feel like it was associated with another dream that I most likely forgot.

Basically some guy was spelling out parts of a word to me, and expected me to repeat after him. I think I even used my fingers to count up, but didn't really pay attention to how many fingers I had in each hand.

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06.14.2012

Cute Blondes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember being outside, it's daytime, and the sky is blue without that many clouds showing.

I'm standing near the corner while a group of people are talking to each other, so I assumed I introduced myself to everyone else, and didn't have anything to contribute to whatever conversations they were engaging in.

Okay, no problem, just stand there and wait and see what happens next.

I also turn around a bit, and see an elderly Black man with glasses on. He has a beer belly, is wearing a dress shirt, and short pants. I believe he's a relative of whoever it is that is hosting the party, or maybe just a friend or neighbor.

Then another elderly man, dark-skinned as well, comes in to shake hands with everyone outside, seems he came off from work or somewhere. He was wearing a gray shirt, dark pants of some kind, and looked like he was giving off as much energy as he could to make it look like he's lively and positive towards shaking his hands with everyone outside.

Maybe that's just me....

I feel as if I'm holding a video camera at times, but maybe it's just because my vision may have been faulty a few times. Me and the group of random people I'm hanging out with are getting ready to go inside.

Guess everyone is tired of standing up, okay, I follow them inside, find myself a nice position to rest on the dark brown leather-ish sofa furniture. There was another furniture like it on the right that was perpendicular to it.

While I'm sitting down, it seems that more people are expected to come. To my right is some female with an average looking boyfriend/finance/husband whatever, and I'm mostly focusing on what's in front of me, and what's to the right of me most of the time in this dream.

The overall colors for this house are shades of brown, the flooring is either beige or light brown though, probably to show a bit of contrast compared to other elements of the house.

Anyway, two blondes are out by the door, and not the one where we came into from the back, it seems that this place is like a large apartment, because I can see other doors for other apartments while the two blondes were outside.

I believe one had a small cloth bandana on her head to probably prevent other regions of her hair from appearing in front of her. The other one had long hair hair as well, a little longer than the other one by maybe 5-6 inches.

This is the closest image I could find to somewhat describe how the freckled blonde looked like. Her face was a little paler, and her hair was little bit more bleached as well.

Both of them were wearing a short jacket that went all the way down halfway reaching to their waist, and both wore jeans and a shirt underneath, probably a gray shirt for both.

Hm................

The one with the bandana covering some of her hair in front was looking at me, and both of them were waiting for these two females talking to each other in front of them to finally realize they're in their way.

The one with the bandana continues looking at me....

Um...

Not like creepy gazing, just probably to glance to see who's inside, but it seems she's only fixated towards me. She's cute, not exactly the type to be drop dead gorgeous, but I think it's because of how she layered herself diluted my perception of how beautiful she really looked.

The other blonde girl with the longer hair, she was a little skinnier than the other one, but again, it's probably because the other one wore clothes that weren't as tight as the longer haired one.

The long haired blonde was just waiting to the side with her face in profile view. I guess she was probably being patient and was looking down on the floor until the women in front finally realized they're blocking their way into the room.

It was hard to tell if the long haired one had freckles and acne, or just a little acne. It wasn't too disturbing though, at least not after I coped with it for 10 seconds of gazing at her.

The two women in front of the opened door finally realize they're blocking the two blondes way from entering. They do the usual apology, and it seemed the long-haired blonde was the only one planning to come in. So I guess the clothed bandana blonde was just there to drop her off, but there's something that bothers me about the long haired blonde.

The other one was able to look at me with more confidence, while the other one folded her arms while looking at the side somewhere waiting, as if she was too shy to see who was inside, but at the same time, she looked like she would be the confident type of person based on her looks alone.

Seems I was right, she starts heading near the couple that was sitting to the right of me, and I assumed she was going to sit at the couch perpendicular from them. She gives the guy a fix on the forehead, and the same for his girlfriend/fiance/wife.

Nice save there kissing both at once.

Then she gets near me and kisses my forehead or cheek as well (probably the forehead because all I could see from this view was her legs until she retracted again to sit somewhere.

I look to the guy right the girlfriend/fiance/wife, and he's turning red. Seems he's more excited than I am that he got a kiss on the forehead from a cute blonde who's hair was slightly bleached as well.

I look at him weirdly, then looked at my wrist, seems I'm perfectly normal and not blushing as much as this guy. While he's smiling, trying to hold in the moment of being kissed on the forehead, he looks at me and has that "What?" expression on his visage.

He then has the audacity on how I wasn't as excited as he was when he was being kissed on the forehead with the blonde. And I believe he's interrupting someone else from talking too, because I heard abrupt pauses from a different sound source several times.

The guy pisses me off, but I just use a passive aggressive demeanor and basically ask him what he means by what he's trying to tell me. Sort of like a "Pardon me?" type of question.

Then he starts getting serious and essentially (paraphrasing here) declares that I wasn't as excited as he was, and even puts up his finger pointed upwards, and I already knew where he was going with this.

He was using his finger as a model for a penis, LMAO, then he bends the finger downwards to imply how I wasn't excited to meet the blonde. Then he indirectly calls me a degenerate......

"Wait, are you saying I'm a degenerate?"

(Both of us were mixing up the term with something else, but it seemed that since we were both a little hot headed at the time that it didn't matter....we knew what both of us meant).

I can't remember what happened next, other than me feeling slightly pissed off from this dude, and his wife/fiance/girlfriend isn't even saying anything about that matter on his rude behavior.

I haven't been recording my dreams lately. I need to do better. I thought this one from last night was interesting.


Tom DeLonge and his wife Jennifer were sitting with me in what was supposed to be my family room. I pulled out a box that I had had for a long time. It was full of pictures and letters that Tom had written at an earlier time in his life. I told him that I had kept it, but that I had never opened it and looked at anything. He seemed very interested to see what was inside. He started reading old letters and would comment or laugh from time to time. As he read he sorted them in piles. He finally pushed a pile toward me and told me that I could read the things in that pile. I looked forward to reading them. I wondered what was in the other pile. I was knew it must be the more personal/private things. I was suddenly glad that this box had been at my house and not in the hands of someone who wouldn't have respected his privacy, who would have read the letters--or worse-- posted them online.

I wanted to ask Tom some questions, but as I looked at him I saw that he was looking through a magazine. I looked at his wife. She was just sitting quietly on the floor. I decided to go sit by her. I plopped down next to her and said something like, "Hi Jennifer. I don't really know much about you. Tell me about yourself."

And she started talking to me. She told me that life had been good but that 6 (I think) years ago everything changed when her dad was diagnosed with cancer. And she started telling me about the hell her family gone through with that.

I then told her that my life had changed (and then I couldn't remember how long it had been since my sister had gotten cancer. I thought and thought, but finally said "several years ago") I told her how my sister had died and how much I missed her.


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I know that this last part of the dream was inspired by my recent kayaking trip. I was with a group of ladies--some of which I knew and a few that I didn't. And I had done pretty much exactly what I did in the dream. I found a quiet time when we weren't kayaking to ask them to tell me about themselves so I could get to know them better.

The interesting thing is I found that Cancer had touched almost all our lives. Three (of seven) were cancer survivers. Two had husbands that had had cancer. And two of us had lost sisters to cancer. The only one who hadn't had cancer (or at least didn't mention it) had recently gone through an ugly divorce. It made me realize how many tragedies this group had overcome.

I was driving in the car with a girl who reminded me of Linda Firday (pornstar) and she was telling me that she was having second thoughts about us getting together. I was about to tell her how much I didn't care.

I was at McDonalds, and this rap song was playing that I've never heard. The lyrics were pretty dope.

I was at my house going over this paperwork with a lady from student services, and my sister was there too. I was complaining about all the sheets I had to fill out.

Here is a dream, nothing special.

I am with my friend, the setting is Near my grandma's house in Florida (the area is nothing like it is in waking life). My friend is like, "C'mon, let me show you this, it's going to be super funny!" I have no idea what he is going to do so I follow. He tampers with something at someones house and runs. He tells me to hide and points to a corner. I know that's a horrible spot to hide so I keep running. I find what is implied as my grandma's house (the one that doesn't live in Florida). I go inside the house to hide and my friend is already there. As we are hiding, an old guy (the one we "pranked") comes up to the house and is trying to get in. We lock all the doors and hide in the bathroom shower. After I think he is gone I look out the window and freak out because I see an old scary face. After I look again, I realize that it was just a mask on the ground. My friend and I decide it's time to go back to my other grandparent's house. We know we can't take the same road we took in because surely that guy would be waiting.

Instead we go out the back door and through a little brush area to get to another neighborhood complex. To get to the road of this complex, we need to go through some people's back yards. In their back yards there are tomb stones! We realize that it's terrible that we are walking over people's graves, but it's necessary. We come to the Neighborhood pool area. There are lot's of small pools, and a maze of fenced in walkways. We choose to take the one that looks like it's in the direction of my grandparent's house. We come to a cement stair case and there is that dream feeling that I am in Pensacola Florida. On the staircase I see a Facebook post made by someone I know... ON the stair... I take a picture of it so I can show her later.

We go up and down a bunch of stair cases and walkways and see a lot of weird and shady looking people. It leads us into a huge auto body shop. I asked someone if they could take us to *insert name I forget* Road. He says yes and tells us to follow him. We go through some more walkways and get to a field and a little junk pile. He kind of rummages around for a little while. I take notice that all over the floor there is potatoes, but they have those grass like onion tops on them. The guy keeps rummaging around and we just say never mind, we'll find our way back. We plan on retracing our steps, but we end up meeting with a bunch of people we know, where the dream gets fuzzy. The end.

Last night before going to sleep I was meditating quite a while before passing out. I remember waking up a few times a night, but not remembering any of my dreams. Each time I tried a different technique but to no avail.
This morning I woke up several times and the last time I woke up before I got out of bed 11.30 was somewhere around 9.30-9.45. I tried to WILD (for the first time, actually) but I do not remember if the attempt was succesful. When I woke up and got out of bed there was two things that happened that often tells me I have dreamed; I had a sense of having been somewhere else and I had an old song in the back of my head which I was constantly humming.

This was disappointing to me, as it always is when I do not remember dreams. However, I suspect that I did become lucid without remembering it, 'cause I have this nagging feeling of standing somewhere under a deep purple sky and saying to myself that this is a dream, but the thought/feeling is too fleeting to be categorized and proved. The problem I'm often having with my lucid dreams are that once I become lucid I can't keep control and a false awakening occurs, or I just lose all vividness and the dream continues on without me remembering it.

At least I have identified my own problems and are working to solve them.

Gonna write a book!

For some reason I spent most of the time in my dream thinking of how I was going to write a book called something like 'Introduction to fantasy 3d modelling' and had it all planned out to what sections would have what in it, including tutorials etc . In this dream there was something important about a cat, and something else about a guy with one side of his face burned who was talking to me about something

I do not plan on sharing my hundreds of stage two dreams one by one within this journal, but I would like to describe my first second stage dream.

Date: Around a year ago.
Background Story: Before this dream, I was already able to attain lucidity in 100% of my dreams.

Please ignore the video, it should only be listened to.