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I decided 2 days ago to get back into lucid dreaming. I've been out of it for about four years, so my dream recall and frequency of lucid dreams had diminished quite a bit. Now that I'm out of the dorms and have a quiet room, I decided to start up again.

So, I decided to attempt a WILD. I had only once before achieved WILD's, but I figured I might as well try every night to get better, and maybe I'll have some luck within a few weeks.

Well, I somehow succeeded on the first night/morning I tried. I set a vibrating alarm (don't want to wake the girlfriend) to wake me up at 5:13 AM. I woke up and went to the bathroom, came back to bed and surfed the web on my phone for 5 minutes to wake my brain up enough before attempting to WILD. I always have had a problem passing out too quickly, instead of holding on to consciousness and easing into lucidity.

So I started out on my back, and counted slowly, alternating numbers with "I am dreaming." After a half hour, I rolled to my side to get more comfortable, and started over. After no success in an additional 30 minutes, I rolled to my other side and decided to give up. So I had stopped counting, but I managed to hold onto my conscious awareness while letting my thoughts float around. After a few minutes, I felt a small tingling sensation across my body, and no longer felt tired. I plugged my nose and discovered I was dreaming. The transition was seamless, whereas the only other time I had success, it was almost violent.

So, onto the dream (This green is lucid):

I got out of bed and walked to my bathroom. My apartment didn't have any strange appearances, and the dream was pretty stable already. I looked at myself in the mirror. The only strange thing was I wasn't wearing a shirt, and I looked more muscular. I guess my subconscious was trying to flatter myself. I tried to think of what my lucid goals were, but couldn't remember any. I decided to try and clone myself to see what would happen. It was strange. I felt my body splitting apart, starting at the head and going down. Suddenly there was a pop and a second "me" was standing right in front of me. Second-me slowly started to morph into a friend of mine, who we will call R. R started to laugh in a maniacal way which creeped me out. I turned and walked away.

I flew through the ceiling and out onto the roof of my apartment. Looking at the starry sky, I decided to fly towards some. There was a specific grouping in the distance right about the horizon that looked interesting. As I flew towards them, I realized they weren't stars, and were in fact, lights from a skyscraper. I had made it into the downtown of some dream city. I flew around for a short while. I was showing off how I could fly to some DC's when my girlfriend rolled over pulling the sheets, waking me up. I didn't fully awake, but enough to become conscious of my dogs snoring. I held onto awareness, and drifted back into a dream.

When the blackness of being awake faded away, I was sitting on a chair in my living room. A lot of my parents family friends were present, and there was some party going on. I chatted with a few people, and got bored. I went to my computer to see if I could somehow look up what my dream goals were, thinking maybe my subconscious could show it to me. Loading DV was pretty funny, and I never was able to view my goals. I decided to go outside and explore instead. I flew out my window.

Outside it was dawn, and overcast out. There was a light drizzle. I decided to change that and waved my hand to push the clouds out of the way. I then pulled the sun up to the middle of the sky so it was mid-day. I rubbed my hands together to stabilize the dream a little bit more, but it seemed to be as stable as it would get.

I started walking down my alleyway, only to find it was now a path/trail of some kind. I encountered a friend, called EB, and said hello. EB made some snarky response and I made a stupid "your mom" joke. He then continued talking to who he originally was. I then ran into two more of my friends, FN and JA. They were both eating Taco Johns. I said, "Hey guys, do you know that right now I'm dreaming?" They both laughed and gave me a response I was not expecting: "Yes. What do you think, that we're idiots?" I found it incredibly strange they responded in that way. Normally, DC's always try to convince me otherwise, and sometimes succeed. My subconscious was being kind.

I asked if I could eat some of their food, to which they responded, "Go ahead. Dream calories don't count anyways." I laughed and ate. We then began to walk down the path. There was a large group of girl scouts (hundreds) that were taking up the entire path so we had to sit and wait for them to go by so we could continue walking. For some reason, we were walking to a movie theater. I can't remember why.

At this point a cat jumped on my chest in waking life. It was time for them to be fed.

The total time I was dreaming was approximately 29 minutes. So I had achieved my goal of staying lucid for more than 20 minutes! Time for me to add the task of the month/year to that list.

Dream Vividness: 3/5 (Some things were pretty hazy)
Lucidity Level: 3/5 (There were times where I almost lost lucidity due to boring conversations with family friends, etc)


I'm pretty satisfied with that as my first night back. We'll see if I can mange to do it again tonight.

Casino Drug Smuggling [Non-Lucid]

I was in a casino with O, J, and this guy PR I've known since elementary school but haven't seen since we graduated high school. It's hard to remember most of this plot now, but we were trying to play this one gigantic game (it looked like a cross between a poker machine and a pinball machine ) as a way of smuggling drugs. Inside the little tray where coins drop out there was a veritable pharmacopoeia of unidentified pills all of varying shapes, sizes, and colors. We were basically just sneaking around making sure there weren't any cops in the area while O (I think it was O) played the machine and tried to sneak all of the pills into his pockets in the meantime. At the end of the dream, we're all just standing there watching him when a guy walks up from out of nowhere and then jumps on the machine and starts humping it for a minute.

And that's all I remember.

I was in a mall, and there was a pop'n music arcade game. I went up to it and saw that the buttons were spaced all weird I did a reality check and became lucid. I jumped through a pane of glass (the wall was made of glass and you could see the center of the mall through it) to confirm any doubt I may have had. It works and I'm on the other side. Impressed with that, I walked through the mall and remember that I wanted to do the dream challenge cedward proposed, and sought out the first chamber. There was a group of DCs behind a desk, and I ask one if she knew where the chamber was. She told me she didn't. I said "are you sure?" but she didn't answer me back. I asked a lady outside of the desk, and she got really nasty. She asked "is your 1337 self a dragon or something," whatever that means. I should've looked harder for the chamber, but I gave up and instead tried shapeshifting into a dragon (the lady had reminded me that I wanted to do this). I leaped up and tried to grow wings but it didn't work and I woke up.

Dakota, Charlie Sheen, Charlie's mom of Two and a Half Men, some other guy, and I were exploring a forested area. An abandoned subway/train station near a beach, a forest, and plains/flatlands surrounded by forest. Then, realizing it was almost night, with a Minecraft Sun from a 32x32 TP (Maybe Old from Painterly B1.7.3?), we all began to ride home on bikes. I didn't have mine, but began to ride on one anyway. ~ Close to lucidity, but never realized I was dreaming. I was very close to waking anyway, I felt it slipping away, but my control held firm until I "gave up" and got bored in the dream.

That's most i remember dreaming about. And doing parkour at a high school. I jumped off something and busted my mouth on a ledge. I kept checking for blood or missing teeth, but I never saw any. I must have been pretty distracted to not get lucid after that. Oh well.

I had a dream I was near a lake, and my DCs were entering the water without going out too far so the water wouldn come up past the knees. They were pairing up and fighting each other in some kind of anime martial arts style. They would gain these abilities once they were in the water and use them on each other. It was impressive to watch, as sometimes they would hit each other not with just physical blows, but energy rays and such. They were still students, training, and some were rather young but held much promise. I did not include myself in the fighting, however I did need to dodge a few stray energy bolts that happened to come my way. After that, I exited the water myself and retreated to a safer distance on land. I seemed to be like a judge of the contest or something.

04.22.2012

Green Globe (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I don't really care too much to this dream, except for the fact that this possibly was a precursor to the dream I had with Eva and the Akashic records dream...

I'm walking somewhere at my University, and I'm following a group of people, but the traffic and amount of people here started to irritate me, so I thought of trying to teleport somewhere....

The opposite of that occurs, and I find myself instantly flying up pretty quickly. I look down, and was a little scared at first, but instead of trying to think about falling down, I looked up, closed my eyes, and imagine myself propelling upwards.

Then a white light flashes before more, signaling that I teleported out of the dream environment.

I'm now floating, and I see a Green globe, and I rotate it with my mind, and I decided I should go to Houston, TX.

I feel a pulling sensation from this green globe, and feel like I'm being warped into the area I wanted to go to...

I can't remember much from that dream..

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04.22.2012

Swimming pool of Toy Balls? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a play area that's full of what seems to be toy balls, or something like that? It was kind of dark though, and it seems there's always water in this area as well.

There's this random lady who is fairly huge, and we're just floating around, minding our own business. Then the lady started to say, "Daddy?" out of the blue, so I presumed someone else was with us.

I think I see a man who is shirtless, and is wearing dark blue shorts underwater, and the daughter I think lands on him. I was kind of concerned that her weight might cause his to open his air path in his throat, and possibly drown him or something.

Then all of a sudden, when I go back up to the surface, the girl is floating as well, and she's wondering where her father was, and I think she's close to even crying.

I go underwater again, and I see this white string near a drain that's sucking up the water, so the dad probably was sucked in there.

I can't remember much after that, didn't really care too much about this dream in the first place....too random...and it was too dark for me to associate anything from it...

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04.22.2012

Is that a Dragon? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was trying to convince some people to look up at the sky, because I'm seeing a large creature flying, and it looks like a dragon in metal armor, it had that silver color to it with some slight hints of blue.

I think I saw a redheaded lady as well, not sure if it was Opheliablue, but I was trying to nudge at whoever it was to look up. Even when they did look up, all they did was shrug and have the "I don't know" expression on their face.

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04.22.2012

Eva and Akashic Records? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First of all, I'm glad I finally met Eva for once, she was a little bit more degraded from something...and man, this dream was scary.

I honestly thought I wouldn't have met Eva AT ALL, but it seems the intention worked by watching a few videos about her and Snake.

(I watched some short videos on the Akashic Records, and I wonder if this dream itself was the path for me to get there, seeing as you normally need a guide to shift you to the right path.....and clearly, I was following Eva like she was a guide....and there were guards.....so there has to be something precious within this library......)

Watch this video first before reading the dream if you can, there are some things that the lady said like "Cairo, Egypt" and such that you'll find that my mind did some homologous association with it the people in white robes...you'll find out what I mean...I don't know why, but I was browsing through DV articles, and typed "are the akashic recrods real?" on a youtube search bar, and found this late at night before I slept.

Things start out where I'm at an area that seems to be a green underground cave. I believe I'm in the lighter side of this area, and I finally see Eva.

There's something odd about her, there's this type of loneliness within her, she looks degraded, used up, raped, or something...it was kind of sickening, but the fact that I still saw her, she obviously had the intention of actually interacting with me for once for a little longer.

Her hair, it isn't blonde like it was before when she gave me the grey letter with the letter "M" on it with in a non-lucid I had a long time ago.

It was light orange, but you see, it looked like it was like the color because someone probably fried her hair up a little, I'm not too sure.

She looked exactly like Eva, she was quiet, but it was definitely Eva. She wore a very bright green military jacket, and she had it open.

And I saw her breasts, she left them exposed with her opened jacket, and her nipples were pink, maybe a little darker than that. I think the point of her projection was to portray that she was used up by someone or something.

As for her pants, it was the same with her regular biker outfit, it's just that the jacket was green instead of the usual Khaki type of color all over, and I believe she had black boots as well.

Her jacket was way brighter than this, so imagine it being opened completely, and you can see her bare skin and breasts exposed to you, with the edges of the jacket hanging on the sides of her nipples.

She gets close to me, but there's this type of barrier separating both of us, so she starts pushing as much as she can. I take a step back to let her open it fully, and I get closer to her.

"Eva...."

She doesn't look too desperate for small talk right now, seeing as how the look on her visage was a little bit depressed and sad. There were marks on her hair, and some of it wasn't complete. She was bald in a few areas, but she still had her long hair.

I follow her, and we go up some stairs, we haven't talked at all, I merely pick up her non-verbal cues. There are two characters talking to each other, and I stay behind Eva, completely relying on her to guide me through what seems to be a library.....

We wait for the two guys to finish talking, and it seems to be that they are wearing white robes like they're from Egypt....

(Okay something is up...but you'll find out what I mean after)...

I wait for Eva's cue to move, and she finally does, so I quickly go along with her, and we hide behind some shelves until the two Egyptian robe wearing characters move further to the left. Then Eva goes to a bookshelf perpendicular towards the direction she's going.

Like, imagine being parallel to the back of a bookshelf, and one being perpendicular to you....so I quickly dash to the bookshelf, slowly moved my head up to see that there are two or so guards on the other side.

I crouch back down, waiting for Eva to cue something to me already.

For some reason, I decided to be a little bold, and I start making a little whistle sound to attract the guards. I believe I did that because I thought the guard was too far to hear the whistle, but they pick up the sound a few seconds later.

I crouch down quickly since I saw the guard turn around immediately. I started to get tensed up for a little, feeling this weird tingling sensation in my head....I definitely made the horrible mistake in making that whistle....

I have a gun in my hand, and I believe Eva didn't have a weapon at all, so I guess I had to be the support in case things get rough.

(Normally, when I ignore a DC and get distracted with something else, they usually disappear, but she was still there....it's not my obsession with finding her that kept her there, in fact, my concern over her was temporarily faded because we're in a serious situation with the guards and everything).

I have my gun ready, and it has a cyan laser sight, and once I realized this, I quickly moved the laser sight to the edge of the bookshelf we're parallel to, because the guard might find the laser dot....but I already knew my feelings of being tensed up and fearful meant the guards were already too suspicious.

I wait having my gun aimed at the predicted path of where the guard's head should be...I started to get more tensed up, feel the guard coming closer and closer....

Then I see the side of a face taking a slow peak, and I slowly aim my laser sighted gun to their heads, but they quickly so their whole body to me and try to aim at me, but since he saw that he's not going to win this one, he's shocked, and an Exclamation mark appears on his head....

Definitely a Metal Gear Solid element there with the exclamation mark....

(It was like this, but the mark was light blue)

Anyway, since the guard was moving, I decided I might as well show myself to the others, but I didn't, I just popped my head over to the top of the shelf to see that the same guard told the other one that we're here.

So I decided to shoot the guard trying to contact Headquarters through this big swamp green radio phone....I believe I managed to shoot him before he did...

The same man with the radio phone wore glasses, a long brown leather jacket, and it he looked a lot like Ocelot when he was extremely old in MGS4.

Once he's taken care of, at least, I'm presuming he's dead or knocked out from the gun shot, I try to aim to the other guard that alerted him.

Then this other guard comes out from NOWHERE, and has holds a pump-action shotgun with one hand. I thought he was going to come after me first, but he's aiming at Eva, and she's still crouching down....I realized that she was too injured to react

He came so quick, that I couldn't even shoot him because my gun didn't even fire any bullets. He shoots Eva, I get fucking pissed, and the gun magically works, I shoot the hell out of the guy.

But instead of going to Eva immediately, I had to make sure there weren't any more guards around us, so I move forward to scan the area, and things are okay.

I take a look at some kind of weird base in front of me, and I believe I'm looking outside the library, like the door was wide open. There was this area with grass, but the type of grass you see in video games, where everything on the floor is just mashed up together.

I see the door to go to another base....and it's overall color is violet with some hues of bright pink....then I realized...

"Eva!!!"

I completely forgot about her, and I turned around, but I couldn't do it quickly, everything was going slow, the dream is starting to fade, and this would've been the point where I would've been lucid, since I felt so much emotion in this dream.....

But the dream fades quickly..

I wake up, but I still have my eyes close, I'm still thinking in my mind saying

"Eva....


Evaaaaa....


Evaaaaaaaaa"

I thought I should do a DEILD, but I might've forgetten the dream if I did...

I find it funny that despite finally meeting Eva, who had a few alterations like having orange hair (redhead), green jacket, and some other qualities.......I didn't remember her saying one word to me. Not ONE little word at all...

All she did was just guide me somewhere...and I honestly believe it was for the Akashic records, but obviously, because I was being stupid and whistled at the guards, I obviously wasn't prepared for it....

I can't believe one careless mistake I made would cause so many chain of events.

In our backyard, we have an old sandbox from when I was a kid. I'm 16 now and I don't use it anymore. So this spring my mother and I decided to grow potatoes and onions in there, since those plants like sandy soil.

Fragment- I went into my old sandbox and everything had grown a lot. The plants were far from mature, but they were certainly a lot bigger than they were now. I took one out of the ground and saw that there were several peanut-sized potatoes dangling from the roots. I then tried to put the plant back into the ground but for some reason it was a real hassle.

Fragment-I was out in my yard holding a curved stick. I was in my yard swinging it around like it was a Katana. I was perhaps bored or a little angry. I just hacked away at imaginary foes for a short while.

My parents and I were sitting in the room of a house that wasn't ours, or as far as I knew. I forget what mom did, but she hit something to make the house flip upside down. We were then dunked into the ocean, and the ocean water splashed about the room of the house, bringing a lot of fish in as well.
a fragment. oh well.

I'm in a room, there are kids everywhere, and my friends are there. I get wind that that it is a religion class and I, along with the other kids who went through the class in past years, are going to teach the class for the year. I am pissed off now because I am agnostic and hate when religion is shoved down my throat. I yell and stomp and leave. Somehow, in the process I get pissed off at my friend and he gets pissed at me.

That friend and I are running down a mountain trying to hurt each other. I get to the bottom of the mountain and hide under a tarp/tent. He finds me and starts kicking a soccer ball at me. The feud randomly ends and he is gone.

When I come out from under the tarp, it is a camp site. On the picnic table there is a bunch of shot glasses. I decide I am going to go back up the mountain/building and apologize and ask for my job back (because I want money). I figure I'm going to need some alcohol to do so? In the shot glasses there is only oil and marinade. As I am leaving the camp site I see an old guy (possibly one I know in waking life) pouring shots for himself. He hands another kid the bottle to put away. At this point I really want to steal the bottle, but figure I won't be able to get away with it. I leave the camp site.

I am climbing ladders and going through hatches to get to the top of the building. It is difficult because I have to hold open the hatch above me, while putting the hatch below me back. I make it to the top. I say to the woman who was running it, "Hi... I was here yesterday and quit.... I'm really sorry... Can I have my job back...?" She hesitated and says yes. There is also a game room near by that everyone has won prizes from. We begin walking down a long spiral ramp in the beginning. I wake up.

This was a pretty fuzzy dream, but I think it's actually pretty obvious why I dreamed it.
Religious stuff- Because I "came out" as agnostic/atheist to my mom yesterday.

Campsite & marinade- I've been stressing, I am going on a camp out with Scouts next week. I'm vegetarian (temporarily), and I am nervous about what is going to happen when I don't eat their food.

Job- I have been looking for a job with little success.

Bwah.

[COLOR="#483d8b"]- Some couple fighting in a store.

- I had just left the schoolhouse, it was 2pm and I suppose Tuesday. I was walking to the parking lot, but before that some of my friends wanted to talk to me. There was L and E, even though irl I had just met E, she was pretty friendly.
Okay, then I could proceed to the parking lot only to see that I had missed the bus again. I walked til the end of the small road, checked the time on my ipod and when it was a few minutes past 2, I was sure that I had missed it and started walking to my mom's workplace. Then I woke.[/COLOR]

Can't recall anything else right now.

[COLOR="#2e8b57"]lucids[/COLOR], [COLOR="#483d8b"]non-lucids[/COLOR]

I was at some carnival type of thing like Luna Park and Ihad the thought that when I click I would find 2 dollars on the ground and it worked. So I tried repeating this and it worked eventually I got a lot of money any some of the money was from a different country. I was at a store with my mum and I saw a kid from my school which I kind of make fun of and kind of am friends with. Jack. His mum was there and she was a from slovak speaking country like my mum. Russian, and they were in some family crisis kind of thing which explained why Jack was upset or something.

Dream One: I'm walking across my aunts yard to my Grandpa's house (same Grandpa's house pig guy tried to start a fire the other day and I blew up at K) I see a group of five people hanging out on and around the porch. The porch is like it was when I was a kid, open to the outside (they made it a closed in porch when Grandpa's cancer got bad) I get closer and see that the people are the music duo Blood on the Dance Floor, and two guys and a chic that must be their fans or friends or something. They say hey, and even though they ask my name and introduce themselves, they treat me like I belong in the conversation just as much as everyone else. I tell them it's cool to meet them, some of their music isn't too bad. I don't know their names, but the cuter, chubbier one offers to give me an autograph, but I don't have any of their cds, I download their music w/ DRM rights from my ISP's music program. They say that's cool, and just give me a cd with an autograph. Cool. Then I turn around and see a mirror. I'm wearing a tunic, belt, and green hat like Link form the Legend of Zelda. I'm really confused by this. Someone else shows up then in matching Link cosplay. I'm asking "wait, why am I in links clothes?" and every laughs and says I must be too stoned because I've been wearing the cosplay the whole time. I keep trying to tell them I've never done drugs before and never plan on it, but they are all just laughing and goofing off. That's not the end, but it's all I can remember.

Dream Two: I'm at the house my mom lives in. It's a HUGE house, and in waking life she wants my husband and I and my Grandmother to move in with us. There's a male presence, he doesn't say anything as far as I can remember, he's just there watching over me. It's got to be Vesta. I spent some time last asking that he come give me some advice since I've given up on being lucid while I'm so stressed. I can't even remember to do reality checks with everything else in my brain :/ Anyways, I'm thinking about moving there and how maybe I made the wrong choice telling my husband no. Then I try to do some magic, I want to do something with a bracelet that will help me with my dreaming. I find I can't draw power or anything. I feel like my magic is blocked or drained away by the place (not surprising as my mom is a self proclaimed psychic vampire :/ ) and I'm even more sure this option is just wrong. Things are good where we are now. I'd just gotten away from mom's stress when I had the dreams that led me to finding dream views, but then the stress started again and the dreams that helped me find interesting things stopped. If I move then I won't feel like I have any power anymore, because her and the stress and problems she creates for me and my family will only be worse. There's a reason why I avoid seeing and talking to her even though she's only twenty minutes away. Upon realizing this in the dream, I wake up.

Warning, begin rant. Another night of stress and barely being able to sleep. I'm up five hour early again. Still arguing with my husband about moving, with no end in sight. Plus, I'm tacking on the added stress of realizing that dreaming has become almost meaningless for me. I don't know when it started, probably around November/December when we started having outside stress from my family and my nightmares starring my mom began... But my dreaming has shifted from being a deeper, more enlightening and all together exciting experience to feeling shallow and pointless. I should have taken note of this earlier, but looking back at my book of discovery the last few days has reminded me how my dreams used to leave me waking up feeling mystified, and yet enlightened. These days they feel like little band aids to patch all the problems I have in life, and not at all spiritual or enlightening like they did before. I rarely see K or Vesta, and when I do they're merely trying to calm me down and make me feel better. There are no more dreams that feel like lessons or tell me what to look for when I wake up. I rarely do more than mundane superficial crap in any of my dreams anymore. Even Lucid dreaming, which I had originally hoped would help me find some of the answers I'm searching for isn't working. The few times I have been lucid, I haven't actually looked for any of the answers I intended to find. I get excited and run around like a smitten puppy looking for K instead of even thinking of the answers I want to find. I know this stress will pass eventually, but right now I feel like I'm on the wrong track and need to turn around and get back on track. /Rant

I seem to remember being in the midst of some kind of battle on-board a battleship, at one point somebody was driving a tank inside a giant enemy vessel and had to square up against some kind of giant super-vehicle owned by a mechanised Napoleon.


Dream 2

I was ordering food inside a rather large fast food store that served sandwiches etc. I think my mother was waiting for me in the car but when I returned she was missing and I believe there was some anxiety over this as I tried to find her.

Last night I had a couple of dreams but I couldn't be bothered to waking up and write them down
Later on I remembered that I did a nose plug RC and could breathe, don't remember what I did next so maybe just forgot a lucid