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I didn't have much sleep over the past few days because of various things, but last night - I was able to get a good nights sleep. I took some B6 earlier and had a couple of dreams, but only one of them is worth posting. Anyway...

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15-04-12
Around 8:00am

Black Van
Genre: Action
Non-Lucid

First thing I remember is being in a restaurant with a girl, I don't know her in real life but I get the feeling we are in a relationship. We talk for a bit, and I remember her name being Alexis. We chat for a bit while we eat, once done I pay the bill and we walk outside. It begins to rain, so we begin running to shelter but as we run - a black van screeches to a halt beside us and three men come out. One of them has a gun, and points it at me while the other two grab the girl and take her into the back of the van. The man begins to back away from me, while keeping his gun pointed at me. "What the hell are you doing?" I say, but don't get a response, instead the man with the gun opens the vans front door and slowly gets in but as they drive off the man shoots me in the chest. I hit the deck with searing pain going through my chest, I look up at the sky with the rain falling down, pounding off me and the ground. I can feel things going dark, but then I hear someone shout "Are you okay?". I can barely move so I can't check who it is, but when he comes closer I catch a glimpse before everything goes dark - and for some reason Jim Carrey helping me by pounding on my chest. I can hear sirens as I start to black out.

I wake up (in the dream) in a white hospital room. I look around while attempting to sit up, I can, but it's a struggle. A doctor suddenly comes in and tells me to lie back down because the police want to talk to me. I comply, and two police officers come in, they ask me a through questions - which I answer the best I can. I ask them what happened to the girl and who the guys were. They don't give me a reply instead they just leave. The doctor then tells me I'm free to go, I get out of the bed, get my clothes back on and start to walk through the hospital. I spot Jim Carrey in one of the rooms, lying on a bed, with cuts and bruises on his face. I stop and go into the room, Jim looks startled and says "You're alive?!". We chat for a bit, and he tells me that after the ambulance took me, a few men came in another black van and attacked him. I can tell it's the same people who shot me. The doctor who was with me before, comes in and says that Jim can go. Jim and I walk out of the hospital and stop on the side walk for a bit, we discuss what happened again, before the black van comes round the corner again, but this time five men come out the back, two have guns pointed at us, the other three then force us into the back.

Next thing I know, Jim and I are thrown into a prison interview like room. We are then tied to chairs. A couple of the men proceed to punch us in the face often. After a few tags, the men turn around before leaving us. Jim and I both have trickles of blood from cuts on our foreheads. We begin to think of an escape plan. Jim tells me that his ropes aren't tied that tight, he manages to escape from his chair before untying me. I try to open the door, but it is locked. We try to think of a way out of this situation. Jim comes up with the idea of him pretending to have a heart attack or something, while I shout for help. We sit back down on the chairs, and place our hands behind it, after a few seconds I start shouting for help - few seconds later and a man comes in. I tell him that Jim has a problem, he's in pain. The man walks over to Jim, turning his back to me, I stand up, grab him by the neck and break it. I grab the guys gun from his belt and Jim and I make our way to the door.

We check if the coast is clear, it is so we walk down the long corridor. We get to a corner, around the corner is two guys standing by a door. I check the ammo in the pistol, nod at gym and tell him to stay behind me. I shoot one of the men in the head, and take cover from the other guy, the guy unloads is whole clip and while he reloads I pop out from behind the wall and tag him in the chest. The noise from the shooting has alerted the other men. At the other end of the corridor, I see four men with the girl running. Two stay behind and shoot at us. I dive into cover, but Jim gets shot in the chest. I quickly kill the guy before shooting the other guy in the leg. I kneel down beside Jim and ask him what I've to do. He says "Go and save her" before dying dramatically, like something you would see in a cheesy film. Anyway, I run down the corridor, gun in hand, I leave the guy I shot in the leg because I can't waste ammo. I see the four men pulling the girl into that damn black van again.

I run outside but the van begins to pull away, I look around and see a red McLaren F1. I run up to it, open the door and luckily the keys are already there. I turn the keys and speed away in pursuit of the van. I get up close to it and the men open the back doors, and begin shooting at me, I can't shoot back incase I hit the girl. So I speed up and get alongside the van, I shoot the man in the passenger seat. But then I suddenly notice an oncoming car, I swerve to avoid the collision, but so did the other car, and the other car swerves straight into the van. The van begins rolling because of the impact, kind of glad because I was beginning to hate the sight of that van. I stop and cautiously get out of my car, I point my gun at the van, incase someone shoots at me. I start slowly walking towards it, I get to the van and notice the driver has been killed. I walk around to the back, open the back doors, but no one is in the back. Perplexed I turn back around, put the gun away. I hear sirens coming, and quickly run into an alley, because I know I would be arrested because of the gun and the whole car collision. This is when I wake up.

I'm back at uni! And despite being rather drunk last night, my lie-in gave me some really nice recall (after what must have been at least 10 hours of sleep). However, I'm pretty sure I'm missing the first half of this dream, but the second half was definitely more interesting.

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14/4/12

I'm on holiday with the family in a cottage of sorts, and I come downstairs to ask what's for dinner. I'm told by my mum that we need to eat up the leftovers because it's our last day here.

These leftovers turn out to be a small packet of pretzels, 3 packets of cheese and onion Hoola Hoops and a chocolate brownie. Definitely not what I was expecting.

I munch on the packet of pretzels and head outside to find everyone playing American football. I join in briefly against some DCs that quite clearly have never played before, before getting out the brownie [as I'm obviously still hungry].

Pushing my luck, I go back inside and ask if there's definitely no other food, to which I get response I expected. Appalled, I rudely say

"that's outrageous! How do you expect that amount of food to be enough?"

Backed up by the rest of my family, my mum caves in and we go to a restaurant for dinner.

While in the restaurant, we casually change into the cast of Family Guy. Peter [who used to be my dad] orders a lot of food, and I see a cartoon representation of our stomaches, and that they're nearly full anyway. We get our nachos, and eat them while walking on the tables.

Still in cartoon mode, a fight breaks out at the other end of the restaurant, ending my time in 1st person perspective.

I then proceed to watch in 3rd person as Meg gets picked up by Santa and walked home. Once home, he asks whether he'll see her again, to which she replies

"I like clever guys"

and kisses him on the cheek. As she opens her front door, Santa pretends to go next door to a 'party' and tries to make up a pathetic excuse to come inside her house. Severely parred, Santa walks off.

I've been searching the internet for information on Silver Entities in the void. The most meaningful that I came across had to do with two things:

1. The void is nothingness and within the emptiness there is creation. Because when we have nothing, we can begin to fill the void with something. (paraphrased and not very eloquently, but I hope you get the gist.)

2. Light is made up of many colors. And when God created light he created all that is. From that light, the angels were also created. Twin angels Scaphariel and Seraphiel. Both are male. Scaphariel is Golden. Seraphiel is Silver. One represents the male archetype and the other the female. Twin forms of light. Gold holds the space for creations while silver enlivens and activates what is created. Together they are known as the Source Rays.

My silver man, was just that, male. I am female. He was silver and I was gold. We did ... erm...'unite' so to speak at one point. If I take the void to mean a place of creation and the silver man was aiding me, perhaps he was helping me to create? Just as yin and yang is needed in all of life - so is male and female to keep a balance. Am I just grasping at straws here or does that seem somewhat logical? I am an artist and author. I also was working/experimenting with healing energies.

Thoughts?

I was exploring some kind of post apocalypse earth. I was in the desert, with someone else. (I can't remember who) They said we were walking to the "Grand City" that was apparently mankind's last stronghold on the planet or something.
The desert was hot and dry. The sun was low in the sky, and there was not a cloud to be seen.
We walked over a sand dune and saw a huge city. Most of the buildings were damaged but they looked like they were being repaired. I could see people in the streets. The person I was with pointed to a good-size building in the middle of the city. They said that was the capital building. But the most notable feature of the city was the huge river that ran through it.
We entered the city and went to the capital building. It was essentially one huge room with glass walls and concrete supports. Roughly a fifty-foot cube on edge. The ceiling was also concrete.
We entered and the first thing we saw was construction workers putting an additional support column because they thought building was going to fall. Then we came to the leader of the city.
He was some kind of king sitting in the middle of the room. Sprawled out on his throne holding a glass of whine. The dream character I was with and this king started talking. Without warning, the building buckled. I remember seeing people panicking, and debris falling from the ceiling. I started running, back out the door onto the front lawn of the structure.
I realized it wasn't the same building anymore, it was my house. When the earthquake stopped, i saw a fire start inside the house. I went back inside. My grandparents were in there. I asked my grandparents if anything exciting had happened. My grandparents just sort of rambled on pointlessly. Disapprovingly, I got the fire extinguisher and put out the fire.

I was making my way along some railroad tracks, no longer in a desert. I was with that other dream character again, but I cannot remember seeing them or anything, just that sort of feeling that a friend was with me. Until eventually I came to a vaguely familiar home made of pink stucco and orange ceramic tiles on it's roof.
The home seemed to be in a tropical setting, on a hill, surrounded by a couple of palm trees. There was a huge mountain behind it.
I went inside and someone was in there, I cannot remember but they seemed to be good friends with me and the other dream character. Got out my computer and tried to go on minecraft, but the computer had a fatal error.
I remembered the other DC telling me earlier that there had been some kind of Electromagnetic pulse. And apparently it had caused all of the computers on the planet to malfunction.
I can remember the inside of the house being dark. The person who lived there gave us cookies. Then she told me that If I wanted to leave, there was a creature I could mount in the pen outside her house.
I went out to the side of the house. There was a pen that matched the house, a high wall made of pink stucco. The top of the wall was also covered in orange ceramic shingles. There was a large animal that you could ride. I could best describe it as a llama or perhaps a really ugly horse.
There were a couple of stairs made of wood that you could climb to more easily mount it. I got on and started to ride around. The animal was very easy to control, even with no practice.
I started to leave, without the other mysterious DC and while I was walking, I took out a camera, and started making a video cast for the internet. I told people that there was an apocalypse and I was currently riding a llama.

Another image I seen as I fell to sleep, very similar to the one below and Mayan looking. Mine in my dream was a bright crimson red against black. As I seen it I heard "you know its identity"

Non-lucid short dream (between two alarm intervals of 10 minutes)

I'm walking between a few old buildings, painted white. They're part of a farm or an old village, I suppose. I'm pretty sure I'm at the back of the building, there are some Opel Blitz's parked at the door. I see some Americans running, assuming I am German, I follow them. They run into the building. I also see some men in Russian uniforms.. I have no clue what's going on..

I run into the building, turn right, move to the next room, turn left, next room, turn left, and enter the last room. It's full of civilians. I don't know what to do but I'm sure they are enemies. I take a granade from my belt (I don't know what type though, it looked like a Polish B1 grenade) pull the pin out and throw it on the ground. I start running back to the previous room. There's a woman standing, looking at me, in fear.

I start to feel guilty, I yell "ACHTUNG GRANATE!", everybody starts running towards me, to the exit. I don't know why but I resume my sadist carnage and throw a 'nade in each room I cross whilst running to the exit.

I wake up, alarm clock.

I had a short dream of a country song just as I was falling to sleep. I awoke right away and wrote down the lyrics. It was a female vocalist, smooth sexy voice singing: "its my baby when I do, kiss my baby when I do" and she repeats that line twice more. I wish I could have heard more before I woke. I was seeing a visual with it too, of what I assume is the Vegas cowgirl sign. It is similar, at least, it is this giant sign, all lit up with many different color bulbs. It has got this giant cowgirl sitting on a sign saying TEXAS.

If you think this song may be real, I'd be interested in hearing what you think it is.



Now in the morning when I wake up, I keep getting these songs running through my head recently, like my sleeping brain was thinking of the song. Now I'm pretty sure I didn't hear the song in my dreams, but when I wake up it is there. I woke up with a the Mission UK song stuck in my head this morning called: All I want is you.

Just to let you know, this took some of my nerve to do because my first attempt at a lucid dream ended up in a paralyzing nightmare.

This dream started off simple enough. In this dream, I was at one of the practices for my church's Easter play. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I noticed that something was different because everyone wasn't in costume. So I think "I must be dreaming". But as soon as I was about to try out something, my alarm goes off and I wake up.

This happens three times, as I kept pressing "snooze" instead of "off" on my alarm on my phone.

The fourth time that I fell asleep, I was thrown immediately into a lucid dream, unlike the first four times. So I walk out the door of the sanctuary, and I find myself in the hallway to my old church in New Jersey. So I decide to try out some stuff.

The first thing I try to do is make something appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, an earthquake starts to shake the building and I don't know how to make it stop (I also began to think that I was on the verge of waking up because I thought I heard the faint sound of an alarm going off). So I continue with the tests regardless.

The second thing I try is some Dragonball Z things. I tried Freeza's death beam. Success. I try Krillin's Destructo Disc. Success. I begin to try the Kamehameha Wave. I get into the pose and start yelling out the name "Kaaa... meeee... haaaa... meee...." In my perspective, it look so DANG cool!!! And just when I was about to yell "HAAA!!!", my alarm goes off, thrusting me back into the real world and out of the dream world.

Couldn't get back to sleep after that. So mad...

This dream started off simple enough. In this dream, I was at one of the practices for my church's Easter play. The room was dark and i could barely see anything. I noticed that something was different because everyone wasn't in costume. So I think "I must be dreaming". But as soon as I was about to try out something, my alarm goes off and I wake up.

This happens three times, as I kept pressing "snooze" instead of "off" on my alarm on my phone.

The fourth time that I fell asleep, I was thrown immediately into a lucid dream, unlike the first four times. So I walk out the door of the sanctuary, and I find myself in the hallway to my old church in New Jersey. So I decide to try out some stuff.

The first thing I try to do is make something appear out of nowhere. Suddenly, an earthquake starts to shake the building and I don't know how to make it stop (I also began to think that I was on the verge of waking up because I thought I heard the faint sound of an alarm going off). So I continue with the tests regardless.

The second thing I try is some Dragonball Z things. I tried Freeza's death beam. Success. I try Krillin's Destructo Disc. Success. I begin to try the Kamehameha Wave. I get into the pose and start yelling out the name "Kaaa... meeee... haaaa... meee...." In my perspective, it look so DANG cool!!! And just when I was about to yell "HAAA!!!", my alarm goes off, thrusting me back into the real world and out of the dream world.

Couldn't get back to sleep after that. So mad...

Well, Im pretty sure I was at the x-games, and I saw spiderman show up on a skateboard and started doing tricks on a very oddly shaped halfpipe. It somehow went from that to a bunch of spidermen playing indoor soccer. I walked on the field to join them, but they ended up just being little kids. Very Confusing

I had yet another dream after waking up and going back to sleep!

I was playing a Bleach game on PS3 in some place I didn't recognize nor remember. The game was awesome! I was playing as Ichigo Kurosaki and he was already in his most recent Bankai form. The game itself was 3D, fast-paced, and very well made. I don't remember the type of guys he was fighting--they were probably Arrancars.

I recall pressing back, forward and then circle to perform his Getsuga Tenshou. It always wiped out many enemies at once. Heck, a single swing took out an enemy, lol. He was done right. I used his Shunpo (flash step) technique a lot to dodge and counter enemy attacks. Later on in the game, I recall using a move I'd never seen before. Ichigo jumped out of his Shinigami body as a spirit wearing Samurai Armor; and as he jumped out, he went through an enemy and landed behind them.

So, now I'm fighting as a Samurai version of Ichigo Kurosaki and using all these techniques. His weapon was a spear with three blades on one end of it. Strange technique but I liked it, lol.

I went back to sleep again and had yet another dream.

In this dream, my little brother, big brother, a friend, and I were in my old room at my mom's place. I was sitting in my bed with a blanket over my head, surfing the net. Then our friend walked into the room talking about something I don't remember, and then he began to throw up on my fkn blanket! I couldn't believe he did that. My brothers were looking at him like "yeah, he's fkd up."

I was like "screw it" and I let him have the blanket, lol. Then my big bro asked me to hand him some kind of contraption that was sitting on top of the computer monitor. When I reached for it, it began squirting this green, oozy liquid all over the place. The stuff squirted into the holes on top of the monitor, all over the printer, my keyboard, etc. It was a total and complete mess.

When I went back to sleep last night, I had another dream.

I was standing in the front yard outside of my mom's place. Somebody rode up and handed me two porn VHS tapes. There were other people there and some kids as well. I didn't know those people. I remember taking the case off the VHS tapes and replacing them with fake cases of some military fighting game dealing with fighter jets. I didn't want the kids to see that I had them, lol.

Then my dad walks over to me, takes one of them from me, and pops it into the VHS. The kids came over and jumped on the couch all excited.... Boy.... was I screwed. The video that came on showed slim girls--barely 18--who were at a beach. They were wearing t-shirts but that was all...... I stopped the VCR, took out the tape, and went into my room, lol.

April 15, 2012
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I did not meditate and this is my first mistake, I think. I wrote my affirmation: I EASILY remember my dreams and record the when I wake in the morning.

Yeah....but I remembered NOTHING in the morning although throughout the night I would wake know that I was dreaming, remember what it was in bits and pieces, then FALL RIGHT BACK TO SLEEP! I know better than to do that.

Yesterday, however, I was exhausted all day. I was stressed out and when that happens, perhaps it's just better to sleep through the night and hope try for a better result tomorrow.

I am in my collages on-campus fast food restaurant, walking through. I see someone I recognize sitting on a chair just outside. Female, and someone or something is floating some distance to her left who has wings. at the time, I think "Persona" (been watching too much persona 4 lately I guess). I identify this person almost immidiately as, "Kaomea's friend" I start thinking about things I want to ask her, mostly dream related, but nothing comes to mind. I am about to turn around and walk the other way, due to not knowing what to say, but she calls me over or something, (memory vague here) we start walking together, and as we pass through a doorway, she says something that implies I cannot walk in a different direction than I'm looking (I don't get it either). she disappears as we walk through the doorway and the dream becomes so random that I cannot make a coherent storyline. something about Ragna the Bloodedge and Rachel Alucard from Blazblue that I can't really make sense of.