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Gore alert!
I remember sitting somewhere with a woman who looked like she was in her 30’s. She was telling me stories from her childhood. I remember she told me a story that sounded like this: (it’s kinda gory, in the dream I even gagged when I thought about it)

“A long time ago, I cut my fingers to the bone. The blood that was trying to escape couldn’t go through my tiny blood vessels, so immediately my friends had to rip those out for me.”

*gag*

That’s all I remember.

Guinea Pig Haven
I remember coming across a small house with my friends. The walls were see through, and there was no door, only a flap. And there were no windows. Looking inside, on the floor we discovered paper shavings - hamster/guinea pig bedding. We looked closer and found some abnormally large guinea pigs running around in there.

We found a pretty large one who was brown all over and fuzzy. He came up to me, sniffed me, and just stood there. I petted it. It was quite friendly.



At the end of the dream I remember my brother Tom was riding the guinea pig somewhere.

I was in a building I identified as home in the dream, even though it's a totally unknown place. It was night, everything was pretty dark and the light in the room was pretty dim. There were some plants standing around and I think I remember seeing a bunch of jackets on the wall next to a door which was to my right, the room was pretty long and there was a small window ahead.

Something compelled me to do a RC so I pinched my nose and got lucid. Though at first I wanted to go through the door to my right I went for the window ahead of me with my gained lucidity, I prepared to jump out and did another RC to be sure I wasn't doing something stupid, even though I pinched my nose really hard I could feel my nose in reality being free and taking a deep breath. I tried to hover a bit and that worked, but with my low level lucidity a just fell down like a stone when I jumped. Some 10-15m on my way down I was looking upwards to the window I just jumped out, being calm and just taking notice of the fact I don't get the hang of flying right now. The impact was pretty hard (for the ground) but I didn't feel anything much so I got up and walked around a bit. I practiced some walljumps and after a minute or two I saw this dude standing on a roof. He noticed me as well and apparently thought I was some kind of cyborg or mechanical doll, created by a scientist who also created a similar being that once fought this dude. He was happy to see me it seems, because he wanted a good fight so he started attacking me, my lucidity goes down and I see myself roughing him up good with several interesting moves, partially in slow motion.

Had a bunch of dreams last night, each with their own weird connected plot too. Recall is starting to come back to me thankfully.

Sim City
I was pretty much building a city in a Sim-ish isometric view. I had built up a great city, but then ran into budget problems regarding the new highway system I had built combined with the power demands my city had. I shut down a few power plants which in turn caused my city to become an abandoned ghost town with a few brave souls living in it. On the bright side I had balanced my budget and could continue expansion, but at the last minute all my funds disappeared, which was where my dream had ended

Strange City
I was in some neighborhood at night with a party of people with me. The neighborhood was comprised of multiple homes and businesses like that of a suburb, with a few parks and playgrounds thrown into the mix. I felt confined to a square area as I and the few other people explored with me. As we walked the empty streets, a plethora of creatures ran about. Some resembling hellish creatures of a Lovecraftian nature, others of normal animals with a dark twist. While they were benign if left alone, they weren't afraid to attack if you encroached on it's territory.

We moved towards a sandbox that was right at a corner of where walls were which further gave this walled in feeling. There was a hut with some crazy old lady living inside of it and she told me and the other people to start digging if we wanted to escape or something. As we began digging, we encounter this underground cave which had ancient buildings carved into it's huge walls.

The Underground City
As I pushed forward with the few people that I was with, the area became less ancient looking, and more futuristic. Eventually, the entire scene changed to a technologically advanced facility with moving platforms and bits. Interestingly, it turned into a game of Starcraft where I had controlled three bases, two Zerg and one Protoss. The moving platform was some sort of strategical element in the game as I kept shipping units back and forth on it. But that little subplot came to a quick end as I had woken up in the middle of the night thirsty.

Tornado Warning
When I went back to bed, I had found myself in a countryside of some sort. Dirt roads, grass everywhere, few buildings, and lots of trees surrounded me. I was with two guys who happened to be brothers and we were playing in the dirt or something. I remember everything having a yellowish tinge to it, while similtaniously being dimly lit despite the fact we were outside. Before questioning this, I looked up in the sky and the boys' father ran out saying there was a tornado warning because of the dark clouds that were covering half of the sky.

I remember having to wait for a gate to open because the boys' father had a fence around their large property and that fence had barbwire. It also turned out that he was farmer considering he had a few cows in front of his yard eating his grass. As we went inside, I recall the actual house being only one story and fairly small. It too, was dimly lit with a faint yellow tinge, but I blamed it on the lights in the house. At this point, I had woken up because of sunlight coming from my window, so I'll never know if a tornado hit the house or now.

Conclusion
Well, overall, most of the dreams took place in a city with the exception of the last. If I keep remembering dreams at this rate, then hopefully it'll be like I never stopped remembering my dreams in the first place.

My Goodness - I get Lucid tonight. It was the second time that a I can remember.

Me and T. a friend of mine were eating meal with a General of the Army. There would be an exam tonight with my old teacher Mr. B.
And obviously we were soldiers and the General liked us very much so he payed the teacher that we will not fail the test. I finished eating
and started to get my stuff together and slowly made my way to the hall on the other street side where the exam would be. My friend was right next to me than - we realized that we were late! And there was Mr. R. on the Hall entry looking at his watch and counting the seconds - he was going to close the door right before our nose's.... We decided to ran.
I was very very fast and thought only I will not make it. But that I thought if this where a dream I would fly and that I would make it for sure!
My thought continued ahh yeah I should do more RC - I remembered to now. So I decided to jump up while running and fly. Guess what?
I did and I made it in time into the hall and than I was thinking ohh it worked ... strange normally they never work. This is a Dream. I was a little euphoric remembered some of my dream goals and I rubbed my hands to stabilize the dream - Immediately the light's in the hall went off - like a flash. But they were going gently on again.
My focus was better. I was flying near the stairs-handrails up and down and parallel to the corridor. I was going to the exit because I wanted to achieve my third dream goal super high super fast flying. But there was this dream character siting in a kind of lotus position near the exit and smiling to me. I talked to him he told me I should go and call somewhere in Wyoming or so not sure anymore. than I felt I was losing the dream so I started to rub my hands again but I moved my physical hands that.

Just posting this to hopefully clear some things up about what people think about me finding a video game character.

I'm finding her because she said she was my dream guide.

This is part of a collection when I was a fairly new member on Dream views

Please forgive how I typed my dream journal entries and my syntax, but it's best I keep it as is.

http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/link...ome-not-25193/

10/10/11

(LUCID) I wake up in a dream with my fingers on my nose and I’m breathing. I automatically know I’m dreaming. It’s kind of dark, and random DC’s are passing by. There’s a door open, so I can see all of them go around. I ask if I can see my dream guide. I couldn’t get a clear mental image of her, but she was pretty old, but not that OLD, old enough to be a cougar (30+). Her name was Yessica Krovezkel or something like that. I think now she’s younger than my fuzzy image of her, but I started to get sexual with her (licking her asshole) instead of asking her questions LOL. I even started to get my penis out to have sex, but I opened my eyes.

Now I feel bad because that was probably my dream guide because I asked her “Are you my dream guide?” and she responded something about how come I don’t believe her or something like that.

I had another dream as if I’m Naked Snake from Metal Gear Solid 3.


I started out in the jungle trying to kill the snipers, but end up failing in killing them, so I quit. Then I’m in a different environment from MGS1 and I’m trying to infiltrate a lab, but the guards keep spotting me.


I even tried to kick with my left leg or right to hit the guard in the face, but I miss and the guard reported “Enemy attempted to kick me in the face but failed.” So I thought “Screw this!” So I got up a long ladder to reset the alarm system.



Then I’m up this long ladder and meet a lady who looks exactly like EVA and the spy she played as well.



But apparently she was named Margaret, and apparently she was my dream guide because I tried to ask her a question, but she just gave me a gray card and wrote her name on it.


I forgot her last name, but I remember the first because she also put a big “M” on the other side of the card for me to remember.

Then I woke up.


You see? She gives me a letter, and I wake up.

Now, what could be in that letter?

And because she was in rush, that's all she could give me.

I wasn't even interested in her. To be honest, if she didn't say she was my dream guide, I could care less about her.

But because she said she was my dream guide, I can't really pass up that opportunity to see if she's lying or not. She did appear randomly, as you can clearly see when I was trying to get out of the area to reset the alarm.

I hope this clears any preconceptions. I hate to see people in ignorance. It really sickens me that people make fun of a person trying to find someone claiming to be their dream guide.

I had a short dream that was lucid. start out in darkness, no surroundings and I didn't really have a body. I saw 4-5 orbs horizontally lined up. they were all different colors. I think it was green, red, blue, purple, and pink or orange(from left to right). I could hardly see the orbs on the right. I was focused on the green orb for some reason. the blue and red orbs switched places, and then the green orb got bigger and brighter. I felt excited and the green orb started to move up and down. As I started to question my dream I woke up.

I was at an anime convention, walking through a hotel

I'm out in a forest, walking with a group of people. I think my irl sister is with me. We're trying to find a place to hide because a storm is coming. There is this old guy traveling with us, and he knows what to do. We find a sort of nature-house (out of like branches and stuff) that a lady is living in. She has a sign to repel cats on the door, but our cat ignores it and walks in anyway.

I'm at my grandmother's old house, and she's out in the pasture working. I'm looking for her, but my sister lets me know where she is.

Dream#1 ( Tutor clash)
Lucid/Non Lucid

i was in our house in lahore. My math tutor came, apparently i went outside to our front porch opened the door and he came inside. Our porch looked the same , it was evening time when my tutor usually comes but it think our car was in the wrong place of the porch I told him that my computers tutor was already teaching me, he said " it doesn't matter", and then came inside our drawing room where i usually study from him. and i do not have a computer tutor. i remember that the drawing room was somewhat the same but i felt that we were sitting in the wrong corner of it..also i remember looking at it from the roof. it was quite long
i also remember that the computer thing was just an excuse i made to my math teacher , i still dont know why (maybe i was trying to keep the two apart, i think so) so who was this DC? i think he looked like my little bro's tutor. then i told my mom that its all her fault she messed up my schedule. The two tutors started talking, my math tutor even got up and sat right next to the other tutor. After which i exited the room.


Dream#2(a very very short lucid)
It was night time, i was laying on my bed, and my mom was in the kitchen she asked my bro if he wants to get mithai(sweets).
then my brother asked my grandmother if she would want any. Then my grand mother said, that her brother would bring mithayee from faislabad,( It is another city) and give it to us when he comes to Sargodha(another city) via a flight. But we dont live in Sargodha i live in lahore. at this point i woke up. I think because i realized we dont live in sargodha, and so this must be a dream, was the reason i woke up.

Too Many Negatives [Trip Report]
Cannabis, 5-HTP, Valerian Root, Ginger Root
Date: April 27th, 2012

Dose:
repeated, smoked, Cannabis
T+0:00: 200 mg, oral, L-5-Hydroxytryptophan (5-HTP)
T+0:55: 450 mg, oral, Valeriana officinalis (Valerian Root)
T+1:15: 1100 mg, oral, Zingiber officinale (Ginger Root)

A couple days ago, against my instinct, I decided to see if there was any recreational or experimental value in 5-HTP. I've taken it before, but not in a long time, and my memories from back then are hazy. I had originally planned to use it with EGCG, from green tea, as an aromatic L-amino acid decarboxylase inhibitor so that it would only metabolize into serotonin in the central and not peripheral nervous system, but I assumed I could probably take it safely enough as is for a test run without having to worry about too many physical side effects. I was wrong.

I smoked a small amount of weed shortly before taking the 5-HTP, and just a little bit more right afterward. Within an hour I was starting to feel some tingling and was yawning occasionally, something I'm used to having as a come-up sign for serotonergic drugs like MDMA. However, I was also starting to feel significantly nauseous, and it was starting to make me very dissociated and anxious as well. I took one capsule of valerian root in the hopes that it would combat the anxiety and help get rid of the nausea by increasing GABA activity and lowering serotonin activity, but it didn't do very much other than make me a little more sedated. Not long after I took two capsules of ginger root as well, since I believe it relieves nausea by antagonizing 5-HT3 receptors, an antiserotonergic mechanism. It helped a little bit, but not much.

The experience overall could be classified as almost psychedelic as far as the mindset goes, but in a very negative and dissociated way. There was some change in my sensory perception, but it was hard to put my finger on. I imagine this effect could be viewed positively without all of the side effects. It took quite a while for the nausea to finally wear off, but it eventually did. The rest of my day was pretty normal, and then I went to bed and had two lucid dreams. So at least that's nice.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Enjoy as always.

Dream #1 Searching for room 727.

Im in a school in a hallway, and there are different women speaking to eachother in another language i do not understand. I am rubbing my totem in my left hand looking at the hallway of the school im in. There are trophys in the display glass, there are different classrooms im passing with different teachers teaching a certain subject. I am now in a Gymnasium where there are teenage boys running around the Gym doin jogging excercises. I noticed a Coach nearby, he was a stocky build white male, (possibly in his 50's) had a thick mustache and beard with his hair combed back and it was chestnut brown. For some reason my subconscious wants to know where is a room number 727?
Hmm...so i walk up to the man and ask him.. "Can you tell me where room num 727 is?"
He gives me directions and i head back to the hallways in search for this room num.
Im walking thru the halls and go up these stairs, looking at different numbers..why does this place feel like i been here before?

Im now lucid and say..Might as well find Sinoblak!

Final dream: Looking for Sinoblak again.

Im still walking down different hallways, and spot a room number 727. I knock on the door and a white woman with long brunette hair and big blue eyes answers with an accent..
"Yes, may i help you"?
I pull out a pic of Sinoblak. "Yes, you mind telling me where i can locate this lovely lady?"
"Hmm.. ah certainly."
She walks over to a desk looking thru files. She should be in this room here. (I forget these other numbers she gave me) I take the paper and walk back out the hallway walking in seach of Sinoblak. A man walks past me and accidently bumps me and the paper goes flying with the rest of his files he had in his hands.
"Uh sir i am terribly sorry."
"Its ok." Im a bit pissed here and try looking thru all the papers. I ended up waking up here i believe looking thru all of the papers. As the man kept rambling on about some stupid class he was about to teach, and kept trying to tell me corny jokes. (Damn DC's)

Notes: Well i did'nt get much sleep yesterday, but am happy i remembered this much! =D Was certainly close to finding SB in this dream. funny how DCs can be annoying at times. But its all good, atleast i know i am able to search for her more proficently.

29.04.2012

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was camping with a group of people, didn't really know any of them but I became friends with a girl named Andrea. A group of about 10 people, including Andrea and I went exploring in the woods and saw some sort of facility on the shore of a lake. We went inside and it seemed to be abandoned.

We ventured into the facility and found that it was huge as it had underground passages. It appeared they were doing experiments on aquatic animals but something went wrong and had to be abandoned. Andrea and I separated from the group and arrived at a big room that had a fake beach with fake sea, sand, sky and sun. We went for a swim and started surfing the waves that were coming from some sort of generator or turbine. Suddenly the room went dark, everything shut off and water started filling the room. Lights came on and the room no longer looked like a beach, it was simply a facility room filled with water, and had platforms along the walls in case you wanted to get out of the water.

Andrea screamed, I turned around, and she pointed at the bottom. There were huge jelly fishes swimming towards us from the bottom of the room. We rushed to a nearby platfrom and got out of the water. The platform rised and we were able to take a better look at what was really going on. At the bottom of the room there were hundreds of cages, which had opened after we started swimming. Creatures in the cages included jelly fishes, lizard-like humanoids and one huge shark. They were coming for us and we were trapped, as the exit was all the way across the room.

We found weapons and started fighting the creatures. The lizard creatures, which looked like this:







were armed, and kept coming at us. Andrea and I had a gun each, and a spear. We kept killing them but there were too many of them. The shark was just roaming underneath us hoping for one of us to fall down. The shark then stuck his head out of the water and yelled "Will you guys hurry up and throw one of them to me? I'm starving!" I got scared, these were smart creatures and as far as we knew, there could be thousands of them. I told Andrea we should make a run for the exit, but we would have to come really close to the water, and the shark could probably reach out and eat us, but it was the only way out.

We started running and killing any creature that got on our way. As we came closer to the exit, we also got closer to the water. There was one platform left before we reached the exit. There was about a meter gap we had to jump to make it, and we were now at water level. We ran as fast as I could and jumped.

I heard something beneath us coming out of the water, it was the shark. It grabbed Andrea and pulled her under water. I landed at the exit platform, and turned around. There was nothing I could do, the water was red, she was probably dead already I told myself, nothing to do here. I kept running, made it out of the room. I had to find the group and tell them we had to get the fuck out. I was tired and becoming slow. I reached a small pool in the middle of the hallway and thought it would be a good place to hide while the creatures searched for me, as water would appear the last place I'd like to hide in. I got in the water and submerged myself while holding my breath. I heard a laugh behind me. I turned around, it was the big shark. I woke up sweating

4-29-12

Took a nap at 2:45, woke at 5 o'clock

I don't know the original setting of the dream, but I know that early on in the dream I performed a nose-pinch RC and it worked. I was somewhat surprised and shifted my hand to a spot that I was more sure would block any possible nasal air passage. It still worked. Over and over, probably upwards of a dozen times in a row, I did a nose pinch and every time it came up as breathing through anyways.
And so I concluded that my nose was broken and that I'd have to ask about it later.
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Okay, now that we've gotten THAT out of the way...
Memory gap. (grrr)
I remember after some point in the dream that I was back home in Iowa and that I had been hired for some company to do some work at a sort of facility that looked like a retrofitted barn. Retrofitted to seemingly have a six-foot-wide, five-foot-long rail gun (which is basically a completely unworkable design. I helped set up the rail-gun-type-thing in the top of the barn. After a couple hours of testing and what not, we fired it and the shot went about ten feet out of the barn before dropping to the ground.
Did I mention this is in the middle of my hometown? Actually, a larger version of my hometown?
Anyways, the round itself was hollow and square with clipped edges and no bottom edge. This was so that a person could look through it and stand with it (the round) around him as it fired. And that lucky person was me.
Luckily the firing didn't make much noise.
The third time it fired, I wondered how I would get my hand out of the way of the shot. You see, my job was to reach out in front of the round before it was fired and push a safety tab back into the wall. This somewhat troubled me, as I was to do so only within about a second of the round firing. When the rail gun fired that third time, it didn't seem to push very hard on the (square) round, and it barely cleared the 5' "barrel", if you will, before it tipped down and went crashing to the floor of the barn.
So much for a rail gun.
I took my leave at that point, because it was my break then, and biked around the city some. Again I'll say it was my hometown, Cedar Rapids, but it was larger than normal. (In retrospect it reminds me more of Manhattan in size and building type.)
There's a gap in my recall here, but I know at some point that I stopped to talk to my dad as he was walking somewhere. He mentioned that I didn't need to remotely blow up the rail-gun barn at 3:30 (I had a wireless trigger in my hand), and I panicked because it was 5:23. {note: though my watch was different than normal, it was accurate to the amount of time that had passed.} I reasoned with myself that it must have been intentionally diffused before that point, as I hadn't heard it blow up while biking around. Soon after I and my dad parted ways and resumed biking (me) and walking (him) to wherever it was we were individually going.
After a while I biked across the river on the 1st street bridge and back over on the 2nd street bridge. I parked my bike there and clambered up the wall-like steep side of the embankment for the road that crossed the bridge where it meets the land. On top, the road was suddenly the flat, tar roof of a building. It was also midday instead of evening (as it had been earlier), and the roof was hot and... bouncy? (Weird.) I walked around on the massive, flat, multi-building roof that I had found until I ran into my dad again. (not literally) We talked some more and he began bouncing on the roof, which was now as resilient as a trampoline. We ended up agreeing on some task to finish before the day was out, and I returned to the area of the roof where my bike was and explored some.
After another gap in my memory, I know I was back at my house. Sort of. The exterior was pretty messed up, and I remember that I was chasing around some young'uns through the house and around it even. I know at one point out behind the house that I needed to go from one end of the house to the other. However, behind the house there was a lot of equipment like you'd see behind a large store or hotel, but smaller. On my right, halfway down, there were two shiny steel boilers or cookers like you'd see in a pricey restaurant. They were running full steam, and when I walked near them I saw that the only path to get to the other side of the building ran right next to them. One problem I noticed was that there was a small metal arm of sorts attached to the nearer boiler and it reached out half of the width of the walkway. It had a 6" disk-like thing on the end, and there was no reason that I thought I couldn't just duck under it or slide by. Don't ask me why I thought it was stopping me, I just did.
I pushed the arm a bit to see what it did, and when I did the lid on the closer boiler raised a little and some of the contents leaked out. It looked like some sort of soup or sauce.
Well, I figured that my best bet was to just getthroughasquicklyaspossiblenandhopethatIdidn'tsp illanything. So I did. I did spill some on me, though less than I expected and only on my arm. As I continued to run, rounding the corner of the house, I (the curious George of a boy) licked some off to tell what it was. It tasted a lot like tomato soup, but stronger, and it had some other flavors and textures that makes me think it was probably a sauce of some sort.
So I clearly do have taste in my dreams, I can finally say with confidence.
Well, when I got back inside my (first) brother was in the kitchen on the phone. I sat down, exhausted,and noticed that his hair (which he like to keep shorter than about two inches) was now thin and long, falling past his ears. When he got off the phone I commented that it made him look like Don Moen. (This was actually a completely incorrect comparison. Don Moen wasn't even close to right; he looked more like Don Francisco.) He laughed at that and reached to a point on my hair (also long) and said that "it'd have to be ten inches longer that that" to be Don's hair.
Again, that should have been Don Fransisco, not Don Moen, but it wasn't.

{Don Francisco: http://greatgreatjoy.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/04/forgiven.jpg}

I woke, and I tried to make a WILD. I even successfully cleared my mind of most thoughts other than that I would wake up on the bench in the kitchen where I and my brother were and he'd tell me I was dreaming. When I did fall asleep again, however, I didn't dream before my roommate had kicked me in the rear to wake me up. It was dinner time, so it was okay, but I do wish I could have continued the dream.

And lost most of my dreams.

But last night, I dreamed I had a buzz cut again. I looked great
>> I had that dream because I saw a familiar face at the restaurant we went to last night. It was a woman who used to work in our Head Shop. She's always rocked a short buzz cut which made me recall mine

I also dreamed my brother was in a blue car and passed me. I worried that he had tried to find me at the house. I didn't want him running into my hubby and didn't want my hubby griping at me about it.
>> That dream came about because I frequently see people that reminds me of him. And that worry passes through my mind before I realize his showing up at my house is impossible now that he's in jail.

The night before last, I dreamed I was using my bandanna to glide through the air. I have those dreams almost as often as I dream of flying and I enjoy them. Sometimes my arms get tired though, so I'll construct a seat and attach it to the ends of the bandanna But the other night it was extremely windy in the dream. I was lifted too high and then the bandanna was ripped from my grasp and I started falling.
People at a nearby hotel were screaming in fear for me. But I was so high up that my decent was somewhat controlled.
I moved myself in the direction of some trees. The top layer branches and leaves slowed my fall and then I grabbed onto the branches before landing at the bottom.
I tried making my way a hill through some thick underbrush but then I noticed an access road. I was eager to show the people who worried that I was okay.

At some point over the last few nights, I dreamed of driving the Land Cruiser backward lol. And I still had the portable battery up front with me, powering the engine (as I had to do IRL years ago).

And that is all I recall.

So I have had the flu this whole weekend. It's disturbed my sleep quite a bit and so my recall has been pretty lame as a result.

One fragment:

Everything is black. There are rainbow coloured outlines of a 3 dimensional house in my field of vision. This house folds down and reassembles into a differently shaped structure. It is in a constant state of change, flipping in an organized yet kaleidoscopic sort of way. I have no body. I am just watching this sequence unfold. For a while I am mesmerized. I have no feelings about it at all. Then for a second I think to myself "Wow this is beautiful" (shocked that it has taken me so long to notice) but before I could hang on that emotion I suddenly feel extremely disturbed by this complete shift in my perspective of reality as I do not know where "I" fit in this equation..What is "I"?

Then I physically roll out of that dream, and right over into the next.

This dream is not particularly visual. It feels like sinking, sinking, sinking... floating floating floating...

Sinking forever...into my mattress. Never settling upon any stillness. Not being grounded, not having any point of physical reference. It makes me feel dizzy after a while. The materials of my bed have liquified around me. I transitioning through a portal. Still I cannot see but I can hear something: A repetitive, yet non consistent WHOOSHING sound. This sound indicates the speed at which I'm propelling through 'space'. It also alludes to the idea that I am coming in close contact with other physical things (or beings?) also in a state of projection. My body feels soooo heavy. The weight never lifts, it only presses on me harder as I sink deeper and deeper. I am powerless. I am at the mercy of something big.. Something my mortal mind will never comprehend.




It's funny, just the other day I was wondering why my dreams are so visually oriented. It would be nice if I could incorporate more (if not all) of my senses.

Dream one - The first part of the dream is like me playing a HoG. Then it turns into me leading a group of people against some ruler with a lot of men. We get to one point where we can go no further due to a ravine in the floor. And if someone tried to jump it they would be met by a ton of arrows and the ruler’s men rushing at them as there would be bridges that extended. A person of my team deiced to sacrifice themselves so I can get across. When the ruler’s men go after him I am right behind running. I leap onto the bridges and make my way to the men on the other side slashing away with a sword as I go. Thanks to the chaos created the other people with me are able to follow. When it is just the ruler and a few men I go head to head with him. He shoots some kind of arrow at me which I am able to deflect. While asking him what it does he takes it from me and stabs me with it. I fall to the ground while someone stabs him with a sword. I am now in intense pain all over. It feels like my whole body is going to tear apart. The ruler is laughing saying something I cannot remember. He is going through the same convolutions I am going through. Just before he dies he says something about me being the only one who can kill the American gods and how I am cursed to live until I do. Some other people rush in at this point.

The dream shifts. I am in a boat with some other woman when this huge serpent like creature creates huge waves and then jumps out of the water landing its tail on the boat. The other woman is taken under the water and I am left to fight the serpent. Somehow I get the other woman back, but the serpent retreats.
The dream shifts again. I am not in a tent trying to relax for some reason. Then a male and two kids one girl one boy are in a tent by me. I get the feeling the dad likes me and somehow I like him too.
The dream shifts to where we are all playing around in the tents. They are not joined to make some tubes with rooms on the end. I get a feeling I really like the dad and kids. Then the girl starts screaming and wriggling in pain. At this point we are under the covers on a bed in a room. The dad picks her up and rushers her out of the room. Before I can get off the bed the dad comes back saying sorry once (I can’t remember the time frame) she does this. I get the feeling the mean the tom, but I know it is different. I tell the dad I know why she does that and would he like me to tell him. He gets all quite but says yes. I go into the detail of the start of the dream and how she was cursed and such and that is why she has such pain once whenever.

The dream shifts again. I am now the girl or at least the woman cursed to do away with the gods once more. I am minding my own business when I hear some guy talking about how he narrowly escaped being killed by some strange beasts which have taken over a town somewhere. I take interest in the conversation and ask the man what he is talking about. He tells me and tells me of a book which talks about something like this happening. I tell him what I know and how I am working with them or something like that to get things under control.

The dream shifts again to me in this town even though I have been warned to stay away. The whole town has a eerie blue glow to it and light mist clung to the ground. It is also night; the dream is also like a game. I am shown a move in which a pack of wild dogs or wolves or something run behind a bush. Something happens and the dogs disappear in a big hole with the bush and a bunch of little bugs comes crawling out of the hole. I turn and start to run only to be told I cannot escape the town without lifting the curse it is under and killing the beast there. I am now down a road with some flower bushes nearby. Some guy comes riding up in a golf cart type of car and explains to me the only thing that keeps the mist at bay and will keep me safe. I am then told there is maybe only one of these bushes which blooms and will maybe have a bud on it which I can plant in a special spot. When I get to the bush I see a few blooms and a few buds. When I pick a flower to put in my hair an item menu opens up and show a quantity needed to make a fragrance out of the flowers to wear like perfume. When I close this window I am then shown where I need to plant the bud and how. It is a hole in the ground surrounded by a brass closer with teeth which will hole the bud in place while it blooms and grows into a bush. Over the hole is a glass dome with brass overlay. I then wake.


Dream Two Lucid - The dream starts with hubs, mom and I at a game store. Mom is looking for something but I don’t remember. Hubs keeps on asking one guy for things as mom changes her mind on something. I deiced to ask this same man if they have any PSone memory cards. He saps at me saying he is busy and to go away. Something else happens but I do not remember.

I wake to a FA. Somehow I think to tell myself I am still dreaming and do RC. So I manage to make myself do a hand check RC. At first this does not work but then I think to myself I know I am dreaming. So I shake my hand and see all the extra fingers and smile. This stabilizes the dream. I open the door to the room and walk to the front door. When I exit I see it is day light outside and get happy I am lucid again. I think about my tasks I want to complete, but I cannot think of anything besides conversing with a DC. I think about where I can find a large collection of them and remember an underground bar party spot from a dream before. Only problem this requires an elevator.

I turn back to my door and think once I turn back around there will be a elevator in the same spot as last time between the two doors. Sure enough when I turn around there is an elevator. I do not get happy about this but merely marvel over me being able to make one appear. I push the down button the doors open and I get in. When they open at the end I do not see the bar I was looking for but there are a lot of DCs walking around. A male DC greats me and says something I cannot remember. I deiced this is as good as any DC so I follow him around asking him questions about the dream. I do not remember and of the conversation, and dream details from this point are a bit foggy, but I do remember something about merging and silver liquid in rooms and such. I wake to another FA where I am trying to make myself get up to write down this dream before forgetting.

DG