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No dreams recalled
Tried all day long to remember , but nothing T.T. Dammit , i'm tired of fragments and no-recalls. I WANT FULL DREAMS! D:<
Dear subconscious , if you're reading this , GIVE ME LUCID DREAMS. NOWWW. And i'll reward you with this precious banana

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Short Lucid

I was walking into my garage and things seemed unstable and I had an uneasy feeling and just didn't like it at all. I really really wanted to escape somehow, to get rid of the horrible feeling I was having. Then I realized I was dreaming and was glad it was just a dream. I was thinking about how good I was getting at lucid dreaming because everything was very stable now and I wasn't getting overexcited because I was sort of used to it. I thought about what I should do, and contemplated flying and stuff but decided not to. I walked outside of the garage into the sunlight and saw some kid standing on the side of the driveway. I don't really know what got into me, but I went over to him and said "Have sex with me." and he just said "okay." I don't think we actually did it and I don't know what happened after that..

Swings

I was in my neighborhood walking around and really wanted to go swinging. I came to a house that looked like you could cut right through the yard and get to the park with the swings, so I walked in back and saw a lady staring at me. I didn't want to look like I was intruding so I just kept walking and walking through more and more yards until finally the park came into view. There was a small swing set with some small, boring swings on it and beyond that were tons more swings, so I kept on walking until I got to the main part of the park, which turned into a neighborhood type thing, and it was completely filled with swings. But every single swing was filled up, so I kept on walking and looking for somewhere to swing. Apparently it was a new hobby for everyone, kids, adults, and even elders, to go swinging. People would stay overnight in these small house type places and try to get up early or reserve a place to swing. I think I actually stayed in one for the night, and eventually found a swing.

I got a lot of sleep and had many dreams this night. I didn't write them down so here's my best attempt at recall.

fragment
There was a dream here before the lucids. No detail other than I remember waking up from it and then into the lucids.

Black and White Lucid
Method DILD (?)
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control C
I don't remember much about this one. I mostly remember that my vision was black and white and this was disappointing. I remember trying to look at my hands but I couldn't move them. When I woke up, I was determined to have another lucid of higher quality.

Questions Answered in Lucid
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity B
Vividness B
Control C
I don't recall how I became lucid. I am in a luxurious house. I am looking through a sliding glass door to the pool area. In and around the pool, a bunch of attractive people, mostly blonde chicks in bikinis. I look at my hands for stability. My body is a bit stiff and I have some awareness of my paralyzed physical body. I try to let go of that and just focus on being in the dreaming. I notice that the dream is in full color and that it fills me whole field of vision like an IMAX movie. This makes me more confident. I phase through the glass door and enter the pool area.

I think a few other things happen at this point. I don't recall. I feel like I fly away from the scene to find something and then came back. When I come back, there are four people left at the pool, all blondes in white bikinis. I walk back into the house and they follow me. Inside is the living room with windows facing front and back and the sliding glass door to the pool to the side. There are a few couches around a coffee table. I stand in the middle of the room and the chicks arrange themselves on the couches or standing next to me.

I recall the talk by Robert Waggoner from the DV video post and recall his advice to ask the DC to explain the symbols. So I look at one of the girls and ask "could you explain the symbolism here?" She replies willingly, not rude but as if it's obvious. She looks at the front windows, which are covered with drapes and says "you have a tentative father". Then she directs her attention to the back windows, also covered with drapes, "... and a tentative mother." Then she looks at the couches which have plush stuffed cushions and pillows. She says "The couch cushions show your attraction to large breasts". I think she said a few other things that I don't remember. Even though what she said was a bit nonsensical, it was and interesting interaction with a DC.

Then I have an orgy with the four girls. Not much to say about that.

fragment
I think this dream was about Brian? No recall besides that.

Gas Station
I am at a gas station with my friend B. My car is having problems and I am trying to fix it. I have the hood up. Also, I seem to have a convertible and the top is down. I put the gas nozzle into several holes in the car, hoping that adding gas somewhere will somehow solve the problem. When I squeeze the nozzle, liquid sprays from another part of the car. I eventually realized that this means the car is full and adding more just causes overflow. B suggests that I start the car so I can see if the gas gauge shows it's full. I am a bit afraid that it will cause an explosion because of all the gas that has spilled. I start the car and it shows the gas is full.

Late sleep so I hardly recall this dream

I was at school inside the hall and I was at a matric dance. It was my dance and I can only remember sitting with my friend who was depressed. We were both wearing suits and sitting at a huge table.

Realism: 6
Vividness: 3
Daily Residue: More like weekly residue

This dream was nothing special it was just me observing the movie I saw in the dream, I don't remember anything from before though.

Dream - Lucid

I remember being outside at night with my friend Dakota. Someone else was there too, but I can't remember who. We were having to fight zombies. It was like a video game, where we had to kill these different types of zombies in one level to get to the next one. In this level, one of the first levels (there were 1 or 2 before this one), there were 3 different types of zombies to kill, each type deadlier and harder to kill than the last, and we only had a limited amount of ammo.

I remember before we went out into the level (we were just hanging out behind something so the zombies wouldn't see us), I was telling Dakota about what I did in the previous level (Dakota had gone through it already; he was at this level way before me). It had a beach on it, and I told him that after killing a few zombies, I laid down on the beach. If zombies came up after that, I'd just take them out. That level really wasn't that hard compared to the one we were in now.

I remember seeing, at some point, Dakota or the other person that was with us, fighting with someone's mom, I don't remember if it was Dakota's mom or the other guy's mom. But they were arguing about when they had to be home by.

Alright, back to the zombies. First, I remember talking to Dakota about what would happen if we lost all our lives. I asked him something about if we'd just come back or if we'd really die. He said if we lost all of our lives, we'd really die. It was real life, after all.

We decided to go out and kill some zombies. We went out from behind our little area. The zombies started to come out. We were shooting down the easier ones to kill. Not too bad, but then we got to the last ones. They didn't look like zombies, but more like almost invisible aliens with this big blue light streak going horizontally through their mid-sections. Dakota was telling me to shoot them, trying to instruct me what to do. I was trying to take one down, but he kept hitting me. I finally ran out of ammo and then energy, and died. I thought I was dying for real, because I thought it was my last life. But then, I was back where we started, sitting behind something with Dakota. We had been so close to completing the level!

I remember coming out from behind our little area a few times and killing off the easier zombies. Those crazy alien-like ones were really difficult to kill, and were very aggressive. We were trying to prepare ourselves for that.

Dream one: Walking through neighborhood to house with friend. At house and various things happening in house. Wall made of wood falling in. Fires being lit in house and not going out.

Dream two: Old neighbors house, lots of people there. Some tenious link to Star Wars in my head. People I did not know there. Cat on top of person.

Dream three: Shopping in regular shopping centre. First got groceries and then clothes for my kids, ended up leaving it too late and not getting kids clothes I needed.

Dream four: In house I work (didnt look like it). Got angry at kids as a means to control them. Had to restrain one and person with me didn't help. Met people from old job there.

Dream 1-- Bear Hunting

This old, wise hunter and I are going hunting for black bears. We are on a patch of grass, walking forward toward an extremely shallow tributary, when I see a black bear running toward the center of my vision in the distance from the right side. At that moment, I notice the hunter is holding this strange weapon, which appears to be a long black tube with a red ballon at the end. On the balloon is a big white star.

At first I have no idea what the weapon is or how it works, but I am just following the lead of the hunter. We cross the tributary, approaching the bear closer. When we cross, the bear starts to run toward us at an angle. This causes us to run in the opposite direction, and the bear begins to run around us in an attempt to cut us off.

At this point, I get scared. I have a feeling the bear can predict our movements and read our minds. Then I remember we have this weapon to use, apparently I now have one in my hands too. This gives me a surge of confidence, and I being to run forward. Running, I look down at what I am holding to get a better idea of how to use it. As I look back up, I realize I am now on a sidewalk and there is a fence to the left of me. I see a black bear cub close to the fence, and reactionarily pull whatever trigger is available. The effect of this weapon is huge gust of air that pushes the cub up against the fence with an extreme amount of force. I become regretful of my action because I not only abused the cub but now the mother bear will be angered.

Out of nowhere, a group of people show up and start crowding around me, encouraging me to walk forward with them on the path of the sidewalk. We start walking and there is a lot of talking. I'm not saying much, but I am caught up in the momentum and inertia of the group. Then, the cub sort of transforms into a person, who joins our group. After we exchange a couple of words, he bites me but won't let me bite him back to be fair. This pisses me off and I leave the group.

Enraged, I keep walking alone. It now becomes night time and I find myself walking next to balto. I have this internal debate about whether or not I should talk to him about my feelings. Then I decide to, and ask "who does ____ think he is?"(i cant remember the name of the guy who bit me in hindsight, in the dream I actually said a name). As we keep walking, we end up sitting in bleachers, it turns out there is a huge procession for the group of people that I was walking with.

As I'm sitting down, I see some of my high school friends sitting in the bleachers, especially peg. Someone says "peg, i havent seen you in a while... you look like a druggie" and peg smiles and tells a joke as he looks around. His gaze settles on me and I look away. I think about how I should be a part of this procession instead of waiting here with everyone and how the issue wasn't whether or not I should talk about my feelings but whether or not I should act out my feelings instead of just running away and complaining later.

Dream 2-- Watching People Take a test

I am standing in the doorway of a room with the teacher and his desk to my right, and all the students taking a scantron test in front of me. They are all sitting on chairs, taking their tests on top of black tables. The floor is white. Many people seem to be having trouble with the test, and one girl in particular catches my attention.

She seems puzzled by one question, and asks aloud, "how am i supposed to know???" My perspective zooms in on her face, and I become entranced by her lips. I seriously desire to just kiss her and hold her. As I continue to look, people are starting to file out of the room one by one because they have probably completed the test. I am still this passive observer, just watching and apart from it all. There remains on student left in the room, who looks like a simpson's character is frozen in a position that makes me smile. He eyes look closed, and his hand is awkwardly holding the pencil. He is brownish skinned and definitely animated.

The scene cuts to a mall. I am coming down an escalator and I see the girl from the testing room except now she is wearing this weird whitish outfit and has totally blue skin with black stripes painted over her face. I look around and notice that there are a lot of people wearing the same thing, and I wonder why. I start to think that she is under age and so is dressing like that so they can't tell. Or that the school is going on a field trip and wants everyone to looks uniform.

They all line up in this very long line. As more people start to file in behind them, I notice this one man who comes in, looks around and sees all the suspicious blue people, and turns around and walks away. As he was hesitating, I come to realize how suspicious it is that all these blue people are in line at the same time as well. As the man is exiting the building, I feel like I am in a comedy because there is a guy who I feel familiar with following him. The man starts running as soon as he exits the building, and my guy is running about 20 yards behind him.

The man in front starts making gestures, and its funny because the man behind starts mimicking the gestures. I am really confused but am just watching from a distance, still inside the building. There are now two people following the man in front! The chase starts going up a parking structure.

Suddenly, I am watching from a position on some random floor in the parking structure, and I see from below the guy running up an escalator and getting punched in the face once he gets to the top. The guys start beating him up. Now, I am watching them from an equal level. There are two guys that start dragging the Indian looking guy away and throw him over the side of the parking structure. As they were dragging him, he lost his sandals. I stare at what look like comfy slippers and have this memory of getting yelled at in my frat for leaving out sandals or something vague like that.

Then, Tom and two other guys appear around me and they are sad. Tom says that was he really close friend and he can't believe that just happened. We start to walk away and I rub Tom's shoulders. Tom then walks the other direction. I start to think about how smart Tom is if he wants attention because we are trying to walk to a location, but he is avoiding us at the time he is most in need of our company. So we have a choice to either continue walking and abandon him in his time of need or stop everything that we are doing to focus on him.

Dream 3-- Arcade

I am in an arcade, walking arm-around-shoulder with another guy, who also has is arm around my shoulder. We are basically attached because we are holding on tight. We start walking down this dark staircase and appear in the light of the videogames. There are people playing them, and girls catch my eye. I want to hook up with a girl, but the guy I am with is just continuing to walk forward. Because I keep slowing down and keep getting my head turned we end up facing opposite directions as we are still arm-in-shoulder-locked.

My friend then finds a video game that combines gallaga and pac man and we start to play. He plays pac man first and then dies rather quickly. There are three girls that walk up to us from our left. We see them but dont say anything, they are just standing there talking to each other. My friend then turns to me and says "I don't want to hook up with high school girls." I think about that statement and wonder if I am easy and will just hook up with anyone and whether these girls are actually high school girls.

My turn shows up on the screen and apparently I am playing pac-man as the gallaga ship. I can move around the level and ghosts appear out of the bottom of the screen that I have to dodge. I take off one of my USC hats and put on another. This delay causes me to die. THen I turn around and hear an announcer from another video game say "...and gallaga is busting his nuts..." and I turn to a nearby table of my friends and say DID YOU HEAR THAT? HE SAID GALLAGA IS BUSTING HIS NUTS hahahah... people start cracking up, then I have no idea of I should actually say something else or what to do. My friend next to me says "trape the napes" and someone else says "trape the napes" and they laugh at that more. I think about whether my friends are shy and stupid or whether I am too self-conscious. Or both.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Was out drinking heavily last night, so I didn't dream much. Did have one dream which was rather weird.

03.00: Sleep

12.00: Damn crooks
I'm in my hotel room at Gran Canaria. It looks way bigger than it was and it seems as if we have a small house instead. I get out and pick up my phone and call my old friend Jesper. He picks up and I ask him if he feels like going shopping for groceries together. I remember he's living next to another one which is closer and he intends to go to that one. I hang up and sit down at a bench near the water. I can see a shell in the turquoise water, it's nice.

I mind my own business and just eat some crackers when a couple of guys in brown police suits shows up. "Is that box of crackers open?" one of them asks me. "Only one is open" I say and show him the box on the bottom, which was open. "Oh, I thought it was closed". There's two crackers left. "You can't have two boxes open at the same time, it's complicated but we have to arrest you" he tells me. I figure it has to be some kind of retarded law about germs and stuff.

I don't want to get arrested, so I start begging them not to. "Please don't arrest me! My girlfriend Monica's sick, she has a disease, she can't do anything on her own". "A disease?" they ask. "Well, almost like a disease, she has so bad memory she can't even remember what she was supposed to do when she goes to the bathroom". They decide not to arrest me, but just fine me instead.

I'm given a 5 euro bill and I take out my wallet. I stare at the coins for a long time, wondering if I should really do this. I decide it's best to just play along and I give him back a 1 euro coin and a 20 euro bill. "Thanks" I say and walk away.

12.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 9 hours

Supplements: Massive amounts of alcohol

That's it! I'll try to get lucid tomorrow morning. Hopefully I'll have a nice REM rebound because of the drinking.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I am living in an apartment in a subdivision of caves in some fantasy world. Outside of our door is an infestation of baby dragons so I have to call for an exterminator. I tack a posting for the job on the bulletin board outside of the church. Apparently there is a lot of trouble with work lately so I get a pretty long line of people to interview for the job.

First is this Dwarf Barbarian with Fur armor and a battle axe that is twice his size. He tells me that he will smash and crush all dragons for a fee of 3 gold a dragon plus an extra 15 for the queen mother. I say thank you and that I will get back to him.

Next is a little weasely elf in a member's only jacket holding a box cutter. He says he'll kill all the dragons, queen included, and bring me their hides for a flat fee of 75 gold. I thank him.

Then a mage comes in wearing a bathrobe and sneakers and says that for 20 gold total she will teleport all of the dragons away and I'll never have to see them again. I say to her, well if you just teleport them away won't they just be someone else's problem then?


She sort of shifts her feet and looks down. Is this some kind of a scam where you put dragons in people's front cave yards?

I am lying in bed in my bedroom. My dog, frank, is standing on the desk across the room. She is whining and howling for me to take her outside. I open my eyes to look at her and there is a huge snot bubble growing out of her right nostirl. The bubble pops and turns into a huge stream of mucus that pours out of her nose and runs all over the desk. She is still looking at me and whining for me to get her some food.

I was following a guy into Spencer mansion, knowing that there where no zombies in it and that it was made into a living place. I went to a familliar area. The area I wond up in had a door on the north wall on the left hand side. On the right wall there where two doors, the left no doors and to the south a hall way. The walls where a paleish green. The person I was following dissapeared and I got scared. I ran through the mansion trying to find him. I worried that since I was scared of that place zombies would show up outa fear. I spun around with my eyes closed, rubbing my hands and tried to teleport. I got stuck in the void. The dream ended.

I was in a dark area with a dark floor. There was a pond filled with blue water to my left. I went to the blue pond and tried to bend the water into a sword. I lifted the water up a bit but had horrible control of it. I kept trying. I felt the dream become unstable, so I rubbed my hands together and the dream became clearer. I gave up on the water and chose to teleport somwhere. I closed my eyes and spun while rubbing my hands, but I got stuck in the void. The dream ended.

So I remember being in a back room right next to the stage. The band was practicing; or well, I remember seeing the drums and someone playing. I heard that it was time for me to go on. So I ran through a hallway jumping up and getting excited. But when I entered... I could only see staff still setting up. No audience. Then someone in the back shouted, "Why did you come out so early? It hasn't started yet!" So I embarrassingly walked back through the hall into the band room again.

After a while, there was a sort of "tunnel" to my right (the entrance to the stage was in front of me, and I was standing in the practice band room; to the right of me were the instruments). I went through. Apparently I had to jump over things/crevices! Then, somehow, I morphed into a squirrel-looking animal. Then all there was were stairs of dirt. I "hopped" down them and saw someone lying unconscious on the bottom step. I gave them a good hard bump with my body, and they fell onto the floor. He/she woke up and thanked me. It turned out that that creature was a "squirrel" too as well as my lover!

So now the whole band came through this passage. I guess this was the long way of entering to the stage. I don't really know why we were in there; but I could have sworn my drummer looked like a turkey.

I can't remember what else happened.