Brutal Gig Me Fraser and Reuben were walking through a parking lot. We saw a guy we met at a party and he said there was a gig on across the parking lot. It was his band playing and they could get us in for free. We walked in the doors and it was chaotic! There was a massive fight going on and there wasnt even a stage for the band. Someone got knocked out and then I started getting punched in the back. I kicked the guy down infront of Reuben and he punched him in the face twice. Blood smashed out of his nose and he was knocked out. It got even more brutal and then I woke up. Pool Tournament I was at home with dad. He was about to have a pool competition thing. He needed 200 people for his team but I could tell it was going to be dangerous. He asked me if I was sure I wanted to play. I said definatly. The house was filled with pool tables and random people playing everywhere. I went into the kitchen and there was a Nissan Laurel right where the kitchen table usually is. Dad had bought it and fixed the engine. It had an RB25de so I was pretty stoaked.
So I woke up this morning and had a faint idea of a dream I had... But I just never got up and wrote it down. I got lazy, no excuses. I also noticed I'm getting a little lazy with my reality checks. I've been trying pretty hard to make progress for the last two months and I haven't lost hope. I just wish I had experienced even the tiniest thing to, you know, help me keep my spirits up.
08.09.2010A few short fragments (Non-lucid) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I went to bed late and woke up early, so not good recall, but as always, at least something. - I was working online. - I was assigning work outdoors - There were other people doing the same thing. - Old school scenario (???? no idea what is this) - I was playing Final Fantasy X - I was using Yuna with my wife. - A boss attacked me and did nothing. - Yuna had 60.000 HP and the boss was crappy. - I defeated the boss by one hit doing 86 damage. Missed dream signs: - I was playing video game. I do not play video games anymore. - The video game scenery was ridiculous. What I would have done if lucid: - Head for a ToTY
Dream Date: 9/9/10 (morning of) I had woken up and gone back to bed several times. I don't remember what I was dreaming directly before this, but I remember I was in a nightclub, and there were people all around me. I felt like I was about to black out, so I (presumably thinking I had drank too much in my dream) immediately went into "Don't black out!" mode. This seems to have woken me up consciously, so I became aware that I was sleeping. When I was partially awake, I could hear reggae music very vividly, and I thought I had fallen asleep with headphones on. I don't listen to reggae, and I didn't recognize the song, so I'm not sure where the music was coming from. I began to slip back into slumber, and was *immediately* torn from my body, to the far corner of the room, near the ceiling. It happened very quickly, but I was able to turn and "see" myself and my fiance. (I put "see" in quotes because it was still dark in the room so it was hard to see). It was really cool, but as soon as I was on the far side of the room, I had the feeling of "cool...sooo...now what?" .....and then it was over.
I am talking to a girl that I have been sleeping with. She is laying on a couch, with her head in my lap. She is telling me that she has had sex with one of my closest friends. I am not angry or surprised.
#1 - Night of Septemeber 7th, 2010 I am preparing for a parade, or other Marching Band related event, but my Dad says that first, we should go see a movie. I text my friend Bekah to see if she would like to join us at the movies, The movie title was "Despicable Me". Bekah replies that she has already seen the movie, so I plan on going to see another movie with her instead. At this point I remember pulling into a parking lot, thats is huge, with a small empty warehouse in the center, and knowing that this is where the band is supposed to prepare for the event. This is weird because I don't remember driving there or anything before that. I enter the warehouse and conveniently my Bass Drum is right inside the door, I open my case to find that my drum has fallen apart. Screws are missing and the carrier is barely being held together. I go and talk to my Band Director Mr. Peterson about it, and he shows me that if I drew dark spots with either a sharpie or other similar utensil, the drum would be temporarily fixed. I then enter the warehouse and place my drum back in its case (I know, its outside now), and apparently the event is over. I see a small glimpse of my friend Ross Bernardo who also plays Bass Drum. At this point, the dream ends. Some of the holes in this dream give me concern, "what happened at the movies?" And gives me concern in thinking that I may have forgotten them, but I have zero recollection of them at all. Also, I sleep with my TV on, and I occasionally blend my dreams with things I hear from late night infomercials. Are these things normal?
★★★★ what? I'm in some house or something. Romano is an older man showing me some CD cover with interesting art. I don't recall why he was showing me it. sleep paralysis I'm walking around on new years eve looking for a bar to go into. I find one and i see in the window some people are dancing. I go in and recognize the one waitress L. After a few minutes the place is empty and I'm talking to the waitress. The bar is now a house or something, and I decide to stay for the night. I hit sleep paralysis, and i can feel my whole dream body going numb. I can see swirls of colors on front of me and focus on the center of the swirl. I think of a place i want to go. I think i want to go to J's dream so i focus on the person's name. The swirls stop and I'm looking at a strange room with walls made of blankets depicting clowns. I shift my gaze around and I see that the walls move around a bit and now I'm seeing a hallway at the end of the room. After a while I'm no longer looking at the picture but instead I'm almost inside the room. I can't feel the rest of my dream body. FA, I get awoken by my family. They are talking to someone. I see the clock reads 8 and i decide i want to sleep in more but i check the kitchen to see who's there. I enter the room and see my mother talking to them, she's apologizing to my brother's gf for some reason. I look closely at my mother and see she has different eyes than usual. FA, I'm in the house again but everything is dark. I find J looking for a light switch it doesn't work. I become lucid. J says "Why is it so dark in here?" I say "I don't know but i think this is a dream" suddenly a pain in my chest wakes me up. Ledge Flash of being outside on a house ledge. I keep climbing up and jumping down it. Asuka gone again Realising the previous dreams weren't up on a hill where my house is I go up to my house on the hill to look for asuka. I find her and she says she's leaving and never coming back. I was crying abit and i can't remember much of the conversation.
No dreams, blah. I've been recalling less due to school (you guys know how that works), hoping to fix that though... I honestly don't remember anything, I had a few bare fragments in the morning but have since forgotten them. Should have written them down, but had to go to school. No time... I'll have time tomorrow morning, though. Hoping for a lucid soon, this new RC pattern has to work eventually... :\
Another day with no recall. That sucks :/
08.09.2010Dating (Non-lucid) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID I've again not had very good recall the past couple of nights. I really should write stuff down when I wake up, either from an alarm or naturally, because I always forget what I dreamed of by morning. Anyways, this dream was one of those where, when you remember it, you feel really sad because it wasn't true, no matter how possible or not it is. I'm in some situation, with a friend who I've had a crush on in the past, though never dated. She admits to me that she really has feelings for me, and I tell her the same. We hug. Next, there's a sort of series of scenes, where we're very happy together. The dream ends, or fades into another.
I found this one in my phone from a week or so ago, so it's going up too. I am in somebody's room on the second floor. There is a TV about two feet away from the foot of the bed, and a screen door leading to a small deck that overlooks the driveway right behind the TV. We are playing the Wind Waker or some other classic game. We then decide to watch a movie, and when we put it on, it's hentai. I accidently drop the movie case and also a yellow egg shaped thing and they somehow manage to roll onto the deck. When I go out to grab them, the deck turns into my porch which is on the first floor. I go back inside to the same room. As the movie starts, I show the person I'm with how to put a DVD into another player attached to the same TV so that we can switch it to something more appropriate if somebody comes up the stairs. On the TV I see a vivid image of spot in New York, with a courtyard beside a skyscraper, and a sculpture on the grass.
NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING In general, these last days I have been recalling fewer dreams and totally missing good opportunities when they arise, but we all go through these stupid phases, I guess. 23:20 GMT – Sleep Can’t really recall a dream, but I woke up with obsessive thoughts about dream control and the serial dreaming RPG tasks, so either I was dreaming something related to that or not at all and felt frustrated on waking up. 3:58 GMT Random fragments I’m with a group of kids, brothers and sisters and apparently we are very famous. There’s a huge group of fans stalking us and we just have time to hide in some house. Inside there’s a maid who becomes our friend and keeps our location secret. For some reason we stay there for the night and it is absolutely imperative that nobody find us there. Then I am on some balcony trying to disentangle something (?) Then I’m on top of a skyscraper in N.Y. I feel a bit of vertigo. Then I am with some blond guy and we are making a pact to help each other keep some secret only to ourselves. 4:30 GMT From a train to a slaughterhouse I’m on a train station platform and from inside a train a friend calls me, says it is last call for this train and if I’m not getting there immediately I’ll have to go on the next. I don’t know where we’re going, but I hop in. I sit and realise that in the seat in front are my friend R., L. and some other person. They are bragging about their dreams. One of them says she can easily use the train ride to snooze a little and will surely come up with at least 2 lucid dreams. Initially I feel envious, but I shudder this feeling, don't want to give in to envy and just ignore them. I look through the window and I see bulls on some field. Half-lucid I start thinking which animal suffers the worst: the bull that roams free his entire life and is then slowly tortured and bleed to death in a bullfighting arena or a cow that lives an entirely miserable existence of pain in some factory farm but then dies supposedly quicker? My doubt lies now in the effectiveness of stunners that are used to leave the animals unconscious before slaughter. So I find myself in a slaughterhouse holding one of such devices to test it. I thought about trying it on myself, but I felt a bit scared of what I would feel, so I just test it on an apple – not a very clever idea, it just gets some burning marks on it. [chicken!] A portal I’m on some house of an old couple and their son. We’re in the middle of an empty room and there’s a portal open in the centre of the room. It just appeared out of nowhere. As it shines and waves in the air, in tones of blue, like water, we wonder what it is and if it’s dangerous to cross it and what it is on the other side. The boy gets behind it and throws something across it in our direction. It was like a piece of garbage. Instead of crossing, it just stays there, suspended in the portal, but it performs a strange mystical dance and then becomes a perfect circle form. Then I don't remember much, but I had no will or courage to actually cross it and think I just left this room and house and continued dreaming outside. [idiot!] Buddhists and new agers I'm in this foreign country and my mom came to visit me and I decide to show her around. I’m dressed in orange, top and long skirt and with my purple hat. I tell her lots of monks and Buddhist teachers are also in the city at the moment, for some gathering. We see a group of people waiting for a bus on the other side of the road and I tell her “See over there, it’s Mathieu Ricard with some other Tibetan Buddhist monk”. A bit further we pass by another group of monks, and I tell her “And see, look who’s in the middle of these monks, it’s Tich Nhat Hanh.” Then we see a large entrance to some place, like a garage, not entirely inviting, but lots of new agers gathered there. They invite us in, they are eating what seems to be lentils and vegetables, so we join them. After the meal they behave a bit childish, like when they start doing this clapping hand game I used to play in camps with other kids. 5:30 GMT Alone in the city I am again in this foreign city and I know my mom is visiting, although not with me at the moment. I know it is quite far from home and I wonder how she enjoyed the flight. I feel that flying is becoming quite normal to me and I wonder if I’ll ever be afraid of flying. Then it occurs to me that maybe if I fly to Nepal, I might feel scared because lots of planes fall in that area as their flying companies are not so safe. While I think about all this I am entering a building, following two other girls who enter a public toilet. It is quite big with large mirrors on the wall over the sinks. The girls are mocking me or something, but I ignore them. I go to the mirror and I spend a lot of time there, looking at something in my face as I continue thinking. Because I’m abstracted, the dream transforms and I am now on top of a hill sitting with a guy and a girl on a few steps and the mirror transformed into a glass wall by my left side. Through it I can see a road down the hill and a city on the other side of the road. Me and this guy and girl are so packed together (don’t know way, as there’s lots of space around) and the guy is flirting me thinking I’m interested. But I couldn’t care less, I get up and decide to move. I go downhill and cross the street. From there I see than on the side of this little hill, there's a bigger mountain with a forest and old houses in the horizon, outside the city and for a moment I consider going there. But hesitated, and decided to just fly around the city. I am lucid but honestly can’t really tell when it started (think it was gradual, from the moment I moved away from this couple of friends). For a moment I find myself inside a house with a bunch of other people and I change clothes – now I wear a sexy transparent black shirt. Then I’m outside again and I’m a bit distracted and a car almost hits me. I pause on the sidewalk for a while, just looking to the sky and the buildings around. It’s all so luminous. Then I see lots of jets lifting off and I have this impression there’s a lot of rich business people on this city. The jets lift off, one after another, there’s maybe an airport nearby. But then they start behaving strangely, like they are not flying in a straight line, but a bit randomly and then they transform into giant metal birds, with colourful painted wings. A Russian guy wakes me up from my mesmerisation and tells me he will drive this car, which is parked right by my side and I’m sitting on the sidewalk, so he’s just warning me to get out the way. He is a bit rude, but he is actually concerned about my safety and I feel he is a nice guy. He is a driver, not the owner of the car. Then I cross the street on the pedestrian walkway. I didn’t look to see if it was green for pedestrians and a wall of cars comes in my direction from both sides. But I am not afraid. As they approach I think "cars keep coming at me but this is my dream and they can’t hurt me, I’ll be like Moises opening the red sea and crossing safely to the other side". It didn’t quite happen that way. It just happened that the cars would pass in front of me or in my back without ever colliding with me, very elegantly. That was nice, but not awesome, so I stay there and decide the cars will lift in the air and freeze and make a wall of cars. This time I point my hand to them to make it happen, but all it happens is that they started levitating, but not with the desired effect. I think “Oh crap, I really suck at this control thing.”, but it wasn’t that bad - at least it was a very sucessful levitation of cars. Then for some irrational “reason” when I am in the sidewalk I decide I’m not over with this gimmick yet and I walk a bit further down the road until I find a spot that for "some reason” looks good. There I decide to send a purple light ray – actually more like a laser, hard to explain - to the ground, marking an invisible line where the cars will create this wave or wall of cars, when they reach it. But by this time, the traffic diminished a lot. It’s already dawn and I also realised there’s very few people on the street. A guy coming out from a building – looks like a bank – just saw me sending out “laser beams” and with his eyes wide open he freezes on the sidewalk and moves back inside. I can’t believe he is afraid of me! I lean on some raised flowerbed outside a building, waiting for some car to pass, but nothing! They totally disappeared. Now I feel pissed. I was sure this time it would work! Then I feel so incredibly lonely, as if I was the only one of my kind in the world - nobody with whom to share my reality and my tricks. Then my cat appears by my side and I hug him, but I don’t feel much better. [Then I felt totally disappointed that I didn’t remember to do any of the tasks I was supposed to do!] 7:15 GMT – Wake up
Updated 09-08-2010 at 10:34 PM by 34880
I took a roughly 20 minute nap earlier and got hypnogogic imagery, and possibly some dreams. For some reason I started getting images from the Triple X movie with Vin Diesel, with parts from the last ending action scene. I might've had some dreams, but by the time my body was relaxed, and imagery flowing, I just was in a relaxed state. I felt like I awoke from sleep after my alarm went off, so I was in some sort of sleep state. Don't know which though.
08/09/10 Disclaimer: This is the first time keeping a formal DJ, so my style may change with time. Just bear with me - I thought it was best to put *something* up even though my recall is terrible and my writing style is poor. Wow, alright. I'm finally going to commit to keeping my online dream journal. Adopted yesterday by Spockman, and started getting back into the swing of lucid dreaming again, starting with this. I had 3 dreams last night, the last one being a lucid! So in order, non lucids first: #1 The first, and shortest dream of the night. I have a feeling it may have gone on much longer than I remember, but here's what i recall. I was playing some kind of video game, only not on a TV, it was more like I was actually *in* the game, controlling the character as a third party. It was heavily influenced by Mario galaxy 2, as well as Sin and Punishment (the two games my brother has been playing recently, hehe). The action was taking place inside a long, giant pipe, with transparent walls. All I really remember is the last part of the action - a big spiral platform that ended in 2 exits, one guarded by blocks. The main character, I can't remember who it was, was floating upward, while the aim was to destroy the blocks using the crosshairs for the secret exit. My brother was talking to me about how to beat the level, from somewhere around me, but I couldn't see him. That's pretty much all I remember. But its my first dream record, so I'm confident that will get better. I really need to stop dreaming about videogames... #2 This dream was a little awkward. I won't use real names, cause the topic is a little dodgy. I was on msn, and I was talking to this guy V, who had a huuuge crush on our mutual friend, N (though this isn't the case in real life). All i remember was the outcome of the chat, where I had V spouting off about me setting up one of my other friends, R, with his girlfriend. Something along the lines of "There are 100 x 100 x 100....(etc) people in this country, and you had to choose HER." I remember feeling really guilty, almost as if I'd led him to believe something that wasn't true - it certainly wasn't something I would do in reality. He continued to call me a dickwad, and mentioned something to do with R using the same msn as him. This confused me greatly. Just then, the lights turned on and I was in bed, clothed, using my laptop as my mum comes into the room to wish me good morning. It was the same room I fell asleep in, except it was a TOTAL mess - things all over the floor. I remember as soon as the light turned on I jumped to close the laptop lid, signed off msn and started to take my clothes off (? this was really weird...I think it was to act as if I'd onlly just woken up or something). I also hid my laptop under the bed hurriedly as well as my dream journal. Odd.....since I technically don't have a paper booklet-style dream journal in real life, not to mention I totally missed this chance to have a lucid! She was pretty surprised I was awake, but told me straight away to clean up the mess I had made. i remember climbing down to a hidden compartment in the side of my bed, where there was an opened jar of purple crystals, almost like a powder, though I had no idea what these were. All I knew is that they were all over the floor, and for some reason I freaked out. Then, for no apparent reasons at all, the scene changed to a wall-like slideshow. First, a picture of waffles at a local supermarket. Then, a Nazi flag. Then the dream ended. Seriously fucked up dream right there. #3 A lucid dream! I can't remember for the life of me how it came about, no RCs, just realised I was dreaming as it went along. I'd say it was semi-lucid, but I *did* know I was dreaming and I did exert some good control. Only problem was the recall, I forgot about half of it, so what I put here is just the end part and a general overview. The setting was some kind of indoor temple arena, almost like the setting for some kind of FPS game. There were 3 chambers, 2 of which were identical but opposite one another, and had large pools of water. There was a third, smaller circular pool in the main room, and a tall altar in the middle. There were a few other people there who I didn't know, all of whom were apparently lucid and testing their dream powers. I find this really interesting - the setting seemed almost like a training ground for lucid dreamers, and I had absolutely no control over these other characters - they were displaying the same world-altering abilities I had. I don't know what people would make of this, I am skeptical about shared dreaming but I was curious if other people had been in a similar dream, maybe? As the dream progressed, I had forgotten the list of lucid tasks I had set for that week, so instead I was practising a lot of interesting abilities off the top of my head. I was manipulating the ground like some kind of landscaper (think Samuel from Heroes) using a variety of interesting techniques - using telekinesis, a virtual HUD kinda like on Maya or a similar program, even changing gravity to create some weird and wacky shapes with the ground and the water. I practiced dream flying and shooting fireballs too. There was some kind of minotaur looking monster there as an enemy for practice battle, and at some stage I remember my mum (again) coming into the dream to see how I was controlling these things. The final part of the dream was an attempt at transformation, which failed the first time but surprisingly, worked after that! I transformed into a werewolf (a goal I've always wanted to try) but I woke up before it was complete, so I'm not ready to tick this off my list just yet. Overall, compared to most of my aimless, short, blurry lucids, this one was quite something. It felt like it lasted 30 minutes, maybe longer, and the level of detail was incredible. I managed to go the whole dream without thinking of my sleeping self, and without needing to dream spin or try desperately to keep the dream scene together. I'm thinking this could be because I was trying out a lot of new things, rather than wandering around aimlessly, summoning girls and trying my hand at dream sex *facepalm*. Control seemed good, I just need to focus more on remembering my lucid tasks, and RECALL. I'm a little bummed that I don't remember so much of this dream, when the parts I do remember were above par to what I usually experience in an LD. Overall, a very successfull first night not long till I head back to bed and hopefully have another lucid! Azra~
I'm wandering down a long path, holding a sword. It's a really huge sword encrusted with jewels and rubies and such. There was a woman walking in front of me, also carrying a sword. She paused and looked behind me and told me to hurry up. We soon found a whole army of people walking and holding swords. They were all in pretty good spirits. Mind you, this did not take place in the past. Everyone was wearing modern clothes, and the mix of people was very strange. Young, old, from every which walk of life - we were walking down a path carrying extremely fancy swords. The dream changed, and I was sitting in a living room. There was a very large little girl being videotaped by what looked like a few highschool kids. They seemed to regard her as a celebrity, and kept calling her princess. She was spouting off all sorts of things about her personal beliefs which I wasn't paying much attention to. Instead, I was looking around at the house which was completely and utterly empty. The only thing remotely interesting about anything inside the house was one bright green wall, which really wasn't a whole lot to look at. There was a very large angry looking woman in the room who I hadn't noticed previously. I suggested we play cards and began shuffling and dealing as everyone came and sat in a wide circle. I had intended for us to play solitaire. They were playing it all wrong, and I interrupted and said, "you know we're playing solitaire, right?" The large woman looked at me with rage. I wasn't scared, mostly annoyed. "You can't play solitaire with a deck of cards," she said, "You can only play it on the computer. The computers have a deck of cards that is designed specifically for the playing of solitaire." Of course, it didn't occur to me that what was really wrong was that we were playing with more than one player - hence, solitaire. Nonetheless, I argued with her saying how solitaire came before computers and you could play solitaire with a normal deck of cards. I explained to her that I'd played it many times on my own with a deck of cards without a computer. The woman became angry with me and I stormed outside. I went to sit on a curb outside of the house. I noticed that several of my fish were in fish bowls. I had to feed them, I realized. I kept knocking over the fish bowls and watching as they began floundering about and suffocating on the ground. I would hurriedly scoop them up and look around frantically for their bowl. Sometimes I'd find a cup with a bit of water or something in it and shove them quickly inside before finding their bowl. I felt I had many more fish around than I had previously. There was one fish, who, was completely red. It was swimming about and as I stared at it was thinking of how completely beautiful it was. I realized that it had a tiny human body, and was a woman. It's hard to explain. She had arms and a face, but the rest of her was a fish. She stood up on the water, in the water. She waved and made a funny face by sticking her tongue out at me. I was taken aback... I wanted to take her somewhere else to have a talk because I realized that there were people all around me. As I walked with the fish, things became blurry. I was wandering alone on a seemingly empty street. There was a car up ahead and I decided to follow it so I might find my way out of here. The car stopped and pulled into a driveway at the end of a dead end. A woman came running out of her house and handed me two bagels and a loaf of bread. She told me the bagels were the best, there weren't many but they were delectable. Dream changes. I'm inside a house and there are several people playing drums. I think I know them, they seem incredibly familiar. They talk to me about how I should start playing a hand drum. I say that I would like that but I don't have one. A man, who looks like someone I know, tells me that he can give me one of his old ones. He says it was his favorite, but he has a new one now. I thank him. ... I think that's about it.
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