I was in a dirty room that was partially flooded. Water reached to my knees, or higher. Three bad guys were hidden in cover, and had me pinned down with constant shotgun fire. I crawled around them, staying low in the water, and flanked them. One of them saw me, but it was too late for them. I killed all tree of them. I grabbed one of their shotguns and now wielded one in each hand (I had a shotgun of my own, but a different model). I found myself at the "headquarters" of the "agency". I don't know, it felt like the CIA headquarters or something, but not the CIA. It had a very "corporate" feel to it. Hard to explain. And there were no windows, and the area was quite dim as a result. My partner (or just a coworker?) was next to me. He was quite a bit older than me. He ran off because he had to do something (use some kind of device on a wall somewhere?). I think we decided to race each other there. I ran so fast, down the stairs (trying to take several steps at once), I think I almost started floating. A typical gravitational anomaly common in my dreams.
I was with someone else, standing on some train tracks in an industrial area. I worked there, as did the other person. On the platform next to the tracks stood two men. I thought they were guys coming from load/unload product (which is what I used to do years ago, load/unload train wagons and ships with liquid product). But for some reason, I knew they were bad news. I tried to slip away, and fled down the tracks. My friend stayed where he was. They weren't after him, perhaps. The two guys noticed me and chased me down. They were unnaturally fast. One of them simply ran past me, and blocked my escape. The other stayed behind me. I realized escape wasn't possible, so I ended up fighting. The fight went a lot easier than expected. They were quite weak, and I beat them relatively easily. I think I killed them by slashing them with a knife. By the way, I think they were Nazi's. The dream continued in an indoor area. A large room, perhaps a warehouse. I think I witnessed (as a camera, not a character) two of my former high school friends (we are not on speaking terms anymore) being butchered by someone (Nazi's?). One was cut up with a knife, the other killed in an adjacent room (he was in a chair, I think). From that point onward, I set out to fix this. I was suddenly back in a control room (like the ones I used to work in during that last job). A coworker whom I really f*cking hated in real life (mostly because he hated me, too) passed me a job, and/or made a remark. Surprisingly, I managed to laugh off the remark and keep civil, something I never managed before. I felt I was "undercover", and this was somehow vital to saving my ex-friends. In the end I found my 'friends' again, albeit dead. I had to "piece together" one friend bit by bit. His hand, still in a black leather glove, had been cut off. I put him back together, then injected him with a syringe containing a strange liquid. It healed and resurrected him. I thought about doing the other one as well, but he was suddenly alive again without my intervention. I met them later on, and they were very grateful. One called me a hero. I hate that term, it feels pretentious. Then again, I'm an egomaniac with delusions of modesty.
I am sitting on a train, and I remember this is after some sort of war. The train is taking one of the old tracks not normally used for security.
I had a really weird that is hard to explain. It was a mishmash of holiday colors & themes. I am obviously starting to feel the holiday pressure. I have tried to live each day, day by day & live in the moment but now I have to deal w/ crunch time. My husband got some seriously bad news after being at his job for almost 34 yrs. The new owners gave them a raise but back handed them w/ going to 4 10's. which is Monday through Thursday 10 hrs a day only 4 days a week. For someone like my husband who works a ton of overtime to keep us afloat & to keep up w/ the added tasks because they fired so many people, this is awful. The overtime is basically lost which is a crazy portion of his checks so he didn't in reality get a raise but will be making less when you add all of this up & add on new insurance rising. Hence, the overwhelming dream. Then there is one of my daughters who has lived w/ her boyfriend for almost 3 yrs now & she just can't understand why I can't afford in many ways to start buying things for his 3 kids. If she gets married I'll have no choice but it's all so shaky. I don't want to get attached to them & vice versa & there is heart break everywhere. It's so complicated because her boyfriends parents buy her 2 kids stuff. There circumstances are very different from our even though his mom works at the same place my husband does. They won a lawsuit & don't have home payments & other such stuff. AHHHHH, it's so frustrating. My poor husband works so hard to pay for all of my medical needs too which they couldn't even fathom. Apparently my daughter still doesn't understand it all. All she knows is that this creates conflict for her which I cannot fix. Okay, I think my ranting is over. (taking a deep breath) Tomorrow is another day.
Morning of November 11, 2016. Friday. I find myself on a beach in daylight but possibly towards early evening. In the first segment of my dream, there is a focus on a blue kite that is near the shore but over the ocean. Who it belongs to is undetermined. The end of the string is apparently caught in some large jagged rocks and cannot be reached. I decide that it might be mine, although that may not matter since I do not see anyone attempting to retrieve the reel. Still, my “mission” seems to be to get the kite. While standing near the rocky area I look back and notice an allosaurus in a doorway. The size orientation does not make sense as I get the impression it is a normal doorway (even though it is out of scale relative to distance), yet the allosaurus is also supposedly large. It looks like a model of one, such as the one from “Land of the Lost” (1970s television series) but is “walking” against an invisible barrier so that with every step forward it sort of slides back. It is almost comical. I do not want to miss out on my kite retrieval but I also do not want to be caught by surprise though I eventually decide it is no threat. The implications do not make much sense. The wall that the doorway is in seems incompletely rendered and not fully in the immediate setting, fading out around the top and ends. Looking out towards the ocean, and at the same level of the blue kite (and to the left of it by about ten feet perhaps) I see a small man with wings wearing only a dhoti. He is very quickly (to an unrealistic extent) scribbling random unfamiliar symbols (except for a spiral) onto his chest and wings. I notice most of the supposed writing continuously falls off (which of course is not really that logical), becoming ash or ash-like. I feel a sense of both amusement and puzzlement.
I was in some polar station in arctic. I was starting at some display panel showing different factors responsible for weather. It was kinda still, nothing moved even a little. Suddenly everything moved wildly and display showed an enormous hurricane over one of icy valleys.
The dream involved something taking really long. What! My recall's bad.
I woke up to chaos this morning w/ dealing w/ my phone company & a whole sleuth of real life shit! I'm just so exhausted & now disappointed cuz I had a really fun dream but that's about all I remember because I had to deal w/ life at the butt crack of dawn & then had to go shopping for food. The only good thing was laughing half the day at how we voting in Trump! It's about time we got our guy who won't put up w/ shit & screw over the American people. It just makes me laugh at how insane it would've also be if Hillary had really become our president. She needs professional help. Maybe her cell block buddy will recommend a good therapist that they have at her facility!
10-Nov-2016 - ND - Traveling -> DILD Gardens V.B. + FA Awake at 5:00 - Sure I dreamt smth, but cannot recall, fall back asleep - this must have helped ND - Traveling I am in a line to board a plane. They call some passengers by name: me, S, and more. I approach the info desk. They ask me a question about samples I am carrying, then after I answer, they scribble something on my passport with a marking pen (!!) When I turn back to the line, it has sensibly shortened. After check, I find myself going up in a stairway. I look better, and it's my auntie's (!!) This is a fairly common dreamsign of mine recently, and I consider I may be dreaming. I raise both my hands up, looking at them; they look normal, finger count is correct. However, when I turn them to look at palm/back, the left thumb disappears ! I am dreaming !! DILD As often happens, I am happy ! I think what I could do. First I jump on the round, steeply descending handrail and walk on it, knowing it would be impossible IWL. Then I launch myself against the outer wall, wishing to phase through it, which of course is what happens. I am now on the road, in an area I know well - curiously I have been here also on Nov 7th LD. I walk a bit, then find myself at the Gardens, V.B., I enter There is a blonde woman approaching, I stop her and kiss her because I am so happy. I want to focus on tasks, I recall one. I will try to conjure an object behind me. A young boy is around, I look at him, my sight kinda blurs, then it becomes normal again. It seems nothing happened, but when I move backward, a small blue ball that was not there has appeared. I did it ! I pick it up with both my hands and look at it. I try to think at more tasks, but nothing comes to my mind. Unfortunately this focus makes me lose lucidity. FA I am at my home (!), waking up in the kids room (!), FM I returned at home in the middle of the night and everyone was sleeping. I meet all my family, kiss and hug all of them. Then I sit on the sofa with my daughter. I wake up
08-Nov-2016 - 2 ND: 1) Rejected 2) Airport troubles ND #1 - Rejected I am in N's office, which has a different shape (!!), having a work conversation with him; he tells me he can not/not want to take me in his team. I am a bit upset by this (!), reply him something, exit the office. I discuss this with L, while we visit a sort of "pueblo" together (!). Later I also discuss this with V. I am talking with a girl I don't know, she tells me she's got "Ceasarian section". I see a picture of her in bed. The girl becomes S (!!!) ND #2 - Airport trouble I am in an airport. I am helping a group of people to design/build a sort of multi-level circular arena (!!) The outer ring is bronze, then silver, gold and platinum. A little boy runs away from his parents in the crowded airport, someone yells to stop him There is a suspect box somewhere (!!) I see a picture of it (!), I am scared it could be a bomb. Then I see a flash of light.
07-Nov-2016 - Amazing night: ND Little bear at S.St./Moda' videoclip + ND C disturbs VP ->DILD / OBE Meet myself as a child + WILD The bear and the unicorn ND - Little bear at S.St., Moda' videoclip 1:30 AM I'm with dad and another person in S.St., where I lived when I was young (!!) This guy is telling us that a little brown bear lives among those small trees (!!!) After some walking, we get to a low wall; on the other side, well below us, there is an area with some bare trees, and I see the brown bear's little round ear (!!!); it's in a pack of dogs. I slide down, dad tries to help me, he manages to slow down my fall, I get to the bottom of the pit, then I quickly run up. This happens two times (!!) <JUMP> I am watching a Moda' videoclip, although the song is from some other singer, on a small monitor (plane?), I ask a girl some assistance. In the video, the singer is ironing a leather jacket and when he wears it, the iron is stucks in the middle of his back. I laugh incontrollably at this funny scene (!!) ND - C disturbs VP est.3:40 AM I am at company canteen, at a table with VP, C and SL. While talking, C disturbs VP in a weird way, and I am upset with him, more then VP herself. After he does that a couple of times, without any reaction fron her side, I realize I am dreaming ! Memory slightly fails here - Most likely just after the realization, I have OBE OBE/LD - Meet myself as a child Unsettling details excluded 4AM My body is shaking lightly, I know I can exit. While rising up, I say "I am exiting, I am exiting !" My voice changes significantly. I am in my bedroom at S.St, where I was living as a kid. I move to another room, then come back to mine. I want to talk to child myself. I see a child in the bed from which I just risen, I ask him who he is, he answers R (my son), he's really him, looking like age 4. I turn around and try again, there is another person in the bed, I ask him his name, he answers X - my real name; I answer "Me too", then ask about his family name, he answers "Y" (my real family name), then he adds "Like you", I chuckle and say "Yes, like me" He's playing. I ask him if he's happy and if he likes what he's doing in his life right now. In the meantime an adult girl is with him (my wife ? my sister?) He answers, "Yes, but I'd like a party with A. bread !" - it does not make much sense. The girl adds the party could also be based on bread with Nutella. WILD - The bear and the unicorn 6AM WILD I start from this morning little bear ND. This time I go down, and ride it. It's small, with soft brown hair. When I ask its name, answer is "Polar". I ride it through the naked trees I saw this morning, then in a city. I go into a bar, when I exit there are two indian temples in front of me, with rows of statues depicting sensual figures. We reach a small lake, more of a pond. I try to conjure some object behind me, but fail. Then I try manipulating the pond's water: first I make it rise, a lot of small vertical flows of separate water drops moving upwards. Then they "crystallize" in stone-like greek columns in regular rows. I wish them to break up, it happens, the water rains down back in the pond. Then I rotate my hands in the air, the water moves accordingly, building a fairly good-size water tornado over the lake. Wishing to see if that is effecting something else, I see a kind of "mirror" tornado on the ground, in the distance. I let the tornado water return to the pond. I am having fun, so I try something else. Moving my hand up and down, I create small waves in the lake. I decide attempting one of the TotY, the Unicorn. I want to summon one, but I only get a normal horse instead. Let's not give up. I wish a horn on its brow, and I get one, although it's fairly unimpressive. I must make a connection with another older LD, involving an unicorn with a paper horn. I see myself in a court hall, with a jury looking at my unicorn. Its horn is even falling apart, showing cardboard below. I say something to the animal, asking help, and a wonderful ivory horn appears ! The unicorn is white, shining of a bright light ! It even gows bigger, and I stop it, otherwise I could not ride it. I ride it, then its name: -"Samantha". Oh, so yu are a girl. I drop, look below and confirm this is the case. I ask what of the two sub-tasks it prefers, answers it's peaceful so the portal. I guessed it =) I take my flaming sword from J1kM, make an oval hole in the air and look into it. Everything is dark red, unpleasant, but we step in, bear included. The scenery looks hellish, brown / dark red rocks, tree stumps, my vision kinda fading. I wish ourselves out. I am in the woods again and try another portal. I imagine a zipper midair, and open it following a rectangular pattern. I open it like a door and look inside. Oooh, it's a fairy tale world ! Much better ! We step in to find a place with rainbow-colored trees, normally colored grass and sky. We explore it a bit. To my right I see a sort of modern pipe with water drops flowing. I look closer, and when I move my gaze, I find myself in a public restroom, both walls covered in urinals. Ahem. I walk a bit and find an exit door on the left. After some more exploration, we find a waterfall going into a pond. It's normally colored, kinda boring, I look away and back at it, to find it rainbow colored now. Better ! Dream jumps, I am at P, a mall close to my house, under the central dome. Many people there, and Samantha gently moves some of them out of the way, using its head / horn. We stop there, and I think it could be interesting to let my children meet the two animals, so I wish them there and they appear. Dream is already kinda fading. I introduce my kids to Polar and Samantha; after that, they just stay there without doing much. I sit both my kids on top of the unicorn and it makes them happy. Dream fades, I return control to my body, then slowly transition to wakefulness. It's almost 7AM, work alarm sounds after one minute !
I was in my backyard, it was a foggy but warm morning. I opened my car and a huge rat ran out of it, then started circling around the car. There were some other rodents too. I tried to catch the rat, but managed only to catch another rodent. It was a strange rat-dog combination with gray fur.
Morning of November 10, 2016. Thursday. I am in a van being driven by my brother-in-law Bob. Most of my family members are with me in the back except for Lorenzo (middle son). Looking to my left, I see that an unfamiliar female passenger in another vehicle (probably a van as a car would be lower) somehow holds onto the top of the driver’s side window of Bob’s van, which I think is a very foolish thing to do. (This seems to be a preconscious factor, at least potentially, but the situation eventually fades.) The vehicle has four chubby and aggressive females, probably in their late thirties. My brother-in-law does not respond. I eventually yell at them. They soon drive on ahead. We eventually arrive at an unfamiliar shopping mall near a mountainous area. It now suddenly shifts to nighttime, around eight o'clock. I suddenly feel concerned that Lorenzo is not with us, as I feel he should not be left alone (at our house) for the two or so hours we will probably be here (seemingly for shopping and a movie). I decide to quickly fly back to make sure he is okay, though on one level, I feel silly about flying all the way back after just arriving here, as it apparently took a long time for Bob to drive out here. However, because a parking lot symbolizes liminal space (a higher state between dreaming and waking), I somehow get “stuck” right on the perimeter. I am flying but not making much forward progress (a very rare event for me, but I have rarely attempted flight over a parking lot in dreams). I almost manage to fly above the roof of a nearby house. Instead, I decide to teleport to my bed (false awakening) and I am glad I am now able to check on Lorenzo. Almost immediately, I am with Lorenzo and the rest of our family in the front yard in Cubitis. It now seems early afternoon. It seems there are several people trespassing, close to the bedroom windows. I get angry but my family and I end up leaving, walking southward (with no destination in mind). I shout several rude remarks back at them as well as making rude gestures. They do not seem intimidated. Curiously, they are mostly all seated on the ground in formal meditation positions, including an unknown toddler (male). I get the impression that the oldest male (about sixty), who is thin and wearing coveralls, had been working on a car, but I do not see a car anywhere. Soon, I am walking with Zsuzsanna and an unknown female with dark short hair. As we walk along, there is mention of the van event that occurred in the first part of my dream (as this female apparently had trouble with the four from the vehicle as well). I eventually enter a very subtle lucidity, but not active lucidity. This is where I am not lucid but manifest, mostly through pretense at first, the idea of a secret area to explore (commonly recurring since early childhood). Even though it is mostly an outside area, we come to floor-length curtains (subtle lucidity sign, akin to going onto a stage). Going through the beige curtains, we enter some sort of secret abandoned park with a zoo theme. I am at first somewhat startled by a male and female lion (just to my left and past a doorway we come out from), and I am concerned for a short time that they may jump over the fence. However I soon realize that they are animatronic animals that have not been maintained for a long time as some of the sections of fur are missing and metal and plastic can be seen through certain areas. We continue along a beautiful garden path. The sidewalk, always with a continuous hedge on each side, turns at ninety degree offsets fairly often, but is not really maze-like. Although I am aware of several other animatronic animals, I do not see them due to dense shrubbery. I feel very happy and relaxed. We somehow end up in a kitchen, which is a little like the one on Stadcor Street. I am, for a short time, aware of a group of people walking by outside the large windows, but I do not actually see them through the curtains. I only hear them and they seem cheerful. There are soon unusual implications in the immediate setting. I see the year 2002 on a small calendar magnet on the refrigerator as well as seeing it on a couple documents. Zsuzsanna and the other female do not seem to “realize” the implications. To me, based on seeing “2002”, it seems like we are in the present. I feel that there is a pretense that the park had been closed for many years even though the date (false assumption) reflects the present (and even though by dream implications we are fourteen years in the past). Still, I feel a sense of harmony and peace. Being in the kitchen in the last scene represents light hunger during sleep. A lion is often the coalescence factor (return to consciousness) as it can swallow the imaginary dream self (and is an association with “The Sleeping Gypsy” 1897 oil painting). The curtains were the same color as the lions, so this was a type of subliminal expectation, though the lions turned out to be mechanical (and not any sort of threat) in this case. My puzzling over the date and not knowing the present year is quite common in my dreams. The personified subconscious (dream self) has no concept or understanding of time in the majority of my non-lucid dreams. For example, I am often much younger or in a different or mixed up time period that combines different time periods. I do not like conflicts or conflict-related challenges in dreams, though the preconscious biologically needs to be aggressive to push the dreamer to activate waking (via RAS) even though coalescence consent (such as hugging a dream character as also has recurred since childhood) would be much better, though the personified subconscious (dream self) typically sees the preconscious state as a threat (especially when there is a subliminal desire to sleep longer), both with negative daybreak types (or end of the world events) and various forms that chase the dreamer, rather than allowing time to indulge in sustained dream exploration as here.
1. Pouring rain on a country dirt road, I could see the brilliant green grass and see the drops hitting the blades and moving them, smell the rain and hear the sounds of a stream as well. 2. Oriental lady behind glass at a counter looking really aggravated at me and talking like she is mad in Chinese or some language I didn't know and the writing on the was all in Chinese. I chose to leave this one. 3. A voice of an unknown man very loud and very professional said Lyotropic. That was random and left me curious to look that up. (Definition: A material is called lyotropic if it forms liquid crystal phases upon the addition of a solvent. Historically the term was used to describe materials composed of amphiphilic molecules.) Even after looking it up I am unsure of what it is. 4. A mango is in front of me but I never ate one and I am not hungry, I remember getting a rash from a peel once so think I am allergic, I wish it to be peeled, and the mango skin falls off of it and lays beside it. I take a little bite, it is just ok. Not something I would go buy at the store lol. If it tastes anything like what I tasted but now I am curious so actually I may haha. 5. A bacon burger and all of it's grease is in my hands and I am ready to bite it and think why am I eating this when I am not hungry at all? Never bit into it. 6. See guys at work all gathered around and it appears they admiring someone's new car, but it is behind a tree and I can't get a good look at it. I don't know that I had a full dream at all last night. Restless sleep, couldn't get comfy. Up at 2 to let dogs out and never could fall back asleep. UPDATE: When I arrived at work about 6 guys in the parking lot talking to a guy who recently retired and was showing them his new Challenger. They were in a different part of the parking lot but that is pretty cool. Lots of amazing coincidences in my dreams to real life...
Updated 11-11-2016 at 02:02 AM by 91609
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