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non-lucid: I was in this hospital but all the rooms were weird scenario's. One had my dad saying that my mom left him. (which will never happen cuz they just retired & traveling via their RV. They now officially live in it w/ their dog} It was just so bizarre.

I know the meaning. I have way too many things going on & I need to take care of myself first.

My first memory in this dream starts off so innocently. I'm playing a game with some younger kids, kind of like red rover, but instead of everyone just a few kids are selected to go to the middle line, brace on each other, and then start pushing to see who can topple who over. I was volunteered to go up, but of course there was no contest due to my weight and strength. I half heartedly participated, then went back to find my friends.I didn't actually know if I had any friends here, but I soon found them. It was a few guys I don't know, as well as Galen and Raivo. We were in some group together. I pulled out my phone and went on instagram. I saw that this weird feature was turned on that posted the same or similar post every day and asked all of my followers to vote on it to help me decide something. The post itself though made no sense and the whole thing was just too pushy and weird and I knew I turned it on by accident. When disabling the thing, it instead set up something called a "Quest", where it would track my life progress, and on the day that I was no longer in the frat it would post some long emotional thing about how it had come to an end. So, a frat, that's what this was. I put my phone down, and Galen and Raivo are with me. Galen checks his phone. "Dude, sick quest. I'm excited to see it come to an end."

Weird thing to say, hoping the frat ends already.

Suddenly an annoucement come on, seemingly booming all around us. "GENTLEMEN'S FRATERNITY HAS WON THE CONTEST OF CENTURY!!!!!"

And there you have it. Some eternal conflict, probably started on some dumb bet a hundred years ago has finally come to its conclusion. And I'm on the winning team. Men must ahve lived and died hoping to see this and here I am plopped in the middle. We go to check out the ceremony, but I look down at my clothes. I'm wearing my grey poli shirt with the white horizontal stripes from when I was a kid. It is massive on me, past my waist and more like a drape or a dress than a shirt. I realize that this is the qeight of my childhood insecurities about my body, and say out loud, "thank god old habits can die."

I go to the frat house to change. It is basically a normal frat house but the roof is glass which is cool. I find my Steamwhistle duffel bag in there and start trying on clothes. For some reason, my jacket is absolutely covered in ketchup, as if a mcdonalds dispenser exploded on it. I put it down and look around the room, and then put on some skinny jeans and a tight shirt for the big ceremony. I look down, and somehow the ketchup has thickly soaked into my crotch. I fucking put the jacket down right on my bag of stuff. All my pants are ruined. I go to wash the ketchup from me outside, but suddenly all my buddies are rushing past me.


Some guy called us over to go to his house. I entered in through the Foyer, then took a left and went down a long hall. The room opened up to the kitchen on the left, dining room on the right, and patio ahead of me. Just like Tom's house, but a few $million more extravagent. I went on the balcony, and everyone was out back casting fishing rods. I had one in my hands, an old rickety thing, and tried casting it for some time. I couldn't manage to get a single good cast without snagging myself, a buddy, or a bush with the lure. I didn't understand it anyway since they were all just casting into the backyard anyway. When I went back inside, the guy who owned the place (bob saget) was hanging in the kitchen. He started coaching me on fishing, and after a while I got comfy with it. Then, I knew it was time for the ceremony.

I had not reached the place yet, when I heard another loud noise. Suddenly, that booming annoucner voice spoke quieter than the boom, yet in an epic tone, directly to me. He told me how the ceremony was ruined somehow, and that my fraternity had failed to be crowned the winner. Knowing that there would never be a chance to regain that potential glory, all of the members sprang into action. Now, as the narrator told me these things, I could see them play out in front of me, as if in the animus.

The first thing to happen was the crown leader of the fraternity. He locked his head in a small cage against a wall, and allowed a mob of plebians to smash his body to shreds. Following suit, all members of the fraternity did the same. Locking their heads in these square, helmet sized black cages and allowing their bodies to go to absolutley fucked up fates. One woman locked up each foot in one in a splits position, and then the rock that she sat upon was split in two, tearing her body in two clean down the middle. This is honestly the goriest dream I've ever had, it was so fucked up and all of it being voluntary, over some stupid little honor game that the subjects didn't even fully understand was just sickening.

Eventually the fervor died down, and the narrator continue on about the historical impact of this event and how Thomas Jefferson wrote about it and all this weird shit. I think this bit where the event was disconnected in time from myself was what allowed everything to just revert to it's natural state.

I went back to hang at bob saget's place, when his wife walked in.....I can't adequately describe her in this. She was almost short, maybe 5'8". She had flowing, chestnut blonde locks and deep brown eyes. Her skin was just ever so slightly tanned, to the point that race was impossible to distinguish. Her figure was perfect for her height, curvy in all the right places but I mean real curves here, in and out. On top of that, she was wearing very tight clothing and a warm smile. I never bother to describe people in my dreams like this but I honestly never want to forget this girl, in case I meet the real girl again who she must be based from in my subconscious.

She came up to introduce herself to me. Standing at the edge of the kitchen, she entered a gentle embrace with me. "It's so nice to meet you!" She smiled even brighter and put me in a tight hug. When I went to back out, she just continued her light embrace and stared in my eyes. Holy hell. So this is what being captured in a gaze feels like, no wonder it's been working so well for me IRL. She keeps staring at me and starts speaking, I don't know what about but I would never dedicate enogh of my mind to understanding it when I could just drink this in. As she spoke, she guided me around the kitchen. Her husband was gone. She continued talking to me with this warm voice full of passion, looking right into me eyes. Slowly, her face got closer and closer to mine. Soon enough, with every word her lips brushed mine. But I know he is still somewhere here. The intensity grows stronger, I am backed into the corner of the room now, her body pressed firmly against mine, lips riding the edge of infidelity.

I kiss her.

And I immediately realise I've failed the test. She continues her speech for a few more lines, then breaks off and backs away, still staring. In her eyes, I can read it.
"He is still a boy."
Had I resisted the temptation, understood the stakes, there was so much more than just a kiss in it for me. I'll have to keep this lesson in mind in my waking life.

I went away from the house, which felt empty after what just happened. Outside I found an area with high tables and picnic benches. There was a guy and girl at a high table sorting hops out. Some was finely gorund and some was in bud form, and I realized from their chat that they were dividing up the hops for brewing. The guy decided to cheat and put too little out of laziness, so I smacked his batch and ruined the whole thing. I gave him a lecture about doing the job wrong because you won't bother to put in the effort needed, and talked about how doing the job right always will eventually lead to it becoming second nature and a chore no more. This seemed to brighten his eyes up and he was inspired to complete it properly. Another lesson I think I was trying to teach my real self.

Looking over at the picnic tables, I saw an amazing sight. Honestly, this is when I should always reality check but I never remember this shit. From now on I will redouble my efforts in the plane of reality.

At the table were 5 girls, one of which being the wife. She smiled and called me over, and I sat with them. She started asking me if I saw their show. Immediately I had this memory from before the celebration of these girls on stage dancing to grimes, with very bright neon rainbow lights all over their bodies. It was fuzzy and mesmerizing and quite beautiful.

"Yeah, there were just so many of these beautiful girls up there, it was like nothing I've seen before."

She turned to the other table. I hear her say "He thinks you're beautiful!" "Who?" "Benjamin, right here"

I know she is pointing me out, and even though they'rejust a few feet away I do that stupid thing I do when with girls and totally not present. I looked away and gave a fake smile to some other conversation, while just paying attention to my pose and hoping that I looked attractive and 'candid' for the girls. Like what the fuck, peacocking instinct is so deep it happens in dreams.

I sat with the girls for a little while more when Lee showed up. He said steamy broke down and needed a ride to it, so I stole a volvo and we ripped it. Suddenly life is GTA we're ripping through the city and I have the world map, but when I try to navigate on memory it ends up putting me further from my goal. We're burning time, lee is in a rush. I open the map and see I can fast travel right there. Then I see there's a skydive option. Boom, Just Cause style I'm in the air flying down. Rip open the chute and end up like 200 meters away. I run on these little mountain things to get to the auto shop which was aslmost literally next door to the girls, but I look down. In a little grotto area of this rock structure I 'm on, I see a pair of floating cells. The cells are the size of a cow, perfectly round and bouncing off eachother. I jump down in the hole, but a girl rushes in. She stands on a big gold seal between the cells and they instandtly smash into her, absorbing her in their goo. A bright light emerges from them, then an ethereal explosion. Suddenly the girl is surrounded. In front of her are two japanese sword masters. Beside them are two karate masters. Both pairs are slightly cartoonish and they are facing the same direction she is, but when even a fly approaches her they strike with the speed of sound and decimate whatever it is. Beside her are two large numidian men, garbed in gold armor and shields with large clubs of platinum. They act asher flanks, and seem even more imposing than the japanese, for they do not waste their power on the flies. Behind her, stand four anubis guards. Great egyptian men of stone. I can feel how invincible they are, but the fact that there are four shows that they are probably not the greatest fighters. And behind them, stand Ra and Anubis. They seem to be simply on a stroll. In fact, I think the anubis guards are for them, simply for show. Yet somehow, all of these godly figures are bound to this girl.

She had become the ultimate weapon. Lee and I watched her for some time, and after a while, I woke up.

Sso iv started setting up my voice recorder bon my phone up before i go to sleep and after iv had a dream and i wake up, i grab the phone and leave a voice recording of my dream iv just wopken uip from At 4:21 am!

So last night was a continuation from the night previous...the same blond female called "Hannah" (Who is my dream life girlfriend) We were at some kind of party together in somekind of high storey/multi storey building, possibly a nightclub and i was trying to find "Hannah", for some reason my mum and my dad arrived in my dream and we were buying tickets out of a machine like chinease crackers and when we opened them we had a chance of winning free drinks and money inside of them. I had a winning ticket and it blew out of my hand and flew down this vent/tube. It turns out that these tubes are called "Travelling tubes" and you dive into them and are taken to differant levels in the building, a bit like a lift, except you fly bottom first or head first down the tube.
So i was head first down the tube to try and grab my falling ticket, I'v seen these tubes before its not the first time iv seen them in my dreams, iv had several dreams a few weeks ago with these travelling tubes in.

My friends were in the dream tonight, Kirsty,Jess,Ron,azza.
This is about as much as i can remember, but i DO remember an intense feeling of love whilst trying to find "Hannah"...I did fall back asleep and the dream DID continue but unfortunetly i totally forgot to record the second part! x

I find myself entering the door of a house and see a man sitting in a chair. The house is not familiar to me so I begin to think I am dreaming. I walk to the man and he says hi son and since I do not know this man I am positive this is a dream. I replied with hey dad and made myself home to the kitchen. I sat down with a drink and began reading my test scores that I got back from school. Looks like I'm in school again, what a pain. My scores were looking terrible and decided to not show my new dream father it. I could see that in all the times the paper stated my name it was incorrect.

This slightly annoyed me because most of the time my name is prenounce incorrectly due to it being very uncommon. I notice that one of the names that were suppose to be mine were in numbers and that didn't make any sense. I decided to drop the paper down and close my eyes which is my usual reaction to feeling dumb. I then regret it as I couldn't open my eyes anymore. I could feel the dream environment changing and accidentely woke up.

Had a dry-spell and broke it suddenly by doing SSILD + Mantra. So I began seeing through my eyelids and knew instantly I was entering a lucid dream. However, during the transition I attempted to get out of bed and I felt that I was not 'deep' enough into the dream so kept doing SSILD cycles throughout the transition.

I lost lucidity and fell asleep.

Oh well. At least my dry spell was broken, almost.

this morning lucid was really enjoyable. i am pretty bad at inducing fantasy stuff so for me it was kind of a big success and a good educational experience.

i have a wbtb of around 30min because my GF has to get up to work. we talk shortly, i get up for toilet and put on my sleepingmask and my earplugs [wax --> very comfy and silent enough when tight]. i lay on my back and decide to do some progressive relaxation (i normaly dont do) i see that my mind is not too focused but i continue as good as i can. i then start doing SSILD. since i like the idea of tactile senses i decide to mix it with SSILD. i do some short SSILD cycles. first watching then hearing and followed by "feeling" but this time i do some imaginary movement with my hands. then i continue with watch etc. after the short ones i do long ones. after some time i just do tactile movements and it feels pretty good but i dont know if this is enough to success a WILD and to be honest i cant imagine how to fall asleep like this and....


... i stand in my old child room. i feel super stoned and wonder how come that its so early and i feel like this and what to do with the rest of the day. i go to the window and see my reflection. At the hairline i have super light skin where in the rest of my face the skin is darker. i wonder why so? did i cut my hair recently? i am at the verge to lucidity but i seem unconsciously to decide to wake up because i notice that i fall asleep.


i wake up and my body feels very heavy. i could go from here but i decide to turn to my side to have a look at my clock because i have an appointment later in the midmorning and i dont want to oversleep it. okay i have around 1,5h. this should be enough. i concentrate very lightly on sight i think and fall asleep very fast...


...i am outside with someone? [damn i should have journal earlier...] we go to a buildingentrance and a mail delivery girl comes. i hold her the door open and take something from her to help her. i tell her its no problem i can carry it up with her so we move up some floors and we talk about jobs and the earnings. i go down again and this time there is a moving stairway. for some reason one stair dont work appropriate and there are sparks and all. the broken stair moves into the floor and one can see that this is not good. i start running because i dont wanne know if it might explode or something.

outside i get lucid and i meet my GF (that turns later to a friend A.) and the mail girl. i tell them "okay listen i have two goals: 1. visit candyland and 2. let me teach by somebody how to do short distance teleportation. what do you wanne do?`" both girls decide for candyland and so i go with it and "candyland it is! how do we get there?"
we take each others hands and stand in a circle. i look down to the ground and we wave our hands once. for a short instance i start seeing some colorful things on the ground that might be some candy but instantly my rational mind kicks in "hey we didnt even teleport or changed location whatsoever..." and everything looks mundane again. we move around and the girls are in a good mood talking alot and jumping around. i still look out for some candy and instead of candy i see colorfull lights sparkling here and there on the ground. i try to hold the thought that we ARE in candyland already and all i have to do is find the right corner. i tell them "hey here is no candy..." and they answer "not yet..." and we keep going. we past by a christmas tree with some colored lights. the girls talk about some school stuff from the past i think. there is some not too pleasant metal/punk music in the background.
i remember a DV-Thread where they talked about expectation and the example of sivasion with the summon of a banana. okay so i pretend to see some candy on the ground and pick it up and put it in my mouth. as expected i see feel and taste nothing... nevermind i chew and chew and dont stop chewing and imagine chewing some chocolate and after about 10-15 seconds i suddenly taste sweet and "candyland" or my version of it appears. i start seeing some egg formed foiled chocolates inbetween some grass [more like eastern-themed]. and not only one or two but now a lot of candy on the ground. i move around and see chocolate easter-bunnys and little santa clauses and several more sweets. i taste some and feel super happy about it.



next to a building there is a big table and while i want to follow the girls into the building i notice the table and at the head of it Jesus sits there with some (2-4) people next to him. i smile big because now my "fantasy-Schema"-drawer seems to be opened. i jump over a chair and Jesus approaches me. i give him a high five and i think we exchange some words.

but nothing religious i turn around and another guy with a big beard is there that remembers me of someone but we dont talk and i enter the building , phasing thru the door.
and i awe again because this time two aliens approach me and past me. the one has purple and the other green skin. both have no hair and a little bigger and broader head. i smile around and move down some stairs. i approach a girl and say something to her but notice that its someone else. i turn around and see my two girls next to a showcase. while i move to them i think about how stable this dream is and that they still are here around. i hear them talking about some stone that are inside the showcase. something about if it is good or bad to take or use this kind of stones. i have a good mood and while they still debate about it i just phase thru the showcase and pick a stone on a chain outside. one of the girls that was against using the stone starts complaining and i phase my hand thru the showcase again and put the stone back. i look at them in detail. they look something like this:

with some chains or mountings and adornments.
i think about if i might use them as items for performing short distance teleportation? i say "hey girls listen stop this discussion i want to practice short distance teleportation. lets say i want to go there to the xY [i look around and try to find a pregnant location and point at something]" the girls laugh because i pointed on something else or called it wrong or something? "oh come on you know what i mean i want to get there how may i teleport there easy who can show me?" i think about my recall and how bad it would be if i lose something from it and instantly i wake up [damn it!]



nevertheless it was a very very funny and enjoyable lucid from which i can learn alot about expectation and that a typical "teleportation" is not necessary to change the dreamscene. and that if you once open a drawer with the right schema everything will work on its own! i would love to experiment more with it. maybe my excitement will endure long enough to make a smart setup how to practice and experiment with it in future lucids!

I remember being on some kind of tower, it was day and all around me were wide, open and grassy hills and here and there rivers and creeks. Something about the scenery was off but I can't quite put my finger on it. Maybe the size relations. Also something here reminded me of Skyrim.

I jumped down from the tower into a creek below, and the drop was very high. At some point I turned into Ryuuko and glided through the air, and I was seemingly close to the ocean now. I even tried to see myself from a distance, with some success, and I'd say Ryuuko looked mostly correct too, though I couldn't see details. Odd that this didn't make me lucid.
The rest of the details were very hazy, something about a flying motorcycle I dodged and other very random stuff.

details later

I was sleeping on a king-size bed. Seeing as my parents (they are major dreamsigns) kept pestering me, I don't think I'm supposed to be sleeping. I told them to get off my back because my pillow was actually a magic chest that will open after I sleep enough on it.

Then I recall something about me looking like the protagonist from Undertale.

And then there was a bit about a cartoonish viking running into a decorative shield and getting his face stuck on it (yikes) and having to go to the doctor. I think it happened in my mom's old office.

Night time:
A man drives his car onto the path, parks and gives me some bizarre bicycle contraption. He thanks me and runs off. For the rest of the dream I am hiding this contraption.

So this dream can seem scary and cruel to other but for me in the dream i could care less since i knew it was a dream but still acted along. Anywhoo, lets begin.

The first thing i remember in my dream was riding in the back seat of my dad's car with my big sister driving and dad in the passenger seat and im guessing it was Friday morning? Because i just got paid and i was heading to the bank before work and i was so happy cause of money! So i went inside the bank and there was a good amount of people, old people, mother's with their kids, adults and such. I stood in line and i was thinking to myself, 'why didnt i go through the ATM? I guess i dont have my debit card.' I didnt really care i was in a good mood. "Hey Alma!" I heard, i looked around to see my friend from high school Angel, he's a short guy, glasses, i knew him since 1st grade. I smiled, "Angel! Whats up!?" I said.
We stood there while wating in line to talk and catch up. Then we heard gun shots, everyone started to scream and panic. "Shut up!" A man with a mask said. He held the gun in the air, then started to point around at everyone, "Everyone on their asses NOW!" He yelled. We all did as we were told, everyone was scared and shaking but i wasnt, i knew that this was a dream and it isn't real, i usually act along but this time i sat criss crossed on the floor with the most bored looking face ever. I was kinda thinking to myself, 'This asshole had to show up while im here, the day i got paid, ugh im annoyed.'
I heard alot of honking and it was my sister and dad in the car, "Close those blinds!" The man yelled at a boy, the boy around his young teens got up and started to close the blinds, i looked my sister and dad and carefully signed(i made my family learn sign language) "Hostage Takeover", and "Get Help". They looked terrified for my life. But they understood, they quickly drove away. The young boy was having trouble closing the blind because he was too short to reach. The man was getting annoyed, "Hurry the hell up, you little f*cker!" He yelled as he shot at the boy's feet. The boy started to cry, the man was about to hit him.
"Stop it. If you where smart you should have known hes too short to reach!" I said while standing up. "Alma shut up!" My friend Angel whispered. The man turned to me, "What did you say bitch?" He asked. 'Ah shit, i had to open my mouth, dont care about the other people its a dream!' I thought to myself. "I mean i will close the blinds for him." I muttered. I made the boy sit down and i closed the blinds for him, i walked back to my spot and sat down again.
The guy came up to me and i looked him in the eyes, "Yes?" I said. 'Screw it, im annoyed.' I thought. He pointed the gun at me, and everyone gasped. "You got a smart mouth dont cha?" He continued, "Ima teach you a lesson." I smiled. "Go ahead and try." I muttered. He brought up the gun to hit me but i dodged it and head butted him in the nose, he dropped the gun and staggered back he was holding his bleeding nose, he saw the blood on his hands and glared at me, "I'm going to kill you!" He yelles and he charged forward, i used his strength against him and flip him over my shoulder. He fell to the floor with a loud thud and i ran to the gun and picked it up, i pointed it to the guy, "Now your going to stay there while we all leave." I said sternly. He was laughing and i was confused until someone hit me on the back of the head. I fell to the floor and the gun slipped from my hands, "Really bro? Getting beat up by this little girl? Boss gonna be mad." I heard the guy who hit me say.
I tried to get up but he stepped on my back restraining me. "I sgould have known you had little friends." I said to the bleeding nose guy who now got up and took back his gun. "Nah he doesnt work for me." He said smiling as he used this opportunity to kick me on my side. "And thats for my nose." He finished. I laughed loud, "awh still mad about that? I did you a favor, it probably looks better now." I said. He growled and kicked me again and again.
"Enough." I heard another voice say. I didnt look up but the two guys seem to know this person. "Boss, your here! We already got the money." One of the guys said. "Good, now stand her up." The boss guy said. "Her? Shes nobody, just a brat," the guy with the bleeding nose said as he stepped on my head. "A brat who put you on your ass, now stand. Her. Up." The boss said in a more stern voice. The two guys lifted me and i pushed them off, "Dont touch me." I yelled. The boss guy walked slowly towards me. Now that i actually got a good look at him, he wasnt wearing a mask like the other two but a suit? 'Who wears a suit to a bank heist?' I asked myself that while chuckling to myself. "Your laughing?" The boss guy said. I quickly stop laughing. "Your not afraid?" He asked. "Who the hell would be afraid of you?" I spat. He smiled. "Im going to take you as well." He simply stated. "What? Boss no!" The guy with the bloody nose said. The boss guy sighed, and swiftly took out his gun and shot the bleeding nose guy in the head, with out even looking. I gasped and looked away.(i always hated gore in my dreams) The boss guy looked at me a smiled big, "oh? Your scared of killing? But not of your own death? Well dont worry about that, you'll get over it, the first one is always the hardest." He said as he stood in front of me. I tried not to feel threaten but damn his eyes stared into your soul. "What do you mean?" I said. He didnt awnser me just smiled and snapped his fingers, then out of no where more men in masks showed up. "We're doing "that" again, get it ready." I heard the boss guy say to one of his men. Then in sync all the men started moving, some where forcing the people into the empty bank vault then some came for me, i painced as i felt one of the men grab my arm forcefully, "let me go!" I yelled as i used all my strength to fight, i punched and kicked but these men where more stronger then the other guy. I could only fight off two men before they pinned me down against a chair, they tied my arms and legs to the chair, i struggled to get out but i couldnt. "It had to be one of those dreams where I can' use my powers." I muttered. They beought me to the vault where the other hostages were.(it was kinda funny cause they just lifted the chair to take me to the vault and i felt like i was at a jewish party) The vault was pretty large, kinda long too, the people were all gathered at the back of the vault and i was set down on the other end of the vault opposite of the people. The boss guys men stood all around us pointing the gun at the people and me, at this point everyone was crying and afraid, i felt bad for them. I was lost in thought until the boss guy clappes loud. "Now! We are going to play a game!" He said to me. "A game called, suffer or end it." I was confused, I didn't understand what he was talking about. I guess he saw my face so he continued, He gestured to his men, and one of his men brought out a man from the crowd, he made the man stand a few feet in front of me. "Okay so heres the deal," the boss guy said, "Your going to kill him." He simply said with a grin. My eyes widen and then my head went back with a laugh, "And what makes you think im going to listen to you?" I said. The boss guy stared at me for a bit then grabbed my face forcefully and looked me in the eyes, "Because, if you dont, I'll torture his life and he'll die a slow and agonizing death, and if you dont want that," he continued as he put the gun on my lap. "Kill him." I looked at the man, he looked terrified but yet he was trying to be strong. I looked away quick, "I won't kill him!" I yelled. I heard the boss guy snicker, he walked up the man and quickly shoved his pocket knife into the mans thigh. He yelled a yell that made me flinch, my head hanged down as i heard yells from the man. "What are you doing?! Just kill me!!" He yelled at me, i just kept shaking my head, "I won't! I cant!" I yelled back. I kept hearing the boss guy laugh, after a bit i stop hearing the man yell. 'Finally its over' i thought to my self. But then i heard a old lady cry, i looked up quickly to see an elderly lady standing where the man stood. "Sweetie, its okay to kill me, i understand, please." She said. I started to cry and shake my head, "no, i cant please, dont make me!" I whispered. I looked away, but then the boss guy grabbed my head and made me look as his men torturing the old lady. "Stop! Please!" I yelled and i try to get out of his hands. "Take it all in, let it sink that its your fault these people are suffering." This went on for a while, hearing the screams and pains from each person, there was only about 5 or 6 people left before one of his men dragged out my friend from the remaining people. They stood him in front of me. And once again the boss guy whispered in my ear, "Kill him, end his suffering before it begins, you'll be doing a good deed." He said. I didnt want to hear any more screams, this felt so real and i just wanted it all to stop. Before my friend was about to be hurt, i said, "ill kill him, just please stop" the boss guy untied me from the chair and i slowly picked up the gun that was laying on my lap. I stood up and aimed the gun at my friend, he was crying, "please just hurry up and do it, its okay, ill forgive you." He said. My hands were shaking i felt scared but yet i didnt care, i remember that this was just a dream, "im sorry" i whispered as i pulled the trigger. My friend's lifeless body fell to the floor in a loud thud. The boss guy was laughing, "great! Now kill the rest of them!" He yelled. I quickly walked over to the remaining people and pulled the trigger one after another. I remember seeing thier faces of sadness but forgiveness. I drop the gun after finishing off the people and i fell to my knees, i was crying, alot. The boss guy came up to me and i looked at him, "I killed people! Im a murderer!" I yelled at him. He sighed, "Yes my dear, you are, you cant go back to your old life, your a killer and everyone will hate you, you'll be put in jail, your family will never want to see you, you'll be alone." He finished. I shook my head, "No please! It wasnt my fault!" I yelled at no one in particular. "But you dont have to be alone." He continued, i looked at him. "Come with me, ill protect you, ill give you all the love and company you need." He said with a sincere smile. I was kinda dumfounded, "i wont be alone?" I mumbled. The boss guy crouched down to my level and looked me in the eyes, "Thats right, be mine and you'll never need anything else." He said. I felt like I was blushing but I wasn't sure, i was thinking to my self, 'If i dont go with him ill be put in jail, everyone will hate me because ive killed people' I let my head hang down. "I'll go..." I whispered. "Im sorry darling i couldnt hear that." The boss guy said. I looked at him in the eyes, "Please take me with you!" I said. He gave me a big smile and laughed. "Yes! Finally, it worked!" He said happily. "Boys were done here, lets go" he stood me up and brought me close to him, "This is Alma and NO ONE is allowed to touch her, she belongs to me!" He yelled at his men. I for sure know that i was blushing then. After that his men distracted the cops and we got away, i think time passed and we were in a dark van and it was night driving somewhere, i remember sitting next to the boss guy with his arm over my shoulder, he was asleep. There was another guy sitting in front of us, he looked like the right hand man to the boss guy that I always see in movies. "You know im surprise you made it, the boss never picks out a girl." The guy said quietly. I looked at him, "what do you mean?" I asked. He smiled, "Every heist we do, the boss chooses a new member, usually a guy and does what he did to you." He finished. I thought for a bit, "He made them kill people like how i did?" I asked. The guy nodded, "yea, he does that and if they dont kill them self before its over then they become the new member as one of his men." He continued, "But he's never chose a girl before, well one time but she shot herself, she was weak, guess you got his attention." He finished. "W-will he kill me like he killed one of his men?" I struggled to ask. "Dont know, right now your like a pet, just dont get on his bad side." He said. I didnt say anything i just turned to look outside the window, looks like were driving over water? Wasnt sure, i was kinda mumbling to myself. "I kill people... And i dont even feel bad anymore...dont care about my old life..." Then i started laughing, i laughed so hard that the boss guy woke up, "why are you laughing?" He asked. I turned to him, "I killed people! And i don't care!" I said whiling laughing, "im crazy right? I've gone insane!" I finished. The boss guy grinned, "yes you are, and its okay! Embrace the madness!" He said. He suddenly hugged me tight, i was trying not to blush but i don't know if I was or not. "Your mine and only mine right?" He whispered. The one thing i said before waking up was, "Yes!" While we both laughed. Then i woke up.

Well this dream was a nightmare? But also a romance? Im not sure, i went along with it, i forgot it was a dream at times because it felt so real but whatever, i guess it was fun? Idk i have a bit of maddness in me lol well if you have any questions, please feel free to ask me. Until next dream~

I recall some brief fragments about school and house. It was probably during the same day, I was wearing a black hoodie and jeans trousers. First I drove a car, then I was walking around the school. Then I was back in my house, it was a late afternoon. I was talking with my mother.

I began this dream in the process of playing a video game. It was Smash Brothers and the image was mostly white with some people on a stage there. I was fighting and then something happened to when I was now back at the PS menu. I'm looking through files and I find on in the My pictures that was not there before. It had no name on it and was compressed. I opened it and this is what I saw. It was a black and white movie that looked to be from the 80s. It displayed an already dead mouse which had been cut up into different parts and who ever it was, was cutting bits of bone out. I can only see the persons hands but they were cutting and separating the bones out of the mouse and putting them in a pile off to the opposite side of the screen. I wake up but it was for a brief amount of time and this is where the HI took over. I watched it for a bit then turned it off and told my Mega buddies about it. Mega Voyager and Engine-o was there and I began to explain to them what I had found. I don't know where this came from but there is something on my ps3 that is disturbing about a mouse. Once I said that, Engine-o took the PS3 and in the process dropped it, busting open a side panel. Inside was an SD card stuck inside of what looks to be a homemade slot that was not supposed to be there. Mega Voyager took me away from the screen and while he was doing that, Speedor (who is part of Engine-o) began to look through my console. Even though I couldn't see it, the dream still allowed me to see what was going on. There was a hidden file tucked away inside of the images folder and when Speedor opened it, the view turned back to me and the TV was now behind me and I was standing in front of it. Speedor's eyes got wide and BeeBee (Bear RV) began to cry and cowar under Speeder and Buson, Buson was livid. From their expression I began to get scared. Something horrible is on the TV behind me, isn't it. I said to Engine-o. He didn't say anything, he just stood there, staring at the image behind me. I turned to look at it and immediately Engine-o grabbed me before I can look and carried me out room and as we did that he shouted to Mega-V Burn that card. We are now in the living room that was darker but had the kitchen light on and boy was Bee Bee terrified. She was crying and Speedor was trying hard to comfort her and so was Buson. I told them not to be scared, it was just a stupid mouse. I didn't know where it came from or how it got onto my console. I just wanted to tell you guys what I have seen since it was seemingly no big deal. Once they got BeeBee calm Speedor Explained to me what he saw. What I saw was no mouse at all. I was very confused and shrugged as he continued to explain. What I just saw, was a mutilated corpse of a human child. Now I was terrified. There were hundreds more files on there but that one was horrible. All this time I had been sleeping in that room with the game these things were there? What really got to me about this dream was the fact that I was standing in front of what I thought was harmless but something like that was behind me, and to top it off was the PS3 I had was Used, meaning that it could have been owned by a serial killer. Speedor then states. There is no telling what that game console came from but we need to get rid of it and now. I turned to speedor. I had this for three years, there is no use acting upon it now. Speedor shook he head angrily and then Buson spoke. That thing is coming up out of there and we'll get you a new one, who know what other vile things may show up. I'm just glad that all you seen was a mouse. Engine-o felt that I was now scared of my PS3 and he held me. I'm sorry, but I felt you needed to know about it. Since it has been right under our noses all this time. It was just by the grace of God that you didn't find the main bulk of the files. Had we not known about it, I'm quite sure those files would have shown up not just on your game but on your computer as well...We need to get that thing out of here. Beebee agree but can still tell that she was still afraid because I can feel her shaking but I knew she was glad to be in the middle of Speedor and Buson. I heard a loud sound coming from in my room. Engine-o and I both ran back only to see that Mega Voyager standing in front of the SD card. The SD card was on the floor, burned and broken up into three pieces. The PS3 was fine, still hooked and on the menu screen.


Chained dream

It is now daytime and I'm in a huge place. It was lacy, white curtains and robots there. I had done something and was getting chased by one of the robots. They were big in size and white with black colored joints. I heard him make a robotic whir sound as he tried to grab me but I ran up stairs and then asked what the heck I do to get into trouble. He tells me something and I apologize about it. He accepts at and stops chasing me. After that I ended up going downstairs in the basement for some reason and the robot followed me. No one had been down there for years but it still had things like heat and lights there. There was also a table there and in red spray painted or blood letters across the table was something threatening. For some reason that made me think of the last dream I was in with those crazy images. The feeling from the last dream was coming back and no sooner that happened I ended up outside, flying around in someones back yard. Now I'm lucid and just start playing around with how high I can go but being careful not to fly too high into space.

Hey. It's been almost a month since I last logged into DreamViews. My computer's hinge and frane broke, so I couldn't use it. Until today, that is, as I remembered that DV does have mobile access. So, this is my return statement, and a neat little dream from ~2 days ago.
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It starts on an island. This island is nothing special; just a bunch of hills, a few farms, and a beach to the north, cliffs being on all other sides. I am dreaming in first person, for the first time in several months.

I am on the beach, looking out into the ocean. It's a sunny day, but fog lingers in the distance. I remember it having always been like this. As I stare into the fog, the border of the world as I knew it, I saw a figure- an island. I rushed to my village.

"Everybody, look, out there! It's another world!" I shouted.

People followed me to the beach. The figure was gone.

"There's nothing there! You liar" I heard someone yell.

The people walked back to the village. Overcome by aggrivation, I swim out into the ocean. Before getting far, I encounter a boat. It seemed abandoned, so I climbed on. To my surprise, there was a creature on the ship. It was a purple alien squid with a glass brain case.

*Fuzzy bits about shenanigans with the creature*

I land on the island. There, another squid creature has a port, and offers to build a ship for me. And a game menu appears. (A large portion of my dreams seem like they are video games at some point. A good 65% of the ones I'm able to remember, actually.)

I design the ship, but I can't remember what it looked like. However, I screwed up. I pressed the undo button, but it only worked twice. Out of frustration, I say "Screw It! I'll just use a pre-made one!"

The pre-made ship pops out into the ocean. The skies are clear now, and I see dozens of other islands; one with a giant beanstalk that stretche out forever; a bland swamp; A cluster of mountains; A stereotypical skull-shaped cove; the list goes on and on.

Scene shifts to a creepy forest with two friends, one of them driving a four-wheeler. It's still the same dream though; I remember wondering how I got there from the ship building place (an opportunity to take lucidity, that I'm almost certain would have succeeded had I been on DV for the previous month). I attempt (and fail) to scare the friend driving.

I wake up.

So once again another night last night were i dreamt of being in love. It's late on in the day now so its become quite sketchy what i can remember.

I Remember being in love with this girl (I think her name was hannah..??) she had short bobbed blonde hair, around 5,10 in hieght and beautifull. She was wearing a white dress. Id seen her the night before and was frantically trying to find her number on my phone but for some reason i either couldn't find it in my contacts, and her txt messages had vanished from my phone, i was starting to panic as another guy (who happens to be someone i knew years ago called "Mark") was trying to lure her away for sex. I ended up finding her at a gathering somewhere, (not sure on location), everyone was drinking, and i think "Mark" spiked my drink and i began to fade out, whilst watching him trying to seduce her away!
I woke up in the back of my car, it was still dark, and had this intense sense of panic......I rushed to find her and somehow appeared in her house possibly in her bedroom......she was asleep...she looked like an angel, then i noticed down one side of the sheet that she was in bed naked, i instantly new in my heart what had happened and upon waking her up found out that he'd been very nice to her and they'd slept together.

It was then the next day and we were together at the same gathering as the night previous night, this time my brother, ex girlfriend and couple of my mates were there as well, "Hannah" was sitting on my lap and i turned to her and said "I think i love you", she looked at me smiled and said in a friendly,playfull way "nobody THINKS at me", then kissed me, just then a couple of "marks" mates walked in creating an akward atmosphere. I remember a feeling of panic seeing them come in staring at her, and before i could move, in walks "Mark"....
I remember the feeling of complete overwhelming sense of rage and as quickly as i could i lifted "Hannah" from my lap and flew at "Mark", as i threw the first punch i awoke punching and lashing out in my bed, tears running down my face!!

These dreams of love i have most evenings...sometimes they can continue for days but each time i always remember such a strong sense of love like iv never experienced in real life before!! I don't think it's possible to really feel that strongly in real life...which i find very sad and sometimes i'm depressed for days afterwards!