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I find myself in a remote building with many stairways that cross all over the building. I keep walking and then a game app showed up on my vision saying try out the new game. The dream scene change slightly to adjust to the game which was basically red robots trying to run at me and I had to shoot them before they got to me. I played for awhile and soon find a red car and tried driving it. Every time I drive in this red car it would only go back and forth. It could not turn to the side.

I get up from the car and continue where I left off by going down the endless stairs. Not long I get another message on my screen of a guy typing he would help me out. He also stated that his brother is annoying with a word like "KMLB" I suppose that could be that he wants to kill his little brother. I didn't know but I decided to try and find him. I soon found apart of the stairs to be blown up making me unable to continue walking. I could see the person on the other side who may have sent me the message.

They had a toy gun in their hand and dress like they were dessert agent. I took a jump and had an false awakening. I get up and felt like I have left my body. I start hovering around and could see a roach on the ceiling. I ignore and just enjoyed the weightless feeling in till I see a hand on the bed corner. I got to it and I find it looks very similar to my hand. I take off the stuff that was around it and pick it up with my hand. I realize a few things at this moment.

My hand was transparent, the hand I am lifting up is acting lifeless nor is warm. I wonder if it was my hand and I began feeling a tugging as if I was being drag to it. I begin thinking this could be a dream as I tried backing away but my head felt like it was beginning to swallow itself. Before I knew it I woke up.



I find myself walking in line with a lot of other people going to a beach? But we all had to get registered through a section in the building. It took awhile but I was getting closer till the railing disappear at the end. This made it difficult to keep my balance as we were all about 17 feet above ground. I struggle and fell which for some reason the ground seem like it sky rocket so I wouldn't get hurt. Since I fell I could not join them and was place in to a classroom. I stayed in the classroom where the lights were off and a teacher assign us to do a math problem of 360 divide by 9. We all began working on it and this kid next to me was trying to cheat off me.


The teacher is standing right next to us but he wont do anything about it. The kid tells me to erase most of my answer cause they were wrong. I told him I wont do anything while scolding him to get his own answers. Eventually the argument we were having grew out of hand and we began fighting each other. At the end of it, I remember getting hit by a black metal bat that resulted in me having a false awakening.

I get out of bed to see my father , I also saw one of the snacks I use to eat on the side of the bed. It showed signs that rats have eaten it partially. I then left the room and went in to the living room to my surprise. The color of the walls were all red and they were portraits of Merry Christmas around the house. It look odd seeing the entire place red. I figure I must be dreaming and did some rc's which failed. I wasn't convince I awake as I saw too many chairs and tables flip over in wrong areas like the kitchen, with the addition that vision kept spiraling around like a circle.

I could see a shadow opening the back door and I attempted to hide. It is my brother who enters the kitchen and tells me he already knows I'm there. At the same time my mother had been walking down the stairs. Around this time I wake up. Lucidity Time: 22 seconds

Quick WBTB 8mg galantamine 500mg Choline

#476 - DEILD - 4:33AM

I have a FA and go to the bathroom. I have the unusual bathroom weirdness and wonder when I woke up. I am looking at websites on my phone and realize I have no memory just before this. I am distracted with multiple popups filling my screen. I wake slightly.

I notice my headache from the previous day seems to have come back but I force myself to relax into a DEILD and I flow right back into the dream state with vibrations. After a moment, I get up and rush outside. The dream is really unstable and I try forcing things to come into play. It's cold outside as I move off the porch. Suddenly, I hear a child crying. It sounds like like my son. I remember worrying that we would wake up and ruin my LD so I am not sure if I can really hear him or not. It's way too dark outside and I can't really see. The crying gets louder and I am convinced he's coming into the bedroom. When I wake up I hear a phantom sound of the crying as it fades away.

I am annoyed I let my mind trick me and I relax back into DEILD.. The vibrations start up right away and I am stuck in SP for a long time not really getting anywhere. I switch to visualization and things start to form more easily. I am not walking in my fully lit house thought the dream is still a little dim. My cat's appear and I spend a little time playing with them until the dream gets going. I notice that I still have a headache and I am very distracted by it. I am on my hands and knees and I hear my wife loudly stomping into the room. I look up and she bends over near the couch. I think about sexy time but the dream fades away. My head hurts too much to focus on DEILD again.

I have some wakefulness because of the headache but it seems to ease after awhile I and eventually hit WILD.

#477 - WILD - 4:56AM

I am in quaint little house almost like a hobbit home. I see the rabbit from Alice In Wonder Land sitting in a recliner. He notices me and begins to run off screaming about being late. I get excited and say, "Lets see how far this rabbit hole goes!" I quickly follow him through a confusing hallway and outside. It looks like my neighborhood and the rabbit's house is where mine should be. I follow the rabbit into a version of the empty house next door. Everything looks like it's made of old, weathered decking material. It's wet and rainy in here and my feet are bare. I can't ignore how unbelievable cold my feet are. Suddenly, I recall that I put my feet out early because I got hot, but now the fan is blowing right on them. This thought process wakes me up and indeed my feet are way too cold! DAMN! I was having a cool dream!

So last night, I had a lot of trouble with inductions... again... I'm just out of practice. Frustrating, but I'll get back in the swing of things. I tried to go directly to Rome, but I'm just not familiar enough with the location, so I'll try my house next time.

During my second attempt, I ended up with an Out of Body Experience instead of a lucid dream... yes, I know they're technically the same thing, but the OBEs always unsettle me. And I'm always blind during them, since they tend to send me straight into the Void, which I hate. So I got irritated when it happened and just reclined back into my body and went to regular sleep.

I dreamed that my boyfriend and I lived in a different part of town than we do right now... in the dream, we lived really close to my brother. We were moving. My mom, my brother, and one of my boyfriend's friends was helping us. This particular friend is extremely chill, never gets upset over anything, is even more patient than my boyfriend is (patience of a saint), etc. I was in the car with him, and my boyfriend was in my car with my mom and brother.

We were moving to a different section of the city... maybe even a different city further south... in any case, I lost the address of the house we were moving to, which was sort of like a ranch style duplex thing, and I don't have the directions either. The siding of the house was white. Houses in my dreams always tend to be white, for some reason.

Anyway, so we get onto the wrong on-ramp, and we pass my boyfriend and my car and aren't able to turn around to join/follow them, so we're on the freeway straight to a different city (and no off-ramps along the way). His friend is getting progressively more irritated and pissed off. I've never seen this guy get pissed over anything, ever, and he kind of reminds me of one of my cousins as well, so I think this is hilarious and start laughing. Which makes him angrier, which makes me laugh harder.

I was such a dick in that dream.

I got from my body and I found myself in the corridor with doors on one side. Since last time I turned to my right side, I decided to try and walk to the left side now. As I walked my surrounding changed from greyish white to clean white till I got to something like borderline. There was young man standing. He was looking hesitant. I got to him: "Why are you waiting here, can't you go forward?"
"There is fire there, it is very hot!" he was afraid visibly.
I went through fire... and I didn't feel a thing... Place where I got was very light. There were some people walking here and there... One older man came to me and went with me on my way through that place. I asked him about that fire, why it wasn't felt at all by me, but why it was problem for that man beyond fire barrier. He told me that the difference was in our mind state. I was unattached to what I saw... I was observing. Man beyond barrier on the other side saw fire and he thought it is hot, and therefore it was hot for him. we walked and talked for some time and our surrounding was lighter and lighter... till we came to next barrier. My companion couldn't go through that barrier. I said good bye to him and went through barrier without any problems.
On the other side of barrier I found myself in sparkling surrounding... looking like mental dimension. It looked like everything was sparkling, trees, grass, even air... And I was walking straight in direction to sparkling evening sun till I was pulled back to my body.

Remarks:
1. Hmmm barriers between... dimensions? Normally I have problem to go from one dimension to other one.
2. When I'm in unattached observer state it is of no surprise that I don't feel fear or fire...

I had experience with this corridor a few years ago:
I was waiting in long greyish white corridor with the doors on one side. I waited in front of one particular door for long time. I was standing and waiting but I wasn't bored. I had white clothes. The door opened and my friend came out of it. She just died and I was waiting for her on the other side. I'm her guide and I felt need to protect her. She took route to the right side of corridor and I'm walking with her. We walked for some time. She is quiet and I don't feel need to talk. The surrounding went darker, the walls were slowly changing into rough masonry, the corridor became dirtier, the doors were made of rough wood and with barred small windows.
At once, we were separated. I saw her writhing on the floor crying with fear, even if there was nothing to fear. "Wait for me, I will help you" I sent her.
I went further down the corridor. The surrounding changed into cave. There were beings looking like dirty cavemen, some of them had horns on their head. I'm going further and further down into this miserable conditions... I'm feeling how it is affecting me. I'm trying to find a way to my friend... to help. The cavemen started to swarm me... They were tugging on my limbs, jeering. I understood what was happening. And I understood what I had to do. I reached inside myself, I balanced my mind. The peace is surrounding me. I started to shine in blue violet aura. Cavemen like devils immediately jumped away from me. They ran away... They were observing me from distance, worriedly. They were muttering: "Lucifer is back"
I was walking through the chambers and corridors, trying to find my way to my friend till end of OBE.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #2??: That Sexy Corner

I think that I'm still waiting to fall asleep, but I start to get that funny dream feeling and realize that I may have blanked out for a bit. I nose pinch and blow right through, becoming lucid!

I will my legs to ooze to the floor, then I'm up and out in an OBE-style lucid. It feels dark and a bit faint, so I rub my hands together and say, "I'm out of bodyyyyyyyy!! Oh yeah, out of body!"

My perspective switches to looking up at the corner where the ceiling meets the walls. This is unexpected, but I just pretend this is what I wanted to look at all along. "Oh yeahh!!" I say. "That sexy corner!"

This seems to give me my control back, and I walk out into hall, vaulting over the railing and walk downstairs. The dream is much better lit now, and I walk over to the front door to look outside. Wife is standing there and I get the sense that she's going to ask me to take care of some chore, and I mentally remind myself not to get caught up in any distracting pseudo-waking life tasks.

This loss of concentration somehow snaps me back to lying in bed. I ooze out onto the floor again, and I mutter something about having to go all the way back down now. My grumpiness seems to take me out of the proper mood and the dream ends.

I was laying in the bed and training my relaxation and concentration routine. I didn't think I would be able to either to travel or make to WILD. But... as I got into sleep paralysis I started to see hypnagogic images... like small colored squares through whole field of vision. I worked to eliminate this vision. After some time I managed to clean off that visions till blank view remained. By that time I felt the bonds of physical body loosened, so I started to rock my second body and separated fully.

My surrounding is indistinct... dark and grainy... But I don't ponder on the state of it and I'm moving further away from my body. I walk to stairs to go down, but it seems that gravity has not hold of me and instead of going downstairs, I walk on the air above stairs and then through the roof out of my house. I'm walking on the air My surrounding is clearer. I observe it. I found strange but interesting motorcycle parked on the street. I sat on it and started to drive it down the street. When I got to first turn I found it very difficult to steer. I went through a few objects- some concrete poles and trees- till I found my way back on the street. Second turn was as difficult as first one. Strange. I tried to lean on the opposite side to what one has to steer motorcycle and it functioned. To turn right I need to lean to the left side??? Strange. My concentration slipped and I found myself back in my body.

I'm laying in the bed. I see hypnagogic images again... the squares are somewhat distinct... They are not the same. Each of them is a little different. I concentrate on them and they magnify a little. The squares are photos of people... Some of them I know, some not. There are also squares with generic silhouette of people. I browse through those images and I tried to concentrate on some of them. It seems like concentration on the image makes me to see 3D image of the particular human. It started to animate... and my concentration slips. I need to make it faster if I have to make it into WILD with someone I concentrate on. I found image of my wife. I concentrate on her and I managed to create WILD with her. We are in some kind of place... It looks like made of concrete. Concrete floor, and concrete high walls. I observe- there is no roof. If I manage to fly up, maybe 5m, I could see what is on the other side of wall. I concentrate to fly... I don't have good results at start. I manage to make my body lighter. I concentrate further. My body starts to levitate till I'm above the wall... It looks like whole surrounding is a honeycomb made of concrete. In the adjacent cell there were a few unfamiliar people... hmm what this means... Some blonde woman saw me and she was curious how I managed to fly up... I shout back that she needs to concentrate. My concentration on flying is not so good and it slips already. The gravity takes hold of me and I'm dragged back to my cell. To my wife. She asks me why I'm naked. I look on myself and indeed I'm naked. I'm not concerned with this. Why should I be? I'm dreaming. She handed me black leather coat. It looks quite cool. As I got it on me, I was fully clothed. I took hand of my wife and I took us to some city. It is night. There are many people walking around. My wife sees some man and she recognizes him as friend. She wants to speak with him. I left her with that man and I started to walk around observing my surrounding. I walked maybe 100 m from my wife by the time and looked back to her. She talks animatedly to her friend. I didn't want to disturb her reunion, so I walked away alone. I walked and I observed... Somehow I couldn't interact with people I met... They circumvent me and at same time they looked like they don't register me. I remember to walk for some time. I remember that I found my surrounding very boring. I remember I was tired, it was long after midnight after all. I remember falling into darkness of unconsciousness.

The OBE was quite weak. My surrounding was very rough, very obscure.
The WILD part was interesting on the other hand...
My wife doesn't remember to be dreaming with me, so I didn't manage shared dream. Again.
The honeycomb was made of concrete, with high walls... what could it mean? Maybe nothing. There were cells as far as I could see.
Concentration on flying out of our cell was difficult. I managed only short time flying and I was exhausted after that.

#460 - DEILD - 4:41AM

Had my usual for caffeine WBTB at 330am. My son made sleeping diffcult and I was forced to move to the couch. I fell asleep doing breathing meditation

I partly wake in the halfway state and slip out of body. I float in the room for a second the move out the door. Its too dark to do much but the porch light lets me see a little. I get confused and think my foal is to talk to an object and I find a plastic bottle of water. I tell it to talk to me but suddenly remeber this is the old task. i squeeze the bottle and watch the strange dream water shoot out. I wake slightly.

I maintain consentration and slip back out. I float in the room for a bit enjoying being wieghtless. Then wake again

One more I continue the DEILD chain and fall the the floor. its dark again and I crawl around until my head hits a table leg. I have my orientation now and I reach for the light switch expecting it to work. It does but the light is still dim. I look around the room and my cats are going crazy running around the room. There seems to be Christmas decorations hanging from the ceiling but when I look directly at them they vanish. I now recall the fishing goal and decide there can be a pond in the house. I look around expectantly but I find no water. I can feel my fish pole in my hand ready to be blind summoned. I move furniture around and even pull the couches out but its just not happening. I quickly wake up.

#450 - DEILD - 5:21AM

Summary:

I OBE to my sister-in-law's. Practice eye movements and slip out a window. It's cold and rainy. Some white flower petals are mixed with the rain. I interrupt a lesbian couple kissing, ask where the aliens are, and one starts morphing into a grey alien. A noise wakes me up prematurely.

I am half wake and aware that I can hardly move. My body feels extra heavy. My right hand is slightly tingly and I am in an uncomfortable position altogether, but instead of trying to move, I just relax as much as possible. I notice my foot slides off the bed some, but I just ignore it the best I can. After a few seconds, I decide to just try moving my dream body and my awareness slips from the physical to the non-physical. I notice I have no vibrations this time and as I tumble to the floor I all my discomfort has vanishes. It feels awesome to have such a vivid OBE again.

I stand up and look around. The environment is dark and I am in the living room of a house similar to my sister-in-law's. I walk around a bit and practice slow and deliberate left-right eye movements. It's better this time and I move on. The door to the garage is open and I spot a bright window with a red curtain. As I approach the window I notice how locked in and stable this dream feels. I think this is going to be a long lucid dream. The window is open and there is no screen. I look outside and see a car port, noticing rain and... is that snow? No. It looks like white flower petals mixed with the rain. I dive out the window head first getting stuck at the waist for a moment. The rain is cold and as I pass under the dripping edge of the carport, cold water runs unpleasantly down my neck. I pause for a moment looking around. There are a lot of DC's milling about and I remember my dream goal. I want to find gray aliens and ask them to show me something cool. I look at a house across the street and focus on a middle-aged lesbian couple kissing on the front steps. I move over to speak to them and for a split second I consider a threesome. Nah not this time. I turn to the woman on the left and grab her shoulders, "Where are the aliens?" She doesn't answer. Instead, her face morphs into a hideously distorted mix of gray alien and human. I pull back and say, "Whoa!" I wait a moment for the transformation to complete, but some external noise wakes me up. My damn cats.

I notice that I am in the position that I thought I was when I was entering the dream so that part was real.

I had multiple OBEs tonight... I counted till fifth one, then I stopped, as I found it stupid One OBE took between 5 to 20 minutes.
I went to my bed at about midnight. I started as usually with my autogenic training routine (weight and warmth). In unusually short time of exercise I started to feel my second body...

I forcibly separated myself from physical body and got up. I felt something like ropes, or bonds to my astral body's legs, hands and body trying to hold me back to my physical body... and I forcibly ripped that bonds... and I was free at once. I observed my surroundings for a while. Nothing looked out of ordinary. The room was dark, but I saw in that darkness well enough. I had some clothes on me... like shroud dress... white one. I stripped it down. It felt like obstacle... I was much better of naked, it felt better... Then I got back to my bed and I started to inspect my physical body. It was naked like in real world(I don't like clothes when I go sleep) and I could see every detail of skin of my physical body... I tried whether I will feel the touch of astral body on physical one (I feel that more often than not), but I didn't. I tried some pretty extreme things that could be painful even during OBE, but I didn't feel anything. Maybe this separation was better than many others... Then I went to observe my wife and children. They all were sleeping peacefully. I went downstairs to ground floor and after some time of observation I lost connection and was back in my body. I was still aware of second body! Therefore I continued:

I separated from my body and again I was clothed... for some reason I didn't like it and I stripped down again. Then I went out of my house through closest wall. I didn't feel the wall at all. It was dark outside, but street lights were shining. I got an idea to test my concentration through astral sex. Therefore I went through houses down the street trying to find suitable object to this experiment. Everybody slept. But that was not problem for me. The problem was, that even attractive looking women didn't feel attractive for me at all. Not in sexual way in any case. After I checked maybe 15 women, I let it be. It was such state of mind... I wanted only to drift around and observe things...

I separated from my body and I was on our local bus station 0.75 km from my house... Street lights were shining brightly. It was nice, quiet night. I felt the pull to my house, so I walked. After maybe 30m of walk I was on the crossroad and all lights went out. It was totally black darkness. I started to hear whispers and quiet voices... I felt beings around myself... I felt them with my mind, but not with astral body (no touches). Some beings were felt like dangerous ones. Others were indifferent. I felt no worries. I took my key pouch out from my trousers and tried to activate small light torch I have on it. Of course similarly to many OBEs, the technology was not functioning. How typical. Then... Why I have my clothes again? Get rid of them After I was naked again, I concentrated on my inner energy and produced strong aura lighting. My aura was today silvery white, sparkling. I saw something like twist of black bodies... All that beings were trying to clear area of my aura as fast as possible. I contemplated that a little, but then I started to walk home. I walked and observed my surroundings for some time till I lost connection and found myself back in my body.

I separated again. I'm in dark void. I hear again whispers from darkness. I generated silvery aura... extremely strongly lighted sphere of about 10m in diameter around myself. I got to rid of my clothes again . When my light sphere expanded, I saw again black bodies... so I wanted to observe them closely. I tried to fly forward, to the voices... But I didn't see anything more. Then I tried to deform my aura sphere to cylinder- in one direction... for about 30-40 meters... But it didn't help. I didn't see anything in the darkness. But I heard the voices... I flew in the darkness... Did I fly for real? I don't know, I felt it. But I didn't have any reference point. Then I saw some white light sphere flying across of my flight path... I was mildly surprised and wanted to follow that anomaly, but it went away and got lost in the darkness. After a while I saw second light sphere, this one was yellowish white... It flew nearly against myself. I adjusted my course a little and we met. Hmmm... I met something- the sphere was hollow and nobody was inside....

And again I separated from my body... This time I was in brightly lighted room of some sorts. It looked like doctor's office. I was naked. There was an attractive blond woman in white coat. She told me, that we are going to test my body stability (e.g. balance)... I had to rotate. I did so. I stood on one heel and made an impulse to rotate by my other foot. One impulse... I started to rotate on my heel at about one rotation in 3 seconds. I rotated... and that woman observed me and wrote something down into her record book. It was strange As I rotated, my body started precession movement similar the flywheel would do. The angle was going to be extreme but it wasn't like I was going to fall down Nicely looking woman physician wrote down something more and then told me, that it is enough... I didn't obey... I liked that rotation. I was losing perception of room which was slowly substituted by deep blackness of the universe filled by stars and majestic planetary clouds... I observed everything... It was very nice view. I rotated minutes till I lost connection again...

I felt that my second body is still free so why not to continue? I separated again. I was... somewhere... It was like universe... but I knew I was billions of light years away from my physical body... Further, than observable universe, but still within universe. It was black, but I saw whole galaxies float nearby... Some spiral, some elliptic... even spherical ones... And I saw also gigantic black holes, some larger than galaxies. I felt the space... I felt the matter... I felt the gravity... I didn't have body, I was point of consciousness. I was not affected by anything. I flew very fast. Object were moving as I flew... I heard whispers from the darkness which was surrounding me, but I didn't care. I observed celestial bodies... As I flew, I flew also through some galaxies and black holes. I saw black holes like total blackness only the sides were dimly lighted by pale light. I didn't feel a thing as I flew through objects. The flight through black hole looked like a black sphere was expanding in front of me, then short blackness and then I was out of it on the other side. I flew forward further and further, observing my surrounding... till I lost connection...

I had a few separation from which I remember only peace and void. Quietness... Existence.

My last separation time . This was short one, maybe 5 or so subjective minutes long. I separated into my bedroom. I was naked. My naked physical body was still looking naked and dead to me. There was darkness, but I saw good enough everything in my surrounding. I observed a little... my mind felt tired but was strongly concentrated on here and now like whole time. Discipline is necessary. For some reason I looked on my clocks and I saw, that it was about 2:15h... I got curious: what time is it in real world? I went back to my body and it was about 2:18h- close enough I didn't manage further separations and I dropped asleep fast.

Observations:
I had maybe 9 to 10 separation... it is quite a lot, but I had such experiences in my younger times often.
Forcible separation doesn't feel bad at all. It is only... It is not as naturally flowing. But it can take a lot of time to go to state where I don't feel that bonds. Time in which I can fall asleep.
Strange how I was refusing clothes... This would be first time I actively sought to not have them. Well I knew it was not physical world. Why do I have to be clothed?
I don't try sex too often while in LD or OBE. It doesn't come into my mind often and even less often I want to risk the shortening of experience. But I had nice OBE last week, and I had today my first... so, why not? It is good measure of my concentration level. I don't consider this to be rape!!! Firstly; I don't use force to force it and secondly; if there would be an objection to this action, I would stop. It is my policy to be civil to dream and astral(and other) characters. Thirdly in that state of mind one feels to be part of something larger. It would be like to try to harm myself. I'm adding this, because my wife has this view on this particular action.
Aura was spectacular. I had quite a control of it. Using aura as lighting is nice Silvery aura today... something new. Most often I have blue violet aura.
Night projection leads for some reason to experience in night astral world... At least by me. I'm curious... Does somebody have similar experience?
How could be somebody scared of walking out of body is beyond of me...
Projecting into space is nice. That one is quite seldom for me.
Projecting into void was similar to meditation, but not equal. The state of mind is much more quiet and peaceful meditation...
As you see I don't have control as to where I'm projecting. I don't mind. Of course it would be nice to do targeted projection, but I don't know how. Destabilisation of OBE is the last thing I want.

I felt a little strange yesterday, I had a few vision like experiences or empathy into my friend. It was like she is with me... next to me, then like I was with her, and then at the night...
When I was going to sleep I started as usual my exercises for relaxation and concentration. I had flashes of being elsewhere similar to short lucid dreams. Flash and I was laying somewhere else, different room. My body felt funny. Then flash and I was back in my bed relaxing my body and concentrating my mind as if there was not an experience. Then again flash and I was laying elsewhere again. My body felt funny. As if my chest was heavier as usual, my breathing was faster, different... Flash and I was back at home again, relaxing deeper and deeper. Flash and I was again elsewhere. That weight on chest were breasts. I felt nipples as I was breathing, that nipples were lightly rubbing against material "my" body was covered with, as I took the breaths... it was slightly disturbing as they were much larger and more sensitive then I'm used to. I wanted to touch them but "my" body was not responsive. I concentrated on movement of "my" limb, but there was flash and I was again at my home. My body was very heavy, but it was not separation time yet. So I continued with concentration and relaxation... Flash and I was again elsewhere. I was levitating above my friend. I saw her face from about 30cm distance, quiet and relaxed in her sleep. It was dark... But I saw things like they had their own albeit dim light. I felt THE PULL to her, but there was again flash and I was back home in my bed. My own body was deeply relaxed, unresponsive in dream paralysis. OK. I felt my second body fully free of my physical body- it was the time:
I stood out of my body similarly like wampires do in older films. From horizontal position to standing position in one move without moving any of my limbs. I was standing about 10cm above ground. It was nearly black dark. Of course, it was night time. But I saw enough. I flew through the doors and downstairs. There was dark too. I flew outside through the nearest wall. I felt no resistance of wall. I contemplated about it a little and then I extended my empathy towards my surrounding. I felt nothing unusual. Street light were shining... Then I felt something, it was like compass feels magnetic field. I felt the pull to my friend. I let my body to be pulled... it was very slow process, but I was in the flow... I observed my surroundings. After maybe 15 minutes I was maybe 3/4 of kilometer from my house, in front of my parents house. To my friend it was about 4.5km left... I felt, I will not have time to fly to her with such low speeds. I contemplated about my position in that world and possibilities. I could take car or motorcycle... then I will be faster. I didn't find my parent's car. I couldn't start the motorcycle. I stood beside motorcycle and contemplated about possible problems. I felt that it is for naught to try to repair it, so I took my way back to my parent's house. I was walking through rooms. I observed. I found nothing of interest, nothing extraordinary. I heard of something like rattling and groaning from basement. So I took my way there. As I was going downstairs in the direction of noise, the darkness was descending and eating the light. Soon I was seeing only slightly glowing filament in lightbulb... And it was drowning in darkness fast. I need the light, I have the light in myself. Everything is shining. I need to learn how to see it- I remembered the VOICE from one of my earlier OBE. I concentrated inside to feel the energy flowing inside... and my chest started to shine in strong golden light. Then I saw myself from outside. Other than my chest, my head was shining also, it was weaker but still strong violet light. The rest of my body emitted moderate sky blue light. Slowly, I saw also my surrounding again... emitting weak greyish light. I felt that it was enough for my needs and I flew towards the noise again. The golden light from my chest bathed the room where sound was originated from... and I saw something like shadow bonded by chains but it was vanishing fast in my light... into nothingness. Nothing was left there for me to observe. I flew outside. I saw that snow fell on the ground in the time I was in house, whole 15 cm of it. It was cold and slippery... And shining with white light into darkness of the night. I felt the pull to my friend, urgent. No time has left. I let myself into pull, trying to fasten my flight, but it didn't function. I had very little of will left, my mind wanted to relax badly. So I let it be and I flew as fast as the pull allowed. After maybe 10 subjective minutes I lost superconsciousnes, I was losing touch with astral reality. The next thing I was aware of was that it is morning. The OBE experience lasted subjectively about 1.5 hours.
It was probably in lower levels of astral dimension.

I was tired that evening and I massaged a calf to my wife. After about half an hour I felt I'm losing comprehension of reality(my body was falling to sleep).
So I laid down and started to relax... it went fast to generate feeling of heaviness and heat in my body, to lose feelings from body sensors... To lose thoughts. Only consciousness remained. I was point of consciousness floating in white shining space, in clean light.(Normally I'm in black space, this was something new But black space doesn't mean that I'm in any kind of discomfort. The feeling of peace is the same.)
Time was running around me, but I didn't feel timeflow. I was existing in shining light, in peace, without thoughts. After about one hour my wife tried to wake me up , she needed help with our children. What she managed was, that I started to comprehend physical world... but only sounds from it. I started to feel my body, dimly. It was hot and very relaxed. I told my wife that I need help to stand up, that I don't have strong contact with my body. But I said it probably only into astral world.
I pushed my will inside my legs and arms to move them, but instead, I did fast full separation into astral world probably. I projected inside my room, only it was all shining white. I moved around a little, floating. My wife was shouting again for me. I went back to my body to try to move physical body. I couldn't move it a millimeter. My body felt very tired and relaxed. I tried again to tell my wife that I need help to stand up to reconnect faster with my body. I found up that I can't move with ane muscle. I pushed my mouth to open a little and tried to speak, but my vocal chords were not functioning. I concentrated on them then... I managed to move muscles on vocal chords, but no sound was going out. I found up that I don't breathe fast enough... there wasn't pressure of air to resonate on the vocal chords. My cycle of breath in/out was longer than 30 seconds... and with very slow air movement. I couldn't speak with that. In the physical world that is. But I heard myself speaking despite of that. Probably into astral. I found out that I don't have control of my lungs.
I tried again to move my hands and again I was out in shining white astral. Therefore I pushed my consciousness back into my body again. My consciousness was steering itself automatically to shut down any disruption of state of clean existence. Into peaceful thoughtless state. I pushed my will into my body limbs again despite of resistance. My real me wanted something else- going back into meditation. But I knew I need to stand up. I managed to rotate physical body to side of bed and partially down of bed. It took a few minutes to get feeling of gravity and balance strong enough to stand up, to fasten breathing, to strengthen and control muscles.

Normally I do things different. Normally I try to stay in astral. As long as possible. This was new experience
Despite how this looks like, this wasn't traumatizing experience. Yeah, I had problems to regain control of my body. But that was because of tiredness and because I didn't really want to go back. I never wanted to go back from astral, from that peaceful place. I would ditch my body if that is possible probably long time ago. But I have responsibilities. Therefore it is not priority But again, if possibility emerged, I would do it in that state of consciousness without thinking.

#428 - DEILD - 6:28AM

I intended to have G + Menthol during WBTB but I just could not get out of bed. Luckily, I pulled off a late morning DEILD. I was slightly disappointed that I got my dream goals all wrong, but I was super stoked to get lucid regardless.

I am watching YouTube through my TV and I see that CanisLucidus has his own lucid dreaming channel now. There's a lot of how-to talk and then does some funny skits and songs like some variety show. At first I think Wurlman and I need to step up out podcast game, but I quickly decide that we have our own thing going and shouldn't try to one-up CL. I find his show very entertaining and I am amused that we now have a really cool lucid dreaming TV show. I notice my father next to me on the couch and I expect him to say something about how he dislikes what I am watching, but he remains very quiet. I wake up.

At first I am pissed that galantamine didn't do much for me but then I realize I passed right back out when my alarm went off. I move a bit and get comfortable and settle right into meditation. Instead of focusing on breath I use body awareness in my hand and arms as my anchor. I hit heavy HI really quickly and my daughter says something about my hands feeling numb. at the same time, I realize they are very tingly like I had my circulation cut off. I say to her, "As soon as my hands start feeling different [normal] you let me know. OK?" I wonder, Will that really work? If I lose lucidity will my subconscious tell me when I am fully in the dream? Right after this thought, I notice I have vibrations. I decide now is the time to shift my awareness to something external — the center of the room. I start to feel some tendency to separate, so I try sitting up. It takes a lot of effort to move only a few inches and I hear a voice, "You've got to work those astral muscles. It's been awhile so it's going to feel tough at first, but the more you exercise the better..." I accept what my inner-self is telling me and make I several efforts to get up; each getting easier. Once I sit up completely, I visualize the motion of running and a scene quickly comes to view.

I am in a kitchen in a different house. I spot a back door and run to it. As I step into the back yard, I notice the numbness in my hands still, so I shift my awareness from body once more to the dream environment and quickly forget the hand sensation. I try to think of my goals, but my mind feel slightly jumbled. Flying. I was supposed to fly. I look up at the day time sky and begin to make swimming motions allowing me to slowly rise up. There is something about the swimming motion that brings my focus back to my body and the dream darkens, threatening to crash. I stay calm and simply shift my focus back to something more visually external. I see that I am tangled in a tree and I use it to pull my weightless body up higher then, jump onto the roof of the house. Now I think maybe my goal was to make music with random objects in the dream. I look around and, on the house, I see some sort of wooden structure with many different types of roof vents lined up. I decide these will make great drums and I begin to strike them with my hands. At first It is just a dull flat sound with no real rhythm. I try harder to have some sort of pattern, but my visuals won't match the sound. I decide it's better to just look away and I quickly get some sort of drum beat with realistic sounds. A song quickly forms and I sing the first words that some to my mind in a jazz tone, "Well, my little baby... she's a real sexy lady now.... Yeeaahhh." I am slightly startled how different my voice sounds, but I don't let it distract me. Organ music begins play a little tune now as I see movement in the corner of my eye. A black cat is walking along the road out front and I feel a strong desire to go after it, but I can't decide if I want to stop the music now or play a little more. I am torn between the two and sit there undecided as I suddenly wake up.

I went to bed early at 9:00 Pm. I find this is the best time for me to go to sleep if I want a fun filled night of lucid dreaming. I woke at 3:00 Am for WBTB, and took my puppy out for a pee. Read some dream journals at Dreamviews. Did some mantras (written and spoken), and then I went to back to bed at about 3:30 Am. I also used meditation techniques to bring me to the state of being consciously awake with my body asleep.

I was in ‘the void’ for at least an hour (very long time) seeing occasional hypnagogic imagery and voices, which in itself was very interesting and a bit shocking at times. Then I got ‘the vibrations’, so I OBE exited! I quickly moved away from my body and towards the door. I really wasn’t expecting this to happen, and I didn’t have an action plan. I was staying at my father in-law’s house, and once I made it to his hallway, I didn’t know what to do next. This pause and indecisiveness wasn’t good because shortly thereafter I ended up back in ‘the void’. I should have started counting and headed off somewhere. I was a bit disappointed because I think OBE’s are awesome.

I then went on a lucid dream marathon for the next three hours. Usually I wake myself up after each lucid dream and voice record it, but for some reason I decided to keep on truckin’. Unfortunately I lost a lot of the dialogue and details along the way (missing tons of content), and my memory was very fragmented. I don’t usually do this, because I think every lucid dream is special and needs to be remembered and recorded. Here’s what I could recall when I finally woke:

Some of these lucid dreams I entered fully conscious and aware. When transitioning from ‘the void’ to the lucid dream, I would momentarily see a two dimensional image in front of me, and then it would abruptly go to 3 dimensions and envelop me with all my senses. I was trying to pay extra attention to this last night so that I could give a good description of what happens when a dream initiates.

In this first LD I saw my sister’s husband Ken in my bedroom against the wall. He looked young and had black hair instead of blonde. I had entered this dream in a lucid state, but seeing my brother in-law standing in my room with dark hair made it very obvious that I was in fact dreaming. As I mentioned above, this started off as a 2 dimensional image and abruptly went to 3D. I sat up in bed and faced him and said, “Hi ken, thanks for helping me to become lucid!”, and he replied, “I didn’t make you lucid, I was just standing here.” “Well, thanks anyway.” I don’t remember what happened after this.
I entered this dream consciously, and I saw beads on the ground beside my bed, so I leaned over and picked them up. I then jumped out of bed and flew out the window. To my surprise I was flying through an amazing garden with beautiful stone buildings. I forget what happened next.

In this next dream I became lucid (DILD - not sure why), and I jumped over a stone railing into a courtyard using the ‘Superman’ position, but I didn’t fly. Instead I fell about 30 feet and crashed hard into the ground. I don’t remember what happened after this, but I do remember thinking that maybe I wasn’t dreaming.

My neighbour in the waking world is also a lucid dreamer and OBE’r. I was already lucid at this point for some reason. I was walking through these beige stone buildings in what looks like an Asian resort, and I could hear him calling my name from behind, so turned around to face him. This dream was ultra-vivid with perfect clarity. He said, “Hey, wait up!” I was totally shocked when I saw him. He looked and acted exactly the same as in the waking world. “Oh, hi! How are you?”, and replied, “I’m doing good! Let’s go off and explore!” I said, “We’re sharing a lucid dream.”, and he quickly replied, “I know.” I couldn’t help but notice that he was butt naked, so I looked down to see if I had clothes on, and I did (blue jeans and T-shirt), so I said, “Hey, why don’t you have clothes on?” He looked down totally shocked, and said, “I don’t know why?” We then went off exploring, and shortly after he vanished into thin air right in front of me. I continued on, but I can’t remember what happened next.

Two middle aged women walked into my bedroom, so I sat up in bed and started talking to them (entered dream in lucid state). I didn’t recognize them, but they knew who I was. We had some funny conversations. They were both constantly laughing as we were talking about all the funny and crazy things that happen in lucid dreams. My tongue then went numb and I could no longer talk. I was just babbling and my tongue was flapping around uncontrollably. They laughed even harder. I forget what happened next.

I was false awakened by a ringing android phone, so I got out of bed and found it ringing by my daughter’s crib. We no longer have that crib, and I didn’t recognize the phone, so I instantly became lucid (DILD). I could hear my father in-law talking downstairs. I answered the phone and I could hear really deep distorted voices coming from the phone. I then laid back down on the bed and started to play with the phone to see if I could get it to work in a LD. Not much luck of course, but I did manage to get a home screen, and some of the apps would momentarily flash on and off. I forget what happened next.

In this next lucid dream, I don’t remember how I got there, or why I became lucid, but I do remember talking to an elderly lady and we were discussing lucid dreaming. I jokingly mentioned something about lucid sex, but she didn’t find much humor in what I said, and she pretty much ignored my joke. She seemed to know me really well, but I didn’t recognize her. She seemed almost like a mother figure.

In this next dream I became spontaneously lucid while walking outside in a park like setting, so I called for my wife to join me, but she didn’t come. I was a bit disappointed, and I don’t remember what happened next.

In this next dream I met homeless man Paul, from my prior Lucid Dreams about God, and I introduced him to my wife and they hugged. He was wearing the same weathered blue parka. I wasn’t lucid in this dream, but I thought I would mention it, because Paul represented God in my LD’s.

In this dream I was staring at my right hand, point finger. Now this is weird, because it had two extra joints on it, and it was very long and strange looking. I was moving it around and trying to figure what the heck was goin’ on? My wife walked up beside me and I reluctantly showed her my finger. I thought she was going to blame this strange mutation on the fact that I lucid dream all the time (she gives crap often about my LD obsession). The extra finger joints then turned into a little, tiny hand on the end of my point finger and it started to wave at me. Okay, I get it, I’m dreaming! Dream Induced Lucid Dream - DILD! I then remembered my mantra to heal my wife’s sore hip. I asked my wife if we could try healing her sore hip in this lucid dream. She said, “Sure, let’s try.” I kneeled down on the ground and asked for God’s healing light to form in my hands (I read about this LD healing technique in a few books, and I’m determined to make it work too). A whitish ball of light, about the size of a basketball started to form in my hands. When my wife saw the ball of light she started to freak out and jump around while making screeching sounds. I lost all concentration and the ball disappeared, then I started to give her crap, and I woke soon after. Hmmm, this lucid healing thing is certainly proving to be a challenge, but I’m up for it

Method: WBTB after 4 hours of sleep, Dream Journal prior night’s dreams from voice recordings, mantras (written and spoken), then back in bed and meditate with imagery until I’m consciously awake with my body asleep. Once in the void, I started to do internal and external body energy transfer exercises. By this point in time it’s been about 1 ½ hours since I first woke for the WBTB routine. I could feel ‘the vibrations’, so I attempted an OBE exit, which worked, but I paused for too long beside my bed, and I was sucked back into my body. I was a bit disappointed with this, but it was still early in the night, and I knew there were some lucid dreams ahead of me, so I fell asleep. Time for fun!

In this first lucid dream I was holding my wife’s hand as she happily skipped along. We were in a long hallway inside somebody’s house. I couldn’t help but notice she was in her early 20’s looking very young and beautiful (she’s 48 in waking life and beautiful). This made me instantly lucid (DILD - Dream Induced Lucid Dream). I said to my wife, “Hop on my back and let’s go for a piggyback ride!”, and she happily did so. After a couple steps, I leapt into the air and we were now flying piggyback style! We flew through the living room, and then into another room where my wife said, “What’s going on here? We’re flying. How’s this possible?” I said, “We’re dreaming!”, and she replied, “Oh, okay!” I then flew back into the living room, and by this point I was flying horizontal, and she was holding on tight! The entire living room was full of my family members, and my nephew Kent said as he laughed, “That’s awesome!” Then unexpectedly, somebody grabbed my right pant leg, and I came to a complete stop and we stood up.

I spun around to see who stopped me from flying, and an older woman (my age) was standing there looking a bit guilty. I said to her, “Why did you stop us from flying?” She fumbled with words, and then I said, “Was something wrong with what we were doing?” She then said, “You should be keeping a lower profile.”, and I replied, “But we were just having fun. There’s nothing wrong with that!” Her face was turning a bit red with embarrassment and she turned and walked away. I grabbed my wife by the hand and we followed her for a couple of feet to where she had nowhere further to walk in the living room. I then asked her, “Who are you?” She said, “I’m a relative!”, so I asked, “A relative of mine or my wife’s?” She said, “Of your wife’s. I go back a long ways. I’m German, and there were three of us.” I said, “Well then, what’s your name?” She still wouldn’t tell me. I then had a false awakening, and I sat up in bed to voice record this lucid dream, but I saw a very pretty blonde woman standing in the darkness of my room (it wasn’t my bedroom, I was someplace else). She looked like she was glowing with soft white light, and she looked very much like the woman I recently saw in another lucid dream (black eyes, no whites, very slender, with Barbie doll perfect skin, and long blonde hair).

She didn’t seem to see me, so I stood up in the darkness, and said, “Hello?” She looked at me and said, ”Huh, who’s there?” and I said my name, “It’s me!”, and she said, “Oh, it’s you?” She seemed very shocked with this. She then morphed into woman with curly blonde hair with a more roundish face, and she now had glasses on. Her eyes also changed from being completely black to having irises with whites. I thought why did she morph, I liked her look? I realized I had my CPAP mask on, so I tore it off my face and threw it on the ground. I then floated towards her in standing position. She turned around and quickly ran out of the bedroom and down the hallway, and I followed closely behind. I just wanted to talk to her. She ran into a kitchen. All the lights were off in the house, but she was glowing white so there was some light around her. She stopped by the kitchen table and faced me. She distorted her mouth, and her teeth went all crooked and missing. I began to think that maybe she was scared of me. I floated up to her, and she grabbed a knife off the table and stuck it up to the handle into my stomach. I didn’t feel anything, except some slight pressure, but my feelings were hurt.  I guess I shouldn’t go floating behind somebody in a dark house (I must have been real freaky looking/acting). I then went into another false awakening except when I opened my eyes; I was in outer space travelling at high speed. I forced myself awake, and I voice recorded these Lucid dreams.

In this third lucid dream I was standing outside my elementary school. There were a bunch of children and teenagers around me. I decided to head into the school and see what’s going on in the auditorium. As I was walking down the school hallway, a beautiful teenage girl with curly blonde hair, who I didn’t recognize, walked up beside me and put her arm around my waist. Boom, lucid! Another DILD! This kind of stuff just doesn’t happen when you’re old gnarly man like me (unless it’s your daughter). I put my arm around her should and drew her in close as we walked.
Me: “Who are you?”
Her: “I don’t know?”
Me: “Well perhaps you are somebody I know?”
Her: “Yes.”
Me: “Are you my daughter?”
Her: “Yes, yes I am!” She had a huge smile on her face! I still didn’t recognize her, but she had my daughter’s voice.
Me: “Okay then, you must prove it. What does daddy like to nibble.”
Here: Grinning and quietly she says, “Bellybuttons.”
Laugh, laugh, giggle, giggle! When my daughter was a child I use to say to her, “Where’s the button? I want to nibble on that button!” then I would chase her, as she frantically ran away screaming, until I caught her and kissed her button, then she would always giggle.

My daughter than said to me, “Dad, I want a glass of Coke.”, so we went to the Coke dispensing machine in the corner of the gym and I pushed the Coke button. Coke started pouring out of the nozzle, but there was no glass there, and it ran all over the floor. My daughter laughed, and said, “Dad, you have to put a glass in there first!” I could feel my lucidity failing, so I said, “Let’s walk around for a bit.”, but I then went into a false awakening, and I wanted to voice record my lucid dream with my daughter before I forgot the details, but then I realized I was dreaming because I was outside on the street with my coffee table in front of me. I forced myself awake, but I went into another false awakening, and then another one, and then finally I woke up for real and I voice recorded the lucid dream. I should have engaged the false awakenings and had more lucid fun with my daughter rather than trying to wake, but there’s always that risk of forgetting if you continue on for too long.

Wake Back to Bed (WBTB) and then meditated until I was consciously awake with my body asleep. I think I fell asleep and had a dream (can’t remember what happened), and then I was once again consciously awake with my body asleep. I could feel my legs and arms floating around on my bed, and then ‘the vibrations’ started, so then I sat up in bed, and then stood up beside my bed (OBE exit). I was in total darkness.

Then I spoke to the dream, “Hey, somebody help me out here! I can’t see anything!”, and then somebody scooped me up in their arms (cradled). I felt totally safe. We then shot straight up, through the roof, and out into space. Whoever it was, I don’t know, because they were invisible! I didn’t care; rather I was totally mesmerized by the vastness and beauty of space. Off to my right was the sun, and it was very bright, so I looked away from it. My vision was very powerful, like a using a telescope, and I could see the deep reds and purples of the Milky Way, plus many Nebulas and star clusters. It was very cool and exciting! Then I was back in bed again.

I could feel myself floating in bed, so I once again sat up and rose to my feet (OBE exit). It was pitch black in my room, so I fumbled around until I found the door, and then I opened it. I was expecting to be in my house, but I think I was in my childhood home, because I could see another door partially opened, with some light shining through ( I figured it’s my sister’s room) down the hallway. I started to walk towards her room, but unfortunately I end up back in bed again. I should have counted to help stabilize the experience (next time).

For the third time, I felt myself floating in bed again, so I decided to the visualization technique I call ‘the barrel roll’. I started off spinning on the center line axis of my body, and then I gradually went into a 10 foot diameter barrel roll. I was moving at an incredible speed, but I couldn’t feel any ‘G’ forces. There was a matrix pattern forming around me with sparks and dust floating everywhere. Then my alarm clock went off and I woke. Dang it anyway! Aside from my alarm clock, this was all very exciting and fascinating.