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[COLOR="silver"]As you might have seen I haven't had many lucid dreams and I skipped to journal the normal dreams, even though I remembered them. It seems like Dream Journaling was more important that I thought, because I have only had a few short lucidity seconds this week... And I remember lesser dreams.
But I am still very aware of many of them, but the recall/lucidity drop might depend on my schoolbreak =) (Lots of alcohol) Although I had a lucid dream the morning after a party :o[/COLOR]

[COLOR="blue"]I were in some sort of garden and I met an old friend of mine, she seemed a little bit shy and then she vanished while I was looking at her. I thought that this must be a dream, I counted the fingers on my hand and... I had five. I got chocked and worried, where the hell was I?[/COLOR]

[COLOR="silver"]Then I woke up.. frustrated :D[/COLOR]

It seems as if I am regaining my dream recall...

So, this time around, I remember being in a college of sorts, though I traveled to my room immediately after driving some long period of time there, my dorm was very empty. Not long after, two friends, who I did not even recognize after I woke up, greeted and welcomed me, persisting that they were my friends. After that, I walked outside to find a large bunch of stairs, in which I jumped down happily, though I had a HUD like in a video game or something, which was strange, but it said that I was free-running down those stairs, strangely enough. Eventually, that ended.

I only remember after that, a small bit of me in a desert with a large rock, but that's it.

~I was in some kind of medieval looking school, similar to Hogwarts. I didn't know where the heck anything was, so someone directed me to a stage, where auditions for something were taking place. I got in line to audition, but they ended a few minutes before I got a chance. Following the crowd of people to a dining area, I saw what looked like Princess Celestia from My Little Pony as a human. For some reason I wanted to get her attention. She was facing away from me, so I looked around and saw some pokeballs lying on the floor. I picked one up and threw it at her head. She turned around, ran into the center of the room, and loudly announced that whoever had thrown that at her would be banished to the moon. I slid the other pokeballs towards the person standing next to me.

~In a large auditorium full of people, I was standing behind a table with a ukulele on it. Apparently I was supposed to be performing something. I saw a few of my friends over on one side of the room, so I walked over to them and they told me I had so sing, "Here Comes the Sun" by the Beatles and play the ukulele. I didn't know all the lyrics so I asked one of my friends if he did. He gave me some random lines that sounded perfectly right at the time. (After I woke up I realized they had been more like the lyrics to "Saturday in the Park" by Chicago.) Regardless, I just went into the audience to sit by my family. My grandma said something about how it was getting late, and the dream ended.

~Fragment; walking around a store and I found an aisle full of soapy type things. I opened a bottle of lotion and it smelled like sugar cookies.

Have trouble remembering dreams lately. Seems completely opposite of what happened in the previous days, when I had very vivid dreams. I notice that lately the Affirmation isn't playing when I wake up, so that must be it.

I only recalled, but probably from memory, me watching an LP of Spore, and also Facebook reply from someone I've been dying to hear from.

I was with my uncle, we were going on a mission trip to India because he felt bad about something and wanted to make it right. Then I was in a library with incredibly vivid colors, there were two homeless people and one of the was doing acid and freaking out. I picked up a table to defend myself and the dream ended.

I was outside at some random park with a bunch of people. We were all smoking in a circle. At one point I was trying to light something with a clear orange lighter, but I was so dazed and confused that I had no idea if I was doing it right. I kept checking if I was trying to press down on the correct side of the lighter and if I was pointing it in the proper direction. I eventually threw that lighter away and grabbed for another, until someone offered to help me.

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I was at some sort of camp thing. I was at a table in a large windowed room with CL and some others from my class. The room was small and completely lit as everything including the ceilings was a window and it was sunny outside.

We seemed to have just finished eating. We all got up and walked out the back of the building down some wooden stairs and into a forest. Then it ended.

I was looking at a table. There were packs of mushrooms, presumably magic mushrooms, in blister packs as if they'd been bought from the dollar store. I picked one up and started trying to open it. I knew that they had been bought for me by my mom for some reason.

Was at my apartment in sammamish with Leo kara and dina. It snowed really hard and I went to go to work at the restaurant. I though I would be fired for sure because I didn't come in for a week. I went inside and the manager said to talk to him. He walked me to a table of kids and said here's your punishment. I hated kids tables. I went through the grueling process. They started with diet coke, coke, strawberry soda, sprite, and water. Some of them ordered food like farfella. There was an older woman there too. She didn't order anything. I went to the cashiers stand to put the order in and did a reality check. I could breath through my nose. Impossible! This was too real and I could remember what I did a few hours ago. I did it again and I could breath. I did it about five times in a row and just couldn't believe it so I continued to put the order in. I took my time putting the order in and didnt really worry about getting it right. I didn't really care if I got fired. Curtis came and said someone smells bad. I laughed and we talked a but about why I wasn't coming in. I said I just hated working. He asked if I had acid and I said no and asked him the same thing. I left the restaurant and went to my car which was now a giant motorcycle. I was more like a truck with armor. It was black and was being held by five giant brakes. I got on and rid home. Leo and i talked about him leaving and discussed about the next step. We all went to watch a movie and I kind of got sucked in. It felt super long like a dream within a dream. In this movie there were animals everywhere and they could talk. It was a disney movie. They were being hunted by a giant. Black lion type thing. I went around talking to them trying to figure out how to save them. There was a giant machine like thing that could capture and kill the beast. I spent some time trying to get it into the machine. The lion tried getting out but I locked it. I turned it on and it made a really loud humming noise and started to spin. There were spikes at the bottom and he jumped to the top and held on while it spun. I cpukd see him getting dizzy as be lost his balance and fell into the spikes to die. I went to go dispose of the body. The mountain opened up to expose a mother dimension. It was dilled with thousands of dead animal bodys. I had to scrape them all further in into the dimension. Leo was there. A cut scene came in saying that dead is just the becoming and you shouldn't worry about what you do but enjoy it. It was very passionate. I was back home and told lei and dina about the movie and how amazing it was. They said they didn't finish it because it was too slow in the begining. I went for another movie. This movie was short and took place in rolling foothills. I was hiding on a hill as a giant creature was running free. I just watched in amazement as I have never seen such an animal before. It came close to me and then just ran of f to another animal. It was beautiful and sunny out. I was back in my apartment and Leo and dina were going to take a walk. Kara wanted to join them and they waited for her. I wanted to take baron on a walk with them so I slowly got ready. I could tell they wanted to hurry so I got barons leaah. The scene teleported to outside where I was with baron in the snow. He didn't have his leash on and was barking at some lady. I got worried he would run and put him on his leash.

I was dreaming about my brother trying to talk to me even though I was asleep. I kept waking up to the same FA as I tried to get up and answer him. Then the last time, it felt like something was in the bed with me....walking around my head.

11.5.2011
I am in a tiny classroom for kindergarteners, but I'm with Chellie and Aaron. I am seated facing them, they are seated forward, and all three of us are quoting lines from funny videos we've all seen. Chellie faces the blackboard at the front of the class and goes to say something, but doesn't seem to want us to hear it. She has her hair in two blonde braids and grabs each with her hands, making another video reference which I find hilarious. She looks around to me, clearly not expecting anyone to hear what she'd said, and laughs with me about it.

Later, I'm the President of the United States, and am in some huge dark room where a number of large items are on display. I understand the items to be important relics and artifacts collected and saved by the American government. I'm casually playing with a straight bass that is twice as tall as me, when my butler shows me an artist-drawn picture of Noah's Ark, another artifact the government apparently has possession of. I get excited at the prospect of going to see it, and we change rooms, but the dream moves to a different scene, and I don't see the boat.

Did that WILD I was talking about for a nap today. It worked! First WILD in about 6 months. I think I've broken my dry spell. I hope at least.

I decided to take a nap and attempt a WILD. I entered SP and really it wasn't that scary. Nothing seemed to happen. I kept at this for what felt life ten minutes until I awoke in my bed. I went with the assumption it didn't work and carelessly forgot to RC. Luckily as I walked into my hallway I remembered to RC and realized I was dreaming.

I didn't get too excited and decided to start simple because this is one of the most stable LDs I have ever had. I jumped down my stairs and slowly floated to the floor. As I touched the floor everything suddenly began to get blurry. I became dizzy and fell to the floor. I wasn't gonna let this dream end. I wasn't able to get up and spin due to my dizziness, but I could rub my hands together. I attempted to but my hands seemed to act like magnets and would push each other away. I was beginning to loose the dream even more as a odd void formed around the area. I quickly felt the walls to notice how realistic this really was. I couldn't believe it. I continued to feel the area around me and continued to tell myself it was a dream so I wouldn't loose my lucidity amongst the realistic objects I was messing with. Suddenly everything became clear again and I was able to continue on.

I got up and watched as my cat walked up to me. I tried to pet it but it just ran away like in real life. I followed it into the kitchen to notice my family surrounding a child in a high chair. I walked up to them to realize that only my father actually looked like himself. Everyone else was completely different than anyone I am related to in reality.

In real life I have a sister. No one else. So my family is made of four people.

The people there were my parents, a boy a few years younger than me, and the little kid in the high chair. I asked where my sister was and they laughed telling me that I didn't have a sister. I took this chance to tell them that this was simply a dream, and they took this as funny as they mocked me and my parents walked into the other room. I was left with my brother and the kid in the high chair as I told my brother that this was a dream. I laughed at me too while I told him that I would prove it to him. I stuck my hand out and told him that I would shoot water out of my finger tips. Not only was my hand purple, but I wasn't able to shoot water out of it. My brother made fun of me as I walked over to a table with red velvet cake on it. I grabbed it and took a bite only to discover it had the most bland taste. Yeah, not the best first impression of dream food. It wasn't gross but it wasn't good.

I decided to look in my hallway and saw a rocking horse in the middle of it. I looked at my brother and told him to look at it, but when I looked back in the hallway but it wasn't there anymore. Suddenly my parents told me that a tornado was coming and we needed to go in their room to stay safe. I decide to follow to see what would happen. I entered the room, but no one was in it. Suddenly the door closed behind me.

I looked out of the window and noticed the tornado coming towards us. I wasn't very worried since it couldn't hurt me, but I wanted to know where my family went. Suddenly things began to fall apart. The wall was torn to pieces as the ceiling crumbled to the ground. The floor suddenly collapsed as a huge swirling portal opened below me. I wanted to jump in but the area around me was so real I couldn't believe it. So realistic. The way the house tore itself apart. Suddenly I felt something grab me. I was being drug into the portal. I attempted to fly away but nothing worked. I tried to hang onto the floor boards, but I suddenly was flung backwards into the portal.

Next thing I knew I was in my bed.. awake.

Okay, that dream may have seemed boring since all I did was hang with my family and then get sucked into a portal, but it was beyond cool to me. I have never had a LD so vivid, or long. WILDs are definitely the way to go to have the most vivid and long LD. Man... I wish I was dreaming right now haha!

This was quite a vivid dream that upset me a lot.

I dreamed I was late for a maths class in one of the small auditoriums at the university. I saw the girl I liked(in real life as well) and my best friend sitting next to each other in the jam packed hall, which isn't a problem, we all study together. I sat one row behind them since they didn't save me a space. Not long into the lecture they started holding hands and later they even kissed. What bugged me the most was that my friend had a girlfriend and she knew it and they both new very well how crazy I was about her. When I confronted them after class I just got those nonchalant "I don't care" expressions. I woke up there and then feeling as emotional as I never felt before(don't know what emotions, it was a mixture of many things) and it took me five minutes to convince myself that I'm awake...

Haunted Trail
I was at a haunted trail attraction with a group of friends. I was specifically with my cousin, Devin. We were both scared because we heard chainsaws. So, we made a plan to go into the haunted trail through the other end, so, we would be prepared. Our group left us and went into the haunted trail. I spotted my church pastor and talked to him. He jokingly told me that he was scared.

Me, the Juvinile
I dreamed that I was spending the day at my cousin, Devin's house. His mom worked at a juvinile center. In the dream, I had a friend in that center. So, me and Devin kept trying to break into the juvinile center. The first time, we made it to the door, but, Devin's mom came out and we had to hide under a table. But, his mom saw us and dragged us back to the house, telling us that if she catches us back there, she'll kill us. So, we tried again. This time, we made it to the pool room. The pool was filled with girls. Eventually, Devin's mom came in and it was every man for himself! I jumped into the pool and ran for it. Somehow, my clothes were gone. I ran outside and a random kid told me to talk to him or he'll tell on me. I ran away from him. I went back to the house, Devin made it. I tried to put on pants, but, I couldn't. So, I put on some pajamas. I woke up.

Concert Fragment
I was at one of my brother's concerts. He was doing really good. "Alright," he said, "We've got one more song for you! I'm pumped up!" A girl in front of us said he sucked. I told her to shut-up.

This night was very vivid and full of intense dreams. Unfortunately I don't have the best dream recall right now so I can't remember all the details, just some of the main stuff. I would have liked to remember more of the first dream because it was so overwhelming but since it was the first dream it faded from my memory over the night.

A Beautiful Tragedy
One of my old friends had died(by suicide, I think?) and it was my fault. Although I haven't spoken to her in awhile I still cared a lot about her and I had done something to cause her death. I was a complete mess, crying and crying nonstop for what seemed like forever. I didn't want to live with myself because of what I had done. It was just awful, and the pain felt so real. I don't think I've ever felt so.. broken(then again no one close to me has ever died in RL). I went to my room and curled up on my bed and just weeped and weeped and it was just such a real, heavy feeling. My mom came into my room and she just held me and comforted me as I continued crying. It was almost like.. a beautiful tragedy. When I felt myself waking up from this, I was actually sad that it was a dream. I wanted to go back to that place, back to that feeling. I don't know why.. but it was just so beautiful.

Dorm Livin
I was in a lake or a river with some people and swimming when someone came up to me and said something like, "It's your turn," and started shoving me under the water, not allowing me to come up. I didn't think they were trying to kill me because they had done this with some other people and they were fine, but after awhile of intense struggling more people came to help him push me down under the water and I just gave up. I thought if I stopped moving they would let go. My eyes were closed, and I took a breath of air through my nose, as if it were sticking up from the surface, allowing me to breathe. Then I "woke up" and I was at the end of the hallway of the dorms where the door is, opening it to let someone in. She was someone who had gone to my high school but was now at my same college. I found it odd that I had appeared here and not awake in my bed, so I said "I think I was sleeping up until this point because I just woke up now and here I am.. I don't know how I got here." She didn't seem to believe me. Then me and two new people who I had just met there(not in RL) started painting some picture on white boards. One of the girls looked at me suspiciously, then threw some paint at me, starting a paint fight. I thought it would be cool to have a shirt made of paint splatters so we took turns hand-printing each others shirts.


Hotel Danger
Me, my parents and my sis were in a hotel in Chicago and we wanted to get back to our rooms. We had to go in this elevator, which really freaked me out because it didn't look right and when I tried to get in the doors almost closed on me. Inside the elevator I was shaking and actually crying with fear, as everyone else just stood there normally. The elevator seemed to drop 100 floors and then finally came to a stop at the lobby. I got off right when the doors opened but my sis and mom stayed on because they wanted to go to their floor were our room was. I refused to go back on that thing, so my dad came out and accompanied me. We were going to take the escalators back up instead, but the escalators were huge, like 10 times wider and larger than they should be. The first two escalators were out of service and my dad didn't know that so he tried to go on one and a lady dressed like a hooker said "Sir you can't go on this escalator" so he went on the next one and she followed him and said he couldn't go on that one either, till finally he was able to get on the only working one. I tried to get on it but it was already going up and I couldn't lift my body over the side of it. It was like a giant raft, and the whole thing moved up and down. Then it started bouncing up and down like a trampoline and people were having a party on it. I saw my friend Dani fall off the side of it and wanted to go see if she was okay, but them a HUGE wave appeared. It was the size of the building, which was like 8 stories high. I freaked out and ran to the wave pool that just happened to be there, the wave following behind me, and I went to the deep end of the wave pool and faced the wall. I took a deep breath and went under, hoping this would help take the impact. The wave crashed over me smoothly as I heard people around talking about how huge and awesome the wave was. Then I took a breath and realized I could breathe underwater, then woke up.

I have always had the ability to have lucid dreams, however I was never able to control them. They were always sporadic and I was able to have them once every month or two.

My lucid dreams always occur early in the morning. Typically once I am slightly awake and try to fall back asleep. Anywhere from 5am - 8am typically. I am not sure what sleep stage this is but obviously my mind is awake and aware and this carries over.

They were always very brief. I would attain lucidity but in my excitement to do things I would inevitably wake myself up. There was also little or no control.

For example, I would realize I was dreaming and try to "Fly" or "float" up through the ceiling only to have the ceiling block me. Another typical dream would be me finding myself aware but alone in a hallway or field with nothing and no one around me. I would search but nothing would happen.

Over the last year I have been having a new type of experience. The lucid dreams were much deeper and much more involved. There are people around whom I can interact with and things to do.

But now I could really feel, taste, touch, smell and see as if it was "real" life. It was actually quite alarming. So as soon as I realized how "deep" I was in this state I would instantly wake myself up.

I believe that I was afraid I would not be able to wake my physical body or perhaps I was dying.

I can not begin to tell you how frustrating this has been. This irrational fear keeping me from something amazing, beautiful and fun.


Yesterday morning I woke up early and turned the lights on. I put on a movie and laid in bed. I was awake but something odd started to happen.

My entire body started to tingle like pins and needles and I got the sensation of being lifted. I felt like I was coming up and out of my body. But, again, I was awake with the lights on a movie playing. I did feel like I was drifting in and out but I was NOT asleep.

It happened several times but each time I got to the point where I was about to lift up and possibly "Leave" my body I shook myself out of it and stopped it.

I was afraid of it causing a panic attack. Something I am prone to if I feel like I am out of control. Irrational fear like me dying or not being able to find my way back to my body.

This must have occurred five times. I pushed the amount of time in this state each time a little further but never let it take its possible "full effect."

Eventually I woke up and put it aside but I went to bed with the hopes and intention of having some lucid dreams this morning... and wow did I....

Typical of my lucid dreams they were broken up. Excitement during them causes the dream to slowly slip away and me to wake back up. I can actually see the dream start to disintegrate and fade and my consciousness slip back into my body.


The first part of my experience found me on a bus. I started to realize I was dreaming. I remember feeling like I was pushing through a barrier... almost like a cloth or plastic tarp and then BAM! I was fully aware and awake in my dream.

This has never occurred before. Normally before this level of dream took place I would wake myself up out of fear. To make sure that I could still wake up.

But something finally allowed me to push past it. I think that feeling of pushing through cloth or a tarp was my minds way of letting me know I had done what I had not been able to do before.

I remember being on the bus and fully knowing I was dreaming. I touched everything and there was solid weight behind it. Everything was real, vivid, alive.

So real in fact that I began to doubt that I was actually dreaming.

I walked to the front of the bus and started to have a conversation with a girl. She had opinions and acted as if she was not just a part of my dream but a person you would interact with in real life.

She then said something that made my thoughts about this being a dream or real life come to light again. At this point in any dream it is like a "reality check" and I would fail to recognize it was a dream. She was very negative about something and whatever she said caused me to push forward and question that reality instead of succumb to it and fall back into a dream with no control.

But I pushed forward past the reality check and the dream changed to the point where I could then control it. I wasn't just aware that I was dreaming, I could basically do whatever I wanted and change the scenery and physics as well.

The dream then took a sexual turn (sorry lol but I need to be as honest as I can here... part of the fun of lucid dreaming for me does involve sex) and as things got more intense I could feel the dream start to break apart. But more than that I could actually see it start to fade! Like a movie getting fuzzy.

My consciousness slowly started to slip back into my body. I could feel the odd transition as if I was in both worlds still... until I lost it all together and woke up.

But I fell right back asleep again. But this time I had a new control over the dream state. I remember shutting my eyes and calming my mind down again.

The next thing I know I am opening my eyes up in a fully lucid dream state. Amazing. Mind blowing. Imagine shutting your eyes and opening them a moment later to find yourself in a new world, fully awake and aware.

I awoke in the house I grew up in. There was no one around, the house and neighborhood seemed empty. I floated out of my old bedroom and remember floating around the neighborhood trying to remember who lived in what house and where people might be.

I realized that I was not in the correct neighborhood. There is a gap in what happened next but I remember coming to a house with a family living in it. I walked around the house went up stairs and found a person in one of the rooms.

As we started to interact I once again felt a sense of excitement and things started to fade.

But this time I think I was able to stop my consciousness from slipping back into my body by disengaging my interactions with people and moving on.

Again I need to point out the level of awareness in every sense was just as real as it is now that I am typing these words. I knew I was dreaming.

I remember things were still faded, possibly even black and white. I may have woken up for the briefest of moments but if I did I fell right back into the same dream again.

I recall jumping out of a window and willing myself to fly. Not float, but fly. As I did it the dream snapped back into place and I remember flying over an empty field with trees.

I don't recall how that "segment" ended but I ended up waking up again.

My mind was still in an excited state so I remember having to calm it down and shortly after I was asleep again and my eyes opened back up to the dream world.

All I can recall about this section of the dream was that there were a lot of people around me. At first glance they were mostly women... then I looked again and there were men also.

I recall trying to focus on their faces and make them change... make them look different. In some cases I succeeded but others I wasnt able to. Some I would change and they would morph back like play doh to some odd form.

I remember waking back up again. My mind was racing and recalling weird words and songs... it was time to wake up. I couldn't concentrate anymore.

I tried to lay in a different position and keep my mind calm but I just couldn't. So eventually I just got up and started my day.


So this all prompted me to keep a dream journal here. I feel like I started a new chapter in my dream life.

I just can't get over how amazing it was to literally push through to a new level of dream awareness and control.

Now I need to work on maintaining longer dreams, stopping my excitement from the dream from waking me up and how to get control over when I have lucid dreams.

I would sure like to have them more regularly.