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I'm standing in the center dorm office at work talking to the overnight manager P. She says I'm being switched to a house for morning care. The kid I would have is MH and she asks if I think that's a good idea. My people pleaser side immediately says yes, and she asks me a few times if I'm sure it's a good idea. I know it's not, and that I'd be putting myself in a bad situation if I go through with it. I say yes anyways, and as I'm leaving I say "This is a terrible idea."

GOALS:
Godfather TOTY
So I find myself enjoying a nice walk in a park. It's sunny outside(funny, pretty gloomy in real life over here), and it's warm(funny, cold as shit over here, and there couldn't be much more snow). This park is obviously make believe, because we definantly don't have a park this nice where I'm from. Anyway...there's tons of people here. I mean TONS. Damn, this is one famous park. So, I find myself suddenly gazing upon the shiny blue-water pond. There's two ponds. They're separated by a narrowish path. As I stare at the wonderous pond, I suddenly become lucid without my dream signs! Unfortunately, I forgot I had to do the Godfather TOTY. Fail on my part.

So, I decide I'm gonna practice using my powers. I decide I should master speed flight. I've been troubled with that. It's really hard to do. I get in my stance. I see a white brick wall. It's a good distance away. I decide to speed fly there. I let my energy build, I run, get in my stance, and jump. I fail. I'm still flying, but not speed flying. Shit. Oh well. So, I land on the brick wall. I see another one parallel to this one. In between are some groups of teens having a good time. I jump down from the wall. Now I'm on the path between the two ponds. I look over at the second pond. It sure is as beautiful as the first one. What now? I know. I decide to try and master the Kaio-Ken. I get in my stance again. I let my power spike. Suddenly, I'm surrounded by maroon ki. Yes! I'm doing the Kaio-Ken! This means I can have faster speed and stronger attacks. I charge one guy I see. I fly to him like metal to a magnet. I punch him at least twenty times in two seconds. Then, I kick him away. The maroon ki goes away. The Kaio-Ken has subsided. One man rushes me and tries to attack. Time to master another technique. I point two fingers at him. I'm gonna try a Dodan Ray. Suddenly, a yellow beam fires and kills him. Then, another guy charges me from behind. So, I do a one-handed Kamehameha. That kills him. Then, as I try to resume the peace, my Dad awakes me.

Adventures with myself- Lucid-Non Lucid-Comments-Dialogue

Woke up around 8am and decided to wild so I tried to relax in the supine position and waited, I really wanted to become lucidbecause lately my awareness has been non-existent, I don't remember what I used as an anchor but some time later I realised I couldn't move and there was a presence so I didn't panic and tried to grab it but it was out of reach and I didn't want to wake up so I let it be.

Plan B- So instead I visualised moving around my room, then eventually detached from my body and crouched at the foot of my bed feeling the wall against my back, then for some reason I became the presence looking down at myself lying on my bed it was like I moved back in time, because this was my sleep paralysis scene from earlier from different perspective, Anyway the other me woke up, mostly because I was shaking him and for a minute, we started at each other then he did what he/I always do, smiled at me like he was amused ,then he indicated that he was going back to sleep and that I shouldn't disturb him then he rolled onto his side and looked the other way, I stood up and rubbed my hands out of habit even though the environment had stabilised itself and thought of what to do...

'are you my dream guide'?

He stood up and faced me then told me something about dream guides that I don't remember, I think he said something like

'You are your own dream-guide' (insert- some stuff about self control that I wish I could remember)

At some point after the speech I looked away from him and tried to summon my dream-guide maybe because I didn't believe him? In any-case I lost lucidity and my recall is at critical levels so I don't know what happened after that.

- **** was two people, both identical and both my boyfriends, they became angry I was seeing them both and made me choose between them. So I randomly picked one because they were exactly the same...
- While I was walking down the street with my chosen Duff I saw an Avatar character working in his garden (it was completely normal for people from Avatar to be on earth) and I said 'Hello sir.'
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Vivid Dream (2-24-11)

After a failed WILD attempt, I had a very detailed vivid dream.

I was at an ice rink where me and my friends were skating and we were about to leave. I out the door and we were outside and it's night time. I forget my ice skates so I go back inside to look for them. After looking for them, I go back out the door and i'm in my school. I see a 9th grader that goes on my buss and he is wearing like some type of air bag on his back that allows him to jump really high.

A random kid comes up to me and says something like, "That suit makes him weigh only 10 pounds."

I wake up from my vibrating cellphone.

I was with Rona. There were two cars. The first one seemed like a '67 style Dodge Charger. It was a fast car. Rona's was the style of a '67 GTO. The V lines were exaggerated. Rona was saying how it used to be a police car and it would go much faster than the other car.

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It was night and I was trying to get home. I turned right down a narrow path with brush on either side. It seems I could have gone home another way, but I didn't know how, and this path was right here and would get me home faster. The only thing is, there were wolves a entering the path.

I was terrified, but started running faster as though I could outrun them. I had all the endurance I needed. I started to growl at the first dog, and I guess it worked. I kept running and there was another wolf up ahead. I ran easily, but then the dream ended.

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I was in an airplane and there was an open hatch. It was like a vacuum sucking up some potato chips. The hatch led to hell, or at least some evil place. It was trying to suck me up, but I didn't allow myself to be sucked up into it.

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I saw several small birds of prey. They were the size of falcons, but looked more like hawks. The background landscape was mountains, but the foreground was flat and grassy.

I had better food ready, but when it came time to feed them, all I had was seed. Now I'm inside and there isn't as much room. I decide to feed the birds anyway. Now they are only crows. I'm disappointed, but I threw out my food for them.

Now one of the birds is much smaller. I'm with someone who takes the bird into her mouth, though not to eat it. In my waking life I used to have small birds that liked to pick at my teeth and would stick their whole head in my mouth.

The space I'm in starts to get very cramped. In waking life last night I was stapling reflective insulation in my attic and cramped doesn't approach how little room I had. My dream ended as I looked out at the avian activity.

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I was in a middle-eastern bazaar at night. There were large baskets hanging above me for sale. The country I was in was not a democracy, and that made me uncomfortable except for one thing: certain things were legal, and I was having a user-dream the whole time...so I went with it.

The End

I was at school in my history class. My teacher told me if I patted her on the head then I was dreaming. I went up and patted her on the head and realized I was dreaming.I remembered to stabilize the dream and started rubbing my hands together and saying "I am dreaming everything is clear". It didn't work and I woke up.

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Im watching TV and jacking off I have 2 p's. I come before my dad comes upstairs. Theres a show in tv wheres 2 ladies in a small motorboat in a tv studio which is filled with water.

Im at lesson in our ripari place. H pisses off once again and orders some students out into the cold. I have my Di with me. I come from the break and see that someone had played it so I start to adjusting it so that no-one can play it. H is angry at me because im adjusting the Di, so I tell her why Im doing that. Im at handcraft class and I still have the Di there. J and K are walking around the place, then I play an awesome solo with the Di and J is excited about it and O also comes to listen to it. Then Im sitting there with S while L and some of her friends are talking about mopeds, then we are laughing with S about their talks.

This dream is a very sketchy one as lately I've been waking up with the dream dissapearing before I can get any of it down:

The first thing I can remember was being on the top deck of a bus with a friend beside me (don't know who it was, I just had the knowledge that this person beside me was a friend), I was looking through a medical book on diseases as in this dream I knew I was suffering from something and knew what it was (though I can no longer remember what it was supposed to be). I remember opening up one page which was about the treatment of someone with the back of his scull off and his brain growing out of the back of his head, at this point the page became fully animated with the patient looking up at me with sadness in his eyes as a meat slicer was used to pear down the excess brain.

There are some earlier dreams from last night that I only have vague recollections of.

1. I'm at my parent's place, and my ex boyfriend comes over to see my mom. I'm super pissed about it.

2. I'm in some self-serve cafe trying to figure out how everything works. The deserts look really good.

3. My mom has entered me in some pageant for goth kids or something. This is confusing to me as I do not consider myself goth at all. My mom and I argue about it for some time. I get up to use the bathroom. In the mirror, I see that I am myself at 14 years old. Black hair, black lipstick, black eyeshadow and all.
I go back and sit with my mom. I hear them call my name which means it's my turn to go up for the pageant. I don't want to at all. I don't even want to be here. Everyone is watching me as I stand up, and I just start running as fast as I can. I'm out the door, outside, running through the parking lot and into the nearby woods. As I am running I somehow realize that this must be a dream.

Lucid:
I stop on the path I am running on and fall to my knees. I feel dirt and chipped wood of the pathway and it feels just like it should. I look up to see a large stage coach rounding the corner up ahead and coming towards me. I don't feel like dealing with this for some reason, so I hurry off the path and start to spin. When I stop spinning, I find myself at my old elementary school playground. There are kids playing everywhere and it seems to be recess or lunch time. I walk into the playground and it all seems so real. So much so that as I pass a kid, he bumps me and knocks my bag off. Even the sounds are real. Kids yelling and laughing, whistles blowing, seagulls, everything! I see an old teacher that I had when I went to this school. I am surprised she is still here. I walk over and start talking to her. I ask her if she remembers me, and she says that she does. "But, this is a dream, right?" I ask. She nods. I ask her if she ever lucid dreams and she says that she does all the time.

I decide to go in and explore the school. I start to walk around the side of the building, and I notice that the gym door is open. I walk through the gym and it is much as I remembered it, although not quite. A few things were changed. No matter. I continue through the gym and come out the other side by the office. The secretary is young and I do not recognize her at all. I have a sudden mischievous whim and I decide that I am going to piss off the principal. Walking just into the doorway of his office, I see that he is on the phone. He looks up at me, and I make an obscene gesture. "Can I call you back?" he says to the person on the phone. He starts to chase me through the hallways, and I laugh because I know he cannot catch me because I can run as fast as I want. There's a big janitors cart in the hallway and I push it on it's side as I run past, creating a barrier. Then I start to spin again. I want to keep exploring!

After spinning, I end up on a beach somewhere. It's nighttime and it's so dark I can barely see. I am only sure that it's a beach because I can feel the moist sand and hear the waves. This is not as interesting as I had hoped, so I start to spin again.

I have a false awakening, where I spin so hard in the dream that my real body starts to spin too, and I roll out of bed. I get up and start updating my dream journal, only to really wake up shortly after and realize that I had to start all over.

I know I only explored an elementary school, but damn if that wasn't the coolest thing I have experienced in a long time! I think I am finally getting the hang of staying lucid for more than a few seconds!

I've been trying to WILD but unfortunatly it isn't going too well.. But hey-ho! Gotta be patient right This is from after my WILD attempt, which I passed out in.

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid Lucid

I'm in my room, randomly. I've started to recognise this now. I'm in a dream. I RC to make sure.

Yup, definetly dreaming. I feel oddly hyper, and start to run out of my bedroom door. I catch myself, and remember to stabalise the dream. I quickly run my hands over my walls and take in the details, sniffing in the painty scent.

My door doesn't lead to my hall, but outside. It's sunny, and I feel as though I'm in a different, hot country. Everything is brightly coloured. I see a van, with people serving food out of it, it's very busy. Just outside of the van is a chalkboard saying "Buy your Lucid Tea now!" I smile slightly, this must be because of my WILD attempts.

I sit at a table outside of the van, my hyperness passed. I don't really feel like doing much, just sitting, soaking up the summer sun, smelling hotdogs and watching people pass buy. Maybe I should buy some "lucid tea".

Getting up, I go up to the person serving. "Can I have some tea please? Does it really work?" I ask politely. They may be DCs, but I like manners. The man glares at me.

"You better pay for it, because I have a family to feed and I can't do that when I only have £100 to get me by!" He holds out his hand, and I reach into my jeans pockets and pull out some notes. Not bothing to check them, I just hand them over. In return, he gives me a bowl of muti-coloured liquid.

A passer-by turns to me. "That stuff doesn't really work y'know. They're ripping you off."

I shrug, and take a sip. It tastes like orange and cinnimon tea. I put it down and decide to do something.

I spin, willing a random location. When I stop, I'm in a narrow mainstreet of a town centre. Again, it is sunny and very busy. I walk along. My goals! I remember them. I look towards the sky. Should I fly up and fall? I decide not to. To be honest I'm a little scared. I've flown before, but shiver at the thought of hitting the ground. Go to Lake Hylia? How would I go about that?

I pay little attention to what is around me, wrapped in my thoughts, which causes me to lose lucidity. I fly forwards over the crowds heads, and into a stone chamber. There are people sitting around a little rectangular blue pool, debating something.

I was pregnant for the first time (I have a son in real life) and me and T were going to have a girl. We were fighting over something, vaguely remember it being something he would have to go get that would take 4 hours. I think I ended up riding along with him and a friend. That's when I went into labor.

It was really weird though, kinda twisted. I was delivering my own baby, what was in front of me was some weird creature out of Aliens and I have no idea where that came from. The baby died. I was really upset, but T was going around talking about it very lightly, kind of like shrugging it off. And everyone around me was acting like it was no big deal. I remember getting ready to get out of my car and I just stopped and looked around, then started crying really bad.

I go inside this house, thinking I would be alone. I had a being "single" mindset for some reason, like because we lost the baby we wouldn't be together. I walk in to my ex's mom and dad. They're asking me what type of liquors I want with what kind of pop to chase. I told them it didn't matter, just lots of liquor. Then I realized they just wanted to party, they didn't care about what happened. I started to walk to the bedroom when a kid I used to go to school with stood in my way. He wouldn't let me through. I looked out the window and saw lightning and could hear thunder. I woke up.

(When I woke up, say 5 this morning, I was feeding my son and it began storming halfway through, really bad. Not really weird, I knew it was going to storm last night.)

I went back to bed and had some more dreams. I can only remember bits and pieces though. Ever since I stopped writing in my dream journal, I haven't had good recall. I'll have to start up again. I was doing pretty good.