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Soo happy!!
From Friday to yesterday I managed to happily sleep through my alarms - darting-party effect, I guess..
But last night - the second I heard worked exactly as it was supposed to.
I use this: Alarm Clock Bud Pro for IPhone
Caught me in a dream, I forgot now - heard the alarm - waited it out - and then:

It was weird - my face was directed to the bed - and I suddenly had the impression I can look through my eyelids a bit like through a camera-seeker - and saw the ground, which was covered in decorative pebbles.
And I made that clearer and bigger and suddenly wuusch - I was there!!
It was not a long one - and I also didn't have something prepared to think of - but it came to my mind, that theoretically I wanted to play darts some day lucidly.

But I stood there and decided to first of all just observe and walk about.
Which I did - and sat on a bench, next to a tree.
There were thousands of ants circling the trunk at the base and it got more and more - and I thought - naa - if I go on watching crawly things - that could turn out nasty (was starting to feel so).
So I got up.
Clarity and vividness could have been better all overall - but when I kept my attention somewhere - it got better - there.
I came to a big villa - found it looked interesting - and went in.
Very beautiful old fashioned house with a lot of wooden panelling and paintings and a huge wooden staircase.
I met a woman upstairs in one room, who first was one - and later changed into another person - both known to me/friends irl - and we talked for a while - intense.
In a way - my lucidity was a bit dampened through our exchange - I knew, it was a dream, still - but on the other hand I took the interactions pretty seriously.

Then I had a dream-urge to go to the toilet - at that moment, lucidity rose - and I thought - lets see if it helps when I go relieve myself on a dream-toilet.
Which I did - and it didn't help - so I gathered, I must be indeed needing a toilet irl.
And let it happen to wake up.
Only to find out - still having an urge - that I didn't need either toilet nor urge - and the urge went away..
Crazy!
Sorry guys and gals - but I find that sort of note-worthy..

I found myself in a warehouse with a door left of me and one on the right of me, And there where about 7 bad people and a dog named "chase" they where all hostile coming from the left of me and I can remember that they where all bad people for some reason not sure something like drug dealers murderers etc.. Anyways there where surrounding me.

I had the feeling of safe dream characters to my right out of my vision, I had welding gloves on and I remember holding my hand up towards and telling "chase" the dog to calm down and that it was alright anyways after some growling and snarling he calmed down and moved off to the right out of my vision..

I ended up in an all out brawl with the remaining hostile dream characters which one of them I broke their arm not sure how I defeated the others but the last dream character I noticed a knife of some sort on the floor, I grabbed it and threw it at this guys groin area anyways he went down..

Next I feel like I had made it out through the door on the right (I did not go through any door the next scene just appeared ) and started bounding away like you see in space movies jumping real high coming back down and bounding further away, about 6 leaps and I woke up remembering every detail.

As soon as I woke up I kept thinking I saw my hands in welding gloves why did I miss my chance to RC!?

I did not recognise any DC's and I do not know of a dog called Chase.

1. [Non-Lucid]
Was invited to my friends birthday party at her house.

We arrive at her house, upon entering nobody was around (the walls were painted orange I think), so I went out the back door into the garden, the garden had these metal wire fences scattered about the place so I had to navigate through them (some had holes that had been cut open) to get to the bottom of the garden where there is a shed packed with people talking and just hanging out having fun.

Was talking to my dad who was with me about me needing my harness off and on sometimes but he wasn't having it saying he would be far too busy to do that.

Fragments:
Following Emily back up to the house, its quite dark and we had navigate back though the fences.
Were in the house where I'm asked if I'm ready for dinner.
I see a small blue bowl with beans n sausages in it, and a bigger bowl behind it, all the while I keep hearing a noise. (I awakened to the phone ringing)

Morning of January 26, 2014. Sunday.



This is an annoying dream based on too much time spent on one sound-engineering session. Normally, I notch out (or compress with polarity reversal with two “silent” matched tracks) the area 110 Hz (A) in a full percussion track (I also bring out 49 Hz (close to G) prior to that for the bottom of the track itself - some people use 50 (as well as much higher bottoms), but I like the matched tonality with a real implied note (many people could care less about tuned percussion or tonal bottoms - or in fact - as modern tracks prove - tuned anything - in fact, a standard in dance music is NOT to be in tune, even using the “detuning” function in VSTs - that is for people who like to use music as a “weapon” as they so often do these days). This allows more of the bass guitar (and low end keyboard in bass range). Sometimes I am meticulous and play around a bit too long. Taking out too much makes both the snare (bottom) and the kick (top) too light and may also create an effect that is too punchy and sparse in one range just above or below the 110 Hz peak. Messing about with sound waves is a very tricky business.

At any rate, I am buying groceries and other supplies. I take out my credit card which is supposedly a “110 Hz” credit card. The cashier says that they do not take that type of card and I am very annoyed, as that is mostly all I seem to have with me in my dream. I am not sure what to do. I am trying to remember if I have another card to pay and pay with a combination of my oldest son’s card and a few dollars and coins that I find in my wallet. I am not sure why they do not take the card - I sense the bank may actually have issues with the store, perhaps in their business practices, not sure.

I also have a recurring dream of trying to align two sound-waves (that are polar reversals of each other) before I can properly make love. This does not make that much sense, as the audio would vanish if they were perfectly aligned - I think it has more to do with enjoying the “hidden” ghosting frequencies of misalignment and probably the hidden side (mid-side decoding) “thrills” especially with the odd “breathing verb” effect of some side extractions, which I sometimes tend to prefer in modern music over the actual intended tracks (depending on the level of out-of-phase artifacts in lower quality MP3s, of course, which is often too much to take).

Trying to always go back to DEILD at each waking, so recall suffered and don't know time of dreams.

+ in a concrete underground bunker, I'm looking for the toilet, I see a hole in the ground where it used to be. A workman is quizzing me about bolts in the ceiling.

+ in a large hall with long wooden seats (Church?) I'm trying to move ahead of a slow moving group, I can't get by.


00:00 Wednesday 2014-01-22

05:00 1 4mg galantamind, 1 250mg (300mg?) alpha gc

+ lived in a land where the rulers were against me, I had to leave and come back. Long dream. There's a refridgerator/ice maker I wanted to give away to some poor folks there was a place to plug it in, as long as they would let me use it, I would come and have drinks there. At the end I was going somewhere in a jeep with 2 girls they had left their crutches behind we had to go back to the bad land to get them but it went OK.

07:47

+ in a racquetball court, fairly dark lights weren't on, it was not the right size, it was not deep enough , threw a ball around, there was a bunch of stuff in there I was moving to out of the way so I could play, but I didn't have a racquet then I see a racquet.

Was trying to get in to a court , the walls were so opaque I could barely see through, but I saw players playing there ,I think I probably need reservations.

Tried alarm-based DEILDs starting at 05:00 but was too awake, didn't make it back to sleep after first alarm, eventually back to sleep at around 07:30, turned off the alarms.

05:30

+ walking on a beach. neighbor boy with mother is there too, his foot gets stuck in between some stones, I'm walking over the sand and over rocks in the sand.

+ work elevators. Walking past a group of people returning from lunch. On an outdoor path. The group starts pressing into me strongly and closely as I try to push past, I keep an eye on my bag to make sure nobody steals my stuff. I"m keeping an eye out for cute women in the group. Someone says "oh, my." I reach the elevators, there are about 3 elevators. There's a crowd, can't get on, elevators open on left, a tour group is there, they don't get on at first, tour guide says "the minimum age is 52."

A bunch of short dreams throughout the late morning punctuated by quick awakenings.

Somewhere in there tried a classical WILD, was reaaaaalllllyyyy sllloooooowwww to get relaxed enough, but eventually felt the beginnings of ragged breathing, jerking eyes, and an "all-body-buzz" which are my WILD noise indicators. No body movement hallucinations, felt a bit light-headed. Tried to remain calm but didn't make it into the dream.

08:00 ?

+ I find myself Looking at a wall of snow about 6 feet away right in front of me. The snow at the top level of the walll is the bottom of a ski run. I"m thinking about how I could try to jump down this wall on skis: how I would try to dig my ski edges into the sides of the wall, and I also think this may not work since the wall is more or less vertical and I'd probably just fall down, the wall is about 10 feet high. As the dream fades I realize I'm dreaming and try to get back in but I don't feel like counting it as a lucid since the visuals were gone before I realized I was dreaming.

09:30 (dreams from many earlier quick wakings)

+ walking past my elderly mother in the living room, she's sitting in a chair. Something snags her skirt and pulls it entirely off her, I'm trying to find the cloth and put it back, she's laughing, I finally can get a hold of the cloth and put it back in place.

+ I'm walking outside on a street with my son, lots of people outside. We're carrying a pet hamster in a glass. There's a pet store nearby. I want to go in and I say there will be a lot of cute animals there. My son is reluctant, he may be concerned that we'll lose our hamster. I look at the hamster it has kind of a shimp-like face with big black closely-set eyes. My son pours some water into the glass with the hamster. I look at it and say it has a stupid little rhinoceros-head.

+ plane crash. I'm in my car at the top of the hills. I see a large commercial jet plane flying overhead at the top of the hills, it's taking off and barely misses me, flying towards the water. I'm driving. I'm in my car then at the bottom of the hills and look up and see the plane flying, and looks like it's in trouble. It flies out over the water. I"m at a red light. I'm leaning forwards to see the plane in the sky through my windshield. I see the plane bank sharply and head back towards me on the land. The traffic light is now green. I drive out of the way so the plane doesn't hit me. I'm driving in water, to the left, the plane will crash land a bit to the right, I think I'll drive way out to the left in the water if I have to to avoid the plane. There are designated parking areas on a pier for the cars in the water.

I walk by the crash site and I see bodies floating face down. There are certified drivers who are diving to save the people, I see several. Someone says "oh, yeah, there's sharks." I think of course there are sharks there is probably a lot of blood in the water from the crash. I see a few people walking away in soaked clothing and I think a few have been rescued.

+ walking by a vietnamese restaurant, I'm outside on a boardwalk, there's a menu posted on a board, I'm reading it and see an item on the menu is called a "whiskey rim-shot." I also see a picture of a big bowl with red liquid inside and slices of hot peppers, I think it's a picture of someone's bowl after they've eaten and used a lot of red chili sauce.

I run into friend D. D blabbers at me something profound, yet I know in waking he's a Dick. I turn him into a toad to match his internal appearance. He continues to blabber, not having noticed the change in his dreaming body. Of course not.

Picking up I kiss him. I'm not a princess, quite the opposite of something pure and royal.

I watch as he forms warts all over his body and then as those begin to ooze slime.

Still, he blabbers.

I'm tempted to kill this form of his, knowing he'll respawn elsewhere.

Pulsing a few charges of energy into my hand, I'm now holding a dagger. I place him on the ground and whisper to him, "If you are not aligned in your totality, I will kill you each time you land yourself within my eyesight."

The dagger slices through his reptilian skin and I observe the life force dissipate.

My boyfriend today was telling me about a dream or possibly out of body experience he had last night.
He isn't one to believe or practice in out of body experiences. So this was odd, he said he "woke up" in the dream at 2am and he was standing in our room where he saw himself and me laying bed asleep, the room was dark with very little light. He saw a shapeless black entity that had no face and spoke to him telepathically. This thing led him away from the room and brought him to a graveyard covered in children laying tied down to the ground and this thing paralyzed him and made him unable to close his eyes or look away from these children who were telling him to run and get away, and this thing lit the children on fire. After it was all over it said to my boyfriend "I have you now, I control you." and he was back in our room and he touched his physical body laying in bed and he woke up to our son crying and it was 6am. Help me please I'm worried.

1/25/14**

Interesting development tonight! Instead of some previous experiences where it felt like mechanics were involved in countering my lucidity...tonight both LDs felt like I was suspicious I could be dreaming and I was getting nudges of help or clues! I think this was due to my re-inspired self awareness work! Anyway busy today got to be brief. First LD I was sitting outside with a heavy-set black guy with mostly shaved head but a slight fade. For the second night in a row I see something interesting about the stars in the sky (previous night I was just focusing on a good night's sleep and got a fantastic show in the sky that was non lucid; stars lighting up unusually and then became firework sounds behind a cloud and then very clear and vivid fireworks with animation in the sky thinking it was a little late for fireworks - felt like 10:30 p.m. in the dream - and it turned out to be some advertising campaign but so beautiful!) anyway I tell that guy that those stars
look unusual, the constellation was laid out with so many stars kind of in a shape of a boot and as I was pointing it out the whole constellation lit up (lucidity help#1) and I realized that I must be dreaming but it felt so real but I said no I must be dreaming. I decided to RC by flying up into the sky. Yep! I am thinking what now and think of flying to the moon and I look for the moon as I'm floating high up in the sky. I see the moon and start flying towards it and as I get close I go to land and somehow end up in a big L shaped room that looked like an abandoned club house or game room with items at each end of the L. I think okay is this supposed to be on the moon? Sure enough I'm bouncing around the room with moon like gravity! It is actually a whole lot of fun! After bouncing around for awhile I look at the front door to this big room and I think about what they were talking about in the last podcast and decided I would go out a different way
and flew up through the roof as if it were not there. I'm floating in the sky again and I look for some interesting stars to fly to and think about the tip from Sivason. As I focus on each star they move a little to the right or a little to the left. Finally I find one that seems to stay fixed and I focus on it as I begin to fly towards it but then I lose sight of it but I can feel that I am deep in space and it feels a little weird like gentle pressure waves rolling against me. I feel lost out here so I decide to teleport back to the L shaped room and bounce around some more. I lost lucidity either here or through the FA that followed. A guy similar to the one at the beginning of the dream was there and had a habit of turning on multiple TV'S...like a compulsion. This was after a normal wbtb about 4 hours in. Woke up from LD#1 around 5am. Did a more lazy wbtb with less SSILD cycles overlayed with mantra that I stop & realize I am dreaming + one that I
recognize the transition (both were WILD attempts turned DILDs). 2nd LD I was in what was supposed to be my grandparents house. I was helping my grandmother with something in the garage and she decided it was time to go to bed and she went on towards bed and as I passed the laundry area(?) between the garage and the house I spilled something on the floor and it got worse as I tried to stop the spill. I went in to the bathroom to clean up I guess and heard a jingling sound then saw a small white fluffy dog and thought hmm I guess that is their dog. Then I see a taller majestic grayish blackish dog and think that is strange...doesn't seem like any dog of theirs and think this could be a dream. Nudged again (lucidity help#2) I see someone walking towards me in a bear suit and I say now I know I am dreaming! I fly up out of the house and it is daytime whereas before it seemed like night. There is a line of college cheerleaders (male and female) out in
front of the house performing. Like in one of my HHs earlier where a woman in a skirt had one leg propped up on something provocatively, I saw a cheerleader standing legs split with a "come hither" look and I swooped down to the ground below her and worked my way towards performing oral on her as she grabbed at my junk, enjoying the experience but eventually faded back to bed.

Something to do with staying at a strange hotel where I swam in a pool for some time, then climbed a clock tower.

Something to do with making my way through backyards and private property along the coastline until I went into some woman's house.
Inside of her house she had these artfully decorated walls painted all the colors of the rainbow. I accidentally got a small portion of the wall wet and caused the paint to wash off. I tried to fix it, but the woman found out.

I'm in a house which contains a dollhouse which is an exact model of the house, even containing a miniature version of the dollhouse itself, which in turn is a perfect model with its own miniature dollhouse inside, and so on; the dream camera zooms in through what seems to be an infinite series of nested houses, and I say "It's recursive."

Inside one of these levels of houses, I can hear a woman's voice singing, not a recording or anything professional, it's the way someone might sing to themselves around the house, going "la la la" instead of words. I'm in a hall, passing by a woman's bedroom where there are a few cardboard boxes open on the floor, one with old Victorian clothes spilling out, and a mirror in a gold frame. The mirror catches my attention and I go lucid. I'd been thinking earlier (while awake) that mirrors are often linked with magic and summoning in my dreams and I'd intended to try using that deliberately the next time I had a lucid dream, so I look at this one now and try to summon Julia, who I'd expect to be the easiest character for my mind to summon. After a moment I see a woman moving in the mirror in the distance, too far away to see much, but it's not Julia. I start to try again with a slightly different approach, but then think that I'm a little too close to waking up for this. I lose visuals.

I 'wake up' in bed and reach for a pen to jot this down, but I drop it and have to get out of bed to look for it. I'm irritated by this, thinking I'm going to forget the dream - then I wake up again.

Had terrible day yesterday. Tired and emotional, just wanting to give up. So I ask my subconcious to release the pain of the past. Give me a break at least. Just before I woke up this morning I hear, clear as a bell a song twice sung in a falsetto voice "and if you smile you can break out the fuel to my brain". Good dreams last nite too!

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I am in small town, people walking around, going to places and then a loud bang and we see an airplane blowing up in the air and parts of it falling down. One big part of it falls at the end of the street I am in and makes many buildings collapse. Me and other people start running the opposite direction and scream to people coming in our direction to turn back and run for their lives. When I'm almost being hit by debris, I see an entrance to an underground place, maybe a subterranean park and I run down the stairs. There's another lady inside and I tell her to move away from the entrance, which gets blocked with debris. There are some stairs to the right of an elevator. The power is down, so we cannot call the elevator. We try the stairs, but on the next floor they are also blocked with debris. I have an idea, I open the elevator door - it's one of those that you can open by sticking your fingers in the crack between the two and pushing them apart. The elevator is stuck half way on this floor and the top floor is just above us, so I climb through it and bring the lady with me. We open a trap door in the ceiling and find ourselves on a terrace. It's not vey high, just 1 or 2 floors above the ground, probably the upper levels of the car park. There are other persons on it already, close to the edge, looking at the street. Everything below is a chaos, people are confused about what to do, but when they start organizing themselves, a couple of guys with guns decide to take over the decision-making and to rule us. One of them points the gun at me and I instinctively punch him, throwing his gun away, and then kick the other in the croch. Then I grab the gun and the first guy shows intention to fight back so I shoot him in the leg. Still, they attack me and I try to shoot again, this time to kill, but there's no more bullets. So I run and some follow me.
Soon I realize we're on an island and there's no place to go. I feel that I'm in an alternative version of "Lost" and I even meet some of the characters of the series. When I and some of the others who escaped, get in the jungle, we encounter them and They tell us to follow them. They live in a fortress on a smaller island offshore and we have to swim there, because there's no boat to take us.

Walking in the sloped field behind my house amidst some chickens. I knew that I wanted to fly but was not sure why or how. I looked down and I was spontaneously holding two wings, similar to those of a buzzard. I guessed that the best way to fly would be to just flap the two wings in my arm. Trying to gain some speed by running down hill, jumping and then flapping seemed to produce a few seconds of lift but eventually gravity seemed to strengthen and pull me down. Multiple repetitions later it became clear that the now eagle wings weren't working. Anxious to fly I scavenged my immediate surrounding and noticed a giant robot vending machine barely a foot to my left. Not through any particular reason I realized that I was currently residing in the dream world. Knowing that I had flown before multiple times, I just bounced up feeling these amazing upsurges as if I had full control over the gravity effecting me. I flew maybe 20 meters straight upwards and saw a fog blocking my sight from reaching outside the domain of my garden. A drowsiness spread over me and the world ended.

Journal Entry Lucid#3 /Semi-Lucid Dream,Lucid, Semi-Lucid, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I slept earlier again. I have been sleeping earlier for some reason. I prepared this time and meditated 30 minutes before I normally get sleepy. I still got sleepy while meditating, but the difference was I didn't lose consciousnesses of it. I realized I was falling asleep and I would immediately get back into posture.

Dream fragment 1, from 7:50pm-12:42am"": I had a dream about my neighbors for some reason. I don't remember the details that much, but I remember my fence was either torn or I was flying over it.

I got up and played some video games. I was just trying to be happy since I have been sad for a couple of days. I watched something. After a while close to 4:10am. I was getting sleepy. I closed my eyes for a while. I started seeing all these images (people, things, random things)and sounds playing in my mind. I started to remind myself that these are just the construction of my mind and that I should not be convinced by them. I was sitting next to my bed legs crossed with my eyes closed. The images started to be more detailed and consistent. I was getting too involved with the images and I started talking to my sister and I realized that I was still in my room siting down. I got up right away. My heart was pounding. I then said a phrase to remind myself that I will be dreaming soon. I then went to sleep on my side.

Dream fragment 2, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was at the parking lot of my school. I think I realized I was dreaming. The dream scene changed. I woke up. I started talking to someone about life and I said that life is a dream we can experience together, and that I believe I was in life's dream. I saw my cousin, sister and a random women. I told them that this is a dream and if we want to have lucid dream we have to hold hands and meditate on life's dream (or life's illusion). My sister and cousin left because they thought it was stupid. The random girl stayed. I don't know her, but for some reason I cared about her. I was on the floor looking at the details of my bed. She was standing right in front of me. This was when I payed attention to her. I looked at her, she was black and she was wearing just a bra and underwear. She asked me why I want to have a LD with her. I told her when you are lucid you are so much more smarter. Her and as a general statement.

Dream fragment 3 from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was spectating a life of a newbie "gangster" lol. He was being taught how to snatch people's hat on the road. We were now on the free way. I saw him drive past a parked car then he came back around and drove backwards and stole his hat. The guy was completely clueless.


Dream fragment 4, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was walking with this guy. I suspect he was the first guy I told about "life's dream". We were going past this market place. These people were informing people on what gives diarrhea. They wanted us to buy their product so they kept hassling us. We politely declined. They brought these impersonators. They acted like they were ninjas. They hit the stranger I was with. At first he didn't bother do anything but ignore them. He got mad and did some weird move and took out the guy, put him to sleep, and he kicked the girl as a warning. He was supposed to be Bruce Lee's son.


Dream fragment 5, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid and I was being trained in the dream, flying skills. I was told to fly around a river or a lake, but the color of the water looked like tropical water, light baby blue. It was a beautiful scenery. The mountains rose up high, the fresh air hits the skin, the trees, and the sound of the water. It was a harmonious place. I tried going up at first it felt more like a 0-gravity. I never felt it but I was barely flying. I was spinning around while trying to go a couple of feet. I started to use my will to control myself, I think the body of water also influenced me. I can't swim for a long period of time, but it was pure willpower. I aligned my body first. After it was straight I felt like I could fly normal. I didn't fly like the superman. I had my hands backwards, unlike superman. I flew around with ease and it felt natural. Of course this is not my first time flying in a lucid dream, but this time I did it with ease.


Dream fragment 6, from 4:30am-6:07am"": The dream changed. I was less aware of myself, but I was still a little aware and I felt like I could do anything I wanted. Me and a couple of people were on a mountain around Chile. I saw this military truck passing by on the mountain. It had bio-hazard mark on it. I thought it would be cool to try and use telekinesis. I looked at the truck and lifted my hand. I aimed my right arm pointing at the truck with my hands( like iron man). I clenched my fist and the truck exploded. It was decently far away, but I saw this nuke go off. It was a small nuke but I could see the shock wave coming towards us. The mushroom cloud was rising up high and spreading through the air. Since the truck was at a lower level elevation and far away the cloud was rising up to us. The shock wave was still coming for us. Once it hit, we were on the ground. None of us died. I said sorry to the crowd. They said it was nothing. The mushroom cloud disappeared. We started smelling this rubber burning smell mixed with something else. It was horrible. It was making it harder to breath. We tried to run away but we were coughing like crazy. We glitched on the map we couldn't pass a certain boundary. I told my self just like a game I can leave, so I did.


Dream fragment 7, from 4:30am-6:07am"": I was now semi-lucid again and flying. The clarity in this dream increased drastically. I was back in the training area with the body of water. I was flying when I became semi-lucid. I was enjoying the flight around the lake until I saw my family next to this little bridge on top of the lake. They were walking on the water. They told me to join them. I never consciously walked on the water I thought. I believed that I could do it. I started lower my self to the water. My feet went through it and I felt the water. I flew up again and thought about my experience with solids and how they behave. I told myself I never sank through a solid before. I then told myself to believed that the water will now act like any other solid I ever experienced. I put my foot on the water again, this time I landed without going through it. I started running around the body of water like a madman all happy. I saw these fishes underneath me. I was blown away by the spectacular moment that I am experiencing, I had a little doubt. I noticed my doubt right away and reinforced belief. But my mother said,"watch he is going to fall inside". When I heard her I fell immediately. I didn't sink though I instead started to fly away. It was hard at first because of my unbelief after sinking in. I reminded myself flying before and I started to fly. I went up very slowly and dramatically. My hands raised to my stomach like dragon ball z characters. I asked my mom why she said that. She responded, "You were going to fall anyways. I didn't do anything."