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#284 - SSILD - 4:45ish?

I had a natural WBTB way early at around 12:44AM but went ahead and took my Amino Acid Blend. I intended to SSILD but passed out too hard, too fast.

I have several vivid NLDs but only remember one where I was still married to my wife but was also dating an ex girlfriend. Apparently, they were both fine with it all and I felt strong love and affection for both of them simultaneously.

When I woke from that I berate myself and managed some proper SSILD cycles

I am on a beach with my wife and kids that I think of being some part of Charleston, SC. I swim into the water with my older daughter and quickly notice that this part of the ocean is bathtub warm and very brown. Disgusting.For some reason I start taking video of my daughter with my phone in the water. There's some vertigo and I feel like I may drown.

After a lot of struggle I manage to get back on shore. I spot an area where the water is clear and blue with white sand and palm trees. We decide that's a better spot and swim out into it. I see some smaller kids playing on some structure in shallow water. My son is among them and he is smiling at me. I tell him 'Hi' as I pass by. I come to a rock formation and climb up it. After closer inspection, I notice all of this is a man made pool that looks like beach and ocean. I look around and think maybe we are in some part of inland bay area. I pull my phone out to check the GPS. Google Maps confirms my suspicion and I use a type of Street View function to teleport to a road that leads to the actual beach.

As we walk, I notice the streets are full of water. I question how there can be any flooding and look up at the sky. There are very dark storm clouds coming inland. As I look out toward the sea, I see a terrible storm approaching with many tornadoes on the water. I shout, "Hurricane!" at my daughters and try to get them to run with me. My younger daughter is too scared and hides in a rack of clothing like in a department store.

I think it was the tornadoes or maybe the clothes rack on the sidewalk, but I realize this must be a dream. I still feel the need to get everyone out of the area but I feel like I can't move and my daughter still won't cooperate. I hear a woman's voice over an intercom saying some warning about the Hurricane. I feel a need to escape and have a moment where the dream fades to black. I calm myself and focus on the dream to avoid the void.

I look at Google Maps again and see several red dots that I think must represent my wife and whoever else I came with. They seem to be back where I was earlier and I remember that I teleported.If I teleported here I can teleport someplace else. I still feel the need to bring everyone with me but decide I should just let them go. I have to remind myself its just a dream.

I play with Google Maps some more and zoom out and rotate. I see the area and note the general shape of the coast line to compare it with the actual waking map. I see lettering marking the names of areas but it's all in some strange form of Spanish that I cannot even try to remember (Probably just gibberish). I zoom out some more and notice the area I am on is separated by a something like a river. I find this a little confusing but let it go.

I zoom way out and let my mind wander. I find something like a small isolated continent divided into two countries. I zoom on the right side and see it's labeled Somalia. I zoom on the left side and it's labeled Burma. I decide Burma might be nice even-though I know this map is all wrong.

I am not sure on the mechanics of this mode of teleportaton so I don't try. I just focus on seeing landscapes and let my mind bring what it wants. I see some empty beach, then something like an arid, yellowish, crag with steam shooting out. It makes me think of kind of sulfuric fumarole. I don't want any part of that so I continue searching but I lose lucidity.

I find myself sitting on a cushion at a low table with three Arabic men. There is a meal before us and we begin eating while engaging in conversion. I dish myself something that looks like the end of a very large octopus tentacle. It's cooked and split partially in half like the bread at Subway. There is some red meat inside that looks like beef and I put some sort of sauce on it. As I eat I vividly notice the texture and not so much the taste; it's something like tough marshmallows. I soon wake up.

By the way, I was really close with my view of the coast line. It's not quite Charelston but it's really close. I've never been here nor do I recall ever looking it up.

Also, it's interesting that I have thought of using a method of teleporting before but never tried it. Though, the dream set me up for it this time, I think it is something I could perfect... hopefully.

Then she(Mrs.S_____) talks about it during during the Super Bowl. She gives the class some good examples such as a elegant black bull, and some bad ones like a dog with it's nuts showing. The words reality and check appear on the board as she talks about how bad the Super Bowl have been doing animal nudity. I begin to suspect that something is awry and my fired aswim tells me that this is a dream, I do a nose RC and I fail. The scene immediately changes into my old apartment. We have just moved in, my mom and dad are setting the router up they say it has cgi capable and has only 3 CC's. I trie to make the sun appear, but I blink, the computer I am staring at changes color. I attempt to stabilize by rubbing my hands and feeling the carpet, they both fail, And I try to record the color the crashed website had in dairy but it cost $2.60 to buy the color.
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In this dream I move into a futuristic house with my whole family. It has a very good monitoring system and excellent luxury, my bother and I play with it. I also tire to make a vibrating bed.

In this dream I am at a family reunion with my cousins brother and a bunch of other relatives.
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In this dream I invent a taper recorder that can travel in time and to a limited extent, space. Doctor Who is also in this dream. For some reason my device has inspired a person to teach her daughter a interactive history about the plauge using this machine. It fails and then Zombie clowns invade my high school, sir some reason the woman tries to go towards the zombies because they are truth tellers or something. The doctor tries to save her but she keeps going towards the zombies.
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In this dream I am arrested for stealing something. As I am flown to jail, my mom offer me some last minutes with my guinea pigs, I agree. Then I am off to my jail ward, hoping for a female "companion". Then after a couple of days I plan on killing the prison guards, everyone agrees with my plan and we kill the guards. A magical flying card posses their dead bodies innards and all for valentines(for their wives of course). I get back in jail for 4 years but I tell my mom that I will there for more like a single year or half a year, she makes the same offer as before.

today i dreamt i was in captain tsubasa's mind they ended
their game against meiwa, i saw wakashimazu sitted on the grass
and i went near him, he was depressed and told him "you're a good goalkeeper"
Then i saw that video playing "Captain tsubasa drive shoot" in my head, exactly as it was on youtube.
the same music playing along when tsubasa is mad.

Fact: I started to watch this series again, maybe it's why my subconscious showed me this


Dream elements:

-captain tsubasa anime series

Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 7 hours

Let's try to belt this out in less than 10 minutes. Here we go. I had a dream in which I was captured by a group of people who claimed to be my family. I knew that they were not, but they were kind and gentle with me in all things. In fact, they spoiled me with their kindness, and so I allowed myself to remain in their home. The house was old and quite tall. It had a large backyard with muddy grass and a patio, along with steps that led into the front door. I dreamed the family was composed of a mute older woman, a boistrous and generous "mother", and an even more loudly generous "father". The house was in a relatively large town, but not quite a city. I stayed inside mostly to play video games.

In a video game, someone had messaged me while I was playing a game of sorts. The mysterious messager quickly became a friend of mine, there was a kind of wild rebelliousness about him that I was attracted to in the dream. Later, he told me that I was important to a certain group of people, and that it was cruel of them to keep me. He asked me to step outside at night, on a certain day while the night market was open. I did so, and enjoyed the night market alone. The night market was basically chinatown in Toronto, filled with lights and food and open doors filled with interesting knick-knacks as well as markets for all sorts of asian cuisines. I went to a traditional chinese medicine store and bought a few herbs I liked in order to drink when I got home.

As I was going "home", a stranger approached me. I knew immediately it was the Kind Man, this time in the role of a skeevy looking man with dark hair and a dangerous look to his eye. He smiled to me, with slight sharp, fanged teeth. He approached me and introduced himself as my online friend, and said he had much to tell me. He led me away to another area, of which I do not have the time to describe. There we talked about the fact I was being held for the purpose of others, and he would like to introduce me to what they were hiding me from. He led me to anoher's house, and told me that we were going on a hunt.

I don't have the time to explain exactly how, but we ended up killing a small child who lived alone in a house, which was later explained to me to be actually an old monster that took the form of a human. My internet friend (the Kind Man) consumed the person, in such a manner that I understood instinctively that while the Kind Man was merely acting out a role of the dream, he was totally able to stop at any time and chose not to for reasons I do not know. Later on, he led me back home where he told me that I was the "key" to something to open and that it was important, also he warned me of the people who were holding me. He told me that if they found out about him, they would surely kill him without hesitation.

Awesome I can edit this. Anyways, when we came back to the house, he had found some entrails in the backyard. Almost compulsively, he went to take out a bit of intestine and stuck it in his mouth, chewing idly. He told me that the entrails were of the same species as his prey, and this is likely a warning to him to stay away from me. He smiled a bit and told me that it is a foolish waving of power in attempts to ward him off. I know in the dream I was meant to be afraid of him, because he was this murderous cannibalizing monster that was cruel and yet enchanting. However, because I knew it was the Kind Man and he knew that I was just a dreamer, it felt more like a game of pretend than anything else.

After he spoke from me, we heard someone inside asking if anyone was there. I dove under the backyard porch, covered in slick mud. The other man snuggled up with me, trying to hide with me. When the person inside, the loud "father" checked under the porch, the Kind Man barreled past him and made his run for it. I pretended to not know any better. I knew the "father" was calling my bluff, but warned me to not interact with that man anymore, as he is a serial killer murderer and cannibal, and told me to go back to my games. Later on, when they thought I was asleep, I later heard the "mother" and the "father" discussing reviewing my games as I play them, in order to make sure no one they didn't want to was interacting with me through the medium. I woke up shortly after that.

2.18.14 Tuesday

Last night, bed shortly after 11pm - 9:45am

11pm seems to be my magic hour for good recall.

DR 9:45am

I'm with a large group of people. Something is going on. Revolution or something similar. I'm looking for some ammo. I'm finding lego pieces, but no ammo. I know I have some BB pelets somewhere, and right now, I would be happy with them, if no real ammo.

I'm walking on a street, side by side with another person, and crowds are walking behind us. There is a guy coming towards us. He doesn't look threatening, bu we just don't know. Just to be sure, I raise my pistol so he knows that I'm vigilant and he better don't pull any crap.

I'm in a small room. Old men is on the bed. This other person I came with is talking to him, and I scoot closer as well. He seems to be the old leader of the group that we are leaders of now. He seems to be very nice, kind and benevolent.

There was a concert in the park at night and our lady peace was playing. They were playing songs from clumsy and a group had gathered to watch them perform. A girl wearing a joker hat and two other people who I couldn't see there heads were lying under a tree. They had microphones and and were singing. A camera man filmed them and the lead singer, I think his name is raine, was singing with them. Then the band left to go in a huge apartment building. It was my building I believe and I was climbing the spiral staircases but there were so many people and I was angry because they didn't even know who the band was. Somehow they were just there because they heard everybody was going to be there. I got to the top and I ran out on the rooftop of the building. Everybody was inside but I busted out if the doors at top speed and was running to jump off the top of the building because I wanted to kill myself. I face planted right before the ledge and slid to it just grabbing on in time to stop myself from falling. I laid on my back in shock and raine came out and laid next to me. He rested his head on my chest and sang a song to me as watched the stars in the night sky.

I was going about my business in this giant hotel with my barbor shop group but the only difference was I wasnt there with them I was just there. I went around talking to different random people and then I wanted to go to my room but I couldnt find my door. I knew the number of the door but not the floor. I went searching all over the place but had no luck. I finally came across a different persons door and knocked on it. It was a co-worker of mine I went in and chatted away with them and realized how much we had in common. We talked and talked and then one thing led to another and we ended up in bed. I began to freak out and so did she as we both have a boyfriend / girlfriend. We talked it over to see what we were going to do and decided to give it a while to think it over. I went to work like place for a while and my boss came over and fired me. I was shocked he had given me no reason just said please leave. I walked out and asked the security company if i can get a job with them again and they talked it over and said yes you can here is your unifiorm. I put it on and just kept working. I went out to a lake and found my coworker out there we began to talk and she was saying how she wants to be with me and that I fulfill her needs more than her current boyfriend. I was still thinking it over and couldnt give her an answer. One of her friends swam over and started saying she had to go becaues somebody was drowning in the lake next to us. But I said i would go but when i got out of the lake there was no more lake to be seen.

Random dream bits

Was in a dinnig room place being a waiter got paid in dineros or how ever you spell that I then in turn paid somebody else with it.

I was outside of an airport and there were weird planes flying around and some of them were made of a fabric like a kite but still flew fine.

So I am going through a roundabout where I have a vision of a website saying something about beleiving the dream will guide itself how you want it. I try this but lose focus for a nanosecond ruining it. Then I was finding a group working for a villian thinking of saving the victims and backstabing. The dream told me I my dc's soul mate ( a totm thing) and I think mine is the same person. Now I just have to ask

was I right.

I was driving at 130 mph trying to do a jump but then bam into a tree. Later I fell of a thing and got saved by video game characters.


swimming

Failing at playing music even though Im actually really good at that. Then onto a white school bus with a magic door where you play emo games in your mind, hoping nobody finds out about your obsessions.

Well in my dreamIt was exposed ground and then it ,bam snowing out (just because I was here but non-lucid) while I was in my car so as my father drove up the hill I skiid up the car while the car was going up the hill. Clipping through the passenger seat. I assume that I was skiing sort of. Then after the car slid back down the hill which I thought would be scary but wasn't. I ended up at a nearby arcade that was super unstable layout

1. [Non-Lucid] [Felt Aware Somewhat]
I'm in some place, the floor is made of dark old wood planks and seems wobbly.
I'm in my wheelchair and I became stuck because of 3 steps...so I thought screw it and jumped the steps, when I hit the floor my wheels felt like they buckled under the pressure , but they seemed fine as I drove away.

Side Notes:
In this dream I felt like I was actually there as if I had very low awareness, I don't think I had any control.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I think I'm in a game, something like GTA SA or IV, Me and 2 others are in this small compound, we have each picked a car.
Now we have to run away and not get caught, (It is night time, its quite dark) I decided to hide behind these houses I found so I turned my lights off and reversed out of sight.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm on a coach, I'm inspecting the seat in front of me (Its facing sideways, Its light gray, I take note that it has no armrests, I thought it would be cool to sit there to see better through the windscreen).

Not sure if its the same dream but, Me, Mum and a few others find a restaurant so we enter, upon entering I notice the carpet (Very faded, ^ shaped patterns colored various colors), We turn left and walk over to a low table and sit down.
We are eating something, I don't know what.

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Possible dream signs:
Mum, Stairs

bedtime 01:30 (late late late! argh)

+ my right foot was stuck in the mouth of a walrus

+ (memorable long one!) my search for my former colleague AG at some company led me through a golf driving range, creepy dark underground claustrophobic pipes/rooms, an Indian restaurant where I was the only customer (I left and returned immediately and the waiter had removed all the tables in the room, "wow he's fast!" I thought), a dangerous equipment testing ground (run by AG's group, his group is playing a prank on me leading me around on a hunt to find them) where they burn the equipment at high temperature (I want to get out of there fast), an encounter with a creepy but buxom and sexy succubus doing her best to tempt me into her lair (it was close but her B/O turned me off as I got close, I took control then and asked what her story was, it turned out she had been badly burned), attempting to escape the island in a car via the only road out past corrupt police in the pay of the company, climbing over glass backyard fences, and finishing at a beautiful sea-side scene where I thought I saw a manatee by the water but it turned out to be a palm trunk, and where I had outsmarted some mid-level drug dealers landing in a boat and battled hand (me) versus knife (him) with their leader, falling through a glass ceiling and crying blood tears (falling down in front of me) in order to protect our eyes.

I asked the succubus (this is my waking term for her, in the dream she was just a creepy/sexy woman trying to lure me to her). I'm thinking "why not?" kind of mesmerised by her very large chest, and as I'm coming in to her I catch a whiff of quite strong body door, which snaps me out of my desire, I take control at that point, and start asking her questions, "so what's with you? Why are you here? Were you hurt? Were you sick?". and as I get closer to her she unwraps her (black, kind of fishnet-stocking-like clothing), and shows me the burns on her head and torso. She slinks off into her inner lair still beckoning to me but I don't follow, I know the results will be bad.

With the drug dealer he unwraps the delivery from my team and only about 4 packs (of drugs presumably) fall out, he says "hey where's the rest, there usually is 20!?", I'm smug I know my team has earned money at this mid-level dealer's expense, the drug kingpins are waiting on the shore (this guy's team is in a boat approaching the shore) for the delivery, he comes out brandishing a knife and we fight.

late morning BTB:
Very awake at about 7:30-08:00. Uncomfortable in all positions. Start daydreaming, hoping to drift off into dreams again, too alert, daydreaming gets too stimulating, I think about getting out of bed for the day, I decide no, "you have to want it like you want to breathe," and I want more chances at lucidity, so I gather my will and clear my mind and relax, and soon I'm asleep again!

+ in a house with some friends, having cocktails before bed, joining a middle-aged woman in a robe heading to the living room, "why not, as long as there are snacks" I say, I'll have a cocktail or two, the snacks might be dim-sum, there's not much left.

+ there was a halloween celebration, some adults, some kids, I think about shooting something into a basket hanging from the ceiling like basketball, I don't as it might break the baskets, I think it would be rude to seduce the daughter of my hosts after they've shown me such hospitality, I just flirt with her lightly.

+ someone sees a picture I'm holding including a high school friend (real one), they tell me he has become a University professor, I ask "in Chemistry?" they say yes, I find that a false memory friend ("Andy Grove", actually is a real guy, the former CEO of Intel) has become a professor in Computer Science, I visit his office and see his nameplate, people are complaining that new office equipment required them to throw out all old, incompatible equipment and replace it with new, compatible equipment, I see someone taking away an armload of the old equipment.

+ sitting next to a man at a restaurant at his table, there are lots of open tables nearby, I'm thinking something about this man, I think I visited his table before.

+ a recliner bed had been broken /burned. I witnessed the burn up close lying on the ground, there was small smoke/fire, I see two thin black horizontal burn marks running the entire front of the bed/couch, we go looking for the maintenance guy, we find him holding garden shears (golden?), he comes and fixes it by putting in a long 2x4, the bed used to recline individually half-and-half but now with the long board in it it will only recline as a whole unit.

Morning of February 18, 2014. Tuesday.



The environment in this dream starts out in an atypical and ambiguous location. It is the southwest corner of the living room on Duffy Street. It is different in that a bed is in the space. Also, there is the area from my sister’s older living room in Wisconsin (Loomis Street), as well as the front hallway and porch of our Barolin Street house. Such composites are very common for me (although as I said, this particular one is atypical) but always seem very unusual and “obvious” in afterthought - as the sleeping mind never picks them up in my experience other than rarely. As such, the compass points are usually rendered nonviable or pointless (pun intended). This time I have included the implied compass points in each (more focused) part of the composite (in the image) to note the diversity.

What I have noticed here is that the Australian parts of the composite are compatible in orientation although the American section is reversed to the others (regarding real life orientation). This is probably not a “rule” but does seem more common than not. Sometimes I think that composites of this nature are not that important - the mind just mashes everything together just to make a jury-rigged “stage” for more important concerns. However, in the past, I have discovered, of course, all other types of composites (including common composite precognition) are very meaningful in the nuances of hybrid aspects. For the most part, I have not quite worked out the higher aspects of locational mashups in some dreams with more atypical superimpositions (as this one) relating to memory, though I have in others. I do believe such things are important in other levels of continuity, just more elusive than most. (For example, my sister has just passed away recently, yet her “living room” is the only composite facet of this dream).

Why is our bed located in the additional living room and near the entertainment center’s shelf (which was on the opposite side of the living area in real life - my computer setup had only been there in reality)? Perhaps because even though we can be “at rest”, we are still “living”. This may be related to the black male ghost who also sleeps in our bed (who does not know he has died) at times. Regarding the Barolin porch, this was a huge porch (and enclosed with beautiful stained-glass “church windows”) compared to our present smaller fully open one. It was so large that you could look into the darkness from one side and not see the other side very clearly at night, and there was a sense of expansion. It was very good for deep meditation of the kind which actually causes sudden body-wide intense “skin pain” when even a very soft noise occurs to disrupt the state (even a leaf hitting the ground outside) - otherwise it is a very positive experience.

The somewhat athletic-appearing male that is staying with us is probably around forty at the most. At first, I do not even know he is a ghost, as he seems very much alive with a real physical body and has no “ghostly powers” of any kind. He is resting in our bed but leaves a bit later to go to work, I believe - but seems somewhat negative about the potential outcome of the day. We talk a few times and he seems friendly but somewhat sad or disappointed with recent events in his “life”. The information that he is a ghost comes later. He had been staying with us for about a week or so with his young daughter (who is alive, by the way). His wife is also alive, but not a direct character in the dream. There is a photograph of her seated on a large sailboat. I am not sure how he died. It seems he may have died while saving his wife and daughter from drowning. The daughter sits at a table with my sister (who I believe is still alive in the dream) and is also looked after by my wife.

This scenario seems ambiguous. If the wife is still alive and knows her husband is gone, why would the living daughter now be with the father’s ghost - and at a stranger’s house at that? Near the later stages of the dream, there is debate about whether we should tell him that he has actually died or wait until later on, relative to his “readiness” in learning of this.

In the most vivid scene, I am on the Barolin porch part of the composite home and the male suddenly appears, in much smaller form (only the top of the head first appearing), appearing from near the doorway of the hallway, rising up from the floor and becoming his normal size once he has finished rising from the floor as he is seemingly walking naturally (while rising) that whole time. (This reminds me somewhat of the scene from an old Casper comic book but greatly enhanced - where a very small timid ghost suddenly grows to giant size to scare someone and then returns to normal later on. The implications are nothing like the dream scene, though, but somehow “triggered” in memory as such. There is also a sort of “reversal” of this from another Casper comic where I believe an ogre gets smaller and smaller with the implication he is going faster in his escape.)

The man’s daughter had seemed happy. I am not sure how she views the situation or if even she knows her father is a ghost. Even though he had risen from the floor while changing size, I still do not think he knows he is a ghost. I believe he is somehow going into a different realm, thinking he is still living his life as before while there. Perhaps the task is to have the daughter back with the living mother and reveal to the male that he may move on (fully) into the spirit realm, whatever/wherever that may be.

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I found this dream very interesting, i was at a big hall, and played some kind of sport with my team and against another team. There was balls on the floor, green and red. I was playing for the green side. There was really many balls on the floor, and the mission was to protect our balls, the green ones to not reaching the basketball hoop. And our mission was of course to take the red balls and throw them in the basketball hoop to get a score. I don't think we won actually.

But after the game, everyone was going to take a shower. There was a blue design, and very modern kind of showers and the rooms. Someone on the other team told me that i should be glad that he isn't that stupid outside of the game. I was going to get my towel, but i had like 10 of them in my bag lol. I was kind of lost in this big hall, and the dream kind of faded here, BUT
it wasn't over yet. I saw a girl in the hall, and the dream changed. It's hard to explain the rest, but i was some kind of "Lost boy" and i saw a family that noticed me. There was 2 girls in the family that talked about me, one of them was pretty cute, and i didn't really care about the other one. And the dream faded and i got another interesting one!

The dreamometer
I was talking about dreams in the dreams with someone, and i saw a meter that began to fill, and we said that we only had this time to dream on, like that's what the memory could handle before the dream fades. When the meter was full, my sister entred the room irl and woke up kind of interesting

18.02.2014

Lavaland RPG: Join my party or get hung! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm in some sort of RPG like videogame and have bunch of people in my party. We are in some kind of lavaworld.
A giant white bone as big as a multistory building stood in front of us, pointing at the sky. I think it was a rib.
On top of it were 3 bad guys and the lava beneath it was slowly rising (which appearently had something to with a Slayer song. I don't know..)
Slowly the rib became the only place not covered by lava so we climbed up.
We somehow made it to the top where the 3 bad guys are and I tried to convince them to join my party. One of the guys fell down into the lava at some point. The other 2 didn't want to join my party.

I opened some menuscreens and used them to improve a skillpoint of one of the bad guys or I gave him an item, I'm not sure. Somehow it did make him be a member of my party though.
I checked his inventory which worked like the inventory in Minecraft. He had a lot of useless single blocks in there and I remember he had a nether block, a pickaxe and raw materials to make more pickaxes.

Someone of my party asked what to do about the last bad guy. Someone said "hang him".
A tutorial window popped up to tell me how to hang a character.
The same guy that suggested the hanging said: "Just do some stuff, choose a songfile to play while he gets hung and done."
I close the tutorial windows and another one appears to browse my music files.