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apr.5 2014

last night bed 10 - 4:50

3 long and detailed dreams, yeeeey!

Woke up after them and quickly replayed in my mind before promptly falling asleep again.

DR 1
Friend of mine is studying bugs at school. She is all about bugs. She sais it's not so bad, all the do at school is eat them and learn about them.

She is showing them to me ALL the time. She has dead grasshoppers on a stick and she is like pretend tickling me or trying to scare me. I'm not scared of bugs. But having dead bugs all over me is something I don't appreciate. So I swat at them and then I looked and the green/yellow goo from them is smeared all over my sleeves. I'm mad. Then she makes me taste them. Don't taste good. It goes on and on and on.

DR2
I'm an astronaut with 2 others in the space station or shuttle. We are about to return to Earth. Dangerous manuever, and I think there is only place for 2, or 1 has to stay behind to push the button or something. We are all fighting over who is gonna do it, because we all wanna sacrifice ourselves.

We are about to put on our spacesuits hanging on a wall. I wanna use the potty real quick before I get dressed. I tell them "if you wanna lock me out and save me, while I go potty, well then, be stupid like that, you just gonna die".

I go to potty, which is on the end of a long and narrow tiled hallway. I'm doing my business, when I hear someone is using a stall in the adjacent room. I'm like "great, now they gonna see my ass".

DR3
kidnapped girl, shooting, older couple, shotgun - will finish after work.

There is a shootout on the street. The shooter escapes into the house. A clack girl is kidnapped. I go inside after her. I'm sneaking through the backyard. I see the bad guy through some vines and bushes. He is sitting on a chair at an outdoor table.He is looking around and I duck so he can't see me. There is danger in the air, but i'm not scared.

I find the girl and help her go across this low concrete fence. I tell her to crowl. She throws herself to the ground and starts to "crawl" 2 feet of the ground, as if swimming. I'm thinking "not THAT crawl".

We make it out of there. Back in safety, I realize that the older couple in the house must have also been taken hostage. So I take a shotgun and go get them.

Here we go... it was a month without this nightmare showing up....

I'm ready for jogging.
It's evening and, as I'm starting to run, I think I have to go faster, as that THING could find me.
After a little while it starts to rain. It's a light rain, so I decide to go on.
I'm going up a hill now, it rains stronger and I start to be scared as I feel something is following me.
I can't see anything behind me, but I know IT hides itself behind trees and shadows.
I'm totally soaked. I see a house and I think I would gain some time running through that house, so I step in through an open window.
The room is a kind of Library, but as soon as my feet touch the ground, I notice it is flooded.
The water reaches my knee and it's hard to run there.
I think I can't die now, as I'm supposed to read all the books in that room.
That though makes me stronger and I keep running.
I keep opening doors and doors. The rooms are all the same, sort of Libraries, but every room is more flooded than the previous one.
Now water reached my hips and there are some creatures swimming around me.
Also I heard something stepped on from the window I came in, and I'm sure IT is closer now.
I start to panic but I can't run faster, as water reduces my speed.
Also there are those creatures, kind of alive seaweeds and big fishes, wrapping and brushing my legs.
I'm horrorized every time they touch me, but finally I'm able to get out of that house through another window.
It rains really strongly now, I can't see where I'm going, and that THING almost reached me.
I feel IT one step behind me. I can't stop and I'm panicking more, and I feel IT is going to catch me.
IT is a kind of enormous sheet. Floating in the air and trying to wrapping me.
As soon as he gets closer, I feel IT touching my legs and arms, and every time it envelops me more.
At the end IT is all around me. No rain anymore, but the wind blows between the sheet, preventing me to run without stumbling.
There's nothing else than that sheet around me, IT slams and bangs and beats and flaps all around me.
I feel frightful and run faster, but it is so awful and apaling and I'm so damn tired that all I want is surrender.

I always wake up in the same way, sitting in my bed, totally sweat, with goosebumps, and with my hand on my heart pounding like crazy.
I always wake up when I feel like surrender, but I never saw the end of the nightmare.

A man sits in a still burning wrecked car trying to get the attention of the shopkeeper across the street but he doesn't reply. Frustrated the man, let's call him Nick, calls out to a friend and a few seconds later a man we will call... Bob appears.
Nick and Bob start bickering for a short bit and the scene changes with Bob saying; let's start your next lesson!

The three of us (Nick and Bob still haven't acknowledged me) are standing on a cliff with a view over an ocean. Bob is going to learn Nick how to fly a car. Between them is the wrecked car Nick was in before, no longer burning. Apparently teleportation is a great way to put out fires.
Nick gets in the car while Bob starts waving his arms around like a magician. He says to Nick he will get the car flying and that he has to take over.
Bob then turns to me still waving his arms and tells me he is using telikineses to get the car going up. It's much like controlling a marionette.
He then turns his attenttion back to Nick who's pretty high and far up in the sky now. Bob drops his marionette act and we wait.
The second Bob dropped his hands the car starts falling down and Nick knows he's got no control what so ever and decides to jump out of the car.

- Does Nick know how to fly?
- Hmm, no I don't believe he does.

At the last second I see Nick trying to grap something and a parachutepack appears on his back. The chute deploys.
Nick gently lands near the coastline and we assume he's OK. Bob simply jumps of the cliff, being the badass pro LDer he is.
I decide to jump after them using the parachute I just assume I have on whilst I jump. But it doesn't deploy on time and I crash into the ocean. I get above water but a wave pours water down my throat making it difficult to breath. I'm suddenly aware of my clothes and as I get more aware of them the start getting heavier. Eventually I drown and wake up being short of breath for a moment.

1. [Non-Lucid] [False Awakening]
Before I fell asleep I thought to myself I'm going to go look at my phone, I fall asleep before I get the chance, then in a dream I pick up my phone and use it...I wake up so confused then proceed to actually use my phone.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm laying in my bed and I open my eyes, theirs a guy in my room doing something, wasn't scared of him as he seemed friendly...for some reason I'm laying on bags of sweets like Haribo or something.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I was in like a sewer system or something with other people and we may be looking for a way out...there are overhead signs telling us what's where, we find a gate with stairs going up behind it, i go open it and some guy opens fire with a machine gun, I quickly get out of the way intact.

04.04.2014

The Guy with the Axe and Gun (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I wake up, and found myself in an environment that looks exactly like the area I'm currently residing in waking life. Green walls, a bed that's slightly elevated more than usual, and the same material of dark gray carpet.

I'm gradually becoming more aware that this is a dream, feeling the slight blurry echo effects as I'm moving about inside the house. I hear footsteps coming near the house's entrance, and I immediately motioned myself near it.

I peek through the hole, and I see a Caucasian male that has dark brown hair, is wearing a yellow polo shirt that's untucked, along with regular blue worker jeans. He's wielding an axe with his right hand I believe, and he's knocking on the door, and spends a few seconds waiting before knocking again.

I quickly turn in the other direction, wondering where I could find a weapon in case this guy has ill intentions in mind. I decided I should check the other bedroom diagonally to the left of me for something. I hear the knocking, but I try to not let it intimidate me since they couldn't possibly come in.

Completely wrong.

I hear the door open, and because I couldn't find something to protect myself, and because I was too fixated on the emotions of fear and panicking, I ended up making horrible decisions, and decided to try and hide under a bed.

Too bad the bottom of the bed barely had any space for me to hide under, and it would only be a matter of time for the person to find me there even if I could hide under there.

The individual is getting closer and closer, and he's raising his shoulders up while having his arms at a lop-sided "L" position with the axe, and a gun as well. My perspective starts getting a bit weird, and it feels like I'm seeing things at a slanted angle now, almost as if I'm about to fall down.

The guy is walking pretty slowly, and the blurry echoes become more prevalent, but I'm too bothered by what may happen rather than attempting to change the dream environment.

I wake up, because it doesn't seem anything was going to change at the time.

This one is pretty fuzzy, and I only remember a few flashes other than a part near the middle that I remember better. I remember something sexual towards the beginning of the dream, but only a few brief images. Then there was apparently some villain, but that's really all I remember.

Near the middle of the dream, I was in my house with a large fishtank in front of my fireplace. My cat Trixie was there, along with another cat we had gotten that looked identical. We apparently had just bought two more that ALSO looked the same, but these were specially bred "aquatic" cats. I picked them up out of the carrier they were in and put them into the full fishtank, where they started swimming around underwater, breathing just fine as if they were fish. Trixie and the other normal cat were curious and pawed at the glass. I eventually took the cats out and let them run around the house, but then I got confused and mixed up all the cats. To fix it, I just said Trixie's name and she meowed. My mom, my three little cousins and I just kinda hung out with the cats for a while, and we played with what I think was a remote control helicopter. That's about it.

Some clowds were in my room and they fell down from the seiling. Thought its strange and made RC. remembered about easter egg - summon it under the stairs. I took it and put on the table. It was with some picture. I opened the eggshell and there was ordinary boiled egg. I cut it to explore wat was inside - ordinary boiled vitellus. I gave up the egg and tried to remember other tasks but couldn't.

My gates were opened and i thought that its so strange... i made RC. Thought to transformed into a dragon again. summon pills in my pocket. There were 4 pills and i put them in the mouth. I ate two and must chew others. I felt the transformation. There was a big mirrow and i went to look at myself. I was a woman with the lizard head. I thought that partial transformation is also good. I flew away and was flying above the sea and suddenly landed on the bank. There were some guys and i went with them to cafe.

So I was in it in a way. It works like this. You have to parkour and fight at the same time. The enimes are all medival like with the power of aura and such. You get whatever you want though. Anyways it looked like mirrors edge without all the red-white-ness. You walk up circular stairs, using bars andpipes as shortcuts which you will need to use to reach the boss in time. So yeah it was a bright silver color and sunny feeling when cloudy. There's fog too. There's also traps, one of which I fell into. It loked like a minecraft mod. So yeah. There are freindly and hostile spies that are difficult to distinguish, but when one almost gets me, I get saved twice. So yeah, Super jumping was fun, but I dont remember much else.

Everybody has their off days, right? ;D

Dream - fricking titles how do they work
so let's see

I dreamed somethin' about Granny getting adjusted to bein' in an old folk's home, which is a IWL thing. Bummer, dude. But the interesting bits that I remember aaarreeee~

- reading the titles of books on a bookshelf, which is cool (indicates a good amount of detail)
- gettin' mad at my bro and calling something of his or maybe calling him a "stupid retard" or "stupid retarded" or idk, I felt bad right away and woke up feeling bad and then went OH WAIT I can just go in the other room and apologize in person! and then I was like wait, no, I can't ;-;

there was tons of other stuff but EH. lately my dreams haven't had as much uhh, presence? not so much me making the decisions. I wake up and don't even remember that I was in a dream, which is kinda sucky. geez, what do I call it. I've had dreams where I wasn't lucid but I was still present; maybe not enough to reason out or remember that I'm in a dream, but enough to carefully choose what I'll do next. and other dreams I'm just on auto-pilot and it's irritating. hrmph.

Time to catch my DV up. I gotta be more consistent

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2nd
Morning - Nothing to see here
Afternoon Nap - I was well hidden at the edge of a wheat field. This edge must have been at the top of an incline because I was able to peer out over top of the next area of crops. I felt as if I were waiting for someone/something to show. I definitely felt as though this was special ops stealth mission. (really seeing how the halo novels are seeping into my dreams).

3rd
Morning - Nothing to report

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4th
Morning - Another mission it seems. I had to diffuse a bomb. But in-order to do so I had to seek something out. My mode of transportation had been by helicopter. I can't remember much else.

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In my first dream I was a test subject for GladOs in an Aperture Science lab. I was going through all kinds of trials and tests. Suddenly I see Desirae and I know I'm getting rescued. Glados gets disabled and we think we won. Suddenly, she starts getting her control over the facility back. I started telling Desirae to hurry up and to help me pack. We went to the elevator where we would escape but rooms started changing and the room that we came from became some stairs. I ran into the elevator and Desirae was still packing stuff I told her it's now or never and she was still closing the last briefcase so I grabbed her hair and pulled her in right before the elevator doors closed and we started descending.
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I was in Belen running back home. I was running pretty fast. I was roomates with Katey. She went off to work and I was with a few animals and had found my laptop. I went to sleep and had a dream that I was lucid dreaming. In the dream, I was in an arid desert as a young deer or elk. I started hearing more elks appearing and I suddenly know I'm in the death realm.I hear someone say Cesar is coming and I think it's my uncle. I see another elk and ask why he's here and he doesn't wanna answer. I ask again and he gets mad. I say sorry it's my first time doing this and they tell me I can't be looking so young and so they transform me into a bigger elk. I ask something else and wake up to my dream. I rush to my laptop to write my dream down but there's animals all over my backpack where my laptop is so I yell at them and they move. There's someone at the door and I answer. Suddenly Lieutenants and Captains are doing inspections of the house. It's pretty dirty. The Captain then turns into an elk and starts mowing the front lawn with his antlers. All I care about is remembering the dream so I could write it down.
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I was in my house and talking to Desirae. I ask her if she wants to have sex but she says no that she's gonna go have sex with someone else. I get mad and ask her what she means. She says that she doesn't want to have sex with me but instead wants to go to someone else's house and have sex with them. I get even more upset and tell her to leave and I'll have sex with someone else too. I leave and go to a lake on some plains. I see on the news that there's going to be a meteor falling and a news agency from Venezuela is going to record it. I go along with the news agency and we hop on a homemade boat. We go into a place where there's a lot of shanty homes and downed planes that say something about Atlantis on them. We see a plane take off from under water. We sail around waiting and looking for when the meteor is going to fall. I was with a fat lady and the news reporter. I remember the water splashing on us and it tasted gross. Suddenly, we see the meteor coming in. We record it and it lands and we see it glow as it enters the water. I say it's probably about 20 feet or around 35/40 meters. We go towards where it landed and then the fat lady jumps in and grabs the meteor. It turns out it's bones of a small animal. The bones run away and jump into the water so I grab them again. We decide to head back so we park the boat near one of the planes and start climbing up the shanty houses. The bones suddenly turn into a white rat and Shaniqua. I put shaniqua into a container so I can throw the white rat to the house I need to jump to, where a few people are waiting. When I get back to Shaniqua, I find out I microwaved her for a few seconds. She seems confused and stupid.

Journal Entry Lucid #19 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I slept early, grandma woke me up later around 9. I then gave her medicine and went to bed.

Dream fragment 2 time 9:20pm-unkown"":
I was using a Ipad app that can let you zoom on the earth. I zoomed in and I see the city then the road then I zoomed in and i see a network of more cities and more roads. I zoomed in infinite times and I kept getting more and more. I was no longer using and I pad but my hands. I thought this is strange and I realize it was a dream.

I realized it was a dream. I ended up in one of the cities that I zoomed in at. I started rubbing my hands. I see this military general. He pointed at me. I started pointing somewhere else to distract him. It worked he looked away and started walking away. I thought haha it worked now I could go do what I want. He turned and said, "wait a minute, get him!" He commanded his tanks to point at me. I knew they were no match for me and I didn't want to start a dream war. As a tank started driving towards me. I flicked my hands aggressively and it exploded. I started flying and I saw a lake. I just wanted to compete task so I started flying away. They have already declared war, but I didn't want to fight. I see a higher ranked general show up and he hand shook the other one. I flew down and tried to shake his hand. He looked at me and I woke up The dream was in more details but I got up recalled my dream and went back to sleep without writing it out.

Journal Entry Lucid #18 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: So this is a second LD on the same night. I did a wake back to bed. I think I went to sleep around 3 o clock and woke up around 4 close to five. Well I ate some food, banana PB sandwich. I then meditated for ten min before going to bed. I had some weird dream where I tickled a lizard and it transformed into a monkey. I awoken briefly and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from time: unknown"":
I was in the UK or I thought I was. I sat next to a car to listen to a monk teach, I don't remember any of this part though. I hear someone talking. I thought I need money to get back home. I looked for an ATM. I found one but I realized I need a card to do a transaction. I see a lot of people from my Calc III class walking around. The ATM machines turned into a test taking desks. I see people on the computer. I went back to hear the monk's lectures and he was no longer there. I see people taking test in the dark. I looked for head of administrator of the test so I could take test. She told me to wait and told her students to turn off their computers for us so they won't distract us. They turned it off. The flat screen tv, the computers. She, I will call her head women, took a selfie with her students. I over hear these guys talking about a movie they finished. One guy said, "wow could you believe the ending?", the other responded, "yeah what a twist in the plot". "she got killed in her dreams and she died in real life". This man popped out of nowhere and gave head women an apple, black ugly apple. She ate it. The movie people said that is exactly what happened in the movie. She realized that she was dreaming and she was about to die. I thought that is strange it would most likely be my dream not hers. I started backing up. She looked at me and said it is your FAULT. I kept backing up and I see a group of girls that opposed her, they claimed to be on my side.

I now completely recognized that it was my dream. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize my dream as the girls fought each other. I didn't like all the negativity, and I wanted to use my new superpower telekinesis. I tried to levitate a girl, nothing. I tried again but this time I didn't doubt myself and she started floating. I was in a t-shaped hallway. I took off my shoe so that I could have a stabilization point. I felt the cold floor and it helped stabilize the dream. I then turned around and saw all theses people fighting, all girls btw. With a gesture of my hand flick, one at a time they levitated, about 15 people. I kept flicking my hands and they all levitated, even head women. One girl defined me and floated back down, I said uhh uhh uhh and I levitated her back up. I was happy that more than one person/object can be lifted and can be individually manipulated. I then wanted them out of the hallway. Very gently i opened the door with my mind and took them out.

I see these guys at the end of a hallway and one guy threaten me. I said let's make a lesson out of him. I see a bunch of male rushing out of the room scared. I was in the middle. I stopped everybody at once and levitated them. I saw that I was doing harm when I saw two guys in crunches struggling. I gently lowered them. I couldn't find the guy that threaten me, so I took everybody out of the building gently again. I then went inside and saw a scared man, big bearded man. I thought I could kill him, but then I changed my mind because it is a dream so why should I kill him. I then started flying I doubted myself for a split second and fell, slid across some Japanese building then I gained my flight again. I then remembered what I wanted to do and there was a park right next to me as well. As I was flying I hear a beautiful song being sang. I felt my eyes tearing up as I thought about death as such a beautiful thing as this. I started singing along and I went to the park. Since I didn't stabilize again I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #17 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:10pm-12:53am"":
I was being transported by a sponge bob mobile. At first an actual mobile than I was just flying. It felt weird and euphoric. I see houses, I see mist everywhere. A little sprinkle of water was falling from the sky. And somehow it clicked.

I realized it was a dream. I awoken in my house, grandma's room. It was still night time. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream. I hear a voice say, "One thing is real to you". I thought real? what like the spinning top from inception? I felt like it was talking about my RC and stabilization technique. I walked to the living room, I see my dream grandmother praying. I wanted to feel loved, so I went and hugged her. She tells me you didn't sleep at all, you should get some sleep. I kinda laughed at that in my head, I thought if only she knew what I am now capable of(since it was a dream). I then went to the garage. I see a huge fridge in the middle of the garage. I thought I could turn that into a portal. I wanted to go see Morpheus in the white room to practice telekinesis. I opened it and I see this hot model chick in Alaska or somewhere cold with a beer can the size of her body, like the advertisements. I closed it right away as to not get seduced.

I then remembered all those failed attempts at telekinesis because I want Morpheus to teach me. I then thought I could practice here. I turned and I see my friend TO. He was just observing me. I extended my arm and pointed at an object. I cringed and flexed my muscle to make it levitate. Nothing. I quickly got the doubt, by telling my self to imagine it as if it was easy. I then extended my arm and pointed at the backpack. It just floated towards me. The feeling was strange, it felt like the object was an extension of my arm. I felt the object; back and forth, up and down were just like moving an arm. I then turned and saw a luggage and I wanted to pick up two objects. I felt doubt that I could do it, but I said I could do it and it floated with the flick of my finger. I had two objects floating independently. I started moving one forwards faster than the other. I noticed my friend looking at me. I thought for some reason he is noticing that I am losing lucidity. I started rubbing my hands, of course objects fell. A female came inside the garage and she needed help putting on a glove. My friend looked at me as if I should help her. I thought I get a lot of help from DC, so why not. I go up to her and I started putting on the glove for her. It was a very strange glove. Green highlights, futuristic looking. While doing this I thought this happens a lot before I wake up, distractions. I woke up.