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I have no idea how to explain this dream. It had no narrative sense to it and a few isolated parts that are extremely vivid. This first bit is hours and hours in but the rest has faded. I was in a large open place surrounded by extremely high ciffs. The place was run by a small devil who lived in the palm of a god sized hand. I took him on and destroyed his little body. Next he turned into a fat beurocrat and I had to destroy him by soaking him head to toe with a water gun. After that I basically played Halo 3 against my brother for 10 minutes except we were literally in the game and all I focused on was sticking him with plasma grenades.

Suddenly I was watching a set of trailers for a guy and a girl. I think I was supposed to deal with the girl but it was showing meher old lovers and protectors, mainly this adonis dude who was the most patient man on earth, had many world records and would kill me for her. I was seriously weirded out by them adn then woke up.

Bed @ 2245
Woke @ 0120.
Attempted BTB @ 0145 /w MILD & SSILD
Meditated, got up, went back to bed, got up, had a drink, listened to a book, back to bed, etc. Fell asleep past 4.
Woke @ 0440

Meeting with my boss
I'm in my (old)boss's office for my every-other-weekly meeting. She's finishing something up and has a few papers on her desk. They're up-side-down, but I can see long lines of highlighter on them. I have a brief thought that maybe it's paperwork for a raise, but I squash that - I got one recently from "my other boss." I have a moment of confusion, since I just had a one-on-one with "my other boss," but "remember" that he's actually her boss and I meet with both of them. She's listening to some really weird music that's making it hard to think, and I hope she'll turn it off. I see her move what looks like an ipod, but I have the odd feeling that the music isn't actually coming from it. She starts saying something about duct tape, how tempting it is, how it needs to be controlled, and I'm really confused. I think I must have missed her opening sentence and that, if I'd caught it, then everything would make sense.

She keeps going about the duct tape, and I suddenly I realize that none of this makes sense and that I must be dreaming. I do a confirmation nose-pinch and am able to breathe. I have almost no "did I do it right?" hesitation and am extremely confident that this is a dream, and I have no qualms about doing weird stuff in "my boss' office." I stand up and walk over to the wall trying to decide what to do - I consider trying to phase through it, but I know that that's a good way to get somewhere totally random, and I don't want to lose lucidity in the transition. As I'm considering, I notice that my head is closer to the ceiling than it should be. I decide to see if I can grow further, and I do - I actually get my head within a hair's-breadth of the ceiling. Everything in the room looks a bit smaller, a bit further away. I remember a task of the month, to reach into my pockets and pull out whatever's there. I do so and find only my usual setup: my right pocket has my keys and Swiss Army knife, and my left pocket is empty.

Now I recall my 3-step goal. I've done steps 1 and 2 in a previous dream, and I kick myself for not posting a new step 3 - I've never successfully banished something from a dream, and I'd intended to update it to something simpler. Oh well, I'll give it a shot. I look around for a good candidate and see some baby toys on my boss's desk, including a small blue tower filled with marble-sized balls and a couple of plastic keyrings. I decide to banish one of the keyrings. I turn around, concentrate hard on making it disappear, then turn back. They're still there, though I have the feeling the contents of the desk shifted slightly. I decide that trying to remove something when there are two of them is a bad idea. I decide to do the little tower instead, but I don't want clutter around it in case that makes it harder. I walk over and rearrange things, moving the tower to the center of her desk and leaving a large space around it. I face the wall, focus on making the tower disappear, and turn back. It's now a tiny fraction of its original size, but it's still there. I decide that if doing the behind-the-back trick won't work. I'll just forcibly will it out of existence. I stare at it, willing it to vanish, and it starts vibrating madly; then I wake up. I check for an FA, but I'm back in reality.


BTB @ 0445
Woke @ 0630 /w alarm


Fiddling with a Steam Controller
I've just received my new Steam Controller and I'm showing it off to my kids. I'd heard it was large, but it's much larger than I expected. I'm also a bit disappointed by its appearance: in photos, it was always a dark shiny black, but it's actually a kind of matte light gray. I take note of each of the inputs, noting that something right in the middle also seems off, though I can't put my finger on what's not right. To the left is the fake D-pad - I try it out, and it feels like a normal D-pad. I look again, and it's not circular but is actually D-pad shaped, and that confuses me. Right in the middle of the pad is a tiny clickable Steam button. There's a circular pad on the right and another one in the lower-right, partly on the grip. A trigger button just to the right of the D-pad surprises me - I have no idea how you could press it without really contorting your hand. Triggers are all over the back, both on the main body and on the grips. Now the D-pad has changed, and it's a large layout of tiny red thumbsticks laid out in a three-tiered pattern: the outer tier has them in up/down/left/right positions, the middle tier has them for diagonal movement, and the inner tier is back to up/down/left/right. I note something in the software controls which allows each thumbstick to function independently, or you can lock each one to send only the direction corresponding to its position (so the left stick could only send 'left,' no matter which way it was being pushed). So far, I haven't actually plugged the controller into my computer, but I do so now so that I can finish its configuration and give it a shot in a game.


Watching a skilled player
I'm watching someone playing a game. Right now, he's in some kind of top down view of what I assume to be the game's galaxy, showing many planets, solar systems, and other astral objects. His ship is just a tiny dot currently orbiting a planet. Now he's received a mission to deliver something quickly to another planet which is on the other side of the galaxy, and I'm curious to see how he'll manage it, whether he'll try to use any kind of subspace gate or some-such or whether he'll just fly there without using any shortcuts. There's a lot of movement of the planets and systems, and he brilliantly uses gravity assist after gravity assist to fling himself to the other side of the map faster than I ever thought possible.

Now the game has switched to 2D side-scrolling action. He's not strong enough to fight the enemies here, so he's just running to the right, jumping over enemies as he encounters them, never stopping his movement. Now he's reached the end of the level, and he's got quite the crowd of enemies following him. There's only one enemy left between him and his goal, and it instantly kills him. He's a bit disappointed, but he's not really concerned, saying he'll get it next time.


Mad scientists
I'm watching a scientist in a lab. He's recently been exposed to a mutagen and needs to focus to keep his body from 'pooling' - but despite his constant attention, his gut is still very distended. Now he's overheard a junior scientist talking about revealing what's going on to their superiors - who have been kept in the dark - so the scientist manages to expose him to the mutagen. His skin ends up turning red and bumpy all over, and another scientist starts to permanently close his mouth by fusing another mutagen-infected <something> onto his face. I'm horrified, but thankfully another scientist convinces him to pull it off before it's too late.


Another vacation
I'm strolling through a beach town with my family and in-laws.

Now we're at the vacation house. My father-in-law needs some kind of charger. I run through the list of what I have, and he says he's already got the right cable, so he just needs my charger with the standard female USB port.

Now we're watching video provided by our management company showing a family touring the duplex we have up for rent. I can't believe how much stuff is left over from the previous renters - we're going to have to get over there and deal with it ASAP. In particular, the living room is full of baby toys and baby furniture. Now I'm looking at an application from a lady who'd like to move in. It says that she's requesting assistance to pay the rent - I've never seen anything like that before, and I show it to my wife. Looking more closely, we see that she's requesting a 3rd party source to pay $90 of her monthly rent. As we continue to look at it, we realize that the listed monthly rent is wrong; it's currently listed at $600 which is way too low. I can't remember exactly what it should be, but I think it's somewhere in the $700 range. In fact, the management company controls the rent and recently bumped it up due to market conditions. I'm going to have to contact them to find out what's going on. I'm frustrated that we can't probably change it for people who have already put in applications, but they really need to fix it immediately before any more applications come in.


Watching kids
I'm helping watch some kids who are all fairly young; I don't know any of them. One of them in particular is poorly behaved and doesn't want to go to bed. We end up doing something weird with sofa cushions and his crib to make a bed that he's willing to sleep in, and we're very relieved when it actually works. Some of his siblings are in the same bedroom as he is, so it's important for him to sleep so that they can sleep too.

D1 - Staying in a vast room, it is the size of a warehouse with very heigh ceiling. The space is filled with mattresses, like minecraft blocks. I am most appropriately sleeping there.
I cannot get off to sleep however as there is a fox roaming about, also possibly some other creatures.
I decide I need to pee and get up and start climbing the mattresses to the other side, near the way in where I know there are some washing facilities.
Only trouble is when I get to the other side of the hill of mattresses I find a sharp slope, and I slip slide helplessly to a massive gap. A drop so far down , probably the equivalent of about five floors up but due to the fear invoked seems like bottomless.
I fall and fall and fall, I feel to my certain death. However my fall is broken by a metal grid to one side.
My leg is mashed and cut by the collision but my descent is slowed and I land in a crumpled heap unconscious.

WBTB

D2 - I am in a desert and am deciding what character I should be. I decide on a guy who is unshaven and wears a kind of a poncho, he is skilled in martial arts. I also need to collect a selection of people for my group. This process goes on and on as I make different selections.

D3 - I wake up in a sunny bedroom, the bedroom is shared with many children but is empty now. I move to the breakfast room, which has a massive (again lol) wooden table, filled with breakfast plates and bowls and loads of bacon and eggs and other foods. Only one child is there, she has blonde hair and wants me to eat but I am not hungry, in fact I feel nausea.
Outside in the garden, my father has a giant swimming pool and is filling it with water. In the dream my phobia of not being able to turn off water returns and I spend much time worried about this.

I thought my phobia had disappeared or weakened but it seems I may have somehow suppressed it?? Is that even possible with a phobia.

Last night bed 9pm - 3:30am

DR at 2am, just before I switched from bed to sofa

I'm waling with someone up the hill, out in the mountains. I point to the far away hill with a ski slope and tell them I just came down from there with some other people. Right now the slope is half melted, but when we were going down on it, it still had enough snow. We were not skiing, we were just returning from somewhere higher up and took the ski slope down.

There is another hill next to this one with some rocky formations and I poit them out to this other person because they are beautifully colored pink by the sun. Here I remember I saw on a recent show why is it so.

I point my iphone camera at it and I'm delighted that a snowy hill with some daisies starting to grow make a beautiful foreground for this pink mointain in the back.

We get to the top and walk by a building. We reached the destination. We were looking for some dormitory/housing for somebody I am not sure who, but space fighter pilots like in star wars cross my mind.

We are looking for a specific name of the complex so we look around when we get in the middle of it. It has massive rectangular buildings with lots of windows, all standing around a main plaza. This plaza has a huge opening in the middle through which we can see tops of the mountains below. I look for some net that would keep people from falling down, but there is non and I know it's because it would obscure the view.

I see inside a building. People in it are all dressed in some kind of black uniforms. At first I think they all have their own tiny bed sized room, but now I see cots in a huge dormitory style room. There is a guys in the middle of it peeing, so bathrooms are public.

In the middle of the building there is empty space and that's where they practice their flying. They fly without any apparatus, just like we do in lucids.

finally a long night of sleep.
after wbtb i didnt allow myself to get too awake and did the ssild cycles a little faster and clumsy to get sure to fall asleep again. got a lucid but a little later than usual and the awareness was not too high.

i move by foot and seem to want to go back to my town, i look at the signs to find out where to go. i go straight and there is a blind end with several military stealth fighter jets. i am in awe and feel like i should not be allowed to be here. i look around for security cameras but i cant see any. i notice that the ground i am standing on is not asphalt but something more soft and flexible like the ground for gymnastics. i notice a neon yellow paint at the downside of one or two planes. i look away and back again and get the thought "if this would be a dream i could expect what there is" and i get instantly lucid. i do a nosepinch and approach one of the planes.
i look straight at the yellow paint and imagine/expect that it is a vest of ground working people. and fair enough when coming nearer to the plane at the beginning one then 3 guys move around the plane and enter it. i come closer and am a little scared that they might get hostile so i tell them "hello there i am the pilot" and enter the plane saying it one or two more times. i enter the cockpit and see that two girls are sitting on the seats and obviously have the intention to fly the plane. i am a little disappointed because i wanted to fly but fair enough. They seem pretty tired so i ask them where they are from and if they had a long journey to get here. the one says she is from a place in germany. i dont get it and ask again and she tells again but all i remember its a small town somewhere^^. the other girl comes from paris. but she took the magnetic train or something and where here pretty fast.
we didnt fly at all because while we talk the scenery changes and we move thru something like a school. they move up front and i follow. a girl with a blurred (like censored) face cross our way and i am puzzled why that so i follow her into a classroom and ask her why her face is censored but while we talk it seem that her face is not censored but very flat and pale and therefore maybe a little unusual but not that strange. i turn around and want to leave but a girl that reminds me of one girl i had an affair with approaches me and flirts with me but i dont want to and start leaving fast. i dont want to loose the two girls and i only see them shortly moving around a corner so i speed up to follow them. we are outside again and i look for the girls while the other girl is still following me relentless.
i come to a small crossroad where both ways move down a hill. shortly i don´t know where to go and decide to turn left and again see a glimpse of the girls. we reach a door at a scrap which seems to be the door to the plane again and we stop. the ex-affair reaches us and i punch a bottle with another bottle i have in my hand to her. then i reach for some stones and repeat it but she seems not to care. i wake up. but this time i dont want to be lazy and just give up so i focus on previous dream and keep talking to her and try to imagine the scene [which was pretty dull...] and fair enough after a few seconds i find myself back in same scene but without the two girls. i try to make peace with my stalker [dont know the exact phrasing]. i also tell her she might have nice breasts (and for some reason she reaches them and pull them out) i look closely at them and even touch them but i dont like them. she tells me one/she can drink from them. i wonder how and she says she gave birth and since then she can have milk. i enter thru the door and find myself again in something like a cockpit. even though the girls were not there anymore i expect them to enter the door behind me and they do like nothing changed. also my stalker girl enters. its getting strait. i see a guy i was diving with sitting at a computer and typing something. i wake up for good.


after several hours of sleep i was more napping than sleeping anymore and seem to think about previous lucid because i seem to "wild" and i suddenly find myself not far away from the place where the planes where. i see a parking lot from a car sales and get lucid. i do a nosepinch to confirm. i see several cars, some with short wings and a big spoiler (mix of a car and a plane) and some bigass motorbikes and i strongly "remember" to be here before and drive with one of the motorbikes. i see some guys around and i think about if i want to take "again" the same motorbike or maybe on of this fast looking cars. while approaching i wake up again

Medium LD 7.10-7.45ish
While drifting off to sleep images form and this raises my awareness. My whole body starts shaking. I wait for it to finish then stand up on the bed. The room looks deceptively realistic, but something doesn't feel quite right... My body feels too light. It is hard to describe. Is this the fabled gravity RC? I pinch my nose shut and try to breathe. Inconclusive. A hand RC works though - my left hand has seven fingers and two of them are tiny stumps.

I go downstairs. There is no front door, just a hole in the wall. Outside is a small village street and opposite is a large red brick building. I start to fly down the street and see a metal brazier with a fire burning within it. I decide to summon fire and focus the feeling of heat on my hands. They errupt into flames and leave sparks when moved. I throw a fireball at the red building and start chucking around small sparks - mini fireworks. I also try to draw the fire out of the brazier into my hands, but that doesn't work.

At this point I remember tasks and try to teleport to Talis (planet from a recent lucid) by spinning. The song "California here we come" pops into my head. Conincidently, I sang that song in my first proper stable lucid dream, so I always associate it with that.

The dream reforms on a windswept hillside with a row of enormous twisted trees. They look like they have long fought against strong winds - the branches reaching horizontally out in one direction, as if trying to escape, or reach for something.

A couple of people are standing nearby. They look disappointingly human to me. This is not Talis. Doesn't even look much like California. I decide to try the second of my three-step-tasks - unsummoning. Pointing my finger as a guide towards the closest tree, I start to erase it. The leaves and branch disappear. I follow the branch to the trunk and then down to the ground. The entire tree is gone.

At the bottom of the hill is a house with a door. I phase through it, expecting to find a desert, but find a toilet instead. I try to get back to the hillside but end up in a corridor instead. This leads to a small stone room and then the bottom of a square stairway. There is a small wooden cupboard, just about big enough for a child to hide inside. I hear a noise from within it, and am about to investigate but wake up instead.

Non lucid:
- no, I didn't become a woman in this dream. I basically wanted to live like a woman. I say this to my girlfriend and she's fine with that. Only problem: she gives me women clothes that are way too big for me, I feel ashamed because I would look ugly and refused to wear them. I then tell her that I prefer to look good in men clothes and not being ridiculous, so that I wear my old clothes and go in a boutique to shop for nice dresses.

Still, after the dream, I smiled and think how far from the reality is this dream. Said that, i admit that in my lucid experiences I would not mind to experiment with different sex/sexualities.

I got distracted today and lose any starting point to recall stuffs.

I am in Florida… stabilizing... wait. Okay. I need to get back to my body. That is a long way. I fly quickly into space. I fly to Japan and I realize that I don't know how to get to my house without a sign. I see Osaka written on Japan and I fly to it, then head over the mountain and see my apartment. I fly in through the ceiling (I try not to think about it much since I am not good at flying through solid objects) and see my body. I need my key, I reach for my stomach and he wakes up. I turn invisible. I can't find it this way, so I am going to have to cut it open. He flails about, doesn't seem to know that it is a dream. I grab his head and throw him against the wall. I sharpen my hand and slice open his stomach, something metal falls out and I pick it up, it is a weird looking metal object, but obviously not my key. I use TK to keep him against the wall and he is no longer able to move his arms and legs thanks to my tk. I reach in and feel all the organs, but then I feel the key. He isn't screaming, but he is frantically looking for something to fight, what a beast. lol. I fly upwards and make myself smaller. I jump into his head. A big circular room, filled with machinery, I knew it would be here, and I got my key. I see a big sign that says "settings" and I look for more signs. I stumbled around reading for a while, so I will just skip to the things I used the key for. I changed the settings for dream beginnings from Random to false awakening I thought about switching it to lucid, but I didn't want to chance it not working and have to redo it to just false awakening. There are a bunch of cool settings, but I didn't change anything except Dream Recall I changed to High Priority. Each time I change a setting, the whole room shakes and my head starts hurting immensely, both reassuring signs. I jumped out of my body and back into the body that I had taken the key from. We woke up. False awakening. haha. I jump up and down on the bed, excited that I made it a FA like I wanted. I need to do this a couple times to cement it. I wake up. FA. I do this 10 times. I then decide that I want to do some more things. I have dream recall set to high priority, so I shouldn't have to worry about how long the LD is.


I think about finding my girl doppelganger, but last time I saw her, she warned me of a threat I have yet to take care of, so we will take care of that. I imagine a door behind my bed and turn around, it is right there. I step through. I am at the exact place that I fought my evil sister at last, I was using Vixen's body though. I put up a three part barrier, one impassable, one to destroy any dream abilities and one to freeze time. They are all hollow cubes that are only a meter thick at 20 meters, 15 meters, and 5 meters away from me. Julia is much faster than me, at least how I am now. I don't really feel like fighting, just finishing this. She appears i the last barrier, staring at me, frozen in time, the time stop is almost cheating since no other character has been shown to possess this yet. I step aside and unfreeze her mouth and ears. She still can't move her eyes to see me now that I have moved.
"You won't be able to break this, simply because you don't have time to. Answer me, why are you here?"
"I am your sister, this is just a game."
"That is a lie, I know that much." I tell her and put my hands together, pulling out my sword, preparing to end this.
"I was sent by the government to keep tabs on the Zödra fighters! It is just an assignment! Don't kill me!"
"That is also a lie, I know that your plan has always been to kill me." I am sick of this. I show her my sword "I am going to chop off your head, a fitting end. Can you think of a reason as to why I shouldn't?"
She laughs "That won't be enough to stop someone that knows the truth."
"Do you know what the ability of my sword is?"
She seems a little more scared.
"Neither do I."
I chop her head off with one clean cut and she starts laughing again.
"I can regen from here and wipe you out!" her head starts regenerating a body, but as it starts, a second effect takes place, her blood and bones and everything that touched the sword starts boiling and fizzing and going upwards, from her neck up to her head as well as neck down on her body. I release the time barrier so that her body is completely eaten up. I reach into her pocket and grab her ID, I wanted a document saying that I was in Zödra, but it was all in Japanese. I summon a small eyeglass that is supposed to translate and look through it. It is kind of blurry, but it ends up saying a bunch of nonsense words like "Brlao" and no sign of Zödra. Weird. I wake up

Consciousness comes in some industrial premises, all is dark around me. I am on the stairs, it is iron, and suddenly heard a voice: "Rise Up" and I ran upstairs, ran a few flights of stairs, but do not remember where it rose higher.

Realize that a dream in the traditional Chinese temple. Sing children's choir, children in a beautiful traditional dress, but I do not remember singing, I remember that play music like a rock opera. With pleasure I ran around the temple, jumped on its roof, and ran on it. Me looked at the sky, the sky white light, bright light source, and I with all forces flew to him, but could not fly into it, I was kicked out with a feeling similar to like Neo in The Matrix when he took a pill, a strong vibration and woke.

It was the second attempt to fly into the light, in another dream and day. I realize there during the flight, the light was right, he was a blue-white and waves around the edges, but just awoke while attempting to fly into it.

...Met a small dwarf, he was like a pig from the movie only brown or gray, his nose like a pig. He invited me to his home, I went, it was a small, windowless and entirely without objects inside, the walls are bare, only one door. We talked with him, remember I asked: "You are live here in a small empty room?" he said, "so yes i live"...

Realize myself at dream in the night city. Around me many moving people, one guy looked at me with some sort of surprise. I remembered that I wanted to fly into space, quickly take off, rose to the sky for a few seconds, was in some tight dark space... woke.

Hello everyone! I'm from Russia, and want to share my experience of lucid dreaming on English. It will hard to me, with this special theme, because my English is not good, but I want to try, and Google translator helps me. Sorry for mistakes.

I started practicing from the beginning of 2013, but had some experiences from early childhood. I had blog in the Russian Internet (and still have from 2015, since 2013 is now closed as a personal, but experiences are written in it) and I will translate the best experience out of it, and add new ones.

So I go with first lucid dream from my old journal.

January 2013, I read "Clairvoyance" by C. W. Leadbeater and at night I had a first lucid dream after understanding this phenomenon:

Dreaming that I'm going on the road in two quarters from the house where I live, and find myself on the market which is not in the real world, and in this moment awareness comes to me.

The first time I drew attention to my body in a dream and felt it, my movements slowed down and I pulled hands forward, I swayed. I was approached by a man who traded in the market and he said, "I'll help you". He put me beside his shop. Traded in it green cabbage. With him was a woman, probably his wife. I said to him something like "you are trading cabbage?" and laughed that cabbage traded in a lucid dream, I thought it was funny by inexperienced. What more I do not remember exactly, but it was awake or I lost awareness.

Non-Lucid Dream, Wednesday, October 26, 2016:

I've wrapped the dream in a spoiler for readers wary of sexual content.

Spoiler for Dream Content:

I am staying in a hotel room with a young couple, probably a few years older than myself. After I lay down to sleep, they slowly begin playful sexual behavior together. For a little while I try to ignore them, but soon I get up. I begin to take off my clothing, too, but then stop and just stand there. "No way they want company," I think. But they see me watching them, all lonely. While he calls for another girl, she comes over and starts fellatio. It feels very, very good, and I begin to push her to take in more. "Easy there, slow down," he tells me. Soon, the other girl arrives. She's more my age, maybe just a bit younger, and she seems a bit shy. The other two leave us together. (And here my recall fails. I probably woke up, but I don't remember for sure.)

Spoiler for Notes:

After waking up, I noted the lack of the usual consequences of "wet dream".

1 pt non lucid
2 pts wbtb
=3 pts 3+ 111.5= 114.5

Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


I was in this group home but I'm an adult. There are lots of women there but I only recongnize one of the staff as a real staff member I had in my IRL group home as a kid. It looked kind of like a library. We all were gathering in this great big room, like unusually big. The ceiling began to crack. I was telling ppl to get out & dragged one of the girls out but it still fell and crushed a lot of ppl. But the staff just all acted like we just need to move forward & get back to normal immediately. The woman staff member I knew IRL as a kid told me I had to get more new clothes & didn't understand why I hadn't done so the last time the money was allotted for them. My alarm went off.
wbtb
I lost my recall because my husband called me.

I only had about 2 hrs of sleep last night. I am so exhausted. I kept having flash backs triggered by my friends mom dying & me contemplating going back to my home town for the funeral. Today wasn't much better. I get to my doctors appt & they say I've been dropped & I have to make them call billing to get it fixed, which I had already did yesterday. Only to have them tell me I was going to have to have a full blown drug test which is way more than the usual because they said I had, wait for it, METHADONE come up in my pee test last time. I'm freaking out at this point because I even quit drinking 2 1/2 yrs ago which I'm really proud of. After I get really crazy mad to the point I'm about to cry & they tell my husband he has to pay a crazy $350 on top of my usual payment plan & copay. He's freaking out cuz he's about to rip them a new one & knows I am already going off. The receptionist says, oh, I'm sorry, forget all about that, it was for someone else!!!!! These are ppl who know me & know good fucking well I don't anything like that so I'm still pissed but relieved. So I get my meds & Mike needs these shots in his neck & he says as long as he can go back to work, but that soooooo didn't happen. He went pale as a sheet & almost passed out. He then was all fucked up & I had to take the keys & eventually make him call work cuz he would have went into a meeting w/ an asshole like this & been fired. Bad bad bad fucking last 24 hrs! I just want sleep!

Just a short entry because I'm lazy, but I thought this was quite funny, and random, and I hardly ever post dreams that aren't super depressing/disturbing.

I was in the mountains, and there was a Dominos. I ordered myself a pizza, and while I was eating it, a lady came up to me and told me I was the lucky winner, and that I won $13,000. I was so happy I started crying. A little while later, the same lady came up to me and said, "Sorry, actually you aren't the winner" and someone else got the money. So then I started crying again, sad tears. The end.

I get a message from a girl on Tinder. I noticed that she is bent over a bed suggesting that I have sex with her. Then all of a sudden we end up in a bar setting flirting and kissing.


hey Whitney seeing a plane crash but from the perspective of being inside of the plane and watching the people become extremely terrified.