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SILVER KEY QUEST ENTRY 1

I am trying to get the key from inside the crypt in the hills behind Arkham, kinda complicated for a normal lucid, but with how my WILDs have been lately, I should be good. I am listening to the audio book "through the gate of the silver key" to help me out. I am flying over the hills in my imagination, but then the dream actually starts and I look down and see a forest. Not the right place, I imagine the hills appearing in the distance, but then a beach appears followed by an ocean. I fly under the water thinking that the hills might have been covered by the ocean, but I just see a normal ocean floor. I get a little scared being down there. I fly out of the water and plan to see the hills after that, but I am distracted by the sound of something coming out of the water behind me. It is like a giant blue octopus with a sky blue body and dark blue under the arms, flying through the air like it would swim through water and gaining on me. I hold my hand up like I have a blade and make a fire energy whip thing. I slash at the octopus and it is sliced all the way through and is missing about a third of its body as it falls to the ocean. I turn around and fly under the water again. I can breathe under there, that is pretty fun. I make 5 more fire energy whip swords and have them rotating around me while I swim. I fly out of the water and there is no end of ocean in sight. I close my eyes and imagine the hills. They aren't appearing through my closed eyes, so I imagine them again and just open my eyes. haha. hills. I land on the ground and cannot find the two trees. I fly up again and look on the horizon, not there. I keep spinning and see nothing. I decide to try a behind the back summon from far away. Oh yeah they were this way! I think and fly backwards. I turn around and land right at the trees. There is supposed to be a crypt in between them. There is a hobbit hole .

similar to this, but kind of randomized colors, red door, window painted blue so I can't see in, the wall is green
I decide that it must be built over it, but instead of going inside, I decide to dig out the house. I grab at the grass above the door and it starts pulling back easily. About 5 inches in, the wood ends and I can just see blackness behind. I guess I could have opened the door, but it could teleport me away or something. I tk the whole wood panel out and it is just black darkness. It doesn't look like it belongs. doesn't look dark, but more like the lack of anything existing there. I jump in.
Instantly I am teleported to the void it seems, or maybe just sucked in. I look around, because I was kind of expecting it to be dark here anyways. This is still where I was planning on finding the key. Floating above me, the silver key seemed to shine its own light. The connection to deeper dreams and other dimensions, the silver key. I grab it, and at this time I start to feel my body a little more and can hear the book again, or maybe just understand it again. I notice that what is happening in the book is also happening around me, I had fallen asleep at a time where the protagonist was in the place I was trying to get to, and I had entered a long time after him. The timing actually doesn't make much sense when I think about it. But here is what I was hearing during the dream

For this Shape was nothing less than that which all the world has feared since Lomar rose out of the sea and the Winged Ones came to earth to teach the Elder Lore to man. It was indeed the frightful Guide and Guardian of the Gate—’Umr at-Tawil, the ancient one, which the scribe rendereth the Prolonged of Life.
The Guide knew, as he knew all things, of Carter’s quest and coming, and that this seeker of dreams and secrets stood before him unafraid. There was no horror or malignity in what he radiated, and Carter wondered for a moment whether the mad Arab’s terrific blasphemous hints, and extracts from the Book of Thoth, might not have come from envy and a baffled wish to do what was now about to be done. Or perhaps the Guide reserved his horror and malignity for those who feared. As the radiations continued, Carter mentally interpreted them in the form of words.
“I am indeed that Most Ancient One,” said the Guide, “of whom you know. We have awaited you—the Ancient Ones and I. You are welcome, even though long delayed. You have the Key, and have unlocked the First Gate. Now the Ultimate Gate is ready for your trial. If you fear, you need not advance. You may still go back unharmed the way you came. But if you choose to advance . . .”

I could see The Guide, he was tall, but covered in shadows, so I couldn't discern his face. I didn't really want to proceed, I just wanted the key. I think I was trying to make it too much like the book, so when it became more like the book than I wanted, I stopped listening and decided to teleport out. I double checked that I had the key, but then I heard the book again.

We salute you, Most Ancient One, and you, Randolph Carter, whose daring has made you one of us.”
Carter saw now that one of the pedestals was vacant, and a gesture of the Most Ancient One told him it was reserved for him. He saw also another pedestal, taller than the rest, and at the centre of the oddly curved line (neither semicircle nor ellipse, parabola nor hyperbola) which they formed. This, he guessed, was the Guide’s own throne. Moving and rising in a manner hardly definable, Carter took his seat; and as he did so he saw that the Guide had likewise seated himself.

The pedestal I saw was made of shining gold, and had jewels encrusted in it, as it talked about the rest of the things, I only paid attention to my pedestal and floated towards it on accident and found myself seated. I didn't see any of the other pedestals that it was talking about until after, and there were two of the other ones looking at me, strange, grey wrinkly faces that didn't seem aged, but didn't seem young either. They didn't seem to hold any emotion either, just watching me. I needed to get the key out of here before I lose it to the book I haven't yet read or just drop it in this floating emptiness. I look down and I am not wearing a shirt, and my shorts have no pockets. Something to remember the key by. I look at the key and examine it. It is sharp. I stab it into my stomach and it gets stuck at the hilt. Barely any pressure, that won't be easy to remember. I stab myself again and again until there is pain and until I can fit the key all the way in my stomach. I can feel both my body and my dream body, so I go back to my waking body to make sure I don't lose my key.



Just found this:


Maybe I was closer to it at the beginning than I thought. haha.

Check out H.P. Lovecraft Dream Cycle for the Silver Key references and actually the majority of the things from the dream.

Okay so "Night 1" is from 8:00pm on the 14th to 7:59pm on the 15th.
"Night 2" is from 8:00pm on the 15th to 7:59pm on the 16h.
"Night 3" is from 8:00pm on the 16th to 7:59pm on the 17h.
and "Night 4" is from 8:00pm on the 17th to 7:59pm on the 18h.

Okay I just had to figure that out, since I slept a good portion of the day away.

Nights 1 and 2 nothing happened. I was on holiday with family and way too busy and tired to even recall any dreams.

Night 3 was better. Here are the nonlucid(s):

I was sitting in a bar. When I stepped outside I was in a huge room with a checkerboard floor, white columns and walls and a black ceiling and approached by one of my original characters. (David). Only he looked large/stock, fat and more intimidating. He said he wanted to fight me. He said he was so confident that he would win that he would let me have 100 free hits on him before he fought back. (Exceptionally weird since one of the first traits I designed David around was to be nonviolent.)

I started fighting him with no motivation or actual provocation. He started counting down the hits I made. Punching him was just like punching and kicking a big pillow or a punching bag. I lost the dream out of frustration. I still was allowed 83 more hits on him when I t ended.


I remember Manei was the sole character of a dream set in Republic City from The Legend of Korra. I think the dream was even "animated" similarly, it looked similar to the show. She was in a disguise of a trench-coat, hat, and one of those joke shop glasses+joke nose+mustache things and pretending to read a newspaper. (Your disguise is just dripping with originality.) She waited for some people to walk buy, then threw off her disguise to reveal a red swimsuit underneath, and jumped into an open storm drain.

She swam underwater for quite some time, navigating various water pipes under the city. She didn't seem to need air, even when she finally surfaced in an underground pool about a minute later she didn't seem out of breath at all. There was a meeting forming of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Pearl from Steven Universe, and Batman. (Okay... Interesting choice of characters...) They all met at a round rusty metal table and started discussing plans for something.

...

I was Jumping like a frog on large Lilly pads in a swamp (Dagobah Feeling), apparently as a part of some kind of physical training. Manei approached me and told me I was misusing my physical body and if I wanted to do whatever it was I was trying to do or train myself for (semi lucidity is the best), I should just transmute myself into an actual frog.

She then showed me what she said was called a dream frog. It looked like a normal bull frog but it had a red button on its back that you would press. Apparently it was a very powerful dreaming artifact that allowed me to hop back to lucid dreams that I had already had and change what happened in them.

I think the dream frog wiggled out of her hand and hopped away in the swamp. I tried to go after it but it disappeared.

...

We were back in Republic City from Legend of Korra and we had to fight agianst Mako, Bolin and Korra who were trying to stop us from getting into this building. (Presumably a town hall, it looked nothing like the town hall from the show, it was much smaller and looked more like a miniature version of the US capital building. It was also built by the coast.) The battle took place at sunset with the sun setting over the water.

Manei had a truly brilliant combat strategy. She charged in and got their attention then proceeded to chicken out and hide behind a parked tank as boulders and fire missiles shot over us. I remember poking out of cover and nearly getting pelted with attacks myself. I tried to encourage her to run out of cover on separate sides and maybe we could split their line of fire and flank them, but she had completely lost it.

I jumped up and started flying above the battle. Bolin and Korra worked together and threw a barrage of giant boulders at me. I kicked one of them and my skate blade popped out and sliced it in half (cool.) I flew over and landed, standing on one foot, on a flagpole atop the building. Mako shot lightning up the metal flagpole and killed me. For some reason when he killed me the scene became animated much more simplistically and I saw myself in third person. I turned into a giant cooked turkey and fell on the ground.

Its interesting to me how naturally the Zero-friction sakes have worked their way into dreams. I don't post every dream I have anymore so you guys don't get the full picture, but they made their first true appearance in the last comp, and since then they've come up 10+ times, mostly in semi lucids. Something tells me if I was to try to summon them in a lucid dream, I'd have no difficulty whatsoever.

I feel dirty classing these as four separate NLDs since they share plot threads, but since there was some semi-lucidity in there, and because I'm down two days completely due to circumstances outside my control, I'll call it for four points...

NLDx4=1

On the actual 'Night 4' I only had a nonlucid dream.

I was going to work with my mom. For some reason she worked in this big castle built out of Minecraft blocks built by the side of a realistic lake. Apparently she was studying how to make Minecraft educational to college students. (My mom works at a college IWL). I remember there was a door that was supposed to operate with redstone and pistons but it wasn't working and my mom wanted to call the groundskeepers and have them fix the door.

The dream changed plots to a story about a 44 year old man (age specifically given) who wanted to be 'young and hip' and decided to quit his desk job and become a DJ. He was in a recording studio recording a song called 'Bang, Bang, Cowboy'. It was like a hip hop/dance song that used some country instruments. I know that sounds musically impossible, but somehow in the context of the dream, it sounded really good.

I must say as far as Dream Music goes, this was probably the second best song to 'Robot Disassembly'. I even remember the dance move you would do to it where you would point at your dance partner with two fingers and then on each utterance of the word 'Bang' in the song flick your hand up as though you had shot them, alternating hands each time. A rather unusual implication for a dance, but apparently it caught on as a trend.

Then it showed another scene of the guy trying to come up with more songs and he couldn't. The country singer walked into the recording studio not wearing a shirt, having a comically oversized cowboy hat on and a huge case of beer. She started chugging all the beers and the DJ guy started dancing to the cowboy song and other people came in and danced with them and drank beer. Then they got in trouble for ruining all the recording equipment.

But later in the day I napped for two cycles. (I know this because I fell asleep at 12:30, awoke from a dream at about 2, then slept again and woke up at about 3:45)

In the first lucid I false awoke and rather groggily walked into my parent's bathroom. In it I saw the cabinets under the sink were missing and there was a gigantic cluster of amethyst crystals on display. I for some reason recognized this as a dream sign and did a nose pinch reality check. This caused me to become lucid. I lost the dream and woke up.

-+-

The second dream I was preparing to go to work with my mom. I remember off in the east there were these huge black mushroom shaped buildings with a purple energy conduit running around the edge of the 'cap' of the mushroom. There were white glowing windows, along with what looked like bits of technology, exterior pipes and conduits and power boxes.

There were also these very tall (clouds wrapping around 1/4 of the way up, so probably many miles tall) buildings that shared a similar color palate. They had these huge sideways facing cylinders with purple energy conduits along the edges built into their superstructures.

I became lucid rather randomly. It wasn't because of the buildings. I just remember saying to myself "I'm dreaming, aren't I?" and proceeding to launch myself into the air with enough force to crack the cement driveway. I launched up into the cloud but a moment later a dull, but strong pain in my knees and thighs registered and the dream pretty quickly disintegrated.

DILD x2 = 15
RC =1
WBTB =2
Fly/Super Strength/Super Speed (I launched myself, it was really like a big jump.) = 5

Totes: 24

I couldn't really get to sleep last night until about 5 and had to wake up at 8:30 so not much dreaming occurred.

Frag: I'm in some sort of area with my father, an open space with dirt or concrete floors, open sky, sort of like a junk yard. We were running around. I do remember Pennywise the Clown from IT was there with us jumping around to different locations. There was like an overhanging stage thing that was sort of dark. I wasn't really afraid of Pennywise personally but it did seem like a darker dream.

Semi-Lucid: So I went back to my house after class to take a nap. Eventually, I was right on the edge of sleep and awake. My body started to get that really high feeling from edging on the line of dreaming and awake, my whole body feeling it. I started to hear music in my ears, but as it got clearer my ears would suddenly buzz and hurt. That cycle happened a couple of times. After that, I tried to get out of my body. So I was trying to float up and then trying to sink down. My dream body ended up rolling backwards off of my bed towards my closet, hitting the ground. I then started to look at my hands and say "woah" before I went back into another dream.

I'm at the mall. I am in the back hallway where all the shipments arrive and where the maintenance workers take the trash. There are doors along the hall for the different stores. I see some people up ahead, and there's an open door for Lucky Jeans. I walk in and start looking around, there are jeans all neatly folded in a wall. Then there's a curtain blocking out half the store. The store is skinny, with maybe room for a table full of clothes and then all the jeans in the wall. More like a boutique. I pull the curtain back to try to go see what's behind it when I hear some other people coming in, being kind of loud and rowdy. The person working at the door lets in a couple of younger girls who have little bunnies in little bunny sized purses. You can see their little bunny heads poking out the top. All I could think was how amazing it would be to carry a bunny around the mall and just pet it all day. I woke up wondering if someone had already invented the bunny purse.

I was in Plaza España of Córdoba. I cross the street just in time, the traffic light went green. That allowed me to cross the other street to the roundabout plaza. Then a lot of people came from parties. It was about to be dawn. I started to forget where i was... and got grabbed by these people who were probably drunk. If i was offensive probably those hundreds of people would come at me, but i wouldn't get bullied around. I didn't pay attention to them and i was going to leave from where i came (because streets were blocked by people. Looked like riots or something like that as well as party).

Then i am in the roof of my mothers house in Rio Cuarto. There was a party there. I think i was with some girls there, and one girl kissed me and left. I thought that was unexpected. I remained standing in the same place, and to my right there was a teacher of highschool which whom i used to play chess with. I asked him if he continued to play chess, and he told me nah, i don't play it anymore. I thought it was a strange answer for him, but ok... i believed that he didn't play at this moment.

Then i am in space, very far from earth, probably another galaxy. [YEAH! I was waiting for a dream like this.] I was on a mission on a spaceship. A door opens or actually a tubepipe opens (gets disconnected from the pipe) and the oxygen of the ship starts to go out. I wandered how i didn't get sucked in, but since i didn't i didn't care why... it was dreams physics! All the time i was trying to connect the pipe to stop this outflow. But... it was all outflow..., there was an inflow of "space" in the ship. And i thought, if i breathe space it would probably be toxic and i will die. The spaceship atmosphere had like 50% oxygen and 50% space. So i decided to land the ship right there . We were far from earth, but we were orbiting a planet. Probably 10.000km from that planet? but the landing was instant. We landed on a temple, which was in a forest. We were waiting for the ship to recharge the oxygen. I thought it would be instant, but then i thought "no it won't be instant, it's like charging a car with fuel. This will take one week, no two weeks, no, 1 month, no, 6 months" i was trying to get the right number and i think i continued till one year. So one year staying in that place would be right. I was pretty much alone, but some of my highschool classmates, like Fede, was there. Also i remember telling one tripulant that went into the forest: "don't forget of the lucid dreams!!!", but i didn't get lucid myself, how silly.

Creepy Dream Characters

I was walking through the city streets speedily until people behind me called out to me. Turning around I saw that my purse and sweater were on the ground. I thanked the people for telling me and picked up my stuff wondering how I could not notice. I was also worried that I had dropped my phone but couldn't find it. This made me retrace my steps just to be sure I didn't drop it on the street but as I was going back a guy that had a blond buzz cut and wearing white shorts with a brown/white t-shirt came up to me. He said that it was like he met me somewhere before but that he couldn't tell where.

I became lucid than and told the dc that we were in a dream and pulled him back from a crowd that was moving around us. He wanted to take me somewhere but now that I looked at him his appearance was different. He was wearing purple glasses, clothing that reminded me of Marcus Jade's character, and a sweater around his waste.I told him that he was starting to look like Marcus but he just grabbed my hand and went into a jewelry shop with me. We than ended up in a hotel place than went into another room that changed into a African style room where there was a balcony that was painted brown and had vines with monkey statues on it.

He took me out that room and was about to go up some stairs with me but I pulled back my hand from his. "Where are you trying to take me!?"I said annoyed already.He looked back at me telling me to just follow him. I said no and ran through a hall and into another room to get away from the dc. The room began turning red but than stopped. The floor was kind of wobbly too. I observed the room taking note of two old styled windows than decided to get out of the room through the walls. My goal now was to try and meet Jade's dream characters.

I walked around till I ended up in a room with random dcs. They claimed to be Jade's dcs even though they weren't. I did end up finding something good there though. I saw a changing picture in manga style that had Eye and Dawn in it. The first picture was one where Dawn had his arm around Eye in a brotherly way and the other was a pic of Dawn making Eye chug something down his throat. It was kind of funny and was good for inspiration for making more art.

After I was done looking I noticed we were in front of my house now. When I looked at the dcs that were still present one of them did something really stupid. He just unzipped his pants and started peeing everywhere and all over another dc. I flew towards a gate than somewhere else to get away from him. I ended up in a room where there was a child that caught my attention. The child was about 6 at first than changed to a small tiny baby. I picked up the baby and hugged him but than he started talking like a evil guy who just wanted to rape people. I didn't like the creepy baby anymore and threw it at a wall. I was about to take a sword out too, to battle him but he was already broken so I changed my mind.

Fighting Drive

I was with my brother who took me into a small cabin that had a book we were supposed to get to beat a mission.I tried balancing the book in my hand but there was another book inside it that wasn't getting off. I tried calling my brother for help but I noticed that he vanished and that the world I was in looked like Zelda Windwaker. The cabin was on a cliff side near a plains and the Pirate ship was close to the cliff on the ocean."I'm lucid again and I'm in Windwaker"I thought happily. I stepped out the cabin feeling like I had Link's body and was thinking about where to go first when I saw the sun going down. This made me think of the monsters coming out and that's when I heard the creepy battle music.

I didn't want to fight the monsters so I ran and jumped off the cliff summoning a white blanket I thought link used to glide from one place to another.(However, i haven't played the game in a long time so after checking out some pics its actually a green leaf)This let me land on the tower of the ship but than I jumped off and let myself fall into the hole entrance of the ship. I was thinking about doing the dhl mission to fight a sword guy or monster but the ship was empty. I entered a room that reminded me of the place where you have to jump from one place to another to get rubies but I ended up in a apartment building instead.There I was able to find what looked like a blue dragon and fought him with wind and a sword but I took him out pretty quickly. This made me feel dissatisfied since I wanted to fight a sword guy. I noticed Dawn in the room and told him to fight me. I swung my sword at him lightly and he blocked it telling me to calm down. He wasn't in a fighting mood at all but I still kept trying to make him fight me until I thought about Andres and kokkiri forest. "Let's go to kokkiri forest and fight a giant or a monster with a sword!"I said excited to complete the mission. I looked out the window seeing we were at a high height.

I also took note that the sky was foggy and there were some drawings and a poster of two woman on a white building. After I finished observing my surroundings I heard the lost woods song and jumped out the window ready to fly to kokkiri forest but just as I was starting to fly Dawn jumped on my leg grabbing me and pulling me down telling me not to go. I had a false awakening moment than but could only see a clear light and white blankets making me wonder if I was still dreaming. I felt someone beside me and it turned out to be Dawn proving to me that I was still in a dream.He looked cute at that moment so I got carried away and kissed him until he told me to stop and hid under the blankets saying that his master was coming. I noticed we were in a Japanese dojo now and could see someone walking towards us through the halls. At first they were blurry but than I saw it was a lady with short light aqua hair, red lipstick and clothing that made me think she could be in a band. I saw a random gum lieing around and tossed it at her. She laughed as she walked around us and did not seem aggressive at all.I tried it again and she told me to stop when it got stuck on her hair. I pulled it out ripping some hair off and said sorry. Still no violent nature. Dawn got out from under the blanket and than a small kid appeared laughing at how there was still some gum stuck on her.I had another false awakening after that but after realizing it was a dream I woke up.I could have probably done the sword master mission at the dojo but I got distracted.

Last night bed at 8 pm. Alarm set to 1am, but I woke up at 12:47 so I took 2x300 Alpha GPC then. Went back to bed to sleep another hour before staying up for WBTB, but couldn't fall asleep for good 10 min. So when second alarm rang at 2am, I kept sleeping. Woke up at 2:50 and I almost blew the whole thing. Stayed up for 30 min before felt I was already awake enough. I read Opehlia's DJ for motivationD. Took 2xGM at 3:20am and went straight to sleep.

8pm - bed
12:47am - 2x300 Alpha GPC
2:50 - 3:20am - WBTB
3:20am - 2x4 pure galantamine
3:20am - sofa

About 40 min long.

Took me about 10 min to fall asleep, after my cat jumped off of me. The head sensation, which normally is feeling of buzzing and cold spot in the top back of my head, was this time different. I had a sensation in the perimeter of the whole head. Imagine my head being an egg, so the sensation was in the eggshell. It was interesting and strong.

Part 1:

About 20 min long.

I did a lot of walking I think mostly outdoors. There was some kind of a plot which I don't remember.

One of my goals was to slow down and look around. So I stopped and look backwards. It was awesome, because this is first time when I did it. The picture was clear and everything was very detailed. I looked up and wanted to see stars. I could see how the dream was trying to work on my wish. The skies were changing, black was moving and some small light were starting to come up, untill the skies were full of stars. Then I wanted the moon and one stronger light was trying to break through but I didn't wait for that to finish.

At some point I was walking through some rock and I heard something. I thought it sounded like ocean waves hitting the shore. I got excited and as I walked down the other side of the rocks, sure enough, there was beautiful shoreline. Like in norther california in Big Sur area. Dark blue waters and rocky shore. The waves hitting the rocks and the sound they made was so spot on. It was so beautiful that after a long time I again felt such an incredible joy. I felt my face grinning ear to ear and I was so happy. I saw some people in the water so I waded in.

At some point in this lucid I thought that maybe I will wake up, but then I thought no, it's too early, I will not wake up.

I don't remember if I turned to my right side at the begining, or when I woke up in the middle. But I remember waking up and opening one eye to look. My room looked normal but I counted my fingers with other hand to make sure it's not an FA. And lol, I counted 6! I'm like how the heck did I do that and counted again. 5 this time. I went back to sleep because I already didn't remember much from the lucid and I still felt the head sensations so I was hoping to get another lucid. And I did.

Part 2:

About 20 min long.

This was happening mostly indoors. I think this is exactly how it was in my previous lucid - outside first, then indoors.

It's some kind of a huge building, like a mall, but not that moder. Lots of people. But I didn't get to see any individuals or talk to them, I think.

I was standing on some large stairs gooing up, when I thought I should fly. But it was so realistic, I couldn't fly. Then I thought that I should be able to fly anyway, because it's a dream and others do it.

I started to float up a bit. I though "higher" and I went higher. I started to fly forward and the dream reacted to me saying "faster" a few times, until I was going decent speed. It was awesome.

The interiors from this and previous dream remind me of the architecture of Naboo from Star Wars.

Thank you! I would like more dreams like this. Flying, looking around, talking to DCs. Slowing down and being a part of a dream.

This time after WBTB doing Mantra & visualization of previous dream and getting lucid AKA MILD

just a short lucid but i had to get up at 6:45 and woke up from lucid at 6:42 so that was gratefully

me and gf want to take a bus, we both needs to pee and she goes to a wall that has a hole like a garage. she squads down and pee. suddenly a lot of people are approaching. first i think they want to pee too but then i notice that they put their baggage in all the holes/garages. seconds after gf has peed a guy puts his bag there... we enter a bus. the front-seat passenger is a nice girl i see while we talk to the busdriver? we get out of the bus and walk a little and i have the urge to go back to her and get lucid by this.
we turn around and move back. there is no bus but there are now a lot of small tables like the outside of a cafe. first thing i do after a nosepinch is to put both hands into my pockets, first i think about what i want to get but then i remind myself to have no expectation and fair enough both pockets are empty. nothing changes even tho i really really digged around there. best thing was some fluffs...^^ nevermind i go back and look for the girl. an older woman says something to me but i want to find that girl. i think i find her but am not 100% sure so i look at the neighbor table too but decide i was right in the first place. all people from both table are looking at me silently the whole time as they where waiting for me to decide.
so i approach this nice girl AND.... ask her if she want to tic tac toe with me she agrees but she seem very young and rashly. first time she waves to fast and i am not ready. i tell her we play 3 times. two times we have the same (often scissors). in the end i win 2:0 or 2:1 (cant remember every round anymore...). i think in the end i won with wells (beats paper) what somehow is cheating... after she looses she turns even younger to a small sulking girl. i hug her and tell her she shouldnt be sad. the dream destabilizes but i dont want to let it go so even tho there are no visuals i try to feel the ground and i notice that i am still there. i hear me or FryingMan? talking to the girl about a party that will be there later and show her a map where she shouldnt go because she is too young. in the end i wake up nevertheless.

D1 - In office, virus on computer. Technician tries to track via Keypresses on computer being traced.

D2 - In a room in an abandoned house, hiding. Make a break for it down the road. It is a normal suburban area and the roads go on everywhere in every direction. Where to run? There is a large white triangular wall in one direction, I head towards it.

D3 - Stuck in a museum with a girl. We use a cloaking device to hide. I can see its semi transparent from the inside. I am lose contact with her but I have her number and try her at work.
The phone has a camera so I can see her work solleague pick up the phone. There is a bright blue neon light.

D4 - I am driving along a rough country road through a shanty town. The road is all baked mud and rutted.
The car can only make it so far. So I get out and walk.
I walk past a large temple and off the road to under a tree lined path overlooking a grassy area. Two people from the temple offer me shelter for the night. I accept but find it hard sleeping on black leather chairs and keep slipping off.

I am at my job's dock and it looks quite disorted from how it is suppose to look in waking life. I see some people I know talking on the top deck and notice someone trying to wake me up from the bed I was lying down on. Which is wierd...considering I am at work currently. He telling me to get up cause he wants to know who I like more and if this so and so is true about him. I get up and look at him and see what he and the other were argueing about. I decided I'm not interested and leap off the bed to go to no where land. But before I do this I notice a car that is very out of place and I could've sworn I seen it move on it's own.

I sharpen my sight by clenching my eyes real tight to see if there was a driver in there. There was no driver. So I got my hanbds on to the front of this car and notice that it felt extremely light. Light weighted enough that I could move it with my bare hands. I push the car back in to it's right parking spot and didn't think much of it. Soon after I see this woman with redish brown hair darts over to where I am at with a face that looks to be in a hurry. I walk pass her and tell her I got your car back in to the right position. She looks at me and says yeah and I decided to ocntinue walking up to the deck. I sepnd some time up there with the guys before heading back down to get some rest back in the odd bed that is still there. Which I didn't seem to mind sleeping on, outside with everyone watching me.

As I fell asleep in the dream, the scene to where it was my brother and I in this tight nit hallway with those old fashion lights that told you it could go out at anytime. My brother and I were running from this girl with a weird object in here hand. But he and I both assume that if we were hit by that thing or caught by her, it was all over. So we kept running through this maze like hallway hoping to find an end in sight somewhere. But soon we kept finding dead ends and we could hear her shoes racing through the solid concrete floor. That's when I pulled out a hero move and told my brother to go on as I fend her off myself. For some reason my brother didn't say, "no I can't do this without you". He had no problem ditching me and ran off in to the dark to where he'll be eaten hopefully. He's a cool person but his dream self is not. I am eventually greeted by her presence as she tries to attack me.

I dodge and made a left hopeing she didn't hear my breathing. She turns and comes toward my direction as I held my back closely to the front door. I could hear here steps coming closer intill I was face to face with this person. I raise my hand up as it was at this time I became lucid. I wanted to shake her hand and we did. I continue to explore the area as it look like an abandon prison station. I would then have a false awakening but soon made myself really wake up.

Went back to what worked in the first place: SSILD. Realized I was dreaming and decided to complete a dream task. I have been telling myself for the past week and a half that my "lucid adventures" will not start until I find a particular dream character sitting on a park bench near my house. So as soon as I became lucid, I wasted no time in trying to execute this goal. I managed to get out my house and into the street. When I was half-way there, a powerful wind started blowing in the opposite direction making it obnoxiously hard for me to keep moving forward until I started flying into the air.

I immediately tried to resort to my classic dream control tactics of using expectation to get everything under control but to no avail. I was so close too, unfortunately. I don't recall if I woke up later on but I do remember being in Dubai during a terrible sand storm that was pinning me to the side of a building wall.

WARNING, RANT:

I was reading a comment on reddit about the possibility of SSILD being so effective because it takes you outside of your head and quiets the mind whilst trying to fall asleep. This motivated me to try the technique again because I had came to similar conclusions in previous journal entries featuring lucid dreaming had post-meditation. So when doing SSILD, I made sure to go through the cycles as normal but to be aware of the fan that was running in the background of my room. My intention was to get my awareness 'outside' of my head and have it hone in on a distant object. This is mostly easy to do with hearing. For sight, since I was facing the fan, I simply relaxed my eyes and acted as if I was lazily looking through my eyelids and at the fan in the distance. For touch, it was a normal body scan of various sensations but I did lazily try to be aware of the ambient temperature of the room, if that makes any sense.

What I am getting at here is that 'Awareness of Ambience' may be MY key to consistent lucidity. Some of my previous lucid dream inductions seem to attest to this. To anyone reading this, it may seem like I am trying to reinvent the wheel considering so much scientific research has been done to conclusively say that prospective memory and autosuggestion are the critical components of lucid dreaming.

I have no refutation to the work that has been done in the field, it is just that I find 'brute-forcing' my way into lucidity via mantras/hypnosis/autosuggestion/binaural-beats/visualization tends to ruin my sleep and end up barely working. In the past 7 years, I have had FAR better success with simple dream journaling and meditation during a WBTB cycle.

If I can have 4 more lucid dreams this week , I can perhaps begin to form my little pseudo-scientific hypothesis about "Ambience Induced Lucid Dreaming". If I find good results within a 30-day time frame, I guess I can get around to authoring a guide not necessarily about a new technique, but a general approach/tweak to the SSILD method.

It was a great one. Damn memory

Morning of October 18, 2016. Tuesday.



My wife Zsuzsanna and our children as we appear now are living in the Loomis Street house, though I have no memory of my relatives who actually lived there. We hear loud voices from upstairs a few times. It turns out to be at least two young males, possibly college students.

I am outside near the (south) side of the house when I hear some yelling in the upstairs apartment but I do not see anyone. Just as I go back into the house via the front door, one of the unknown males is suddenly there yelling as if he thought I was spying on him just by me being outside. This is the personified preconscious but I am fully non-lucid and do not recognize the essence at this point.

I soon go outside when he is no longer present. I am carrying my large barbell bar. I end up getting my second one because I soon see that the other two males have a couple near the back of the house, sticking out through the door of the laundry room (which is not logical as it is our living area not theirs) though they do not pick them up when they come into the backyard. I hold both my bars up as if for a sword fight. I decide to steal their two barbells, and, along with my two, put them in a (fictional) attic in the house where they cannot get to them. I tell them this directly. The attic is full of features that I falsely recall are mine, including bed frames (dream sign).

We get into a fight and I knock one of them out; the one who had been yelling at our front door earlier (personified preconscious). While the other male stands on the back concrete step for the back door, I end up putting a dagger horizontally through his neck. Still, I feel a little bad about this because he is much younger than me.

Still in the backyard, I place his body in a bucket that is full of water (which of course is very unrealistic as how could someone fit in a bucket). Somehow, the water does not spill out. I decide I will resurrect him.

After I focus more, with the intent to bring the character back, I look down and notice a skull in the bucket (not logical as he was not in skeletal form when put in). Soon however, a long white balloon with a sketchy skeleton design on it slowly rises up from the water as if being pumped up with a bicycle pump. This seems a bit strange to me but does not puzzle me a lot or trigger any significant thoughts. I get the impression that the character goes back to normal in vague liminal space during the waking stage.

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Because this involves water induction and resurrection, I will assume that this character is my personified conscious self (as it had been determined long ago that the personified preconscious is sometimes a partner to the personified conscious self as a precursor to resolved emergent consciousness in a non-lucid dream, the dream self being the personified subconscious regardless of the “I am” identity - this being obvious because the personified subconscious or dream self cannot remember much at all, unless of course more threads of the conscious self are present). On one level, this could be subliminal reinduction (especially as water is involved); an attempt to “bring my dream back to life”.

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This was a strange one.

Lee and I were walking in the woods after checking out an insane fantasy view. We were walking back to the car when we passed a bro looking dude. I can't remember who said what or if we bumped into the guy or something, but suddenly he became very pissed at us. We giggled it off and got in this white pickup and started driving down a road in the woods.

About a minute later I look back, and the dude is following us. I tell lee and he gets kind of weirded out, but I decide to make it fun. "It's a race then". Lee floors it. I look back at the dude.

7 white pickup trucks are all ripping after us, full speed in the deep woods. We are fucking dead. Lee hauls ass and we start to panic. We pass a small sports court, next to it is a building with a basement. We both notice it. As we continue down the path we realize that we are heading directly into the den of the beast. There's a Mormon comune up ahead. Lee freaks out and starts to swerve. There is a massive building dead ahead and we skip to a stop.

"MEET ME IN THE BASEMENT! GOOD LUCK!"

I can't get my seatbelt off in time. The trucks close around in a shield wall and I am ripped from the vehicle. Kneeling on the ground, I close my eyes and raise my hands. In the long oment I await the gun barrel to my head. Instead, I feel a hand touch mine. Then another. And another. I am surrounded, my captors all touching me as they begin to recite a prayer. My fear deepens. They want to make me one of them.

I open my eyes and they hold a piece of scripture in front of me and ask me to read it. I read it at a level so indistinguishly quiet that they had to take my word that I said it at all. Then, the indoctrination began. They raised me to my feet and welcomed me to the commune. Immediately the most 'hip' guy closest to my age was assigned to take me around. He was clearly born here and had no idea about the outside world, which could be seen everywhere. He took me outside the building and we looked at the beautiful view of the surrounding forest and valley. I did not RC. I turned and looked, and two beautiful girls came outside. They were sent to seduce me, already in the last few minutes they had noticed that the guy would have little effect in my conversion. The girls were clever but totally brainwashed and used obvious tactics to get me on their side. I looked them all straight in the eyes but never did an RC.

After a little while I was given a bit of freedom of movement, and all the while I had not stopped thinking about what Lee had said. I knew he must have moved on from the basement by now, but if he wasn't brought back, there must be a solid method of escape there. There was an emergancy of some sort, and the men running the place were called to an auxilliary bulding. I was about to waltz off to the basement when they all emerged form a door. They were looking for me, when suddenly I realized, I can fly. Why the fuck am I here when I can fly. I ran past them and leapt in the air, flying up in a shitty spiral toward the stained glass roof of this massive commune building. The leader, who was the ballet teacher from Black Swan, saw me. He screamed and I doubled my efforts to fly. This is when I realized i was dreaming. The feeling was amazing, entering a clear first person perspective and knowing that this is the time for me to be conscious. There was no more play time, no more need to be a slave to this place. I started analyzing the rules of how I fly. I went up through the window, but the man began to scream at me. His voice and incantations created a vortex in this hole in the roof, sucking the glass in and pulling me down. I overpowered him and shot into the sky.

In the epilogue of the dream I lost my lucid state, but I met Lee and he explained to me how he escaped, by stealing a UPS truck

I had a dream last night that was less than pleasant. It had a very video game-like air to it at first with a lot of people in an area where treasure chests were scattered and hidden. The treasure inside would regenerate after a while of being taken, but it was randomized. I found a chest with little daggers and such, but it was someone else's stuff, they were keeping it in the chest for safe keeping and they were not far away. I told them I just wanted the dagger and I pulled a pine tree shaped cream dagger out of the chest, they looked at me weird because this was one of their more useless items one they had many of. I said yes and they let me have it, I walked off to continue my search. I came upon a group near another chest which was also empty, this group was gathered around a table. They spoke to me so I showed them the dagger, they liked it and were very friendly. I smiled and chit chatted with this frosty haired boy for a while before leaving.

The dream fades into a more...serious and um, morbid dream. I was unhappy and I knew why. A figure I can not remember the appearence of had told me 'Ever 150th person must die' he showed me a blue electric grid of names as he explained. Every 150th person must be killed because they make life difficult and such....pretty much to restore order, every 150th person on this name grid would be killed.
Obviously someone I knew and cared about was killed so I wasn't the happiest person and I sorta just went about my time keeping my heartache inside. A child stayed with me in the broken building I had taken resedince. I was a grump, seeming like I was constantly annoyed and tired of this kid's antics, I never smiled... and at the end...a flower with six shaped centers, I jumped through. I ran and the child's parent, was to be killed next. I knew this. The child did not, but he followed and witnessed it. Poor thing shouldn't have seen that, I was about to comfort him when I woke up.