21/2/16: That cryptic title means I woke up sure I had had a few dreams but not waking during the REM period they all... slipped away as soon as I woke .
All I can remember is somone insisting on having soy/skim milk. P.S. milk symbolizes maternal instincs, motherly love, human kindness, compassion, and wholesomeness.
2/20/16 Nothing to eat / little water. Shirt only. Living room alone. Aiden next to me. Fell asleep early, maybe 11. Super tired. Think I started affirmations but so tired I may have fallen asleep. It occurred after alarm went off at 5am. Stayed up maybe 10 minutes the listened to my binaural beats, then did affirmations and began body relaxation. I appeared in my room at my old house where I lived 20 years ago. My right hand and arm were buzzing and I realized I was close to exiting. My legs and arms floated up like a balloon underwater but for the life of me I couldn't separate my shoulders. I played with this for a LONG time it seemed. I remember playing with the thought of looking at my sleeping body. I also remember trying to focus on the sensations and vibrations to see if that would help me get out. Next I tried focusing on the letter "A" in my mind. (not sure why) This didn't help either. My legs and limbs floated up and down a few more times. What happened next was just strange. I felt a pair of hands grab onto my ankles. This didn't scare me but I couldn't believe what was happening. It was so strange because this was in a house I lived in when I was a kid. This all was so weird! The hands were there for just a short period when I instinctively sat up and grabbed them. I remember being on the floor at this point and trying to pull the person up through the floor. There arms were bent over my thighs as I was trying to get enough leverage to pull them up before they got away. The experience now took me outside of my old house in front of the grocery store that was close by. This girl was moving away from me and I was closing in on her. She seemed to be the one that grabbed my ankles. I could sense it. Next, we are in what seems to be a police station. Maybe we got arrested? We arrive in a classroom with a bunch of other people and I remember trying to take a seat. It was crowded. I looked over at her and could sense this was bad and we were in trouble. The two agents in front of the room started to talk about OBE. It was as if they were trying to find out how much we knew or were capable of. Some people naively gave information and I felt these were people the agents were looking for. When I looked over at the girl, who now I felt like I had a connection with as if we were friends, I could sense we needed to play dumb. I did feel in imminent danger as if we were going to be taken against our will to possibly help with some sort of government experiment. At some point I was back in the house with my wife who didn't even know me back then. She told me she felt an evil presence. My dad was there who looked a lot younger. I told him about the experience and he seemed intrigued. When I got to the part about my ankles being grabbed he sort of lost interest. We walked into the room where it actually happened and my wife was leaning against the wall looking out the window. I could tell she had to leave because of how uncomfortable she felt. This was all I remembered. Very strange..... I know when I have an obe without any doubts. But this one I just don't know about. So weird.
Again my memory is fuzzy, but this dream was super long in reality. #486 - 2.20.16 4:14AM - DILD There's some creature or entity that want's to take some dream ability from my mind. I thinks it can get the best of my by taking away any possibility of loosing consciousness during sleep. I decide it's a good time to try WILD. I have an easy in-dream-WILD (DILD) and stand back up. I try to confront the thing that is jacking with me, but it is invisible. I think I can hear it skittering around, but I see it's just my miniature dachshund. I get annoyed and kick my dog. I flies across the room and out a window. I am shocked and a little ashamed of myself so I just leave the room. I still hear the skittering sound, but can't see anything. I still feel like it wants something from me so I remain resistance. For some reason I feel the need to hide my thumbs in my fists. I enter a new room and remember that I wanted to fist fight someone in a dream, but I can't seem to summon anyone. Instead I decide to punch and kick at the wood paneling in the room. The walls are really tough, but I eventually break through one with a spinning jump kick. I try to imagine what I'll find on the other side. I expect a white walled hallway, but when I look, I have a view under a bathroom sink with all sorts of bottles and stuff you'd expect to seem. It's not interesting so I back out. I hear my mom talking to my dad about what I am doing to the walls. I follow the voices to a dinning room with a table. My parents are there and my grandmother is standing next to them. Nanny is giving mom some advice about some illness. I focus in on there telling her the problem is the "upper lefter wing". I feel this is important information. I say, "Hey. We are getting medical advice from you in a dream. Let's try to remember this... upper lefter wing. Ok?" We say it together, "Upper lefter wing." I don't try to understand it; I'll look into it when I wake up. I go on, "OK so try to remember this dream when you wake up. It'll be interesting to report the same dream to each other." Then it dawns on me. "Oh no. Oh wait. You're... not with us anymore." I hug my mother's mom. "You're...dead." Now curious, I ask, "So what's it like on the other side?" Her character seems to breakdown now and she seems distance and less lively, "I have to watch out for them." "Watch out for who?", I ask. "Them. The other ones." I am confused. "What do they do?" I expect a better answer; something exciting and wonderful, but she simply says, "They have sex with me." I wonder what the hell this is, "HAVE SEX!? WHAT?! Who? What do they look like? Her appearance is now changing to a young dark haired woman, "They all look like the first one." For some reason she points to one of her ears. "Evil." I continue to try to understand this, "How do we stop the evil ones." "The same way you always have." She says. "With what? Goodness? Kindness? Holiness? Purity? Jesus? WHAT?" She looks like a complete stranger and has faded away into a vegetative state. I decide this conversation is over. The dream fades and I wake up.
I'm heading to work, at an office I've only worked at in my dreams, when I somehow end up at Nino's, who I used to work for. I walk in and everyone I know from before is still there, and they greet me like I'm still working there. Problem is I don't remember working here anytime recently. Heck, I don't even remember working at that office recently, and I'm really confused. Do I actually have a job here? Are they waiting for me at the office? Am I going to get fired? Do I even want to work here? I really should have become lucid, the way I was questioning everything. I think it was my worry and concern for the situation that blocked me from getting lucid.
My memory is fuzzy on this one since it's been so long. #485 - 2.17.16 2:34AM - DILD I am floating in a ocean with ship wreckage around me. I don't like this so then I am in an intact ship but parts are full of water. I feel trapped and then the water starts going down. People the receding water down the stair well. I take pictures of everything and by the way the phone is acting I become lucid. I enter a room with Betteljuice and some other character. For some reason I am not interested and totally ignore them. I find some bubble teeth laying around and decide to put them on and prank people. I see various members of my family and I act all silly and goofy toward them. I am laughing but everyone just looks shocked or frightened so I move along. I enter a room with large macaroni and cheese wallpaper. I laugh at this and wake up
I'm in some fields near my hometown, when I notice something in the sky. An airplane going by, but there's a strange craft following it. The front of the ship has what looks like the front of a steam roller, only made of glowing blue electricity. I watch as the ship maneuvers oddly. I see a lot of weird ships in that area, in my dreams at least.
Catching up. The next three entries will be brief with less detail. #484 - 2.14.16 8:39AM - DILD I am at a Nirvana concert. I remember Kurt Cobain is dead and the guy singing looks nothing like him. The concert is over and as I am leaving I somehow become lucid. I find my car and drive away. The town looks like a childhood memory and I find a house to explore. When I get out of the car it feels like I am getting off a bicycle and I let it drop behind me. There is a fence with a sign I can't read. Inside there are painters. I get the impression this is a new house. I tell the painters they are doing a nice job. I explore a bit and I like the lay out of the house. I think this is how I want my house to be if we ever build. I find upstairs and see a door in the wrong place. I look away and mentally rearrange things then continue with everything in place. Its a bunch of bedrooms. The upstairs leads to a balcony then back around downstairs to the other side of the house. I find some kittens and my lucidity drops as I play with them. I wake up.
[CENTER][FONT=tahoma][SIZE=4][COLOR=#0000cd]Violet Slash[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT][/CENTER] [FONT=tahoma] Not the lucidity that i deserved, but the one that i asked for.. It was fun since i'm sickened of walking simulator LDs. [COLOR=#000000][SIZE=2]Things are getting better for my lucid dreams. I'm still working out on my methods amidst RC's and Mindfulness. Haven't touched meditation due to laziness but i have to do so soon. First thing's first, i finally am starting to get more length out of my LDs.. Chances are that it's because i decided to immerse myself somewhat with the dream. But even then, i'm still making some awkward mistakes like forgetting to stabilize properly or activate my WL memory in my LDs. For this entry, i will make it clear that i didn't intend to even write it down at first, which lead to me losing a lot of detail on it. I mainly chose that route because i felt like i was 50% lucid, that feeling that i got a lot in my older LDs. Not so much detail on here, but i'll still try to put it. [/SIZE][/COLOR][COLOR=#0000cd][SIZE=2]I became lucid[/SIZE][/COLOR][COLOR=#000000][SIZE=2] when i was in my room, and as i discovered that it was a dream, i started touching my clothes as to stabilize my touch sense, which didn't work out that greatly. Had i restored my memory properly, i would have actually done a lot better job at stabilizing. Anyway, i only recall 2 events from the dream or so i would call them. The first thing is that i attempted to find my long-searched-for Dream Guide, which as you may expect failed miserably. I apparently found a person, who was collapsed down like a doll. I remember trying to talk to her but there was no reply or anything similar. The only sure-fire thing is that that person was female. Can't remember the appearance or anything else due to my almost faded dream memory by now. I recall that in the dream around when this happened i was under the impression that this was not my real DG and that there was another person nearby or something like that. I would say that i insist on a specific persona for my unknown DG but i better be ready for anything i may see. So to summarize, a collapsed girl. [/SIZE] [SIZE=2]The other thing is that i was in my room, holding a sword of some kind. Again, i can't remember how i got it or what it looks like. One thing i remember is that i kept slashing the poor wall infront of me, and that i did a quick succession of slashes that immited dark purple energy lines or something similar to that. Cutting the wall felt kinda strange. After slashing the wall, i proceeded by dashing forward and clawing my left hand towards the wall, and at that moment i saw dark-purple (energy?) coming out of my hand..[/SIZE][/COLOR][COLOR=#000000][SIZE=2] The dream lasted around 4~5 minutes. Way better than the old 1~2 minute length dreams i kept having. Strangely enough, this lucid dream appeared after i changed my mindset towards my dreams the day before: ・ "My dreams are very exciting and thrilling. Even if i don't become lucid, it's fine but i'll try to get lucidity. No need to stress it out" ・ At the same time i RC, i try to make myself feel that "dream feeling" and pretend that i'm in a dream environment. Hard to explain.[/SIZE][/COLOR][/FONT]
Updated 02-21-2016 at 04:39 PM by 85813
goal LD 3/10 for remainder of Feb. 7 to go! + bowling: lots of shots making 1-pin-left spares. I have oil on my fingers and the ball drops down several times when I lift it behind me, I try to wipe it off. A girl is bowling on the same lane at the same time. I run down to the end of the lane and there is a giant ball there with some object that I take as a prize and run off. + monsters, bar Big Evil Bos is chastising a minion, the minion manages to talk his way out of it, placing blame on some other schmuck, convincing the evil boss that he's the right minion to help the boss do things. BEB agrees, and tells the minion to assign the other minion to "our most difficult rescue job." In a large open area with a bar, we're captive, I go to the bar and eat some of the little pickled martini white onions [always loved those!]. There are some vouchers with cash there that I use to buy our way out of the captivity, the captor is amazed I'm willing to spend all that cash, but I say our mission is critical and we must leave immediately. + hunt, bikers Looking top-down at a map, the lead guy changes the course, it's a zig-zagging pattern. I start running with another guy along the course. I'm holding (or conjuring) a diagram/map and using gestures to stretch it and rotate it as we move along. Some (enemies?) rough bikers were captured by another gang and being interrogated, they captives are standing at attention outside, one captive is sassy and answers a question something like "pull it outta yer ASS!" The captor leader is impressed by his courage and praises him. We're on the hunt and reach a barrier. Some (fairies?) guards are blocking the way, they demand two severed fingertips from our group. Two guys slice off their fingertips and give them to the guard, who then heals them (re-attaching the fingertips) and lets us go on our way. + LD #177 room w/friends, historical origins of horror literature, phone call, sexy time(s), gollum attacks The LD part was very notably extremely vivid with clear and bright visuals, and very stable with lots of successful control. Too bad I didn't remember loftier goals :/. ... early part forgotten. Some friends and I enter a large (hotel?) free-standing room. My ex-gf SB is there, some (guy?), and me. We're talking about how we're going to arrange to lie on the large bed. Bed-left is nearest the window and that's where I want to be, there is a row of high windows along the right side of the room as facing the room with back to the door. At the bed, SB is saying she wants to be next to me so she can touch me (woohoo I think!). But the guy doesn't want to be on the left side, and I don't want to be in the middle. SB and the guy are talking about ordering a few hundred hamburgers to have them delivered. The thing is though that it's late, and they don't want to take large orders this late because the delivery guy has to deliver and return to the store before he can go home and they don't like doing that. Then SB and the guy are tossing giant greasy hamburgers around the room and they land on the bed, I say that's gross as they're leaving grease marks on the bed and I'm tossing them off of the bed. There is some interlude in a different place where the history of horror literature is discussed. It is a "scary" portrait of a hand against some odd background. Then it's revealed that what happens is that a light comes on behind you, and a shadowy outline of the devil appears on the portrait, you can see the horns on his head. Then there's a brief thing about how the devil is just really some typical dumpy looking guy, and you could even call him "Bob" or "Ralph" and say "hey, how's it going, Bob?". Back in the room I'm noticing the colors of sunrise already in the sky through the windows. Oh man it's late, the sun is already coming up! I get a phone call, it seems like my waking life ringtone. I answer the call and go outdoors outside the room to talk. A girl's voice answers, and she immediately goes off on a diatribe like "OMG! I can't believe you made me listen to that [my ringtone which she somehow heard?]! That's the most terrible thing that's happened to me in a long time! [Blah blah blah for a while]." Then I ask who is calling and whom are you trying to reach, a man's voice comes on briefly, and it's clear that it's a wrong number and I hang up. That sure was a weird phone call, I think. Wait! Weird!? <nose pinch> . I'm dreaming! As always, I'm astounded at the convincing feeling of being awake. The dream is bright, clear, and stable. I immediately decide that since I've always wanted to have sex with SB in a lucid and "she's right there back in the room" that I'll walk back. It takes about 5-10 seconds to get back to the room/building, but there's no door there. I do not let that stop me, and I just phase through knowing I'll end up at the entrance to the room. I do. SB is there on the left side of the large room, and I go to here. Spoiler for sexy time: I move her to a small cushioned seat, (she's a bit uncooperative at first), and I start with giving her a kiss. Her face is very clear, it's a reasonable approximation of her looks when we were going out. She's fully dressed and so am I, and I try out something I've wanted to do for years and make a "ripping apart" two-handed gesture with my hands and command, "BE NAKED!" and instantly she is naked! I do the same to me, looking down at my fully clothed body, my pants/underwear vanish but my long-sleeved shirt remains! Oh well, that's good enough, I start in on getting a BJ from SB. In order to prevent my typical fast wake, I look to the left, and I look to the right in the room, while still feeling the BJ action. I then get the idea of doing a walking BJ, we'll go for a walk outside and SB will continue the BJ. We get up and go outside and there's some confusion about the number of which "door" we must go through. I think oh let's just get on the pavement and do it right here, but SB's gone now. I think OK, I'll go back into the room. I walk at the brick wall again at the place where the door should have been and pass through with no issues like it's an illusion. But instead of being in the room, I'm now in a hallway with girls standing around outside the ladie's room. There are some really nice looking girls there and I move to bring a bunch of them into the ladie's room with me. Inside the ladies' room, it's like a big fancy restaurant, sumtuous wood and cushioned seating, very posh, I think briefly yeah those ladies know how to do it. There is a girl standing at a podium and I know she is the maitre d' (!). I go over to her, she's not attractive, but va-va-VOOM her assistant is HOT. Yes, you'll do nicely I think. Spoiler for sexy time #2: I maneuver her to a couch and just like #1, she's fully clothed and so am I, so again I do "BE NAKED!" and she's fully naked, and again I command myself "BE NAKED" and again my shirt remains, haha! I pull the shirt out of the way and scootch her hips forwards to the edge of the couch and I lean down and take a whiff of her lightly-pubed (ahem), and catch a very nice distinct female scent. Just about to dive in when ... BOOM! Pain! Something bony and sharp has jumped onto my back in between my shoulder blades! It's like a 1/2-sized gollum very bony, I think he's the security system of the bathroom and has been sicc'ed on me. At first I pry one of his hands off of me, take out my "lightsaber dagger" and motion to cut off his hand. He's off of my back then but still targetting me. The unattractive maitre d' is standing nearby and I command her "you have to f^&* him." She responds saying "What!? NO!" I then tell gollum "you can f^&* her!" and that distracts him away from me (he says "Yeah!" and seems excited at the prospect) and I turn back to my girl #2. Spoiler for sexy time #2, contd, mild dominance: I tell her to put her arms up over her head and she lifts her forearms up to her shoulders. No, not good enough, I tell her again to put her arms up over her head, she slightly lifts her elbows but it's not what I wanted. I grab her arms then and push them fully up over her head. She then gets it and exclaims, "You mean THIS shit!?" And I answer "Yes, THAT shit." and I wake up... I was really excited by the quality of the last dream and LD so I never made it back to sleep for 2 hours until my alarm went off.
Updated 02-21-2016 at 03:55 PM by 65364
Another late night, which always seems to mess up my dream recall, got to get to bed earlier tonight. 1) Being driven through the old town I used to work in. I remember driving past some run down areas (that don't actually exist) and noticing that they were now looking as if they had been tidied up and planted with flowers. We drove into the town and I commented that I didn't realise how big it was my wife told me that it had always been this big and I thought 'yes it has'. 2) Walking into a train with a kitten, it's a very young version of our cat. It jumped onto the roof of the train and I managed to get it down eventually. We walked on board then it became an aeroplane I went to the front and asked a stewardess if we could bring the cat and she said yes if it is put in a special cupbord. I put the cat in a carrying box and put it in the cupboard. 3) Not much remembered from ths one. I was stood next to a low wall with my wife. She handed me a laptop and got annoyed because one of our children had put a CD in wrong and it looked damaged. I took the CD out and gave it back to my wife. Numerous times I could have noticed my hands in these dreams: carying the kitten, reaching up for it, holding the laptop.
2.21.16 Yesterday work 5am-1:30pm. Slept from 4pm -3am : D I kept waking up and recalling the dreams. But I sitll forgot details and some dreams. DR 1: Japanese Invasion We are getting together at school. Younger kids going into older kids classrooms. They are moving there from classrooms on lover levels of the building, because we expect invasion. Japanese army is suppose to be near and coming closer. They told us to stay indoors. I really want to see the news so I go outside between some bushes to go get my tablet, because that's where we hid them. We were not allowed to keep any. I see a few open-top military vehicles coming by. I met a japanese man and his daughter on a dirt path through those bushes. I put my hands together, bow down and say some japanese word. I know it's not correct, but I'm hoping it will do. And it does, they greet me also and we just pass each other. DR 2: Japanese knife I open a long package and it's a japanese cooking knife with white handle. The blade is intricate and designed to cut different things in different parts of the blade. I think I got it from a friend. But in next dream my mom tells me that she got herself one too and I ask her how does it cut. DR 3: Girl Spoiler for girl: I walk up to a group of guys with few girls and ask (the guys) if some of them wants to do it. One blond girl says "ok, I'll go with you". I'm thinking ok, but I'm not sure how this will work. She lays down naked and I go down on her. I'm not really liking it and I'm keeping my mouth closed. I tell her that this is my first time with a girl. She says "well after this, you will not able to say that anymore". I'm trying to do a good job but I know I am not. Somebody else comes and takes over for me. DR 4: Movie set I'm standing outside and women next to me are talking about directors. I ask them which studio they work for and they say "the new one, but they can't really say the name".
I was in school. I felt really weak, I had high temperature and seizures. I was almost sleeping there. Teachers had nothing against it. Suddenly my mother and sister appeared, and I went out of school with them. We drove to some kind of government building, I was waiting for them to finish theirs paperwork. Somehow whole my class drove there too for a school trip. I drive back to school with them, and wander corridors. It was dark and the building was empty. I went out - the school was surrounded by huge mountains. They looked beautiful in the sunset.
Hot cop I don't remember exactly where I am. A kind of restaurant/bar I would say. It seems that I'm with friends. One of them, a white guy, is using my phone to send a message to the police through Whatsapp. The profile picture that the police uses shows that there is at least 1 hot cop. My friend gets her number using my Whatsapp and then continues on his own phone. I ask for my phone back and send the hot cop a message about what happened. Basically my intention is to let her know who she is talking to... I want her to be talking to me of course. Bus I'm in a public bus. Behind the wheel is a white woman. I want to get out but she won't let me at this stop, I'll have to wait until the next. I ask her if she is serious and she is. She tells me I can sit down for another minute. I'm quite annoyed by her and start walking around a bit, not wanting to sit down because I refuse to listen to her. I walk to the end of the bus and get out at the next stop. It's been a set back of a few hundred metres. I start walking through the city. It's daytime and the city reminds me of Amsterdam. I walk past some people and can make out some Indonesians talking amongst each other. There's an endless supply of Indonesians in this country. Uni I'm at the university, though I don't recognise any of these buildings from reality. I'm standing on perhaps the 3rd floor. There's a trashbin all the way down. I throw some plastic down, but it's caught by the air current and deviates. My second piece of plastic I crumble up to prevent this from happening. I throw it and miraculously it hits the first piece of plastic and now they're in the bin together. Sweet. I'm in class. The lecturer is my first grade in high school history teacher. We're talking about the results of the test we just had. It was the 2nd of four tests. I explain my logic behind the grades I wanna get to the friend who is sitting next to me. The logic I'm using is actually from one of the courses I'm following in reality, where we also have 4 tests.
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