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What an awesome dream to have on my 200th DJ, it was really stable and quite long. I entered that old 'cave-man mode' once I couldn't think of anything to really do.

#200 - Telekinesis is a wonderful power
I was in a hallway during day time, I followed the hallway until it led me to the back entrance of the building I was in. Ahead of me was a kid, I don't think we were supposed to be there since there was a wedding event going on or something and only the staff were allowed back here. A waiter comes out the back in the standard dark trousers, dress shirt and lower waist apron. I wrap an invisibility cloak around me and the kid, the waiter is suspicious though and gets some dust to blow into the air. He's trying to detect us, we hold our breath until he gives up and leaves. Phew!
I talk to the kid a bit about how invisible people can be really difficult to fight, "I'll teach you a spell just incase you need to use it on invisible people" I say. I raise my wand (where did I get this?) "Ignitus!" I say with force, a bright blue flash radiates out in a delicate fashion, I show him twice I think. I talk about how invisibility is easily countered otherwise it'd be a real pain to deal with, many mages have come up with ways of dealing with people who use it, the spell I taught him is just one of many. I think I walk outside a bit and sit on the grass, there's a gravel driveway for cars to come up to the building nearby. I turn around and head up to the entrance to the building, as I go inside I notice that it's night time. I'm aware enough to become lucid and I turn around and head back outside. I'm in a botanical garden with the sky dark above me, there's some white-lighting from a lamp in the garden. I decide to give telekinesis a go for the dream challenge me and Emnition have going. I look to the side and see four chairs lined up (I assume they were for the aforementioned wedding gig), raising my hand I will them to lift up... Obediently they all fly up a metre of the ground, I'm a little amazed at how natural it feels and how stable the dream is. I swiftly swing my arm left, hurling the chairs with an intense force directly into the brick walls of the building I came from. Next I look at 2 nearby large green rubbish bins, raising both hands they rise before me.. I scrunch my hands into fists and the bins crumple and compact. I release them and they fall to the ground as a plastic heap .
Next I look at a wooden park bench + table nearby, once again I telekinetically lift the object. This time I want to rip it in half. Using both my hands I make a ripping motion, but instead of getting torn in two the bench has this strange glitch effect. The two halves I intended to split kind of rolled outwardly without separating or tearing in any fashion. Bah, whatever. I decide to move on from telekinesis and find something else to do in the dream, it's been going for at least a minute already and is quite stable, though not the most exceptionally vivid (still really good though). I decide to try summon my first ex girlfriend, intending to complete that old dream goal which I no longer care about (though at this point in time I thought I did). I call her name and walk around the edge of the botanical garden, I round a corner expecting her to be there but no luck. I try again, calling her name twice more before rounding the other corner. I see a figure up ahead, success! I run on up to her, her back is facing me. I swivel her around and start flirting + kissing, she's really receptive and things progress instantly Things got sexual pretty quick as cave-man mode consumed me, it was a little more vivid at this point which is great for obvious reasons unfortunately like in most sex-dreams I woke up before getting properly satisfied.

#201
Dream 1 - Candy store lucid
It's night time and I'm in a small well-lit candy store. I turn to my right to see my friend Daniel and his gf Josie bouncing around in an action that looks like they were having sex. They weren't, thankfully, otherwise I would have felt pretty awkward. Apparently it was some new dance craze O_O I head over and start talking with them, there's so much candy around us. I think Josie and Daniel both work here since they're behind the counter. I seem to realize that I'm dreaming, upon this realization the dreamscape changes dramatically but I don't even notice. The light in the room goes out and beside me is a cute chick but she isn't very busty. I'm pretty much in cave-man mode as I instantly decide that I want her, since it's a dream I decide to enhance her bust with my omnipotent dream potential, I place my right hand on her left breast and will it grow . Unfortunately the dream wasn't particularly vivid or stable, I had intended for both breasts to become really nice but instead only one grew... And pretty weirdly. It kind of just shot out, it was longer and harder than it should have been. I became aware of how dark the room actually was and looked up at the the girls face, she really is quite skinny. There's a certain evil feeling coming out of the dream that I tuned into."Ugh, well if I get her other boob to grow then take her shirt off I can just rely on the dream to correct the weirdness" is what I thought. But before I could give it a go I ended up 'waking up'. In real life I was lying on the couch and when I woke up I was the wrong way round, I had this feeling that I was drooling intensely and was slobbering everywhere. I then checked my phone and saw a message from my ex saying "Hey! Hows it going? I really love you and your fossilized wood stuff ..." there was more to the text but I can't remember it. I had told her about all the fossil wood and stuff I had found on my recent trip, which is actually true in real life. But I stopped as I read it and was like "Uhhh what?! O_O", I was confused about why she would say 'I love you' in that sentence and found it a little inappropriate. I had a feeling that she meant it as a friend but it still felt weird, I didn't manage to click to the fact that it was a dream.

Dream 2 - Baby crazy
I remember looking after my daughter, she was just wandering around in my parents house and it was when she was quite a bit younger than she is now. We entered the kitchen and I was practically hover handing to make sure she didn't fall over, she wandered into the kitchen cupboard and my mum came in and distracted me somehow. I was really annoyed because it was somehow inconsiderate and I wasn't able to talk with her because I had to look after my daughter. I turned back to look at my daughter but she was gone. I instantly freaked out and we started looking for her, at this point I looked around at my surroundings and saw my cat Peaches lounging around, as I looked around I kept seeing lots of her. I rounded the corner and looked down the stairs fearing that my daughter had fallen... I was really scared. I look down and saw at the bottom of the stairs... My cat peaches O_O. Lying on top of another Peaches, there were so versions of my cat.

I woke up and next to me was my cat sitting there sleeping...

Dream 3 - Old friend
I must have had a dream much earlier on in the night where I had discovered my friend Aaron, it was insinuated somehow that he was dead and I made a burial for him (thought there was no body I think).

I'm in an institute in what I think is post-apocalyptic (non-zombie, possibly nuclear). It was a concrete facility at the bottom of a deep crater. I have a feeling there was a water on one side. I can't recall what I did while I was inside this facility but I remember that there was a doctor who decided to break the rules and tell my I had to GTFO. He punched a button and sprinted, dragging me and throwing me through an opening outside, then jumped to follow. A door slammed down behind us and we high tailed the hell out of there, it was really intense. I think they were planning on capturing me unawares and using me as a guinea pig (I have a feeling they experimented on lots of animals too). We made it to the top of the crater and sat side by side... It was a calm moment, the person next to me was no longer that doctor, but instead it was Aaron. We talked, I hadn't seen him in so long. Then it dawned on me... And I punch him really hard. "I thought you were dead!!" Tears instantly start flowing and I'm consumed by this extreme sadness, I'm holding him with one hand while the other is on the ground keeping me stable during my emotional fit. I wake up, a little stunned by the intensity of the dream.

I had a brief LD this morning.

As usual, I forgot the exact moment I realized things were odd, but I remember they were not too odd, I just somehow managed to tell it was a dream, so I had to test it. I did something I never thought of awake or a sleep, I decided to hit the dream character I was talking to . It was someone I was buying something from. I thought if nothing happens when I hit him, then it is a dream. I hit him on the head many times and the bat went through his head like he was a ghost . It sounds crazy to me now, and I have no idea how I got this idea in the dream.

I also remember being in some family's house. I wanted to leave them, to do some adventures, but they were saying goodbye and being nice, and I thought I have to be nice and take my time saying goodbye. It is crazy, I was very aware I was dreaming, but I cared about their feelings, and couldn't just leave them, so they wasted my time, and eventually I woke up.

Anyway In this dream, I acted a little bit odd. Let's hope next time, it will be longer.

Created Sunday 14 February 2016

Today, I managed to get into a few waking-dream states, one of which transitioned into a more complete dream scenario. Before that, prior to my first known awakening, I had a normal dream. There's more to the non-lucid portions of what's below, particularly in the scene within the second dream, but I don't know much of it now.

Dream 1 - Unnecessary Work Day

The visuals were dim. I was in a long, dark hallway, the construction of cement, hauling around a blue plastic cart full of cleaning supplies. This familiar object made me think I was back in my old job at the gas station, specifically in the back room, despite the area being much larger. Well, considering as much, I assumed I was tasked with cleaning the windshield washer containers.

During my walk, I encountered two former co-workers, Ricky and Maja, both dressed in the appropriate dark blue collared shirt and khaki uniform, and the latter having red-tinted black hair. There was some brief interaction, but I don't remember much of this.

After that, I head out to the store from the storage room, though by then, I lacked the cart. Anyway, I noticed there was a huge line forming, enough to reach all the way to the bathrooms. So I hurry to the registers to see if anyone needs help there. Once at the counters, I saw that both machines were already occupied, one serviced by my uncle, Hippolytos, and the other by an unknown, tanned skinned, dark haired Hispanic woman. Wasn't needed there, so I started my way out. My uncle calls out to me just then, telling me to fill in for him in a few minutes.

I don't recall much else until the dream ended.

Dream 2 - WILD Feelings

Scene 1 - A Typical WILD Initiation
I was in bed,I was in laying in bed, where I sensed a faint dizziness. So, I made an obstructed breath test, which indeed revealed I was in a (near) dream state. I soon noticed that I was sleeping with my covers over my head, and was also leaning on one of my hands. I tried not minding this much, until I suddenly felt short of breath, not to mention my hand going dead numb. And although I knew better than to heed this much, I eventually gave in, and forced myself awake.

Scene 2 - Spin It on Its Back!
Shortly afterwards, I found myself in a similar state, only this time, I made sure to sleep in a more appropriate position. Kinda drifted between this state and back, until I calmed down enough to anchor myself through my breaths.

From there, I tried moving around, but it seemed I was stuck. Even just imagining movement didn't seem to have any results. I then tried opening my "dream eyes", but aside from some faint, colorful flickering, I didn't notice any changes.

After waiting a while longer, I again attempted to imagine myself moving. This time, I could feel myself tilting just the slightest bit. So, I focused more intently, trying to force myself off the bed. I got far enough to do as much, but was suddenly thrust back into my bed by an unseen force. Furthermore, I was now spinning in place on my back. I rolled with that, and tried spinning faster and faster in hopes of transitioning, though I didn't really have a place in mind. It's perhaps for this reason, and that I probably went overboard on my intent, that I woke up abruptly.

Not that it mattered, for I found myself in the same state soon enough, albeit briefly, for I was transitioned immediately.

Scene 3 - Ignoring My Own Advice
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was standing within the courtyard of a complex of wide, short buildings, what I assumed was a school. Most had white walls and teal colored linings on the top, while at least one was painted peach. There might have been others around, but I ignored them. All this, visible from under a dawn sky. From the start, I retained awareness of my state.

I might have been to excited, for I thought nothing to just fly out of the place. But upon noticing the visuals deteriorating, I stopped, landing on the roof of the nearest building. For a moment, I thought I should be more careful, perhaps even deliberate, in my actions. There's so much possibilities, but I only have so much to consider... only to shrug this off and continue on my way without a care.

Now, I was cruising through an empty blue sky. By then, the visuals were very choppy, but I didn't mind, as I knew things would get better in time. Eventually, I noticed a row of tall, thin objects to my right, what seemed as ridiculously long picket fence posts. Their terrible, blocky resolution made it seem like dated 3D video game graphics, much like in Minecraft. I groaned at the thought of being in such a dream again, but on seeing the textures more resembling those of a PS1 era game than that, I let it slide.

Things get hazy for a moment, until I transition into another scene.

Scene 4 - Let's Not and Say We Did Play
The visuals were blurred. I was in my room, looking at a video playing on some computer (not sure if it was mine), the lighting indicating it was daytime. At this point, I lost awareness.

From the start, I identified the clip as a playthrough for an unknown game, some early era 16-bit arcade platformer action game, not unlike Ghosts and Goblins. Much of this had some armored hero guy chucking weapons at various monsters, all set in a brown mountain area under a monochrome blue sky. Apparently, something from this game was referenced by the cartoon show Rick and Morty, and so I watched eagerly for signs of this.

At one point, the hero fights the boss, a large, grey gargoyle. This creature switches between that and to a variety of shapes throughout the battle, including into a giant, demonic stone head, and an angry cloud of dust.

Around that point, my brother, Markuss, barges in, curious as to what I was watching. He seemed displeased at this video for religious reasons, getting slightly upset at seeing the fictional demon on screen. He was likewise offended when I muttered "Geez" at a close call in-game. I found this all quite wearying.

The video then crashes mid-way. I reloaded it again, but was quite upset at seeing it was replaced with a "Let's Play" of the same game, not helped that it was announced by some bored sounding, short of breath kid. I tried looking through various other clips, only to get similar results. From there, I couldn't help but yell various expletives to the screen, which, needless to say, weirded Brain out.

To assauge my frustrations, I decided to look for that "No, God, No!" scene from the Office in Youtube, all to better convey how I felt at the moment. Instead, I found a number of links to completely unrelated videos. I then tried looking through Google, but this proved most unhelpful, as my commands were being auto-filled with even more nonsense. I remember one having "Ashad's 'No, no, no!'", or somesuch, which only served to enrage me further.

"Who the fuck is Ashad?!", I ranted. "Fuck that! Fuck this guy!"

This only made Markuss even more concerned.

Not too certain what else happened until the dream ended.

Spoiler for Media References:

Aforementioned Office Video:

Hidden in a tiny nook inside the metal walls of the space station, I feel Darth Vader sweep by my hiding place. His footsteps rattle the walls, and I can vaguely hear him giving orders to subordinates.

I am the space station, I chant, blending further into the background. The stark walls are etched by suffering. The station belongs to the Empire—although it masquerades as a lawless refuelling station—and if the Empire's agents make demands, the station management will fall all over itself to capitulate.

"Find her."

I smile.

Then I'm walking through corridors until I reach the outside of the station. The rooms that I walk through are open to vacuum, but I don't bother with a spacesuit. Opening an airlock would be logged on the station's computer, as would removing a spacesuit from storage, and that would tip my hand. Unnecessary, when I can just walk through space under my own power.

It's fucking cold, though. My skin is literally freezing in chunks, but that will go away once I re-enter the living areas of the station.

I can see the stars stretched out in front of me through the transparisteel window, and I step through the glass—

And fall.

I catch myself with a thought. I glide towards the station, where I can see in through the windows and spy upon my quarry. (I wrap myself up in thick blankets as I do so.)

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The Exile—and administrator of the station—looks enraged.

"These are our people!" he shouts at the officer. "I will NOT allow them to be put in harms way because of political machinations."

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We're on the surface of a rocky planet, under an orange sky. The other darksider has his lightsaber out, taunting me.

You can't kill me, he says, not bothered by the lightsaber wound jutting through his abdomen. I've upgraded my body: these machines make me invincible.

I charge at him and plunge my red lightsaber into his stomach, psychically forcing lines of corrupted code into his body through the blade. He falls.

In the last dream I remember I saw a small fairy sitting on a ledge of some sort. I think it was showing me prices for it's services. And in a dream before that I had a lucid dream had a fair amount of control but the sucky part is, I don't remember too much of what I did.

(I tried the counting yourself to sleep technique saying 1 I am dreaming 2 etc. Didn't work then I got up at 4am and felt refreshed. Then went back to bed. When I woke the last time I remembered dreams. When I don't try so hard I feel like it's easier to remember...)

At a train station, put my bags on the train but it left without me. This happened twice.

So another dream fragment last night. This time I was in some sort of concrete tunnel, and it was GURGANTUAN. An I was just sitting there minding my own business in the middle of this huge, dark tunnel. The weird thing is I was totally calm, siiting with my legs crossed just chillin. Weird right? Never to mind that I could see the walls of the tunnel, as if there was a light somewhere.

P.S. according to a dream dictionary this means my subconscious is trying to show me that I am in a state of transition, or that this tunnel leads to my innermost feelings and thoughts.

I went into bathroom and there was head of my oldest daughter in small wash basin we have there... in dark blue water with some bath foam... I starred fascinated as hand rose from basin to stroke hairs... the head turned... I asked why she is there- she told me she wanted to bath and younger sister occupied bathtub. So I looked to bathtub and saw younger daughter to be in just as dark blue water with foam as her older sister had. She had so much water inside that it was nearly overflowing sides of bathtub. I was annoyed- the water was dripping down to ground and it could damage wooden floor outside of bathroom if more water flowed out. So I asked daughter to vacate bathtub and to let out the water. She did as I asked. Then oldest daughter started to vacate small water basin- she is 12 and she is quite tall (170cm in reality and she will grow further )- it was strange how she fit inside such small volume. When she let water out there was no place she could fit, the basin has maybe 10 liter maximum volume...
Then I heard strange sounds from bathtub. Bubbles arose from sink... and water started to rise up! It made swell of water inside, maybe 20-30 cm higher than volume of bathtub has. I looked at that miracle, surprised. Then it flowed out of bathtub down to tiled floor rapidly... And I started to mop is as fast as I could before it could end on wooden floor. I used very small sponge to do that, but I managed to sponge water up somehow.

Remarks
I felt very annoyed in this dream.
Water made such strange effect... it made swell which lasted for many seconds...

I emerged before house. It looked somewhat familiar. Like house of friend I was trying to share my dream with. Yet surrounding was unfamiliar. I decided to try and find whether that house is what I thought it is so I went inside. I was surprised. Once I crossed doors I found myself inside something looking like very big hall... a bank. There were people waiting in lines for money. I backed away from house... The house looked exactly like before. Not the first time house looked much bigger from inside then from outside.
On the other side of road the big house arose, it looked very old, rustic. The world around me slowly changed. The house and garden surrounding it stayed the same, but whole city grew around it (it was small village before I looked inside of that house). I rose into air, maybe in 2-3m of height and I started to fly down the street.

Remarks
I managed somehow to project myself outside of my friend house.
My friend wasn't inside...
Space inside of house was about 20 times as big as it should be, and there weren't rooms, only big open hall with
Atmosphere of dream was similar to astral projection- calm. My concentration was at similar height to AP, yet this was a dream.
The house and garden was vividly colorful, inners of house (bank), and city were greyish... it was like the garden and house was alight by sun, and city was in dusk.

I did not MILD last night or the night before as I was taking a break.

In conclusion, very vivid. I am surprised that I did not RC at any time during that. Especially at the end. Well, there's always tomorrow.

2/14/2016

I was at school talking to someone in the front office. I do not know what, but then I realise that I have to walk to college soon. It’s time to go. I tell them that I might be late and they chuckle. I start to walk out and on my way to college. While walking, someone from school catches up to me and their friend as well. We start to walk wherever we might go. Suddenly, I am not walking to school anymore, but somewhere else. I do not consciously realise this, but I am fine with it apparently. We are now in a wooded area with a road next to us. We are talking about random things. One of the people that I am walking with has a large shotgun. I am not worried because I trust him with it and he knows what he’s doing. I no longer realise that we are no longer on the way to our original destination. He was shooting random things with his gun, along with a bird that we walk by after he shot. We would have to hide the gun everytime that someone went by in a car. So we wouldn’t get caught. At one point I was ahold of the gun and there was a State Trooper ahead and I was worried that we’d get caught. We didn’t but it was close. Then, I realise that I need to turn around to get to college. I tell them and they are cool with it, they will no longer follow me as they are going somewhere unknown to me. I start to run as not to be late and I am now running towards this mass of interstates. I mean like 5, 6-lane interstates, huge. I am now running up this incline that is muddy and I realise that I have 3 knives in my hand. I throw them down farther in the ditch and I slip in the mud and end up with a lot of mud on my hands. I am at this point not thinking about going to college, but I know very unhappy and getting so dirty. There is a State Trooper, Crown Vic sitting there facing the other way as though they might catch someone speeding. I run by them and they ask if I need a ride. I walk up to the drivers door and open saying I don’t want to drive. They ask if I want to drive, but I say no as I might crash it. There are 3 women in the car, all State Troopers. They seem nice and, of course, they are state troopers so they are safe. There is no real exchange as to where I need to go but they start to drive in the opposite direction of traffic. Then, dreamlike magically, the flow of traffic changes so we don’t die. No one is talking accept the driver of the Crown Vic. They are watching traffic for lawbreakers and troublemakers. I was thinking that it would be really cool to be in some form of a chase, and soon enough, there is someone in a small transporting truck that is speeding and driving erratically. The trooper notices it and starts to chase. We weave through traffic as the truck driver realises that he was caught. He speeds astronomically up and gets away from us for a while. We enter a tunnel of some sort and the driver does not seem worried. They know what to do and are calm. We wait for the truck driver to come back out the way, which he does. We chase him back out of the tunnel, now he comes back and we manage to get him. The driver or the other two troopers have not called for backup. So we are alone on this interstate in this dimly lit tunnel with a crazy driver and many people walking around and other cars. It seems as though there is a mall here. We don’t want to hit someone. The driver has now crashed and the driver of our car is out of the car shouting orders at the truck driver. He complies. Then, all of the sudden, he starts to get beaten to a pulp by my driver. Except that my driver is still a good 50 feet away from the truck driver. I am displeased by this and know that it’s not real (RC right now DAMNIT) but I see this guy get killed right there. The job is done. Everyone returns to normal. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

I'm in a rainforest, everything is dark green, from the foilage to the moss-covered trunks, the trees high enough that the sky is reduced to small swatch of grey between the branchs. There are grooves on the ground, incovering dark, red-tinged dirt. The path I'm walking on is narrow, cramped by the flora. It smells cold, like frozen stones and wet dirt. At the end of the path I find a clearing, with a herd of baie horses. There's lots of them, enough that the clearing feels overcrowned, claustrophobic. They aren't big or tall horses; I would call them ponies, but they don't have that king of build. I feel uneasy in the middle of them, nervous and restless.

Spoiler for you are what you eat:

I still walk in a little deeper in the herd, and I find a foal, that seem to be grazing. I look down and it's not grazing; it's nimbling on a horse leg, the bone at the top gleaming in the gray light, the flesh very red and wet with blood. The foal have sharp, flat teeths, and its tongue makes a grinding sound on the skin of the leg. Its nimbling makes the leg move at the joints, the hoof twitching. Looking around, I an see the dead horse it belongs to, a baie one. It's partially eviscerated, other horses eating off the carcass, ripping pieces of flesh and slowly masticating, big dark eyes waiting.

I take a small step back, and suddently I'm surrounded with other horses; they are taller, with a more heavy build; golden palomino, with a bleached blond mane and light gold pelt; event their hooves are light-colored. The one closer to me stomps the ground, and I can feel it shake; the baie horses nicker and steps back, shaking their heads. I can feel the heat radiating from the golden horses, engulfing me. The one closer to me is holding its head at eyes level with me; it's eyes are black, fringed with almost white lashes.
I am holding a silver thing that looks like a big spoon or a laddle. I bang it against a nearby trunk; it makes the same kind of sound that the hoof stomping, but mutch deeper, the vibration rippling through me and the clearing. The baie horses step sharply back, shaking their heads and tails as if bothered by flies. I do it again, and they flee. The golden horses flood the clearing, and the light sees to be a little clearer.

I'm in a house overlooking the forest, with a woman and her very young daughter. The little girl starts complaining about tummy aches, before blunting out "I'm having twins!" the mother freaks out, but I somehow know that the one having twins is one of the golden mares. It seem to calm down the woman, and get go downstairs. The kitchen is flush with the forest, and there are horses wairing for us. I search the frige and get two apples out, handing the biggest one to the woman. She's nervous, afraid that the mare will chomp her fingers. I show her how to give them the fruit, making my hand nice and flat with the apple in my palm. The horse I'm offering it to take a big bite out of it, chew a little then come back for the rest, its nose soft and velvety. I hear the loud craking sound of the apple being chewed up and there's some crumbs in my hand. I brushes them off and see that the woman managed to give her apple to the other horse just fine.
We mash somes medicinals herbs and clay together and looks for the pregnant mare. It turned into a young woman, and her belly is so huge she can't move from the bed she's sitting on. I give her the mix, and she start covering her swollen stomatch with it, sighing in relief. Her skin is so streched I can see her veins running under, and the pulse of the blood in it.

With pals we took a rocket and flewn to a distant planet. We had to wear protective suits as the air was filled with toxic gasses. We went out and moved up a hill, and then we saw enemies - huge, muscular humanoids in the distance. I took out a rifle and started shooting to them. At first I couldn't land a hit, but then I shot one of them, presumably their leader as when it died, others took his body and escaped. We had to go back to rocket, to refill our air tanks.

The frst time for many days I have remembered anything worth writing down. Working long hours which isn't helping, and I'm always in a rush to get ready for work when I get up. It's the weekend now which helps.

1) On a road in the car with one of my children. The car is driving itself it's a tour around a large hill in Yorkshire, some sort of holiday complex. It's a lovely rural road with views over more hills. We passed some buildings and I looked at the map and thought that it should be a cinema but it had been converted to a business, there was a row of houses next to it.
Then we came up to a traffic jam, then a junction and for some reason we had to get out of the car. We walked up a hill and there were hundreds of people coming in the opposite direction.

2) I was in a doctor's surgery. I was talking with some old patients in the waiting room. Another doctor called someone in before them but it was their turn and they weren't too bothered. I walked back towards my consulting room. Everything was cosy like a normal house, warm, a nice carpeted corridor, beams on the ceiling, old wooden doors. I met a dog in the corridor and said hello. My bike was leaning against the wall. I was really happy. I opened the door to my consulting room, the dream ended and I woke up.

Morning of February 14, 2016. Sunday.

Dream #: 17,954-05. Reading time (optimized): 2 min.



In my dream, my wife Zsuzsanna and I are in a shed that may be a distorted version of our present home’s shed. There is also an unknown male character.

A trapdoor spider about four times bigger than a real one is near the doorway. It bites Zsuzsanna on her right knee, but she is soon a young version of the Erin Walton character (played years ago by Mary Beth McDonough), which puzzles my dream self in a way that alters my level of awareness.

The man holds her as she cries and sits down and he gives her an injection near her right knee with a hypodermic needle (a very rare dream prop for me), which contains the cure. It seems she will recover. I look in the doorway, and there stands the four-times-bigger trapdoor spider. I eventually understand that the spider is Kali. “She is the mighty aspect of the goddess Durga. The name of Kali means black one and force of time. She is therefore called the Goddess of Time, Change, Power, Creation, Preservation, and Destruction.” (Kali often has four arms and two legs, which makes her an “insect,” not a “spider.”)

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Zsuzsanna used to play with trapdoor spiders without knowing they were venomous (yet luckily was never bitten). Secondly, I associate Erin Walton with the petting of a deer (relating to a documentary feature about her that I saw years ago as well as the Waltons episode “The Fawn”), which was like a very similar image in a photograph Zsuzsanna sent me before we met of her feeding a deer.

Zsuzsanna’s right knee was miraculously healed (even though doctors said it could never be) when we first met and shared meditations. Although there are other layers, two are interesting and fit perfectly. One is a ghost story related to Kali as a demonic living statue (though I no longer have that comic book). On Thursday, February 14th, 1974, I saw “The Waltons” episode “The Ghost Story.” “Strange things are occurring at the Walton home. The family uses a Ouija board to ask questions about the happenings. A small boy staying at the home is to leave to meet his father. Things happen to prevent this.” The original newspaper summary: “John-Boy obtains a ‘spirit board’ which is reputed to foretell the future and to put its interrogators in touch with the psychic world. When the board appears to be delivering mysterious messages, Grandma and Olivia insist that the children stop playing with it.”

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The trapdoor spider in my dream seems associated with a Ouija board (which is dependent on the use of hands and which is what a spider also represents in some dreams in a negative context), also representing Kali, also representing “messages” in the liminal stages of sleep which have various transpersonal sources. Because my 1971 dream features doorway waking symbolism using Kali, it seems a relevant marker. On one level, it serves as a personal confirmation against so-called psychics, “dream interpreters,” or ideas from questionable sources.

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Morning of February 14, 2016. Sunday.



I climb a ladder through a trapdoor above me and into a small dimly-lit room with a number of gears that are presently not moving. I have a hammer (though I do not recall having climbed the ladder with it). The gears seem possibly jammed as well as rusty. Hammering them seems to not only remove some of the rust, but rather than breaking the gears, it seems to somehow add missing pieces (or teeth) back onto them.

The gears begin to move, more golden in appearance, the light in the room grows brighter, and I soon wake in mid-swing.

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This is about as obvious as waking symbolism can get (though subliminally self-initiated rather than with biological RAS activation). A ladder symbolizes rising in consciousness (waking). Using the hammer signifies becoming more aware of the nature of the real physical body (and kinetic energy metaphorically equating to neural energy - as something shaking or vibrating also symbolizes the waking state precursor), and of course gears turning relates to waking and more viably thinking. A room growing brighter also relates to dawning consciousness. Yellow and gold are emergent consciousness indicators (570–590 nm) as in being analogous to sunrise, though orange and red, in that order, increase waking priory.

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