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Morning of April 15, 2018. Sunday.



This was the first time where four of my dreams in a row, at least in recent memory, carried the same vague storyline continuity, probably because I not only went to sleep earlier than usual but slept later than usual. It is mainly a dream about studying the factors and components of the dream state itself, though this has been a very common theme in my dreams since early childhood.

In my first dream, I am thinking about the nature of the WAF (waking alert factor), the primary biological function of which sometimes results in a snake being rendered as a result of RAS modulation (the key dynamic). I am on our bed, though our house is rendered incorrectly (to prevent waking life associations). I deliberately sustain the dynamics of my dream (only in semi-lucidity, which is neither viable lucidity nor apex lucidity) and watch two snakes. The first is mostly off the bed and is black, eventually ending up on the floor. A second, a yellow one, is moving behind the other, though it is not implied that one is following the other. I recognize that the one on the floor being black is a reference to deeper sleep in this case. The yellow one is of a level of consciousness closer to the emergent consciousness factor and more rapid RAS modulation. My semi-lucidity holds what otherwise serves as the WAF and I even point it out to Zsuzsanna, who is walking around in our kitchen. (This is similar to past in-dream experiments relating to snakes.) I rewind and reset my dream, and the crawling snake event repeats, so I can study it more and determine at what point the shift in unconsciousness occurs. I notice a slight difference in awareness when the last 25 percent of the black snake’s tail is still on the bed (in moving to the left, to the side of the bed) and the yellow snake is about 75 percent on the bed (coming from my right). I fail to remember that moving to the left is also of the nature of dream state reinduction or in some cases, moving back into dreamless sleep states, depending on circadian rhythms dynamics.

I allow myself to fall back into deeper sleep without waking. From here, a new dream begins, which relates to a futuristic science-fiction scenario. I am no longer of any degree of lucidity other than faux lucidity at some points.

An unfamiliar man is driving a cargo truck. I am aware that it is carrying snakes for a carnival. I remain near a weigh station as it stops and eventually drives on over a bridge over part of the ocean. Eventually, there is news that the cargo truck was destroyed, driver and all, by some sort of beam directed by a government satellite. I watch the event on a computer monitor. I watch the wide yellow beam come down to dissolve the truck. I realize that there may have been another reason for this event. Perhaps it was related to either a mistake made by the people running the security system or because the man knew too much about government operations.

I shift into faux lucidity and try to expose this government conspiracy (which is related to non-lucid RAS mediation, inherent to the dream state, not waking life). Bruce Willis and some other people are listening to my description of the events. The man was believed to have been carrying unauthorized nuclear weapons. I am somewhat puzzled, as I remember that both snakes and nuclear weapons are key factors of RAS modulation while in the dream state. However, as I am not viably lucid, my mind sustains my dream non-lucidly. I go back to the weigh station, which is now more like a store’s checkout (typical autosymbolism for the last scene and exit point of a dream) and pick up the severed head of a green snake as well as a piece of its body. I show them to the other people as evidence of a government conspiracy. Again, the man was not carrying unauthorized nuclear weapons, but snakes for a carnival. At least one had left the truck when it stopped at the weigh station. At the same time, my dream self also realizes that I am making up the whole scenario and that I have no idea what the man had actually been transporting. Still, I enjoy the concept of writing such stories.

In my next dream, there is still some memory of my previous two dreams. There is confusion about picking something up in a restaurant and something to do with my yellow notepad (without a cover) of which I had been writing results of my dream experiments for the last month or so. I find several notepads as well as being given one by an unfamiliar female who works at the restaurant counter and had come outside to talk to me, but none of them are mine. Some of the notepads are only half the length of a real one (which is autosymbolic of my conscious self identity not being fully extant in the dream state). Some of the notepads have writing, but it is not mine.

I walk into the restaurant. My notepad related to dreams, which I now have automatically (though there are still missing pages implied), also has what are supposed to be “real” notes about the previous events and the evidence the cargo truck had only snakes. I now become aware that I had been hiding from those who had apparently destroyed the cargo truck in my second dream of this sequence. James Franco is sitting at a round wooden table. I tell him not to talk to anyone about me or the event from my previous dream. “But why are you hiding?” he asks me cheerfully, “You are famous”. I realize that he is implying that there are too many people who know about the truth for the government to target only me. However, I then consider that the majority of people in the general public are completely oblivious to any semblance of truth. I vaguely remember that virtually no one in the general public has any understanding of the dream state or of dream meanings (a view I hold in real life), regardless of endless popular falsehoods. This is confirmed by seeing one unfamiliar girl trying to “interpret” her dream (writing in a yellow notepad) at another table. I become so annoyed, I briefly wake, though while allowing myself to sleep for another half hour or so. (My preconscious, James Franco in this case, being cheerful and not with any conflict, was a precursor to this choice, as there is only conflict by way of RAS mediation as such in the final dream of a sleep cycle to initiate the waking alert factor). During this dream segment, there was also a clear focus on government satellites, of which could direct a weapon at anyone in the world. (I am only vaguely aware it is a direct reference to RAS modulation in ending the fictitious dream self identity during the waking transition. In fact, the cargo truck’s destruction is even called “RAS modulation” via satellite in my dream.)

From here, in the fourth dream, I am near a two-storey building of which is implied to be a girl’s school in England and otherwise looks much like the Victorian School of Art and Science at Stroud, Gloucestershire. The girls, including the ones on the second floor, each walk out from a different window and walk about and hover in the air before returning to their bed each time. I am apparently looking for a girl who knows what the dream state is, as that would be the only sensible goal of coalescence. (Why coalesce or even communicate with ignorance?) In reality, a dream is primarily a state of unconsciousness of which the Moro reflex in infancy evolved. Each has a yellow notepad (though they do not carry it with them), and one is the same unfamiliar girl as from the prior dream. No one seems to know this. Each girl is dressed in a very similar manner, in mostly what looks to be a Victorian costume, which seems to be part of some sort of theme day. In summoning this essence, I vaguely understand that I am merely recognizing public ignorance of dreams, which typically always “looks the same” and of which is very outdated.

Part of my dream self’s focus and features in these dreams came from major distortions of “Pay It Forward” (2000) and “Oz the Great and Powerful” (2013), which Zsuzsanna and I had watched several hours previously.

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Date of Dream: SUN 15 APR - 2018



Dream No. 310 - Separated Sections

Dream 310 A - She Sings On X-Factor
I don't remember much of this dream at all. The only scene that I can remember is being in some random unknown place and seeing this huge parade of people walking past in the building. I caught sight of WB who was dressed very eccentrically. I made an attempt to catch up to her before she left and it was a success, as I caught up to her parading beside EGor as her line partner. Although she was the real WB, she had behaviour patterns more common to Dreamy WB.

Her hair was styled really dramatically with her afro being multicoloured... More specifically, patches of aqua, white and then this gold glitter sprinkling over it. I asked her what she was doing and she gave me a lengthy explanation on how she got onto X-Factor, I forgot specifically what she said though. She was very friendly towards me for this scene. That's all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 310 B - Finding A Friend
I don't remember much of this dream either. From what I can remember, I started off in my bedroom of my old house. I remember that I was doing something and my parents would keep catching me out, I forgot what exactly it was I was doing though. That scene repeated a few times with a few different variations of me running away from them.

I then ended up in the backyard of my old house. I have completely forgotten the intention of this scene. Faintly, I recall that there was this character that I know nothing about, which was going to my ally for the first part of this scene... Classified as the first world (reference to areas from Mario games). Once I had completed the tasks set for me in that scene, it was time to move onto the second world, which was weirdly though sill taking place in the old house backyard

For the second world, I received another animated character as my companion but yet again forgot who or what it was. After completion of the second world, I spoke to myself for a short while and within that speech, there was a tiny bit of reference to getting Murray back. I eventually figured that I couldn't get Murray back yet at this time and there were no stranger characters coming to help, so I thought to myself, “what do I do?”.

The next world I went to wasn't in my own home and rather was somewhere completely unknown. There characters as I said before weren't appearing anymore and it wasn't the right time to get Murray back yet. I decided that it was time to call Dreamy WB for assistance in this world. As she was appearing (in her Oktoberfest outfit), I woke up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



I've been having some very inspiring thoughts over a couple of nights and have even done some slight planning if the idea does come to fruition. I'd like to host a competition for the month of May; it still rewards lucid dreamers more but it is also friendly to non-lucid dreams and is mainly the focus on encouraging consistent recall and increasing overall quality of dreams. It's one where everyone will be able to score decent points and people are not heavily disadvantaged if they can't get lucid over a long period of time. (criteria is for instance, the same task but a lucid dreamer might get 6 points for it, whereas a non-lucid/standard dreamer gets 3) I am thinking, there will be teams for this and there will be the Beginners, Intermediate, and Advanced leagues based on lucid criteria to keep with the DreamViews competition tradition. May will be my chance (June as a last resort) because I will be busy with a work experience placement at the end of June and first part of July. Then after that, my university degree starts which will gradually cram my free time as the term progresses. I'd really love to do something like this... Tell me what you think.



Dream 310: Competition Results

Competition Night: 14
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Estimated Length of Dream (Lucid Only): N/A
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Points For This Entry: 1.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream (1.0)

+ Previous Total: 6.5
Total Accumulated Points: 8.0

I had this next dream about an hour after the first one. It was Halloween... in the middle of the day. Ed, Edd, n' Eddy had found a horse and made it their trusty steed. At one man's door, a father's child was prepping himself to answer the door, telling one of the eds "okay, I'm ready" and asking them to slap him in the face. One of them did it too hard and killed them. Next, the kid's grandfather died of a heart attack. The family resembled the Fitzgerald from the amazing world of gumball. Once that was over, they were off, with Eddy beating the horse to get it to go. They met Rolf at a crossroads where he challenged them, as his GIGANTIC horse spun around in circles. The scene faded out and then back into a sewer, where you could hear ed saying "nice, BIG girls in the sewer!" The place seemed to be partially re-purposed to some kind of set of stations meant to make men better than before in every way.

This dream starts with me listening to my cassette player. Unsatisfied with the quality, I decided to go to the record store, where I found like twelve jensen cassette players kind of just on the shelves.

Fragment 2: There was a theater in the middle of a desert like area a mountain where me, C, and K, as well as some other theater were listening to a grindcore song being played through a projector. My friend's reactions were as follows:
What even is this? - C
This song fucking sucks - K
As soon as the song was over, I got up and said "still not better than dream theaterIN MY OPINION!"

Fragment 3: my nephew/mmkk's brother was listening to what he thought was a cassette player. It had similarities to a mini cassette player, but more digital looking. I told him that that's not even what cassette players look like, but he didn't listen. I then got out my phone, which for some reason, had Kim Jong Un and Robbie rotten or someone like him over the gay flag as the wallpaper, and tried to find an app to prove him wrong. No luck. There was also a fragment where I was sitting across from N in a classroom somewhere in there.

Round 1 of Dreams

Videos

The first part I remembered was this You Tube kind of thing where people could post up their own videos. I had thought of a way to name my own videos. There was a woman with brown hair who had come up with a way to get people to think they had to pay her to post a video on her channel. I realized it was a scam and posted my videos myself, without having to pay her.

Bar

I was at a bar with my Mom and Dad and some other people. My Mom and Dad were not really together but they were still splitting a drink. So my Mom would come along and pour some more of my Dad’s drink into her cup. It was a yellowish kind of alcohol. My Mom was with another guy I think. Then one of them started pouring some of the alcohol in my glass. I did this rap like, “Yo! You ain’t pourin no alcohol in my cup, yo! What are you thinking?”

<<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>

Meditating

There was some idea in the dream about how its good to dream but then it helps to meditate during the day. They explained it in a way I never heard before. I can’t quite remember it now.

Aisle

I tried to hide the lap top in the fridges in the food store aisle.

Bosses

There was more to this part, but I can only remember it vaguely. But there were two boss guys. I was telling them, “You’re the Big Cheese. You’re the Big Cheese.” I wonder what else happened. Some kind of argument or something.

Pellets

There was a guy telling me how in the olden days, they put pellets <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> so it made a clicking noise. But they don’t do it any more. I think I was mad about the inhumane ness of it.

Job

Something about consulting a guy about a job. They gave me a job and paid me some money ahead of time, just to start. I was like, “That gives me good incentive, so thanks!”

Animation

I had to do animations. My plan was just to get something off google images. Then get an animated mouth, that would move with the speech. I wonder if that exists. Like a computer program that moves a mouth along with speech. Then I could just paste that moving mouth over the google image, and I’d have a little animation thing. But then I started to realize such a computer program might not exist, and I might fail at this assignment.

Planets

There was this thing in this rock circle valley place. An elder was saying how if someone does something in their term on one planet, that causes destruction, then if they go and do the same thing on the next planet (without learning from their mistake) in the same term of power, then… That’s frowned upon. It showed <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> and a dorm <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> with some people around there.

Conceptual

There was another part that was really vague or conceptual. I remember feeling like it repeated. It had to do with recording the above dreams within the dream and knowing I could find it in waking life. Like really believing that was possible. I don’t think it was a Lucid, Dream though. But there was something about patterns. I couldn’t really explain it once I woke up.

Round 2 of Dreams

I biked and stretched in the dark before going back to bed, hoping to ensure that I’d sleep. I made an attempt at Wake Initiated Lucid Dream which got me to sleep but didn’t get me to a dream. I remember it felt like forever I was laying there trying to stay still. And I was making it, little by little. But then I got the “big rollover signal”. That was really, really uncomfortable, but I realized, it, too, would pass. And it did. But I didn’t remember any dreams when I woke up from the sleep. Maybe something about dreaming about dream recall?

Couldn’t Sleep

It’s about 4:38 A M now and I couldn’t sleep since probably 1 or 2 when I woke up from the above dreams. I tried biking and stretching in the dark, meditating, and eventually gave up on sleep, and came to the computer. To type the dreams so far and type some older dreams in a neater format. Now I feel sleepy again and hopefully I get a round of two of dreams.

Round 3 of Dreams

Eventually, I did get back to sleep. I forgot earlier parts of this but it turned out to be an interesting and unexpectedly dark Lucid, Dream chain.

Excluded

The earliest part I remember is some of my old friends were standing in a circle, wearing Navy Blue. They excluded me from the circle. <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>I guess we fought a little but I’m not sure.

Classroom

I was in my bed for a moment, then in this class room. <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> was being mean to me. I chose to retailiate. I actually knew it was a dream at this point. <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>Then I realized everyone else there would gang up on me. I felt real fear of them actually causing me dream pain. I put my fingers on my forehead and did an instant transmission. It popped me back into my bed for a moment.

Whirlpool

Then the dream popped me into this big whirl pool of cold, cold water. I remember feeling the cold. It was swirling me all around. I couldn’t get any closer to the edges because it was pulling me towards the middle. Attempting to swim to the sides ended me up with swimming in place at best. There were these platforms I was hoping to be able to get onto for safety. Eventually I appeared back in my bed for a moment.

Blue-tiful

Then the dream popped me into this place with lots of people from before. I was flying. I still knew it was a dream. I thought <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> was coming but it turned out to be <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> who was also excluding me earlier. Then I saw a female dream figure. She was very pretty but her face was fuzzy and blue. Maybe kind of like Avatar. I think her eyes were yellowish. I went up to her and said, “Do you remember what happened in my first Lucid, Dream from earlier? Please help me!” I really thought that she would actually tell me what had happened. She replied, “I don’t know if I can help.” And then preceded to tell me something else. Then I told her she was so beautiful! <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>

Left out

I continued to appear back in bed then pop back into the dream a few times. Each time, I was like, “yep, still dreaming.”

Then I was around all these people from high school and college again. The women there were really well dressed, and looked to be paired up with other guys there. I still knew it was a dream. I was thinking to myself, “Wait, how is this MY dream, and yet I’m the odd one out? I should be like the alpha male.” I started trying to say that to everyone but I realized, it might not be MY dream. However, I did express that I felt like no one thinks I’m cool, or that I felt un cool.
<<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>

Babies

I walked through the area some more and saw babies laying in a bed. They were crying, and cuddling with other babies. I was surprised that the babies were sort of cuddling instead of the parent holding the baby. Then I tried to hold some of the babies. But a baby came up from behind me! And started to choke me. I couldn’t breathe! I started to try and fight in, panicking a little bit. I still knew it was a dream, but didn’t seem to have much dream control.

Paralysis

I appeared back in my physical bed. I sat up a bit in my “non physical” body, feeling sleep paralysis. I opened my dream eyes but didn’t want to! I didn’t want to see what I expected to see. Even though I was lucid, I was still not up for it. I felt very overpowered by the dream thus far.

I looked toward my desk and saw the air kind of twist and bend like something was about to appear there. Something scary. I closed my dream eyes and just relaxed though. That seemed to help. I rolled out of body, falling onto the floor. Then it ended.

(After I woke up, I realized that if there was some entity coming for me, and I rolled out of body, it might have possessed my body. But I am still here, in my body, the next morning. There is no other entity in my body.)

Kitchen

I appeared in a kitchen. It was a different kitchen than <<SECRETZ0RZ!!>> but I justified it by making a story that we had moved. So I didn’t know it was a dream anymore. But I was still conscious, so it was like a false awakening. I was near a fridge, eating pizza. The cheese was falling off the pizza or something. I thought I had woken up into Physical Matter Waking Consciousness, but still expected a “hallucination” to come get me.

App

I remember trying to dream journal. But this app kept making noise. When I tried to pause it, it wouldn’t pause. It was like an app for a workout because if I pressed the pause button, it would resume in a few minutes. It appeared that this was its programming. To resume playing after a few seconds of being paused. Duration depended how many times pause was pressed. So when I double pressed it, it was 10 seconds. I tried to press the stop button, a little square, but nothing seemed to work. I thought of just putting the phone volume down manually so I could record my dream.

My Dad was in the kitchen part, too.

Pizza

I re appeared in my bed again and thought the dream chain was over. But no! There was one more. I dreamed I was eating pizza. I had two slices, one stuffed slice, with crust on both sides. It was like a 10 inch slice but very thin. The other piece was like normal size but the cheese was missing! This reminded me of the previous dream. But I didn’t know it was a dream at the time. I took a bit of one of them. It tasted good. The big slice was on the table a little and I was afraid it would get dirty. I woke up from that dream still chewing with my physical mouth! Then like, “Oh, I’m in bed now!”

Notes

It took some time for me to think through those and record. After getting insomnia, I was really drowsy. But I guess I recalled a good amount.
<<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>
Round 5 of Dreams

Fields and waves

I was in a class setting that reminded me of fields and waves. The professor was teaching something. I thought it was boring. There was something that reminded me of the cartoon, “Dexter’s Lab.” It involved a serrated clamp going to an electronic device. And then it was like “Jacking In” From megaman Battle Network. Kind of surreal or abstract.

Shelves

<<SECRETZ0RZ!!>>Overall Notes

I am just practicing grading my dreams like in competitions, so, here was what I would have got tonight:

3 dreams recalled, 3 points.
First Dream Induced Lucid Dream, 10 points.
Lucid, Dream Chain, 2 Points.
WBTB, 2 Points.
Interact with DC, 2 Points.
Ask for advice, 5 points (asked for help in recalling dream).
Fly, 5 points.
Instant Transmission, 10 Points (to escape people in class beating me up).

Total = 39 Points.

FRAGMENT

- - -

I was in a plane with my family, we were probably on a flight to America. (We're going there at the end of the year in real life)

I was sitting next to my sister on the plane.

The plane started to go down and turn on its side. My first thought was "this is quite a steep turn". Then it got so steep that I knew we were about to crash.
My sister fainted and fell into the middle isle of the plane.

I jumped into the isle, sat down and picked up my sister and put her in my arms. My thought was "If I hold her just right, I can cushion the impact and maybe she'll survive". I pretty much expected to die.

Down the plane went. The farther down it went, the more I adjusted myself to give my sister the best chance, and the more I braced for impact.
The plane pulled up at the last moment and I then knew the impact would not be as bad as I first thought.

CRASH.

Next thing I remember is carrying my sister down a street with hundreds of people running about, and bombs going off.
We were in some sort of Eastern, war-filled country. Sandy streets, sand-coloured buildings.

My mum was running beside me. I was worried about my dad and the rest of the family, but I trusted my dad to deal with that. All I cared about was getting my mum and my unconscious sister to safety.
I looked up and saw a missile come towards us, so I shouted, "This way!" and I turned left and my mum followed. We escaped the missile.

- - -

So I took a nap and as I fell asleep I tried to focus my thoughts on my favorite TV show, Avatar: The Last Airbender, to get a related dream. Most of the environment and clothing, etc. was typical to that of the Earth Kingdom in the cartoon. The whole dream felt like a weird, semi lucid state, where I kind of knew I was dreaming but it never really crossed my mind.

I woke up in a small room with a bed, a hole in the wall for a window, a closet, and a mirror. I went to the closet and put on a green skirt and a white top. I found some green flats as well, they were really simple looking shoes but they had no laces. I looked in the mirror and saw myself, I was a lot shorter than I am in waking life and I was a darker-skinned asian. I started doing my hair when I heard my mom: "Misun, I made breakfast!"

That was my name in the dream. "Coming!" I called back as I did my hair and put on eyeliner. When I was finished I went out into the dining room. We must have been relatively poor, our house appeared to be made of clay or something, and there was little furniture, just a small table with some chairs. I saw my family. There was a lady and a younger girl, the lady was my mom in the dream and the girl was my younger sister. Both were similar looking to me, but mainly different in age. My sister's skin was a lighter shade than mine.

I sat down and ate toast. After I took a bite, my mother started talking to me while she washed dishes in the kitchen using a faucet and bucket. "Misun, I need you to pick up some milk on your way home from school today" (I must have been high school aged and I think my sister was probably a couple years younger than me).

"Alright, I can do that." I replied. My sister made a silly face at me and I smiled at her. After we finished breakfast my sister put on a backpack and I picked up a shoulder bag thing and carried it like a purse. It had a couple books and supplies in it. We said goodbye to our mom and left the house. Most of the houses outside looked pretty similar to our house and the street was smooth stone, about 8 feet wide. My sister and I talked about a lot of things while we walked to school together. Among the things we talked about, I remember talking about schoolwork and cooking. "Can you help me cook fried rice this afternoon? I want to learn how."

"Sure.", I told her.

"Oh, and some of my friends want to play 축구 on lunch break today. Do you want to play?" (축구 is the Korean word for soccer)

"Yeah, that sounds like fun." I said. As we approached the school we entered a gate with the earth kingdom symbol overhead, a circle with a square cut out of the middle. I parted ways with my sister as we entered different doors to the school. I walked to a locker and opened it, putting some of the books in my locker. Someone approached from behind and I turned around. It was a tall guy with dark hair smiling at me. I must have known him within the context of the dream's story because I didn't think it was weird at all. "Hey Misun, do you want to go eat at the dancing dragon tonight?"

"Sorry, I'm teaching my sister to cook tonight," I told him, "but thanks for inviting me." I closed my locker and went to my classroom.

When in my classroom the teacher handed out scrolls to each of us. This is the only part where I have evidence for the dream possibly being lucid, because I remembered that people speak English and write Chinese characters in the world of Avatar, and I was excited because I remembered talking with DawnEye11 about reading foreign language in dreams. The teacher started talking but it was kind of like a charlie brown cartoon where I didn't pay attention to a single word she said. I opened the scroll and found it was written in Chinese, just as I expected. Most of it was unrecognizable to me, and was probably fake Chinese since I can't read many of the characters, but I read two characters that I did recognize,中國, which I read as 중국 which means China. Funny, I always connected Earth Kingdom culture and symbolism with that of China.

After class we went outside for a break. I found my sister and we started playing that earthbending soccer game you see in the cartoon. So my sister and I and another earthbending girl played against these three boys. I have earthbended in dreams before, so the motions and the feeling of force came pretty naturally to me. It is one of my favorite things to do in dreams. It's like a whole new skillset to learn that is not even possible in reality. (although you technically could learn the martial art it's based on). We only scored once, and high fived each other, before either the dream ended or my memory faded, not sure which one.

Created Friday 13 April 2018

One serendipitous LD to note, along with a fragment.

Scrap Group 1
Something about Fire Emblem?

At a beachside hotel lobby. This eventually transitions to below somehow.

Dream 1 - FWILD-I-DILD False Wake Induced Lucid Dream Induced Dream Induced Lucid Dream

Scene 1 - WILD Argument
The visuals were a bit dim. I was in a narrow dining room occupied almost entirely by seats and a very long table, the place barely lit for visibility. Many extended family members were there. This event was hosted by an unknown African descended lady, a gaudy woman with a raised, straightened hairstyle and wearing a decorated blazer.

Soon, the event was interrupted by the woman's mother and sister (the latter of whom appeared like mom's boss, Theresa). The former made scathing comments to her daughter, especially about some posters of models lined around the walls. After a bit of arguing, the hostess ran away in tears.

Concurrently, I started dozing off. In fact, I was attempting a WILD. REM soon triggered while my eyes were opened. My cousin, Lillian, noticed this, finding my actions both creepy and humorous. At the same time, the above-mentioned irate woman tried roping me into a her rant. I ignored both. Transition.

Scene 2 - False WILD, True LD
The visuals were much brighter. I was in a the upper suite of a beachside hotel, so noted by the view of a pebbly shore below. A clear dawn sky reflected vibrantly upon the calm waves.

Dad showed up to speak of mundane matters. I ignored him in favor of enjoying the outdoors. So, I opened the window, and leaped down to a white sidewalk. It was a rough landing, but I made it intact. Things destabilized briefly. Nothing some hand rubbing couldn't fix. I stared at the horizon, watching sloops pass by in the distance, all while thinking of something to do. Drawing a blank, I settled on practicing control. I floated closely over the water, starting slow, then jetting further ahead. Eventually, I arrived near a bay occupied with many hotel towers. While still flying, I tried warping back to the beginning, only to teleport on a collision course towards the above-mentioned buidlings. Comedic cartoon violence ensues. Cue warp.

Scene 3 - Tiny Silent Stroll
The visuals were a bit dim. I was outside in a city area during a calm night. Classical music echoed throughout the dream, but it was otherwise silent.

I floated up the steps of a nearby building, when I was suddenly shrunken down to about an inch high. Fine by me. Anyway, inside was a vast, ornate lobby. Red carpeting lined the floor, while various kinds of fountains were built near the walls, all of which accentuated a crystal glass statue in the center. Neon Chinese text flashed on some pillars. Guess this place was an earery.

There was no attendant in sight, so I made my way towards the lounge. Two African-descended women were there deep in conversation. Placed on a table in front of them was a polyhedral bowl filled with Dorito's. I helped myself to one, which, given my size, was awkward to grip, but otherwise no trouble to lift (and chomp!). I then tried getting the attention of both women, even by fluttering past their faces, but they were too involved with their gossip to notice.

Across the room was another waiting area. A lone woman, light skinned and with short blonde hair, was over there reading something. When I flew to that area, I willfully projected my view to a top angle, so as to better compare my size. It seemed I grew a bit, probably to the size of a hand. Anyway, I soon realigned my sight. After that, I waved the chip over my head to get the woman's attention. She eventually noticed me, seeming startled at first, then feigning composure. I initiated some chit-chat, but as mentioned, I couldn't really hear anything. Still, she seemed to have an amicable response, and even allowed me to stand on her palm.

Things destabilized, then collapsed shortly after.

Round 1 of Dreams

I woke up from my first round of sleep pretty groggy. It seemed like I dreamed a lot.

Webs

I walked across this bridge. It was day time. Then I was walking through this woods kind of place. I kept walking into spider webs. I remember really freaking out. I walked into one, and then as I ran the other way, I ran into another. They were little webs but right at eye level. I remember frantically brushing my hair to try to get any spiders off me. I remember it feeling very vivid. I definitely thought it was the physical world.

Cornered

I remember feeling really trapped. I couldn’t get between any trees because I would have to walk through another spider web. But there were no sticks on the ground to make myself a path. I thought of calling someone to bring a stick and help me out. The feeling or emotion of it was very intense. I felt really trapped and scared. Almost like claustrophobia.
<Personal Info>Wrist

There was something about someone saying to put a rock on your wrist. But when they demonstrated it, they had it more up the palm of their hand. It had to do with <Personal Info>

Camping

There was a part with a Dog at a camp ground. We all had camp sites. Someone was saying how <Personal Info> would smoke early in the morning, and then everyone near by would have to smell it. Also, the dog would go towards the smoke, or noise, if there was noise. I wonder if these were Non REM dreams or REM dreams. So we had to hold the dog in place so it didn’t go anywhere dangerous.

<Personal Info>

My friends Dad was in this one part. I was scrolling through my web site for a service I offered in the dream context. My friends Dad was asking when I wanted to get together. Wednesday or Saturday? I said those days worked for me but that’s when <Personal Info>would be away. I had the sense of charging him for my visit. But then I felt bad about it because he was my friend. But then I realized I charged him 300 dollars, (in the dream context), for wedding services. Plus, I needed the money, (in the dream context). It was some kind of audio service I provided.

Bodybuilders

One scene had all these bodybuilders flexing. They were doing lat spreads and tricep poses and all sorts of bodybuilding poses. <Personal Info>It looked like they were getting ready to all have a bodybuilding competition. One bodybuilder near the kitchen got a big bulging balloon thing coming out of his chest. The other bodybuilders were being mean to him about it.

Frieza
<Personal Info>

There was also a seemingly related part in which Frieza was fighting a Saiyan type of character. The Saiyan blocked with his knee. It seemed like the fighters had separated to prepare for continued fighting in a more formal way.

Ritual

I was talking to <Personal Info> about setting up some kind of ritual. Well, the dream did something really “trippy”. I remember being with other people in the dream and then something really “trippy” happened. (I really wanted to remember what exactly the “trippy” thing was upon awakening but could not recover the detail.) After that, <Personal Info> wanted to do more “tripping”.

We had this book to use for a ritual. He wanted to lay down and have me administer several doses of psychedelics to him over the course of time, while he didn’t move.

Data

There was a format to some information we had to fill out. “something slash something slash something”. The “somethings” were Something and not just “something”. For the first column, I wanted to write, in parenthesis, “Not something too strict.” I remember being in the <Personal Info>school bus drive way. I also wrote that “My Psychedelic trip is abandonment”, referring to the various internal chemicals released when I experience feelings of abandonment. Also that I didn’t need drugs because I have cool dreams.

Orbs

So he was set up on this table with orbs around it. From a top down perspective I saw an orb at the head and foot of the table. The rest of the orbs were along the right side. Eight orbs in total, with various designs. I had to center the orb at one end of the table. I still wasn’t planning on actually administering drugs to him though. There was a window.

Resentment

<Personal Info> or the dream itself said something like, resentment needs to be cultivated in order to feed a certain spirit. And it mentioned the words “Satan” and “God”.

<Personal Info>
Round 2 of Dreams

<Personal Info>
<Personal Info>

Class

I was in <Personal Info>class. I walked in while it was going on. Also something about an Italian teacher or history lesson. But this class was apparently an Lucid, Dream discussion group! <Personal Info> asked the class who would like to discuss Lucid, Dreaming next. There were a lot of students. Everyone raised their hand. The teacher picked me to go after the next person. I asked if I could wait and just listen for a little while since I just got there. I had so much to say about Lucid, Dreaming. My own experiences as well as tutorial kind of stuff or philosophizing. But I wasn’t sure where to start. I felt like I had something to offer the group though.

Pacing

I remember walking up and down a hall way, thinking of what to say about Lucid, Dreaming. I walked one way and all the doors were open. When I turned around it was like someone had shut them behind me. But I could easily open them when I walked back that way. Some part of it was muxed with a shore line of a beach. A man had a giant float or dock thing. Was there a boat?

Convertible

Okay so then I was in the back seat of a convertible. Two women were in the back seat with me and then my friend <Personal Info> was driving. I asked him if I should just climb to the front, in case he wanted me to go around. So he said it was okay to climb. I remember the seats were black with white lacing. We were going out to eat, but I didn’t have my tooth brush. I imagined this would be uncomfortable when I went to put my retainer in later but I would have to make it work. Maybe I could buy a tooth brush while we were out.

Battery

I had an electronic device, like a music player. I panicked when I saw how low on battery it had gotten. I was looking for a Samsung charger. I remember looking at the shape of it to see if it would go in. The wire was in black casing.

Sleep

I dreamed that I was laying in bed. Someone had been saying something about sleep. And that there would be no point in using a drug, because that would just bring them down. So, I was laying there in a bed, in the dark. It was oriented differently than my physical bed. I heard my Dad showering in the upstairs shower. I figured I would have to use the downstairs shower at the same time and hope there was enough hot water for both. Then a little alarm started to go off. It was saying, “It’s 5:45! It’s 5:45!” I don’t think it was 5:45 in waking life. But I was like, “Wait, I didn’t set an alarm.” And I became aware it was a dream. <Personal Info>I was only lucid for a brief time, then forgot it was a dream. But so I laid there and looked at my phone. It was a thinner phone than usual. I could tell the menus weren’t the same. This phone had a drop down menu like my computer. I knew if the phone alarm went off again, it was definitely a dream. And it did. It said, “It’s 5:53! It’s 5:53!”

Listening

One of the apps that came up was a dual screen app on a live stream. It looked like a Nintendo D S screen. The guy was talking about how he would read to everyone. And he was soliciting donations. I had a hard time figuring out how to close it. The colors were bright and vivid. I remember the color green. I think the kid had like a brown afro. I think the app was called Deep Listening.

Sleep Paralysis

As I laid there in the dream bed, I was afraid I would get sleep paralysis. I was hearing some voices too. But this was actually within a dream already.
<Personal Info><Personal Info>

I decided to get up and look around or walk around. At this point I had forgotten it was a dream. I heard <Personal Info> talking about how he hadn’t gotten enough sleep. And that’s just how he lived. He was making a song in a high pitched singing voice, saying that he was “delusional” and “confusional”. I was surprised because that didn’t seem like his usual personality. But as I walked on, I realized that it would be good to get to know people one grade below me and one grade above me. This would give me a full sense of all the range of everyones personalities.

Rice

I got to a cafeteria where <Personal Info> was hurrying to get ready for the day. He was rushing to cook some white rice with pink beans mixed in. Also there was some brown sugar syrup added to it. He had it in a big pot, stirring it. He asked me if it was cooked enough. I wanted to say, “You should really cook it all the way. If you have any doubt as to its done ness, then cook it more, or else you won’t digest it.” But I held back because I don’t think he would listen due to being in such a rush. He wanted to make some kind of pancakes out of it. He kept taking big bites of it as he cooked it, and spilling everywhere.

Bean

<Personal Info> came in and asked for some food. <Personal Info>gave her a giant pink bean that was enough food for one person in itself. The cafeteria shelf things were silver.

<Personal Info>

Notes

I had a dream of trying to record all those dreams. Then I woke up surprised I didn’t really record them. <Personal Info>Round 3 of Dreams

I had one short dream of trying to push a recliner chair up the stairs. I wasn’t really able to. Someone else was there in the living room. They were making fun of me for not being able to move it up the stairs. And it seemed easy for them to move it. So I acted out a spectacle of having exaggerated difficulty as a joke.

I remembered the phrase, “Dreaming isn’t just about being strength,” or “dreaming isn’t just about needing strength,” Something like that. I’m not sure why I woke up from such a short dream. But I just went back to sleep.

<Personal Info>

Round 4 of Dreams

This was a really long and interesting dream. Just as an overall synopsis, I dreamed that I was in a crazy car ride, and the next thing I knew, in some vivid, hyper realistic location. I instantly knew the new place was a dream, but even within that dream, I still thought the car ride had been waking life. Interesting effect. It made me wonder if I had been in a car accident and died, or if I was now on morphine in the hospital. So now I will tell the full story.

Shop

First my sister and I were in my Dad’s shop. We had left the house around 10 A M and would be out until around 5 P M. I’m sure there were more dream details about this whole context.

Someone needed my Dad’s help. It was something with a heat or drill press. But he was a little too busy at the moment.

Car

My sister and I went out to the car to go home. Maybe my sister was drawing. The drivers side and passenger sides were reversed. When I went to open the drivers side door, it was a front compartment ahead of the actual drivers seat, with a handle. I remember looking at it, a little surprised, but I justified the condition.

Our car was covered in little green spots. Like it had been spritzed with green spinach juice. Another car was ahead of us, which had also been spritzed. I justified that as well with dream logic.

Driving

I drove down the road and found the brakes not to be working. “We should really bring this back to the shop for Dad to have a look,” I said. But it had been such a long day, that I just wanted to get home. Every time I went to use the brakes, the car took forever to stop, and I almost hit something. My sister was saying it was stressing her out too much.

I frantically searched for a place to pull over, and found a shoulder.

I remember looking at the E Brake. It was an off white color. I considered using it but was afraid to burn something out. My sister had a steering wheel on her said. Wait, wasn’t I driving? She asked me if she should press a button on the steering wheel to help it stop. I said no that probably wasn’t it.

A white car pulled by us slowly. I thought it was my Dad because it was a white subaru. But my sister didn’t roll down her window. The driver sped up again, and the car was clearly different, because it had a big square back compartment instead of the curved kind of hatch back. I think it was covered in green specks too.

Eventually I pulled out again. I didn’t check before I pulled out, and realized I could have pulled out in front of a car, and got my sister hit. So that was lucky, but, okay, gotta be careful.

Driving on some more, it felt like I was floating up to the ceiling of the car a little. I couldn’t reach the silver brake pedal. Luckily I got to it just in time to not rear end a black car ahead of us with a white thing there.

Traffic

It was 5 P M in the dream, so there was a lot of traffic, and I didn’t know the way home. <Personal Info> suggested there were multiple ways home. <Personal Info> looked really congested with traffic. I got towards the <PERSONAL INFO> and saw an exit sign for Exit 54. And then some more exit signs, but it seemed to jump to Exit 28 or something like that.

Perpendicular

I drove from the service road, across the grass, onto the exit ramp, across the grass, and across the highway, going perpendicular to traffic. I was so scared and had no clue why I was doing it. That was the last thing I remembered, until…

Huh?

The next thing I knew, I was looking at a Goomba, walking along a floor. It was very vivid. There was also a yellow koopa shell like the ones that flash multiple colors. I realized it was a dream, or at least, not Physical Matter Waking Consciousness. But I didn’t know the previous scenes had been a dream. So I wondered what had happened. Did I die? Did I get knocked out, and put on morphine in the hospital? Was my sister okay? I really thought that.

I remember looking around that floor. There were some escalators. I remember some green panels with writing, like a list. I remember looking at it and starting to strain to remember it. Then I was like, “I will just try to enjoy myself. Then I will remember what I remember when the time comes.” I’m not sure if there was anything else upstairs. It seemed there were some missing pieces in my memory.

Pregnant

I walked down some stairs. It seemed like other people were going to a wake down there. There was a platform between the stair cases with 5 people on it. The woman in the middle was wearing light blue. She was small, maybe 4 or 5 feet tall, but had a belly.

I told myself not to ask, in case I was wrong. But I did it. “Hi! Are you pregnant?” “No, I just haven’t been going to the gym,” She replied. Ah! I felt so bad. “Oh, I’m so sorry…” “Just kidding! I’m pregnant!” that was really funny.

She asked me for help. Then I was like, oh, great. They are standing on the steps to solicit donations. But I said yes, I would help, because it seemed no one else would.

The woman gave me a tray of food to bring downstairs. It was to help her market her product. Again, she exceeded my expectations. The food was chocolate covered rice krispy treats, which also contained mac and cheese. They had a box with it that said, “Don’t go to a wake without Mack.” I started to picture the wake downstairs as a place where they had a lot of great food! So I took those downstairs.

Missing Pieces

I forgot some parts between that part and then up until the next part. There was definitely some eventfulness but I had no memory of it. I know I was lucid though. I think I talked with dream figures and had a good experience. But it shows that no matter how cool the Lucid, Dream is its really almost like It never happened if I forgot it.

<Personal Info>

Taste

<Personal Info>

So then I felt the dream start to fade. I grabbed one of the rice krispy treats and started to eat it. It tasted milky and sweet. The dream almost faded but I made a good save.

Window

I got to this little area with small circular tables. One heavier woman with dark hair was sitting with her back to me. And another woman was at a table to the right. They were watching a T V I think, and talking. I think I ate some more dream food or did something else special. Then I saw a big glass rectangular window along one of the walls. I flew out through it, passing like a ghost through the glass, did a loop, and went back in. The field was full of green grass and it was daytime. The women said, “People always fly through that window.” As if they didn’t understand. <Personal Info>

Evaporate

I noticed they might need help cleaning up the place. So I thought of offering to help. There were some little puddles of water on the blue floor. I used mind power to make them evaporate. That was kind of cool.

Spoon

Then I noticed this little cup of cocoa powder on the cafeteria line that had been there all along. I wanted to eat some. But I wanted a utensil. I considered grabbing some with my fingers, but would rather have had a utensil. So I tried to make one appear using summoning. However, it wouldn’t appear in my hand. I heard the dream tell me something like, “There is no spoon.”

Woman

I still knew it was a dream. I saw a woman nearby. She had dark hair. I told her I was having trouble making a spoon appear. I considered asking her to show me to a dream school but didn’t quite get to it. She started looking a little bit past me, towards where the cocoa was. She was saying how the spoon was on fire now. (Upon awakening, I realized, she must have made a spoon appear, but I didn’t look. I didn’t think, “Wait, what spoon?” Until I woke up.)

It looked like she was looking directly at her magic’s target. In my head, I was thinking, that’s all wrong. She has to do magic behind her. (Maybe she was making a spoon appear for me.)

Story

Then she flipped her hair and suddenly she was wearing a red bathing suit top, with some yellow designs on it. She leaned into one of the cafeteria service stations, with her head beneath the window cover thing. Wanting to be at eye level with her, I also leaned in. She began to tell me a story. I forgot the details of it, but I just made eye contact with her, and listened. A head band appeared on her head with some gold pirate insignias. But she was a good pirate, if anything. I still knew it was a dream. Or at least not Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

Tears started to come to my eyes. I wanted to stop her and ask, “do you know where we are? Are we dead? Are we going to be here forever?” As soon as I thought that, it was like we both knew, even though she went on talking. It felt like it went without saying.

Ending

Then the dream ended and I was back in my physical bed. Okay, so it was all a dream, after all. It seemed like kind of a sudden ending. I guess I started to take for granted that it would last forever.

Notes

<Personal Info>
I felt amazed at the experience of this dream. But still kind of sad at the parts I forgot.

Round 5 of Dreams

<Personal Info>I didn’t remember any dreams from this round of sleep.

Round 6 of Dreams

I didn’t expect to fall asleep one last time, but I did.

<Personal Info>

Neighbors

This is funny because this morning was actually garbage day. I dreamed I was with the neighbors in their drive way. They had this big electric thing they were throwing out. They said it was supposed to become a transformer. It looked fuzzy and black.

Books

I dreamed of someone laying out the Harry Potter books from a stack in the cabinet. They were comparing them to another long series of novels. I remember the first two books seeming accurate. And expecting the last one to be Prisoner of Azkaban. Slytherin and Griffindor may have been mentioned.

<Personal Info>

Notes

I almost didn’t realize that had been a dream.

Overall Notes

I tried grading myself as if it were a competition, and got about 47 points. I wanted to get used to the grading system so it would be easier to participate in the next competition. <Personal Info>

Woke up after many hours of sleep, and as falling asleep again, I get an HH of me walking. I'm in a building and it's very dark, but still can see. My first instinct is to get out. But then I remember that I wanted to go into the dark places. To confront my fear and to see what it is. So without hesitation, I turn and start walking towards some other rooms and to more rooms after. The dark grey turned into black, but as I went to it, I could still see a little bit. There was nothing, just empty rooms. I am not scared, mostly just curious.

Date of Dream: FRI 13 APR - 2018



Dream No. 309 - An Injured Patient

I don't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, I was injured by something but I forgot what it was. I think it was due to the fact that Logan from SML was causing metaphorical harm and this manifested in a physical injury. I ended up having to go to hospital and the staff there confirmed that I was in a critical condition. When Logan found out that I was really badly hurt, he came to see me at my bedside. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



Dream 309: Competition Results

Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Estimated Length of Dream (Lucid Only): N/A
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 6.0
Total Accumulated Points: 6.5

Working at a desk, i'm day dreaming then look at all the stuff I have to tidy up. Loads and loads of stickers of dogs Oo. A teacher comes over to me and tells me she knows i'm not needed for assembly as im expecting a phone call from my mother. I wonder what she is talking about. I go to ask her then wonder what day it is and where I should be. There are a load of people standing there so I ask them, but they all look puzzled as none of them know what day it is. I am awoken by the phone ringing.

I couldn't reach something so I used dark powers to get it. This looked quite cool, shadows/black dust swarmed together either side and picked up the object. Very like Valkyrie Cain's Necromancer powers (If you've read any of the skuldugery books).

EXT. FAIRGROUNDS - NIGHT

I run my hands over a scale model of a city park on a hill. Fuzzy green grass, modern white architecture. The model is partially mushy and partially solid; my hands slip through the atomic lattice in some places but encounter rigidity in others. This serves as the dream sign, I suppose, because I am lucid. Except this time I don't remember the aha moment of recognition, only a constant knowledge of my conscious state. (Is that good?)

I see my doppelgänger and run to him. He does not particularly resemble me, but I know somehow he is a second "instance" of myself--congealed from the implicate order, the collective unconscious (however these things are done). I grab him by the shoulders and exult, "I'm dreaming! And I'm going to dance with a pretty girl!"

I leave my double standing bewildered on the fair grounds and begin dancing in place to conjure up a partner. It takes a while but eventually she's there. She is shy and doesn't want to dance at first, preferring to remain seated. With gentle persuasion, she rises and I lead her by the hand to the speakers where the music plays. There are no other dancers, but I waste time looking for the perfect patch of pavement on which to begin dancing with my new girlfriend and we never get started because my alarm clock wakes me up.

I curse the clock. But the lucidity and purposeful dreaming lasted a relatively long time compared to earlier dreams. I'm improving my stability!

Lesson: In dreams, as in life, don't waste time waiting to find perfect conditions—create optimum conditions if possible, or make do with what's available in the moment.

Not much to note, so I may as well pile on two days worth of dreams.

Log 1077 - Zamasu's and Gowasu's Dialogue, Angry Time Stop Suplex, Unexpected Guest, Warehouse Humming, Private Mail Service, and Breakfast Chemical Plant Zone Scraps
Created Wednesday 11 April 2018

Scrap Group 1
Watching Dragon Ball Super. This was mostly clips of Zamasu and Gowasu arguing about the role of mortals.

Working in my old job at the gas station. One of my former bosses, Tony, was busy at the register. I offered to help there, but was told to man the coolers instead. Later on, when the store got super packed, I noticed a thief sneaking out. Enraged, I stopped time, during which I ran after the guy to suplex him. I was almost aware, but the dream ended too quickly for me to act on as much.

At home upstairs. There was poor lighting. Later on, an unexpected guest barged in the room. Think it was my brother Anton's old friend Yusef?

Outside a warehouse during late afternoon. I start humming Desert Ruins Zone from Sonic Lost World.

At a gas station with several others. I found a poster advertising private mail service.

Wandering in a live version of Chemical Plant Zone from Sonic 2. My brother, Norm, and nephew, Aleph, were there with me. There was a long sequence of us getting shot into a series of corkscrewing air ducts. At one point, we fell into a vat of assorted food stuffs, which were then funneled into a conveyor belt below. As we got drained, Norm gave indications to hit various levers in the perimeter. We then got safely filtered to a shallow channel, which we escaped. Furthermore, our tampering resulted in some foods combining into what Norm referred to as "breakfast hotdogs", which were just hotdogs topped with scrambled eggs. My brother and nephew seemed to enjoy the food, but I found it a bit salty and rather predictable in flavor.

Log 1078 - TF2 Imbalance and Cat Teacher Scraps
Created Thursday 12 April 2018

Scrap Group 1
Playing TF2. There's something about imbalanced classes, and of hamburgers.

Supposedly working as a teacher in a (elementary/middle?) school. There's an odd but nice looking brunette co-worker, of whom was not only cripplingly shy, but also vocalized exclusively in cat meows. And yet, she was somehow superbly competent at her job, enough to draw great envy among the rest of the staff. Various other teachers harassed her during lunch by literally taking her meal right out of her hands, but she was much too timid to even be frustrated by that. Later, something about climbing a mountain.

Before bed I read a lot of the old Task of the Month and Task of the Year posts. It was really inspiring and set a good example for me of remembering dream goals when I become lucid.
(((personal infoz)))Round 1 of Dreams

I am not sure when it was, but at some point, someone said, “17, Thanks for noticing this.” Maybe something to do with an address.

Cooking

(((PERSONAL INFOZ))) was in this part. There was some kind of cooking area. Someone wanted me to bring over all of a certain kind of food for cooking. (((personal infoz)))

Long Day

I dreamed that it had been a long day. I was in the (((personal infoz)))gymnasium with (((personal infoz))) as the teacher. It was around 8 P M and I hadn’t eaten yet that day. And they were still pushing us to keep doing stuff. I got mad about it. (((personal infoz))). (((personal infoz)))Fish

I was out in the water. (((personal infoz))) told me that it was okay to catch one fish, but if I wanted a different fish, I would have to replace it. My hands got all cut up from the fish. It must have had sharp scales. I remember looking at my hands and the skin was cut off really badly, leaving a lot of red parts exposed on my hands. I was wondering how to make them better.

Doctors

Something about doctors saying how to cut the skin. I pictured cutting off the loose skin with a little razor. (Wait, wouldn’t I want to repair the existing skin, not cut off more?) The doctors were talking about a “0.777 razor” for this job. I was also looking into different band aids.

House

The doctors were trying to build some kind of house out of something like cards. It was like a card house but not quite. (((personal infoz))).

Notes

I took my 100mcg of Huperzine-A before going back to bed. I think it’s day 5 on that. And about 1000mg of Choline Bitartrate a day, split between some at breakfast, and some at dinner. Choline said to take it with food so I’m following that instead of having it on an empty stomach.

Round 2 of Dreams

I slept, but couldn’t think of any dreams upon awakening. That seemed weird, but the rest of the night turned out great.

Round 3 of Dreams

This dream chain was really cool. I was a little dissappointed with my recall once I finally woke up in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness though. It seemed so vivid, but once I woke up, I struggled to remember it. That sometimes happens with really long dreams.

(((personal infoz)))
Upstairs

The regular dreams began upstairs at (((personal infoz))). In this part I went into my Dad’s room to ask him something. I told him the lamps were too bright so he turned one off. He asked me if I still had all the “photos from Rome”. I assumed he meant the childhood and family photos from the bin in my room. “Yeah, I still have those.”

Blanket

My sister was on the floor in my Dad’s room doing the D C Quad Stretch. She was doing it all the way down on the hard floor. I was like, do you want some cushions? Are you going to count your time? She said she didn’t need to because it wasn’t difficult for her. She also did some kind of movement with it. I was really impressed. I need to be on a bed to do that stretch, with pillows under my back. Then there was a part about (((personal infoz))) being stronger than me. I was looking up how much I could bench press. At first, I guessed 150, but then I guessed, probably 135 or less, due to my shoulder. So I imagined what it would be like if my sister benched more than me.

(((personal infoz))) said she had a stone blanket. It referred to her comforter being very hard. I understood her in the dream but I don’t understand as well now in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

Ringing #1

I was laying in my bed, thinking through those dreams. Then, the ringing started. The high pitched ringing I have grown familiar with as I’ve had more “phase” experiences. I felt particularly afraid of an ominous prescence because I participated in some threads about night terrors. But I found I was easily able to get out of my body. As I was exiting my body, I remembered that expectations had made a difference to me in the past. So I tried to create a positive expectation. I even thought of having an “inner smile” as I separated from my physical body. My idea was to “appear” in a gym, and lift weights. That’s been something I wanted to do. So I tried to picture that.

Home

Well, I “appeared” in my room anyway. I didn’t think to check if my physical body was there, so I don’t know if it was an O B E or a dream. I went right for my room door and opened the handle. Turned it and opened it. Went out into the hallway.

Next I jumped down the whole 14 stairs of the stair case. I wondered for a moment if I was in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness, but when I landed softly, I was sure I was in a dream or whatever it was.

As I jumped down the stairs, I was repeating two affirmations. One was “I’m Lucid.” The other one was “I’m (Something)” But I forgot the exact word. I think it was not directly about dreams.

Encounter

My Dad was coming down the steps. I wondered if it was my physical Dad or just a dream of him. And I wondered if he saw me, or if I was a ghost. He didn’t seem to see me. Then, I saw myself coming down the stairs! I wondered if it was my physical body, or a dream of it. Then I wondered how my physical body would be up and moving if I were not in it! It didn’t seem like my self saw me, so I just said some nice things anyway, and went out the front door.

Flight

When I stepped outside, the whole scene was very vivid and complete. It wasn’t like the dream collapsed when I opened the door. There was a whole big world out there. I flew up with ease. (((personal infoz))) house had a big opening in the middle, and sparks were flying. I assumed they were working on a car. But I thought it was (((personal infoz))) from next door to us at (((personal infoz))).

Techniques

I tried two things. One was I used an affirmation. “My Lucid Dreams last long and remain stable.” I said that out loud a bunch of times within the dream. It seemed to stabilize things a lot. The other thing was I tried to put my fingers to my forehead, to instant transmission myself to a gym. But, it wouldn’t work. When I opened my eyes, I was still flying around my neighborhood.

Ferrets

I remember I flew around some more houses and roof tops. I think there were more details I forgot. Eventually I got to a part where I was in this warehouse kind of place. There were tall white stacks of shelves with some white covering. If I was regular size, they must have been 30 to 40 feet tall.

There were big red wood drawers sliding autonomously towards the shelves. Giant ferrets were living inside the shelves. I was worried that the giant shelves were disturbing the ferrets.

Meg

I met a woman in the dream named Meg. She was the boss of this warehouse. She had dark hair and a yellow shirt. (She was not anyone I know from waking life.)

I had a lingering sense of fear in this part. I didn’t really know where I was. I felt like I was in somewhere that was supposed to be off limits.

Bed

Eventually I returned to my physical bed. I thought through all that had happened. But, it wasn’t over! I heard some voices and some ringing, and slipped out of body again.

Dad

The voices seemed to pertain to something with my Dad. So I phased through my door like it was air, and through his door like it was air, to go into his room. Maybe I needed to protect him from some spirit thing. The T V was on in his room. I didn’t look around much. I kept on the move a lot during these. I felt weird having gone into his room, so I quickly went through another wall or ceiling. I think he was sleeping.

Attics

I am not sure if this is all in perfect chronological order. But next I think I flew up through the ceiling. I expected to go through an attic, then up to the sky. When I got up through the ceiling, I roosted on the floor. The attic room was all white, definitely not like our physical attic. There was a white styrofoam square in the middle of the floor.

Keeping on the go, I tried to fly up again. But I passed into the same room again. And again. It was dimly lit.

Person

I decided to surrender and just explore this little room that kept repeating. I put my face close to the panel and took a good look. It looked like a human face. That made me think that I could summon a person. (((personal infoz)))I transformed the panel into a person. I interacted with the new dream figure a litte bit until the dream briefly ended, then started again from that same room, only with me by myself again.

I remember thinking that maybe “summoning” the person worked because we both wanted to meet at the same time. I was thinking of them as if they were another lucid, dreamer.

Room

I was still in that room. I looked at the floor and stuff. It was kind of grey. I think there were some bright colored orbs on the ground, like the plastic pellets I saw in the woods.

Warehouse again

I forgot if I appeared there from flying around more, or if I returned to my bed and then another dream began from there. But I was in the warehouse again. Now there were more people besides “Meg”. (This Meg doesn’t pertain to anyone I know in waking life.) I felt like I shouldn’t be there. I hid behind the 30 to 40 foot shelf things with the ferrets. I hoped that I would be a ghost, and even if they looked at my location, or stepped over me, they wouldn’t notice I was there.

Exit

Eventually, I got caught, while trying to leave. I was looking for an exit. But all the corridors seemed to go on and on. One exit door seemed to appear. But “Meg” caught me as I went through the main room.

Caught

She was like, “What are you doing here?” And seemed prepared to call some security guards. I was like, “Please don’t make me be in trouble. I just want to get out. I don’t even know how I got here. I will leave right away. I didn’t see anything.”

Protein

She told me to follow the corridors, making a turn at every poster that showed “Protein”. That made no sense to me. I tried confirming the directions with a hand movement, but she wouldn’t help me any more. On the way out, I saw a kid with a candy wrapper on something he was eating. There were other children there too at this point. It seemed like a school thing.

Bed

I appeared back in bed, still in the “phase”. I heard more ringing and felt scared again. Going out of body didn’t seem to work. So I kicked around, running in place, unable to fully separate. Honestly, I didn’t really want to continue. I had been dreaming for so long and it was time to do some dream recall. The odd thing is, when I’m in “the phase”, its hard to think of the dreams I just had. So if it ever feels unusually difficult to think of what I just dreamed, that’s a sign I could still be in the “phase”. Like if my brain doesn’t seem to work. I might be in a different brain wave state.

Recall

There were some moments in this dream when I considered stopping to try to write out the dreams, within the dream. Or at least doing some dream recall affirmations. But I didn’t really want to! I took it for granted that I’d remember it all.

Voice

The last thing I experienced of the “phase” this time was this voice talking. I was trying to recall my dreams even while it continued, but I couldn’t concentrate while it continued.

Recording

When I could tell the “phase” finally ended, or almost did, I quickly flicked on my recorder. I wonder if this dislodged anything. I probably could have thought of it if I stayed still, but my brain didn’t seem to work. I couldn’t think. When I snapped on the recorder, it seemed like a snapped out of the “phase” prematurely. Oops!

Fragments

At one point, I tried to fly through something, then got stuck in it. I think that was when I was in some danger and part of me was still poking out the wall. So I felt fear in that. I forgot when that was so I just tacked it on here.

Sight

At one point I experienced sleep paralysis with my eyes open. But I think it was just a dream of it. Because I woke up with my eye mask on. The room looked kind of blue. I was afraid, and closed my eyes again, not wanting to see anything scary.

Notes

(((personal infoz)))Round 4 of Dreams

I didn’t do any yoga, just straight back to bed. But I told myself, if I fidgeted at all, I would have to get up. If I fidget just once, I have to get up and do the yoga stuff. Not as punishment but because it would mean that I needed to tire my body out a little. But that helped me stay focused as I went to sleep. I actually didn’t move after that. (((personal infoz)))That was a huge success since fidgeting at night is usually my downfall.

Missing Details

I forgot a ton of details about this dream. Don’t know why. I stayed perfectly still and thought through them as best I could. But it was a really long dream and I guess I came back from it disoriented. I know I was lucid, and flying around some places. But I only remembered the following parts clearly.

(((personal infoz)))Room

I got to this room I had been to a few times in the dream. There was something about money in there. I had been dreaming of astral projecting there or something like that. I remember that it was someone else’s room. I had messed up their stuff a little bit, thinking it was a dream. Then, I started to think it wasn’t a dream. I was like, what have I done?! I will need to buy all new stuff so that I can replace everything before these people get home. I remember the bed was made of these slatted things. And I had turned it around 180 degrees. And the cushions didn’t line up right. What a mess! I did a finger palm test, and it didn’t go through. Oh, no! I thought. I must have dreamed of being here for so long that I physically transported here!

Mom

My Mom said she was going to go hang out with her friends some more. Only, it wasn’t my actual Mom. It was just a dream figure of a small woman. (((personal infoz)))In the dream context she was my Mom.

Not Gentlemen

She said she would go upstairs to hang out with her “friends”. I went up after a little while to check on her. Two really tall guys answered the door. One blonde haired guy, one with black hair. I asked them, “So, are you guys (((personal infoz)))?” They said no. But then I asked, “Oh. So you’re my Mom’s perfect gentlemen friends then.” They were like, “Well… No.” Which pointed back to the first option being true, but they had denied it.

Sad

I was like, “I can’t judge any of you. But I feel sad. Or dissappointed.” But I was aware those were my own feelings to deal with.

Walkway

I walked down this walk way and it showed me from a top down perspective. I remember walking around some people, but seeing myself from outside. I felt pretty lost.

Platform

I got to a group of people who said I need to keep trying to progress in the game. The dream took on a video game feel. I had to get past my sticking point in this video game to free my Mom. I was supposed to ride the platform around and find something, but I hadn’t been able to yet. I decided I would look up a walk through.

Waking up

I was really surprised once I had woken up. I stayed perfectly still and eventually, little bits of the end of the dreams came up. I like having long dreams, but only if I remember them!

Round 5 of Dreams

This dream chain really redeemed the whole night. I used the same technique as last time for falling asleep consciously. I told myself if I moved at all, I would have to get up and do exercises. So I stayed still, and felt myself “drop in” through the levels of consciousness. I didn’t enter the dream consciously at first but it led to a dream chain. I remember a little “dream flash” in the beginning, which gave me some confirmation to hang in there.

(((personal infoz)))(((personal infoz)))

I was at (((personal infoz))) getting jars or cans of olives. The ones I needed were out of stock. I asked someone to show me where they would be but the ones on sale were all gone. There were just some glass jars with water and only a few olives at the bottom. Black olives.

(((personal infoz))) came to the aisle, with two children. (((personal infoz)))She was with two little girls. They had melons tied up in strings, presumably not to lose them. (((personal infoz)))The little girl had a balloon. She was supposed to not let it fly away. She was supposed to keep it tied to her or to the cart. But she said, “Don’t worry, I will just hold it.” But then it flew away anyway. I remember seeing it fly up the 30 or 40 feet to the ceiling. (It’s a tall store in waking life too.) It had a little black string.

Breast Stroke

I am not sure when this part was. But I remember the feeling of doing a breast stroke. I might have been swimming, or doing it to fly.

Tigger

Tigger appeared in one part. I forgot when it took place. But the rest after this are in order. There was this robot thing with a blaster arm that appeared twice. In this scene it pointed the blaster arm at Tigger. Tigger moved, and the robot didn’t follow it. Tigger was looking at himself in the water. Then his nose and stripeys fell off. He jumped in after tham and probably swam through a tunnel to safety.

Missing pieces

I recalled about 90% of the dreams. But there was like 10% I forgot. So, before I continue with the rest, that I remember very clearly, I want to acknowledge that.

Computer Lab

I appeared in a computer lab after thinking through the previous dream a little. I knew it was a dream some how.

I was at a computer. It needed a password. The mouse pad was this circular thing, off to the right hand side. I remember trying to find it at first, and being confused.

I felt like I was older, and all the dream figures were equally older, like it was 30 years in the future. I talked with a woman sitting near me. We made eye contact. I remember knowing it was a dream as we spoke. I forgot what we talked about. We commented that we both had gotten older.

That dream gently ended.

(((personal infoz)))

I reappeared in the same computer lab, only now we were all our current age. I saw my friend (((personal infoz))) over at a bench. I approached him as if to say, it’s a dream, what do you want to do? (((personal infoz)))I asked him what year it was. He said 2017 53 B or 2017 63 D or something like that. Not just a year but also another identifier. I got the sense it meant 2017 but in a parallel universe? The dream faded out gently again.

Hearts

I appeared back in my bed, in the “phase”. I rolled out of body again like I did many times throughout the night. I could just tell that it was time to roll out. (((personal infoz)))I got out onto the floor of my room. I think it was just a dream. I knew I was dreaming at the time. I saw a little old fashioned box T V on the floor. It lit up the space under my desk. On the screen was a woman wearing sunglasses. Heart shaped sunglasses, colored dark black. She had dark hair. (((personal infoz)))That part gently faded and I appeared back in my bed. Not done yet!

Heroic

In this next part, it was almost an exact repeat of the previous part, (((personal infoz))) and except for the content of the T V. This time I watched a movie of a man who looked like (((personal infoz))) to me at first (but then I realized wasn’t) pulled a woman along kind of forcefully with his left hand. He punched a wall with his right hand as he walked, making a big hole. I knew it was a dream, but I was in watching mode.

Then, 5 super heroes burst in the door! Presumably to rescue the woman. That was nice. What really interested me was, a few days ago, I dreamed of these broad shouldered, tiny headed alien creatures that came into my room. And they seemed more ominous. But in this scene, there were five broad shouldered, tiny headed characters, and they seemed very heroic. So maybe they were heroes in the other dream, too. Only I judged them by their appearance. So if they make another appearance, I will see them as good guys!

He’s Gonna Jump

After that scene faded I appeared in a hotel room made of grey stone. I was like… “Wait. This isn’t my physical room. I’m in a dream again!” It was kind of dim. I went towards the window, thinking I would fly out.

I opened it up and looked out. There was a beach below, full of people. My vision was dim. I looked down and felt that if I jumped, I would go crashing to the ground, and really feel all the pain. Even though I knew it was a dream, I still thought this dream would have physical gravity. I was very convinced of this.

As I stood at the window, I heard some life guard types of people start shouting. “He’s gonna jump! He’s gonna jump! Stop him!” They thought I was going to jump to my death.

I was like, “oh, no, I don’t want to deal with this.” That wasn’t my plan but I fore saw a bunch of authorities coming up the building to detain me. So I thought of how to avoid that, even though it wouldn’t have been that bad, since it wasn’t my intention any way. Just a mis understanding.

Looking out on the beach, I wanted my vision to be clearer. I said “Increase Brightness” aloud, expecting it to get brighter. Sure enough, it did. Every time I said it, it was like pressing Alt and Page Up on my computer with F dot Lux. There was an orange tint, too. I could see all the people far away down there on the beach, much more vividly. I guess it was some kind of resort.

That part faded and the dream shifted to a new location.

Ampharos

I appeared in front of (((personal infoz))) in the snow. It was snowing. I could feel the cold of the snow and the wetness. At first I didn’t fully know it was a dream. I think I tried a finger palm test or just logically decided it must be a dream. Then I had to take off my eye cover.

I sleep with an eye cover on. Actually I use a head band thing and some extra rolled up shirts for total darkness. It creates some sensations along my face and my eyes that sometimes translate into my dream. I will dream my eyes are covered in a similar way. Once I remove the eye cover in the dream, I can see again. Earlier in my L D career I was afraid I would be removing It in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness but so far that hasn’t happened. I think over time my concerns about my physical body moving when I go to move my dream body have lessened.

Anyway I took the thing off and I could see again. But it was still dim. I said “Increase Brightness” out loud again and that worked. Nice to have some consistent dream control there.

For the first time all night, I thought of trying a Task of the Month thing. What came to mind was to summon my favorite Pokémon. It’s an old Task of the Month but I had never finished it. So all I did was, sitting there in the snow, I said, “My favorite Pokémon will appear.” And snapped my fingers. I felt pretty confident about it. I remember clearly hearing the sound of snapping my fingers, too. Here is a little curve ball but I didn’t decide my favorite Pokémon ahead of time. I don’t think I have a particular favorite. I have too many favorites to even fit on one team. So I figured I would let the dream choose for me.

I walked up towards the street. It was raining. I considered attempting to change the weather, but decided to let it be. I walked down the hill along a side walk. I almost thought the Pokémon summon didn’t work.

Then I saw a bike riding up the hill, towards me. Not to run me over but it was going to pass me on my left. I was like… “Is that an Ampharos on the bike?” It moved fast. My reflex kicked in and I grabbed the yellow thing off the bike seat. The bike continued on, moving just fine with no rider.

What did I have in my hands? It was a stuffed animal Ampharos. It had really soft fur. Yellow fur with black stripes and a white belly. I remember its antennae things. I wasn’t entirely surprised that the dream gave me an Ampharos.

(Commentary: In the original Gold and Silver games, back in 1998 or whenever it was, I didn’t know anything about Pokémon game dynamics. I caught the little sheep Mareep and trained it because I liked Thunder Shock. It evolved into Flaffy but then I was really amazed when it became an Ampharos. I was like, wow. This is an amazing Pokémon. And it must have had good I V’s in the game because it would always deal so much damage. Also the steel types were really difficult for me. I didn’t know what type advantages were, so I just thought Ampharos was like a top secret super powerful Pokémon that could even beat Skarmory. I saw an Ampharos recently and it reminded me of all that. So this Task of the Month was great because it connected me with a really happy memory of my childhood. When Pokémon was still magic, and not just E V’s, I V’s, base stats and type selecting. And when I cared more about what Pokémon I thought was cool, not their base stat total or move pool. And when I could just enjoy a Pokémon for what it was without grinding for natures or breeding for odd egg moves. Also I thought I was the only person ever to have found it, same with Tyranitar.)

So anyway I stood there on the hill squeezing the stuffed animal Ampharos. It felt so soft. I looked at it really closely and it was vivid.

Then it occurred to me that I was still dreaming and I could rush off to another task! The dolphin ride thing came to mind. I reigned myself in and said, hey, let’s just do one per dream. I think that is because it can create more of a quality experience. So I tried talking with the Ampharos, but it didn’t say anything.

I noticed it had a wooden circle thing on its bottom, maybe that it was sitting on. It reminded me of the rim of a basket. Cars drove lightly by on the road. The dream gently ended and I was back in my bed.

Notes

I stayed perfectly still and recalled the dreams in my mind. Little by little, more parts came back, until it almost made a complete picture. I was very happy about this dream chain and it ended the night on a good note.

I wanted to note that as I was falling asleep before these, I also endured some hunger sensations. I sometimes feel hunger sensations at night. But that, plus an itch on my nose, was probably one of the most uncomfortable parts of staying still and falling asleep more consciously.

Overall Notes

(((personal infoz)))I got up around 6:30 thinking it was later. I wound up feeling really tired around 2:45 and laid down. Next time I looked, it was 4:50. So that’s a great nap. Sometimes a nap during the day helps with dreams and recall the following night. I felt a lot better after the nap. The dream drawing is good and I am getting stuff in my dreams that makes me want to draw it, more and more often again.

Wow, this is about 6,000 words. I finished typing it around sun down but also had more stuff to do today. Plus that nap. So it didn’t take all day. But I like transcribing it this way for now. If it gets to be too much work in a day I will have to figure something else out but for now its O K.



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