dream fragment

O. from a different forum I visit is posting about the ending to a movie. He includes a brief line that's spoilered out, which I don't read, and below it comments, "Furry muscle!" That's his whole post. Immediately following his post are several more, all quoting him, probably poking fun at him although I don't see their content. They might even have been quotes and nothing else.

I'm in a car driving in the rain, taking an extremely circuitous and hilly drive through back roads, until eventually I arrive at a secluded house with a large sloped roof. It's some kind of day care, although it's strange that it's out here in the middle of seemingly nowhere. With me are two young girls dressed in frilly clothes; they are sisters. I think at some point I am in the building, which is filled with people.

I'm taking a dance class(?) with a guy named Calvin. He's extremely tall, with dark skin, a light beard, and thick-rimmed glasses. He looks like he's in his early 20s, and he's pretty cute—I catch myself sizing him up. The class is being held in some kind of warehouse, or maybe the aisles of a Home Depot. Later, after it's ended, Calvin and I run outside to sit with several other people at a large, circular picnic table. He grabs what looks like the last open seat, and for a second I think there won't be any room for me, but I continue to examine the seats and realize there actually is one open, so I sit down. It's sunny and warm, and the table is shaded by a large tree. We turn and see some people playing with a football, although it's a weird-looking football: it's translucent and has colored lights or sequins on it. We start to guess how many times the football will bounce each time it's spiked on the ground.

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Swapping colour codes Real Life and Dreams

I'd given my Dad my Christmas money to save for me, but when I asked for it he said he'd spent it, which left me no money for Christmas and everyone was going away in an RV, which is strange 'cos I'm British..! We don't really have them here..! I tried to come in through the door and he shut it on my fingers, painfully too and so I started arguing with him..! At this point, my cousin came down the stairs and said I'd have to fight him, at first I was a little afraid, but when I punched him, I knocked him clean out..! My other cousin then came down to see what was going on and said I'd have to fight him now too..! I was more weary this time as he seemed huge to me, but I hit him and ran..! I noticed I had no shoes on and was looking for something to put on when I noticed a pile of shoes, among them were a pair of inline skates..! I grabbed and put them on, then set off down the road, I was very skilled as I flew at great speed..!

I remember my Mother having a house changed up in the back garden, also when I escaped on the skates I came to a fair ground, but it was closed, it's a familiar fair ground dream wise, and the rides are totally impossible and very extreme, I have actually ridden the coaster and it is not to be sniffed at..!

Cheers, Nicho..!

Created Friday 05 August 2016

Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 7

All these dreams occurred well into the morning. By this point, the non-LD's are scraps.

WBTB at 5:30 AM. Got distracted by trivia during it. This as meant to be 30-minutes, but discomfort in bed turned this into a two hour ordeal.


Scrap Group 1
In a party at an unknown home. Wyatt's playing a trading card game with some kid. This may have lead to the next dream

Dream 1 - Youthful Awareness

The visuals were blurred. I was in a larger version of my home's living room. There was a fancy party going on, what with all the guests donned in formal clothing. I quickly notice I'm only half my height, as if I were much younger. Thus, I gain awareness.

Soon, I overhear some familiar voices nearby. One sounded like my "cousin", Rosalinda, while the other was clearly Vera. Rosalinda leans to look down on me when I walk close to her. I try looking up at her face, but the environment starts destabalizing. A few slow breaths fixes this, and clarifies the visuals entirely. Now, I see she appears different, being too old and homely looking. I turn to Vera, who's noticeably younger. Both speak about me, but I only hear jibberish. I try responding, but lacked a voice.

Next, I wander around to look for my dream guide, E, but it seems there was no one that fit her description. The environment begins fading, and the dream ends a half minute later.

Scrap Group 2
Doing some kind of Metal Gear Solid-esque sneaking mission inside a military base. Somehow, this relates to the next dream.


Dream 2 - Monkey Business

The visuals were blurred. I was walking down a long, crowded stairs in an unknown facility, the walls of white cement.

At some intervals, I'd stop halfway to the next floor to jump all the way down to the landers. Someone gets annoyed at my delay, and I overheard him whisper he'll probably stomp on me if I stalled him further. No matter. I continued doing this until I reach to bottom. Said person, now frustrated, threatened he was pouncing in after me, but I evaded this in time.

I walked through a back door, only to immediately end up stepping out of the main entrance of a brown government building. Somehow, I remembered the previous LD, which sparks awareness.

As I descend some short, wide steps, I find two monkeys lingering at the bottom. One looks like a skinny baby chimp with a tail, while the other's a fairly large grey haired alpha baboon. Both bumble towards me, and gesture to hold my hand, to which I comply.

After a few paces, we immediately wander into a forest. The baby signals to get picked up. The baboon is visibly jealous as I did this. Anyway, the "chimp" kicks its legs and flails its in excitement as I lift it. In fact, it unintentionally scratched me pretty badly with its feet, and its pinky finger somehow gets lodged between my left eyelids. I try to gently remove it, only to have it clawed in deeper.

I immediately wake up momentarily feeling that pinky in my eye before it fades away.

This dream was ridiculous. I can't remember a concrete plot, but basically I was just really busy the whole time, running this massive project. It's just a dream about what I am doing in life right now.

There were a few points when women showed up that were significantly more beautiful than normal, and I did not reality check.

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Steam Machine

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The past two nights I have slept right through, which is really unusual for me..! Normally I wake up numerous times before sleeping proper, sometimes as many as 8 to 10 times a night, it sounds a lot 'cos it is..!
So anyway, when I wake, I usually use it as an opportunity to WBTB, but sleeping through robbed me of this option..! I'm not too upset, it was nice to sleep for once (twice) and I did still dream..! The mistake I made though was not recording my dream when I woke up..! I still have vague feelings, but no solid imagery..!

I remember there was some flying involved, I'm not surprised I remember that, I always seem to recall flying dreams, my mother was there and so was Joy..! I recall a drug theme, trying to get some, but unable to, which is usually the case..!

So, this entry is just to keep my motivation up (simple continuity), I would normally forget, as I did and then just give up..! I'm determined not to do that this time, we'll see..!

Cheers, Nicho..!

Night 3, Dream 3

It's late at night, around 23:15 - I can see this on a wall clock. With some other people, I walk into a warehouse, where we're going to build or do something. The warehouse closes at midnight and I'm worried we don't have enough time. The warehouse is accessed from behind, then down an open passage between crates or walls and past a guard.

Night 3, Dream 4

I'm walking through an underground facility like Half-Life's, and throwing objects around with the Gravity Gun.

Night 5, Dream 5

I'm at an airport check-in desk in Greece with other people when I realize that two of three bags are missing. I walk out of the building to look for them, panic and wake up.

Night 6

[forgot all dreams]

TOTAL: 1.5 POINTS (3 fragments)

Trying to form new habits. First start developing an habit on meditation: zazen and theravada meditation. After this is established i will try to keep mindfulness for the rest of the day (everyday), which will be supported by ADA and self-awareness. I will take this as seriously as i can.

I dreamt many events last night, so i will post the fragments here:

• My mother throws flour on me. We weren't at home, but at a place we were staying... It was uncertain for how long, and the place wasn't ours.
• I go to the bathrooms to take a shower. It was a big room (I think it was located where the primary bathrooms of my college were). There were toilet boxes in the wall in front of the door. To the left side of the door there were like 4 sinks. Some steps more and there was like an empty space in the middle where all the showers were together (like 6) [For description: it was like the gas rooms of WWII where german prisioners walked in for a "collective shower", but this was a shower for real...]. There was nobody in the showers so i decided i would take one myself, but i notice that it was reserved by Obama. After realizing this i see him, fully dressed. I realize that he was on Argentina, and on this school, but i wasn't surprised or anything. I start seeing that more people come in the bathroom, some going to the toilets, some going to the sinks, so i decide that i do not need a shower anymore and i go outside.
• Outside the bathroom there was an event going on, like a festival. The lights shut down and everything is dark. I stay for a while without seeing until some lights come again. I see some kids climbing in some desks, away of this event, so i go to help them. A girl was having trouble to come down, so i hold the desk and the chair and i tell her to climb on me. She nervously did and was safe.
• After that i dreamt something else that is not connected to the previous dreams. I was in a jail, not inside a cell, but where police officers should be. Well, there was no police apparently, many dangerous guys on cells and one drunk bald guy coming in and out of the cells. He had a beer glass and every time it ran out of beer he went in the cells to refill it. He asked me if i wanted to drink, of course i said no (it was home made alcohol..., and who knows what it had inside, besides i didn't want to drink any alcohol at all). After the third, fourth drink he started puring the drink in my head, since he was standing and i was lying on the floor. I wanted to do something about it, but at the same time i thought that he could easily open the cells and all the others would come out and that wouldn't be good (although there was an axe in the floor, beside the drunk man. He looked like Flea of RHCP). However i think i questioned why i couldn't get out of that place (i was waiting for the guy in charge there, so when he leaves i would go with him, but i questioned why i had to do that).
• Then i dream about the future and my family. Apparently the economic measures of this country aren't doing any good to the economics of the members of my family, so each time they are poorer. I dreamt something that supposedly happens about 6 months or a year from now. My aunt from my mother has no electricity on her house anymore, she can't pay the bills anymore and apparently she will loose her house. She barely has anything to eat because there's no work. However we were reunited with the rest of my mom's family, and we were enjoying the moment. My grandfather gave me some pens (blue and green), we were standing on a roof and the place was wide. We could have jumped through roofs (i think there was a big tree with vines, that's why the place felt wide).
• Then i find myself experimenting in a swamp. I had like 2 repelents on water, which repeled some monsters. Those monsters were like dolphins with heads of human and teeth of sharks. If those things caught you, you definitely were dead. But i was on water, proximate to 2 of them, and they couldn't touch me, because of this "net" that repelled them. A group came by with my father in it and i think i showed this to them. First i showed the monsters, and they showed how dangerous they were, and then i showed this device. After that we caught one of these monsters and we chop its head off (it was cruel but that's the decision we took as a group (very stupid to take decisions as groups)). Anyhow she was still alive and with those fierce teeth. Somehow the repellent blanket gets moved, my father didn't notice this and he stomps right on her mouth. Of course the blonde monster head ate his foot. He was asking me to come back, like coming back in time, to the part we were in the swamp. I checked if i could do this and i asked a partner there if he could, but both couldn't. There were 2 options. Going back in time (i was trying CTRL + Z, but i didn't have the keys... i should get away from PC for a while), or deal with this, accept it and start moving on. (This things happens, and even though one doesn't like it, it is of no use to regret or lament, so i try not to from the very beginning).
• Then i was left with the head alone for a while, while the group did other things. Of course i was watching it, and i noticed that it was coming to me (like rolling down). So i grabbed it by the hair and i throwed it up where it belonged again. It didn't stay, it came down again to me, so i grabbed it again and throwed it again. It did the same, but at this time i was already angry. Angry and cruel apparently, because i grabbed the head and started hitting it in the wall. After i was done i throwed it where it belonged and it stayed there, but i think the monster was dead by now...

Review:

I liked the part where i just met Obama and didn't care at all, and walked outside that place which was of no use to me anymore.
I liked the part where i helped the little girl.
I would have liked to question myself about the situation a little more, to avoid uncomfortable situations. Also i would like to develop more the skill of observation.
I didn't like the group decisions. Probably it was because my father was there, but since im old enough now i have to take leadership on myself. I will start to be more responsible for myself.
I didn't like the cruelty of chopping of the head of that swamp monster. It doens't matter if it is evil or not, i don't have any right for doing that, and if i do it is a false right since kamma doesn't work that way. I recognize i was cruel, so if i acted cruel something related to that will come up as result.
I didn't like the moment of perplexity where i saw my father lost his foot. Either i accept it or i do something about it, but at that moment i was stiff.
I didnt like the anger and cruelty that i took on that head. I acted based on that qualities of the mind, and i felt like no control. I should have felt with control, and i had discernment i probably could have stopped, but i didn't. I hope to diminish anger, erradicate cruelty, be mindful even in moments i forget, and develop discernment (with observance and questioning).

Other:

I was navigating through internet, looking for an avatar image. I saw an image on a geiser i had on site before and i decided to change it. I thought about looking for something related to fire, because of Zodiac (although i don't believe on it). However a couple days before (30th July) we talked about how "Ofiuco" changed the signs. So I recalled i was actually Piscis (water) instead of Aries (fire). And i realized that although i like fire i probably feel more at ease with water. So i looked for Piscis and in the images i saw, i saw sirens (the monsters of the swamp were actually sirens, but there were male as well and neither gender were beautiful). After seeing this i decided to write down the dreams of last night.

Created Thursday 04 August 2016

Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 6

Not many dreams recalled today, just a fragment before 7AM, another during a WILD attempt later on, and a related DILD after that. The last two are... a bit embarrassing for me to post, but for the sake of the competition...

Scrap Group 1
Watching various shows along with my brother, Tito. One was Ultimate Spiderman, which had the title character fighting off against a winged hybrid of Carnage and Venom. Another was an Attack on Titan-esque show set in present-day. Rewinded and fast forward-ed the clips various times.

Several fragments revolving around my dream guide, E. In one of these, I'm making a cake for her in bed (somehow), and ask her to get me some milk. She... uh, squeezes me an entire bowl's worth of her breastmilk... Definitely not what I had in mind... A similar scenario plays out later, save that we were in a vehicle parked in a run down urban environment. Cue the next dream.

Dream 1 - Oh, Behave!

The visuals were very dim. I was laying down in the void. E was reclining next to me in the form of a nude,~20ft tall, plump giantess, her figure mildly glowing in a blue aura. I was aware of the dream.

At a wild impulse, I... suckled on her, just to see how that milk tasted. She was not amused in the least. In retribution, E thrashed me around, first by repeatedly slamming me head first in a non-existant hard floor, then by squeezing the air out of me, and later biting and shaking me around by my right shoulder. As a grim finale, she holds me down to gnaw on the same shoulder, literally licking my wounds as she did. Despite all the violent motions, impacts, and torn flesh, there was no pain in any of this. Didn't make it any less startling...

I awaken immediately afterwards.

Too many to count. At one point I was fighting a boss. He used a booming voice, but I slayed him.

Wednesday 03 August 2016


Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 5

There were several dreams I identified today, two between 3:30 and 4AM, and the rest after I finally got some sleep. Most of these are but fragments at the moment.

Scrap Group 1
Yet another dream where I'm in combat against a Dream Views members, this time, in a live action Magic - The Gathering match.

Forced WBTB due to a terrible case of insomnia. Stayed up for almost four hours without sleep. Bleh.

Walking around a suburban apartment complex. Floods left the surrounding gardens and lots into a swampland. As I slogged though, I'm shocked to find numerous decomposing animal carcasses, including several big lizards, half a dozen toads, a huge constrictor snake, and a large rat or two. Someone there quips on my not noticing beforehand. I try continuing, but the stench and vermin (both flying and grounded) become too much to bear.

In a hotel room with several family members (mom, dad, and Osmand identified). I go to "sleep". A commotion briefly awakens me, but I'm too tired to stay up. When I'm back to my senses, Osmand and mom chastise me for sleeping through an emergency. I feel very ashamed. Go to "sleep" again. Then, a dream within a dream, where a leather clad, grey skinned, dark haired vampire lady was embracing me in bed. I couldn't move, and was helpless as she drained me from my arm and neck. We conversed casually between her feast. When I "woke" up, I floated over to the hotel's bathroom to get ready for the day.

Dream 1 - Dismay in Egypt

The visuals were blurred. False awakening in the master bedroom. I'm too weak to move. As I lingered, I'm transitioned.

I turn up in an ancient Egyptian court. There, I meet with Ramesses, as depicted in Civilization V. Indeed, the menus from said game are displayed shortly into our talks. I'm annoyed at him for some reason, and think to go to war, but I relent when I see he's actually guarded and afraid of me. He makes an even trade for a few luxury resources (a first for the AI), and even throws in some gold for good measure. I feel kinda bad, and think to let him keep the gold, but I get greedy.

Afterwards, I wander outside in the Egyptian deserts at day, the Great Pyramids in view. Suddenly, that vampire from before shows up. In one fell swoop, she grows gigantic, picks me up in her arms, and carries me off into a sandstorm.

I wake up shortly afterwards.

Scrap Group 2
Playing an SNES era Megaman X game.

Don't recall too much this time, had a tiring day. I recall a blurry fragment, it was a sunny day. I visited my friend and we wandered aimlessly around the neighborhood.

I was with my girlfriend on a train. We had come a long way to get here, from a different country. The train stopped, and I got out and swept her off her feet, carrying her out of the station and past hordes of couples who's girls would immediately feel less special. Classic. We sat down at a cafe table and some old friends arrived.

Created Tuesday 02 August 2016

Spellbee's Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Entry 4

Not many things recalled this time. Besides the lone DILD, I only have scraps for a single dream. Of the DILD, I probably would have gotten more done if I didn't try to show off as I did. Darnit.

Scrap Group 1
Woke up on the floor of an unknown place. A look at a mirror revealed terrible rashes on my scalp patterned as mattress seams. My brother, Steve, nephew, Arun, and friend, Stan, turn up. A conversation on lucid dreaming and dream control ensues. D'oh!


30 minute WBTB, which instead becomes an hour and fifteen minute long WBTB.

Dream 1 - Summer Lucid Competition 2016 - Day 4

Scene 1 - Black Energy Orbs
The visuals were clear. I falsely awakened in my room upstairs.

On stepping out, I find a surprising figure arriving from the master bedroom: my maternal grandma, who's since passed for several years now. She was wearing a light blue dress with floral patterns. Her presence instantly gives me awareness.

I greeted her, but am reluctant to start up a conversation (still reeling back after a previous dream incident). She smiles back. Next, she hands me a plastic bag full of trash and asks me to dispose of it, to which I agree. I then jump right over the low wall and fall all the way downstairs. The dream blurs up, and I lose myself momentarily.

When I come to, I'm right back in the second floor. Grandma was still standing around. She asked me to remind mom of some mundane thing (groceries or medicine or something). I nodded, and jump back downstairs again. This time, I slowed my fall, and muttered "deeper" to keep stability and anchor myself, which did the trick.

Downstairs. Several figures were around the living room, but I ignored them. As I was making my way out, I thought to summon energy. I tensed my right hand and yelled to do so, but nothing seemed to happen. Tried again, this time keeping my hands out of view and straining myself further. When I looked, I found a reflective black orb of energy floating over my palm. I made it dance around in the air for a while. It rolled off view momentarily, and when I tried bringing it back, it was gone. So, I repeated the trick with both hands. I tossed the spheres, and willed them to orbit around me in a cross pattern to store them for later, but again, once out of sight, they vanished. Ah, well.

I go outside to a much different neighborhood. Instead of a housing complex, my home was located directly in a suburban street. Anyway, as I walk around, I see my younger brother, Jonas, driving a convertible version of his vehicle along with several of his friends. He stops to tell me stern news about dad. That dampened the mood. The dialogue drags on a bit until he leaves.

As I go on, I find a number of figures gathered around a corner. They were reclining and standing on a few disjointed platforms placed over a shallow, muddy pond far below, all covered by a wide green canopy. Many were Japanese kids (hinted at by their conversation) of highschool age , including an effeminate guy in a pink shirt and several girls.

Just realized a storm had commenced. I crept on an isolated platform, only to find it was slippery and dangerously unstable. Around that time, Jonas drove by the area. He momentarily glared at me before driving off. Ah, whatever. To keep from falling, I seated myself crosslegged and floated up towards a railing nearby. I couldn't squeeze between it and the canopy, and so had stop flying to hang on and climb over it instead.

Not too clear on much else. A transition afterwards.

Scene 2 - Castlevania - The Arcade Game
The visuals were slightly blurred. Not too sure where I was. I'd lost awareness by this point.

Someone nearby was playing a supposed beat-em-up Castlevania game on an arcade cabinet. This had the protagonist (not clear which one) fighting monsters while on a craggy beach at twilight. He soon fights the boss, Scylla, who appeared quite different. In this rendition, she had the body, arms, and tentacles of a humongous squid/octopus, the many long necks of a hydra, and giant heads of what would otherwise be conventionally attractive women with a variety of hair colors (at least one blonde, one brunette, and one with black hair). To damage her, the hero needed to outlast a tentacle assault until the creature swooped a head down to bite him.

The dream faded and ended soon afterwards.

02.08.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was walking through a forest. I saw a weird kind of moth on a tree. It was actually kinda cute. Then I realized there were hundreds of them everywhere and worms too. They were crawling on me. I tried to run but I couldn't. I had to crawl out of there. They were attracted to a candle I was holding.

My mom had a hair hanging device you could use to have any hairstyle you wanted. For some reason I decided to go with long, greasy hair; rockstar-like.

I was wakeboarding and a kid was driving the boat. He resembled a cousin of mine. I remembered my dad tellig me not to let him drive the boat. He was gonna crash against some houses so I had to pull as hard as I could on the chord and managed to change the boat's direction. I kept pulling myself closer to the boat to board it and stop it.

It seems that I'm not in top condition for lucid dreaming or even recall lately.

I recall only a fragment, it was a rainy and dark day. There was something with repairing car and drinking water.