dream fragment

I did not have sufficient system access to do differential comparisons.

Hmm, I had the strong sense that this DJ entry was just like another one I had recently, but I cannot find it, so maybe I had another dream like this recently and did not write it down?

NORMAL
NON-LUCID
REALITY CHECK POTENTIAL
REFLECTIONS

So I went to bed at i dunno, 1am or something last night! I woke up about one or two hours later, and i was having an awful sleep. NIGHT TERRORS!

1)I felt like I was having 1,000,000 thoughts every second. It was mentally exhausting and I felt like it was never going to end. I would drift in and out of sleep, each time feeling relieved that it was gone, only to realize it was still there. It was as vivid as real life, but as terrifying as a nightmare or a bad trip. I reckon it may be cos I haven't smoked in a week or so.


I was extremely relieved to realize this had all gone after I actually woke up, went to the loo and got back into bed. Honestly one of the worst experiences of my life! The rest of my dreams were nicer :- )

2Tom, Will, Ashley, Charlotte and I were seeing yung lean live in Sweden. It was cloudy but warm, and we were walking across a courtyard area of a primary or secondary school. It looked like England, but I knew it was Sweden somehow. In addition, my mates dont like yung lean much so why we would all travel across Europe to see them I do not know XD It was in a very familiar setting; the school courtyard looked like my secondary school, although at the same time it looked nothing like it, same goes to the church. We'd been there previously to see Yung Lean, hense why I recognized it. It's great that you can get nostalgic or vaguely recognize something existing only in the dream world There was also a grand piano next to a grunden, which in particular looked similar to my secondary school. Inside the church, it was suitably light. We were all sat on plastic blue chairs. I remember hearing them playing Ginseng Strip 2002, and it was excellent. They did the usual dances, it was more chilled out though than their online performances. More like the Hurt video performance. Mum was sat with my Nan a few meters to the right of me, and Mum thought it was funny.

3) I was in Tom. R's living room with Latham. C, Luke.Y and Harry.H. It was late, must have been about midnight. It was light in the room but very dark outside. I was getting bored and was ready to leave, but I wanted to stay at the same time as someone had weed and I wanted to smoke up big time. I decided to bare with it for a while, and asked Latham over politely if I could blag a lift off of him later on in the night. He said that was fine, but started to get ready to leave. I didn't want to leave anymore as I knew they'd be smoking up soon, but I didn't want to be rude as he was going out of his way to drop me home. Harry. H had been meaning to drive home too, but claims he accidentally ended up getting really stoned which was a problem as he wanted to drive home. In the car with Latham it was dark other than the red lights of his dashboard. It was awkward and naff as I didn't want to leave but I appreciated his effort, and he wasn't going home - literally dropping my home then returning to Tom's! Latham didn't have a clue where I lived which was kind of a kick in the teeth, as we were best friends as children and were always round each others houses. When I explained to him where I lived, he mocked me as it was only a 10-15 minute walk away, calling me lazy. This was true, but I didn't really care. Tom's house had moved - it was now where Ollie.P used to live! When I got home, I sat on the sofa with my Dad. Everything was cool with him. The setting suddenly changed from the familiar living room to an unfamiliar, grey, but welcoming doctors surgery during the day. I feel like this may have been a completely separate dream. We were still sat on the sofa, and the television was still in front of us, but it was higher up on a wall bracket now. We were watching some sort of weird, Japanese advert for stopping racism. I said it was so dated, but my Dad just said it simply wasn't my cup of tea. It was my cup of tea though! The people were in some sort of large metal tank, much like a boiler, and it had a modified robot brain inside it. After a while, Dad said to me, "I hate to ask this, and I know it's boring. I know you quit the fags, but what about other stuff? Like weed?" There was a long pause here whilst I tried to figure out something to say. Normally I would just deny it, but something felt quite casual and honest about this experience, even though I knew it wasn't. I was going to tell him that I just smoke occasionally, which is true, and that I can turn a joint down these days...not so true The pause made it extremely awkward and obvious. My mum said something, but I didn't hear it, so to speak. It was like sound inside my mind, saying "Everytime Tracey and I walk past you she asks 'Is that smell what I think it is?' and I can't just keep lying to her!".

4) Luke A, Liam C and Gary. P were all very stoned inside one of their bedrooms. It was a small room, and very dark. The haziness of the hotboxed smoke made it even darker, making the view of them almost grainy. Luke A had been told to put some very large headphones on, and was listening to something.

5) Bryn had invited Tom, Will, the girls and I round his house for a smoke up. I was in the back of my parents car on the way home from somewhere. It was a nice day - sunny and warm, with a few clouds here and there. I knew I wanted to go to Bryn's and so did my parents, but they drove straight past his house as they wanted to go home first, for some reason. This was annoying, as it would mean we would have to make another trip, and I didn't see the logic in it. When we got home and I was in my living room, my parents decided they didn't want to drive me to Bryn's. No particular reason, just didn't want to! This meant I had to walk - LONG! I realized that if I ran I could probably be there in 15 minutes. Bryn, Will and Tom and maybe the girls were already there, in a room I'd never seen before. I was hoping they'd not start smoking before I arrived. Bryn claimed his bud was extremely potent, but he had very little of it.

6) I was at my local Green with my manager Lynsey's daughter Emily. It was about 7pm on a summers evening, and the weather was beautiful! It was still quite light, with the light glimmering through the trees. Lynsey's car pulled up by the back bench, so Emily and I walked towards the black large car. I went to Lynsey's side of the car - she was driving, and she had her window winded down. She recently had a miscarriage, and this was the first time I'd seen her since, but she looked well. I found it strange that she was driving and not her husband, who was in the passenger seat.

Dream 1(fragment):

There was something about a castle.

Dream 2(fragments):

Was playing spiral knights and there was something about shadow lair run and selling armors.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some weird jungles with some group, one of us ventured forward and later we had to catch up to him, part of the way we were going on the top of the trees and also there were friendly dinosaurs that were helping us and i could talk with them.

All I remember was that I transformed (on purpose) into a green man. That is, I was about seven feet tall, and was basically like a tree ent from LOTR. My hair was like willow branches, my arms and legs long spindly and covered in bark. I walked around producing various fruits from my fingertips. I could produce whatever fruit or nut I could imagine, and simply gave them away freely.

After that I think I read some comic books.

1. I’m in a building (store?) looking for someone. When I find her, I realize the woman has dyed her (poofy) hair blond (it was red before). Apparently it was to match someone/thing.

In this room, there’s a cute little wild kitten. Maybe a guy too?

2. At my cousin Davon’s house. There two bugs, one tiny one (like a gnat) and a bigger one, we’re supposed to be taking care of them for something, and I’m carefully walking to somewhere with them on my hand.

Notes: I did well waking up enough to type stuff up! And I had more dreams than I have in a bit, so that was nice.

1. I’m trying to park the van at Walmart and mom is getting on to me so much because I’m doing a bad job of it (running over the curb/grass). She mentions someone who does the same thing.

I go to my room and hide in the corner beside my dresser and against my closet door. I’m picking at a white rope that’s tacked into a hole in the corner of the dresser. Mom comes into my room and tries to cheer me up but I won’t have it.

2. Seeing Melly up on a balcony (apartment-style) with a golden retriever.

Inspiration: I believeee this could come from a Shingeki no Kyojin post on Tumblr where someone posted what everyone’s breed would be as dogs, and one of them was a golden retriever but I can’t remember who!

3. Kingdom Hearts II. Roxas reminded Axel of someone (there was like a faint image in his mind), and hesitated to bring their relationship to another level because of the past. Axel tells Roxas about it and cups his cheek (I clearly saw Axel’s face around this time, otherwise it was mostly faint). I think they were on a boat?

Inspiration: Read a volume of KH2 recently and had looked up some AkuRoku things on Tumblr.

4. Talking to Pillywiggin about the most popular dream tags. I’m looking through a list on a program with a black background, but it has subcategories so it’s hard to find/sort them. ‘bindsbinding’ or something was a tag. I remember various numbers in parenthesis beside each tag group name, one was 274?

Inspiration: Before bed, I meant to look at the tag cloud on DV to see what the most used tags were.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some game and there was something about zombies, and also some cargo area.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 2D platformer and there was one part where i had to fall through level while dodging text.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in some city in swamp, there was something about a witch, some weird stuff going on and searching for book about a specific video game, which also contained some list of achievements. Then later we were checking out another house which was guarded by some weird creatures.

Date: 10 Sept

Pre bed: 200 mg valerian

WBTB: 1/2 cappuccino

Dream quality and recall: very deep sleep, vivid but almost zero recall

TST: 7 hrs

Fragment: I didn't write down, something to do with Malaysia

Early mini-ld (+4 hrs): I am in some crazy deep sleep and see the thought of a boy band, very similar to Take That (maybe a video, or a picture in front of me). The moment I see this vision or whatever about them, with extreme speed one of the singers appears in the room in front of me, he is about 5 foot tall and the whole scene is mega bright and vivid. He is also wearing bright yellow clothes. This happens so fast, it jolts me into lucidity. I ignore him and rush to the balcony but feel the whole dream is very crazy - way too weird and dynamically changing. I can feel some strange and interesting dream stuff about to unwind in front of me as I am contemplating my actions on the balcony. I think it is too much for me to handle, so I wake myself up.

Contemplations: I know this dream isn't that unusual but the feeling of it bothered me. It wasn't a bad, negative one, there was even a touch of euphoria but I felt the dream was like a huge wave of energy about to produce extraordinary or distracting events that I wasn't mentally prepared to deal with. That's what happens when you take valerian and have early lds.

WBTB: coffee (26 mg caffeine) and mantras but zero recall after that

Had a lucid dream within a dream, not sure if this counts or not. In the dream I was in

the theatre at college trying to go to sleep with my friend Zenna, who had kind of shed

her head when she was lucid dreaming. It’s not as bad as it sounds it was just like an

imprint of her head, she still looked the same, I then fell asleep and was really excited

that I was lucid dreaming but had to be careful not to wake up. In the Lucid dream I

was still in the theatre and my old English teacher (who I still see round college and

talk to all the time) was there so I made her melt onto the floor like a candle. I was

then in my bedroom and was making my reflection talk to me, which I did. I was

trying to remember the list which I saw on dreamviews of things you can try to do

and at the time I thought making my reflection talk was one of them although I think I

just made that up. I also tried to make myself bleed because I thought that was on the

list too – it didn’t work, I also tried to fly and failed at that. I kind of lost and regained

lucidity during the dream within a dream

Hypnagogia: A man's voice laughing, deeply unpleasant.

A man and a woman in what looks like an interrogation room, although he is technically free to go at any time, and the organization this woman belongs to isn't exactly law enforcement. There's a woman, not human, something else, something dangerous, who's coming for this man - she's not a danger to him, but she is to everyone else - and the people here need to know his story before she gets there. He says to the human woman in the room with him, "And the bounty? P.Big's?" P.Big being the name of the larger of the two bounties he'd recently turned in - these people had confiscated his reward money, along with the rest of his belongings. That's the main reason he's still here. She says, "You can have it back. In exchange for the war story."

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A man waiting for a tow truck finally hears a vehicle pull up outside, goes to the window to look. There's a woman in a firefighter's uniform entering the house through the back door, without him noticing, and she watches as the man is killed by a wire around his throat. The two men who killed him pick up his body, standing right next to her but not looking at her or acknowledging her in any way.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

There's a boy with an older woman - possibly his grandmother, though relatively young for it, someone who doesn't live with him but who stopped by today - he's crouching in a corner with a weapon, listening to what he believes is someone with a gun in his home. He's eager to face them. Footsteps approach the door, the door opens - it's the gardener/maid, and she's carrying a leaf blower, not a rifle. She makes the usual small talk and walks on. His grandmother says to him that she is not going to ask what he was thinking, she is not going to dignify this by discussing it, but she wants him to think about what just happened.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Last dream was just fragments, but had similar themes from the earlier dreams: something about a boy, an older woman who knows better than him, and a war.

Date: September 13, 2013

I had only a fragment to report to you today. I got married to Chris Brown (the singer), but I felt that somehow in the dream the wedding was wrong...but I didn't get lucid from that feeling. I just thought that it was normal to be a nervous bride who was marrying Chris Brown . I can't quite remember the other fragments...maybe later on today they will come to me and I will journal them then.

Edit: I also remember another fragment I had regarding eating the best sweet potatoes I ever ate in my life! These were like magical sweet potatoes, that already had butter, brown sugar, and marshmellows in them, all you had to do was cook them and eat them without adding anything! Ah, why couldn't sweet potatoes be like this in RL?

1. My dad, my sister Ashley, and I are playing a video game together. It was a racing game. It involved driving through obstacles on a football field - swerving to miss players and large patches of grass. After we were finished playing Ashley pulled out a couple of DVDs she had and wanted to watch them with us. I believe it was the first and second Ace Ventura movies. Unfortunately my dad told her he didn't have time to watch it.

2. (This one is very confusing and has multiple scene shifts that don't correlate.) I am working (at Best Buy). Walt asks me if I had seen an animated children's movie where there was a computer tech bench like the one we have in Geek Squad. In reality this movie does not exist but in the dream I seem to recall it quite well and tell him yes. The store is a lot larger than normal and it looks like it is combined with an enormous pharmacy. The scene shifts.
I am in a kind of Buddhist temple. I am standing behind a curtain on a stage. To the right of me in front of the stage are a lot of children who are seated on the floor. The left seating area remains empty. Some monks enter the room and line up on stage in front of the kids. I have fuzzy memories in which the children undergo some kind of religious cleansing. The scene shifts.
I'm sitting in a cafeteria next to a girl who taps me on the shoulder. She points to a blonde in pigtails who is leaning against the wall.

"Do you think that girl is pretty?" she asks.

As she says this Natalie Portman walks beside me with a friend of hers. So instead of commenting on the random girl I say, "Well, I'm not sure, but I think Natalie Portman is much more beautiful." Cheesy I know. Natalie Portman smiles at this and pokes me in the chest as she walks by.

"Clever boy," she says.

3. The dream plays out in third person like I am watching a scene. A young woman with long brunette hair leaves a castle and enters a forest. She wears a deep purple cape. She comes to a ancient white tree and waits expectantly. It is dawn, and a beautiful white horse emerges from the trees. I get the sense that it is a mythical legendary animal, almost heavenly in nature. It comes forward and lays down at her feet. She embraces it lovingly. There is an air of sadness to it. I get the feeling that this horse was at one time a man, and her lover, and she feels pain because they can't be together again.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps. Awareness being pretty low again in lucid, didn't even remembered anything goal-wise(though remembered at least something overall).

Dream 1(fragment):

Something about dragons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I am doing something at home and i am on PC, suddenly i feel that i am dreaming and decide to check URL history because i haven't checked internet in dream before, there's alot of links in history but all of them are leading to some site literally called "Spam" and url followed by series of random numbers and letters(like "http:/Spam/AY7D878837JR89E8E8823294/JUFJ8EWJ89EWF" for example), the site itself looks like most generic bland site ever. Then i get up and dream fades out. I wake up.

Dream 3(fragment):

I was in some icy place.

Not a lot of recall lately . I have been having this problem most of this year .
Last nights fragment.

I was at work I work at an artists market booths and other vendors and such and we usually set up next to another couple witch is nice because other couples as vendors are rare and well under their 50s is even rarer. So needless to say we like them . So I walk into their booth the girl is the only one there and I talked to her for a bit . Then I started to walk back to my booth . I woke up

I have not gone to work and have just been working from home because my dog is sick so I think I am just longing for social life .Also dog is feeling great after she finished all her meds

For 6 days now i am running off of minimal sleep , that fragment has probably been the only time i slept long enough to dream . I go to bed tired and end up not being able to sleep until about 3 hours before I need to wake up . witch sucks since I had beaten my insomnia for a few months ahh they where bliss.

Wednesday: Angel wings on someone, a wolf (me?)

-A man gets in water to heal, but apparently there’s some (light gray) stain left over that a woman points out on his chest. He thinks it may just be a stain on his shirt, but when he lifts up the shirt, the imprint is on his body too.

He’s at home and wondering how to tell his family.

-Someone (me?) is drawing in pen. They lean back and see that it’s a picture of Kabeyama (from Inazuma Eleven), but he’s a bit off on one side.

-A girl (possibly Ella) in a house talking (to me?).

Note: Still fixing my sleep schedule, so I’m tired lately and my recall/productivity is suffering.