dream fragment

Hes always there, his smiling face, his eyes and his laugh. I cant ever really remember where we are or what where doing but i remember this person is always there. Almost every night i dream of him, we do the things we normally do while awake but yet im asleep. I now find out he often has a hard time sleeping or staying asleep. I heard a legend once that when your awake at night it means you are awake in someone elses dream, am i bringing this person into my dreams?

10/30/2012

1st Dream
I started off the night with a dream that zombies were trying to get into a fortified house I was occupying with my family. They never got in but for some reason it was important that I organized the fridge of the remaining food we had.

Next Dreams

These dreams were all short, sporadic lucids

2nd
In a swimming pool with and old girlfriend Lauren. Started messin around and woke up. I guess I got too excited.

3rd
Briefly became lucid. Tried to freeze things by shooting ice out my hands. It worked but not very well. I decided to do some more telekinesis and lifted up my neighbors dog as she was walking it. She was very confused.

4th
Once again, I briefly became lucid. I decided to try one of my goals and fly to the moon. I flew very high above all the clouds and out into the atmosphere, but this was a failure because when I got up high enough to see there was no moon, only stars. Bummer

5th
Not lucid at first. I was in some kind of futuristic warzone getting shot at by a guy on a turret. I wasn't in good cover and got lit up by the lasers. This hurt to a decent degree but when I didn't die I knew I was dreaming. My buddy gave me a sniper rifle and I had a sniper battle with some members of the enemy. I don't remember how this turned out.

6th
A crazy looking bald DC attacks me for no reason. I try to use my fingers as guns and shoot him. Successful in shooting bullets but the DC doesn't die. Just looks down at where he was shot and smiles at me and keeps on coming.

7th
I was playing an old Megaman game and for some reason I know I left the level I was playing in and the game became real. I started fighting evil megaman clones. Not lucid for this one

8th
Don't remember much of this one but I was watching some foreign tourist woman taking pictures of me which seemed odd. This somehow progressed into me watching the Green Bay Packers play a football game against babies. Super weird. Not lucid

I can remember something about meeting the man from my AI theft dream. He had come back to show me something new that he had created. He told me that it was a trinary processor chip.
He explained to me about how computers do code in one's and zeros (binary code) but this new computer chip could process weak electrical signals and strong electrical signals where a "strong" signal counted as a number two. So the computer chip could process a 0,1, or 2. (trinary code)

So i have heard that wearing a nicotine patch to sleep will aid in creating more vivid dreams. Last night i wore a 21mg over 24 hours patch to bed and here are my results. Dreams are weird. I did experience my 3 dreams during REM sleep, consistently waking after each dream. Though i cant recall the first dream entirely but i know it made no sense (which isnt expected but whatever). My second dream was about me fighting two guys, one guy i used to work with (who is a skilled karate fighter in which we always used to talk about fighting, like everyday) and i was whooping his ass like all haymakers to the face and he had his guard down the whole time, which would never happen in a real fight with him, but it was strange because we were acting but it seemed so real. The second guy i was doing the same, all haymakers to the face and i have no clue who he was lol. but after the fighting stopped we switched scenes to talking to the first guy in his office ( just like i used to when i worked with him) about how if it was a real fight he would destroy me lol. Then i woke up only to fall back asleep moments later and fall into my third dream. My third dream was somewhat vivid and of course weird, i was back at my previous job (which i just got fired from in October and wish i hadnt of fucked it up, best job ever) and i was working with my boss, he was showing me this tool that i know isn't actually there at the shop but he wanted me to sharpen the blade on it and i had to disassemble it to access the blade on this weird tool. so i got the thing taken apart and had the blade ready to sharpen and when i put it in a clamp and got the grinder ready to sharpen it is when i woke up. This is my first night actually giving a shit about dreams and actually trying to remember them and actually logging them, so with that being said i don't believe that at any point i attained lucidity, although at one point in my first dream ( the little fragments i remember) i did look down at my hands and they only had four digits and at that point i woke up so maybe for a few seconds i was lucid... i dont really know for sure. all i know is my dreams ( the ones that i have remembered in the past) are always fucking weird. and i cant wait to log more.

So I'm back again after a while of spending time on Facebook. I start out in an abandoned building/backyard of my home place. I'm confused to why I am here. I don't remember much of what happened but only a person. I remember Quynh, right after I just ended a deal both of us made in real life. I had not hate for her in the dream, but I still did love her and was willing to do anything to take her back in to my life. I was standing around the abandoned building, below the room I lived in. Quynh was in front of me, or I felt as if she was. It could have been the feeling I have when ever I chatted to her online. She told me something. She brought up the time back when I used words of hate and jealousy before our conflict towards each other started. She had said something about the tears I gave her that day we first hated each other. I woke up a few minutes later, realizing she will never grow up and forgive me for what happened a long time ago. I already tried.

I was out-of-body, flying around. There was some story about a tribe of people living in a post apocalyptic world. The were all walking though the desert past this industrial complex. This sniper shot a woman. Then someone told me that there was an evil tribe that wanted to end chances for re-population of the earth by killing all of the women.

I was in a park, or meadow type setting. Talking with Lia, my dream guide again. Eventually she left, walked away into the sun, and a bunch of family members and other random people started showing up and they were all bringing with them little kids.
The little kids were playful and they gathered up and tackled me and we were wrestling around on the ground for awhile. At first it was fun, but after awhile I wanted them to get off of me because they were biting me and scratching me with their fingernails.
Eventually I kicked this one kid pretty hard because I was angry/annoyed. He started crying and his father came over. He was really angry at me for kicking his son.

I'm an old fortunetelling crone at a small convenience store. A dudebro with a lot of extra bangs and one white hair who occasionally turns into a cat asks to tell me his fortune, but it's not a good one. His life is great now, but it's only downhill from here. I take all of his bangs and give him back the one white hair.

Next, a young Harry Potter asks me his fortune. I tell him that he's about to go through terrible times, but he'll emerge a hero. I turn around to see Hermione there too.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 10:30PM-9:00AM
3 8% Beers, 200MG B6 WBTB+400MG B6 Alarm 3:30AM WILD

Alright time to get back on track with the DJ. I have not had much mental focus waking or sleeping. I have been blowing through every WBTB alarm only to get get up later just to pee or take some B6 and then I pass out completely. I did manage to sleep later this morning and I have a few half dreams during a WILD attempt but I lost focus before it became a full dream. Also I know I lost many more dreams. I was just too lazy to record them. What a Shame.

Whore House 4:42AM

I am in a whore house buying whores. I buy one for $25 just short term. I get tired of waiting for the first one so I buy another for $125 for a longer time. The transactions are like buying things in Skyrim. All menu based.

I know both women are beautiful blondes but I want a closer look at the second. I focus my eyes and her face gets shifty. Then she looks like an old hag from Skyrim. I make a comment and say, "Take that shit off." She discards her skin like a mask and is beautiful again.

I end up outside for something. I am waiting again. It looks like the outside of Trade-X. I see J from work with some dude. They walk by and I get embarrassed. I get into my car. I think I will just tell him that I am here for the gambling. I find some blue raffle tickets and hold them in my hand.

Now I am back in the building. The second woman I paid for is waiting with the first. I dismiss the first because I paid more for the second. Now she looks like an old crack addict. I get disgusted and say, "I'll take the first one who is a pretty blonde. I don't suppose you would give me my money back?"
She smiles and I see her rotten teeth. "Nope sure won't"

I find the other in a loft. She is in bed. There is some random dude sleeping a few feet away but I ignore him. I lay down with the woman. I am shocked to realize she is a virgin.

The "Buffen" 7:12AM semi-lucid

This was a long dream and I have a strong feeling that I was lucid at the beginning but lost is at some point and fell non-lucid. Or course I can really remember much but emotions and brief images so I won't be counting this one.

I am doing something down the street in my neighborhood. I see a woman sit down on a park bench. She is in awe and amazement. I recognize her clothes and face. She is wearing a grey skin tight jump suit with a black leather belt and boots. Her face looks a lot like the lady from Price Cutter.

I sit down next to her. I say, "I know all about you. It weird isn't it?
"How do you know?" She looks even more puzzled.
"Well, I am not a Grimm and I am not a Wessen but you are a Buffen." Now I get a flood of "memory". I remember (like the book Altered Carbon) people have a memory stack in the base of their skull and memories and personality can be downloaded to a new body at anytime. People who do that and are put into a body other than their own are called Buffen. (only in this dream) I tell her about all this and how I was once in her body. Then I remember being naked and playing with myself while I was a woman. Then I get horny and we make out very heavily. For some reason I can feel some sort of lip piercings and her teeth are bumping my teeth. It feels odd but I don't care.

It almost turns to sex when every stops. I am in my recliner on the laptop. I see a webpage. I can see the words but I am reading it in my mind.
"The no sex clause in dreams"
I "remember" that my wife made me agree to this and anytime I start to dream this it automatically stops me. (semi-lucid)

Then I am back to kissing the woman. The her piercings split and press my lips. The sensation is too odd to describe. I hear a sound like a robotic purr. Something like I heard in my Matrix or similar movie.

The world around me collapses and my awareness shifts to my physical body in bed.

Fragments

The lucid feeling and me trying to focus really hard on seeing something but can't do it.

Half Dream - Mute dream guide

I am in strong HI/HH and I see a woman who is clearly from India. I try to do active things to keep in the hypno-state. She keeps staring at me intensely. I try to ignore her but can't. I look at her closely. She is very dark for an Middle-Eastern. She has a red dot on her forehead. She is wearing a pale purple wrap around blouse with blue jeans. Her hair is jet black and sleek. It is long and brushed to the side. It is a very clear and stable image. I can see all the details in her face. The only odd this is her eyes. They are black but there are no "whites". The whites are flesh color. I ask her in my mind, "What do you want?" She gestures to my left. She will not or cannot talk. I try to ignore her but she is persistent. I see her change into a some type of blutbad wessen in the corner of my eye. It catches my attention and when I look she is normal.
"Are you trying to tell me something?"
She gestures again. Pointing
"You want me to follow you?"
She throws her hands up in a way that makes me think. "Finally you get it, moron!"
I follow her on a street in a big city. There are no other people. I watch her closely the entire time. She changes constantly. She stays a female but she turns into many different woman. All races, skin types, and hair color. A few times I get attracted to her and try to have sex with her. Every time she is patient and pushes me away.

At some point during our walk. I ask her if she was my dream guide. She nods "yes" and I can sort of see and exasperated expression on her face but she still doesn't speak. I feel like she thinks I am so stupid. The whole time I am following behind her and I can only see her from a back angle but up close. I continue to study her as she morphs and changes.

Then I lose focus and my body gets uncomfortable. I forget to ignore that and I roll over and lose it. I was so close.

Frags:

• something about coding for a game involving mathematical symbols

I saw that little girl in the blue dress again. She keep's getting closer each time I see her.


The Dream
It was night time, I was standing on a loading dock outside. I looked down, there I saw a quarter. I picked it up then saw another out of the corner of my eye. I walked over to pick up the other quarter, and I saw another one. This went on for a good 2-3 minuets. At this point I was at the edge of the loading dock, looking between 2 semi truck trailers. I heard a noise, the sound of fabric flapping in the wind. I got off the loading dock, then proceeded to slowly walk between the 2 trailers. When I turned the corner there she was. Just standing there almost in arms reach. Never moving never saying a word, dress fluttering in the wind. I slowly backed up and came back the way I went. Upon reaching the loading dock again I awoke.

If I keep seeing her I may eventually give her a name but for now she shall be known as the little girl in blue.

All I remember was being in Twilight Town

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Before I start this entry, this was the most amazing and moving dream I have ever had.. in my entire life.

The Night of November 7th, 2012.

Some Preknowledge:

Last night, I went to bed telling myself I would remember my dreams, and I would attempt to WILD 4 hours after going to sleep. I went to bed at around 2:30AM and WBTB around 7:15AM. My roommate then woke me up around 9-10AM when he had to go to class. I went back to sleep and woke up at around 12PM. So I got a lot more sleep than I usually do.

I think this experience helped me identify my dream guide.

The Dream!

The first part was kind of vague. I was in a jungle with this girl I have been off and on with. There were other people there, I don't remember who. We were at some kind of outpost (like a camp,) and people kept coming and trying to kill us. Being my violent self, I didn't have many problems dismembering the people that approached us. They ended up killing everyone but me.

After long fights that lasted days (this was weird,) I noticed a sugar glider at my feet who seemed very happy to see me. I don't know what it was, but I could tell this was not an ordinary animal. For those who don't know what a sugar glider is, it is a very VERY cute version of a flying squirrel and they live in forests/jungles. It beckoned me to follow.

I followed it over the dead bodies, and it showed me the main camp. The main camp was filled with many types of animals, some that could communicate. There were also humans there. The sugar glider then brought me to the top of a mountain. You could see EVERYTHING. There was a convoy a couple miles away. They were poachers/zookeepers trying to capture animals. There were also police there with them, because the humans in the camp were supporting the animals and resisting capture as well.

I followed the Sugar Glider for a very long time. It showed me many areas, and introduced me to many people and animals. I knew my purpose now. I helped defend and support the camp for years. (Weird again. My dream lasted years, and along this time, I bonded with two other defenders; named Rick and Alison. My awareness of the dream got greater and greater as time went along.) I also bonded a lot with the sugar glider, whom I later named Bud. He was with me at all times. Either showing me knew things, or sitting on my shoulder as we fought for freedom.) After years of fighting, the camp eventually was getting taken over. All the animals decided to pack up and move.

Many of the defenders were taken into custody, but Rick, Alison, and I escaped with the animals. The only way this fighting was going to end was if the humans and animals split up. Bud knew this, and so did Rick and Alison. I did not want to leave Buds side. I embraced him and started crying, and he clung onto me. He didn't look sad. He was so emotionless while I was kneeling there in sadness. He knew this was the only way it would work out.

The defenders went one direction, and the animals went the other. I kept looking back, through the branches, making sure the animals were going to be okay.

After a long travel through the brush a couple days later, we started walking along a very low path on the outside of a mountain. I looked up the mountain and saw the animals traveling along a higher path. I was confused as to why they were walking the same direction as us, so I lept up the mountain to where they were traveling. I met with one of the mammoths I had become good friends with and talked to him. He said they had been ambushed awhile back. He said that Bud had been taken into custody by the zoo leader himself. Bud was the only one who had been taken.

The animals and defenders decided it was a better idea to stick together, and I lead the group as close to the city as we could get. We set up camp, and Rick, Alison and I went into the city to search for the zoo's business branch.

This is when my alarm went off to WBTB with WILD. It was surprisingly fast, and went a lot more smoothly than ever. The dream resumed where it left off.

When we got to the business branch, we waited in the parking lot for a bit. Soon a Cadillac Escalade showed up. A bunch of men in suits got out, and one opened the door for a very important looking man. I told Rick and Alison to stay back and to let me handle it myself.

The important man turned out to be the leader. I talked to him for awhile about what was going on, and he recognized me after some conversation. A year ago, I guess I killed his brother in a battle. I had a flashback and I remembered a long fight with a man who looked similar to the leader. I saw bud climb out of the car and he perched on the top of it to observe us.

The leader was enraged, and he ordered his men to open fire. I made a green bubble-like shield around myself, and the bullets deflected everywhere. I teleported behind one of the guards and snapped his neck. I teleported behind another, kicked in the back of his knees, and used his momentum to throw him into the ground. The others ran off.

The leader screamed, and took out his gun. I deflected a majority of his shots, but one ended up skimming my left shoulder. Pain surged through my entire arm. I have never been shot in a dream before, the pain was indescribable. I fell to my knees for a second, and the man laughed. Bud was still watching from the top of the Escallade. The main walked over to me with his gun pointed at my head and said something along the lines of "It's amazing how someone so powerful can be put down with such a simple wound." He continued laughing. I knelt there in silence for a couple seconds.

I shot up from where I was kneeling, and my head went straight into his jaw. He fell onto his back, and I jumped on top of him and started beating his face in. I said "It's amazing how someone so powerful as yourself can be so simple minded and quick to judge." I got up as he was laying in a pool of his own blood. He was coughing up blood and was on the verge of dying. Alison and Rick ran over to me to make sure I was okay. Bud jumped from his perch to my shoulder. I gave him a pet, and suddenly, the pain in my arm was gone. The wound disappeared. There was a look of acceptance on his face, and something told me this was the beginning of something amazing.

This is when my roommate woke me up on accident.

Analysis! And why I think Bud is my possible dream guide.

In the beginning of my dream, when the girl died, I don't think I cared that much because I knew it was a dream. I don't know if anyone else has had this happen to them, but I was in this dream for a couple years (of dream time.) When I saw Bud for the first time in the dream, a voice in my head told me that I should do everything he tells me to do. I'm not sure if it was his voice, or my personal self. I followed him from start to finish, and by doing so, I helped the dream characters I met (defenders and animals) meet their goals.

Ultimately, I think Bud got taken on purpose. Why did none of the other animals get captured? I think Bud created a test dream/environment for me, to see if I was ready for him to guide me. Sure, in the beginning, he was very controlling, but in the end, he put his trust in me to save him. Even though I'm sure he didn't need saving. He also believed I would be able to do it myself. Normally, I feel lonely in dreams, as if I'm the only one there who knows its a dream. This was different though. I felt Buds presence, as if he wasn't a dream character. It was very interesting, just the feeling of no longer being the only aware creature in my dreams. I actually felt an emotional attachment to him, like a mentor, or a friend, something I've never felt before in a lucid dream.

I think its safe to say, Bud is my dream guide.

(LOL PUN)

My dream(s) is/are fragmented, and I can't remember the sequence because I forgot to recall.... AGAIN!

I'm in my dorm for a while, then I think I went out to do a test? (I don't remember walking out), but anyways I got the result and it was really bad.

I went into some kind of portal thing and appeared in some kind of dimension filled with interconnected pipes. I have no idea how but I managed to go down and go into some kind of door.

I'm in Valucre and I'm roleplaying as a wolf that wreak havoc everywhere.

I'm going around shooting a certain group of people with a gun that doesn't work, but somehow manage to banish/kill them when they are shot at enough.

Just a heads-up, if you don't know about my tulpae or don't know what tulpae are, you're going to have no idea what I'm talking about here.

Okay, so, I was on the tulpa.info IRC channel, and Kayleigh was possessing my arms so she could type. I had to try to force control back because I remembered that Link was supposed to be the one possessing me, since we're the ones working on possession IWL at the moment (Kayleigh and I haven't started yet). Then I woke up.

Hey guys, the time over here changed and i've been a little stressed out with school so I havent been able to dream too well. Managed to get a nice long one tonight though.

There were a few dreams before this one but I just cant recall them anymore. Anyways, I started out inside a friends house who I havent seen since I was very little. His name is Raymond and I assume I was visiting him in Port St. Lucie where he moved to. Inside I was looking outside through his window to the house across the street. It seemed there was a party going on because I saw a lot of people around the house and some loud music was playing in the background. I mentioned to him it sucked we didnt get invited, he said "Yeah" in a melancholy way but then we decided to go to the store around the corner to get some blacks and drinks. So we were walking on the sidewalk and when almost at the corner these two girls showed up out of nowhere. They stopped us and said "Hey, would you guys like to go to a party were throwing?". I looked at one of the girls, she had dirty blond hair and looked around my Age with a semi good looking face. The other one was a brunette but I didnt look at her too well. I asked "Did you guys not get invited to that party either?". When I asked this the blond girl got slightly offended and said"Noooo, we just want to throw a party of our own". We took the invitation card from them and proceeded to go to the store. The store was in front of a little field were kids were playing football. It was a tiny store enough to fit only a few people at once. Inside, Raymond said "Hey" to the owner who was a funny Indian guy but not in the way he looked or spoke but just the way he acted was cool and funny. Raymond introduced me and I said "Hi". The Guy told me "Hows it going man, don't steal anything, wutchu want?". I laughed and asked "Let me get two blacks please". He gave em to me and my dream switched to where I was in Raymond's backyard. We jumped in the pool and again my dream switched to us walking to the store. This time the store was in front of a pool instead a field. Once inside the store, Raymond decided to heat up a cake so he put it in the microwave. I was in the back getting a drink and the store guy asked me "So who has a bigger pool me or Raymond?". I looked at his pool and told him "Yours is bigger but I think his is wider and yours is longer" expressing it with my hands as i spoke. He laughed and said "OK, ok". Raymond went back inside in a rush because he forgot about the cake. When he took it out, it was steaming hot and he backed away from it like it was going to explode. It was making that noise when something is so hot its almost boiling. He said "Watch this" and he cut a slice of the cake. I looked at it and on the inside bubbles were forming and it looked way too hot to even touch let alone eat.

I kept waking up at this point and went into a dream on occasion. I had fragments of the party we were invited to and some other fragments of talking to girls and then hanging out with Raymond some more.