dream fragment

17th May 2011

My first attempt at Lucid Dreaming. I'm fully aware that I'll most likely won't experience any LD at the first attempt, but I'm still pretty psyched about it. My strategy is to write down my dreams in a Dream Diary, repetitively do Reality Check; Pinch my nose and try to breathe through it, and try out different methods of LD Techniques.

The first technique attempted was FILD w/ WBTB. I set my alarm to ring 5 hours after I went to bed. When I woke up, rather groggy, I started lifting my pointyfinger; up and down, for approximately 30 seconds (Not counting). When I think the 30seconds have passed I did a Reality Check; "Noseblow"

After a couple of attempts I think i simply fell asleep, cause I dont remember much else:p

Dream Diary
At first I couldn't even remember that I've dreamt, which at first was quite frustrating, then however I suddenly remembered one dream I had.

It was pretty simple (I'll describe the main things). I was sitting at my school, eating a Calzone My teachers was walking around, eventually sitting down as well.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had only fragments last night, but one was a nightmare!

21.30: Sleep

01.40: Fragments
*I'm on DV chat, and I say a very bad word. PercyLucid is the first one to react. "Matte needs to get kicked, I'm sorry" he says. Soon after I'm kicked out of chat and stripped of my position as a DG. I try to get on the forums but I'm banned aswell. This can't be happening!

*Something about DVA. Something wasn't right. I think I did some typo's in the threads.

05.10: Fragments
*I watch a woman from work and her dog play. Her dog jumps into a big puddle of mud and splashes it on a guy in a beige suit. He gets completely covered in mud, just like in a cartoon.

*I watch some kind of tunnel and realise I'm dreaming. I wake up and try to WILD, but I fail and fall asleep instead.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Supplements: 150 mg B6, 2 dl applejuice

That's it! Too bad I woke up when getting lucid. Might have been a FA aswell.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

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Dream - Lucid

I was outside at night, looking for my coworker, Nate. I was on some sort of drug. I found him sitting on a park bench. I sat down next to him and talked to him for awhile, talking about a dream I had that night.

Then, he asked me something about the drug I was on. I told him it was some kind of fake weed. Then, we started making out. It was really intense and really good. I remember him pulling away once, and me involuntarily gnashing and grinding my teeth. I smiled and we started making out again.

Then, I remember being in his room, and laying on his bed. He had taken all his clothes off except for his underwear. He looked nothing like he does in waking life. He was all muscular and tan and was wearing a blue thong. I instantly found him unattractive. He started talking to me about his figure or something.

I then was sitting on a bench outside talking to some girl who was supposedly his sister. Her name was Emilee. She was very blonde. They had another sister as well, who was also blonde. Anyway, I was talking to her, and she started talking about sex. Then, her mom approached us. She sat on the bench and started asking why I was there and what we were doing since it was so late. Emilee started to make up some weird story about my boyfriend since high school breaking up with me, and something about elephants. Her mom thought it was bullshit and asked Emilee to leave. She left, and her mom started talking to me, asking me what really happened. I didn't think I could make up a believable story in that short amount of time, so I just winged it. I told her that Emilee was right, I had just broken up with my boyfriend since high school and I needed a friend. I also told her I had no idea what she was talking about with the elephants. Her mom seemed to believe me.

~

I was entering Disney World before they opened. The sun was just starting to come up. I walked by this roller coaster that they were testing out before they opened. It had weird cars, they were all bugs. I remember specifically some being smiling, yellow caterpillars. I remembered I had ridden that coaster before.

There was nowhere to walk by the roller coaster except for super close to and between the tracks. I'm not sure how I ended up there, but I tried to avoid the carts as they were run through the track over and over. The sun was up now as well. As the carts were continually run through, the coaster started falling apart. Pieces started to fly off. I had to dodge a few. I even saw a whole section of cart fly out into a field somewhere. I started to think that they should probably close that ride.

Then, I remembered I was meeting my family there. I saw a huge line by the entrance to the park closest to the messed up coaster. I don't remember where I met my family, but we found each other. My dad started talking about how we were under a tornado warning. I looked into the sunny sky, and in the distance, I saw a huge wall of dark clouds coming towards us.

We all went to look for shelter. We came across this tent that had lots of wicker furniture under it. My parents wanted to stay there, but I lifted a piece of it up, and it was super light. There was no way we could hang on to anything there. I told them we should go to the arcade instead. We left and entered an arcade. Perfect, we'd be safe here. My brother started to play ski ball while we were there. I decided to play as well. For some reason, I was having trouble throwing the ball up into the goals. The thing was built weird, to where I had to roll the ball on the edge of the machine for it to get it into any goals. After the ball getting rolled back to me a few times, I finally started to get the hang of it. I felt like I was doing pretty well. Our games ended, and the machines started to feed out our tickets. My brother had scored higher than me, and got a few more tickets. I remember my score being 21.6 or something like that. I took my tickets and started trying to fold them up, but was having problems. My dad asked me something about the tickets.

The next thing I knew, we were in the car, driving through Disney World. My dad was driving. He said
"Doesn't that look like a funnel cloud?"
I looked to the right. Sure enough, a huge, billowing funnel had formed out of the wall of clouds. What was eerie about it, was that everything else was light and sunny, save for that area. My brother said something, I don't remember what, but as we drove, the funnel started making its way towards us. It was a full-blown tornado now, and a huge one at that. My dad said, frantically,
"Why is it coming this way?!"
I told him to drive. It made its way behind us...right behind us. But it kept going to the left instead of following us. It was tearing the park apart. I could see a ride with people in it caught in the middle of the tornado. We were safe, though. We were out of its path.

Then, I remember being outside under some structure. We were all sitting down on the ground. We were talking. I asked my mom where my phone was. She said she didn't know. I started thinking about where I had been, and figured out I may have left it at Nate's (going back to my previous dream). I got super pissed at my mom about it though, blaming her and asking her why she didn't pick it up or remember it. My brother pulled a bulky phone out of my mom's pocket, and said something about how she had taken that instead. I was yelling and screaming at her about it, saying I hated her and such. I had a glass in my hand, and I threw it to the ground. It just bounced. Fuck that. I picked it back up and threw it to the ground again. It smashed everywhere. My mom started yelling at me.

Then, I figured out where we were. We were by that crazy messed up roller coaster. They were running it again, testing it out. We were alright where we were; we wouldn't get hit by the carts in the area we were in, but we were still very close to the tracks. They were randomly firing off the carts. I looked to my left, and my brother was standing on the track. He was going to try to jump out of the way right before the cart hit him.
"Move, B, move! Get off of there!", I said.
He stood there. I saw the chain start to move under the track.
"Move! Now! MOVE!", I yelled at him.
The cart started coming towards him. It was the smiling yellow caterpillar cart. He tried to jump, but he didn't move in time. The cart hit him and he was thrown off to the side. He looked up at his legs. As he did so, I did the same. They were bloody and gored. I ran to him, screaming
"Hospital. Now. Call the hospital! Now!"
He started to cry. I knelt down beside him and held him, crying, telling him it would be ok. He hugged me as I tried to comfort him.

I woke up with a grimace on my face. I was still very sad. It took me awhile to fall asleep again.

~

I remember something about entering a Shoney's (ew), and seeing some really tall fat lady who was supposed to be their mascot. She approached me and handed me some fried thing. She was talking to me in character. I started to eat it. It wasn't too bad, a little chewy, but not awful. The end of it was sweet, almost like it was an M&M. I tried to ask the lady what it was, but she was talking to someone she worked with, she seemed upset about something.

~

I was with my friend Mike at a restaurant. We were drinking. I had an almost empty glass of wine and a full cup of beer. I sipped the beer. It was really good. Mike told me it was Sweetwater Blue. I loved it. I knew I needed to finish my wine. Mike suggested that I just down it.

Dream Journal #16 May 18th, 2011.

Wow.. i slept right through my alarm, that or it didnt go off. my dreams aren’t really that memorable. i only remember some fragments, although i did remember me suddenly thinking about lucid dreaming in the middle of my dream. most of the dreams were about school. they somewhat relate to league of legends because we had mana and stuff… but that’s all i remember lol. Not a good night for dreaming Tonight for sure.

edit: Weird, I remember this dream like 30 minutes after I woke up.

I remember being in Terreri’s class, and it wasn’t actually terreri but he was a sub. But he looked EXACTLY like terreri and had the same voice, but for some reason I knew he was a sub. I forgot what I did in there, but as I left class I forgot my shorts lol so I was walking around the hallways with only my boxers on. Sean and Andrew saw me and they were like wtf? And I was like.. damn, needa go get my shorts. So I get them and I see Anthony there still sitting in class like he had detention. Then I remember Terreri saying something about demons to him or whatever. I leave. As I walk the hallways, it’s like some kind of holiday similar to Halloween. People are behind the glass displays and they’re invisible, but theirs signs saying to come close to the glass display. As soon as people get close, students suddenly appear and scare the shit out of them. Me, on the other hand, I was able to see through their invisibility. I kicked one of my classmates who was invisible, and he was just like WTF.. how do you see me? I just laughed and walked away.

17.05.2011

Healing and proving (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in a very big place doing readings (probably Tarot, cant remember well)
I gave healings to several people, and I was proving my psychic abilities to some skeptic people, which made feel good.

I recall being at my house. I have just invited a shitload of people over. I have set up a party. The first to show is Zaine on a motorcycle. Then, more kids from school show. That was basically all I could remember.

Lucid.

I guess you would call this WBTB. I was trying to call asleep consciously and it kind of worked, my husband almost interuppted me because he came out into the living room to get something, but he said something and I'm pretty sure it was real. I was in the middle of transitioning into a dream. He walked off and as he was walking down the hallway all I could see was darkness but I felt different, felt like I was hovering.

I knew it was the beginning but I couldn't get anything to really form, I did for a minute and I instantly started rubbing my hands together and I shouted clarity for the first time in a dream. It faded though, I don't understand this. I almost lost it and woke up but at the last second I decided to sit there and wait in the dark and that's when I was suddenly in my house. I can't remember much, but I got up from the couch and I think I said something to the dream, like be vivid, lol, since clarity hadn't worked. It seemed to work. I went to the door and turned the knob, it came open, much to my surprise and I shut it behind me as I stepped onto the porch. Then I jumped back like Spiderman to give myself a boost off the door and started to float, but I ended up grabbing onto my house and climbing on top. I knew the roof would only be hot if I let it, and for a second I was trying to feel it's warmth. I got up on the house and woke up. The whole time outside was very vivid and the sky was a dark yellow, but very vivid. The sky as I approached the roof was different somehow, I just don't remember why it was.

Ok, so after this lucid, I had a dream. Kind of a nightmare for me.

I can't remember every detail... but I was called into work at McDonalds, where I used to work while I was prego. I quit though and now I work at Wendys, anyways, I was working both jobs I guess, and this was my first day back at McDonalds. The manager was talking to me like she wanted me to come back for good, but I told her I could only work Thursdays and Fridays (The two days I don't work at Wendy's.) I had driven a moped to work, and I do remember doing this and leaving T at home, but when I got to work I wondered why I didn't just take the car. This is when some weirdness happened. I kept flashing back from being home to being online to being at work, all the while, having a huge fight with T because he wanted to sleep with other girls. I was very emotional in this dream.

There was a moment when I was at home and sitting on the couch scraping up a bowl of coke, cocaine. (I've never done this in RL.) T was talking while I was doing it, telling me he was going to this town and fuck some girl named Tex. He wasn't breaking up with me, he just wanted to fuck someone else. I was so pissed I picked up the bowl of coke and I had been putting baking soda in it, for some reason, anyways, I picked it up and slammed it right into his face. He couldn't believe it and I felt so bad, started apologizing, then I told him he needed to flush his eyes out with water, this worried him, he got up immediately to do this. We both went to the sink and were flushing our eyes with water.

After this, the girl showed up and was walking around and talking to T about all the things they were going to do together, while I was there. At many points, I told T I was leaving and he went into the bathroom and started throwing out my make-up. I followed him into the bathroom and not even a second after he'd walked in the entire bathroom sink was clean and glistening. I told him I WAS going to clean that eventually and he just scoffed.

There were these video tapes that this girl had brought with her, and she had rented them, hoping T and her would watch them together. I decided to hide them after debating on whether I should destroy them. I started hiding them around the house right before they walked in the door. They were talking about this place they were going to go. This is all I remember about this part.

Way on earlier in the dream, I was at my house, which was also a store called Third Planet (actually exists.) My friend J shows up to sell some clothes, he seemed hesitant when I answered, I was like come on in, and I finishing a cig. He comes in and sits down on the couch. Just then I see a mouse run from the closet door. I freak out and tell them and two of the guys that were hanging out, K was one of them, was going to kill it. I told him if he killed it I would beat his ass, told him to let him outside. He went over to the mouse and almost smashed it, but I stopped him and then he opened the closet door and there were three more mice, I started to scream. (Mice in real life don't scare me, Idk.)

Well, wish I could've remembered all my dreams from last night, but I just took this nap and this is all I could remember.
From last night, I keep getting deja vu though about the dream, just these feelings from it keep popping up like flashbacks and fading real quick before I get a glimpse of anything tangible I can actually write down. I just keep thinking about this Tall man.

I've had a fair number of dreams that I've written down but haven't posted. There will be a lot more posted in the near future.
Fragments:
1. A vacation house in a cemetery with a canal flowing alongside it. Only one part of it is haunted, and that's the hot tub.

2. Post-apocalyptic. Images of a barren landscape, partially destroyed, but more just battered. The land and the damage still pretty fresh. If I recall correctly, it was like waking up in 28 days later having missed the whole thing and trying to figure out what's going on and why the place was uninhabited. No imminent threats, just loneliness. I find one survivor and hang with her. Later, we find a whole bunch more and I remember packing my bags to go with them somewhere.

3. I'm in a video game and I get to a boss level, I have to move a small fantasy-style army across a mapped out green landscape to these mountains. We get there and I beat the shit out of this midget-height boss (a goblin, I think) in SLOW MOTION. I remember grabbing him by the feet and swinging him head first into a ledge.

The Full Moon, as usual for me, effected my dreams and recall.

Fragment
Society had crumbled and there were only two major 'countries', neither of which was I part of. Me and mine had a separate and very isolated city.
Standing with several people in a large room, the was one man I thought for whatever reason was a reporter. He wanted access to our fortified community. He was a tall white man, maybe 165 pounds wearing a blue business shirt. I didn't think he had any good intent for us..so I said I thought he should go on his way back to where ever he came from. The next thing I knew, he was slung over the shoulder of another man. This..bothered me. I said to the man " I really hope you are not planning to use him for a blood sacrifice".

WTF?!

On a funnier note, night before last I had intended to do May's dream task. But once I was IN Dream, I thought that it was not such a good idea for me to crash Luna into the Earth. (maybe this was in part due to the almost full moon..dunno)

"Lucid dreaming, huh?" he says.

"Yep. Been doin it for a while. I kinda haven't been trying recently."

"No shit."

"Yeah. It's really great."

"Hah." The guy next to him laughs.

"What?" I ask.

"You've been talkin about lucidity for a while and you haven't noticed?"

"Noticed what?"

"You're dreaming."

He whirls his fist into my side.

Rows of steel beams on racks, a grinder wheel, sheds, all next to a highway and overlooking a large field.

Dream Journal #14 May 16th, 2011

blah i fell asleep after my wbtb… sigh

anyways first dream i remember was my brother coming back home and like he came home rich or something from the cruise. basically my room was renovated like crazy lol. then he asked me to sell marvel vs capcom and everything. i can remember elleean my dad and alvin with me. we went to some place right near knotts to sell them. i got mad at alvin for not listening to me. ellean and alvin had weird personalities… they weren't acting “themselves” in my dream. weird. I also remember looking at some WII games, and the store only had like 2 games, and me and ellean were like, wtf? so we sold marvel vs capcom and left to go to a new store. also... the place that was right by knotts for some reason is very familiar, like i've been there before. i KNOW i was there at some point, either in one of my old dreams or in real life. that’s all i remember.

next dream was that i was in ms. Kitts class lol. she became much stricter… as soon as i went into the room with my hat she told me that i would get suspended if i went in with it again. then, i started listening to my beats in class (sigh i should have went lucid from this). it eventually started to make a lot of noise because the class was quiet. Also, quick detail... the song was sleep all day (party all night) by sean kingston, as I actually heard the lyrics coming from the headphones. She then confiscated my items,and I asked if I could take it after class ended and she said yeah. Lol.

I had several false awakenings where i was already writing in my dream journal! i think im just way too tired to even try to lucid right now, but for some reason im remembering a lot of my dreams.

third dream i remember was ellean jumping through my window with heros leash and he jumped off the roof. my impression was that he was going to hang himself but was joking about it. i took heros leash which was actually right next to me (should have became lucid..) and went downstairs to bike hero. i eventually concluded that biking was not necessary, ill just drive him around the neighborhood to practice my driving. so i did lol, and i kinda “stole” my moms car to drive hero around. when i got back i was surprised nobody even cared.

fourth dream i remember was kind of a fragment. i was in physics class with lukas and mckenna. i remember having the biggest headache of my life. mckenna kept asking me for jesus’ number lol. and i saw lukas phone on the chair next to me for some reason with his older brother on the front screen. that’s when i woke up.

well, i didn’t get lucid, but i remembered four dreams tonight. proud

Dream Memory

I am riding my bike with Heather on the pegs. This is my "car", and in my dream it does feel like I'm driving a car. Somehow the pedals are the gas and break, it all works out. It's quite the illusion.

I drive into the parking lot of my local cinema (the scene is very realistic, everything is in place as it is in waking life). Heather talks to me about something on Youtube. I explain how I have dreams where a building will be a major internet site like Youtube, and even recall about a "dream" (I never had this dream, though- false memory) where the cinema in front of us was Youtube, embodied as a building.

I park my bike-car in a space and explain how sometimes I forget which pedal is the break and which is the gas. I then offer that Heather and I go to the south end part of town to see the big tent of wares (I had a dream once where I did visit this place, but it doesn't exist in waking life). We start to pedal away and I forget where it is. I get behind another "car" which is actually just Ken from 30 Rock sitting in the middle of the street. We go around him.

Hot Tea Fragment

I have a cup and pot of boiling water. It's really, really hot, the smoke is rolling out really thick. I pour it into my cup, but by the time the water is inside the cup, it has disappeared into water vapor. I keep trying to fill my cup but it doesn't work. Finally after several tries, I get enough for tea.

I turn around from the kitchen area to see a big circle of people. I sit down next to my friend Chase and set my tea on the ground by my chair. (Memory loss of whatever happens here)

Now I am in a dark auditorium full of everyone from school. I'm with Autumn. This scene lasts a long time as we converse with everyone. (Another memory loss )

The golden spoon

I was inside a enclosed jail cell, a man came in with a package, i opened it, it contained a golden spoon.

I woke up.

so i remember going up to this big white colored house i walk in the people there were racist and i was staying there for the night or something everyone there played call of duty black ops and were very competitive my friend matthew was there i remember going in his room and i pissed him off and he got mad and told me to get out so i did i went to the living room where i slept on a pallet on the floor i got in that pallet cryed? and then i saw these two people talking i got up from the pallet and did something... cant remember. the last part i remember is me going around asking people if they wanted something to drink and this brunette woman said "i would like tea please" so i went got tea sat it down sooner or later i realized i was taking long i remember thinking "oh i forgot the ice" and i picked it up ice was in there. so i tasted the tea "seriously i could taste the tea and i dont even like tea but ive tried it before so i knew what it tasted like and i could taste it" then i remember walking towards the patio and i woke up.