dream fragment

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

I got a lot of sleep and had many dreams this night. I didn't write them down so here's my best attempt at recall.

fragment
There was a dream here before the lucids. No detail other than I remember waking up from it and then into the lucids.

Black and White Lucid
Method DILD (?)
Lucidity C
Vividness C
Control C
I don't remember much about this one. I mostly remember that my vision was black and white and this was disappointing. I remember trying to look at my hands but I couldn't move them. When I woke up, I was determined to have another lucid of higher quality.

Questions Answered in Lucid
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity B
Vividness B
Control C
I don't recall how I became lucid. I am in a luxurious house. I am looking through a sliding glass door to the pool area. In and around the pool, a bunch of attractive people, mostly blonde chicks in bikinis. I look at my hands for stability. My body is a bit stiff and I have some awareness of my paralyzed physical body. I try to let go of that and just focus on being in the dreaming. I notice that the dream is in full color and that it fills me whole field of vision like an IMAX movie. This makes me more confident. I phase through the glass door and enter the pool area.

I think a few other things happen at this point. I don't recall. I feel like I fly away from the scene to find something and then came back. When I come back, there are four people left at the pool, all blondes in white bikinis. I walk back into the house and they follow me. Inside is the living room with windows facing front and back and the sliding glass door to the pool to the side. There are a few couches around a coffee table. I stand in the middle of the room and the chicks arrange themselves on the couches or standing next to me.

I recall the talk by Robert Waggoner from the DV video post and recall his advice to ask the DC to explain the symbols. So I look at one of the girls and ask "could you explain the symbolism here?" She replies willingly, not rude but as if it's obvious. She looks at the front windows, which are covered with drapes and says "you have a tentative father". Then she directs her attention to the back windows, also covered with drapes, "... and a tentative mother." Then she looks at the couches which have plush stuffed cushions and pillows. She says "The couch cushions show your attraction to large breasts". I think she said a few other things that I don't remember. Even though what she said was a bit nonsensical, it was and interesting interaction with a DC.

Then I have an orgy with the four girls. Not much to say about that.

fragment
I think this dream was about Brian? No recall besides that.

Gas Station
I am at a gas station with my friend B. My car is having problems and I am trying to fix it. I have the hood up. Also, I seem to have a convertible and the top is down. I put the gas nozzle into several holes in the car, hoping that adding gas somewhere will somehow solve the problem. When I squeeze the nozzle, liquid sprays from another part of the car. I eventually realized that this means the car is full and adding more just causes overflow. B suggests that I start the car so I can see if the gas gauge shows it's full. I am a bit afraid that it will cause an explosion because of all the gas that has spilled. I start the car and it shows the gas is full.

So I remember being in a back room right next to the stage. The band was practicing; or well, I remember seeing the drums and someone playing. I heard that it was time for me to go on. So I ran through a hallway jumping up and getting excited. But when I entered... I could only see staff still setting up. No audience. Then someone in the back shouted, "Why did you come out so early? It hasn't started yet!" So I embarrassingly walked back through the hall into the band room again.

After a while, there was a sort of "tunnel" to my right (the entrance to the stage was in front of me, and I was standing in the practice band room; to the right of me were the instruments). I went through. Apparently I had to jump over things/crevices! Then, somehow, I morphed into a squirrel-looking animal. Then all there was were stairs of dirt. I "hopped" down them and saw someone lying unconscious on the bottom step. I gave them a good hard bump with my body, and they fell onto the floor. He/she woke up and thanked me. It turned out that that creature was a "squirrel" too as well as my lover!

So now the whole band came through this passage. I guess this was the long way of entering to the stage. I don't really know why we were in there; but I could have sworn my drummer looked like a turkey.

I can't remember what else happened.

First dream (fragment)
I am outside. It is evening. The car is standing at the side of the road with all doors open. i walk towards the car and out of nowhere this strange orange cat starts to come towards me. i try to pet it but it kinda attacks me.
the dream skips a little bit. 2 girls i know (but not a lot) comes towards me in big fancy dresses and gets into the car. i get into the backseat and suddenly i realise "well shouldnt i be driving?" and i get into the front seat.

Second dream (fragment ish)
i am in this big bus or classroom (it changes between those two). I remember something about writing on the drapes and there is something that reminds me of cake. apperently i had 2 big slices of cake in my backpack 0_o. One of them was chocolate !

Third dream:
i am in this big grey city where the tall buildings is smoldering apart (kinda like in inception). after the buildings had collaps me and my mates had to clean up the city. while we were doing this an annoying waiter from a nearby resturent came and wanted us to eat at this table in the middle of nowhere. just a table with 5 chairs and some plates on it. I was the last one to give in but we were 6 people and there was only those 5 chairs.. so i left them..

Fourth (fragment):
we are in the classroom, watching old movies with my teacher

Last dream (WILD LD):
i see this window on my wall - and i know it isnt there IRL so i do an reality check --> i become lucid:
I sit up in my bed and look around, trying to get a feel of it. As soon as everything was clear as glass i wanted to try the "finger through palm" thing and had a lot of fun with that and even made the dream a lot more vivid. I had a feeling i had to pee so i went to the bathroom. on the way over there i looked out another window there isnt there normally either where i saw this beautiful horizon with a purple touch to it. i went to the bathroom and thought "HEY! what if my pee was like a rainbow ?!"... so.. i was standing there.. peeing rainbows..
After the pee rainbows i went down stairs...
i woke up. might be the morning light comming through to me. (it was like 10 AM)

Possibly a precongnictive dream last night.

I can only really remember fragments, I had lost my x-trainer shoes, or maybe they were stolen. I was walking along a path with only my socks on I was worried my socks were going to get really dirty. I remember thinking that I don’t want to spend money on a new pair of shoes. I see a flash image, of my other running shoes. And I think I can wear them.

As it turns out I packed my gym bag this morning and forgot to pack my shoes.. arg! And don’t even have enough money on me to buy a new pair. Damn it! Another reason to improve my dream recall.

I was moving planets according to their location onto this big model hanging from the ceilings. I put some on there and realized I needed to start with the outer planets moving inward.

woke up
back to sleep

I was with my sister at my job, Wendys (fast food place.) They were handing out these new long-sleeved shirts to the employees. They handed me a package and before I opened it I had the option to choose small or medium. I wasn't sure what their small would be like so I asked a lady who was wearing one. She said it was actually bigger than a normal small, so I got the small. I was getting ready to leave when I realized D, my sister, ordered some food. I went into the back to speed up the process and made the drink she ordered, Grape Rootbeer? One of the guys got a little irritated with me because he had already made it. I apologized and told him I thought they were busy so I didn't think they had it yet. I laughed a little and shrugged another apology and walked back to my sis.

I think this was the same dream, but me and T had two kids now. One of them, named W, like our son, but he was our youngest. We had another one apparently he was a little older though, like 2 years. The strange thing I noticed about him was he was getting facial hair already! I laughed because as soon as I realized this he was like a 10 year old with a little goatee going on. This amused me a great amount. Anyway, we were at some kind of reunion with the family and we had traveled there. This place was strange, and part I remember the most was there was a library and the kids were running around. I went off to do something that I can't remember and realized I had just left my kids in there running around. My other sister, also a D, was tired of watching them and had sat down while the kids were practically destroying this library lol. My nieces were there also.

There was another part somewhere in that mess where me and my husband were working I guess and we were sitting at a table that seated four. We were sort of laughing and having a good time discussing work. I think this might of been where I went to before I realized the kids were tearing up the library.

I remember a ride too, kind of like that ride in Zombieland where the girls were riding before the zombies showed up, or when they started to show up. Anyway, it was like that but instead of swinging back and forth it would go all the way around and upside down. It was a lot of fun.

Then we were all about to travel home and we were at a gas station. I had my kid in my arms and asked my mom to pull some cash out of my wallet for me. She handed me a twenty and I went inside to get a pepsi and some smokes. I asked the lady at the counter, there were two of them actually, for some cigarettes, camel lights. She handed me 100's and I asked her for shorts. She gave me a strange look and went to get them when I realized that on the counter in front of me was a pack of shorts and the pack of 100s she handed me. I told her nevermind and she gave me another strange look. She asked me to wait a minute for something, they were looking at the computer. I started to grow impatient then finally I walked out with the cigarettes. Yes, I forgot the pepsi.

Then we're riding along again and we stop at another gas station. Suddenly I'm working there and these teenagers come in, a girl and two guys. I forgot what they were buying but the girl shorted me two dollars and said she'd be right back with the rest. I told her to leave whatever she had and to go get it and come back, she acted like I was crazy. I told her it was policy, if she didn't have the money she couldn't have the product. She started to walk out anyway and I followed her out to the parking lot and before she could leave the lot I grabbed her arm and told her to give me the money or I'd get in trouble. I ended up walking back in and picked up a broom to sweep....

Dream - Lucid

I saw a glimpse of a page in a book that said something about Catholics not committing suicide because they would go to Hell.

~

I was in some sort of classroom at a computer. I think I was in the 5th grade again. I remember working with a partner, but I don't remember what we were doing. I remember getting up to go somewhere because we were finished and were allowed to go.

I also remember something about my married friends Tori and Taylor. They were in the 5th grade with me (not so in waking life) and were apparently engaged already. I remember seeing Tori with a ring. She didn't look like she was a 5th grader, but it was understood that she was. I remember all of this taking place outside on a sunny day.

This dream has three "segments." The first part is very fragmented, and I don't recall very much of it. The middle and end are the most detailed. I suppose that's not surprising, considering the nature of dream recall. Last night's dream also had a strong impression of the colour "dark chestnut," so I will underline it here and keep track of it. Oh, I won't include pictures every time. Just enough for flavour.


Sleep. Many of my dreams take place in places I know, like school or my "old" house. This particular dream has both. All I can remember from the beginning is that I was sitting at my desk in my English or Sociology class, I'm not sure which (it is even more difficult to tell because they happen to take place in the same classroom right after one another, and I sit in the same desk for each one).

Then I'm... somewhere. A field or park, maybe? The colouring is bright and very strange. I know that I am either in or watching a Yu-gi-oh tournament with the animated characters. Sometime during this section, I reflect on how the television show was repetitive and how the same people always made it to the final rounds of the tournament, particularly Yugi and/or his friends. Some other things happen to me, but I cannot explain them in words because they are mere flashes. I have an impression of a war or conflict.

Flash. I am in the room of my early childhood (birth-grade five), at my old desk. The desk is metal with a dark chestnut wood top, and I run my hand over its smooth surface. For some reason, I am clutching a blanket in my hand and am shaking Yu-gi-oh cards out from it.

Without any reason, I am at the bus stop I get off at after school, which is a few houses away from my "old" house. There is a pokemon battle after school, and I am the trainer controlling the Kangaskhan, which is standing in the middle of the intersection. Opposite me, on the sidewalk, is a Sandshrew, although there is no trainer in sight. I have Kangaskhan use a move, but it isn't very effective. Then, Sandshrew uses double kick, sending Kangaskhan reeling - the fighting-type move is super effective against my normal-type pokemon. In retaliation, Kangaskhan uses dig (which I don't think it can actually learn) and becomes Monty Mole from Mario Strikers: Charged. However, Sandshrew has become either a Spheal or a Jigglypuff and tries to puff away. I get in a few hits before it's gone over a fence and into someone's backyard by the park. Wake.

We were at some kind of huge house party. The place looked like a giant warehouse. At the entrance was a queen-sized bed where a girl, who we'll call Julie, was laying. She looked very sad so I naturally wanting to comfort every sad person I ever encounter went to go soothe her soul. I sat on the edge of the bed and asked what was wrong. I believe she said something about breaking up with her boyfriend. I got closer and gave her a comforting hug. Then, a girl who we'll call Tamy, arrived and laid down on the vacant side of the bed. She's texting on her phone. Now, a little background about Tamy: I've liked her for some time now and every time I see her, I get nervous and feel like I can fly with all the butterflies in my stomach.

So I get up and go around to her side and say hi. I was just about to start conversating when Julie starts to cry even harder, trying to catch my attention. And as I try to reach over to tap Julie on the back, I'm slyly going in between Tamy's legs and acting like I don't know it. But she looks at me oddly and me playing the fool act like it was an accident and get off her with a nervous laugh. I reach over to Julie and she picks her head up, eyeing me with a glint of what could be lust or love. She lunges at me trying to kiss me but I place an arm out and block her face. I push her off strongly and yell,
"What the hell are you doing?! Get the fuck off me?!"
So much for wanting to make people feel better, right? She responds,
"You are perfect for me Brian! You are so perfect for me!"
But I have absolutely no interest in this woman. And all the while this is happening, that girl I mentioned earlier, Tamy, is witnessing everything. But she is still texting on her phone acting like she's not paying attention.
"I can't make it seem like I'm interested in this girl. I still want a shot with Tamy!" I thought to myself. And I stormed away from the bed and into the interesting part of the warehouse, the dance hall.

Strangely, the lighting here was darker and the golden light of the previous segment of the warehouse did not seem to penetrate the dance hall. I'm pushing and shoving away dancers trying to reach the bathroom. I finally reach the bathroom and instead of a door, there was a drape that could be seen through if one tried hard enough. The wall the toilet was attached to barely reached up to my neck, hardly covering anyone trying to use the bathroom. But I unzip and relieve myself. I then see someone dragging Tamy to where I'm at and they're saying Tamy wants to talk to me. This action has been done in my real life. I tell her that I'm about done and I'll meet her at the bed (hehe). I finish paying the water bill and head through the sweaty dancers again to reach the bedroom once more. This next part is where the dream was the juiciest for me I see.

Tamy is all tucked into the bed laying on her side. She looks disappointed. I open the covers and lay next to her, adjusting the pillow so my eyes could be level with hers. She asked,
"Why didn't you kiss that girl earlier, huh? You really let her down..." and as she saying this, she looks away from me and looks almost jealous. I respond,
"I don't like her, how can I be forced to kiss someone who I have no interest in?" to which she replies,
"She seems like a nice girl. How can you expect to receive chances from someone when you yourself won't give girls chances?" I had a perfect rebuttal. In real life, I asked her out. And she turned me down . So I told her,
"Oh, kind of like how you gave me a chance when I asked you out, right?" I said that with so much sarcasm hoping she would get the message I was trying to convey. She was left speechless. All that came out of her mouth were small chuckles and broken explanations. But then, she stopped. And she no longer looked disappointed when she looked at me. She looked innocent with her big brown eyes. The eyes are the gateway to the soul, they say, and her soul was telling me that she indeed liked me, but something was getting in the way of us having a relationship. I could feel it. Then she smiled and said,
"Ok, but this is a one time thing." and she said something else but I can't remember what. Then, as we looked at eachother, I knew what was coming next. We both had a mutual understanding. It was as if telepathically she was telling me "Kiss me, you idiot." I reached my left arm over her right hip and placed my hand softly on the back of her head. I played with the curls of her ponytail for a second when I lean in close. She smiles and looks away for a second to lick her lips and straighten out. She turns to me and closes her eyes. I do the same. Then our lips touch in the gentlest, softest, warmest, and the most firework inducing kiss I have ever felt in my short 18 years of living. It wasn't wet, but it wasn't dry. I gripped her gently. It was like our lips were matched up perfectly by destiny to form the greatest and most passionate kiss ever. She kisses my upper lip as I kiss both of hers. I didn't put my tongue out, seeing as how I didn't want to seem like a pervert and ruin a passionate kiss. But her tongue touched the tip of mine, inviting me to explore her mouth. So I did, but only briefly and not like a starving wildebeest. And as I put out my lips to make another cycle, she quickly pulls back and ends it with a quick peck on my upper lip. She shrugs and then smiles at me. The dream fades. The feeling of that kiss still lingers on my lips as I type this. It was incredible ...

Dream 1
I was at my friend Jacob's house and we were talking about some TV show and he said he hadn't seen the new episode yet because his TV was stolen. I looked over and there was a stand for a flat screen TV but no TV. He told me that he left his window a crack open and they got in that way. Then I freaked out and went home because sometimes I do that. I got home and closed the window, and then looked out the window for a moment. (I live in an apartment building and my bedroom window looks out onto the balconies of another apartment building) I looked at one balcony that had the actors that play Serena and Eric on gossip girl and waved at them (Or it could have been the characters, I'm not sure because I only waved at them) and then I looked at the other balcony and just stood there staring at the people on it for a while.

Dream 2
Kind of a fragment, I made some kind of study guide for my english final with my friend Maxx. There was some kind of panic over it either going missing, messing up the information, or just the test itself. I don't remember.

Going to sleep now, it's 10:35 am. I will become lucid.

First dream I remember was having Sherry come to me and be like, "i think Dan might ask me to prom because vlahblahblah" and she asked me if I knew anything, I said no. So she asked me to tell her if anything came up cause she wants to know beforehand. Soo then it goes to just me alvin and ian playing basketball. I do remember we find out that Ian has a crush, and kuya don don was like dude she's in the philippines? forget about it! but Ian was like no and he said he's waiting till he's 18. So were like whatever lol. Then we go play basketball.

edit: remembered a couple more things (2 things that i had to stop and think about because of it's weirdness.. almost became lucid i think)

first thing was me seeing katrina in 5th period with a motorcycle. i was like, hmm.. that's weird.. she got a motorcycle instead of a car? then my mind goes.. OK, THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY FINE. NOTHING WEIRD ABOUT THAT. then i continue whatever i was doing.. which i forgot.

second was in a FA. I woke up, and I still had my boxers on (i put back my shorts after WBTB cause it was cold, but i didn't question that). Then I look at my thighs and I see cuts, almost like I cut myself on purpose. There were quite a few, and I think I remember seeing cuts on my arm too. I was just like.. WTF? when did I get these cuts?? then again, my mind goes, HMM WHATEVER I JUST DONT REMEMBER. IT'S FINE. and I go into the bathroom and wash my face and everything, and I wake up for real and I'm late to school

It seems like I'm getting closer to become more aware in my dreams, as I'm actually questioning these weird things that are happening in my dreams. I've never done that before, so hopefully my awareness will boost up over time and I can finally have a DILD in fantasy land.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

May 5, '11, Fragment 1: Someone tells me a word that sounds like Chaklasharoo, or Shakrashlaroo, and tells me it is the name of the world.
I look it up and it is a word in another language that means "One pig, one spider."

Fragment 2: I lie on the ground. I realize there is a cow lying beside me. She is nice and we are friends.
The cow gets up and pretends to be a mean big cat. I tell her to be nice.

and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do to save it.

My reality resides in my dreams...
and this is the nightmare I wake up to.

*I go somewhere with someone. Skrbek joins us but is upset because of something. We go to swimming pool. We get to the changing room upstairs. I have a pack of bonbons he has one too. There is some problem with the locker. I keep rushing him, but finally we get to the swimming pool. I take many things with me, such as wallet, goggles, and clipper. I think about loads of things. When we go home, I see that he lives in a small box like home (bunka). As we keep walking on the road, there is a big lorry that cannot go through a turn. There are some police mans that redirect it different way.
**I am at a petrol station. I am not sure if I work there. But probably yes. (then I say pure random stuff)

Last night i had a long vivid dream wich involved meeting some old friends at the local coffee shop.
Later i went to a garage for somebodies car or something. There was a girl there and she was very mad at that guy i met in the coffee shop about her car or something and she was gonna go there and make a fuss about it or something.

So while i was there i suddenly stepped into a car and began riding in the street . I kept driving in circles and i drove on the sidewalks to, i made super amazing movements where i either shrunk the car or drove on 2 wheels so i culd stay on the sidewalk and manouver the spaces normally reserved for 2 people to walk trough.


Last night i had an even weirder dream and once again thought it was all normal or atleast never had a clue about ever waking up in my bed before.

It was a fairly epic and long dream im guessing but i remember practicing to fly.
To my suprise i was actually doing pretty good and i flew around buildings and forests or something. However clumsy.

Then later i noticed a cute girl i know from school. She was riding on a bike and she was carrying a huge trailer behind her normally reserved for cars. It was loaded with baggage and covered with a green blanket.
We may or may not have talked a little bit but when she drove off i wanted to catch up with her again and i tried flying again. Only this time it didn't go so good and i kept falling and jumping. I tried visualizing wings for myself.
It was interesting i tried to visualize beautifull wings i thought it was pretty important. I didn't see myself or any wings i just imagined wings and i imagined trying to fly with them. I took off a little but and floated a little bit but this failed to.

Here ends my memory.