dream fragment

Dream 1:

I am an adult around 20 years old, and then go back in time with my friend L (who is just starting LDing in real life), and I find myself seated in a classroom surrounded by the younger version of L, a friend from school T, the kid from modern family who is the son of Gloria, another kid who appears to be my best friend, and three random girls one of whom in the dream I apparently liked when I was 16 (Everyone including me are now as old as they are in real life, which is around 14). Everyone is talking like they just met, and is the 3rd day of school, and L and I share knowing glances. I walk over to him and make sure that he knows we are dreaming. We all talk, and it's like I'm getting a second chance with all the people there. Later on, I ask my friend T if he knows we are in a dream and he looks at me like I need to be placed in an institution. I awkwardly walk away.

Dream 2:

A bunch of people and I are in some sort of competition to be the last man standing (We are in some bombed out city that reminds me of one of the multi-player modern warfare II maps, but I don't know it's name). I go around killing people and get their weapons. Then with around 3 people left I face off against this guy who is heavily armed and he runs off after I badly wound him in the shoulder. Then I encounter the last guy in an extremely overcrowded playground that Is exactly like my old elementary school's but with a giant windmill in the center of it. I chase the guy around on top of the windmill, but we never end up getting each other.

Frag#1
I was is an a extreme state of anxiety and could find no relief. I was offered a beer, I told them that I do not drink (and I don't irl) but I ended up drinking it anyway . Slowly as I was drinking I felt my stress leave me. I was so happy to finally be free of my anxiety, but I started to feel guilty that I had drank since I was under age, plus a conversation I had with S irl. I get another drink and sneak around with it trying to find a place to drink it where no one can see me, until I accidentally leave it in an elevator, and when it reopens it is gone. I turn to the people I had been drinking with and say "I just made someones day" and we all laugh. I left the dream just feeling horrible to resorting to drinking to fix my problems, knowing that it would just make them worse.

Frag#2
I was some evil little boy trying to kill someone. The dream was mixed with me modeling in maya. I was using the maya tools to aim my blasts at him.
There was more to this I just don't remember.

(my recall has sucked lately )

Frag#1
I wanted cereal and went to the kitchen. I poured cereal in a bowl and sprinkled sugar over it until it looked perfect. I ask someone where the milk was and someone said, "we are out of milk". I don't care and go for the apple juice and pour it over the cereal. Someone goes, "grooooooss!" and I reply "What? It is all going to the same place anyway"

Frag#2
I was asleep at work but could not force myself to be awake . (I think I was trying to move my sleeping body, that is why I felt so heavy) I could not force myself to get up. My boss, R, walks by and nudges me, I freak out for a second, thinking he is mad at me for sleeping but he says "no its fine, don't let me bother you" I am surprised but go back to sleep relieved.

Frag#3
I was Link in some kind of game. Some other people and me have to go through trials for some reason and a piece that looks like us is moved on a board game. But there was something on my side of the board, that looked like two outlets, blocking two spaces. I wondered if that would mean I would get automatic wins in those places, but I was told that it meant I would loose those rounds instantly. I got to the end of the game anyway but everyone I was against died at the same time, I thought that meant I would win, but whoever was running the game said that I had to save someone to win, and since all the characters were dead, that I could never win. I remembered that there was some sort of stale mate or something so I went backwards and saved a girl in her match to win.

There was some kind of evil organization or something that was kidnapping people buy forcing them out of their houses with a flood. They would somehow conjure water until the houses filled up, and they would ride by on horses and pick them up.

I woke up in a house with no roof (like some kind of doll house) and began to wonder around. I find my friend A sitting on a table, pouting. I ask her what is wrong and she says "It's your fault I am here!" and continued yelling at me in distain like a five year old. I pick her up and say "I know, I'm sorry" and begin to search for more people. I find my friend Sar and a bunch more people I know irl. I realize we are all wearing the same green and white dress.

I lived and studied at Norwegian school, seemingly i had got there for advanced studies yet still school all went to hell cuz i still would not work for my school studies.
There was multiple teachers from my current school and there was some kind "holiday opening party" me and my group was supposed to design.
Later my friend called me and asked that why had not i come to french school?

Once again too little sleep, gotta get that sleep pattern right...

(later edit)
I´ve been feeling strange today, like i had had somekind of crazy lucid i cant remember...

Went back to sleep and dreamt of my friend J. I was standing outside of my house and it was snowing and the snow was very pretty, very powdery and glistening. I said that this Christmas would be a good one. While I'm outside my friend J comes up to me and asks if we could hang out, I say yea, come in and smoke a bowl. He says he's not smoking at the moment, so I tell him to come in anyway and hang out. He says he'll be right back and walks off.

He comes back in a car with some strange guys dropping him off. He comes in and there's a few others there. There was this water bed thing on a different level of my house (doesn't really exist, live in a trailer) and the bed was on top and this tank that pumped water was on bottom and I noticed it was leaking. I thought I had fixed it but then all the water started to flow out, so I turned this knob and it stopped so I filled it back up with water.

C, from work, is there also, and he was saying some really funny stuff, cracking everyone up. J comes up to me and I notice he is sweating really bad, parts of his shirt were yellow, my mom asks if that's sweat or if we spilled water on him, he said he sweats a lot... So I offer to get him a shirt, and he's all for it. I tell him to come with me and he follows me into the bedroom.

I was happy to be alone with him, I don't know why. I start looking through T's shirts while talking to him, telling him I wasn't sure if T would mind or not. I give him one of my shirts that has some halloween pumpkin on it. He takes it gladly.

That's really all I can remember after going to work and coming back.

I had several dreams last night, most of them I can not recall the specifics of, but no matter what the dream was about, my mother appeared in them and warned me not to drink the coffee, especially if it was made using the white coffee beans. She said the white coffee beans were full of fat. She came into at least 5 of my dreams last night that I can recall to give me this warning. In the last dream, she even showed me what the white coffee beans looked like and said that the white was pure fat.\n(I have never heard of white coffee beans. But, the weird thing about this warning dream is that neither I or my mother ever drink coffee)

April 25, 2011

Non-lucid, fragment

I am at a school playground-type area, with a bunch of my friends. We have to collect something, but I am not clear on what it is. I leap from one playground structure to another, slide down onto the dirt, and leap on top of the school building. At this point I have collected 23 of whatever it is we have to collect, and the next closest of my friends has collected 7. Confident of my win, I go inside the school. I enter a large empty room with grey carpet. There is a kid dressed up in foam battle gear and helmet with a foam mace and chain that is nearly the size of himself. Suddenly I have a giant foam shield, and we begin fighting. The battle ends 7-1, with myself on the winning end.
This dream is focused on numbers for some reason, and all I can recall is these bits and pieces, without any sort of transition between them. One of the strangest dreams I have had in a while.

I was bad again and didn't write these down.

I was in a one-on-one fight using staffs against someone else, next to a railing separating us from the river. I was clearly winning and didn't even want to finish the fight, I didn't want to make him look bad. My opponent said if I knocked one of the empty plastic bottles into the river it would end the match. I did so, then realized I was littering! I tried to fish it out of the water but it was too far away. Then I got in trouble with the coordinator and I tried to explain to him what happened and why I did what I did and how I regretted it, but he didn't care. Anxiety.

Next dream I was in my room and people were playing soccer in my front yard, people were watching them through my windows, somehow a ball got in my room even though my windows had screens on them and someone tried to through it back but it kept bouncing of the screen so I took it and ran downstairs and threw it back.

Of course, can't remember when it started, but I was sitting at home thinking about playing a game and it's late and T isn't back from a concert yet, I think. I'm a little angry for him going because he didn't ask and it was in KC, a 6 hour drive. When he does come back, I yell a bit and he ignores me, then I go to lay down on the couch. My mom tells me I should take my "birth control" pills? I told her there was no point, that we weren't going to do anything.

My mom had to drive somewhere to pick something up, she had diapers with her.

Then there's this girl who is in some kind of virtual reality game but she's there in front of us speaking, she's pregnant, she's someone I know in WL and she's talking about her being Eve. She said a really strange quote. My mom acts surprised about the quote and we see the girl holding a stump of wood which apparently was supposed to be Eve's head. So my dad gets up and goes to take it from her.

Then I'm with my friend A and we're going to some concert with this guys she knows. The guy was really cool, but we didn't know him very well. He had been trying to take my friend out apparently for a year, but this was the second time they were hanging out I guess. I remember walking around his house, once during the day, and once during the night.

We were all going somewhere walking through trailers and I see a set up with speakers all in the end of one trailer hooked up to a really nice stereo. It's bright and sunny outside and I notice they have speakers wired throughout the house, I say, wow, somebody was partying last night... A didn't understand what I meant, so I had to explain the speakers.

At one point, I was in the living room, some family at the table, and I was trying to show them T's green laser, but the laser wouldn't do what I wanted it to do, my grandpa was chillin in the living room.

- pretty vivid dreams last night, uinfortunately, there was so much that I am forgetting lots of parts. Oh well.

Can't remember dreams from last night. Nappp.

T's ex came over to our house and they were talking about something they didn't want me to hear. They were talking about a girl and I thought they were hiding something from me. I asked T to come into the bedroom and talk to me. He followed me into the bedroom and I asked what was going on. He gave me a pathetic smile and told me he needed to show me something. He takes his ring and it's in some sort of jewelry box and he points to it as if to say he chose me and I had nothing to worry about.

And just for fun. This is the earliest dream I can remember from when I was 4 years old.

I was at my grandparents house and I had this dream right around my 4th birthday. I was in a bunk bed, top bunk, and my grandparents were sleeping on the bottom. I'm up there with the skeleton guy on "Tales of the Crypt" I think that's what it's called... He's just up there talking to me.

Last night I remember 2 separate dreams, and one that is more of a fragment.

I dreamed that I was with two friends, one of which I could identify as my friend, Fredrik, and one DC without a name. I dreamed that we were playing some kind of game where we had to sit in a sofa sort of thing that was attached to a metal contruction. At the push of a button, the sofa quickly started traveling along the tracks of this construction, sort of like a rollercoaster. At first, it went quickly down to a dip that by the normal laws of physics would've caused the sofa to get completly stuck, but instead it seemed to just jolt past this gap. I do remember however that going past this part of the ride made a really harsh bump that I really disliked. Then it travelled a bit upwards, then down again then really quickly ascended a slight hill. At the end of this we were ejected out of the sofa and had to attempt to shoot ourselves into holes in a wall. Kinda like how you throw balls into holes at a faire, except we were the balls. The area around us was really dark, as if we were in a damp cave.

The next dream was with a group of people whom I could mostly not identify. I do know that one of them was an old teacher of mine (that I really liked). They were sitting and watching something, and me and another dream character were cooking some sort of food. At some point, whoever I was cooking with got hurt by something, and went to sit down. At this point, my teacher and one other person decided that it was important to keep people distracted from something, so they (with very serious demeanor) started entertaining the group through various means.
*THIS IS WHERE IT GETS FUCKED UP*
They started singing a song about daring to take chances to be with the one you love, and as they were singing, various pairs of toys I had as a child started appearing in the food. They searched for the other one of the same kind, and when they found their match, they got out of the pot and disappeared. I can really vividly see a pair of toy soldiers floating around in a pot of bacon sauce, and as soon as they touched eachother they just climbed out of the pot and disappeared. This went on until the dream ended.

I also have this fragment of a dream where a friend of mine, Adina, whom has recently lost her shades, decided to buy a new pair. And I disliked it. A lot.

Lucidity: 5/10
Vividness: 7/10
Length: ~3 Min.

I was Spider-Man swinging like no tommorow. I wanted to have different powers because I didn't feel like swinging. But then I thought I was sleeping in class so I woke myself up and I was in class but was a false awakening.

Dream - Lucid

I remember Kacey and her ex boyfriend being in some office room and sneakily trying to make/watch porno (the porno they were watching was of themselves). I feel like I was somehow doing it too, but not with them.

I then remember looking at some carnival ride that went really fast. It would light up in yellows. You entered a box and the ride took you around very fast in a square. If you landed on one of the corners of the square, you won a prize. The winning box would light up green. I remember telling Kacey that I had won the prize once.

Then, I was on some crazy carnival ride that took you back and forth, like a see-saw, and then upside down and right side up very fast. I remember it was blue. I did NOT want to be on the ride, and I kept hearing, every time the ride would switch directions, someone saying
"Hold on!"
I held on tight to a bar. I remember holding on with only one hand at some point.

Stress and lack of sleep is seriously killing my recall. But school will be over soon, so that should take some stress off. Thank. Goodness. -_-

April 24, 2011

Non-lucid, brief lucidity

I am at a bar with a friend of mine waiting for a band to play. They are scheduled to begin at 4:00pm, and it is now 6:00pm. I look at the table, and see it's glassy, bubbly surface, and a sudden thought strikes me: "I'm only 17....what am I doing in a bar?" and I become lucid. The background fades to black, and I am looking at the table and my hands on it as if through a filmy plastic. I attempt to stabilize the dream by focusing on my hands, and feeling the surface of the table, as well as reinforcing the fact in my mind that I am lucid dreaming. This meets with no success. I allow lucidity to slip away after getting frustrated. My friend and I wait longer, until at 8:00, with still no band, we decide to leave. On our way out the door, we run into another friend of mine, and decide to go get some supper. We are driving around the city choosing where to go when the dream ends.
I believe it is the ADA technique that I have been trying lately that brought on this lucid dream. At the moment of lucidity it was more like a daydream than a lucid dream - I was just as aware of my sleeping body as I was of my dream body. This would have been a good moment to try yelling 'Clarity now!', or something similar in order to bring myself more fully into the dream.