dream fragment

Preface:
I have been preoccupied with family situations, thinking a lot about the future and possible futures. I think I have been concerning myself with these kinds of things lately, as evidenced by my dreams. I have not gotten much sleep. I did not concentrate on awareness today and so I did not recall more than one dream.


DR 1

I dreamt about being with a family...a little girl and two boys. We are outside In the countryside. There is open sky, and there are fields of green everywhere. The little girl is angry at me, I am trying to console her, because she only wants to go home. We see a plane fly by above us. I try to encourage the girl to stay and watch the plane. But then then suddenly, the plane falls out of the sky!
We are startled. Then-.half the sky turns off. It’s as if someone has hit a light switch, but only on half of the sky (right side from where we are standing). I become very concerned about our safety. Everything is dim, so I tell the kids we will all go to the house together. We travel by foot to a little cabin.
I get them inside. The girl is obviously the first one inside, because she’s wanted to go home so bad.
And we stay there...I use the toilet while the kids are getting ready for bed.

I am mostly just trying to figure out what to do. I start looking around the house for a short wave radio, or anything I could possibly communicate with. Instead, I find small miniature jukebox , which is of no help but is somehow comforting. I am reminded of days when I was younger and remember about A-track and cassette tapes. Anyway, I am fumbling in the kitchen when I awake...

Side Notes: It seemed so real when the plane went down and the sky got dark. Iw as scared but I went into protective mode...There was no time to feel real fear. Thinking back, I was very afraid, but more afraid to show it I think. Somehow in the dream I feel like I'm a father, not a mother.

AP Experience: During the day I decided to try & visualize an AP by starting in my bed & going street by street & house by house to arrive inside my husbands work area so that if I ever was to achieve AP I'd know where I was going in a real time way. I kept telling myself all evening that I would have an AP & LD tonight & I would remember my dreams. I laid down at 2:00 am & kept my eyes closed. I did my meditation by relaxing my body & when I did my breathing exercise I did something different. As I breathed in I said to myself that when I breathe in I'm breathing in AP & LD's & when I breathe out I'm breathing out fear. I'd hold my breath in between. No-one told me to do it this way, I just decided to try it. I kept my eyes closed the whole time & visualized the trip again in my head from my bed all the way to my husbands job & into his work area. My husbands alarm went off at 3:15 & I got up to pee & tried to keep my eyes mostly closed & didn't talk & went straight back to bed. My bathroom is about 10 feet from my side of the bed so it didn't take long. I laid back down & started the exercises over & over & ignoring my husband. Meesha cat has been in our bed all night, even when I was reading before I went to sleep. She was in the middle of the bed. At 4:10 or 4:15 I heard my husbands keys & so did Meesha cuz she went to follow him & then she came back to bed & laid down. (I didn't look at the clock, I asked my husband today what time he left) I just kept on with what I was doing & decided that my husband was no longer a distraction & Meesha seemed all settled so I attempted to bump up my vibrations. And they went from zero to 1000! My whole body vibrated like I had some high tech vibration machine going through my body. It feel like every cell & atom in my body was moving & the sound was a really loud humming & air kind of sound, a whirring sound. Other people describe it as the sound a plane makes. Well, I've only heard that sound on tv but I'd say it was very accurate. It's like my body was going to take off, literally! It was maybe 30 seconds of this & I knew what what was happening. I wasn't afraid & I did not see any entities or anything. I tried to move & couldn't but it was only on my first try. After that I was able to lift my left arm & feel it come up & I could see I had 2 kinds of arms & I could feel the difference so I just went for it & tried to roll off the side of my bed. I immediately remembered I didn't want to go through the floor but briefly it felt like I went down but willed myself back up. It was like the bottom part of me started to go down through the floor but not all of me. I was next to my bed but I didn't feel the floor & I could tell that I couldn't feel things but I'm a well trained monkey & I was afraid of bumping into my bed & in a split second I consciously wanted to float around my bed to get out of my room. But before I did this I looked on my bed to see if Meesha was freaking out or anything but she was just laying there right where she was sound asleep. So I floated around my bed & through my dining room & over my couch & love seat a few times just trying to see the room & feel what was happening. I wanted to go through the door so I could make the journey to my husbands job. But when I got in front of the door I wan't sure if I should try & walk through it or run through it. So I tried to run but I panicked & everything went black for what seemed to be quite a while. I felt disoriented & couldn't figure out where I was. I was so tired but so excited at the same time. I guess I popped back in & then I started a Lucid dream..

LD: 1 I was asking these women in a college for help. I was explaining all of what just happened to me & asked them if they were lucid dreamers & they said they were & I asked them if they new anything about AP but they didn't answer. I walked around & looked for things that could help me understand where I was. They told me I was in some college in Illinois. I told them I didn't think that this place really exists. I found some brochures that said it was in Illinois & it was a college but the name still made no sense to me. I wish I could remember. The stairways there were really wide & the hallways really tall & long & detailed & everyone was friendly & then one woman was trying to get a little too friendly when we turned a corner & there was a hot tub. I got in it with her but when she leaned in to kiss me I went under the water which woke me right up.... I sat up in bed & remembered everything so I tried to text my husband at work. It was 5:04 am. I ended up talking to my husband & telling him all about the AP & this LD.

LD 2: I was in an art college of some kind. I was talking to various people. We were sitting in this neat little place where you step down a couple of steps to get to individual tables & from multiple sides you had to step up each way to get out of it. We were discussing art & since I was enjoying this I didn't try to change the scene, I just tried to take in all the things they were talking about & looking at their art and ideas.
WILD

LD 3: I was outside in this vast area where there was just grass seeming to go on forever & there was this thing that I really can't describe accurately but I'll try. It looked like a small hill where a tight low gully was. It was about the size and shape of a small train trestle & you are looking at it from the side & where the track would be there was a space filled with a multidimensional space where artists were creating computer art that went from one side to the other. The goal was to make something unique fill that space. Each piece started from the left & pix elated across to the other side. Like I said it's hard to describe because it was very complicated. I didn't want to try to change the scene yet again because this just seemed more cool than something I could create. It was so colorful. It was like a big computer program that displayed art. DILD

Explanation of Details- I had some other dream fragments but I let them go because I seem to be so overwhelmed w/ the AP experience.... Quite a while back I used to be terrified by SP & I saw entities. I used to pray every night because I was being attacked in my sleep but I didn't know anything about LD's or AP back then. I wish I had so I wouldn't have been afraid. Eventually they stopped & I stumbled upon LD'ing later. Therefore I wasn't afraid when I had this experience today. It was definitely not something that a person could experience in any kind of a dream. No way. Not possible. This was a real time event.


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

Hi everyone! I had a dream last night! The second I've remembered in quite a short space of time!

I remember I was myself again, just like the previous one! (I went through a phase of always seemingly not being myself in dreams in the last few years I've remembered)
Anyway, I was with this boy, in the dream I wasn't sure who he was, just that this random guy started to chat to me. Before I knew it he was asking me to go away with him, and for us to elope to Italy..!

It was a strange dream, even my dream self was confused by this person!

I got really sunburned yesterday & did a lot of yard work for my elderly mother-n-law, so my body is very unhappy w/ me. I had a dream that I was in an auditorium, one I've never seen before. The dream was too erratic to explain. The scenes were constantly jumping around. Maybe it was due to the pain I'm having. I did notice that the people in my dream were mostly from my childhood which makes some sense. Lately I've found a couple of my childhood friends & talked to some others that I've stayed in touch with... Tomorrow should be a better day since I don't have any obligations & my husband will go back to work per usual after the weekend. Also my sunburn should be a little better & my pain level should be better. Today I am working on a dreamscape that I would like to have. I'm going to meditate about it & try to get a good visual.

First fragment

I turned on my laptop and started working - I was making textures and models, then used them to make maps for a Half-Life mod that I was creating.

Second fragment

I was writing a forum RTD game set in S.T.A.L.K.E.R games universe. A first reply was about another game like that, only a few days older and quite worse.

There weren't enough fragments to write down today. Unfortunately I had to get up today & go do manual labor right after I woke up.

Non-Lucid Dream: I was in the driveway outside of this big white house in the country. One of my daughters was there & she needed a place to hide from her kids' father. So I hurried them inside of this house. We heard someone arriving outside so we start to panic. But instead of it being him, it was a social worker. When the woman came inside she saw my daughter, who was now floating all around going up & down halls & up & down stairs. She had somehow made herself look & act like a ghost! This was so amazingly funny to me but I kept my cool when the social worker started freaking out. She was hysterical yelling & telling me that that was my daughter & that she was a ghost & I kept saying "what ghost?" and "are you okay" & other such things acting as if she was having a nervous breakdown in from of me. I figured there was no way she could grab her or tell anyone this because they'd never believe her anyway. It was quite the production watching her freak out. She ran out of the house & my daughter & I busted up laughing. She was still a ghost, lol. I don't know where the kids went. Then I woke up.

Explanation: Over the last 2 days I've been reading 2 books. Yes, sometimes I read 2 books at a time. I like to read. One is called "A Graveyard for Lunatics" by Ray Bradbury & the other is the first Harry Potter book. So the appearance of the ghost like this was triggered by these books. The daughter reference came from me talking to someone about her problems just yesterday on Facebook.

Side Notes: Nebulus was telling me about Synchronicity the other day. I've always wondered what all of these little things that inter connect were called. The amount of these that I notice in my life are very vast. Seriously, I have these "Syncs" all throughout my day, evening & dreaming. I'm quite aware of them when they happen & the majority are not typical everyday things either. Any way I looked up Synchronicity & got this.... The reason I decided to read the Harry Potter series again was to enhance my dreams & get out of the too serious stuff & just have fun. Ironically the books make for not so strange bed fellows for lucid dreamers due to Harry having dreams, magic, flying & detailed descriptions of environments.... I originally read the series when my youngest son was a kid. I used to take him to the store for the book releases at midnight & stand in line for our reserved books. (I should mention my husband was also reading them) So when the last book came out my son did't want to go with me to the store that night so I bought 3 books so we could all compete to see who could get it read first. I won, lol. So the series has a sentimental value for me also.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synchronicity


Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Explanation of details-Blue
Side Notes-Purple

Okay I blame exams week and the release of KSP 1.1 for all this.

Night 9:

-Fragment. I FA'd and I had pooped in the bed.

-Something to do with going to the library. I remember they had this big rack of these little tiny books about the size of 3x5 cards and only a few pages long. Each one of them had a blue cover and yellow text that read "stories of lucid dreaming". I opened up a few of them. I don't remember what they were about.

I ended up checking out one of these 'stories of lucid dreaming books'. I took it home. The story was written by a little kid and when I read it it talked about how he dreamed that lego star wars battle droids were attacking him. I got bored with the story pretty quickly, and decided to make tea and play KSP, but when I opened the cupboard, millions of lego star wars battle droids poured out.

The dream ended with me trying to get all of them out of a coffee mug so I could make my tea.

Frag: +.5
Dream +1

Night 10:

Nothing

Night 11:

I tried a WeeBTB. (I think it was actually a double WeeBTB Didn't work though.)

WBTB: +2

Night 12:

I tried another WeeBTB. Didn't get me a lucid tho.

Fragment: I do remember dreaming something to do with staying at/living at a hotel. Someone was saying it was best to have a room on the lower floors and on the interior with no windows, because it meant I was safe from natural disasters.

WBTB: +2
Frag +.5

I am with my wife and we drive to a house I do not know. When we are in that house began to prepare for a boat trip, we have to do many things and prepare lots of luggage. It is also in the house my cousin (who died long ago), and he is dedicated to sabotage all the preparations. It is assumed that we were going to take the car on the boat and there were more cars, but my cousin does something that prevents cars can get into the boat. In the end, because of my cousin, we can not make the trip and we have to stay at home. Then we start to do a job for someone in that house and when we finished, we sat at a table with my cousin and more people to chat. I realize that my cousin runs nasty looks at my wife (his eyes strikes me) and I get angry, I discuss with my cousin and scolding him for doing that. At the end I get it apart and we leave them alone.

Fragment:

I have done a great snack that has a very appetizing appearance. People who are me want to eat it, but I try to prevent this from happening.

This morning I remembered two fragments:

1. We have to read a book in English class, it is one of the great "classics" that everyone has to read, but I don't remember the title. The teacher and all the other students are sitting at one big square table. I'm the only one that's free to walk around. I sit down on the floor in a corner and try to figure out on which page they are. The teacher is reading out loud. When I go through the pages of the book I see that the first part of it is normal text, the second part is in cartoon form. I think "That's a nice way to make this boring stuff more enjoyable for young people".

2. There's an assignment that we have to work on. I wonder if I really have to, and what would happen if I didn't. The teacher tells me that it's not an obligation but it would be good if I did show my willingness to work.

D1 - I was writing a letter in an agreed code to the love of my life. I was communicating in the way we had agreed in a language only we understood. I was working away when somebody started nosing asking me what I was doing. Then there was someone else sending a letter, too her, a normal letter. I got annoyed that they were sending her things and started to question whether I was right or not.

D2 - Some dark dream about large enemies in a dark inky watery world. A struggle for survival, repeated over and over.

D3- At work I am feeling the emotions carried over from the previous two dreams, I am distraught, feeling too many emotions, saddness, anger and hopelessness all overcoming me. A boy is goading me and even though I know I will lose my job I chase after him, meaning to hurt him, I gets some steel prongs and catch up with him on a stairwell. We struggle and I hit him, bubbling over with anger. I hit him again aiming to kill him though at the same time not wanting too. He just looks at me strangely not retaliating.
A teacher is coming and I know they will put me in prison.
I know then that I am dreaming and change the prongs into broken peices of a plastic spade, harmless. They can harm no one any more.

[comment]
I realise the boy of course is me, when I was younger
who I blame for the mess I am in now
although he obviously intended no harm

The dark world is the world I have been living in I think.
just fighting for survival.
I walk out of that dream into a calm place on a seashore, I sit feeling the calm and peace wash over me.

I think I know the first dream too but it is a bit to personal and near the bone right now.

I had a dream that I was going to watch Peter Pan the musical and they needed a Tinkerbell so someone dragged me out of the audience and asked if I would do it. I didn't have a chance to agree before I was thrown into a costume and told to react like her (she didn't have any lines). So the whole play I'm just kinda jumping around like a maniac hoping my wig won't fall off. Weird.

Preface:

I have been completely pre-occupied with flooding in my area. It rained for about 3 days straight- Sunday, Monday and Tuesday. Most of the areas here are flooded. All of the school districts were shut down, many homes and businesses had no power. My office was closed, so I have been working from home all week. Yesterday we lost power for a short time, but other than that things have been okay on my end. I have been very exhausted and unable to sleep. Last night I was finally able to sleep at a decent time. I didn't recall much, but this is a lot for me as I have not been able to recall anything in days.

DR 1
I dreamt I was in my cubicle, seated at a chair. I was trying to go to sleep, but I kept being interrupted by random things going on at work.
There was a lady in the cubicle in front of me. I knew her; she used to work with me last year. She was dressed up very nicely and had on bright red lipstick.

DR 2
I was a third party, and I was watching a lady. She kept lying to people about things. She had a apparently lied to this guy about something serious...killing someone? Her friend went to a hotel room and covered it up for her. He even made it look like someone had blown the elevator doors open. At the end of the dream, she is sitting at a picnic table with her friend, and she is telling another lie to someone else. It looked like that was going to go on forever.

DR 3
I was making a miniature Christmas tree to match the big one that was already set up. I did this while sitting right next to a huge 7 foot tree. I was making mine a personalized version, because it had photographs on it. There were a lot of icicles everywhere. I was happy doing this, very content.

DR 4
I received a phone call from a man with a thick Southern accent. I didn't like what he was saying- he insulted me. I told him I didn't want to talk to him anymore. I received a second phone call. This was from a lady. She started saying that she knew the guy I just talked to. So, I told her he was creepy and to be careful- I said a bunch of things warning her about him. All of a sudden the guy was on the phone saying "haha it was me all along- I changed my voice". I freaked out and told him to leave me alone and stop calling my phone. I was very mad and upset.

Fell asleep: 12:10 A.M. (with 50mg trazodone)
Woke up: 9:25 A.M.

9 hours 4 minutes sleep last night
7 hours 10 minutes restful sleep
1 hours 53 minutes restless sleep
79 % restful sleep

Fragment1: Something about a spider and one being behind my pillow. When I woke up, I was paranoid for all of two seconds before exhaustion said eff it and I went back to sleep.

Fragment 2: Two people talking, just in time the big dude goes into the room where the other is and closes the door as an Alien movie type creature patrols by. We were there hacking into a database, and we thought it was all good until the other (me??) looks at a terminal and sees green text and numbers (like in Matrix) flashing and I warn the guy about it. Skip. We're transported on top of a mountain-island. The details are jumbled here, but we transport off of onto another island. It seems like the mountain-island was some hard place to get to, so maybe we shouldn't have left. On this island, we realize that we have to take down these orange creatures before we can keep going.

Inspiration: The RPG event going on in Hesokuri Wars (Osomatsu-san app).

Fragment 3: Mom is looking through my mismatched socks and finds the green/white tie-dyed one. She seems to be about to throw it away, so I quickly reach out for it and explain that I want to keep it. I start to mention that the other one has a hole in it, but my mind freezes as I recall that we already had this conversation.

Inspiration: We actually did already talk about the socks but she thought it was fine to keep the one.

Fragment 4: Looking in the fridge and being surprised to see that my blue flowery cup is in there and full of water. I wonder how long it's been in there and if it tastes okay.

Wakeup times:
1:50 A.M. for 10 minutes
3:20 A.M. for a minute
4:01 A.M. for 3 minutes
4:20 A.M. for a minute
6:40 for A.M. 4 minutes
7:57 A.M. for three minutes
8:10 A.M. for 2 minutes

I remember waking up once for the spider dream, once because my cat was sleeping on my back, and once because she was rustling a bag and I sat up and saw that it was stuck on her head... I know a woke 2-3 more times for dreams but was too tired to do much about it. I stayed up a bit late reading. @_@

Non-lucid dream fragment- Me & 3 other people kept trying to get into this house & find evidence & the criminals would show up & they would chase us out... It was like it was happening on a loop almost but we just kept having to come back & each time there would be a little bit different outcome... That's all I could remember.