false awakening

Just remembered a dream from Wednesday morning.
It was one of those where you think you are getting up and doing what you need to do for the day.

Dream:

I "woke up" and got dressed and started driving out to Susan's. I made sure I had the address sitting by me in the car in case I forgot what she had told me over the phone. I was thankful that I was able to find the house without any problems. I went to the door. Susan informed me that the plans had changed and that we were going over to the other Susan's house to make the calls. She told me I could drive there with her since I wasn't sure how to get there from her house. We got to Susan's house and she had cinnamon rolls ready for us to eat. I started asking about how we were going to do the calls. She explained that we would all call and that whoever got ahold of the Grand Canyon Phantom Ranch Reservation Desk first would hand her the phone since she had all the info and prices ready. In a few minutes Marsha showed up. Something had told me she would make it after all so I wasn't surprised. So we all sat down and started to call....and call...and call....

And then I woke up and realized that I would have to do all that again. Little did I know that we had 2 full hours of phone calls ahead before we would get through.

This WILD was amazing. Very vivid and realistic, rich content, successful summoning, and a Task of the Month success (plus a failure.) Forgive the length of this entry, but the dream was 25-30 minutes, and a lot happened! (Edit: After further review... best LD ever.)

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #90: The Night of the Weredog

I experience a sharp transition that feels like a short fall face-first onto a paved surface. My arms are splayed out over my head and I can't move. I can see just a bit and it looks like I'm on a basketball court at night, but I'm afraid to open my eyes more to look around.

I'm totally paralyzed. I'm conscious and aware but for some reason can't move, and I think I'm experiencing something similar to REM atonia. I know it's all in my head, though, so I start peeling my dream-arms out of this fake physical body by rotating them forward into the ground using thought rather than my muscles. It takes a little effort, but eventually I feel this set of "dream-arms" separate out and move independently. Soon the rest of my dream-body follows and I'm able to exit completely and get to my feet.

It is a basketball court -- four of them in fact, all arranged together in one giant rectangle. I'm alone on this court but teenagers are playing small, informal games on the other courts. The courts are surrounded by concrete stands and a metal railing. For fun, I stunt-jump off of the metal railing and land back on the court, then see Wife approaching out of the darkness. She's dressed for bed and looks groggy. "You're still up?" she says. "Shouldn't you get to bed?"

"Shhh, it's okay," I say. "Go back to sleep. I'm having one of my dreams." She nods, yawns, and wanders off into the darkness. False awakening averted.

I roam around the basketball court for a while before regaining focus on my goals for the dream -- summon NewArtemis and have her do the werewolf tranformation for Advanced Task of the Month. I put my right hand out for the handshake summon and look away, pointing my gaze over my left shoulder. I don't feel anything at first, but I'm relaxed about it. I know it'll work if I just give it time. I imagine the sensation of a hand pressing into my palm, and then slowly, vaguely it takes shape. After a few moments, I give the "hand" a squeeze and it squeezes back.

Without looking, I check for a forearm, probing all the way up to the elbow. "[NewArtemis], is that you?"

"Hey! Yeah I'm here!" Cool, I think, but I want to be sure the summon's really solid before I look. I check the DC's arm -- quite thin, but it's there. I reach her shoulder and I'm a little worried when it just feels like bare skin.

"So before I look... uh, what's the story with your clothing situation?"

"It's fine, I'm dressed!" she says. "Come on, quit worrying so much!"

Slowly, I turn to look. I'm shocked to see that I'm shaking hands with a short, middle-aged woman in a blue business suit. There's about a half second of sudden blackness and then a hard scene transition -- now I'm shaking hands with NewArtemis (no longer the businesswoman and back to her usual DC appearance) on some beachside boardwalk at night. Success! "Told you!" she crows. "Let's go!" She sprints past a burly, mustachioed man eating an ice cream cone, heading toward the sand. I follow, flying to keep up.

As she reaches the beach sand, she notices that I'm flying. She looks annoyed. "You know, I can't seem to get my flying to work right now." I notice that I'm unable to fly more than a few feet off of the ground. I try a Hulk jump and can only manage a measly 20 feet or so. Seeing this, she tries a Hulk jump of her own and manages about 50 feet. "Ha!"

There are some dunes along the shore and we practice competitively Hulk jumping up and down the dunes as we continue along the water. After doing this for a bit, we come to a long line of black-robed cultists standing at the top of a dune in a long series of rows, torches in hand. They're droning and chanting, obviously in the middle of performing some dark ritual. There are probably 50 of them in total and I think that this looks like a perfect place to go for the "mythical creature" Task of the Month. "[NewArtemis]! Do your werewolf transformation! These guys are just begging to get eaten by a werewolf."



She looks doubtful. "I'm not so sure," she says. "Isn't this just a bunch of college kids doing a fraternity initiation?"

Just as she says this, one of the "evil acolytes" flips his hood back. He's a friendly-looking blonde guy with a goofy smile. "Hey guys! Sorry if we freaked you out! We're just a bunch of college kids doing a fraternity initiation!" (He uses her precise wording.)

I sigh. We continue for a little while longer, coming to a well-lit swimming pool. "Maybe we should go ahead now and do your werewolf transformation while we're thinking about it," I suggest, and the moment I say this, she changes fast into a big, black dog, bounds ahead of me, and leaps joyfully into the pool! She splashes playfully in the pool for a while, panting and grinning.



But as she kicks up more water, the playful splashing turns into thrashing and now the black dog has turned into my 3-year-old son and he's sinking fast. I'm still aware that it's a dream so even though I badly want to pull him out of the water, I don't feel as freaked out as I would in waking life. I dive into the pool and even underwater I can hear my son calling to me. I can see and breathe without any trouble and I swim to the bottom of the pool, scoop him up, then fly back out of the water, landing poolside to tend to him. He seems unharmed and the moment I set him down, he runs off into a nearby grotto.

I follow my son into the grotto, a low-ceilinged cave with a shallow pool of water, partially bricked walls, and some form of dim light that reflects off the water and plays across the cave ceiling. I find that my son E has changed back into NewArtemis in human form. "Sorry about the pool thing, man," Art says, rolling her eyes. "Hey, do Task of the Month on these DCs!" She gestures at a family of tourists that are exploring the grotto. (The task is to tell a DC they're not real and see their reaction.)

I'm impressed that she reminded me of this. "Good idea! Hey kid," I say, addressing a boy of about 11, "you're not real."

"Nuh-uhh..." the kid counters, looking cross and uncomfortable. Okay, that should be good for a Basic completion, but I'm looking for more.

Now I address a bearded man in his mid-60s, who I assume is the boy's grandfather. "You're not real. This is all happening inside my dream."

"Nonsense," the grandfather says, "you're not real. I'll prove it." He flicks me on the left arm, looking proud of himself. I counterargue by levitating him a couple of feet off of the ground and setting him back down. He blubbers for a moment, then looks off at one of the cave walls, mentally processing this existential crisis. I feel a little bad for him.

"[NewArtemis], you should do this too, get those Basic wings," I say, only partly joking. She doesn't respond, and when I look over, she's changed into a man in his late 20s, short-haired, prematurely balding, and slumped against the wall in fatigue. He mumbles something about how long the dream has been and how tired it's made him. I throw the guy over my shoulder and carry him out of the grotto. When I set him down outside, he's turned back into a tired-looking NewArtemis. "Are you okay?" I ask. She says that she is, but everything has started to feel wobbly and unstable.

Suddenly, the whole scene rocks and something pitches us forward. We both yelp and I fall flat on my face, my hands flailing out in front of me. I'm semi-paralyzed and the scene has gone dark, but I've managed to grab onto NewArtemis' left ankle where it feels like she's wearing some kind of thick winter sock. There's a loud rumbling in the background that sounds like an earthquake. "I can still move!" yells NewArtemis over the noise and she drags me slowly forward across some kind of rough gravel. My face is smashed down into the gravel so I can't respond. She keeps hauling us forward for about 15 more seconds before the scene collapses into...

...a false awakening in some unknown house. Mom is here and I excitedly start telling her about the incredible LD that I just had, going over as many details as I can recall. She tells me to keep my voice down -- my son R is sleeping in the next room over. I apologize, continuing the recollection in a softer tone of voice. After a while, this scene fades, too, and I'm awake.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some kind of old bunker, i was with team and we were chasing some dude. He was activating traps on our way, but we were still following him. There was some talk about bunker's self destruction sequence.
Later on i was at home, and i was trying to play something on a... cassette player. I got it working and there was some music, but then i accidentally switched it to self destruction sequence track( ). I was trying to stop it, almost broke it, and managed to stop it in the end.

Dream 2(fragment):

I was at home and there was stuff happening, then i was watching some movie or series about a dog. Later i was chatting on the dreamviews chat and after that i decided to do a WILD nap, but was not sleepy enough so ended up lying for a while. I got up and for some reason i so wanted to get back into chat that i forgot to take off headphones. I got into chat, but i could not type anything properly, like if i was really drunk or something, and then my messages started appearing from two usernames at same time, one being just "R", other can't recall fully but it started with W. Also chat was using bright red font on black background. I am like 'Wait a second' and i take off headphones, i can still hear binaural beats so i am dreaming. I start walking towards the balcony but dream suddenly destabilizes, i rub hands but it does not works well. I can move but view zooms around instead of myself moving most of time, and when zoomed in it looks like jpeg file zoomed in. I manage to get to the wall and i decide to punch through it. My fist goes in slow motion, but once it hits, wall cracks in half. Then i feel like somebody tries to wake me up and hear dad's voice.
I woke up and dad apparently indeed woke me up for some reason, i shouted that didn't i said before to not distract me at those times. There's a second of silence and then bam, instantly, without much fading, i wake up properly.

Dream recall from today's naps. For some reason forgetting to RC on waking up in dream...

I was in the some city area and there were buildings made of red brick, later i was at home and i went to sleep, i was then in some place called 'Scattered Land' which was a bunch of deserty floating islands, i woke up and there was some discussion with the family and then it was freezingly cold and i went back to sleep, this time there was the screen with a map that was ranking some heights or something like that, i recall there were numbers like 50,000,000 100,000,000 , 250,000,000 , 666,000,000% , 1,500,000,000 , 2,500,000,000 , then i woke up and it was still freezingly cold, i noticed weird comic about ponies on the drawer( i am not even into that IWL).

this morning i had my 3 and 4 lucid dreams it was awsome i was realy hammerd that night and i woke up somtime in the early morning and was waiting to all asleep and i felt like i was falling through space twisting and turning and then i saw my body lying next to a copy of my body in the EXACT same position as eachother i was looking down from the cealing and then i was instantly in my body and i knew what was happening so i did reality checks to be sure and i was, and then the scene changed again and i was in a stair case and i kept on walking up for ages and when i got to the top it was a dead end just a wall and so i used some like super powers lol and put my hands on the wall and tried to make it dissapear but instead it turned to paper and so i started tearing it down and it was the entrance to a plant room witch is where i uasaly am for work and my mate scotty was in there and we started punching on and so i put my hands up to the sky and pulled down two lightning bolts and started zapping him then i woke up.

and then i stayed still and in a couplle of seconds i was dreaming again and i was in mongolia and i was in an open feild serrounded by bush and a river and that one was realy boring couse i kept driftint in and out of lucidness but when i was lucid i like played in the river catching fish and shit and just walked around looking at the bush

3/21/13

1. I am in a hospital that has nothing but cubicles made out of cloth comprising of the building. I walk through and get lost. I see a familiar waking life face, but she just walks by and gives me an odd look.

2. I have a false awakening.

3. I have another FA.

4. I am prepared this time. I go upstairs, but my family yells at me. I am pushed downstairs, but I force my eyes open to awaken.

3/19/13

1. The dream takes place the night before. I feel terrible because of fatigue and another feeling I cannot explain. I am in a fight with my mom in the kitchen. I get a knife and threaten her. She presses her head against the sink counter and says that I wouldn't. She looks at me pleadingly. I stab her, and as I do, I the scene flashes into a cartoon. It quickly reverts. This has happened once before in 'News From Zombie Island', but I did not think anything of it. I drag her body downstairs and lay her on her carpet. I wake up, expecting to have killed my mom. It takes me a while to realize it was all a dream.

2. DCs are arguing on a property. I go inside and see many white hallways. They are flawlessly snow-colored, so much that I lose my orientation a few times. I become lucid, and stabilize the dream, and I see a DC with me. The character is in my peripheral vision, therefore I could not see his face.

Dream recall from today's naps. Had problems falling asleep again and not much recall when i managed to.

Dream 1(fragment):

I wake up in my room but before i can do anything dream fades out.

Dream 2(fragment):

I wake up in my room again and like before dream just fades out.

It was a little after 8 o'clock this morning. I was laying in bed not wanting to get up. The sun was pouring through the window, illuminating the room, making it vary difficult to sleep. I was rolling restlessly in bed, pulling my blanket over myself to block the sun, and then throwing them off when I got hot. I settled, laying on my right side, arm under my pillow, starring at my bedroom door. My mind started to wander. I must have fallen asleep at this moment, although I can't remember when.

I was laying in the same position as when I was awake, and the environment was the same. It was as if I hadn't even fallen asleep. I was doing the same thing as when I was awake, just thinking. I don't know how long I thought, or for that matter what of. But then I realized something, I was thinking about a person who I'd never met.

Then something striking came to thought, 'Am I dreaming?' I reached up and plugged my nose, and to my surprise, the air rushed right on through. I opened my eyes and sat up in my bed. My room looked just as I had left it, and it all look real. My heart was beating hard and I had a knot in my stomach, I was really excited. It couldn't have been more then a few seconds before a rush of weariness came over me. I slowly fell back on to my pillow and my eye lids felt like they were being pulled down. I fought the pull and tried to force my eyes back open.

It worked. With a gasp my eyes opened wide and I shot back up in my bed. Just this time it was for real.

12-2/?/12-13

1. I come to school and go inside. I go to the library in the morning, but it looks very different. Upon pulling a book from the shelf, I become transported to some sort of place. It is like I am floating in the sky. Text appears in the sunrise. It is like I am taking a test, and the clouds are my paper. I am asked a series of questions by a voice in the heavens. I look down, but I cannot see anything. Then, he speaks another time, and the text jumbles together and rewrites itself, spelling out: "YOU ARE DREAMING." Everything becomes shockingly vivid. Then, I proceed to the next question. The voice asks me something, and music begins to play. A little black button appears with an electronic base, floating in front of me, with the words "DEMISE" scribbled onto it. I press it.
2. I am in the living room late at night with my headphones on. I assume I fell asleep with it on. Then, I realize that the voice on the podcast is the same as the one from the dream. I become lucid. Then, a familiar woman enters my house. She tells me to go to sleep, but I know that I already am. "You aren't real! I'm dreaming," I say, but she just looks at me. Everything feels so real that I begin to believe that I've actually woken up. It is time to settle this. I do a reality check, but I get a false negative. My eyes are blurry- I try to pull my eyelids apart to clarify, but I cannot. This is a common dreamsign among my false awakenings. I close my eyes, and force them open, waking myself, even if just to prove it was just a dream.

I woke up in the middle of the night then went back to sleep [maybe false awakening.] So i'm going along in a lucid dream and what not. Then out of nowhere the dream stops. I'm back in my bed right were i was when i went to sleep. Exactly the same. Except everything was black and white. I was still conscious at the time, it felt like i was awake but i could tell i was asleep because i could not talk or move, like i could see through my eyelids. I think i might've been in sleep paralysis. There was this big black monster standing over me not moving at all just staring. It resembled the stature of a human only croched over. I tried to tell it to get away from me using my mind. I woke myself up before it could respond.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and then was trying to WILD.

Nap #2(fragment):

I am walking around the home, and while walking around one of rooms i did spontaneously realized that i am dreaming. I could not move, but after a second i could. I went through the door and to the left it was dark and i tried to manipulate shadows into summoning something. I saw very shadowy and small pterodactyl looking creature, but then dream faded out.
I woke up but i kept eyes closed, i saw the room with closed eyes but i thought it was HH, there was an board with an word 'SPECIAL' on ti. I tried to DEILD but then i got interrupted by someone entering the room, i opened the eyes and it was someone from family, then shortly i woke up properly.

Key: Notes/Comments Nonlucid Dream
Lucid Dream
I was going to try a WILD, but it was way too loud, so I instead did a MILD with a mantra of "I will realize I am dreaming." I had some REM rebound from lack of sleep from the night before.

Dream 1, Nonlucid Dream

I was in a city like San Francisco, except it was cleaner. This asian guy had this big staff with colorful bubbles in it. I acquired the staff somehow. I realized that the staff had magical powers. I pointed it toward a car and a white light flew from the end of the staff to the car: the car grew in size. Eventually some guys came up to me, they were like "Give me that staff of yours" and so I shrunk them. Later this girl came up to me and said, "The staff of gods! You can grow things, resurrect people, and kill people!" I walked around 'San Francisco' and I dropped my staff at one point. It rolled under a car. I went under the car and noticed that the colorful bubbles, which looked like bubbles, had spilled out. I used the staff to suck them up somehow. Someone called my name, though, and I forgot the staff. The dream sort of 'skipped' at this point and I was in a car driving with my mom. I think she was driving to work. I realized that I had left my staff at the city, under the car. I said,
"Oh no! I left my staff under the car! It has magical powers." My mom gave me an annoyed look.
"Staffs in real life don't have magical powers," she said.
"It must have been a dream then," I said.

Dream 2, Lucid Dream

I was at my school. Two boys were following me around. They said, "I can't believe she doesn't realize that this is a dream."Then, of course, I became lucid. I'm dreaming!I thought, shouting it in my mind. I forgot to stabilize, but I DID remember the TotM. I took off running, and found the nearest person I saw. His name is Nate Yu. I barely know him in waking life, but he goes to my school. I ran up to him. I was confident he would give me a lump of coal when I asked.
"Hey, I need you to give me that lump of coal you're carrying around." I got this idea from CanisLucidis' dream journal post. He nods, and pulls out of his pocket what my dream thinks to be a lump of coal. It's got some black, like coal, but it's connected to some sparkly, rough, silver rock that's more pliable, like clay. "Thanks," I say. I squeeze the rock in my hands, but instead of getting a diamond, I got a boring rock. I ran off, still squeezing the rock, but eventually I gave up and threw the rock on the ground. I thought of making coal materialize at this point, but I decided I'd try asking a few more people first. I went to where there was most people: the lockerrooms. I ran over screaming, "HEY, IF ANYONE HAS A LUMP OF COAL CAN THEY GIVE IT TO ME PLEASE?" Everyone just looked at me oddly and continued what they were doing in the lockerroom. I noticed that the boys were also entering the girls' lockerroom along with the other girls. Eventually I gave up and ran off to these 3 boys. I was also thinking of some of my dream goals I also had. I asked them, "Hey, can I have that coal you're carrying around? I can turn it into a diamond." They looked at eachother, considering it, and the middle boy nodded and handed me a lump of the silvery rock instead of coal. For some reason it seemed like the 'coal' was used like a drug in this dream. I squeezed it into a diamond shape, but no actual diamond. They started to look angry. "It's okay, it's okay. I can make it into a diamond like they have in minecraft." I tried again. No diamond. The boys looked even more angry, but instead of beating me up, like I thought they would, they ran off. I turned around. I could hear my 5-year-old stepbrother Gabriel screaming in waking life. He's going to wake me up!I thought. I could hear my brother trying to quiet him down. The dream was blurry and extremely unstable now. I ran my hand across the nearest wall, and it felt real as one would in real life. Then, thinking of a post on dreamviews about 'making out' with the dream, I dropped to my knees. I felt super disconnected from the dream by now when I said, "The ground is going to taste like strawberries instead of the ground." I licked the ground. It felt rough, like the ground would normally, and it tasted like a juicy strawberry. Then his screaming started again. I decided that he would inevitably wake me up anyway, so I decided that I'd try my first DEILD. I exited the dream, and then I kept my eyes closed when I woke up. Almost immediately I heard the 'vibrations' (which, to me, sounded alot more like blood rushing through my ears.) I freaked out because this is my first time hearing them and started flailing my leg around in an effort to wake myself up. I kicked myself in the morning for not tolerating the vibrations

Dream 1:

I was on some island in the middle of the swamp, and there was an base. I was with the team, we called ourselves 'ESP' and we all had special abilities of some kind. We worked as mercenaries, but only with people who had 'correct beliefs' about our abilities. Some people contacted us and we went on some missions on different island which was in the middle of the ocean and there was also some kind missile silo there.
After the mission we were back on our island-base and we had a long discussion about abilities and missions. Some other people decided to contact us but they were acting like they didn't had 'correct beliefs' and we started throwing random stuff into their boat. Shortly we had nothing to throw, so i went to grab more stuff and for some reason one of the things i grabbed was shower, which was on as well.
On my way i had weird sensation and i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, suddenly i am back at my room, but i still have shower in my hand. The water felt... really nice and was kinda fascinated by that sensation. I looked around and decided to try to summon something. Was not very successful, but i managed to randomly turn a random shadow into an physical shadowy hand. Then i looked at my own shadow and apparently it didn't had a head( )/ Shortly dream faded out and i woke up.

Dream 2:

I was playing some platforming game, which was happening in some dark place and i was controlling a bunch of characters through it. At times it was switching from 2D to 3D and back and there was also weird zooming going on. There was an section with some weird platforms that looked like combination of skeletal parts and stone, and they only appeared after an special condition was met, which opened the way to the secret exit too. Also there was an section where characters were traveling on some kind of railway platform/transport through cave.
The game was getting harder and at some points it was getting almost IWBTG hard with enemies suddenly and quickly appearing out of the walls and almost no space to dodge them. The levels as well were getting more organic, i especially recall passage where there were some big insectoid things with tentacles moving in and out of walls.
Later on, there was an final chamber, the game went into 3D and the final boss walked in. It looked like some arachnid thing and it had a face. We defeated it and the place started crumbling apart and then dream faded out.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was browsing dreamviews and was discussing lucid dreaming and shared dreaming with someone. Then we decided to go for an attempt.
The dream switched to some game that looked like AI War, but we had lots of overpowered units.
Then i woke up, and for some reason i was sure that i was lucid that dream(I never realized that i was dreaming at any point, also forgot to RC again ) and i went to discuss it with person i was discussing shared dreaming with before(can't recall who though).

I fell asleep a few times, because sometimes when I fall asleep I get stuck in my dreams and can't wake up from them which I find to be kind of terrifying. Anyway, the first time I dozed off mainly the issue was 2 giant spiders hanging from my ceiling on single strands, they were kind of just swinging there but since I'm petrified of spiders, it kind of sucked and I got stuck in that dream so I had to try really hard to pull myself out of it, but I wouldn't completely come to so I must've gotten stuck again.

Next I met this lady who was telling me something about heaven on earth, being a chosen angel or something to walk on Earth. And I went to dinner with her and we saw a bunch of wonderful things, there was like a waterfall that you could just float above and the water was all sparkly, everything we ate tasted heavenly. The only thing was though, you had to believe you could be happy to live such way, and I was doubtful for some reason. But she said I would receive a call later if I changed my mind.

Then I went home and I guess I decided that I did believe and I wanted to live the way she showed me, and how wonderful everything was. So I went to sleep and everything was just amazing, it felt like I was having orgasms or something so that's kind of weird I don't really know how to explain it lol the memory is fleeting. Anyway when I woke up my dad was next to me and I was overtaken by feelings of disappointment and disgust because I knew why he was there and I told him to go away but he pinned me down and pushed into me and I cried, then he heard a noise and pulled out quickly and I got up and ran, and I started screaming, I told him I was there, I had almost made it into the happiest place on earth and he blew it. Then I fell over and I realized my phone was ringing, the number on the screen was just 44 and I answered it and I started to get really excited and I woke up. Now everything feels kind of weird