false awakening

I was with S. Everything was black and white like an old movie. We were in some kind of warehouse, where there were alot of large square wooden crates. We were talking about dreams, and I quite quickly came to the realization that I was dreaming.
I did a Nose pinch RC to confirm that I was in fact dreaming. I actually did two. (I have grown accustomed to doing two Nose Pinch RCs in real life whenever I check if I'm dreaming. It never hurts to double check.)
I may have lost lucidity rather quickly though. Because me and S decided to participate in some kind of competition. That or, this segment of the dream took place before we were in the warehouse and I became lucid.
When we came outside, we seemed to be in some kind of industrial/shipping port area. There were two long identical docks. They were similar down to the arrangements of the boxes on them. This competition was between me and S, and we were seeing who could jump/climb over the boxes on our separate docks and get to the end first.
The rules of the competition were completely explained to me. I'm not entirely sure how. They just sort of came into my head.
I had a false awakening.
I was in a hospital room. It was quite large, and the walls were painted a tawny brown color. There was a young nurse, and a doctor, who looked a little like my dad. There was a couch on the far side of the room, and a large potted palm tree.
The nurse explained that I had been knocked out in an accident several months ago, and while I was out they had conducted three surgeries on me. One had removed my hip bone. The second had realigned my teeth, and the third was a brain surgery. The nurse proceeded to tell me that because of the brain surgery, I might have some memory loss.
I realized that I couldn't feel my legs. I tried to move them, but instead I would just thrust in my lower stomach and move my hips up a little. And this was the worst pain I've ever felt in a dream. Not only did my hips hurt, but my legs were completely immobile. I tried to move my legs a couple different times, but each time, I was met with this pain.
The doctor handed me some before and after X rays, trying to explain to me that my hip bone had been removed, and anything below my waistline was no good anymore.
This isn't right... I'm still dreaming!
Almost immediately, I stand up on the hospital bed, and push my hands out to either side, causing the entire floor of the hospital to explode. As soon as I did that, the dream lost all clarity, then the clarity returned, but the dream had changed.
I was still on the destroyed hospital. But everything was overgrown and rusted, as though many years had passed. The damage to the hospital was still there.
I began to regain lucidity. One of the steel beams that the hospital was constructed out of had been bent out overhanging the outside wall of the building when I destroyed the top of it. It was bent in a narrow V shape with both ends still connected to the structure. But the inside of the bent beam was filled with dirt and grasses and wildflowers had grown on it. The beam had rusted into a bright red color.
I stood out on the very point. I did a nose pinch RC once more, I was ready to jump off into the area around me. The area was completely overgrown, and many of the buildings in the nearby city were partially destroyed and overgrown with plants.
A dream character approached me and distracted me. He looked sort of like me, but younger and with shorter hair. His nose looked unusual with one large nostril.
He began blowing air out of his nose, causing the nostril to expand. After each breath, his nostril would shrink, but not back to its original size. With each breath, the nostril got bigger until it took up most of his face. It may sound almost humorous, but in the way the dream portrayed it, it was actually quite disgusting. I lost lucidity and woke up.

Woke up in the middle of the night after Fragment1, could not fall asleep so began day dreaming. An hour and a half passed in this insomnia, which you could say was an involuntary WBTB.

Fragment1: Reading DV discussion

Dream2[DILD]: [This was a very long dream and I forgot some parts of it. I was going in and out of lucidity.] My first memory is that I am in front of our old home, on the street and it is night. I am lucid at this point. There are a number of DCs in front of me and they get scared, point at the sky. I look and there are some clouds coming, some supposedly scary sound and a bigger than usual moon. Something is coming towards us. I decide to go in the building.

The next thing I remember is I wake up in my old room and bed non-lucid (FA). I begin to move things around via TK and think, “I have become so good at this in my dreams, that I can finally do it irl”. I am a bit afraid of falling asleep, so I decide to stay awake in the room. I do things to keep myself awake, turning on more lights, other stuff I can’t remember. I spend a really long time there. I look out the window and notice that the nearby building is closer that it really is, but I totally disregard this, looking at some fancy handbags.

At some point a good DC appears, his presence helps me get lucid again. The moment he is there, I already know that it is a dream again. I sit on a school desk, he sits near me and we interact, no sure if we talk, or he just stays there, while I have all these thoughts about lucidity. I am very glad about the whole thing. We spend a long time there. Soon the room changes and I am in some kind of shop, looking at cosmetics, non-lucid. There is a lovely lip gloss made of honey, and I consider purchasing it. The female owner of the shop wants us out though, so the good DC helps me take the lip gloss out of the shop, I put it in his pocket and we walk out.

I am in a building and enter a new room. Because the good DC is with me, I regain lucidity again. I am very happy. There is more interaction with him, just talking and thinking about the dream. This time he is the actor Robin Williams. I tell him that despite the fact that he is very friendly and nice, I am already bored of spending so much time with this character, so I try to change him to the singer Robbie Williams. I do that very easily, change him, but do not succeed in getting Robbie, but some other person, I don’t like the way he looks.

At that point, there are bad DCs outside the room, throwing some grenades at the building. This is a dream after all, and I shouldn’t pay too much attention to that. But as I look out of the window, there are more of them and another grenade hits the building, cracking the wall. I lose my lucidity, it is time for me to get out of there. I try to take my things, but I don’t have any here, and I am in my pyjamas! This is the third floor and I go down the stairs in direction basement.

On the stairs, while evacuating the house with other DCs, I regain my lucidly again and decide to make a portal or passage through the basement, so that I get out of there. When I reach the basement a see a very long corridor, where the DCs from the building are running. At this point, I become very concerned that I am starting to forget parts of the dream, I wonder if there is any way for me to review it, but continue following the DC crowd. We reach a room full of stairs and I climb all of them, I am at the last one when I finally awake.

Dream3: We are in our old place and a squirrel gets in. It is very aggressive and jumps on everything, me including. I don’t like it, so I throw it out of the window. My mom is worried that it might have hurt itself, but I see it on the tree. It tries to get into our place, so I close all the windows. In my hand I am holding a squirrel tail, I touch it and remark how soft and fluffy it really is.

Dream4: My parents and I are queuing for Burger King. In front of us there are two girls who hold drinks on their heads and do some crazy moves. That irritates me. It is our turn to order but I have no idea what they have because there are no pictures. My mom tells me to go first and I tell the woman behind the counter – Liz from Nip/Tuck, that I haven’t been to BK over a year, so I forgot what they have. I tell my mom to order and she gets some chicken burger, I order the same. We go to McDonalds to sit there, we are just going to order some drinks and sit.

Fragment5: I am drawing something again.

This happened between 6.00 am and 10.30 am. I woke up two or three times for real, all the other awakenings were false.

The dream(s)

First one: I wake up, I'm in my room. My brother and mother are here and she says something that I know she would never ever say, so I perform a reality check. I'm standing in front of a wall and trying to push my hand through it, but the wall is solid. I then try to push the fingers of my left hand through my right hand. No success. I decide that these reality checks are not reliable and try another one. I hold my nose and mouth shut and try to breathe. This one confirms that I am dreaming. I'm in the room again and I try to fly or at least hover but I can't seem to do it. A thought is on my mind: "What if this turns into a nightmare like the last time?" Something begins to appear and I close my eyes shut. I'm not ready to face my demons, not yet. I wake up.

Second one: I wake up in my bed, do a reality check and it confirms that I'm dreaming. I try to get up, but something holds my arm and starts biting it. I don't know what else to do but to close my eyes shut and wake up.

Third one: I wake up in my bed, get up, do a reality check and I know that I'm dreaming. I go to the balcony and want to jump just to get out of the room quickly. Before doing this, I want to be absolutely sure so I shut my nose and mouth and try to breathe. I feel the air coming down my throat and filling my lungs. I jump off the balcony and I'm outside. I try to fly, but it doesn't go as smoothly as I want it to be. I then find myself in a crowded place. As I said, I tried before to fly up so high so that I can see our Mother Earth, but failed to do so. There is an astronaut somewhere in the crowd so I go to him and ask him if he could show me the Earth from outer space. He agrees, we chat a little, but it turns out he can't do it. I'm dissapointed, but I have other things on mind that I want to try while I'm in this state. I tell him: It's ok. How about having sex instead? He agrees, we both take our clothes off and he is inside me in a split second. It hurts because I obviously am not ready. I get no pleasure at all so I tell him to stop.

Fourth: I can't remember what exactly happened before, all I know is that I performed a reality check and that I'm dreaming. I'm in the living room in my old apartment with my brother and another person. I want to tell my brother something like: "Look, I am dreaming. You are dreaming." I don't want to put an end to this dream because of this so I drop the idea. During this dream and the previous ones it seems I have something in my eyes that makes them watery and at times I cannot see clearly. I tried in the previous dreams with Clarity now! and some other stuff like that but it didn't work. So now, in this fourth dream I remember that rubbing my hands together is one of the techniques to make my dream more vivid and to increase clarity. I do that and the vividness of the colors dramatically improves. I'm so happy that this works, so I tell my brother what I just did.

Fifth: I wake up, do a reality check and realise that I'm dreaming. I get up and jump off the balcony. I try once again to fly and this time it is successful. I fly with great speed up in the sky and then go back to the ground. I wonder what I should do now and an idea comes to mind. This time I'm determined to meet a friend of mine, so I tell the old man that's standing in front of me that in a little while I will turn around and when I do that, I will see my friend S. standing there. After a while I turn around but no one's there. I decide to try again, but this time I give more info about her, something like: Her name is...she comes from...she was here... and so on. (As I'm writing this, I realise that it was very important to do this, because I also have a cousin named S., and I remember that one night before going to sleep I was determined to dream of my friend S. and become lucid. Instead I dreamt of my cousin just because I focused more on the name than on the person.) I wait a bit, then turn around. My friend is not there. I keep walking as something tells me to go on. I finally find my friend behind the corner of a building and cannot believe my eyes. We chat a bit (private stuff) and say goodbye. Then I hear a song and I'm determined to memorise the lyrics so that I can write them when I wake up. I fail to do so.

Sixth: I wake up, do a reality check and jump off the balcony. I find myself in my old neighbourhood. Nothing much happens here, I see a bunch of guys, each one of them has a twin and we try to do something together but I can't remember what. I see a girl lying on the ground not far from us. She is naked and I go to her and we start grinding. It feels nice. I want to take it slow, but she moves faster and faster and then I wake up. This is the only time I can confirm that the waking is real.

Dream recall from today's nap, recall of waking life in dream didn't updated with latest change in plans for some reason

I was doing stuff at home then went to bed, decided to WILD.
I had transition sensation and i feel that someone is there apparently, i open the eyes, i am in my room and there is random DC, i shove DC off the bed and he says some nonsense, i take off headphones and binaural beats are still playing, i fly to the balcony and further outside, phasing through door on the way, i feel wings. I shout the stabilization command, and for once, it works and dream becomes more clear, i also try shouting the control command but don't feel any change. There's some reflecting surface floating in the air, i look at my reflection, instead of me it's some weird roughly humanoid figure made out of some kind of dark blue wires, it has wings and it has no head. I look at me and i am normal myself(In retrospect, i should have used that for transformation instead, haha, i should remember to do that next time). I fly around and decide to attempt transformation into a dragon again, but before i can do much, dream fades out.
I wake up in my room, i take off headphones normally(No reality check is perfect) and go to my PC, as i am about to type dream recall keywords into file i wake up properly.

It's been a while since I've written in my DJ, since 2011 to be precise. The reason being that I lost the fire, and a series of failure led to me giving up since the efforts I put in didn't seem to be worth it. However, I have decided to reprise my role as an intermediate-level oneironaut. I actually waited before I start to write in my DJ again to see if I get any results, and I sure did.

For the last few days, I have had increasingly better dream recall, but it was last night that I got a full LD.

It all started when I left my house to go to the library. I recall being in a building made out of rocks similar to the ones in Star Wars. I encounter a girl from my school then find myself inside a mix of a library and Archambault (bookstore). My mom texts me to find out where I am. The dream begins to crumble and I become lucid in the process. Lucky me, I get an FA but I am not fooled for a second. I quickly RC, stabilize the dream and leave my house by the back door. As I walk through the door I feel spider webs on my face. I am briefly frightened but soon they disappear and I regain control. This is where my memory gets a bit foggy. I decide the fastest way to leave my house is to fly away and I manage to do so. I see a small cartoonish bird in the sky and land at my school. There I decide to fly around and to try transforming into a cat. While I feel I did manage to transform in a decent way, I am not quite sure since I was in 1rst person. I slowly start losing lucidity and wake up shortly after.

I am very satisfied as it had been a while since I had LDed. Now my goal would be to try to achieve better dream control because I sometimes feel even though I am lucid, the dream decides what I do and not the other way around. But for a start this was very good

Three dreams tonight, and two fragments.

Dream 1: I was outside a school, apparently mine, except it was in a completely different location and appeared completely different.

It was about...five to ten times longer than it was wide, and had a complicated network of small flights of stairs and small rooms instead of reasonably large hallways and classrooms. The color scheme was a beige color for the walls, floor and ceiling, with a brown for the doors. Everything was also a mess. Chairs were randomly placed around rooms and such, and there were no tables. I wandered around for a bit, finding the aforementioned information, talked with a few DCs (though I do not recall the conversations), and the dream ended.

Dream 2: I was playing some kind of third-person stealth shooter with a friend, and I cannot recall any details about him. There are a variety of scenes I remember, such as a wooden bridge spanning a cliff in a desert, with a guard at one end. There was also something about a dragon, which I cannot fully remember, but it was green and resembled a plushie, to an extent.

At one point, we were infiltrating the enemy base or some such, and it had overly-large hallways, as if they would move tanks around or something. The color scheme was blue. For anyone who has played Lost Planet 2, there was one level that resembled this. There were windows and guards everywhere, but we were somehow not detected. There was one part in particular where there were two paths - one forward, turning right, and an offshoot to the right, which led to some kind of security room to the left, and a lounge/bathrooms to the right. Proceeding down the hall and turning right, there was some kind of dual-gate security checkpoint.

At this point, it was less "playing a game" and more "controlling the character directly from a third-person perspective." I knew there was a guard on the other side of the door, but I thought I could take care of him. I closed the first door I passed through, and went to open the second one.

In retrospect, as I am recalling this, I distinctly remember never actually having any weapons of any description. I also apparently referenced the Metal Gear (Solid) series when referring to the guards - though I have only played MGS4.

So, the second door closes. I am facing the second door, and turn to the right - there is a window looking out into the corridor. Of all things, I see...a Heavy from TF2 run past, and it starts opening the door. The door opens and the Heavy kills me.

I woke up briefly at this point, did a RC, and it was not a false awakening. It was about...5:30AM.

Dream 3: I was driving to school. The route is completely different. There was someone who looked like he was wearing three traffic cones (one over each leg and one over his torso), and he was jumping back and forth on the road...at 60kph. Another driver and I passed him by driving into the oncoming traffic lane over a divider, then ran a red light.

Note - this is definitely not an accurate representation of my driving skill.

We eventually come to some kind of mall or some such - which is full of those large cargo containers you find on trains and the large cargo ships. We park, and I suddenly find myself outside the car. This "mall" was open on two sides - "open" as in "did not have an exterior wall" - something that would definitely never happen in Winnipeg. Maybe in Hawaii. The roof resembled the interior roof at one section of a place I worked - a greenhouse, though not the "greenhouse" part. My mother apparently buys me these two magnets, with an odd shape - an oval, with a name of some university, then a connecting bar, then a rectangle. On one of them it said something about preferring yellow silk over black gold.

While silk is nice, oil is somewhat important, dream characters....

Anyways, at one point I look up, and seem to briefly drift into something of a daydream/fantasy/what have you - one that occurs in real life from time to time, and I speak to this other character (specifically, Lucina from Fire Emblem: Awakening), and mutter something about "being home." (Note - I use these "daydreams" for lack of a better term to interact with whatever characters are present in whatever game I'm playing to pass the time, or to relieve boredom). We get up to the "school" which is an incomprehensible mess of what looks like oddly-shaped vehicles and buses parked together. I'm looking around for an entrance, and see some of my (IRL) friends.

We chat briefly, and I ask where an entrance is - one of them says that they are waiting for people to get out of the way, as all of the entrances were blocked. So we wait about five seconds, and walk up some stairs. We enter this "bus" for lack of a better term, and I sit down next to them (not noticing that they are already sitting - and they were definitely behind me). Another friend of mine sits down next to me. I notice a third friend on the other side of the "bus." The second friend goes over to her. I look across, and I see something about free lunches, with a cost of "5" "10" "100" (no currency given), etc. and they were denoted by traffic cones of three sizes and shades - not much difference between them, they were all orange.

At this point I noticed I had no shirt on, but before I could do a reality check, the dream ended.

I think, at this point, I'll consider stairs and traffic cones dream signs until proven otherwise, and perform reality checks as normal.

Dream 4 (fragment): I was playing some kind of turn-based grid-based strategy game resembling Fire Emblem: Awakening. There was a level involving clouds, and I was apparently levelling up the character Morgan (...also from Fire Emblem: Awakening). I also was apparently going to recruit another character on this level, but there were special spaces (which resembled wooden posts) where if I attacked them large sections of the level (which looked like a circle about 6 tiles thick, with a ~5 tile thick bar on the top) would cease to exist, obliterating any non-flying unit beneath them. I accidentally obliterated the character I was going to recruit with Morgan, despite Morgan being on the other side of the map, outside of movement range and such.

I'm not sure whether or not I should play more Fire Emblem or less. Having the characters as DCs should be entertaining, if nothing else.

Dream 5 (fragment): This one was a false awakening, though I forgot to do a reality check - I apparently woke up, and walked over to my closet, which had a white, sliding door on it. I open it up, and walk in. While my closet is a walk-in closet, this one was smaller and wider, and had a peaked ceiling. There was a second sliding door, also peaked, and somehow worked. Opening it, there were several shelves with towels. Dream ends.

All of these dreams were...rather vivid, actually. A shame they were not lucid. I do know which friends of mine were present in Dream 3, I am simply not mentioning their names.

So, last night I had a range of dream phenomena linked together.

First, I had 'normal' dreams that blurred into an especially vivid and convoluted 'dream-within-a-dream' (I dreamt I was dreaming etc). Secondly, I then awoke and started checking because I was really unsure as to whether I was still dreaming or not. I became satisfied I was in reality, but a minute later I realised I was in the 'wrong' house - I was dreaming. It starts to get a little blurry here, but I think I then tried to initiate a WILD or WBTB or something similar even though I had recognised I was dreaming (odd) - but it seems that it 'worked' in that I entered another dream (or dream-within-a-dream, or continuation of the original dream, however you want to see it) where I knew I was dreaming ... a round about way of doing it, I guess, but lucidity reached nevertheless

Knowing I was dreaming I started to panic a little about losing lucidity, so I tried to stabilise. People had posted on here that one method to stabilise was to concentrate upon the senses, and this advice had obviously struck a chord with me because I concentrated upon the feel of a sock I was holding (don't ask). This worked; although I did not have the elation-sensation or the hyper-real sensation I'd had with previous LDs, I was dreaming in a dreamscape that was as 'real' as the waking world, I knew I was dreaming, and I had stabilised it.

Lucidity didn't last as long as I wanted, and soon I was awake (I think something disturbed my sleep from outside, grrrrr!), but all in all a successful LD.

Recall from today's naps, bunch of confusing false awakenings once again and fake sleep paralysis.
The first nap was weird one though, i am not sure what i was trying to do there.

Nap #1(fragments):

Can't recall much other than that i was WILDing and the room was different.
Then i woke up in my room and i exactly knew that i was dreaming, i got up from the bed and spontaneously started trying many kinds of dream control and failing... i probably didn't had full control over myself either. Shortly dream faded out and i woke up.

Nap #2:
Dream 1(fragments):

There was some kind of theatre and i was behind the scenes, where people were making a movie. Then later i was using subway to get somewhere, then i was in some other place and there was movie like cutscene. Finally i was back at home and i was doing WILD, family was watching movies and distracting me but i continue.
I wake up back at my room, and i can't move, i try to break out of it, but chandelier appears and everything gets filled with lamps. Dream fades out and i wake up again, i take off headphones and i still can hear binaural beats, but before i can do anything else dream fades out again and i wake up distracted by family watching movies, can't recall much after that other than some dream skips.

Dream 2:

I was back at home again, and again trying to WILD.
I wake up again in my room, can't move, and chandelier again is here, i attempt to break out of paralysis and this time i barely manage to get able to move to take off headphones, binaural beats still heard. Then suddenly dad appeared out of nowhere, grabbed me and thrown me out through the balcony door, while shouting 'Thanks!'. Outside i am able to move normally again, i feel wings and fly, i respond to him "No, thank /you/" since for once family member helped me in lucid dream, usually they were more distracting me.
Dream, however is not very stable, so i rub hands and quickly stabilize it. Then i look around and outside... is weird. It looks like outside area near the house is surrounded by same walls that are in my room somehow? I fly higher into the skies and do decide to attempt to do transformation into a dragon again. I give it a few tries, using various commands and visualization, and during one of attempts, i start feeling bigger... but my visible body is the same size, not changed at all... that's weird, also my voice gets more booming. I fly around some more and i somehow get into some kind of tube, walls of which are made of screens with blue ads on them...
At the bottom of the tube there's room with wooden floor, i fly there, by the time i reach it the feeling of bigness vanishes, i also notice that walls are white and cyan. I am now inside some building and there's janitress, as i fly closer she throws a bucket at me, i feel the hit but i take no damage of any kind. Then she disappears while i look confused. I look around some more and see a group of schoolmates from my past. I fly closer to them, but before i can do anything dream fades out and i wake up.

I cannot remember much detail of this dream. A new paragraph signifies me waking up, but still in the dream.

I'm with my boyfriend and I am eating something when I begin to choke. I grab my throat with my hands and try to gasp for air. I'm trying to signal him to help me, but he just stands and stares with a half-smile on his face. This isn't like him whatsoever, but I do not think of the fact that I am dreaming.

I wake up. I am in a strange house, but at the same time it feels familiar. I am surrounded by a handfull of strange people, but they feel familiar as well. The lighting of the dream is dark and eerie, and I have an uneasy feeling. (I forget a lot of what goes on at this point.)

I wake up. I am in the same house, waking up to a weird man who looks like he is a carnie. (I forget a lot of what goes on at this point.) Next thing I can remember, I am walking through a wooded, outdoors-looking hallway, but it's inside the house. I come upon a huge snake that is hissing at me. I panic, but I pick up the snake and throw it into a stream that is also inside the house.. I walk through a maze, which is ALSO a part of the house, and come back into the room in which I woke up. At this point, I'm starting to realize that something is off.

I wake up. I am in the same exact room as my awakening before, and I wake up from the same sleeping location (bed, couch, i can't really remember which specifically.) Something is very wrong, though. Someone is there and they are trying to attack. I get up, run through the same forested alleyway, but I run into the snake again. However, this time, the snakes body has split in two making it a snake with one head and two bodies. I pick the snake up once again and throw it. This time, it is much heavier and much longer. I run towards the maze, and jump inside of it. I am getting panicky for it's hard for me to find my way out. (The only way back into the house is through the maze.) I finally make it back into the house.

I wake up. This time, I know I'm dreaming. So I think to myself "I must do something different," so I do not get up. Instead, I cover myself up and try my best to wake myself up. I try yelling "wake up, Hannah, wake up" but to no avail. It is impossible for me to scream at this point. I begin kicking my legs when I realize that I feel trapped inside my blankets, like tightly wrapped up and tangled.

I wake up. I am in the same bed, but do not realize that I'm still in the dream. I think to myself "Oh finally. I'm awake. That was terrible."
But then I see the face of the man from the dream, and I quickly look around me to realize that I am still in the house from the dream, so I know I am still dreaming. I cover myself back up and try my best to remember where in real life I fell asleep- where, in reality, am I laying right now? Then I remember- I fell asleep at my boyfriends house, in his bed, beside him. So I begin to (try) to yell "Zack, Zack wake me up. Please, Zack, get me out of here. Help me. Wake me up." But my speech is so slow and warped, and it takes all of my energy to make sound.

I wake up, but for real this time. I am confused and disoriented, and for a few seconds I do not recognize the room around me, but later came to and realized that I am back in my boyfriends bed. I also realize I am sitting straight up, panting, and my head is absolutely spinning with a terrible headache. He is awake with his arms around me, which was most comforting. I felt like I had been asleep for ages, and that the dream lasted forever, but when I looked at the clock, I realize that I had only fallen asleep less than two hours ago.

I have been having MANY of these types of nightmares lately. Draining ones, where I wake up and literally feel like I have fought a battle. All of my dreams have been nightmares, lately, too.

#162 - 4:42AM - WILD

I WILD straight into a scene outside. I was thinking about the beach and I remember sand but not much else. I didn't really do any control that I know of and just went with the dream enjoying the hell out of every second of being lucid.


At some point I have an FA. My wife keeps talking to me and I think she is the reason why I woke up. I tell her to shutup and leave me alone but she ignores that. After awhile I tell her, "I will slap you in the face if you don't leave me alone." She keeps talking then... WHAM! I vividly feel my right hand connect with her face.

I freeze. She doesn't make any sound or seem to move. I feel totally awful that just hit my wife! I expect her to go ballistic on me but nothing happens. Then I realize this has to be a dream. I roll over a little to note the feel. Yep that feels like my dream body. Sluggish, numb, and a little slow.

I move close to my wife to apologize. I still feel so horrible. We cuddle we automatically have sex.(menthol?) We do it for several minutes then I realize this is sort of a waste of time. The sensation isn't very realistic and I really don't want to risk waking up or *eehem* make a mess.


This dream is super long and unfortunately I have a huge memory gap here as well.

I am outside what looks like my back deck. I see the ground and it has no grass. I decide to teleport out of here but have no real plan. Just thinking about a sliders wormhole causes the view of my privacy fence to distort into ripples but there is no light or color. I raise a hand and see a sheet of rainbow static and then it breaks like glass. I summon the sliders device and point it at the fence. A beam shoots out and makes a proper wormhole. It doesn't last for but a second. Too bad. I give up and decide to teleport by falling backward. I relax and do the "Nestea Plunge"

The scene goes black and I feel myself softly land in my bed. I feel disappointed. I wait and notice slight vibrations but wonder if that was just expectation. I RC again by slightly moving my legs. Yep that feels like my dream body. I throw my legs over the side and scoot out of bed. This time I feel slightly stuck but force through it. I stand up and feel a little wobbly at first but it straightens out. I begin to hear some strange whispering coming from behind me and it frightens me. I don't turn turn around to look. I just say out loud, "SHUTUP.". It stops. I notice how vivid my voice is and my awareness moves to my mouth. I marvel how I'm really in bed asleep.

I walk into the living room and start to head outside. Again, I can think of no real plan just enjoying the dream. I begin to think about how super long the dream has been and think back to the beginning. I feel like I have it all in memory but I may have been lying to myself. During my retrospection I really didn't pay much attention to where I was going and was surprised when a DC stops me.

He is standing there blocking my exit from the house. The really odd thing about him was that he was headless. I feel like I know him but I'm shocked and really creeped out now. I look closer and notice that he is an exact copy of me but with out a head. There is no gore where the head should be. There's not even a neck. It's just smooth skin from shoulder to shoulder with a slight dip where the neck should start. I command him, "Tell me what you represent!" No answer. I know that he doesn't have a head but this a dream and there is no reason why he can answer me. I poke him in the chest, "If you don't answer me I will throw you out of here."
I wait and stare at him were his head should be. Looking at his neckless torso was just too much.

Slowly, he answers in a small timid voice. "Second Contentment" (but it sounds like second contentiment)
I'm still a little freaked so I come on really strong here. Annoyed, I yell, "SECOND CONTENTMENT? WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN!?!"
After a moment, he even more timidly replies, "I don't know."
I notice the door is wide open behind him and the porch light is on. I step forward to move outside and he moves with me. When we get on the porch I say, "Well guess what? I lied. Get the hell out of here." I push him off the porch and he flips into the flower bed and vanishes into the darkness.

Thinking back I wish I had been a little more gentle with him and tried to get some better answers. For whatever reason this is a part of myself that needed some attention and I was a mean bastard. The whole thing was just so damned creepy that I couldn't take it. Maybe next time I can be more calm.

I step out into the street. The scene was getting dark and I really had to try hard to maintain visuals. It feels windy and I feel like my eyes are drying out. Suddenly I realize that my physical eyes are open and must have been open for awhile. I can see the bedroom door. I don't panic but close my eyes and focus on seeing on the back of my eyelids. after some focus I DEILD back into the dream.

I see the neighbor getting in a car but I ignore him. I start thinking how I can't remember any goals. The only thing I could think of is how I was thinking earlier in the day that it would interesting to fly into work during an OBE. I live only 7 blocks away in real life so why not? I start in that direction down the street.

I see a long rectangular shape in the distance at the end of the street where it Ts off. (This still may have been my door) I focus on that spot and feel my body get light. I put my hands in front of me and my legs back. I get the strange focus effect and zoom straight there. Then I fly up over the houses and into the parking lot at work.

For some reason there are several dumpsters in the way. I note four are blocking my path to the long walkway leading to the doors. Two are blue, one is red, and one is green. I weave through them crouched and sneaking. I stand up right when I realize there is no need to be sneaky. Now, I see the doors as I slowly fly to them. It is dark inside and only outside night lights are on. Let there be light. Let there be light. Let there be light. Soon I see some bright fluorescent lights flicker on. Alright thank you! I fly up to the doors and phase through the glass windows. I land upright inside.

I take a look around and let out a loud "WOW!" The entire production area in this part of the plant has been cleared out. Instead of brick and steel there is sheet rock that has been taped and mudded but still bare with no texture or paint. Someone has built a stage on the left and down on the other side the break room has been opened up into a concession stand. I see Glen and Steve down there eating and walk to them. Glen is eating nachos and Steve has fried chicken. Before I speak to them I notice a guy on stage. I didn't notice then but can't help but think that he looks like anderj101. He is holding a black electric guitar and is standing next to a black baby grand piano. He seems messing with some equipment and waiting for people to show up. I ask him, "What am I supposed to do? I can't work like this." I don't remember his reply but it wasn't helpful. I jokingly ask, "Can I have sex on stage?" (menthol?)
He laughs and says, "Hell yeah. I'll play Final Fantasy Pewter Shooter while you do it."
I notice I am walking among tables now and I have a empty metal coffee can in my hand. I am tossing it up and catching it and beating on it like a drum. Just being fidgety like in real life. I get within inches from him and turn my left ear. Laughing, I ask, "Can you repeat that? Did you say Pewter Shooter or Peter Shooter?"
He acts like he can't remember and mutters, "Hmm... Peter. Pewter. I don't know. I think it was pewter."
"Are you sure because I want to remember this so I can look it up later." For some reason I don't want to mention that it's a dream. It feels like my great secret and a joke on the DCs.
"I'll probably forget half this shit anyway."

I freeze. Suddenly I remember how incredibly long this dream has been. I freak out that I will forget all of it. With this thought I open my eyes.

I'm not entirely sure but I want to say this dream got on close to an hour. It's really impossible to tell though.

I later had some non-lucids

Work
I was running a strange braid machine at work putting green nomex on a cable. It turned into a big confusing mess.

The bar 5:58AM
I was in some swanky bar walking out. There was a table with a big potted plant. I walk around it to be block by the only table with a yellow table cloth. There was an old man sitting with a young woman at a connecting table. I say, "Oops sorry" and side step them. He looks annoyed. Then I stop and suddenly want some beer. I turn back to the bar.

There is a middle ages mixed race woman. I ask her for "2 Budweiser Lemon... No I mean Lime."
She looks pissed off and hatefully says, "You want 2?"
I nod
With a smirk she tell me, "That's $18.30" She turns to get them and I start fishing in my wallet for a 20. I start thinking how much beer I could buy and take home for $20. I look down and notice she already has 2 bottles open and ready with a yellow label. Lemon?. I think about running away but instead I reluctantly hand her the $20.

Much later I have a nice DEILD that I'll post separate.

Dream 1:
It’s common for SSILD to cause a false awakening but I never expected it. I thought I was awake and my brother came in shouting: “It’s 4 o’clock!” I thought nothing of it, because I wouldn't be surprised if I slept until 4pm. I will do a reality check next time it happens.

Dream 2:
I came remember A LOT more from this dream, even though the order of the events are jumbled up a bit, it still makes sense… somewhat.

I was in Fiona McKevitt’s (daughter of my old babysitter) house. I’m pretty sure it was her house, but it looked nothing like it; it was a completely different house! In a way it reminded me of a furniture store. But everything was too similar and the room was too small for it to be that. It was odd that the chairs were the same as the old ones we had years ago (like 7 years…), I should have picked up on this and made myself lucid. I have feeling the material changed the second time I visited (I visited each location twice) but anyway my dad sat on the couch closest to the TV (directly opposite it). In a way he didn’t look happy but didn’t seem angry.

There was also sex in my dream (this is a dream sign – I should have realised!) There was a singer – who doesn't actually exist – that had a very provocative music video. It was basically him crouching down in a white background with a hard on and his back tilted down towards the floor with his hands supporting him. He looked like he came from a tanned racial background, and had a Hawaiian necklace if I remember correctly. I remember there was two boys that came up from the bottom left and right and put his his... junk in their mouth. They were basically just licking it while looking at the camera.

I was also on a bus; it was like the school bus but it wasn't. There was a boy who sat in front of me and he showed me a sexy video (it could have well been that music video). I laughed and handed his phone back to him through the side of the seat.

Like each other location I visited the bus twice, the second I was on the opposite side of the bus – front seat. I noticed my REAL SCHOOL BUS coming over the hill, and it was a narrow road. I couldn’t see anyone inside in the bus (but not in a spooky way). I was desperately putting my seat belt on in a panic. And as the bus came closer it stopped suddenly and my bus driver was calm. The fact it stopped so suddenly was unusual, should have made me notice something was up. Next thing I knew, instead of one of the buses reversing – they drove around the side of each other! The road was only wide enough for one bus! But still just like an non-solid object you could walk through, the drove past the sides of each other.

I was gasping while shouting at Donal (boy in my school that gets my bus), “Did you see that!?”

He was calm about it and was actually laughing because I was frantically putting my seat belt on earlier… that made me embarrassed.

I also remember sitting on my bed half asleep looking out the side and that teen boy that showed me the dirty video earlier was there and he did something sexy and I said something dirty back – not sure what.

The last and final thing I can remember from this morning was Bradley Dixon (an teen boy I was going after months ago) and he posted on gay teen chat sire I know: “so desperate from Newry Chat.”

But the thing is that Newry Chat was a website I owned and shut down 2 years ago. Why would my dream bring that up?

END OF DREAM MEMORY.

I vaguely remember a total of five different dreams. One involved going to the dentist, but I don't remember anything more about that.
Another takes place in a mansion. I'm not quite sure what, but we are investigating something (again, not sure who 'we' is). Perhaps the murder of a middle-aged/old woman, with short dark grey hair, who seems to feature in this dream. There is also a place we go to think about information we've gained while in the mansion or surrounding grounds; it is a grey, mottled place with no horizons, set with a number of portal-like occurrences, which are either pale salmony pink or light blue (could be either. Don't remember which). When we enter any of the portals, we are taken back to the mansion.
A third dream takes place in a jungle or forest, with a rushing pale blue river. There are groups of people, none of whom I know, and I am put in a group with them. We all receive 'skills' which appear as pale dotted markings on black spheres/circles. Now we have to cross the river/work our way up it (don't remember which - something to do with the river) but to do so, we have to choose new groups. Nobody wants me in their group. This may be because my allotted skill is useless, or because I don't particularly want to join in. I end up in a team because someone whose 'skill' appeared as a pink scorpion engraved on a black sphere grudgingly allowed me in.
In the morning, after I wake up, the only dream I remember at first is the investigation dream (I guess that was the dream I had woken up from), but I rapidly forget parts of it, such as what we were investigating. I spend a moment trying to remember parts of it, with a limited degree of success, and decide I need to write it down quickly. However, I don't, and without realising it, fall asleep again, in which I dream that I have written down my dream. Sadly, by the time I wake up again, I forget even more of the dream, although I can now remember the rough theme of the dentist dream. Now I really need to write it down, but fall asleep again (did I ever wake up from the first dream which I write down my dreams in? Perhaps it was a false awakening). Again, I dream I have written down my dreams and begin to sketch the woman from the mansion one. I wake up for the third time, pick up my notebook, do a reality check and write down my dreams. Half way through, I remember the jungle dream. Later, when my mother is making me a coffee, I remember another dream. I remember the details of this one;
My friend D has brought in cakes and sweets to sell at charities week in the auditorium. I don't buy anything until later, when there are two plastic bags full left. D's stall is set up near the front of the hall, about level with the speaking podium, and comprises of one blue table which is longer than those in real life. I check the bags and see in the one on the right side a box of cakes and ask to buy them. 'You can't buy the whole box' says D. I say that I want to, or something like that, and later, we walk from the auditorium of my current school to the year six classroom of my primary school. Here, we sit on a desk in the room which we weren't in in year six and I ask D how much she wants for the box of cakes. She says £3.75, and I'm not sure I want to pay that much. I have my handbag and have been holding about four pounds ninety in change in my hand for a while now. D leaves. I open the box (which is light blue) of cakes and look at them (I still remember the layout), eventually deciding I don't want them all after all. Instead, I decide to buy a pain au chocolat and put dibs on the éclair when D comes back. Dream ends before she does.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was in the field, brown ground, i was the leader of the warrior squad, there was semi-ruined building that we decided to use for camping, but soon, we were attacked by enemy warriors. We were battling them at our best, but they kept coming. I saw an enemy leader while overlooking the terrain, i sent some of my warriors to deal with him, but they failed. I had to deal with this by myself, but before i went there one of warriors was saying that i should not go for enemy leader. I ignored him and soon was about to attack enemy leader, but it was a trap, leader somehow paralyzed me and then dream ended.

Nap #2(fragment):

I was in some futuristic city and there was facility i was visiting. There was some blue humanoid, that i was calling 'Curdy', and he was operating machine that was making curd. He told me recipe and there was some kind of secret ingredient, then i went to home. There was cutscene happening back at the facility, Curdy went missing and there was dude that was mostly bald and he was in cyan suit. Then cutscene ended and i was back at home, i was trying to eat potato but was very hard to eat, then dream ended.

Nap #3:

I woke up in my bed and i had to move some stuff around room< then i realized that i forgot to take off headphones, i took them off and binaural beats are still playing, so i am dreaming, dream is somewhat unstable so i rub hands on my way to balcony door. Then i slam the door open and fly outside, i feel the wings and i fly around pretty quickly. Shortly the dreamscape changes and goes weird, like two perspectives are overlapping, some parts of it are normal and some parts moving around with my field of view. After i fly over some street it goes back to normal and i decide to attempt transformation into a dragon again. There's not much of result though, my hands only got a bit bigger. I fly through some kind of temple ruins and suddenly my room appears right in front and before i can do anything i crash into the wall in the room. Dad comes into the room(i think my awareness decreased after this transportation...) and we talk about bunch of things that i barely recall, i recall something was about transformation. Then dream fades out and i woke up.

Before bed: I was trying to re-program my dream body, for 5-10 mins I imagined sending energy and setting the intent for my dream body to become aware when it had the upper hand (i.e. when I was dreaming)

Result: I am not sure if it was because of this, it actually took me quite a long time to fall asleep, because every time I would drift off, my body would react, for ex. my leg would twitch (I think this is a hypnic jerk?), so I would awaken. Or just as the HI dreamlets began to form, I would realize it and wake up, then go to the restroom, then I would awaken too much. Perhaps my intending was working, but I probably should have used this suggestion technique in WBTB and not when falling asleep initially.

Dream1: Two of my best school friends were playing a kind of game, where each would listen to a song, then share some secret thoughts they had. In the dream I know there are maybe 11 or 12 songs, I remember a certain song, but it does not belong to this album. I cannot remember the last two songs, so my friend goes online to find out which those songs are.

Dream2: Politics again. I see the mayor having an affair with some popular all-night-long party woman, there is also a video of this. I contemplate a lot whether to tell my mom, who supports the mayor, about this whole story. I finally decide to invite her over and show her the video, which shows the two kissing. My mom does not believe any of it and still strongly supports the mayor. What is more, it turns out that she has managed to book a seat and take part in some kind of conference with her favourite politicians.

Dream3: I am looking at photo of one of my favourite teachers, then a former classmate appears next to me, she tells me something. On my other side another classmate2 (DS) appears. Now, I am looking at some jewellery made from semi-precious stones. As I am looking at the jewellery, classmate2 tells me that some kind of pink type of stone is the best.[not sure if such a stone exists IRL], it looks like a mix between rose quartz and jasper. She then tells me that she has some kind of dagger/wand made from that stone and some more info about it.



At that moment I remember that we already have had this conversation in a dream, and I tell her that I had a dream about that. She then replies me that she remembers the dream too. Wow! I go out on the street and begin to tell the story to myself, as if I just awoke and will be writing this in my dream journal. Instead, I begin writing this story on the pavement…

Obviously someone I do not want to meet will soon arrive there, and my friend recommends that I leave the place now. I try to stop a taxi, but it is not a taxi actually, some white old Mercedes with some people and lots of junk in it. I jump on it, trying to use it as a ride to the next station. I get off and fly past some Chinese fast food stall and pick up some chicken skewers, they fly away without paying.



I reach our first home, I am on the street. I look and see my mom there, I don’t want her to know that I am here, so I hide behind a tree. I am waiting but it starts to rain and my tablet is wet, but it is water resistant, and this is a dream so that’s why nothing happens to it. [Really!] I put it in my backpack.

Fragment4: It was during the night and we were in some pub like place. It was 2:30 am and all the shops closed, but the pub was still open. We are outside, I look back at this actually unpleasant place and say to my friends from school “Even though this is a terrible place and we do ourselves so much harm here, I actually love it!”….

So I decided I was going to try a WILD, I got on my back on my bed and just started to do what I usually do before I fall asleep, which is day dream. (I'm guessing at some point around here I fell asleep), I guess I stayed lucid, but I didn't even know I entered a dream so I just kept trying to lucid. I remember during this that every time I closed my eyes I could still see my room and everywhere I looked through my eye lids. I also noticed my blanket wasn't on my body, and I contemplated putting it on me but I didn't want to ruin my efforts so I just though oh whatever. Finally something began to happen as I lay there, my body had these massive waves of vibration that would start from my feet and go all the way up my body, and i heard the vibration and each time this happened I tried to enter a dream by imagining places people or situations, and it would begin to work, I would almost enter a lucid dream within my lucid dream, but then the waves of vibration would end to soon for me to fully like transcend into one so I tried and tried through about 20 vibration waves. After what seemed like about an hour of this I woke up confused because I thought I was already awake, but in this awake my blanket was covering my body so I then realized I was freaking lucid dreaming and I wasted my l;lucid dream trying to lucid dream. It was so real.