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I have been doing some soul searching with my dreams and it seems to have been working with my dreams changing from me walking around aimlessly and alone to me involved in situations and always around people.

Dec 22, 2010
Dogs and People
Partially lucid
I have been exploring around a city to see its crime ridden side but after seeing one lone heroin junky and how he was more frightened of me, I decided to go back to my car. I knew I was in a dream and could lurk around the alleyways unharmed but also thought I had a car parked somewhere.
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On my way back up the city was a vicious dog looking like he was going to attack. I did what I usually do and flew above him about 7 feet up but found it hard to get any higher. The dog lunged at me and I easily hit him in the forehead with my fist. I was surprised how real he felt against my fist. He still looked threatening though and since I couldn't get much height I dematerialized, so much at first the city started to fade but I pulled back a bit and was cloud-like but I could still see the city. I tried not to look at the dog just in case it was a replicant I didn't want to give it more power. The dog jumped at me again but this time I felt it pass through my abdomen and left arm. It stood at the side of the road looking at me quizzically.
Once back in the town square there was a market. I landed and rematerialized and looked around to see if my car was nearby. Then a guy came up next to me also looking for his car I thought. He had a lot of clothes on and a blanket over himself like it was a scarf. He seemed like a pleasant black man but was very worried. A woman came up to us complaining about where their car was and I said "especially the way they aggressively ticket here." She said "I know right!" in a loud new york Hispanic accent way which startled me as I was going to say something else and I thought she was a replicant. Replicants always do what you expect them to do and that was unexpected.
I woke and committed it to memory.


Dec 23, 2010
Campus and Girl
Became more lucid as dream continued.
There was a lot of me exploring a baseball field in a school's play area. Soon I felt like I was a kid again and got on a tiny van bus. My mind though was not a kids, just my body. The bus drove around for a bit and I got bored and told the driver "let me off here." He was angered that a kid would talk to him like that, "hey you sit there and behave!" I was lucid enough to know I was invulnerable and now I was angry so I started to throw stuff off the bus out the window. He yelled "THATS IT!" and turned the bus around but it was one of those places you cant just turn around in, that you have to make a lot of lefts before you get back to where you want. So while he had stopped at a light I opened the sliding door quietly and walked out. The bus drove off with the door open and I crossed the street to the other side being that there was a park over there.
Once in the park I took off my shoes so that if school officials came looking for me they wouldn't notice me(?) [Hey at least its more than what Superman did for his disguise]. When my feet touched the ground I felt how real the ground felt, there was texture and temperature and I could even feel my socks over it all. This boosted my lucidity and I began hearing and feeling the thoughts and emotions of everyone nearby. It was very intrusive upon my own mind and I manged to block most of it out, I couldn't think with everyone else's thoughts in my head. Thats when I felt the place and it felt like a college campus. I followed this place's strongest feeling about this to a building to my right. There were a lot of 20 somethings sitting around studying and a few discussing things. Distance didn't matter, if I looked at them I could hear/feel what they were thinking making it hard to stay focused. A guy leaned out of a window and yelled that he was looking for students to help in his office with some light work and some light lunch would compensate for payment. I wondered where this was supposed to be and "Berkley" came to me but this was way too obvious a dream environment to ever be physical.
I walked into the building and looked in rooms till I saw a TV on in one of them and entered. There was a white blond girl of 20 or so explaining to two Hispanic guys, that just wanted to watch TV, about the paper that they had due. I got a picture in my mind about this paper after I took a seat on the sofa with the 2 guys, it looked long and they had few ideas put to paper. "Come on guuuuys we can do this!" the girl said like a cheerleader of this paper. I thought she was pretty cute so I watched her talk a bit. She smiled at me and said to all of us "big hug!" And she hugged the 2 guys and he arm came around to me to. I felt she was touching me on purpose but couldn't think of any way to reciprocate. Then she leaned near me and, as if not noticing, pressed her elbow into my privates area which did feel good. At this point I thought "oh, its on now!"
Woke up "ah crap..."

HOLY CRAP so this morning my alarm went off early and I was able to go back to sleep for an hour. I concentrated super hard on falling back asleep into an LD. As I was falling asleep I remained totally aware and experienced those weird hypnogogic hallucinations with flashing light, strange noises and the sensation that I was falling. I was scared at first but reminded myself that it was normal and that I was just in the first stage of sleep. I then felt my body go limp as I actually fell asleep and went straight into an LD! (The whole feeling of consciousness was unreal. It was like my body was sleeping but my mind was still awake through the entire process) So I find myself in a doctor's office and let the receptionist know I'm there to see Dr. Ross from ER (I have a small obsession with Clooney) but she says I have to book an appointment with at least 6 other people and she finally let me in. Then I'm in this room with my best friend Jodie and she is trying to sell me different styles of pyjamas and then I started losing the dream and wake up

12/22/10 Expedition Fail
Plans: Meet Tigress in the biome, explore ancient Babylon, take Lara Croft with us, I wonder if she even remembers me... The last time I saw or heard of her was when I was still with my ex boyfriend, James, and at that point she and James were going out together, she was one of his dream girlfriends. I imagine that's over since I feel that he isn't even dreaming any more, but I can't be sure until I meet with her. Another plan is to make sure Asuka is ok, and I wonder if I have been absent from the two Hogwarts schools or if I just don't remember it or if it is basically on hold until I get back, in time stasis, or more accurately I travel through time to get to the right point and time at each Hogwarts.

The End of the World As We Know It
I am in my house with my mother, we are watching the news on television. The news is showing nuclear bombs hitting some major US cities, and I question if I might be dreaming since there has been no word of a nuclear attack or threat of a nuclear attack lately. So I do a nose pinch RC, and I found I can't breathe when I pinched my nose… and that means I am awake? But the news story looks so surreal to me, I think it has to be a dream… doesn't it? I do one more RC just to be sure, and again I find out that I am awake. (The nose pinch RC usually works well for me, but this time it epic failed!) So I ask my mother what is going on since I just came out of my room to see what is on television, she says we need to get to a safe place, because the air force base near Tucson will no doubt be a target. So where can we go that will be safe? Leaving town to the north is not an option, because Phoenix will no doubt be attacked, too, so we would be driving out of a disaster into another disaster. The clear choice of a place to go would be underground, to a place where the blast wouldn't reach us, although I am still wondering how that's supposed to help with the radiation after the attack. I mention that to my mother, she seems convinced that after the first big rain, the radiation will be gone. I know IWL that this is not true, but in the dream it made complete sense, so now the idea was to choose a place to get underground. The best option we could think of is Colossal Cave, a system of caves to the east of Tucson, so we decide to go there.

We are packing up our stuff as fast as possible, because to approach Colossal Cave means to get closer to the air force base, which means getting closer to the target of the attack… so we were in a big hurry to gather all our stuff and get moving. We gather the animals first, all into my mother's car since it is a bit bigger than mine, the car in the dream is quite a bit larger than her car IWL. Then we gather important things and hit the road. We have already been on the road for a bit when I realize I have forgotten my laptop, and I find that really upsetting, I want to go back for it, but we don't have the time. My mom is impatient that I need that, so she says we will go into the gift shop at Colossal Cave and I can get a new laptop there. I am impressed, as I know the Colossal Cave gift shop has only Alienware computers, and they're the ones who have the computer chargers that run on solar power or water power… so if I just find an underground stream I can keep my computer charged! Yay! And I can pick up all the software I need there, too! I am so happy I want to hug one of my cats. I look in the back seat and see there are about ten cats in carriers piled on the seat, the back end is full of dogs… way more than we have… And there are mice, hamsters, gerbils, guinea pigs running on the floor and several birds flying around… there's no way this can be real… then I wake.

The University
I am at school, but it is a much larger school than the one I have been attending, and then there's the fact I just graduated, but neither of those things seemed odd to me. I am in the halls, it is the first day back in class, so I need to go to my locker and get some stuff for the next class, and I find the locker with no problem. I remember my combination… it's 23-33-64, and I get it opened quickly. I put some stuff back into the locker and took some stuff out before heading off to class. The odd thing is I don't end up going to class, I head out to my car and start to leave. I am out onto the main road before I remember I can't go home yet, I have another class! But I want some food first, and there isn't time to go to another place to get food, so I pull back into the school parking lot to get a parking place, the parking lot is huge, but I finally get into the underground parking garage and I am able to find a parking place. I am hoping I don't have any problems finding the car when I get out of class!

Ok, well I have time to grab some food at the cafeteria, so I head into the door closest to the cafeteria. I am thinking I technically shouldn't be taking time for food, because I have completely forgotten where my locker is and what the combination is, and I have also forgotten where my class is, but I am sure that will all come back after I have eaten. I find Tigress and a couple of other people sitting at one of the cafeteria tables, so I sit down with her. She starts talking to me about possible dream plans for the next night, she says she wants to go explore some ancient civilization, so we can meet in a dream at the biodome… I think about that for a minute, then I do a RC and discover I am dreaming.

I tell Tigress we don't have to wait at all to set off and do something cool, let's go right now! This is a dream! Tigress looks at me strangely for a bit making me wonder for a bit if she might not be Tigress, but just a DC of Tigress… but I continue speaking anyhow, figuring it will be revealed in just a bit. I tell her I'll go get Lara Croft, and she can go get Daniel Jackson or whoever she wants to bring along, and we can meet back in the biodome. She gets up and does a RC, and says this really is a dream, awesome! I am about to open a portal to the world where I once knew a Lara Croft, I am focused on getting there, I am hoping I will still be able to do it. Before I can get a portal open, however, I wake.

Tomb Raider: Return to Lara Croft
I am in a place that doesn't look very familiar, but it still looks just a bit familiar like I have been here a long time ago. I see a large house with a lot of land around it, so I approach the house and go up to the front door. When I knock on the door, a man opens the door, he is a butler, and he seems to recognize me… and shows me in to where Lara Croft is. I had been wondering if she would remember me, but any question of that is out of my mind immediately as Lara greets me as she would greet a long lost friend… because to her that's what I am, a long lost friend. We do a lot of talking, which I won't go into extreme detail here, but I will summarize. She says she hasn't seen my ex boyfriend, James, around for a long time, and she has basically given up on his coming back. She asks how he and I are getting along, I tell her what happened when he lied to me and went off with someone else, she agrees he is an ass… to do that after all the time we had been together, I say I don't think he really loved me at all, he was afraid of being alone, and for that length of time I was convenient until he found someone he was truly in love with. She used to have a roommate by the name of Katana who went on some of her adventures with her, but Katana has since moved on with some really hot guy from Lara doesn't remember where… So Lara Croft and I spend some time catching up on old times, then I remember that there are things we have to do. Over time I have been becoming steadily more lucid…

Now I am completely lucid… and I remember why I had actually come here to see Lara. I ask her if she is interested in going on a trip, going to see ancient Babylon, which is what Tigress and I agreed on visiting. Lara looks at me for a minute like I am crazy, then asks why I even need to ask that, of course she wants to come. She has some pokémon with her, I had forgotten she has pokémon, and before we leave, a persian and a pikachu join Lara and me. I open a portal, focusing on getting to the biodome, which is where I am to meet Tigress. A portal opens, and I lead Lara and her two pokémon through the portal and into the biodome. Unfortunately, however, I barely have a chance to see Tigress there with Daniel before I feel like I'm going to wake up. I focus on stabilizing the dream and it seems to stabilize. I tell Tigress I can now open a portal to ancient Babylon, and then I focus on opening that portal. The portal opens, but it seems like the effort of opening the portal has made the dream go unstable again. I catch a glimpse of the hanging gardens of Babylon through the portal, but then I wake up.

Television
Method WILD
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control D
I transition into a false awakening. I feel my sleep mask around my head, but I can open my eyes and see through it. Ugh, I have a headache. I must be hung over. I sit up. I'm in my own bedroom. The lighting is very early morning. My door is open. Through the door, I hear the TV on all static and I can see the glow lighting the room. I'm lucid but not thinking very clearly. I mindlessly stumble out the room to see what's going on. The furniture is arranged all wrong and the TV is the wrong model. I feel along the front panel for the off switch. I press it. Everything goes black and the dream ends.

This was another one of those dreams where I thought I could already have been lucid but to just do an RC anyway. Also it was confusing.

I'm just gonna say I didn't know I was dreaming right now. It started out where I was sitting at a lunch table in our school's cafeteria. There was a lot of people around. A.G. was sitting about 3 or 4 seats down from me, Sam, and Julia. Julia looked like she had eaten something nasty. So she grabbed one of A.G.'s hot fries on her plate and ate one. Then Julia and Sam got up and left.

A.G. got mad. The look was of hate and disgust. I heard her say, "Oh my gosh." with all of her "group" around her.

I asked her where Sam was. She told me something like, "I don't know, but I've seen Claire thousands of times."
I was taken aback by this for some reason. And she said it in a whisper. (I don't really like her, FYI)

So I got up and walked around looking for Julia and Sam. I never heard the bell ring, because I remember somebody telling me that we weren't going to have bells that day. I was walking through the hall when I suddenly realized that I wasn't supposed to be at school, and that there was an awful lot of people around.

I plugged my nose and breathed in. I was lucid! I didn't really think about my goals at this time. I thought about getting to my history class on time. o.o So I went over to my locker. I opened it and it almost looked like some sort of black hole. I saw my history stuff. My binder was jammed up in there, so I pulled it out. It looked sort of messed up too.

I pulled out what looked like my history book, but it could have been my literature. Also my purse was in there. But it wasn't my purse I use today, it was my shoulder purse.

So I was running down the hall and noticed a group of children around the door. I said, "Exuse me, coming through." They parted and I ran down the hall some more. When I came to the corner, I noticed some elementary students (possibly 6th graders) coming down in a line. Most of them were wearing those Nike shoes that light up.

I sped past them. And then, since I remembered it was a dream, I sped ahead really fast to the door. But then I dropped my books, and a girl helped me pick them up. She said, "Here you go." With only history book and a pencil in hand. I didn't say anything about the binder and rushed in. Mrs. Elmore was staring at me and so was everyone else. "You're late." I remember her saying.

The desks looked a bit odd. There was a whole group sitting together. And then there was Sam and I. I don't know where Julia was. So I went and sat by Sam. I hung my purse behind me in an odd fashion and I put something on the floor. I think it was my binder. o.o

At one time we started to read the book. Since I knew it was a dream, it was going to be hard. I remember reading the paragraph with the teacher and the words were either misspelled or kept changing.

I can't really remember what happened after this.

12/21/10 This Is The Way I Pray...
Note: It seems that Lujan has been making things difficult for Asuka and MoSh again, I'm not sure what has set him to start being an ass again. But I am thinking he needs a little discouragement from continuing to do that. I spent some time thinking up some nice nightmares made just for Lujan. So here are a few highlights from the night of nightmares Lujan had…

Dude Looks Like a Lady
Lujan is at a strip club filled with the most beautiful women ever, all of them are dancing around a pole and stripping slowly down to the point where they have nothing on but what their mommas gave them. The tops come off, the women shake their breasts teasingly as they remove their bras. Then it's time for the bottoms come off, leaving each woman only wearing sexy and colorful panties… then the panties came off. Impossibly, huge hairy dicks sprung out of the tiny panties, and the "women" started swinging their hips, they all came in close around Lujan, so he is now surrounded in a pocket of dicks all pointed at him, and the "women" are laughing as each one of them cum on him at the same time, which results in Lujan puking all over the place.

The Way I Prey
"Another dream that will never come true, just to compliment your sorrow…" - Disturbed
Ok, well the earlier scene may have been amusing, it didn't really accomplish anything. The next nightmare is a work of art, it comes in the form of a multiple level dream, which I hope has had the effect of convincing Lujan that any further attempts to bother Asuka will lead to some very unpleasant situations for him. The course of the dream was inspired by the song Prayer by Disturbed. This one starts off as what I'm sure is a very pleasant dream from his point of view. He is sitting in on a porch swing near the pool in his inner world with Asuka right next to him, or he thinks it's Asuka… Actually, it's me, so I pretend to be into him for a bit, but when I lean in for what he expects to be a kiss, I turn into a twisted version of myself, Witchblade formed into a nasty looking claw with which I am gripping his neck, glaring at him and growling, eyes glowing red like a demon… I tell him that if he wants to avoid being trapped in an endless nightmare, he will make sure he never bothers Asuka again. For just a bit he acts worried, but then he laughs, he says this is a dream, and he's not going to waste his time with me when his woman is waiting for him…" He attempts to wake himself up…

"Another life that I've taken from you, a gift to add on to your pain and suffering…" - Disturbed
Lujan wakes up in his own bed, or at least it looks like his bed, he chuckles to himself and rolls over to see me standing over him by his bed, so I pin him to the bed by the neck using an Alex Mercer style claw on my left hand, not convinced of the consequences yet? "I think that you might have to take another taste, a little bit of hell this time." I tell him that this is a nightmare from which he will never escape. He says that's not a power I have, so my threat is empty, and just for making the threat he is going to have some extra fun with Asuka… I use an Alex Mercer claw on my right hand to tear Lujan virtually in half, in response to the pain most likely, he wakes up… or tries again to wake up…

"Another truth you can never believe has crippled you completely…" - Disturbed
Lujan wakes up and gets out of bed, he is muttering to himself about how that bitch dared make threats against him when there is no way I could ever… manage… to… then he stops his muttering and looks over at me, I have remained in my demonic form, glowing eyes, evil look, Alex Mercer claws on both hands… Lujan is getting mad now, he says he doesn't know what shit I am playing at, but I had better stop if I know what's good for me, because I would only be making matters worse by… the next thing out of his mouth is a cry of pain, as I put some of the tentacles like is used in Prototype by Alex Mercer, and they have emerged from the ground beneath Lujan and pierced through his legs, binding him painfully to the floor. "Do you believe now that you can never escape from the nightmares I create?" followed by an evil laugh… then Lujan tries again to wake up.

"All the cries you're beginning to hear, trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening!" - Disturbed
I have a little time to set up the next phase of the nightmare, so I transform the room where Lujan will be waking up into a hospital bed in the middle of a really creepy and twisted hospital, which is there for the sole purpose of performing cruel and unusual experiments on the unfortunate individuals trapped within its walls. The hospital looks like those in the video game series Silent Hill, where everything in the hospital has been transformed into twisted and backwards forms of what is expected. Add the extra effect of people in the other rooms crying out in pain and fear, and it became a very creepy setting indeed. The tortured cries in the other rooms are what "awakens" Lujan, at first he thinks he is going to wake up for real, and yells at someone to shut up while he's sleeping, but then he apparently realizes it isn't any normal sound and opens his eyes to see the creepy place he is in. I have transformed myself, as well, now I am one of the twisted nurse creatures from Silent Hill, I am carrying a syringe with a huge and filthy needle, Lujan is staring at me in shock, I tell him he just needs a little shot… He looks at the needle and tells me to keep it away from him, I tell him he has to take his medicine… and I'm sorry, but that left foot is going to have to go. He looks down at his left foot, which is now rotten and crawling with maggots and other assorted insects, he is trying to pull the bugs and stuff off of the foot when I stick him with the needle and inject the fluid… there… that didn't hurt, did it? The sound of the cries becomes deafening as Lujan adds his own cries, the fluid is burning him on the inside… then he "wakes up" again.

"Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray…" - Disturbed
I am now in a more normal looking dream with Lujan, he is looking around nervously as if he expects to be attacked at any given point, he looks over and sees me there… I look like my normal self now. He says he doesn't know what shit I am up to, but it isn't going to work, my tricks and illusions won't work. I tell him they aren't illusions, it is just a small sample of the nightmares I can create… there's plenty more where that came from… he says I can't keep him in a dream forever, and once he is out of this dream he would have his way with Asuka and it would be all my doing. Apparently he had not yet had enough…

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside! Living my life's not hard enough, take everything away!" - Disturbed
In an instant the serum I injected in him earlier becomes active again, I can even see the fire burning inside of him when he opens his mouth to cry out but is completely incinerated instead.

"Another nightmare about to come true will manifest tomorrow…" - Disturbed
So now it's time for another false awakening, this time I am not visible when Lujan wakes up in bed and gets up. He says something about that was an intense dream, then he looks around the room. He walks to the door and opens it, but he doesn't step outside. For outside the door it is not normal as it is in the room. Outside the door is Silent Hill, the twisted dark version of a town, though I have no idea what his home town looks like so I can't replicate it correctly. That doesn't seem to be what he is noticing right now, however, as there are creatures moving around in the mist and cries of pain and torture everywhere. I have transformed into a zombie at this point, and I am lumbering towards him like a zombie would do, there is blood all over my face, I reach out and grab his arm and proceed to rip a large mouthful of flesh from the arm… yuck… he pulls away and slams the door, I puke. Ok… that was more of a nightmare for me than him… I change to my normal form and teleport into the room, he is demanding I return his inner world to normal. I ask how he is so certain that his nightmares have not manifested into reality. He says he knows it's a dream, this is not his reality. I say but the nightmare is now your reality, and you will never wake up. That doesn't stop him from trying yet again…

"Another love that I've taken from you, lost in time, on the edge of suffering…" - Disturbed
Back in Lujan's usual inner world, the place with the nice house and the pool, I am lying on a lounge beside the pool in a revealing bikini, I am in the form of Kanmuri. Lujan is looking around nervously as if expecting something nasty to happen at any moment, but nothing does. As Kanmuri, I walk up behind Lujan and ask what is wrong with him. He jumps about three feet as he turns to look at me, I make a point to look perplexed. He seems glad to see it is me (Kanmuri) and grabs hold of me a bit too roughly for my liking, but it seems he is doing it out of desperation rather than cruelty. He says he has been trapped in the worst nightmares, a series of nightmares, each time he thinks he wakes up he finds it's another nightmare. He says it is over now, and I (Kanmuri) know how to help him relax. He reaches out towards me to embrace me, but I push him away. He seems surprised at that and asks what is wrong. I don't answer, I just disappear into nothingness. He is calling for her to come back, but a hollow voice speaks and says he has turned away a woman who would have him and is after one who wants nothing to do with him… the entire place is suddenly covered with snow and ice, a frigid wind is blowing, the plants are now dead. Too bad, it looks like you've been shut out in the cold, all alone… a hollow laugh follows that comment. The cold wasteland around us literally shatters like glass, leaving Lujin falling into space…

"Another taste of the evil I breed will level you completely…" - Disturbed
I am floating in a void with Lujan right beside me, I'm not sure exactly how to read the look on his face, I think he is trying to look angry, but I can tell the nightmares are starting to get to him, the fact he has seemingly woken up many times and yet is still trapped in this dream. I have said I can keep him in the dream indefinitely, even forever, and it is starting to look like that might be true. He says he wants out of this dream right now, he wants to wake up. I tell him that is easy enough, just say he will never go after Asuka again. He said he would bring his woman back with him if he wants to. I tell him that he is asking for another taste of the evil I have brought, although I can't promise he'll survive it. He says he wants out of the dream immediately. I tell him if that's the case, he should just wake up.

"Bring to life everything that you fear, live in the dark, and the world is threatening…" - Disturbed
So now I am with Lujan in a completely normal looking room, or at least I can't see anything strange about it. He is looking nervously around, I am invisible so he can't see me. Well, there is one thing odd about the room… there are no windows or doors in it. He is looking for a way out, he seems rather desperate to find an exit from this room. There is no exit revealed, but the walls do start closing in from all directions, causing the already small room to become even smaller… The walls change from ordinary walls to steel, and that metal becomes red hot, so hot that it is glowing, the temperature in the tiny room soars. Lujan is calling for someone to get him out of the room, out of the dream, his skin is burning and blistering painfully.

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside! Living my life's not hard enough, take everything away!" - Disturbed
The walls are suddenly gone, he is back in his ordinary inner world, and he immediately heads for the pool in search of some relief from the burning heat… but the pool is filled with red hot lava instead of water, so no help there. He is surrounded by beautiful women, all of them scantily dressed, and they are all crowding around him. But when they get close enough, they do not bring gentle caresses or love, they have fingernails that are more like razor sharp claws, and they immediately start clawing at Lujan, pulling at the already burned flesh, tearing it off, a couple of them are eating it, it really looks quite disgusting… As that is happening I hear him calling out for me this time, calling to Raven, so I become visible just outside the group of ravenous women who are tearing at his flesh. He says he'll do it, he'll leave Asuka alone, just let him out of this dream! I look at him with doubt, I say if he goes anywhere near Asuka, if he even so much as looks at Asuka, if anyone else does anything to Asuka on his behalf, he'd better be sure he isn't even thinking about her, or he will be back in this dream before he knows what happened, and the dream will not end, but it will go on forever. The eternal nightmare. He says he will have nothing to do with Asuka, he doesn't even want to hear the name, just get him out of this nightmare!

"Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one…
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, cast aside…
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one…
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, you've made me turn away…" - Disturbed
As this part of the song is playing, I hold my hand out to Lujan, offering to help him get away from the women, who are covered in his blood and look more like monsters than women… They don't want to let him respond to me, but he finally manages to reach out and take my hand… a healing energy flows over both of us, forcing the ravenous women into the pool of lava where they are consumed by flames. Lujan has been completely healed, gone are the burns, and the places the women had been tearing at his flesh are healed as well. That brings noticeable relief from the pain, I can tell just by looking at him. As the light healing energy floods the entire inner world, or as much as I can see, the whole place returns to the way it normally is, a nice pool and a nice house, Kanmuri is over by the house, looking out with a confused look on her face, I wonder what it has looked like to her…

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside, living my life's not hard enough, they take everything from you…" - Disturbed
"Now remember your promise," I say to Lujan, who seems relieved to be back in his normal inner world, enough so that he might start kissing the ground at any moment, "Because if I find out you fucking lied to me I'll have to come back… and you don't want me to have to come back. You think you just had a nightmare? That's a walk in the park compared to what will happen if I have to come back. Eternal nightmare, that's what you will get, an eternal nightmare, and you know I can do it." He is babbling incoherently, I can only make out a few words such as "Never" and "Asuka" and "Stay away" and I piece together that he is saying he will never go near Asuka again, and will stay away from her… Kanmuri is standing there with us now, well actually Lujan is hunched over on the ground babbling, Kanmuri wants to know what happened to Lujan, I tell her he needed a bit of a lesson, so if she wants him to care for her instead of Asuka, she could make progress towards that by caring for him now, he would be in need of some comfort and some gentle treatment since he had been treated rather harshly in his nightmare. So Kanmuri helps Lujan stand up, he says he wants to make sure Asuka is nowhere near him, that she can't get anywhere near him, because it might look like he had gotten near her on purpose… Kanmuri is talking in a soothing voice, saying Asuka is nowhere to be seen, she is not here and would not be coming here. He is saying something about monsters, and evil demon women, Kanmuri is telling him none of those are here, he is safe in his own inner world. She gives me a strange look that says she finds what I have done to be disturbing to say the least, and I agree with her on that, but if it will make him leave Asuka and MoSh alone, it will have been worth it.

anyone experience continuing your dream the next night, as if it's the part II of your dream? I experienced those. I have a dream one night and it awakens me, then I continue it when I came back to sleep and then the next night I continued the dream I dreamed last night. I am aware that I am controlling my own actions in that dream. Do you think I am still the one who was in control of continuing it?

December 22, 2010

Warcraft healing (LD)
Short fragment involving playing Warcraft in my dream. I actually wanted to do something else, as this dream felt very taxing and tiring. But, I told myself that by letting this play out, it would somehow benefit the game in waking life. And so, I continued the series of dream quests I was doing. I don't remember too much specific about them, but in hindsight, I wonder if my brain was trying to solve something in regards to healing, which I've been finding very stressful and un-fun lately.

Chaotic inner world (LD)
I'm hanging out with my friend, Sherry. It was all very abrupt, but Sherry, suddenly finds herself in the jaws of a very big werewolf. Like... a massive werewolf. I called for help... but somewhere during this call, it transitioned that I'm the one instead who was being nommed by this werewolf.

Once free from the wolf (who vanished), I started making my getaway. I noted that there weren't any bite marks on me, but I was moving painfully and slow. I wondered if it was some kind of paralytic poison? I kept hobbling along. Out on the street, I figured I'd catch a bus so I could move a bit faster. I saw one come along, and it did a U-turn just before it reached me, to pick up passengers on the other side of the road. Another bus behind it, I told the dream, "Stop here," and pointed to the ground in front of me. The bus drove past.

Fed up, I started walking. I was in amongst what could have passed as the Tacky Disco parade. People were dressed up in all sorts. But as I walked, I lost the paralysis. I remembered that I actually did have a goal to accomplish today. To get to my inner world. I shouted out into my dream, "Please, help me get to my inner world, please!!" I probably didn't need to say please twice. I wondered what I should do? I saw that I happened to be on a hill, and below, were houses. So I pushed off the ground to fly to them, but I merely drifted instead. I didn't fight it, and landed on a muddy patch of dirt. I heard a cell phone ring. I carry a cell phone in my shirt pocket at work (IWL), so I checked there. Nothing. Pants pockets? Nothing. So, I held my hand up to my ear and answered a pretend cell. That worked I can't remember the conversation, but it seemed like I had helped someone with a work related issue.

I looked around at the houses. My inner world was supposed to be a beach house, last I remembered. None of these houses look very beachy, and this neighbourhood didn't even look like mine, but I figured I would go exploring.

I opened the door to the first house (not locked). Inside, were gorgeous mahogany walls and floors. There was a pink area rug, and the whole thing felt very Victorian. But, it didn't feel like mine. I didn't walk in very far, but I did happen to catch a glimpse of a woman cooking in the kitchen. I decided to quickly leave before she saw someone invading her home. I got this feeling she already knew I was there, and was just pretending she didn't see me.

I walked down the block a short distance. I saw a classy looking bungalow, and next door was a salmon coloured two story. I went into the salmon coloured house, first. Inside, was a stark white staircase, with a pink trim. This seems more like me! I instantly knew this house was mine. But as I climbed the steps, they morphed into green metal that curled and twisted in an indescribable way. I love dream houses with crazy features, so this really pleased me. I noticed the stairs ran the levels of the house... like same set from basement to 2nd story. I decided to explore the basement, first.

I entered a room that had beds... it was blue, and kind of fish themed. And many beds... attached right out from the walls, in bunk beds. In the corner, was a changing table for a baby. And in the centre of the room, on the middle bed, sat a boy with blond hair. "Would you look at this room?!" I exclaimed to him.

"Serenity..." he said.

"There's beds everywhere!!" I continued.

"Serenity," the boy said a bit more urgently. I stopped. I looked at him. I noticed his hair and face. He looked like a very young Danny, from pictures I've seen of him.

"Is your name... Danny?" I asked him. The boy nodded.

"Danny! I missed you!! Why are you just a young kid right now?"

"I can appear in any age, any form," he told me. "Do you know where we are?" he asked.

"My inner world," I answered. He nodded, pleased.

My cell phone rang. I tried to ignore it, so I could ask Danny more questions. But it was persistent. "Better get that," he said.

Frustrated, I picked up the phone (which was a real one this time) and shouted, "WHAT?!!!" into it. The person on the other end just kind of stammered. "Look, I'm sorry... Just tell me your issue," I said, but still sounded impatient. The person was silent. I hung up. "Sorry about that," I said to Danny. He waved it off. But then, through my phone, I could hear a baby crying. "I can't ignore that, even if it is a dream," I told him.

"We should go find him," Danny said.

I then noticed the room had changed. "There was a baby table in the corner here..." I said. "Can't I make it change back?"

"Well, if not, we'll have to just start looking," he said.

And so, we did. Upstairs, we passed by the front hall. I asked Danny, "Hey, couldn't you age yourself to appear a bit older?" I was looking the other way when I asked him. When I finished the question, I looked back and saw he already had done. I thumped against the wall in surprise, and Danny gave me a sarky grin.

I noticed people clamouring at the front door. They all wanted to see Danny. "Can't we just get rid of them?" I asked.

"I'll try," Danny said. And we both started shouting at people to come back later. But then these two guys just walked right in. One looked like Willie Nelson, the other looked like Noel Gallagher. And they seemed to know Danny. He looked back at me (now looking a little bit older again) apologetically.

They started egging him on about bringing a girl home or something, but they never met me. "Willie Nelson" was saying how I was super normal looking, not like a model. "Not like that's a bad thing or something, but she's just so normal..."

I was offended by this remark, so I said, "You two dufuses aren't much to look at, either!"

I heard Danny burst out laughing, and the dream faded.

I tried to DEILD, but no luck.

Had two lucid dreams last night.

Compared to my previous LDs, it seemed I had made a huge step in terms of awareness, clarity and control.

I performed a WBTB, stayed up for about 40minutes, and told myself that when I lucid dream, Im going to take it easy, and just walk and let my mind do the rest.

I became lucid while walking through a valley. A lot was happening, including Dinosaurs ravaging houses (?), but I was calm, kept walking. I came around the corner of a cliff to see literally the most beautiful valley I have ever seen. I clibed a tree to get a better view, asked myself to increase clarity - it was stunning.
The tree then bent backwards and propelled me into the sky. I floated for a few seconds - which was amazing - then fell, waking me up.

The second dream, I seemed to have spawned myself in a closed off area on a grass field - almost like a small metropolised centre, the area of a house - with a wild, but looked after "Wildlife Sanctuary" outside of the perimeters. I was there with my best friend.

I kept telling him that this was a dream, he kept rejecting it as if he didnt want to hear it. They were these fascinating creatures, about 9 of them, about 50m away from us, which resembled the monsters from Where The Wild Things are, although a lot more savage and native.

My vision started to blur, and I said "Increase clarity now" - my friend stopped talking and stared at me, as if his "switch" was turned completely off for a few seconds. He then began to talk again, I turn and my vision, aswell as my dream scene had improved ten-fold. I observes for about 15 more minutes before waking.

Truly amazing, in terms of my lucid dreaming history - I feel as though Ive climbed a huge step towards full awareness and control!

Bring on tonight!

So this is the first and second succesful WILD's I have had, the first was me going into the sleep paralysis state and hearing the familiar buzzin sound/sensation I had remember from the first couple times trying but waking up to excitement. This time I remain calm just stabalizing the buzzing sound and then the dream begins. LUCID #1; I am waking up in my bed, doing a reality check as soon I get up. As soon as I realize I'm dreaming I start to float slowly, I think its due to the fact that iv been wanting to fly in dreams again so badly so I slowdlly drift towards my room door as if I have to swim in the air at a sloow rate like gravity is not present, it is night time in my dream as I am concious that it is around 4:40 am ,(that's when I had set my alarm to try the waking up and going back to bed technique which works like a charm by the way), I open my room door and start to make my way to the front door to go outside but something pulls me back before I can grab the door handle,I turn around and there is pure darkness ,I can't see anything and I woke up. Remembere it very clearly and it was on Tuesday at about 5 I'm guessin because I woke up around 530.

I have not yet been able to become lucid in a regular dream, only the WILD method seems to work for me becoming lucid, if anyone can help with tips please do so.

Today Wednesday I had my second, in this one I was much more aware and tried a few techniques that I read up on. I tried the waking up and going to bed method I tried the previous night, same time, but this time I just fell asleep and had a pretty cool normal dream that I woke up and wrote down in my journal. I then got up for abit and went back and layed in bed at around 1:00 pm listening to some binaural beats I had downloaded. After about a half hour I got to the sleep paralysis state, or so I think, that I hear and feel a strong buzzing sound that I can somewhat control and calm down if I focus on my breathing at that point, from then on the dream starts. LUCID #2; I wake up in my bed again and do a reality check where I look at my hand, my handlines are very mixed up and moving and I have two half fingers or stubs. I am very excited at this point that I am dreming so I try to keep my brathing calm, I still hear the buzzing sound coming in but I try the method of rubbing your hands and at that point the dream bacame a lot more lucid. I get up out of my bed, it is day time in my dream as I had gone to sleep at about 130 pm I'm guessing, I walk out of my room and this time I am walking so I notice the gravity unlike my first dream. I walk towards my front door and walk outside, the day is nice and clear, I walk out to my door without a problem this time, I stand in my front yard and decide to jump up to fly, I get up to just over the tree in my yard and I start to drift down slowly. I keep doing the rubbing hand method as it makes the dream a lot more clearer and I can also feel the rubbing of the hands which is cool, ( I made using all five senses as one of my dream goals), so I walk back into mmy house and I see my rromates pitbull come around the corner, I sit on the floor and can feel the carpet, I am very excited at this point that my dream has lasted this long, the dog runs up to me and I can feel its weight on me, I could not smell the dog but I tried, I push him off after petting him and walk into my room. At this point I try to imagine jacki fromt hat 70's show, forgetting sarah marshall, (which is another one of my dream goals) haha. I look towards my dresser and try to imagine her behind me. I turn around but instead I see this asian girl which kinda resembles her in a way, kinda like a asian jacki which was still very good looking and she is wearing a school like skirt. ( haha I thought to myself, i knew my sub-concious was somewhat perverted). At this point I get her on top of me and i can feel her grinding on me, I can also feel her legs which feel very smooth. I mentally try to make her do what I want but she just keeps grinding on me. For some strange reason at this point I naturally open my eyes and I'm wide awake. The time is 215 pm. The most vivid dream I have ever experienced! I am so stoked to try again tomorrow.

Giant Stuffed Cat and dog- 13th/12/2010:

I had a brief WBTB which failed because I was ill, in it I realised I was dreaming but the quality was sooo poor; it involved me getting out of bed trying to stabilise, but I had a pounding headache so that flopped then I sat down beside my bed and decided to teleport while saying out loud "when I stop spinning, my dream guide will be here!" so I stopped spinning and...........I was a tiny version of myself surrounded by a giant stuffed cat and dog.....okay then



Update:

The more I think about this lucid the more im convinced the cat represented my feminine side and the dog my masculine but why were
they stuffed? why was I tiny?

Update 2:

I had another non lucid where I landed on some random Island that seemed to be deserted but as soon as I looked around there was a brown/gold cat and a white dog who immediately started attacking me, I picked up a log to defend my self but it grew and became too heavy so It was painfully slow swigging it about, then the cat attacked me, it seemed more aggresive than the dog....hmm

I'm in front of my laptop in my room, it's night. I checked the clock to see the time/found situation odd, and I couldn't read the clock. Numbers were too shallow (or they weren't there at all...) I am now quite sure it's a dream but decide to check the clock again. I then say "I shouldn't have wasted time" and head for hallway outside the room.

I shout "Light!" and light flickers for a moment before going off. I try it a few times quickly and it works.
*Blank spot*
I am in our living room fighting against two werewolves, other being my dad. I do all sorts of poses to make fire fly all over the place. I make outer circle of fire that one of them gets stuck, numbers go flying around indicating damage. 5, 12, 52, 3... Then inner circle which makes two of them bounce off me as they jump at me. I beat them and go out of the house.

When I turn to close the door, my brother is there. I scream a bit from the shock, but then I am all like "I don't have to take this" and go to our yard, shouting our dog to come and attack him. Interestingly enough there was another dog, which was like the first one. (We have just one dog. I suppose it was the brother of our dog, which we had at our home sometime.)

Other dog helps me and other helps my brother. Dogs fight (but I don't know how and what happened). Then I go to my brother, who now is a cartoon lion, grab his tail and start swinging. I notice that it has changed from night to day, thinking that I made the sun rise. My brother says that actually it just came day in the dream. I throw him somewhere and go to our front door. Someone (my mom?) comes outside and I wake up.

Comments:

Most vivid dream I've had... and well, most awesome too. No control though, I'd say.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

2:00 GMT

A roulette of random fragments
I meet Diana by chance at a tiny alternative shop. We update each other on our lives. She is recently separated from her most recent guy. Her sister is with her and shows up to tell her they must go. I notice how much older they both look.
Then on some house with a big glass walled balcony. I’m looking through the window and I see some impressive black truck on the parking lot below. It’s of some really annoying guy that likes to show off. Then some bigger haulage truck appears and locks the smaller truck to drag it along for some fake driving filming with some actors inside. We see it parting.
Then inside some room people are queuing to drop a vote with Mara who’s on some chair with a ballot box on her lap. Behind me in the line is Zilla. She is mad at something and just expresses her protest and goes away. I cast my vote. The room is full of people waiting for the results and Mara is now sitting on a table presiding over everybody. Me and two other girls are sitting on the table with her. She is very nervous, I think she won whatever election that was and she says she wanted to quit, but that she realises people are greatly depositing hope on her. She mentions these three girls by her side for instance already said they want to share their dorm with her and won’t accept that she goes away.
A bit after, a professor invites me for something but I refuse and say that unlike Mara I am definitely resigning from my functions. I’m a sort of agent and I hand him over my stuff. In exchange he takes me to the headquarters and I must choose 3 goodbye presents, which seem to be a pin, a tiny doll and some earrings. I then stay alone in a room, cleaning up the info on my touch screen laptop. I find a folder with recorded albums’ and as I drag and drop them to some other portable device, they actually get printed in 3D, so they come out of the laptop as actual CDs in a case with printed cover and all. Some guys who came to see what I’m doing seem pretty interested on this and go through my CDs to check for my taste. I get annoyed by that, but they are a bit of a bullies so I try to ignore them. I finish and then I am outside on the street on some bus stop. They are also there, still nagging me a bit, but I ignore and instead I see some add on the bus stop of some Barbie dolls with designer clothes. I don’t recall details, but I know they were malleable and transformable and I think they were totally cool.
Then the black truck stops by again and all these bullies get in. I join them for whatever reason. They all get guns and start shooting to whichever target they see fit, including little birds landed on rocks. Luckily they don’t hit even once on the targets. Then we exit the big city and are in the woods, near a river. On the margins of the river, in the middle of the bushes I spot Big Foot walking around. I notice by his feminine walk, that he is gay (what...!?). I don’t tell anybody or else they’ll start a shooting frenzy, but they decide to stop right there for peeing. Oops, I just hope the Big Foot doesn’t show up or attack them...

7:00 GMT

On the moon
I recall going through some arched narrow hallway when I became lucid. I had fallen asleep thinking I wanted to finally go to the moon, so I thought about doing it. Found a door and wanted to do the portal to the other side trick by opening the door, but instead I went inside this room and decided for a more original approach. This room looked exactly like a pod and I imagined it to be like that pod that hit the moon in the eye on that classic French film “Trip to the Moon”. It had one round window which I shuttered and the pod became dark. I touched the wall looking for an imaginary button which I found and used to fire the imaginary engines. The lift off felt extremely realistic, with blasting sound and all. I didn’t want this to go forever, so I pictured it ending after a few seconds and it did. I felt it landing. I almost woke up, but managed to stay on the dream when I slowly opened the shutters to check the outside.
At first I felt I had failed. There was a girl outside looking through the window. Very pretty with curly ginger hair. She smiled at me as I exited the pod. I had landed in the middle of some busy street of some normal looking town. There was something odd about it but then I noticed it was the 50’s retro look of the place and people’s clothes and hairstyles. I had doubts this was the moon. I was about to ask her but I was scared to death by some ocean rising on my left, exactly like the streets of Paris rose above people’s heads on the Inception movie when Ariadne is playing with the dream. I could see a wall of water by my side and the fishes swimming but it never really engulfed me. Before that happened, it receded in a flash and on its place blossomed a mushroom of flat and round transformable screens, showing all kinds of images. I had the clear feeling I had seen this before and I turned to the girl to mention it. But she had already started walking and I went after her. We walked out of the town and passed by some high plateau with view over a giant canyon. At the bottom of it I could see cities sprawling to where the eyes could see. On the top of the plateau there was a giant lake and I almost fell on the water at some point of a narrow passage we walked in. Then we arrived at her tiny tiny car. Two girls were there waiting for us.
I finally got to ask them if this was the moon. They said “why, of course. Look up!” Then I looked up to the sky. It was perfect blue with some tattered white clouds and there it was: the Earth in the sky! Wow, pretty cool! But then I also noticed 2 other crescent moons. I got confused. I ask them about it but they just said, yeah, the moon has two moons. “And how come we don’t know that on Earth?” They didn’t reply.
They got in the car and I wondered how in the world I could fit in too. In the front there was only the driver’s seat and on the back only two extra seats. The girl closer to the door looked at me with very little will to make space for me. I asked her why the sky was so blue and if this place was under a protective dome or if they had terraformed the moon. She looked at me with a condescendent look and replied "Both!" as if it was damn obvious.
She finally squeezed in and I did to. It was an awful feeling and I almost woke up with the claustrophobic sensation and the pain in my legs when I closed the door and got so crammed inside. But I thought “It’s just a dream, the pain is just an illusion, there’s no lack of air either...”, so I manage to cope. It wasn’t long until we arrived at some facilities. On the left of the road was a long white ground level building which was some research lab of some kind. On the right side of the road there were greenhouses. The girls went to the building on the left but I felt attracted to the greenhouses. I entered the first one and there was a guy sitting on a chair in front of some table looking on a microscope or something like that. He just turned his head to see me. Looked surprise but didn’t ask any questions. I smiled at him and kept going inside looking around at all the plants. There were also some ponds, I guess for the aquatic plants. They all looked so alien. I observed one in more detail, which had a white pompon like flower sticking from the middle of an orange like structure sitting on a crown of thick leaves. The white pompon was retractable, like some ocean tubeworms. I see many plants I suspect may be poisonous or have some secret tentacles coming out if I get too close, so I try to keep a safe distance from them. Then I find the red hair girl again on the second greenhouse (they are all connected through passages), talking to some guy at a counter. He is showing her the latest animal they’ve created. It looks like some twisted twig with dozens of fractal like branches spreading from its main torso and it looks and moves like a ramified worm would. She picks it up in her hands and the animal escapes up her arm and up her neck and hides in her lushy ginger hair. It gives me the creeps but she is loving it. The guy then says the best part is this creature eats dust! Its favourite food is dustballs! They laugh at the perfect pet they just got! “Imagine having a few of these around in your house! No more dusting necessary!” I recognize it would be useful, but no way I would like to have those creepy creatures around.
Then i didn’t explore more of this world, because I woke up.

8:00 GMT

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign
For me to remember, dreams are #067300, and lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1. Nightmares are dark red, #8b0000, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

I have skipped like five lucid dreams due to my science project. Sorry guys. But in those dreams I mastered flying, and now I am getting better at attaining lucidity. I am having one or two lucid dreams every other day now.

Messed up school dream
I was at school. I understood it as my school, though it was nothing like my real school. There was no one there I recognized. The walls were blue and purple.

I walked around. There were lots of people, a first in any dream I have encountered. I heard the bell and went to... gym class. I went to the gym teacher, who was outside the gym. The walls around him were white and there were a bunch of windows. The floor was light colored, finished wood. He had very short, straight blond hair. His face was tall, bony, and militant-looking.

I suddenly realized that I don't take gym class. (I don't in real life) I panicked as the tardy bell rang. I needed to get to class! As I went down a bunch of stairs, it dawned on me that I had no idea what period I was supposed to be at, and couldn't even remember by schedule from real life for some reason.

I must be dreaming. I swam through the air. (I am proficient in multiple methods of flying at this point) As I swam through the hallways, which were the same colors as near the gym. I looked around. Busy people were walking down the hallways. They didn't take it as strange that I was swimming through the hallways. I saw people with a pale dead body on a stretcher but decided to ignore them, since I knew if I got scared the dream might turn bad.

I turned right. I was back in the purple-blue area I started in. I kept going forward. At a corner, there was a girl, who looked like a smaller, toddler version of Dora with normal human proportions. Her voice was much higher than Dora's. She beckoned me to come wither her through a door, but I sensed bad intentions inside her somehow. I turned right at the corner.

The wall to the right of me was blue and flat. To the left was like a mixture of three quarters purple and a quarter magenta. It had a vertical texture that looked like paste with a fork waved through it. I noticed how the texture seemed blurry so I pulled glasses out of nowhere and put them on. Nothing. I took them off and remembered what I was supposed to do when I became lucid in the first place: I said "Increase clarity."

Suddenly everything shifted to be as clear as real life, like focusing a camera. It was AMAZING. I had never thought that dreams could approach real life in realism until today. I could see sharper than ever.

Note: I need to devote the next entire section to one action.
I had an idea and I said "Supersensory!", but nothing happened. What I wanted to do was something I read in another dream journal (which I can't find anymore) where the author, inside one of his dreams, realized dreams are only projections onto dreamer's minds. The author figured out he could control what his senses experience. When he tried it, he didn't have to say anything, and suddenly he could see more colors than physically possible in real life. It sounds amazing!
Nothing happened for me, but I'll keep trying.

I started going back. But then I felt the dream cycle starting to end. Everything's colors smeared together and the dream ended.

Strange video game dream
I was playing this hard video game where all these red balls were bouncing around and you had to drag a certain ball to the exit without touching the bouncing ones.

I became lucid at some point and beat it by dragging the ball straight to the exit, through several balls, knowing that since I was lucid I couldn't lose.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

00:30 GMT

Escaping attacker
I’m locked in a room. Some guy comes in and tries to have forced sex with me. I knock him down, by hitting him on the head with something. I run out and escape by jumping/flying through the middle of the building’s staircase.

Granddad
I’m with my granddad. My boyfriend tells me he went for a walk with him, but he didn’t enjoy it., because my BF demanded that they hold hands. I think that’s embarrassing and I totally understand my granddad. He is not that mentally incapacitated and to prove it he asks me out of the blue how to print a scan of a receipt on its original size because the printer keeps printing it A4 size. I promise to teach him.

3:00 GMT

Ambiguous new age healer
My mom accompanies me to some new age therapy appointment. I am not interested at all, but the lady doctor has some very interesting crystal Buddha heads for sale. I go there a second time to check for prices and she nails me down to a second appointment. I find out this doctor has a darker side. First time she was all light and colourful, the second time she was dressed in dark and received some hard-core friends in her office. She interrupted the consultation to arrange some later rendez-vous with them. I use the break to call my mom and arrange a night-out at the movies with her. I guess she said no, because I end up going out to a restaurant with this doctor and her lady friends. She kinda mocks me for being vegetarian and asks me if at least I’ll have some eggs. I don’t like her attitude. Her friends ask if they later can go to her house – where apparently they’ve never been. Then we’re joined by my BF who brings along some Spanish friends. We share my food because supposedly there's no more food for them to eat.

5:30 GMT

Room sharing
My dad is sleeping in a bedroom in what seems my mom's home and me and my BF have to go to sleep on the same room, on a mattress on the floor. We try not to wake him up. He hears some noise and he wakes up slightly and glances quickly to check out what it is, but we hide not to wake him up even more. Then when he closes his eyes again, we lay down to sleep.

Drugs and lesbians
Over a long table on open air. A very cheerful group. I join them and fill up my plate with rice and sweet corn. Then some agents appear and want to arrest us all on the accusation we all have been smoking drugs. I ask which drug exactly and they say “mushrooms with mint”. Oh, that must be nice! I did see one guy smoking a pipe, but that was all. I leave the table for some reason and when I come back they are talking about me. Apparently my alibi is that I wasn’t around when the actual drug smoking took place, because I was having sex with a girl on some room inside the house. I’m shocked! I was indeed with that girl, but we had merely been studying. I then recalled that we had previously met on the hallway two other beautiful girls who were assuming their relationship for the first time and I had given them my blessing. Apparently that was enough to classify me as a lesbian to. But hey, as long as it kept me out of prison...

Talent competition
Later, we’re gathered in a kind of gym, where some competition is going on. We’re not participating, but watching from a higher platform with no rails to lean against. I feel vertigo and I lay down on the floor so not to fall as I watch it. Contestants are showing their varied talents, from acrobatics, to hoola hoops to dancing. From the first round of contestants, the winner is my friend Evangelion on hoola hoops. That’s funny, because he is so tall and slim, he looks simply hilarious doing it. Then I realise this is stupid, my fear of heights. After all I can fly! Why would I feel vertigo? I start getting lucid although a bit flickering sometimes.
I decide to fly down there and show my ability and maybe win something. I fly several times around the salon at high-speed. Everybody seems very impressed. I hear some comments that such and such guy can also fly, but not as good as me, he more like swims through the air. Yeah, I know, many people do. I win this competition round but I refuse to keep the award to myself. There’s a little dog on a tiny wheelchair, which is sick from AIDS (silly...) and I dedicate my award to him.

Mage
Then a sort of mage appears and since I’m so good at putting a show, he defies me to come along with him to help him out with saving the world. I follow him and outside the world seems to have gone nuts. Tornadoes everywhere sucking houses into the sky, water torrents flooding streets and dragging rocks the size of a car, a really dark sky, but the next second all goes back to normal. I don’t know what’s going on, but I fly bullet like after this guy, wherever he is taking me. I then stop when I see the most strange thing: Frozen and hovering on air are two pigeons: one in upper position and the other upside down, both with their wings open as if they were flying when they got frozen, but grabbing each other by their claws. The mage and some other younger guy who appears at that moment, tell me to forget what I saw and not mention it to anybody. And I “ask what exactly shouldn’t I mention to people? “. He replies “That the laws of physics no longer apply.” And I ask if the fact we are flying around in the open didn’t show that obvious fact already.

City strolling
Still lucid but with a gap in dream recall, I then find myself strolling in a city like Paris, with my BF and my mom. I literally hop around, feeling very happy. I guess I helped save the world somehow and all is glowing in a golden light. It’s all so colourful and cozy. All the people look like friendly characters with round faces. The colours and shapes of buildings and banners announcing fresh bread and antiques are just lovely. My mom and BF call me, because I’m staying behind. I am trying to recall how I got there, but before I do, I wake up.

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