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12/21/10 This Is The Way I Pray...
Note: It seems that Lujan has been making things difficult for Asuka and MoSh again, I'm not sure what has set him to start being an ass again. But I am thinking he needs a little discouragement from continuing to do that. I spent some time thinking up some nice nightmares made just for Lujan. So here are a few highlights from the night of nightmares Lujan had…

Dude Looks Like a Lady
Lujan is at a strip club filled with the most beautiful women ever, all of them are dancing around a pole and stripping slowly down to the point where they have nothing on but what their mommas gave them. The tops come off, the women shake their breasts teasingly as they remove their bras. Then it's time for the bottoms come off, leaving each woman only wearing sexy and colorful panties… then the panties came off. Impossibly, huge hairy dicks sprung out of the tiny panties, and the "women" started swinging their hips, they all came in close around Lujan, so he is now surrounded in a pocket of dicks all pointed at him, and the "women" are laughing as each one of them cum on him at the same time, which results in Lujan puking all over the place.

The Way I Prey
"Another dream that will never come true, just to compliment your sorrow…" - Disturbed
Ok, well the earlier scene may have been amusing, it didn't really accomplish anything. The next nightmare is a work of art, it comes in the form of a multiple level dream, which I hope has had the effect of convincing Lujan that any further attempts to bother Asuka will lead to some very unpleasant situations for him. The course of the dream was inspired by the song Prayer by Disturbed. This one starts off as what I'm sure is a very pleasant dream from his point of view. He is sitting in on a porch swing near the pool in his inner world with Asuka right next to him, or he thinks it's Asuka… Actually, it's me, so I pretend to be into him for a bit, but when I lean in for what he expects to be a kiss, I turn into a twisted version of myself, Witchblade formed into a nasty looking claw with which I am gripping his neck, glaring at him and growling, eyes glowing red like a demon… I tell him that if he wants to avoid being trapped in an endless nightmare, he will make sure he never bothers Asuka again. For just a bit he acts worried, but then he laughs, he says this is a dream, and he's not going to waste his time with me when his woman is waiting for him…" He attempts to wake himself up…

"Another life that I've taken from you, a gift to add on to your pain and suffering…" - Disturbed
Lujan wakes up in his own bed, or at least it looks like his bed, he chuckles to himself and rolls over to see me standing over him by his bed, so I pin him to the bed by the neck using an Alex Mercer style claw on my left hand, not convinced of the consequences yet? "I think that you might have to take another taste, a little bit of hell this time." I tell him that this is a nightmare from which he will never escape. He says that's not a power I have, so my threat is empty, and just for making the threat he is going to have some extra fun with Asuka… I use an Alex Mercer claw on my right hand to tear Lujan virtually in half, in response to the pain most likely, he wakes up… or tries again to wake up…

"Another truth you can never believe has crippled you completely…" - Disturbed
Lujan wakes up and gets out of bed, he is muttering to himself about how that bitch dared make threats against him when there is no way I could ever… manage… to… then he stops his muttering and looks over at me, I have remained in my demonic form, glowing eyes, evil look, Alex Mercer claws on both hands… Lujan is getting mad now, he says he doesn't know what shit I am playing at, but I had better stop if I know what's good for me, because I would only be making matters worse by… the next thing out of his mouth is a cry of pain, as I put some of the tentacles like is used in Prototype by Alex Mercer, and they have emerged from the ground beneath Lujan and pierced through his legs, binding him painfully to the floor. "Do you believe now that you can never escape from the nightmares I create?" followed by an evil laugh… then Lujan tries again to wake up.

"All the cries you're beginning to hear, trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening!" - Disturbed
I have a little time to set up the next phase of the nightmare, so I transform the room where Lujan will be waking up into a hospital bed in the middle of a really creepy and twisted hospital, which is there for the sole purpose of performing cruel and unusual experiments on the unfortunate individuals trapped within its walls. The hospital looks like those in the video game series Silent Hill, where everything in the hospital has been transformed into twisted and backwards forms of what is expected. Add the extra effect of people in the other rooms crying out in pain and fear, and it became a very creepy setting indeed. The tortured cries in the other rooms are what "awakens" Lujan, at first he thinks he is going to wake up for real, and yells at someone to shut up while he's sleeping, but then he apparently realizes it isn't any normal sound and opens his eyes to see the creepy place he is in. I have transformed myself, as well, now I am one of the twisted nurse creatures from Silent Hill, I am carrying a syringe with a huge and filthy needle, Lujan is staring at me in shock, I tell him he just needs a little shot… He looks at the needle and tells me to keep it away from him, I tell him he has to take his medicine… and I'm sorry, but that left foot is going to have to go. He looks down at his left foot, which is now rotten and crawling with maggots and other assorted insects, he is trying to pull the bugs and stuff off of the foot when I stick him with the needle and inject the fluid… there… that didn't hurt, did it? The sound of the cries becomes deafening as Lujan adds his own cries, the fluid is burning him on the inside… then he "wakes up" again.

"Let me enlighten you, this is the way I pray…" - Disturbed
I am now in a more normal looking dream with Lujan, he is looking around nervously as if he expects to be attacked at any given point, he looks over and sees me there… I look like my normal self now. He says he doesn't know what shit I am up to, but it isn't going to work, my tricks and illusions won't work. I tell him they aren't illusions, it is just a small sample of the nightmares I can create… there's plenty more where that came from… he says I can't keep him in a dream forever, and once he is out of this dream he would have his way with Asuka and it would be all my doing. Apparently he had not yet had enough…

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside! Living my life's not hard enough, take everything away!" - Disturbed
In an instant the serum I injected in him earlier becomes active again, I can even see the fire burning inside of him when he opens his mouth to cry out but is completely incinerated instead.

"Another nightmare about to come true will manifest tomorrow…" - Disturbed
So now it's time for another false awakening, this time I am not visible when Lujan wakes up in bed and gets up. He says something about that was an intense dream, then he looks around the room. He walks to the door and opens it, but he doesn't step outside. For outside the door it is not normal as it is in the room. Outside the door is Silent Hill, the twisted dark version of a town, though I have no idea what his home town looks like so I can't replicate it correctly. That doesn't seem to be what he is noticing right now, however, as there are creatures moving around in the mist and cries of pain and torture everywhere. I have transformed into a zombie at this point, and I am lumbering towards him like a zombie would do, there is blood all over my face, I reach out and grab his arm and proceed to rip a large mouthful of flesh from the arm… yuck… he pulls away and slams the door, I puke. Ok… that was more of a nightmare for me than him… I change to my normal form and teleport into the room, he is demanding I return his inner world to normal. I ask how he is so certain that his nightmares have not manifested into reality. He says he knows it's a dream, this is not his reality. I say but the nightmare is now your reality, and you will never wake up. That doesn't stop him from trying yet again…

"Another love that I've taken from you, lost in time, on the edge of suffering…" - Disturbed
Back in Lujan's usual inner world, the place with the nice house and the pool, I am lying on a lounge beside the pool in a revealing bikini, I am in the form of Kanmuri. Lujan is looking around nervously as if expecting something nasty to happen at any moment, but nothing does. As Kanmuri, I walk up behind Lujan and ask what is wrong with him. He jumps about three feet as he turns to look at me, I make a point to look perplexed. He seems glad to see it is me (Kanmuri) and grabs hold of me a bit too roughly for my liking, but it seems he is doing it out of desperation rather than cruelty. He says he has been trapped in the worst nightmares, a series of nightmares, each time he thinks he wakes up he finds it's another nightmare. He says it is over now, and I (Kanmuri) know how to help him relax. He reaches out towards me to embrace me, but I push him away. He seems surprised at that and asks what is wrong. I don't answer, I just disappear into nothingness. He is calling for her to come back, but a hollow voice speaks and says he has turned away a woman who would have him and is after one who wants nothing to do with him… the entire place is suddenly covered with snow and ice, a frigid wind is blowing, the plants are now dead. Too bad, it looks like you've been shut out in the cold, all alone… a hollow laugh follows that comment. The cold wasteland around us literally shatters like glass, leaving Lujin falling into space…

"Another taste of the evil I breed will level you completely…" - Disturbed
I am floating in a void with Lujan right beside me, I'm not sure exactly how to read the look on his face, I think he is trying to look angry, but I can tell the nightmares are starting to get to him, the fact he has seemingly woken up many times and yet is still trapped in this dream. I have said I can keep him in the dream indefinitely, even forever, and it is starting to look like that might be true. He says he wants out of this dream right now, he wants to wake up. I tell him that is easy enough, just say he will never go after Asuka again. He said he would bring his woman back with him if he wants to. I tell him that he is asking for another taste of the evil I have brought, although I can't promise he'll survive it. He says he wants out of the dream immediately. I tell him if that's the case, he should just wake up.

"Bring to life everything that you fear, live in the dark, and the world is threatening…" - Disturbed
So now I am with Lujan in a completely normal looking room, or at least I can't see anything strange about it. He is looking nervously around, I am invisible so he can't see me. Well, there is one thing odd about the room… there are no windows or doors in it. He is looking for a way out, he seems rather desperate to find an exit from this room. There is no exit revealed, but the walls do start closing in from all directions, causing the already small room to become even smaller… The walls change from ordinary walls to steel, and that metal becomes red hot, so hot that it is glowing, the temperature in the tiny room soars. Lujan is calling for someone to get him out of the room, out of the dream, his skin is burning and blistering painfully.

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside! Living my life's not hard enough, take everything away!" - Disturbed
The walls are suddenly gone, he is back in his ordinary inner world, and he immediately heads for the pool in search of some relief from the burning heat… but the pool is filled with red hot lava instead of water, so no help there. He is surrounded by beautiful women, all of them scantily dressed, and they are all crowding around him. But when they get close enough, they do not bring gentle caresses or love, they have fingernails that are more like razor sharp claws, and they immediately start clawing at Lujan, pulling at the already burned flesh, tearing it off, a couple of them are eating it, it really looks quite disgusting… As that is happening I hear him calling out for me this time, calling to Raven, so I become visible just outside the group of ravenous women who are tearing at his flesh. He says he'll do it, he'll leave Asuka alone, just let him out of this dream! I look at him with doubt, I say if he goes anywhere near Asuka, if he even so much as looks at Asuka, if anyone else does anything to Asuka on his behalf, he'd better be sure he isn't even thinking about her, or he will be back in this dream before he knows what happened, and the dream will not end, but it will go on forever. The eternal nightmare. He says he will have nothing to do with Asuka, he doesn't even want to hear the name, just get him out of this nightmare!

"Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one…
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, cast aside…
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one…
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, you've made me turn away…" - Disturbed
As this part of the song is playing, I hold my hand out to Lujan, offering to help him get away from the women, who are covered in his blood and look more like monsters than women… They don't want to let him respond to me, but he finally manages to reach out and take my hand… a healing energy flows over both of us, forcing the ravenous women into the pool of lava where they are consumed by flames. Lujan has been completely healed, gone are the burns, and the places the women had been tearing at his flesh are healed as well. That brings noticeable relief from the pain, I can tell just by looking at him. As the light healing energy floods the entire inner world, or as much as I can see, the whole place returns to the way it normally is, a nice pool and a nice house, Kanmuri is over by the house, looking out with a confused look on her face, I wonder what it has looked like to her…

"Living just isn't hard enough, burn me alive inside, living my life's not hard enough, they take everything from you…" - Disturbed
"Now remember your promise," I say to Lujan, who seems relieved to be back in his normal inner world, enough so that he might start kissing the ground at any moment, "Because if I find out you fucking lied to me I'll have to come back… and you don't want me to have to come back. You think you just had a nightmare? That's a walk in the park compared to what will happen if I have to come back. Eternal nightmare, that's what you will get, an eternal nightmare, and you know I can do it." He is babbling incoherently, I can only make out a few words such as "Never" and "Asuka" and "Stay away" and I piece together that he is saying he will never go near Asuka again, and will stay away from her… Kanmuri is standing there with us now, well actually Lujan is hunched over on the ground babbling, Kanmuri wants to know what happened to Lujan, I tell her he needed a bit of a lesson, so if she wants him to care for her instead of Asuka, she could make progress towards that by caring for him now, he would be in need of some comfort and some gentle treatment since he had been treated rather harshly in his nightmare. So Kanmuri helps Lujan stand up, he says he wants to make sure Asuka is nowhere near him, that she can't get anywhere near him, because it might look like he had gotten near her on purpose… Kanmuri is talking in a soothing voice, saying Asuka is nowhere to be seen, she is not here and would not be coming here. He is saying something about monsters, and evil demon women, Kanmuri is telling him none of those are here, he is safe in his own inner world. She gives me a strange look that says she finds what I have done to be disturbing to say the least, and I agree with her on that, but if it will make him leave Asuka and MoSh alone, it will have been worth it.

anyone experience continuing your dream the next night, as if it's the part II of your dream? I experienced those. I have a dream one night and it awakens me, then I continue it when I came back to sleep and then the next night I continued the dream I dreamed last night. I am aware that I am controlling my own actions in that dream. Do you think I am still the one who was in control of continuing it?

December 22, 2010

Warcraft healing (LD)
Short fragment involving playing Warcraft in my dream. I actually wanted to do something else, as this dream felt very taxing and tiring. But, I told myself that by letting this play out, it would somehow benefit the game in waking life. And so, I continued the series of dream quests I was doing. I don't remember too much specific about them, but in hindsight, I wonder if my brain was trying to solve something in regards to healing, which I've been finding very stressful and un-fun lately.

Chaotic inner world (LD)
I'm hanging out with my friend, Sherry. It was all very abrupt, but Sherry, suddenly finds herself in the jaws of a very big werewolf. Like... a massive werewolf. I called for help... but somewhere during this call, it transitioned that I'm the one instead who was being nommed by this werewolf.

Once free from the wolf (who vanished), I started making my getaway. I noted that there weren't any bite marks on me, but I was moving painfully and slow. I wondered if it was some kind of paralytic poison? I kept hobbling along. Out on the street, I figured I'd catch a bus so I could move a bit faster. I saw one come along, and it did a U-turn just before it reached me, to pick up passengers on the other side of the road. Another bus behind it, I told the dream, "Stop here," and pointed to the ground in front of me. The bus drove past.

Fed up, I started walking. I was in amongst what could have passed as the Tacky Disco parade. People were dressed up in all sorts. But as I walked, I lost the paralysis. I remembered that I actually did have a goal to accomplish today. To get to my inner world. I shouted out into my dream, "Please, help me get to my inner world, please!!" I probably didn't need to say please twice. I wondered what I should do? I saw that I happened to be on a hill, and below, were houses. So I pushed off the ground to fly to them, but I merely drifted instead. I didn't fight it, and landed on a muddy patch of dirt. I heard a cell phone ring. I carry a cell phone in my shirt pocket at work (IWL), so I checked there. Nothing. Pants pockets? Nothing. So, I held my hand up to my ear and answered a pretend cell. That worked I can't remember the conversation, but it seemed like I had helped someone with a work related issue.

I looked around at the houses. My inner world was supposed to be a beach house, last I remembered. None of these houses look very beachy, and this neighbourhood didn't even look like mine, but I figured I would go exploring.

I opened the door to the first house (not locked). Inside, were gorgeous mahogany walls and floors. There was a pink area rug, and the whole thing felt very Victorian. But, it didn't feel like mine. I didn't walk in very far, but I did happen to catch a glimpse of a woman cooking in the kitchen. I decided to quickly leave before she saw someone invading her home. I got this feeling she already knew I was there, and was just pretending she didn't see me.

I walked down the block a short distance. I saw a classy looking bungalow, and next door was a salmon coloured two story. I went into the salmon coloured house, first. Inside, was a stark white staircase, with a pink trim. This seems more like me! I instantly knew this house was mine. But as I climbed the steps, they morphed into green metal that curled and twisted in an indescribable way. I love dream houses with crazy features, so this really pleased me. I noticed the stairs ran the levels of the house... like same set from basement to 2nd story. I decided to explore the basement, first.

I entered a room that had beds... it was blue, and kind of fish themed. And many beds... attached right out from the walls, in bunk beds. In the corner, was a changing table for a baby. And in the centre of the room, on the middle bed, sat a boy with blond hair. "Would you look at this room?!" I exclaimed to him.

"Serenity..." he said.

"There's beds everywhere!!" I continued.

"Serenity," the boy said a bit more urgently. I stopped. I looked at him. I noticed his hair and face. He looked like a very young Danny, from pictures I've seen of him.

"Is your name... Danny?" I asked him. The boy nodded.

"Danny! I missed you!! Why are you just a young kid right now?"

"I can appear in any age, any form," he told me. "Do you know where we are?" he asked.

"My inner world," I answered. He nodded, pleased.

My cell phone rang. I tried to ignore it, so I could ask Danny more questions. But it was persistent. "Better get that," he said.

Frustrated, I picked up the phone (which was a real one this time) and shouted, "WHAT?!!!" into it. The person on the other end just kind of stammered. "Look, I'm sorry... Just tell me your issue," I said, but still sounded impatient. The person was silent. I hung up. "Sorry about that," I said to Danny. He waved it off. But then, through my phone, I could hear a baby crying. "I can't ignore that, even if it is a dream," I told him.

"We should go find him," Danny said.

I then noticed the room had changed. "There was a baby table in the corner here..." I said. "Can't I make it change back?"

"Well, if not, we'll have to just start looking," he said.

And so, we did. Upstairs, we passed by the front hall. I asked Danny, "Hey, couldn't you age yourself to appear a bit older?" I was looking the other way when I asked him. When I finished the question, I looked back and saw he already had done. I thumped against the wall in surprise, and Danny gave me a sarky grin.

I noticed people clamouring at the front door. They all wanted to see Danny. "Can't we just get rid of them?" I asked.

"I'll try," Danny said. And we both started shouting at people to come back later. But then these two guys just walked right in. One looked like Willie Nelson, the other looked like Noel Gallagher. And they seemed to know Danny. He looked back at me (now looking a little bit older again) apologetically.

They started egging him on about bringing a girl home or something, but they never met me. "Willie Nelson" was saying how I was super normal looking, not like a model. "Not like that's a bad thing or something, but she's just so normal..."

I was offended by this remark, so I said, "You two dufuses aren't much to look at, either!"

I heard Danny burst out laughing, and the dream faded.

I tried to DEILD, but no luck.

Had two lucid dreams last night.

Compared to my previous LDs, it seemed I had made a huge step in terms of awareness, clarity and control.

I performed a WBTB, stayed up for about 40minutes, and told myself that when I lucid dream, Im going to take it easy, and just walk and let my mind do the rest.

I became lucid while walking through a valley. A lot was happening, including Dinosaurs ravaging houses (?), but I was calm, kept walking. I came around the corner of a cliff to see literally the most beautiful valley I have ever seen. I clibed a tree to get a better view, asked myself to increase clarity - it was stunning.
The tree then bent backwards and propelled me into the sky. I floated for a few seconds - which was amazing - then fell, waking me up.

The second dream, I seemed to have spawned myself in a closed off area on a grass field - almost like a small metropolised centre, the area of a house - with a wild, but looked after "Wildlife Sanctuary" outside of the perimeters. I was there with my best friend.

I kept telling him that this was a dream, he kept rejecting it as if he didnt want to hear it. They were these fascinating creatures, about 9 of them, about 50m away from us, which resembled the monsters from Where The Wild Things are, although a lot more savage and native.

My vision started to blur, and I said "Increase clarity now" - my friend stopped talking and stared at me, as if his "switch" was turned completely off for a few seconds. He then began to talk again, I turn and my vision, aswell as my dream scene had improved ten-fold. I observes for about 15 more minutes before waking.

Truly amazing, in terms of my lucid dreaming history - I feel as though Ive climbed a huge step towards full awareness and control!

Bring on tonight!

So this is the first and second succesful WILD's I have had, the first was me going into the sleep paralysis state and hearing the familiar buzzin sound/sensation I had remember from the first couple times trying but waking up to excitement. This time I remain calm just stabalizing the buzzing sound and then the dream begins. LUCID #1; I am waking up in my bed, doing a reality check as soon I get up. As soon as I realize I'm dreaming I start to float slowly, I think its due to the fact that iv been wanting to fly in dreams again so badly so I slowdlly drift towards my room door as if I have to swim in the air at a sloow rate like gravity is not present, it is night time in my dream as I am concious that it is around 4:40 am ,(that's when I had set my alarm to try the waking up and going back to bed technique which works like a charm by the way), I open my room door and start to make my way to the front door to go outside but something pulls me back before I can grab the door handle,I turn around and there is pure darkness ,I can't see anything and I woke up. Remembere it very clearly and it was on Tuesday at about 5 I'm guessin because I woke up around 530.

I have not yet been able to become lucid in a regular dream, only the WILD method seems to work for me becoming lucid, if anyone can help with tips please do so.

Today Wednesday I had my second, in this one I was much more aware and tried a few techniques that I read up on. I tried the waking up and going to bed method I tried the previous night, same time, but this time I just fell asleep and had a pretty cool normal dream that I woke up and wrote down in my journal. I then got up for abit and went back and layed in bed at around 1:00 pm listening to some binaural beats I had downloaded. After about a half hour I got to the sleep paralysis state, or so I think, that I hear and feel a strong buzzing sound that I can somewhat control and calm down if I focus on my breathing at that point, from then on the dream starts. LUCID #2; I wake up in my bed again and do a reality check where I look at my hand, my handlines are very mixed up and moving and I have two half fingers or stubs. I am very excited at this point that I am dreming so I try to keep my brathing calm, I still hear the buzzing sound coming in but I try the method of rubbing your hands and at that point the dream bacame a lot more lucid. I get up out of my bed, it is day time in my dream as I had gone to sleep at about 130 pm I'm guessing, I walk out of my room and this time I am walking so I notice the gravity unlike my first dream. I walk towards my front door and walk outside, the day is nice and clear, I walk out to my door without a problem this time, I stand in my front yard and decide to jump up to fly, I get up to just over the tree in my yard and I start to drift down slowly. I keep doing the rubbing hand method as it makes the dream a lot more clearer and I can also feel the rubbing of the hands which is cool, ( I made using all five senses as one of my dream goals), so I walk back into mmy house and I see my rromates pitbull come around the corner, I sit on the floor and can feel the carpet, I am very excited at this point that my dream has lasted this long, the dog runs up to me and I can feel its weight on me, I could not smell the dog but I tried, I push him off after petting him and walk into my room. At this point I try to imagine jacki fromt hat 70's show, forgetting sarah marshall, (which is another one of my dream goals) haha. I look towards my dresser and try to imagine her behind me. I turn around but instead I see this asian girl which kinda resembles her in a way, kinda like a asian jacki which was still very good looking and she is wearing a school like skirt. ( haha I thought to myself, i knew my sub-concious was somewhat perverted). At this point I get her on top of me and i can feel her grinding on me, I can also feel her legs which feel very smooth. I mentally try to make her do what I want but she just keeps grinding on me. For some strange reason at this point I naturally open my eyes and I'm wide awake. The time is 215 pm. The most vivid dream I have ever experienced! I am so stoked to try again tomorrow.

Giant Stuffed Cat and dog- 13th/12/2010:

I had a brief WBTB which failed because I was ill, in it I realised I was dreaming but the quality was sooo poor; it involved me getting out of bed trying to stabilise, but I had a pounding headache so that flopped then I sat down beside my bed and decided to teleport while saying out loud "when I stop spinning, my dream guide will be here!" so I stopped spinning and...........I was a tiny version of myself surrounded by a giant stuffed cat and dog.....okay then



Update:

The more I think about this lucid the more im convinced the cat represented my feminine side and the dog my masculine but why were
they stuffed? why was I tiny?

Update 2:

I had another non lucid where I landed on some random Island that seemed to be deserted but as soon as I looked around there was a brown/gold cat and a white dog who immediately started attacking me, I picked up a log to defend my self but it grew and became too heavy so It was painfully slow swigging it about, then the cat attacked me, it seemed more aggresive than the dog....hmm

I'm in front of my laptop in my room, it's night. I checked the clock to see the time/found situation odd, and I couldn't read the clock. Numbers were too shallow (or they weren't there at all...) I am now quite sure it's a dream but decide to check the clock again. I then say "I shouldn't have wasted time" and head for hallway outside the room.

I shout "Light!" and light flickers for a moment before going off. I try it a few times quickly and it works.
*Blank spot*
I am in our living room fighting against two werewolves, other being my dad. I do all sorts of poses to make fire fly all over the place. I make outer circle of fire that one of them gets stuck, numbers go flying around indicating damage. 5, 12, 52, 3... Then inner circle which makes two of them bounce off me as they jump at me. I beat them and go out of the house.

When I turn to close the door, my brother is there. I scream a bit from the shock, but then I am all like "I don't have to take this" and go to our yard, shouting our dog to come and attack him. Interestingly enough there was another dog, which was like the first one. (We have just one dog. I suppose it was the brother of our dog, which we had at our home sometime.)

Other dog helps me and other helps my brother. Dogs fight (but I don't know how and what happened). Then I go to my brother, who now is a cartoon lion, grab his tail and start swinging. I notice that it has changed from night to day, thinking that I made the sun rise. My brother says that actually it just came day in the dream. I throw him somewhere and go to our front door. Someone (my mom?) comes outside and I wake up.

Comments:

Most vivid dream I've had... and well, most awesome too. No control though, I'd say.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

2:00 GMT

A roulette of random fragments
I meet Diana by chance at a tiny alternative shop. We update each other on our lives. She is recently separated from her most recent guy. Her sister is with her and shows up to tell her they must go. I notice how much older they both look.
Then on some house with a big glass walled balcony. I’m looking through the window and I see some impressive black truck on the parking lot below. It’s of some really annoying guy that likes to show off. Then some bigger haulage truck appears and locks the smaller truck to drag it along for some fake driving filming with some actors inside. We see it parting.
Then inside some room people are queuing to drop a vote with Mara who’s on some chair with a ballot box on her lap. Behind me in the line is Zilla. She is mad at something and just expresses her protest and goes away. I cast my vote. The room is full of people waiting for the results and Mara is now sitting on a table presiding over everybody. Me and two other girls are sitting on the table with her. She is very nervous, I think she won whatever election that was and she says she wanted to quit, but that she realises people are greatly depositing hope on her. She mentions these three girls by her side for instance already said they want to share their dorm with her and won’t accept that she goes away.
A bit after, a professor invites me for something but I refuse and say that unlike Mara I am definitely resigning from my functions. I’m a sort of agent and I hand him over my stuff. In exchange he takes me to the headquarters and I must choose 3 goodbye presents, which seem to be a pin, a tiny doll and some earrings. I then stay alone in a room, cleaning up the info on my touch screen laptop. I find a folder with recorded albums’ and as I drag and drop them to some other portable device, they actually get printed in 3D, so they come out of the laptop as actual CDs in a case with printed cover and all. Some guys who came to see what I’m doing seem pretty interested on this and go through my CDs to check for my taste. I get annoyed by that, but they are a bit of a bullies so I try to ignore them. I finish and then I am outside on the street on some bus stop. They are also there, still nagging me a bit, but I ignore and instead I see some add on the bus stop of some Barbie dolls with designer clothes. I don’t recall details, but I know they were malleable and transformable and I think they were totally cool.
Then the black truck stops by again and all these bullies get in. I join them for whatever reason. They all get guns and start shooting to whichever target they see fit, including little birds landed on rocks. Luckily they don’t hit even once on the targets. Then we exit the big city and are in the woods, near a river. On the margins of the river, in the middle of the bushes I spot Big Foot walking around. I notice by his feminine walk, that he is gay (what...!?). I don’t tell anybody or else they’ll start a shooting frenzy, but they decide to stop right there for peeing. Oops, I just hope the Big Foot doesn’t show up or attack them...

7:00 GMT

On the moon
I recall going through some arched narrow hallway when I became lucid. I had fallen asleep thinking I wanted to finally go to the moon, so I thought about doing it. Found a door and wanted to do the portal to the other side trick by opening the door, but instead I went inside this room and decided for a more original approach. This room looked exactly like a pod and I imagined it to be like that pod that hit the moon in the eye on that classic French film “Trip to the Moon”. It had one round window which I shuttered and the pod became dark. I touched the wall looking for an imaginary button which I found and used to fire the imaginary engines. The lift off felt extremely realistic, with blasting sound and all. I didn’t want this to go forever, so I pictured it ending after a few seconds and it did. I felt it landing. I almost woke up, but managed to stay on the dream when I slowly opened the shutters to check the outside.
At first I felt I had failed. There was a girl outside looking through the window. Very pretty with curly ginger hair. She smiled at me as I exited the pod. I had landed in the middle of some busy street of some normal looking town. There was something odd about it but then I noticed it was the 50’s retro look of the place and people’s clothes and hairstyles. I had doubts this was the moon. I was about to ask her but I was scared to death by some ocean rising on my left, exactly like the streets of Paris rose above people’s heads on the Inception movie when Ariadne is playing with the dream. I could see a wall of water by my side and the fishes swimming but it never really engulfed me. Before that happened, it receded in a flash and on its place blossomed a mushroom of flat and round transformable screens, showing all kinds of images. I had the clear feeling I had seen this before and I turned to the girl to mention it. But she had already started walking and I went after her. We walked out of the town and passed by some high plateau with view over a giant canyon. At the bottom of it I could see cities sprawling to where the eyes could see. On the top of the plateau there was a giant lake and I almost fell on the water at some point of a narrow passage we walked in. Then we arrived at her tiny tiny car. Two girls were there waiting for us.
I finally got to ask them if this was the moon. They said “why, of course. Look up!” Then I looked up to the sky. It was perfect blue with some tattered white clouds and there it was: the Earth in the sky! Wow, pretty cool! But then I also noticed 2 other crescent moons. I got confused. I ask them about it but they just said, yeah, the moon has two moons. “And how come we don’t know that on Earth?” They didn’t reply.
They got in the car and I wondered how in the world I could fit in too. In the front there was only the driver’s seat and on the back only two extra seats. The girl closer to the door looked at me with very little will to make space for me. I asked her why the sky was so blue and if this place was under a protective dome or if they had terraformed the moon. She looked at me with a condescendent look and replied "Both!" as if it was damn obvious.
She finally squeezed in and I did to. It was an awful feeling and I almost woke up with the claustrophobic sensation and the pain in my legs when I closed the door and got so crammed inside. But I thought “It’s just a dream, the pain is just an illusion, there’s no lack of air either...”, so I manage to cope. It wasn’t long until we arrived at some facilities. On the left of the road was a long white ground level building which was some research lab of some kind. On the right side of the road there were greenhouses. The girls went to the building on the left but I felt attracted to the greenhouses. I entered the first one and there was a guy sitting on a chair in front of some table looking on a microscope or something like that. He just turned his head to see me. Looked surprise but didn’t ask any questions. I smiled at him and kept going inside looking around at all the plants. There were also some ponds, I guess for the aquatic plants. They all looked so alien. I observed one in more detail, which had a white pompon like flower sticking from the middle of an orange like structure sitting on a crown of thick leaves. The white pompon was retractable, like some ocean tubeworms. I see many plants I suspect may be poisonous or have some secret tentacles coming out if I get too close, so I try to keep a safe distance from them. Then I find the red hair girl again on the second greenhouse (they are all connected through passages), talking to some guy at a counter. He is showing her the latest animal they’ve created. It looks like some twisted twig with dozens of fractal like branches spreading from its main torso and it looks and moves like a ramified worm would. She picks it up in her hands and the animal escapes up her arm and up her neck and hides in her lushy ginger hair. It gives me the creeps but she is loving it. The guy then says the best part is this creature eats dust! Its favourite food is dustballs! They laugh at the perfect pet they just got! “Imagine having a few of these around in your house! No more dusting necessary!” I recognize it would be useful, but no way I would like to have those creepy creatures around.
Then i didn’t explore more of this world, because I woke up.

8:00 GMT

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign
For me to remember, dreams are #067300, and lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1. Nightmares are dark red, #8b0000, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

I have skipped like five lucid dreams due to my science project. Sorry guys. But in those dreams I mastered flying, and now I am getting better at attaining lucidity. I am having one or two lucid dreams every other day now.

Messed up school dream
I was at school. I understood it as my school, though it was nothing like my real school. There was no one there I recognized. The walls were blue and purple.

I walked around. There were lots of people, a first in any dream I have encountered. I heard the bell and went to... gym class. I went to the gym teacher, who was outside the gym. The walls around him were white and there were a bunch of windows. The floor was light colored, finished wood. He had very short, straight blond hair. His face was tall, bony, and militant-looking.

I suddenly realized that I don't take gym class. (I don't in real life) I panicked as the tardy bell rang. I needed to get to class! As I went down a bunch of stairs, it dawned on me that I had no idea what period I was supposed to be at, and couldn't even remember by schedule from real life for some reason.

I must be dreaming. I swam through the air. (I am proficient in multiple methods of flying at this point) As I swam through the hallways, which were the same colors as near the gym. I looked around. Busy people were walking down the hallways. They didn't take it as strange that I was swimming through the hallways. I saw people with a pale dead body on a stretcher but decided to ignore them, since I knew if I got scared the dream might turn bad.

I turned right. I was back in the purple-blue area I started in. I kept going forward. At a corner, there was a girl, who looked like a smaller, toddler version of Dora with normal human proportions. Her voice was much higher than Dora's. She beckoned me to come wither her through a door, but I sensed bad intentions inside her somehow. I turned right at the corner.

The wall to the right of me was blue and flat. To the left was like a mixture of three quarters purple and a quarter magenta. It had a vertical texture that looked like paste with a fork waved through it. I noticed how the texture seemed blurry so I pulled glasses out of nowhere and put them on. Nothing. I took them off and remembered what I was supposed to do when I became lucid in the first place: I said "Increase clarity."

Suddenly everything shifted to be as clear as real life, like focusing a camera. It was AMAZING. I had never thought that dreams could approach real life in realism until today. I could see sharper than ever.

Note: I need to devote the next entire section to one action.
I had an idea and I said "Supersensory!", but nothing happened. What I wanted to do was something I read in another dream journal (which I can't find anymore) where the author, inside one of his dreams, realized dreams are only projections onto dreamer's minds. The author figured out he could control what his senses experience. When he tried it, he didn't have to say anything, and suddenly he could see more colors than physically possible in real life. It sounds amazing!
Nothing happened for me, but I'll keep trying.

I started going back. But then I felt the dream cycle starting to end. Everything's colors smeared together and the dream ended.

Strange video game dream
I was playing this hard video game where all these red balls were bouncing around and you had to drag a certain ball to the exit without touching the bouncing ones.

I became lucid at some point and beat it by dragging the ball straight to the exit, through several balls, knowing that since I was lucid I couldn't lose.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

00:30 GMT

Escaping attacker
I’m locked in a room. Some guy comes in and tries to have forced sex with me. I knock him down, by hitting him on the head with something. I run out and escape by jumping/flying through the middle of the building’s staircase.

Granddad
I’m with my granddad. My boyfriend tells me he went for a walk with him, but he didn’t enjoy it., because my BF demanded that they hold hands. I think that’s embarrassing and I totally understand my granddad. He is not that mentally incapacitated and to prove it he asks me out of the blue how to print a scan of a receipt on its original size because the printer keeps printing it A4 size. I promise to teach him.

3:00 GMT

Ambiguous new age healer
My mom accompanies me to some new age therapy appointment. I am not interested at all, but the lady doctor has some very interesting crystal Buddha heads for sale. I go there a second time to check for prices and she nails me down to a second appointment. I find out this doctor has a darker side. First time she was all light and colourful, the second time she was dressed in dark and received some hard-core friends in her office. She interrupted the consultation to arrange some later rendez-vous with them. I use the break to call my mom and arrange a night-out at the movies with her. I guess she said no, because I end up going out to a restaurant with this doctor and her lady friends. She kinda mocks me for being vegetarian and asks me if at least I’ll have some eggs. I don’t like her attitude. Her friends ask if they later can go to her house – where apparently they’ve never been. Then we’re joined by my BF who brings along some Spanish friends. We share my food because supposedly there's no more food for them to eat.

5:30 GMT

Room sharing
My dad is sleeping in a bedroom in what seems my mom's home and me and my BF have to go to sleep on the same room, on a mattress on the floor. We try not to wake him up. He hears some noise and he wakes up slightly and glances quickly to check out what it is, but we hide not to wake him up even more. Then when he closes his eyes again, we lay down to sleep.

Drugs and lesbians
Over a long table on open air. A very cheerful group. I join them and fill up my plate with rice and sweet corn. Then some agents appear and want to arrest us all on the accusation we all have been smoking drugs. I ask which drug exactly and they say “mushrooms with mint”. Oh, that must be nice! I did see one guy smoking a pipe, but that was all. I leave the table for some reason and when I come back they are talking about me. Apparently my alibi is that I wasn’t around when the actual drug smoking took place, because I was having sex with a girl on some room inside the house. I’m shocked! I was indeed with that girl, but we had merely been studying. I then recalled that we had previously met on the hallway two other beautiful girls who were assuming their relationship for the first time and I had given them my blessing. Apparently that was enough to classify me as a lesbian to. But hey, as long as it kept me out of prison...

Talent competition
Later, we’re gathered in a kind of gym, where some competition is going on. We’re not participating, but watching from a higher platform with no rails to lean against. I feel vertigo and I lay down on the floor so not to fall as I watch it. Contestants are showing their varied talents, from acrobatics, to hoola hoops to dancing. From the first round of contestants, the winner is my friend Evangelion on hoola hoops. That’s funny, because he is so tall and slim, he looks simply hilarious doing it. Then I realise this is stupid, my fear of heights. After all I can fly! Why would I feel vertigo? I start getting lucid although a bit flickering sometimes.
I decide to fly down there and show my ability and maybe win something. I fly several times around the salon at high-speed. Everybody seems very impressed. I hear some comments that such and such guy can also fly, but not as good as me, he more like swims through the air. Yeah, I know, many people do. I win this competition round but I refuse to keep the award to myself. There’s a little dog on a tiny wheelchair, which is sick from AIDS (silly...) and I dedicate my award to him.

Mage
Then a sort of mage appears and since I’m so good at putting a show, he defies me to come along with him to help him out with saving the world. I follow him and outside the world seems to have gone nuts. Tornadoes everywhere sucking houses into the sky, water torrents flooding streets and dragging rocks the size of a car, a really dark sky, but the next second all goes back to normal. I don’t know what’s going on, but I fly bullet like after this guy, wherever he is taking me. I then stop when I see the most strange thing: Frozen and hovering on air are two pigeons: one in upper position and the other upside down, both with their wings open as if they were flying when they got frozen, but grabbing each other by their claws. The mage and some other younger guy who appears at that moment, tell me to forget what I saw and not mention it to anybody. And I “ask what exactly shouldn’t I mention to people? “. He replies “That the laws of physics no longer apply.” And I ask if the fact we are flying around in the open didn’t show that obvious fact already.

City strolling
Still lucid but with a gap in dream recall, I then find myself strolling in a city like Paris, with my BF and my mom. I literally hop around, feeling very happy. I guess I helped save the world somehow and all is glowing in a golden light. It’s all so colourful and cozy. All the people look like friendly characters with round faces. The colours and shapes of buildings and banners announcing fresh bread and antiques are just lovely. My mom and BF call me, because I’m staying behind. I am trying to recall how I got there, but before I do, I wake up.

7:30 GMT

non-dream non-lucid lucid

I had a lucid dream last night!! I'm so happpyyy!!

I was in church. The lights were dimmer for some reason. I saw up on stage Skillet. They were singing The Older I Get and I stood up like everyone else to join in. Then I saw Korey (she's from Skillet) on the right side of the stage. I waved to her and she waved back. Then I turned to my mom, "Korey just waved to me!" Then suddenly I thought, "Hey, when did I get here? Why is Skillet here anyways? Am I dreaming?!" Then I did an RC (the plugged nose one) and it proved I was dreaming. I started hopping up and down. I was so happy. Then I remembered that I shouldnt get too hyper or I might wake up. So I calmed down a bit. Then I ran down the aisles and jumped into the air. No one noticed, but even if they had, I wouldn't have cared. I floated in mid-air for a little while, then crashed back down. I was annoyed. I had wanted to fly, but then I saw the windows, it was dark outside. I closed my eyes tightly and said "make it light" a few times. Then I opened my eyes, It was still dark, but not as much. So I was pretty happy. Then I ran out of the sanctuary and I was running so fast I thought that surely I would fly. So I jumped, stayed in the air about 20 seconds, then came back down. I didn't crash that time, but I still didn't fly for as long as I wanted to. Then I felt myself waking up. Seeing as this was my first Lucid Dream (since I was like...5) I allowed it to end. I was satisfied.

So now I'm really happy and I'm confident now that I can do it. I may not do it every night, but atleast I now know I can do it! I am so happy that I did it! Thanks to everyone who helped me out!!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Got a long night's sleep last night. Which included a number of cool dreams, and a lucid! It was my second "life like" lucid, and sadly once again, I had zero control. I guess I'm out of shape from not having one in a long time, but also because of the realness of it all. Also had a dream about another DV member.

23.15: Bedtime

06.00: ShockWave the programmer
I'm at ShockWave's house. We're playing a game he's programmed on his computer. Like all games I play in my dreams, I kinda enter the game. Standing on a road in the woods, I watch as a few army trucks go by. The last one in the line is crashing into everything and almost hits me. I back away as I watch the drunk driver continue down the road. The truck goes down into a ditch, and up again. Flying through the air. I press escape several times and the game crashes. "Oh shit, what did you do?" ShockWave asks. "Uhm, I have no idea you could ruin a game just like that" I say and feel bad.

The game has been completely reset, and all his extra mods have been removed. "How long will it take to fix it?" I ask. "Oh well, like a day atleast... or a few" he tells me. Suddenly he finds a save file, and everything's OK! I sigh and tell him I gotta pee. I walk out into the living room, and sit down at a chair. There's a potty on the floor there I am supposed to pee in (wtf?). I can see people outside and his parents suddenly enter the room. I greet with them as I pull my pants up. "Where can I find a bathroom?" I ask them.

They laugh at my shyness and tells me there's a bathroom down the hall. I enter it, and close the door which is a yellow, see-through cloth. The bathroom itself is VERY small. Clothes are lying everywhere, and I try to sit down on the weird potty like toilet. I start peeing, but soon I feel I have to do the number two, but too late! I quickly jump to the real toilet, but the bathroom is already being flooded by water. I have no idea where it comes from, but I try to scoop up as much as I can.

06.00: Fantasy world
Two wanted posters flash before my eyes. Three images each, one from each side just like you get when you go to jail. One guy stands out, a Russian who looks just like Mike Rourke in "Iron Man 2" with dreadlocks as a beard. I walk on a large green field with another guy. We're about to meet up with our team, but we don't know where they are. I can hear something above and I look up. A small high-tech kite is flying towards us at a high speed. My companion points his huge grenade launcher at the thing and fires off a shot. The shell becomes a net and drags the kite to the ground. We inspect it. There's a message on there.

"We're at the trees just up ahead, beware" I read. I look up and can see something green glimmering in the trees not fifty meters away. We cross a road which seems to be doubling back around a grove to the right and walk up to a tree standing near the second road. A blue dressed woman is up in the tree, she looks just like "Mystique" from "X-men", but with a normal face. I can see the green radar panels which had reflected the sun. I greet with two more people in the small grove. I look back at the road from where we came, and spot six enormous, hairy beasts with riders.



They are following the road at a very fast speed. "Uhm, look" I say and point. "Get down and don't move a muscle!" they yell at me as they hide among rocks and in the trees. "The riders will be coming back our way in just a few seconds" I try to climb the closest tree. Twigs and leaves fall all around me as I struggle to climb. I realise I don't have time, and they will definitely see all the motion so I just stand completely still, leaning against the tree. The riders appear and all pass the tree next to the road with the blue woman in it, except one. The great boar/wolf monster sniffs the air. They back up a few meters and walk up to the tree.

We all hold our breaths as the woman whistles and an orangutang slides down the tree at the same time as the woman in blue. She masked her sound, clever. The orangutang jumps up on the mount and they're about to leave again. Just as they are at the edge of my point of view, they stop again. "Oh shit, we're dead" someone whispers next to me. A huge, green, snake monster appears from the backpack of the rider and takes the woman in blue in a second. Everyone in the grove starts struggling to get through the thick vegitation.

I get tangled up, and it's almost no use. The worm is just behind me and suddenly I fall down into a small pond of water behind the thicket. I figure there must be air pockets beneath the tree roots and I head for the bottom of the pool. A voice appears in my mind. It's one of the girls who survived. "We can talk telepathicly, you've practiced this by dreaming alot" she tells me.

06.00: Fragment
*I'm in a room, trying to watch the TV. I spot several people I don't know, and they all look very pale and skinny. They talk very fast, and seem to be having twitches from now and then. I realise it's my sister's new junkie friends. I sigh as one of them blocks the TV without even realising it. I walk down in to the kitchen to confront my sister.

15 minutes WBTB

7.30: Explosions at work
I'm at work, walking around doing nothing. I find a weird looking white rock, and I throw it away. The rock explodes in the air and I am stunned. "Awesome!" I exclaim. I start wondering if I might be dreaming. I look up at the blue sky.
"Two moons?" I wonder. It looks more like they are made out of clouds when I look for a longer time, and I figure the real moon is the brighter dot to the right. I decide it's not a dream and walk away to a few coworkers. Peter is there with another guy, digging some deep ditch which needs to be filled with concrete. I find a green pill on the ground and I step on it. A cool spray of green smoke appears as the pill breaks. Björn tells me I can find more if I look. I find a lump of green silicone. Inside I find more green pills. A guy next to us tells us to be ready, they're about to set off some dynamite.

I look behind me at the construction site. A wooden wall is in the way, but I can see through it. A container for eating in is standing just behind it. The dynamite goes off and sends the container full of people into the air. It goes up a meter or so, and slams down back again, leaning on the side. "Holy shit! Is everyone alright?!" I ask the girl standing in the opening of the container. "What kind of question is that?!" she yells back at me. "Wow, alright then, nevermind... Just trying to be friendly" I say. "Send for a truck" she tells us.

08.30: Fragment
*I'm playing real life Battlefield Bad Company 2. There are explosions everywhere, and I gun down a few guys with my sniper. I spot someone up in a window, pinning me down. I take out my RPG and shoot a rocket right into the window. "Yes!"

09.30: Vivid lucid MILD
Everything is just like the ending of "Watchmen". I am talking to a guy who has the same opinion as "Rorschach". I give him a very long speech about how fake peace is better than no peace at all. "If you expose Dr Manhattan, you will kill billions" I say. He ignores me and runs off. I become lucid. I take a look around me and I'm outside of the establishment at work. Everything is in place, even the iron gates behind me. I know he will come back soon, so I wait. I can hear voices coming from behind the building next to the gate. No one appears and I figure I'll have to go check it out. I remeber I have to stabilize the dream.

I look at my hand, 6 fingers. It's all very vivid and stable and the scenery around me doesn't change. The sky has is dark blue. I feel like trying out a stabilization technique I haven't used before. "Increase clarity!" I shout as loud as I can. The colours look a bit weird, but nothing more than that. I am satisfied and start walking. It's very slow and hard work. It takes me atleast twenty seconds to walk up to the metal gate. Once there everything goes more smoothly. I slap my face and it stings alot. I walk down the road and try to find the person who will ruin the world.

I spot a coworker, Roger. I walk up to him. "Hey! Have you seen that guy?" I ask. He smiles at me, and tells me he's down the street. I look and I think I can spot something yellow at the end of it. I slap my face again. I suddenly remember my old dreamgoal, to blow something up. I look at a tall building at the horizon and point at it. "Boom!" I say and imagine it blowing up, I can almost see the explosion and debris. Nothing happens. I figure it's too far away. "Back up, I'm gonna try to run super fast" I tell Roger. He takes a few steps back.

I dash away down the street, going as fast as I can. Which ofcourse is about as fast as I can run in real life. I try to increase the speed but I can't. It's all too real. I decide to try to fly instead and with a small jump I stretch out my arms. I fall down on the ground. I do a push up to get up. "Oh well, I'll try the correct way to fly" I tell myself. I do a few jumps to see how real everything is. The gravity is slightly off. Looking down, I stretch out my arms and jump straight up, expecting to go up. Nothing. I do this three times with no results. I wake up.

09.30: The second Europe member
I'm one of the members of the band "Europe" and I'm standing in an appartment next to a friend who's at the computer. Suddenly I hear a large "BAM!" from below. I look out the window, and I can see the member of the band whom I hate. He's hacking away at the door with an axe. "Oh shit... Not again" I moan and try to get out of the window. I get tangled up in the blinds and soon the crazy guy enters the room. He starts hitting my friend for some reason, and I can't take it no more. I grab the man and chuck him out the window. He hits the ground head first with a disturbing crack. "Shit, he probably broke his neck" I think, but I realise it must be a stuntman.

I can see him clearly now, and it's my friend Felix. I jump down next to him as he stands up. "I am so fucking sick of you and your bullshit!" I scream in his ear. I grab his head with both my hands, and slowly bite down on his nose. I can feel my teeth cutting into his flesh and I push him away when they snap shut. I spit the little piece of nose tip out in my hand. A car suddenly pulls up and he gets in. It's a convertible and the driver is his manager. I try to talk to him as he tries to go away. Another car pulls up and stops infront of the manager's car. It's full of girls and they are all demanding money which he owe them.

He tries to talk to all of us in a business-like manner. A third car appears. It looks like a trash version of the batmobile. The driver is wearing old school goggles and he heads for the hospital next to us. An old lady has to throw herself to the side to not get overrun. I realise he's trying to rob the hospital. "Again?" I think. Suddenly a movie starts playing, showing old and young people helping out when a robber is trying to rob the place. "If everyone helps out, we can do it!" is the motto.

09.30: Fragment
*I show my abs. People laugh. "Do you call that abs?" A guy at work asks me. I try to explain I haven't been working out in a long time.

09.45: Fragment
*I'm at some cabin. It's in the middle of the night and it's summer. My mom is standing next to the water. "Just because you've just had sex with my dad, doesn't make it all better" I say. I start hanging a few underwear on a box in the reeds.

Amount of sleep: 10½ hours

Supplements before bed: Nothing

That's it! Damn that took way too long. My wrists hurt... Anyways, I'm glad I had a long lucid again. Still sucky I didn't have any control over it. I will have to work on that.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

#971:
Date: Around December 12th, 2010
Length: 3 minutes

The first thing I recall is being in some giant skyscraper, apparently the headquarters for some major corporation. Whoever is running the corporation is apparently evil and has some sort of dastardly plan. I don't recall much of what I did in the early dream, but at some point it dawns on me, at least partially, that I'm dreaming. Now, my lucidity is still somewhat fuzzy at the start, but I realize that nothing I do has any real consequence. Thus, I make my up to the top floor of the building, and bust into a large conference room where the head of the company is speaking with some of his henchmen.

I think a sort of firefight ensues, where numerous people are shooting at me and I'm just kind of standing there, not even feeling or seeing any bullets hitting me. They seem to realize guns are not working, so we start talking for a while. Unfortunately, my recall of this specific point in the dream is very unclear. I think they try to kill me in some different way, but it still doesn't work.

As far as I recall, I end up in some other room with a bunch of people I (supposedly) know. There is a large sort of sliding door/window in front of us. I think someone is out on the ledge, perhaps about to commit suicide, though I don't think he ends up doing it. At this point, I start considering jumping out the window and flying. I hesitate for a while, thinking that it would be a pretty stupid way to die if this were real life, but eventually I convince myself it is indeed a dream. To encourage myself, I start floating in the air before actually going out the window, then fly out.

I float through the air, losing significant altitude over time so it's sort of like a controlled skydive. Below me is a pretty beautiful landscape, consisting of bodies of water and some buildings -- it all looks like some kind of tropical island. Shortly after flying out the window, I turn and do a sort of backstroke, so to speak, looking back at the window. I see several other people jumping/flying out.

Eventually, I land on the ground, in some sort of long, shallow pool. After a few moments I spy two people who were in the building with me. They are fishing in the pool... with AK-47s. They just fire volleys of bullets down at the water, hoping to hit a fish. I don't recall much after that.



That's it for now, gonna be trying to work on recall and lucid dreaming regularly for a while now. No specific plan yet, but I hope to come up with something soon.

12/21/10 Asuka in the Dream with Roses
Note: It seems that Lujan has gone and grabbed Asuka again, even though I thought that was over quite a while ago. He hasn't caused any trouble since July of 2010, but here we go again?! As annoying as that is, the first goal is to get Asuka back , dealing with Lujan is secondary. I am wondering if there is something wrong with Kanmuri, who was Lujan's girlfriend, and for the past several months has been keeping Lujan occupied so he hasn't been going after Asuka. I got the feeling from reading MoSh's dream that something could be very wrong… So this was the primary plan for the night.

Asuka in the Dream with Roses
When going to look for Asuka, I somehow find myself in a huge garden, and I find I am there alone even though I had intended to pick up MoSh before coming to find Asuka. I wonder where MoSh has gone to, I clearly remember making a stop by his inner world before opening a portal to track Asuka, and I would have sworn MoSh was right behind me in that portal. Well, he isn't here now, so I will just have to deal with that and see if my portal even ended up in the right place at all. I explore the garden, and it is all roses, roses are everywhere. There doesn't even seem to be any ground except for the ground I am walking on, just roses as far as the eye can see. I also can't see any sky… it is a bit disorienting, but I follow the path through the tunnel of roses to see where it leads and hoping it leads to Asuka.

All of the roses are actually a bit disorienting, but I finally find an area that is basically a room made out of roses. The effect is really rather beautiful, but so disorienting… Asuka is in the middle of the rose room, sitting there holding a rose, a golden rose, it looks like the golden rose is the only one of its kind… there aren't any golden roses on the bushes all around us. She looks up at me as I enter the area, at first she doesn't seem to recognize me at all. I look at the golden rose she is holding in her hands, I wonder if there is anything wrong with it that might be affecting Asuka. She finally seems to recognize me and holds the rose out to me.

I take the rose and look closely at it, the rose begins glowing with a golden light. I look around the rose room and see that the entrance I entered through is gone, now there is no sign of an exit. I also think it is strange that Asuka has not said a word to me, she has smiled, but not spoken. I speak to her and ask if she is ok, she still doesn't answer, instead she reaches a hand up to me for me to help her up. I do that, asking again if she is ok, she still doesn't answer me. She is still looking at me with a strange look on her face, so now I am wondering if I have definitely found Asuka at all, or if this might be some kind of decoy, so I look closely at her, reaching out to feel her energy… it is definitely Asuka, though there seems to be a bit of unstable energy there. It's Asuka, but something is not right. I open a portal out of the rose room… there is a small amount of resistance to the portal, but nothing I can't handle… and I lead Asuka through into the healing glen. I'm not sure if he knew telepathically or what, but MoSh meets us there in the healing glen. He wants to know if Asuka is ok, I say I think there is something not right, but she should be fine after healing. When the crystal golem comes out I hand the golden rose to him and tell him I think the rose may have something to do with what is wrong with Asuka since I found her holding it. He says he will take a look at it after putting Asuka somewhere comfortable. He takes the rose, which is tiny compared to his huge hand, but he gently lies the rose on the ground before taking Asuka into the healing cave with MoSh following behind.

Hi. This is my first dream journal. I'll be detailing a dream from a few months ago, however it was only around a minute long. But I figure, by writing it down, I'll improve my recall.

Blue = lucid
Orange = semi lucid
Black = non lucid

So, I woke up standing on some form of platform (I'm unsure what) suspended by thin air in the sky. I jumped down from this platform with my legs ridiculously static (like a video game) and plunged in to an area very similar looking to garry's mod's construct map. I hit the concrete hard, and this is where my memory gets clearer.

I jumped up high in to the air, and landed on top of a short, red and white building. The weather at this point was overcast, blue, stormy and generally depressing. I stood up and realized I was lucid. Thoughts rushed through my head, but unfortunately, the immense feeling of "oh thank the lord I finally did it" got me so excited it woke me up.

I have no idea why I remember that dream so vividly, and I have no idea what I was wearing or what I was standing on at the start. I'm hoping I can have even clearer experiences like it, because it felt awesome when I woke up.