lucid

I was in a room and there were a lot of dc's tasense then the lastthe form of a lot of my family members. But i knew they werent. None of them seemed good. They were trying to make me believe thier ways and told me if i keep going on thinking how i am they would Take my identidy and prety much make sure im a laughing stock and kick me out of the land. This did not seem right.
I don't remember what happened but I was kicked out. Then a big storm fell upon them. The looks of the sky was unlike I've ever seen I can't even begin to explain it. When I saw this I began to sing open the eyes of my heart lord open the eyes of my heart I want to see you. When I did that it began to hail huge shaterd glass hail.
Their was a pick up bed cannapy conveniently open for me to go in. I went in and continued to sing. As I layd my head down coverd my self with a blanket that was also coveniently there and dosed off.
When I woke I was being driven some where else. It was pure sun shine. The place there felt good and full of happiness. Then somthing happened I don't remember. I know I went some where else like on a mission it felt I was on.
This part don't make sence but it makes more sence. I was in a room with a bunch of people again. None of them seemed good. Exept two was with me that was good this time. We were watching somthing on a TV the people there was supposed to perform a live event on the TV for us to bare wittness to some how.
They played somthing but stopped and rewound it and then edited it to them messing around with snakes. so we would not know what actually happened. But I seen the flip And I started to object and say that's not how it happened I saw what you did they all looked at me with an evil glare.
Then I turned to one of my friends and asked did you see that. He said nothing then I went to ask my other friend but he was turned to ash. Then I looked back at them and said somthing but I don't remember what but I know I was talking in my sleep saying it. The last thing I remember saying if you are truely a man of God you will let me go. Then I woke up.

End
Notes:I prayd despritly before I dosed off. the very first dream I had after an hour in a half I had this dream. I ask god to show me guidance. to show me what he wanted me to know, in my dreams for those visions speak loud. So that I may know the real truth. In
my theory maybe this was symbolic meaning for what I was studying the night before on if I should believe it or not. The history of the christians. How it was said that a group of christians violently attacked other groups of christians and imprisened them for what they believed in and burnt there books untill nothing was left of them. Leaving them able to edit thier own to what they believed.
You know how jesus says turn the other cheek and love your enemies and your neighbors as your self. Why did this group seem to not follow that What does this really mean look it up. It could be in other theory with out the prayer my mind filling info. But with this strong feeling I put into the prayer makes me think other wise. And for it to be so strong of a dream and the very first one I have also makes me think. Like im sorry but I have to show it to you this way for you to understand and feel the meaning.
Although it's tottaly OK I can take it I'm not afraid any more. I do not walk alone. If at all I am an open minded person. My mate suggested it could have been a spiritual attack. Maybe it could have been both or all three But I point out what I said. Before how strong I felt that prayer was. I know I will be able to confirm some day but untill then this is highly noted.
Also note I don't usually yell or speak so loud out loud when I dream. My mate was in the next room and could hear me off and on for an hour. Weird I need feed back pls any one. I hope it was just a file but if not what then huh. And anyone who says anything might be like my friends in the dream they ether don't say anything or they turn to ash."disappear " also note I don't tottaly believe this but I know it has some meaning to it or somthing its weird.lol

Still have no idea if this was a lucid or not, but I'll post it anyways.

For context, earlier in the night I had a nightmare or two. (I forget the details). When I woke up, I remember thinking to myself, 'Yay, nightmares! Nightmares means I'll be more likely to have lucid dreams'. I had just read that natural lucid dreamers tended to have them because of nightmares as a kid. Anyways, I promptly fell back to sleep.

Then, I dreamt another dream (don't remember this one either, weirdly enough). Supposedly around the end I thought to myself, 'Wait a moment, I'm dreaming.' Or something like that. I didn't perform any RCs (I never got in the habit of doing that), but I thought repeatedly, 'Am I dreaming? Am I actually aware that I'm dreaming? Let me make sure.' and stuff like that.

Finally convinced that I did all that I could to ensure that I wasn't just dreaming about being aware that I was dreaming, I started to move around in this weirdly grey void. This is weird because I have really good recall, and my past 1000+ dreams have been super vivid visually.

Tactically, however, it felt really weird. Kind of like I was in a different state. I was super aware of my movement, and so it felt 'dense'. I don't know how to describe it. And it felt like I could easily slip out of this state.

Anyways, I decided to wake up after a minute or so because it was really weird, new, there didn't look like there was much else I could do, and I wanted to tell people about it. I'm not sure if I actually woke up or had a false awakening, but if I actually woke up I must have thought that it was too awkward to use my phone for some reason. Then I had a few more dreams and woke up in the morning.

Did I have a lucid dream, or did I just dream about what my mind pictured a lucid dream would feel like? I don't know, but I figured I'd record it as one anyways. If I have another one, I can see if it feels similar. I call it the Schrödingers dream because was it a lucid, was it not? We will never know.

I had two very short LD's last night attempting to summon a favorite character from a book series I read called the Bartimaeus Trilogy. For the past few days, I've been telling myself that I was going to summon Bartimaeus as a character next time I LD. I've been looking at potential photos, trying to really get the image down in my mind.

The first dream, I can't remember the story leading up to the LD, but I do remember walking down this dark road in a forest, I was trying to fly, or take off flying, but then I suddenly realized that I was dreaming and instantly I start doing a little happy dance like, "Score!" (I'm super excited about this btw! Ever since I began making this a focus, I've been LD'ing more often, which was my goal). So, I remember that I'm supposed to focus on Bartimaeus and I'm trying to picture him coming down the road, while I'm hovering above ground on a...towel. But he doesn't show up. I immediately loose control of the dream and right before I wake up, I have a short dream fragment of me flying in the air with Bartimaeus next to me in the form of a cicada.



I had several dream fragments in between, nothing memorable. At one point, I woke up and rolled over to my side facing the window and I enter into a nonlucid false awakening. I opened my eyes and looked out this small window of light surrounded by darkness and in the window, all I could see was a tree branch surrounded by daylight, so I thought it was time to get up and start my day. I put some shoes on and grab a bicycle and start pedaling down the road, but it wasn't my usual road. It was the route I used to take to school back when I was a kid living with my parents.

So, I'm pedaling to the nearby woodsy park and I'm biking around this family who'd stopped to take a picture of themselves. It was an elderly couple with a child and a college-age red-head, daughter. So, I'm pedaling past them, but the daughter is running to keep up with me. I turn back behind me for some reason and I see the rest of the family collapsed on the ground. So, I run back thinking they're dead or fainted, and I call after the red-head girl, who turns out to be Lindsay Lohan, to notify her of her fallen family, and she says, "Aw, man! My alarm clocks are broken again!"

I was so confused. "Alarm clocks?" I asked. She said, "Yeah, they're not dead. Those are mechanical people." So, I'm helping Lindsay carry these "alarm clocks" back to my house so she can get them repaired. As we're hauling these mechanical people up the road, I call my Granny P (ha! remember her from the last dream?) and let her know what's going on. I even call my mom she knows to expect me and Lindsay carrying these bodies up the road.

The road we're going up is called Haltom Rd. Along Haltom Rd, are brick walls that separate the street from people's back yards. Lindsay and I pass by this area on the ground where there was a ton of different fruits: strawberries, oranges, apples, grapes, fruit of all different colors. So, I tell Lindsay that we can't pass up this opportunity! That we've got to take this home. Just wash them in the sink and they'll be good to go! So, we start collecting all this fruit in our shirts and these random bowls that appear out of nowhere. (Don't know where the mechanical people went.) All of a sudden, one of the brick walls open up like a door and some Willy Wonka looking man steps out, accusing us of stealing his fruit. Lindsay and I look at each other, drop the fruit, and run.

So, this strange man and some of his goons are chasing us down the street. I turn a corner to try to loose them, which I did, but all of a sudden, I was lost. I could not figure out where I was on a map; nothing looked familiar to me, but everything was detailed and vivid. Then, I suddenly realize that I'm dreaming! "Yes! Score! Twice in one night!" I think to myself. So, I try to summon Bartimaeus again. I sat down on this grassy area and watched the road like a hawk, waiting for him to appear. But he walked up behind me with some other young boys and sat down in the grass in front of me. For a second I wasn't sure if it was him or not because the "handsome youth" form I'd been focusing on was a little distorted, but then I asked, "Is this the best that you can do?"

"Yep," he said. And I woke up.

+ first waking: no concrete recall, definitely dreamed but couldn't move beyond vague impressions

busy mind. Calmed it with modified SSILD (fogelbise style, all senses per one breath)
got back to sleep!

+ (LD#149) I'm on a bus. Sitting in front of me is a girl and (her family members?). My hand is one the back of the chair. She's wearing an open-backed shirt and my hand is really close to touching her skin. I think about brushing my hand against her skin "accidentally" but I don't. The girl then turns around fully, kneeling on her seat and seems to be looking right at me and starts talking, but I figure out she's talking to her "sister?" who is right behind me. (The girl in front of me has red hair & blue eyes?). I glance behind me and see the sister, she seems to be a twin of the girl in front.

I decide to do some "stuff" hidden by blanket on top of me. At one point something comes in to view briefly and I wonder if the girl behind me sees it. I cover up with the blanket again.

I look up and see a reflective mirror strip near the ceiling of the bus. I look into it and see a row of girls a few rows back. 2-3 of them look like identical twins (like the sister), and one more of them looks similar enough to definitely be a sister.

(discontinuity?)

I look forwards and notice that the girl and her family who had sat in front of me had moved across the aisle, I think they moved away from me because of my "stuff." There is another family sitting in front of me. I notice I'm sitting next to a girl on my right, rubbing shoulders with her. I turn to look at her, placing my right arm over her seat back. I get bold and lean down/over and kiss her. I'm lucid now and I say out loud, "I'm dreaming." I continue to kiss her, several "smacks", lightly pulling on her lips a bit for the sensation, feels totally convincing, and I fade to awake.

Very stoked about the LD. Get my self calm again with SSILD and am just about asleep again when I get a phone call, and then get up for the day.

I'm at my friends place, he's playing a board game. We're in a laundry room in the basement, there is a window at the edge of the far wall where grey daylight comes in. The board games has something to do with whales. After rolling some red dice a few times and getting predictable results my friend talks about getting new dice. I tell him of some new dice I've seen that look very futuristic and we go into an in-depth discussion on how they might be off-balanced. I suggest 3D printing a tester die just in case.

There is some confusion about how the game is supposed to progress, I forget what the situation is and what I should be doing. After my friend informs me, a bit annoyed, where I should be on the board (I have a whale piece by the shore that is attacking another piece) I roll and see if I am able to proceed. Another person I know is there as well.

I turn and see two old women sitting on a wooden bench through a large window on the wall behind me. They are just sitting there, being old women. I turn around and see the game has turned into a kind of Jenga-type thing, there is a cube of made of bricks. I try to pull one out and the whole thing collapses, I feel a rush of shame.

As we are packing I talk to my friend about playing Magic: the Gathering at some point, enthusiastically expressing how much I want to play it. I remember that I might have ruined the surprise of his surprise party.

I take my bike back, I'm walking through the place where my friend's sister lives, it is pretty foggy. I talk to my friend Micheal for a bit before going off on my bike. In the middle of the road I see two hedgehogs on tip of each other. I break quickly and look at them. Are they fighting or having sex? In any case, it's dangerous for them to do that in the middle of the road. I try to scare them back into the bushes but they seem pretty unafraid of me, still totally connected. I go to their other side and start to wave at them, they slowly head into the bushes, still together.

I walk down the path a bit and see two more hedgehogs sleeping by the side of the road. I look at them with great interest, I admire their quills, so long and sharp. I hear someone coming up behind me. Two people pass me and startle the animals, one of them is Ron Burgundy from the Anchorman movie.

I walk away between two concrete apartment buildings. It's night now and I drive through the unfamiliar streets. Am I deep in the east side of the city? I drive my bike down narrow pathways in an industrial area, not sure where to go. I enter a building, still on my bike, looking for a way out of this maze. It's even more cramped here, tables and chairs, stumbling in the dark.

I decide this was a bad idea and head outside again. Biking, I see another person walking toward me, I'm alarmed at first, what is he doing here? He passes me by with no incident. I continue to make my way.

I'm in an inky blackness, can't sense anything. There is only a realization. This is a dream, this is a dream.
A familiar excitement rises in me from my toes to my stomach. I know I can't get too excited. Suddenly in front of me a school appears. It's a red, brick school, a wing of it stretches to my left. It is a foggy day. I walk toward it, looking at everything, studying and examining, everything is hyper-real. Bricks, windows, the asphalt. I look into the window to my left and see my reflection, it is as I would expect, even my hair looks dopey as usual. Walking down I see a woman teaching a class of children, their faces as distinct as the "real" world. I enter the school, dazed, I don't know what to make of this, what should I do?

The hall is lit with a yellowish light familiar from childhood. I turn right and walk down the hall. Things get fuzzy, I feel things slipping away. I know I must take action and I begin spinning in a circle to stabilize the dream. I see the lockers on the sides of the walls. The dream begins to feel stable again. I turn to see a balding man with glasses, a teacher, walking out. I look into the room he left, it is a small room with a window at the top edge of the far wall. Something like a bathroom, but there is a bed there. It has a 70's style quilt on it.

I leave the room and go down the hall in the other direction. I meet two teenage girls sitting on a bench to the left. I hear them talking. The dream destabilizes......

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream 1 - Teeth getting pulled
I seem to be in a dark room strapped to a chair. A man is holding a drill to the left side of my cheek and starts drilling into my face and into my teeth. The pain is excruciating and realistic... Next he starts on my front teeth, all my teeth are being removed by having someone drill them out from their roots with a power tool. I keep thinking to myself hysterically that it isn't real, that it's all just a dream. I know it's a dream, because if it were real then it would hurt MORE than this. Nothing made sense, I knew I could wake myself up if I tried harder. I kept trying, over and over to will myself awake as I struggled against the constraints of the chair and the illusion of pain in my mind. I finally managed to wake up.

Dream 2 - Vampire who just woke up
I've just awoken from a long slumber as a vampire. My casket is special or something.. Which comes back as an important detail later. I'm a guest to huge feast, there is a master who is hosting it. I'm suspicious of everything for some reason, it's just weird I guess. I spot some large curtains blocking the entrance to a nearby room. The place I'm in is grandiose, the feast table is really long and the curtains are velvet red. I decide to ditch the feast and enter the room. One of the other guests, a woman, follows me. As she enters the room behind me she ties a black cloth over her face, then walks forward. In front of us is a silken red sheet draped over a large box of some sort. The woman approaches it (I seem to remember her having a black dress on) and removes the sheet in one sweeping move. It exposes the silver casket to which I was awakened from. (*Note: I think my face was on the casket for some reason*). It seems to shock the other guests, who apparently also followed us from the dining hall. I have some sudden flashbacks from hundreds of years ago to how vampires used to live compared to the extravagant luxury they were now accustomed to. Images like burning at the stage, being smashed over a wall and fighting epic battles. Random stuff like that.

This was a WBTB , dild and the hands trick.at first the dream was hazy so I looked at my hands to adjust clarity. I Appeared in the house there is clothes and household stuff everywhere it was a mess . I do remember walking through a couple doors but there were no doors leading in or out of that place. there was a window I went through the window breaking it in the process attempting to fly. . But I ended up landing painlessly on a patch of grass. I saw a house across the way. I went to fly on top of the house. But I don't remember what happened. then suddenly I ended up in a different house. there are people sleeping all over the floor in there and there was even a bed in the living room so i went on . I didn't bother anybody out there. I went to go check the other rooms. I saw two other people sleeping on two separate couches the blankets were pulled up over their head. so I tried to take off the blankets but another one appeared in its place . And then another one so I gave up easy and decided to go somewhere else. I went down a hallway on the right hand side of the room and on the left hand side was a door and went through. there were bunk beds in there but it was too dark to see anything else . so I went back out the hallway there was a room right across the way but I skipped it and went to the end of the hallway and went in the door on the right. I think there are bunk beds in there also I think there was people in there but I don't remember much of what happened in there. but I went back out that room into the hallway and went to the door I skipped. by then i was lucid it again there's a see-through sheet and a beaded door there was a light on in there and a lady sitting up on a bed she said to come in here now it sounded like she is trying to help me. but I paused and hesitated which is a bad thing to do in a lucid dream I fell right into a normal dream. I don't remember what happened except that I appeared in a van I was in the back there were two guys in front they were eating Rotten Tomatoes one of them said by the time they realize it it will be too late and they won't know where they are. I had the feeling they were not trying to help me and they were against me so I got out of the van. The guy in the passenger seat got out he had long nappy hair to his shoulders scruffy beard a white shirt and some jeans he kind of looked like a crackhead I tried to fly but I woke up. Oh well wish me luck next time.lol

This was a WBTB , dild and the hands trick.at first the dream was hazy so I looked at my hands to adjust clarity. I Appeared in the house there is clothes and household stuff everywhere it was a mess . I do remember walking through a couple doors but there were no doors leading in or out of that place. there was a window I went through the window breaking it in the process attempting to fly. . But I ended up landing painlessly on a patch of grass. I saw a house across the way. I went to fly on top of the house. But I don't remember what happened. then suddenly I ended up in a different house. there are people sleeping all over the floor in there and there was even a bed in the living room so i went on . I didn't bother anybody out there. I went to go check the other rooms. I saw two other people sleeping on two separate couches the blankets were pulled up over their head. so I tried to take off the blankets but another one appeared in its place . And then another one so I gave up easy and decided to go somewhere else. I went down a hallway on the right hand side of the room and on the left hand side was a door and went through. there were bunk beds in there but it was too dark to see anything else . so I went back out the hallway there was a room right across the way but I skipped it and went to the end of the hallway and went in the door on the right. I think there are bunk beds in there also I think there was people in there but I don't remember much of what happened in there. but I went back out that room into the hallway and went to the door I skipped. by then i was lucid it again there's a see-through sheet and a beaded door there was a light on in there and a lady sitting up on a bed she said to come in here now it sounded like she is trying to help me. but I paused and hesitated which is a bad thing to do in a lucid dream I fell right into a normal dream. I don't remember what happened except that I appeared in a van I was in the back there were two guys in front they were eating Rotten Tomatoes one of them said by the time they realize it it will be too late and they won't know where they are. I had the feeling they were not trying to help me and they were against me so I got out of the van. The guy in the passenger seat got out he had long nappy hair to his shoulders scruffy beard a white shirt and some jeans he kind of looked like a crackhead I tried to fly but I woke up. Oh well wish me luck next time.lol

Lucid

The dream started off with one of my brothers coworkers show me a picture of a girl who she was comparing herself to. I told her that she looked much better than the girl that she was comparing herself to. Then we all walked outside and to my surprise we were in my old neighborhood and my old house as a child.

At this point I knew that I was dreaming. I had the idea of taking off flying showing everybody that I could fly because I knew that I was dreaming. I did that flying down a dark street all the way to the end which is smoothly landed and looked back to my surprise everyone was right behind me. We ended up in this back alley way which appeared to be very dark and spooky.

I told everyone we shouldn't go in that direction and we should turn around. By this time it was daylight and these dogs ran up to us as if they were about to attack us. I climbed of the fence and threw something at them to make him go away. Then I realize that these dogs were just little puppies. I got down off of the fence and proceeded to pet the puppies enjoying their company.

After doing this I walked back to the group and told them that I would be right back because I had to use the restroom. I woke up from a lucid dream actually having to use the restroom.

Lucid
I became lucid and immediately thought about flying just to to enjoy the sensation of it. So I took off flying with in this lake area over a bunch of houses. It seemed that the Sun was setting at the time in the sky was beautiful. I enjoyed this very much.

I was at some sort of a party when I realize that I was dreaming. I got the idea of trying to impress my dream characters showing them that I could fly and I had the special powers.

I was in a cabin with two other people I haven't met. The guy with a jacket was telling the girl with unusual hair if she was going to switch bodies with me. I told him we've already done that before. She then sends me in to the body of a taller man wearing a light blue dress shirt with khaki pants with a low cut. As him I was washing my hands and got out to try finding my family. I soon met up with my brother and mom, I began questioning about stuff I suspected for some time but can no longer remember what these things were.

Soon the girl with unusual hair began telepathically communicating with me, telling me I don't have enough time. I got zap out of the body and black out. A dream began to appear where I found myself walking in the living room. It was dark since no lights were on, I sat near a couch where I found my old beaten up shoes lying around. I starting placing them on to my feet which is odd since I was grew out of them a long time ago. I then tied my shoes and heard the door beginning to knock.

I figure it must be another criminal trying to rob the place. I get up and head to my father room, my father tells me he is going in to the kitchen. I went to the bathroom and sat down on to the soaked floor waiting for some loud noise to hit me. That's when I look up at the bathroom and realize half of the door was missing. I felt like I've been in this situation before I thought. Murky sounds started echoing from the living room. I got up from the floor and did an RC to confirm whether I was in a dream.

The air went right through the nose plug and fully confirm to me that I am dreaming. I kept getting the feeling that something was awaiting me out in the living room, so I went near the curtains and jump at them with the immediate intention of phasing through it. I could feel my legs touching the grass outside but my upper body wouldn't get out. Soon the curtain began hurling my body back in to the house. I could feel how physical my grip was on the curtain to force myself to stay on the ground.

However somehow this curtain is still sending me back with each second. The voice were getting louder so I needed to use some dream control quick. I began to yell no and got desperate and tried thinking of being on a beach or a park. However it wasn't working so I began trying to force myself to wake up but still nothing, this all felt too physical as my body was almost fully back in to the house. I got angry and manage to overpower the curtain and landed on the grass outside.

It was night and I started trying to walk but my legs felt strain from how much pressure the curtains had. I soon notice that there is something on my back, I tried to scratch it off but it wasn't coming off. I look and saw that I had piece of the curtain still attach to me. The pieces began to form in to a body size disk. Why wont it come off I wonder, not long after that it started to hurtle me up in the air. While up there I began to feel pencil pricking pain all over my chest and back.

This continue till the sky turn bright day and after a couple of spins I landed down to a building. I could feel the pressure leave my back it was finally off. I appear to have crash at a park with a bunch of people riding bikes. I started thinking what are the best ways to wake myself up. I decided to lean near a building store and focus on the sound of all the riders bike racing down on the concrete. It sounded so distracting, I then focus on finding some sensation of my body lying on the bed. That's when I manage to wake myself up. Lucidity time: 6 minutes

Generally food while lucid tastes pretty bland for me, but tonight's managed to produce realistic raspberry, lemon, and salt flavors. That hadn't been a particular goal; but I wound up in a kitchen with bite-sized pastries and salted nuts around and was trying to figure out what they tasted like, thinking about how poor my sense of taste tends to be in lucid dreams, and then found the flavors became stronger when I had another. I thought of it as needing to train the tongue, or the mental sense of a tongue anyway.

wow what a night. i think my longest LD so far. awesome new dreamcontrol level.

wake up after 4h and WBTB after about 50-60min (not intended but needed so long to write my dreams down + toilet) i used SSILD again. it works like a sharm and i really like the technique how it feels and how it helps me to fall asleep again even if i felt a little bit to awake and pumped. if i would say up my mantras MILD style or try a wild i wouldnt have fall asleep that good i think.

dont remember the nonlucid dream before the Lucid because it was too long
I get lucid and am in a building. phase thru the wall fall outside on the street. do a long noseplug with deep breathing (thank you ~Dreamer~).
First task is to summon a Angel. i picture one behind me. dont work. i imagine there is a point in the sky that gets bigger and will be an angel. i see the point but no angel. i keep going. try to summon Nightfeather dont work neither but other people appear that now stand around me. nevermind second goal: making a portal with a portalgun. i expect one to be in my backpack and even describe a woman what i want to get out of my backpack and how it looks like (i am for a portalgun rick and morty style). i take of my backpack and look insight but nothing more insight than some tape... so a old woman passes us. i stop her and say to her that i think my portal gun is in her bag. she wants to look insight but somehow she gets pissed and dont want me to look in it. she tries to walk away but i raise her with TK and turn her around. she pisses around so i think fuck that, next goal: look into a mirror and talk to yourself. i go into a floor with some shops that are all closed. i expect a mirror to be behind me, turn around and yes there is one but way to small. i look at it and start to wipe with my hands to make it bigger. it starts morphing but a litte clumsy the frame gets bigger but totally crooked and not how i like it. i stop because i dont see that this will get better and bigger like i would like it. a guy passes me and i turn to him and ask him if the mirror behind be now got bigger. he negates it and i ask him if he knows where i find a bigger one. i follow him and find a mirror behind a shop window. i phase thru and take the mirror wit TK to me. i now am searching for a good place where i can put the mirror so i can see myself as a whole but just cant find a good place (damn dreamlogic^^)
i notice the dream fading and start rubbing a pillar. it feels rough wet and sandy. i swap somehow and am in a dark wet dungeon or something? memory gap

DEILD i think a short NLD part

i cross a street. a car is driving fast. i try to stop it with TK it dont work but he stops anyway because he dont want to drive over me. because i move so slow he starts driving again and i earn a angry look. i remember that i want to make a portal. so i search a wall that is straight and have some space for a portal. but i just cant find a suitable place. i want to do it on a white car i see but when i approach it i see its a normal car and have a lobsided back. so what do? ah just do it on the ground i think. i move with my hands and i even hear a sound (something like the TP sound in Diablo i think) but there is no portal but some red glowing symbols on the ground. unfortunately under the white car... so i use TK again to lift the car and put it away so i can see the whole symbols on the ground. i got some audience now that watches what i do. i try again and the location of the symbols changes. now i try to "open up" with a gesture the circle. after some time a little hole originates and i see a bright light. i feel really happy and now i just rip the hole bigger with a guesture. this part fees way more simpler. i jump in and i feel and see crazy shit like a little bit in stargate but the wormhole is not blueish but it looks like distorted and twisted surroundings. i get spit out out and i think i landed at the same place or maybe not far away. memory gap/maybe short NLD

i am getting out of a building (in the same street i know) and i investigate something with somebody? a car wants to flee or drive away i stop and lift it again with TK. memory gap

i am in a hut and phase through the wall outside. i want to have some sexytime now and move to another hut and expect there to be a nice woman. and there i find a black goodlooking woman. i move to her and open up my pants and sit right next to her. she is a little bit complain that i cant do that and we are in public but i just kiss her. she starts to like it and i knead her naked nippels. it feels realistic and good. we think about to go somewhere else. short memory gap

i move down the same street and see some more huts. infront of some of them there are some dead animals like rabbits and pheasants hanging around to dry or to smoke. [Played Skyrim yesterday ] i wonder a bit but keep on moving. a friend of mine is calling and asks me where i am. i dont know exactly and she tells me to take the bus home. i think about it and tell her " while saying that i try to phase through a wall what is not working. "but if this is a dream it shouldnt matter where i go because i would wake up anyway. on the other hand i could do that because i am not lucid anymore anyway..." i see the bus she wants me to take. in the background i see a huge amusement park. i tell her "damn if i would new that this is here i would have been there a long time" i look at my hand shortly. she tells me to take the bus again. now he is near me. i look on my hand again and count mindful my fingers and count seven. i am lucid again and tell her "yea i take the bus" replace the phone. I breath again a long time through my plugged nose to ground myself again and fly over there and in a pretty height. i see a big rollercoaster that i want to ride. i fly straight downwards and i feel again a very strong gut feeling so need to stop the nosedive i do this like two or three times until i am at the ground. i look around and see that its night, there are no visitors and everything is turned of. damn i think and want to make it day. i turn around and look at the horizon and imagine it to get there a little bit lighter and it happens. i see a little bit of the sun and from there on it is easy again i rip the sun up in the air in that of a speed that some stars wasnt fast enough and are still up there. never mind i think they dont bother me at least it is bright now. i look down again and its snowing now. i think about to change the weather too but ahh who cares its not cold and the machines should work anyway. i start flying and searching for the entrance to the rollercoaster. i fly by some attractions but nothing that interest me. i look up to see the rollercoaster and find it. i fly low near the ground and fly right trough a car and a tube up where i think is the entrance. i see the seats and pick one. there are the safetystraps and i try to find out the mechanism. i fly next to it and put the straps down. damn now i dont sit inside... i let it pass me. the next seat is taken by some DC i want to take the one after him. i fly there but somehow tumble a bit and do some swimming moves to come near the seats that are moving in the air the whole time. i sit in and know now that the safetystraps go down by themselves when its time to. i look to the front on the passanger before me and i see how he gets nearly shaken of his seat as a little teaser before the ride. i am happy like a little child and singing "i am still lucid and that for some long time now yuppyduppydoo..." i get accelerated fast in my seat and take a turn. memory gap

dont know if the following part was after the rest or in between. forgot to write it down and just remembered:

i am outside at a parking lot. i want to try another portal with the intention to teleport home. i start some gestures and the symbols apear at the ground again. there are two old women standing next to me looking what i do. with some effort a little portal apears again and i stretch it with a guesture. one grandmother tells the other to go away not that she falls insight. i intent to land at home and jump in. (i think i didnt set or visualise the intent enough it was more like a home?! jump) i land in the void, everything black, no effects like before. i hear some voices (of the grannies?) and i say something. and wake up five minutes before my alarm clock.

i´ve fallen more than one time into the void but just didnt care waited for some seconds in the dark, didnt move and a new dream formed. this was awesome because normally i would just wake up, move and thats it. once i even thought: "oh dark... damn just wait....nothing happens damn its over...oh wait picture aaaaand there you are dream"
--> therefor i used for the first time while going first to bed "i wont move after waking up" because i just yesterday read a thread about DEILD, so nice it worked that fast
i think i was like for an hour lucid with some lost fragments and some short NLD moments but overall gained lucidity over and over again and had a lot of fun! i had a super mood this day because of this awesome night!

*Suppress irresistible want to sing all the song, including chorus*

Last night was insomnia night. Around five in the morning I decided that I could try to WILD, because I have very good decision skill around five in the morning and Eli was sleeping. I thought about a movie I've seen some time ago, Only Lovers Left Alive and how it would be neat to see the house of one of the hero, Adam. I fluffed up my pillow and lay down again, seeing his cluttered doorway in my mind's eye.

In what seem to be a flawless transition, I walk in. The walls are as I remember, dark and covered with artworks. They's stuff litteraly everywhere, pilled up high and precariously, things that would make a antiquarian go mad with envy. The corridor is already small, and all this stuff make it cramped and claustrophobic. I keep going and end up in the living room which is as cluttered and full that the rest. Adam is here, sitting on his red plushy sofa. He look as unkempt as usual, in a long dressing gown open on a black washed-out T-shirt and coton pants. I conjure up my tablet behind my back and crouch in from of him to show it too him, with a app mimicking some musical instruments, including a bass and a piano. He isn't very convinced and brush the touch screen with his fingertips, playing a couple of music notes from the virtual piano and briginf up the virtual bass.
I wake up.

That was a lot of fun. I had a art time keeping my lucidity tho.

Ok, so I'm pretty pissed at my last dream that I had, so much that I forced myself to wake up, but I want to write all of these down before I forgot and I need someone to help explaining how this could happen, please!!

Dream #1-Cherry Blossoms (Lucid)

I can barely remember how it started. I just remember being in this foreign country in Asia. There was a revolt of younger people on the streets, a protest. They were running away from something and I ran with them. In fact, I ran to the front and began leading them. Next thing I know, I'm running through these large wooden Japanese (?) gates and I'm alone.



I look around and I begin to notice the detail and beauty of where I am. It was breath taking! It looked similar to the picture above: pink cherry blossoms surrounding this lake. I was wearing some pretty, flowing white dress, too. I started to loose control of the dream because everything was blurring out, but I remembered from this site to focus on details and touch things. And it worked!! I focused on the floor I was walking on, marble, magenta. I crouched and touched the floor, smooth and cool. I looked around and everything was much more vivid and I was happy that I gained control of the dream again. So, I chose to summon a character, like I always do. I knew I had to choose quickly, so I ran through a list of names and I remembered that I told myself that next time I had a vivid dream, I would summon Jacob Black (from Twilight, yes. Do not judge me, you would too.)

I couldn't find him for a while. I thought he'd come running, but I turned around and found him crouching by this wall looking down at something. He looks up over at me and smiles and runs away. And I'm thinking, "No! Where are you going?!" He dives into the lake and he's swimming around and under the bridge I'm standing on. Finally, he stops teasing me and jumps out of the water. I remember he shook himself dry like a dog, lol. He picks me up and embraces me and we just smile at each other. He never spoke in the dream, which is unusual. Often times my characters will say something, but the sex scene clearly made up for that. So...on to the fucked up dream that turned into a nightmare.

***Any dream experts out there, I could really use some help with explaining this weird phenomenon or just knowing that something like this has happened before to someone else, would be comforting!!***

Dream #2-"Let's Experiment with Pain." (FA/Lucid/Nightmare)

I had a false awakening from my lucid dream. I woke up next to my boyfriend in bed and he's mumbling a little bit and wakes up too. He turns to me and says, "Were you having a sex dream or something? Your foot was twitching in your sleep." (Yeah, right? Awkward!!) So, of course, I lie and tell him that I wasn't dreaming about sex, but I look around at my surroundings and I realize... I'm still dreaming!!! So, I roll over to my boyfriend and look at him hard thinking, "I wonder if he knows that this is a dream?" So, I ask him. He says, "No, we're not. Go back to sleep." and I tell him, "No seriously! Watch, watch, watch! Watch me touch the mirror against the wall!" So, I reach my hand out and my arm and fingers stretch and distort to reach the mirror. My DC boyfriend pops up and goes, "Omg!! That is so cool!!" I said, "I know right!! Look at your fingers too! That's another thing I learned to do to check if you're dreaming! Count them!" And we each had 10 fingers on each hand.

So, we're doing all these cool RC's that I learned on this site, which honestly, I've never had to do RC's before. I've always just entered into lucidity via DILD by observing the detail and just knew I was dreaming. This was my very first time experimenting with RC's and you know what happened?!?!

My sweet, harmless Granny P walked into the room with this creepy ass smile on her face and big wide eyes like a doll. She was wearing this white, sleeveless night gown, with blood red lipstick, short shoulder-length hair, and SHE WAS HOLDING A KNIFE! You know what she said to me? "Oh! So you want to realize you're dreaming, huh? Well, let's experiment with pain." And she starts stabbing me in the arms and hands like a psychopath! And her face turned green at one point, her jaw disconnected to bite and chew on my fingers. None of it really hurt, it just felt prickly, like when you sit on your foot for too long and the feeling is slowing returning to it. I got SO MAD!!! My heart was racing because obviously this is a nightmare and I looked at her, while she's stabbing the crap out of me, and ask her, "Why does it have to be you?" The DC granny shrugs her shoulders and continues stabbing me in the face with her damn knife. I try to look over at Nnamdi to see what's going on with him, but all I see is darkness over there, like that part of the dream is completely wiped out. I was so mad that this happened that I yelled, "Fuck this! I'm waking up!!!"

And I did. I was PISSED! I'm still pissed that that happened. I'm like half-expecting my DC granny to pop around the corner with a knife in her hand, and I'm ready for it too, like, "Come at me, bitch!!" Btw, this is kinda what her face looked like in the dream:



For the record, I love my Granny P. She's the nicest lady you'd ever meet, which is why I don't understand why she of all people had to be the psychopath in my dream. It's 5:16 AM. I'm going back to bed. Maybe I'll have a continuation of that dream and kick some dream-maker's ass for messing with my LD's. Goodnight!