lucid

​This morning I had an LD again after almost 2 months with a few false awakenings.

I have no idea how I became lucid, somehow the memory of that is gone, but I remember parts of my non-lucid dream before it, and I recall trying to change things knowing that's possible in dreams. I was trying to prevent a murder by moving him away by just thinking of it .


Anyway when I became lucid, I watched my sleeping self smiling (not in the same room I sleep in), then I tried to fly or float for the first time, and failed although I really believed I could do it.


I moved on to not waste time, and tried to change the scene by spinning, again nothing, so I tried to imagine some fancy door that leads to another place, and I did it. I created a door but it didn't look like I imagined, just a simple white door.


I went in anyway, and again not the natural scene I tried to create. I found a house with old styled furniture. I checked a newspaper and it was 1909, It felt like I traveled back in time, and I remember feeling younger (of course I wasn't born yet in 1909 ).


I remember having some false flashbacks in that house (related to my waking life not the house) so I guess my lucidity was fading after I crossed the door because I don't recall making decisions while exploring the house like I usually do. I also remember talking to a character from a TV show that I watch currently who offered me fries and some food, then I woke up.


For the first time, I wasn't really happy and excited when I woke up. I guess because I was disappointed I couldn't do something as simple as flying , I tried to push up many times to at least float, but didn't work.


What do you guys do to fly? and can you be half-lucid during some parts of your lucid dream? I was still aware I was dreaming, but I think I didn't have full control over my character after I crossed the door.

I looked out across a large room and realized I was dreaming. I said out loud and I was dreaming and tried to remember the task. I was losing the dream but stayed still and hoped it came back...which it did. I was in a cafeteria. I looked around for DCs to bite. I came across some old men. One looked liked Charlie's grandfather from Willa Wonka. I decided to pass. I might have unsuccessfully attempted to bite another DC but I don't remember. I then came across a little girl with short, blond hair. She was holding cherry tomatoes in her hand. I moved my mouth towards her hand, but it was out of reach once again. I finally grabbed her hand and yanked it towards my mouth before I bit down on her finger until she felt some pain. I walked away, done with the task when I heard her muttering something. "Is she saying sick ass?" I thought. I listened closer. "Sickest!" Sickest!" she muttered. Then she approached me. "Do you need anything?" I patted her head. "I don't need anything." I woke up.

The dream begins with me being chased by something I am unaware of. Soon after I become fully lucid within this neighborhood.

I remember to do my dream plan which is to use dream teleportation goggles to change the dream scene. I then manifest some virtual reality looking goggles very easily.

I put them on and this distant hazy scene begins to appear. Not being what I expected, I took them off.

I was still in the same neighborhood and I proceeded along with the dream. I flew into the sky and noticed that there were two moons and the sky was full of multicolored clouds.

There was a van that would drive down the neighborhood street shooting colorful fog into the atmosphere for a reason I am unaware of. I thought to myself am I on a different planet. I ended up at this lady's house on her balcony which had a spectacular view.

Getting the suspicion that I was on a different planet, I decided to ask her. She said yes you are on the planet Zor. I then asked her why does this planet look so similar to ours but with small variations.

She then told me that, who do you think is setting the trends on your planet. At some point I also remember standing on the balcony just enjoying the view for a moment. The distant buildings reminding me of downtown Las Colinas which is a beautiful city.

Don't remember much. Main reason I'm posting this is to record the sleep paralysis I experienced, which I think is only the second time ever that I experienced it. Quite scary.

-4 people dying in a beautiful tragedy style dream

-I'm on the street by my house french kissing everyone I see. I realize I'm lucid, and decide to go to my neighbor's house to see who's home but I wake up.

-I died and went to heaven. I'm opening drawers that when you open them seem to go on forever.

I wake up, but I can't move. I can't even open my eyes. It's scary but I figure I'll come out of it eventually I try to fall back asleep in hope that when I wake up I won't be paralyzed anymore, but I somehow am finally able to move. Sometime during this I hear things like my dad in my room(in RL he's not at the house) and my dog(also not here in RL). Weird dream-like state.

Last night I had my longest lucid dream ever! It was about 2 mins long, which most of my Lucid Dreams last less than a minute. So, I won some things and I learned some things. I have been practicing taking more control over a dream by shouting, "No!" whenever the dream starts taking back control. Whenever I went Lucid in the past, I would focus on my hands to gain clarity in a dream but after going lucid for a few seconds, I would just go through the motions of a dream but doing it consciously. So I told myself that in order for me to have more control over a dream, I would tell the dream, "No, I don't want to do this," no matter what was happening in a dream. For example...

Last night, I went Lucid out in my parent's driveway. To focus, I stared at my hands for a little bit. Then I look left and I look right. Last time, the dream took me down the dream to the left. But this time, I decided that I was going to go to the right. So, I start slowly trying to head down the street to the right, taking my time. My goal was to make the dream last longer and just take in my surroundings. The dream kept trying to make me run down the street, and whenever I realized I was moving faster than I wanted to, I shouted, "No! Slower!" and I would slow down to a walk again. It was just a way to make sure I stayed focused and stayed in control in my LD. I was happy that it worked and it also helped me stay lucid longer.

I remember I wanted to go to Cherry Blossom Lake, but I've never teleported in my dream before. So I asked the dream, "How do I create a portal?" A little voice responded in my head, but it was so soft, I couldn't hear it. I asked it to repeat itself, but it was still too soft. I asked one more time and I could barely make out, "You need a cane." So, I created myself a cane to walk with. "Now what?" I ask. It tried giving me more instructions, but the voice was so soft, I couldn't make out the words. So, I just asked, "Can't you come show me instead? I can't understand what you're saying." So the dream sent Jennifer Garner, dressed beautifully in a glittery green dress (like a personal Fairy Godmother) to help me out, but along with her came a horde of other DC's. It was like a block party. There was popcorn and hot dogs and drinks! Everyone was there to learn how to create a portal, so I didn't get the personal one-on-one training with Jennifer Garner that I wanted. She went over some basic instructions, but because there were so many people demanding her attention, I couldn't ask her for more details. I finally found another lady--heavy-set, black--that gave me details on the instructions. She told me that I had to draw two vertical S's--SS--and two horizontal S's over that (to create a wiggly-like tic-tac-toe board) and then mentally focus on the image.

By that time, I'd even forgotten why I wanted the portal, or even what these S's were supposed to be for, but I was there to follow the instruction, so I found a mirror to draw over and I created the pattern and tried to focus on the image. As I was looking at myself in the mirror, I remember thinking, "Man, this LD is lasting a very long time! I'm surprised nothing has woken me up yet!" All of a sudden, I hear my boyfriend fart in his sleep beside me, and I wake up. -_-

maybe FA or just start in my room:
i sit or lie on my bed. my room looks nearly the same like my actual room but the ceiling and the floor looks like the one from my old room. i notice that water is dripping from the ceiling. "oh no" i run and get a bucket and put it under the leak. i think to myself "damn thats not good and what if the whole autumn it will be raining?" i notice another spot where it leaks. the first one is now not dripping but running water, like a lot. "oh shoot..." i look down on the ground and see everything is wet even under my bed. i look up again and see that my clotheshorse is up on a wardrobe and the water is not running right into the bucket but through the some of the cloth and the water gets therefore redirected right next to the bucket.... i go and get the clotheshorse down from the wardrobe and put it next to the footboard of the bed where surprisingly a second clotheshorse is standing around. Everything is wet. i turn around and want to keep going to rescue my room but look up where the wardrobe was standing but now see a blackboard with some math stuff like COS and TAN and so on written on it really clear and bright. "wait a minute...." i do a nosepinch and see that i am dreaming "Thank god my room gets not flooded" i leave my room and go into the corridor. i rub my hands and instantly know my goal: Teleport away to a nice meadow with a tree so i close my eyes imagine the scene, my head is falling a litte to the back and i open my eyes again. "hm no meadow" but my eyes are messed up. it looks a little bit like squinting. i see from both sides or with both eyes my center of my face. i see my nose and my upper lip. but other than squinting i dont see anything around blured but i mostly see my face and a very small spot surrounding. i see on the left site a mirror but i cant manage to move myself in the right position to see myself. the outline of the apartment is the same but as far as i can see the little spot i see it looks like a different apartment. i rub my eyes like hell but nothing helps. hm what would you do if you have broken eyes? how do i fix that? i close my eyes and start moving around with waving my hands around so i dont run against something. i suddenly need to smile because that must look very stupid. damn it, i think, when i cant see anything atleast something nice to touch: i reach out my arms and i expect to touch every second a nice pair of boobs . i move some steps but no boobs. i open my eyes and they start working again. "ah you just need a distraction" i go back to the corridor still not seeing 100% perfectly but good enough and thinking what i could do. suddenly i hear the sound of closing the supply cabinet and i wake up (the sound was within the dream)

-that was an interesting experience. i liked it that i didnt wake up just by that after the teleportation did not worked or my eyes were broken. next time when something like this happens i just can try to teleport again, i mean i need to close my eye therefore anyway soo^^
-and i think its always interesting to see what makes you lucid. not the whole water thing even if our apartment is in the middle of the building so no rain and not the clotheshorse on the wardrobe or the second clotheshorse no the blackboard^^

So in this dream I'm not really sure if it is Lucid or Non-Lucid so I'm not really sure, I had control but very little did 2 RCs but don't now if my brain was trying to trick me

DREAM:
I am in my kitchen standing next to the fridge looking at the cabinets. I said to myself, "So this is a lucid dream?". I tried to preform the first RC but my brain was not quite comprehending, I shoved my thumb into the palm of my hand but I couldn't control my head to look down at it, It didn't hurt it just felt like I was lightly laying on the palm. Then (I couldn't move my head or legs) tried another RC, I tried to slam my hand as hard as I could on the counter top, and I felt nothing though the counter was stopping my hand in it's tracks, I never felt the pain from Impact. :END DREAM

My question is: Was that a Somewhat Lucid Dream or a Non-Lucid Dream and my mind is attempting to trick me? I don't remember more to the dream, like what happened before I was in the kitchen or after. Comment your thoughts below, I need to know if this was Lucid or just a Hoax... Thanks! It really does worry me a lot. (If this helps, I was taking a 4 hour nap when this happened.)

I was submerging slowly into darkness. But it wasn't total darkness. There was something moving in it. My vision went more elaborate... moving objects were people. I was flying, gliding slowly above street, large buildings were standing around it. It was night. The street lamps were shining with bright yellow light. I felt unsure. I felt dark, wild, dangerous emotions targeted on myself. I needed to push feeling of fear constantly away... that feelings were trying to attach onto my consciousness.
People walking on the street were dark. Not dark as in skin colour or clothes colour, but they felt dark. They emitted darkness from themselves... It looked like black aura was around them. When they felt I'm there flying peacefully, pushing darkness away from myself, they all started to converge to my position. I felt oppressive force engulfing my consciousness.... I tried desperately to move above, to be unattached to what I saw and felt. It functioned somehow, not fully, but strongly enough. I flew directly through those people... and I left them behind, I was gliding faster and faster into peaceful darkness and losing slowly consciousness falling into dreamless slumber...

Remarks
*It was late when I went to bed, I wanted to see nice drama in TV. I was tired and I programmed myself to be well slept in 4 hours (to go to work), which I managed, even if I felt to be slow the whole next day
*I didn't try to exercise my relaxations, I only let my mind slowly descent into slumber maintaining consciousness.
*Subjectively about 10 minutes long experience

Quick WBTB 8mg galantamine 500mg Choline

#476 - DEILD - 4:33AM

I have a FA and go to the bathroom. I have the unusual bathroom weirdness and wonder when I woke up. I am looking at websites on my phone and realize I have no memory just before this. I am distracted with multiple popups filling my screen. I wake slightly.

I notice my headache from the previous day seems to have come back but I force myself to relax into a DEILD and I flow right back into the dream state with vibrations. After a moment, I get up and rush outside. The dream is really unstable and I try forcing things to come into play. It's cold outside as I move off the porch. Suddenly, I hear a child crying. It sounds like like my son. I remember worrying that we would wake up and ruin my LD so I am not sure if I can really hear him or not. It's way too dark outside and I can't really see. The crying gets louder and I am convinced he's coming into the bedroom. When I wake up I hear a phantom sound of the crying as it fades away.

I am annoyed I let my mind trick me and I relax back into DEILD.. The vibrations start up right away and I am stuck in SP for a long time not really getting anywhere. I switch to visualization and things start to form more easily. I am not walking in my fully lit house thought the dream is still a little dim. My cat's appear and I spend a little time playing with them until the dream gets going. I notice that I still have a headache and I am very distracted by it. I am on my hands and knees and I hear my wife loudly stomping into the room. I look up and she bends over near the couch. I think about sexy time but the dream fades away. My head hurts too much to focus on DEILD again.

I have some wakefulness because of the headache but it seems to ease after awhile I and eventually hit WILD.

#477 - WILD - 4:56AM

I am in quaint little house almost like a hobbit home. I see the rabbit from Alice In Wonder Land sitting in a recliner. He notices me and begins to run off screaming about being late. I get excited and say, "Lets see how far this rabbit hole goes!" I quickly follow him through a confusing hallway and outside. It looks like my neighborhood and the rabbit's house is where mine should be. I follow the rabbit into a version of the empty house next door. Everything looks like it's made of old, weathered decking material. It's wet and rainy in here and my feet are bare. I can't ignore how unbelievable cold my feet are. Suddenly, I recall that I put my feet out early because I got hot, but now the fan is blowing right on them. This thought process wakes me up and indeed my feet are way too cold! DAMN! I was having a cool dream!

Got to play catch-up with the DJ!

#455 - DILD - 10.27.15
I watched several episodes of iZombie just before bed.

I am surrounded by zombies and I am having a hard time killing them. I only have this tiny object to stab thier skull. It just wont work. I try to think of something better. Suddenly, out of desperation, I realize non of this is really happening and I must be in some sort of dream state. I didn't mentally verbalize any of this. I just knew I was invincible in a non reality — a low level of lucidity. So, I did the first thing I could think. I am the stronger zombie. I begin biting into the closest one, ripping chunks of flesh away. I take the time to notice there is no taste. There is only the sensation of biting deep into something that feels like foam rubber. I wake up.

I feel myself going lucid, like an energy going up my body, I feel like I'm "falling" in lucidity but I suddenly feel a weird knot, like something close to my stomach, a ball forms? I wake up before I can totally get control of the dream.

I'm in a warehouse with my elementary school class, big windows in front of me show a field and some trees in the distance, sun is coming up. We start doing a dance and I somehow take over, leading it, everyone dances around me in synch except I'm doing different moves. It ends with me doing the Sun Salutation as the sun rises in a golden haze. Afterward I walk to a teacher to my left who commends me for the dance. I say that it wasn't too good, offering a far too simple view of native cultures as close to nature, a modern view imposed on them.

I follow a man with a brief case down a city street. We enter a large glass, modern hotel or office building. I think he's going to do something bad, like rob the place or extort money. As he does that I go up the transparent glass elevator. In the hall there is a bunch of people sitting and standing, like a reception for someone, or a party. I talk to the CEO, a young, handsome guy. He says environmentalist have put a bomb in the building. I panic, instantly accepting my fate. I'll die here. Then I suddenly gain some courage. Can I escape? I go down the elevator, almost out. In the lobby by the front door, sun is shining through the windows, I see a young woman in a white baggy t-shirt and a sign, an environmentalist protesting. As I exit I whisper to her "I agree with you."

I walk briskly out, the bomb can go off any second. As I cross the road and head toward the train station I hear a rumble, behind me a cloud of dust and chaos. I run toward the central train station, people are screaming and trams are crashing. Inside the train station, trams are crashing through the walls, and so are buses. I don't know where to stand, any false move and I'm dead. I stand paralyzed. A mutilated and almost blind bus driver comes out of the break room, he's been out of work for years but because of the emergency he can now work as everyone is now preoccupied.

I see a rat catcher that looks like John Goodman. He says he's killed almost all of the 5000 rats in the train station, but the remaining 800 left are as tough as nails, the fittest survive the longest.

Didn't write this dream down when I woke up so don't remember as much, but it was pretty cool.

I was at some award show, like the MTV music video awards, and there was a camera pointed at me recording my reaction to the performers. I didn't realize this at first so I was on my phone half the time and then when I realized cameras were pointed at me I pretended to look happy and surprised. They soon got bored with me and focused on some other kid. Afterwards, I somehow ended up in Taylor Swifts dressing room but I didn't know it, and she soon came in. Her hair was a lighter blond than it is now and her voice was higher than in RL. She was really nice and me and some other people were talking to her for awhile(wish I could remember what we said). Before she was about to leave, she asked me if I had ever been to her concert. I said, "no.. but I would love to go! That is.. if you're ever coming to Milwaukee" and was thinking she was gonna give me concert tickets. She said something like, "oh.. so you wanted to talk to me because you wanted concert tickets?" in kind of an annoyed but still nice voice, and I replied, "no, no, of course not! I'm just happy to talk to you! You don't need to give me concert tickets." And it ended with her saying something like she was gonna talk to one of her managers to hook me up with tickets.

In a DEILD, I started to wake up from a dream and felt funny, so knew I was dreaming. I was outside of my house with Dani. I walked around a bit and then decided, for the millionth time, to try to summon someone. I expected her to be around the corner, but when I walked around it there was no one. I think I did this twice. Then I shouted her name, which started to wake me up so I stopped and focused on the scene for awhile. I had no idea what to do so I jumped up in the air to fly but only made it like 10 feet then fell back down. I couldn't remember my dream goals so I just kinda walked around for awhile until I lost it.

edit: ok, NOW I remember what my LD goal was. It was a goal I was very excited about. Darn. I have to repeat the goal before I go to bed so I remember it.

Fragments + LD 🌸

With Z she is explaining to me she is an aborigines tribes woman and she has to go back to Australia. We are with a tribes man and I look at him or a while - his face is long and slim he has piercings in his nose,ears, neck and maybe other places ...as I do my best to take him in I wake up with his piercing eyes borrowing in to my memory.

With Z again - she wants me to give up my job and go and do a meditation retreat. I say it has to be the right time and that is not now. I show her I am looking after a young boy - he is very undernourished and has tattoos all over his poor skinny little body ~ I hold him close his skin is broken in places with what looks like exma he has had very little care and love and always been in trouble ( a roughe of a character it seems 😕 )realising I have become so very fond of him - like he is my own son - I have only thoughts of wanting to help and love him but others may misunderstand- I hold him close as we skate ( me on skates seems to be a Dream sign I am unsure of using in daily life as I havnt skated in years around laughingly passing by Wonderfull country scenery.

We find my mum and she shows us her plans to build on to her house and I love her ideas -
"your so imaginative " I say and Hug her strongly
I can see us all as a family enjoying her creations of pools and saunas and relaxing sun rooms.

As I walk away I pass a group of 4 DC's sitting chatting - one starts to show me where a bullet went in to his belly and then came out at the back - then he even puts his finger through the front and wiggles it as it comes out the back near his spine!!! I am shocked and look closer - yes there is a hole but no blood or anything .... Is this possible??!! - ha ha ha know what's happening 🌠

" This is a dream - 100% dream " I say Laughing in almost disbelief of the scene of these 4 strange but friendly folk sitting in front of me...

I look again at them as the fact that it's a dream settles in more and more
As I watch the main Guy facing me I see that his head is almost flat and I get carried away looking at his face morphing into different shades and shapes in front of my very eyes - Amazing⭐️
" You are all in my dream - its like you just helped me to realise it! Why did you help me?" I asked the morphing head guy who seemed the most aware of me.
" Can you tell me why are you helping me ?" I asked again intently watching the face maybe a bit too intensely ...

His face morphed finally into space completely and I woke up with the image of his distorted face dissolving into the space it occupied - wow 🌞

I am noticing a dream sign of people's faces... I want to find a way to use this in WL perhaps when I am with people ( I am with folk conversing a lot during my WL for days are generally people occupied whether it be work/social ) Maybe when I am looking at people I can make it a reminder to RRC and RC ⚡️)

Late for work in WL- gotta go🌠

The dream transition to another scene. It became a lot more vivid to the point where I got lucid. I began walking over the grassy hills hearing someone engaging in a conversation with another person. Observing the sky was nice since it look unusual with a brown color.The entire area including houses were all made of grass. I felt like I was waking up and going back to sleep since I could see the room I'm sleeping in at one point and the dream again. I could see a cave all in grass next to me and thought thats where they were. I could hear a man say he is only 45. That's when I wake up in the room I am in hearing someone flip through pages in a book. This however was an FA and then I really woke up. Lucidity Time:15 seconds

The first night back into trying to have LD's and I sorta succeeded, yay! My recall of this has slipped a little bit but here we go.
1: I was helping my mum do something about the American election on the computer, there was some really dodgy propaganda videos playing.

2: My class and I were in China, Shanghai I think, and we were all waiting outside a big, old, fancy building. A couple of policemen came out and asked some of us to go in, so we followed. Turns out they weren't really policemen, but employees inside what appeared to be a sleazy brothel sort of place. We stated chatting with some people as the rest of the class came in. Some fights broke out and somehow our teacher got co-opted into a fight to the death with their champion. We all sat down in stands and watched as their champion, wearing a metal gauntlet, stepped out. Our teacher came out and the two began to fight in a boxing ring. I'm not sure what happened with the fight then as the dream sort of dissolved.

3: I was on my computer, thinking this was waking life, when I decided to do a reality check because why not. Surprise surprise, I was in fact dreaming and my fingers slid through my palm. I sort of confirmed this was a dream by swapping in between feeling my dream body and real body and telling myself to remember that I was in bed, but I still had lowish level lucidity. Anyway I sort of reformed the previous dream and then took the place of my teach. This time however my opponent had full metal armour, a shield and a mace, whereas I just had fists. I danced around for a while, avoiding his swings, until I had a plan. As he swung the mace I blocked on the inside and slapped it out his hand. This meant he was free with his other hand to punch me, so I dragged that hand in so the gauntlet was digging into me, but I held it in their as I flipped the visor of his helmet and proceeded to pummel his face. After a dozen punches or so he fell over,but the cost was great as I had a great big gash across my stomach where the spiked knuckles of his had dug in.

After this lucidity wobbled for a bit and the scene changed, but I regained it and shot a fireball off at my brother (lol). The scene changed again so I was outside my old house. I regained lucidity and then started flying, the first time I've managed it in a dream!!! It felt fantastic as I soared a couple of hundred metres above the ground, but I don't remember much after I landed as the dream and lucidity dissolved.

4: Just a fragment about being in a park and helping two women with a baby. It was almost infused with Skyrim so I used a weapon to try and kill an animal to loot it but was having difficulty.