lucid

I start off in an early dream about my Grandma. I am aware that she is dead and is wondering how she is here. She is in a bathroom and I see her face. It looks like her and then she comes out of the bathroom from what looks to be a shower and enters my room. She lays down on my bed and I have no problem allowing her to do so. After sometime my Grandma turns into Mr.B, an elderly man we took care of IRL who has now passed. He was a completely different story. He was arguing with me about something and I took my notepads, drawings that I was working on and got out of the bed that I was now back in. For some reason I was thinking about the time where we, me and my mom, had to change him and he would fight with us and try to grab his nasty diaper. Glad that didn't happen. But I did end up seeing him with an open, one in his hand.

After that part of the dream I find myself in a new dream that had chained off of the one I just had. I'm still laying in bed and it is a whole new ball game. Instead of the lit room I was in with my Grandma, I'm now in a very dark room, laying on my back. There is a voice narrating something scary but have no clue what it is yet the place began to feel cryptic. I am like 1% lucid and think about one of my toys, Omega Supreme being on my back to activate an arousal dream. I felt something appear on my back but I knew that it was not him, it just felt way too light. I seen a scary dead tree branch appear above me and it rested on my shoulder.

Now my lucidity has increased much more and for some reason I was thinking about Ironman and was in some kind of place with white lights and a school feel. I,m with a person and she is very strange acting. It seems like she is out of it a lot and I had seen her before. She can get very confused and get lost. So with my lucidity slowly increasing I needed to do something bad in order to get Ironman to come after me.

I take her to a gym full or people and allowed her to walk around, away from me and get caught up in the crowd.

It works.

Ironman appears and I can see that he is child sized and I run from him. I go through some double doors, down a hallway, looked back and can see him standing there looking at me with his fists balled.

After that the dream shifted and I find myself back in my bed and was now fully lucid.
This is where things get real. I get the impression of Ironman and thought that I had a big costume of him in my closet that was also child sized.

I got up and I'm at my recent place near work drive and it was in the middle of the night. Everyone was still asleep, good. I' ll go through the side door, which is on a landing, going into the basement. This was also shared by my neighbors and so I had to watch that they were not coming down here. I heard some foot steps still up, but no one came down. I went outside and there, from in a brick ally way seen Ironman. He was waiting on me and came after me as soon as he saw me. I seen his detail, he was in his red and yellow variant and had the round circle on his chest.

He flew down towards me and I ran down a street. It is night time and there are headlight illuminating the place. Othe DCs appear around me and somehow I got far away from Ironman. It was no big deal, he called on his dream vehicle which was yellow and looked like it was the vehicle that the bountyhunter was in, in Star Wars Episode 2. as he came after me with it, it changed shapes and the front part of it was now shapeless and flat and by the time I looked at it again, it had turned into an icecream stall that had a light on in it and people in it. I asked did they want ice cream and they went in and got some and gave me some. It was good. Ironman busted through the stall with his new car, which was dark in color and sleek looking. He got out, pointed at me and motioned me to come here. I shook my head no and he charged. It is getting daytime and barriers were appearing and blocking paths to try and make me get trapped. They were dark colored walls and there was two people with me who always follow me. I told them to stay close to me if you don't want to get hurt and they nodded and agreed to do so. I leap out of the way just as he flew pass me and hid in the barricades. He then flew up on top of a building and for some reason thought about him being robocop and said that Cain is better then him and will always win. Ironman looked down at us and he jumped down to us I thought about the time when he shot the lasers from his hands and was nervous about him using them on us. I ran diagonally across the street and over to an opening in the walls and called the other two to come. They tried to follow me but they were cut off by blue fire and realized that he had a flame thrower and someone had gotten caught up in it and fire went onto the walls and spilled out into the road. I realized that where I was he can easily trap me here and quickly got out just as he tried to block me in. He swung around and some more DCs came and distracted him.

I then seen some kind of a white box up against the wall in front of me that looked like a small washer. People was doing something to it and I made him mess up, hitting the dial thing out top and saying, yes to myself. I began to hear a beeping sound that got higher in pitch and got quicker and realized that it was a bomb and I dun fucked up. I ran as the people tried to disable it. Failure to do so resulted in a very bright flash and loud but fake sounding explosion and saw some kind of thing on the wall right behind it, representing the explosion. It looked like it was foil moving to make a very 2d and fake explosion and heard who ever got caught up in it yell out. I stood rather close to it, unharmed.

I was a girl, I got sleepdarted by Ana from Overwatch. I woke up to a lesbian on me wanting to get it on, but I was not in the mood.

My dream transitioned to my highschool going to BlizzCon. I didn't remember the details of the con but it was apparently in New Zealand and we had minor earthquakes before we left.

The bus stopped at a mall. We looked around, I separated from the others and looked around by myself. When I walked out my dad was there and he complained that I took so long looking around that it was midnight. I was about to come up with an excuse when I realized he's my dreamsign, and I became lucid.

I had a false awakening and my laptop was on my bed. It was on Facebook with a video of an African American girl with a white family, who claimed that they are her true family and she ran away from her dark-skinned family, and e comments were people talking about how racist she was, and also some people talking about her name was "Gental" which sounded funny because it sounded like "Genital"

I woke up. I did reality checks. I fell back to sleep and had another false awakening, and I accidentally astrally projected.

My dream transitioned to me as Dr McNinja from the webcomic Dr. McNinja, with an older ninja who was dressed more like Rambo than a ninja. We were fighting against all of the enemeis of McNinja, under the leadership of an alien luchador a la Darkseid, with Frans Rayner as his right hand man. He sent an entire city's worth of soldiers and police at us. I didn't recall all the battle's detail but it was awesome, with us skirmishing throughout the city by jumping on cars to make our getaway and ambushing checkpoints.

We took out the police and was about to make our getaway, when Frans Rayner called us and told that McRambo got a nuke in his shoe and we won't be able to get it far away from us in time. We panicked a bit but then I took him up a tall building and we dropped his shoe, then we run like hell.

We survived, and celebrated about how we will escape now, but our noises drew the attention of Space Luchador and Frans Rayner, who were right above us all along in a helicopter, and we were just mutually unaware of each other earlier.

My dream transitioned to me talking to someone about the setting of Dr. McNinja. I claimed that in the Dr. McNinja world, nearly all popular fictional characters coexist. I saw from a third person view a bunch of characters on a ferris wheel, but the only two I remember were Stitch and Reuben from Lilo and Stitch, except Reuben was a shapeshifter in the shape of Stitch but with his yellow eyes.

Beverly game

With pack of classmates we were playing some video game. It was night, we were running around Beverly Hills, seeking monsters. First we entered some factory and went down into some basement. There was a huge furnace surrounded by small hybrids of humans and bats. I drawn my pistol and shot, backing off to the exit. I was back in the streets, I entered a car and drove away from there to some park. Then I was ambushed by more monsters.

Water zombies

I was walking around a city. It was noon, horrible heat wave hit at that time and people were always carrying some water with them. A strange illness turned people into zombies, but instead of human flesh they longed for water, trying to get it desperately. It was calm back then when I just roamed the streets. Seeing that my water was running dry, I asked some chubby man wearing a pale brown shirt, black shoes, jeans and glasses. He had brown hair. I asked him if he could give me some water, as he had a canister with him and I had only a small bottle. He refilled my bottle and I thanked him, but as soon as I took a few steps away, people from the crowd and man with canister turned into water zombies. I ran, chased by the crowd.

False awakening + MILD, ToTM attempt

I woke up in my bed, it was dark all around in my room. I thought that there's something not right and made a nose plug reality check. I realized that it's a dream and went out of my bed. I immediately thought about task of the month. I left the room and through the hallway I went to the kitchen. It was dark, I looked at the light bulb thinking about light and it started blinking. I waved my hand at it and it lit up properly. I thought about an advanced task, the one about pulling head through ground or floor. I lied on the floor and tried to push my head through it. I had slight problem at first but I managed to push it through the floor, and saw just ground that my house was standing on. I got up on my legs and thought about DC showing a dance. Suddenly a black man with white hair, wearing a fancy smart entered the kitchen. He started singing some nonsensical song and dancing weirdly. I woke up.

+ LUCIDD 221 LD#221 Skiing competition, I'm starting out skating style my right foot is not properly attached. Doing loops on a track, small, the snow is partially melting with bare/watery spots. Back to start there are two women standing there. I keep going (I forgot to do something?) head into tiny elevator and get to the top, this is the wrong place there is a covered top tower here with a man. In order to get the elevator to move I have to turn a tiny dial like on the back on a small alarm clock. Get out at the mid level and I'm on a platform overlooking a wide plaza below. There are a few people standing a few steps away from me and lots of people walking around on the plaza. A girl is standing right in front of me she starts to turn towards me and I see she's wearing some lipstick, I grab her and we start kissing and I want to stablize the dream and hold the kiss. I keep my eyes open and look (while still kissing) down around on the plaza and see the people walking below. It's a nice kiss and I'm starting to feel some sensations in the (ahem) area, I make a sexy comment to the girl and wake up.

14-Nov-2016 - ND: Wife's old phone + My cousin A

I am with my cousin A, we're outside, running barefoot on a sort of "race". When we have to go upon a stairway, I leave the mid high steps (like an arena) and instead choose the left stairs.
I am looking at a phone, it's smaller than my personal, it's not the company, I rationalize I am using my wife's previous phone (!! - it's broken)

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16-Nov-2016 - ND: Tabletop game, hug my babies + WILD Highway skate, Forest, Underground Cathedral, climb building, the sick one

ND - Tabletop game, hug my babies
I am outside, I am playing a tabletop game (?) with two more people, a board and some parts are placed on top of a blanket on the ground. I see my kids approaching I hug them, play with them for some time.
When I turn back to the tabletop game, people have moved to playing cards while waiting for me.

WBTB 3:30AM, ~1hr + MILD -> No visible effect, just some ND which I forgot anyway

LD - Highway skate, Forest, Underground Cathedral, climb building, the sick one
WILD, 6:30AM, ~1hr
I start by taking a walk with C, a friend, nothing special happens, foggy part.
I am skating on a jammed highway. I zip through cars and trucks (remember very well a big, white truck)
I stop on the side, there is a forest, I walk though it. I touch trees and rub hands to stabilize dream, which kinda works.

After some more walking, I encounter a low fence, ~2m long, surrounding a light grey, spikey structure.
I am able to move the fence aside, but see no immediate way to interact with the structure.
Then, I just grab it from the bottom on one side and flip it open, like a trapdoor, revealing a dark stairway.
Needless to say, I descend it. I summon flames on my left hand to light the environment, but it mostly remains dark.
At the bottom of the stairway, I find myself in a enormous space, with many pillars reaching upwards.
I shoot some fireballs to some close pillars, to have a light area around.
It's dark and I cannot see the top of those pillars. I shoot a fireball amoing the pillars, and see it become smaller and smaller until it disappears. This place it's so big it seems having no top at all...
My body quickly shivers at this grandiosity.
Unfortunately the dream quickly loses stability. I see a glimpse of an altar with candles on top - I sense it was going to be the Demons Lord's house - but dream fades and focus returns to my body.

I still think I can keep myself inside an LD. I surrender myself to whatever will appear next.

I am outside of an entrance to a building. I see a small lawn with a white carton among the grass. As soon as I focus on it, I lose it.
<JUMP>
I am in front of a wooden entrance to what seems a Japanese temple ?
<JUMP>
I am in a small road, there is a group of 5-6 people chatting, one just joins them. I walk around them, the road looks Eastern too, only people, no vehicles.
<JUMP>
I am in the back seat of a futuristic car, someone's driving. Many tall / glass building around us.
On the road, I notice the back of a tall and very slender girl with fuxia sport clothes and a ponytail, walking away from us.
The car stops close to an alley. There is some trash. I use my hands and feet to climb the brick building next to me. I reach a "terrace". I jump out to reach a small metal chimney, which for some reason looks extremely vivid.
Then I jump back to the wall, climbing it Spider-man style again to the top.
<JUMP>
There is a sick man laying down in front of me. He's wearing some heavy / mountain clothes. I look at his head, it's resting on one side, I don't recognize his face. I remove some of his clothes, looking for wounds, but I find none. I pass my hand close to his face, bringing him a white light, which should most likely heal him.

Wake up at 7:20AM (alarm is 7:30)

I slept about 4 hours last night, because i had to wake up early for an statistics exam. In regards to the exam i did good, in ten days i will know if i passed, if not in December i will have to take it again. When i came back home i cooked some pizzas, as "breakfast" and then i went to sleep. (Curiously when i eat pizzas before going to bed then i wake up with throat-ache).

I slept 4 hours of nap, completing a 8 hour sleep total during the day. I dreamt with the following:

I was in my old house (of about 10 years ago) got lucid in my bedroom. Lost lucidity because i had a baby to save. Then went to a study room. I decided i would go through the glass door since it was a dream. I got through, got lucid again. Then i went to my bedroom again, and i realized i was wasting lucid time so i went to an area where there is a lot of light in the house. I saw the ceiling and it got bigger and bigger, making it better and better to fly. When i was about to fly my younger sister came angry, walking fast, shouting why i turned off the dream music. I was going to say it's my dream also (thinking it would it might just be a DC but nevermind), i jumped to a desk, and tried to jump and fly off, but i couldn't. I realized that her shouting to me got my attention, and because of that my dream control decreased a lot. I jumped like 5-10 meters high (in the dream it seemed like 20). I woke up after 4 hours of nap.

I was in a choir, singing in an auditorium. It is soon over. I am now in an orchestra I play in. I can't find my music. Suddenly I see that my desk partner is on both sides of me! I do a reality check, and I am dreaming.

I announce that I am attempting the Lucid Task of the Day which is, figure out 1% of 5. It shows this on a plaque. I fail. I fly out. and arrive in my house. I try to find Candyland (TOTM) half-fearing I might instead find a girl called Candi. Nothing appears. I give up and try and remember the TOTY.
I remember it as : Be a unicorn and destroy a Snellkork (I remember it as a sort of intelligent mountain troll). I give up. I then have a talk to T about life.

I find myself entering the door of a house and see a man sitting in a chair. The house is not familiar to me so I begin to think I am dreaming. I walk to the man and he says hi son and since I do not know this man I am positive this is a dream. I replied with hey dad and made myself home to the kitchen. I sat down with a drink and began reading my test scores that I got back from school. Looks like I'm in school again, what a pain. My scores were looking terrible and decided to not show my new dream father it. I could see that in all the times the paper stated my name it was incorrect.

This slightly annoyed me because most of the time my name is prenounce incorrectly due to it being very uncommon. I notice that one of the names that were suppose to be mine were in numbers and that didn't make any sense. I decided to drop the paper down and close my eyes which is my usual reaction to feeling dumb. I then regret it as I couldn't open my eyes anymore. I could feel the dream environment changing and accidentely woke up.

Had a dry-spell and broke it suddenly by doing SSILD + Mantra. So I began seeing through my eyelids and knew instantly I was entering a lucid dream. However, during the transition I attempted to get out of bed and I felt that I was not 'deep' enough into the dream so kept doing SSILD cycles throughout the transition.

I lost lucidity and fell asleep.

Oh well. At least my dry spell was broken, almost.

this morning lucid was really enjoyable. i am pretty bad at inducing fantasy stuff so for me it was kind of a big success and a good educational experience.

i have a wbtb of around 30min because my GF has to get up to work. we talk shortly, i get up for toilet and put on my sleepingmask and my earplugs [wax --> very comfy and silent enough when tight]. i lay on my back and decide to do some progressive relaxation (i normaly dont do) i see that my mind is not too focused but i continue as good as i can. i then start doing SSILD. since i like the idea of tactile senses i decide to mix it with SSILD. i do some short SSILD cycles. first watching then hearing and followed by "feeling" but this time i do some imaginary movement with my hands. then i continue with watch etc. after the short ones i do long ones. after some time i just do tactile movements and it feels pretty good but i dont know if this is enough to success a WILD and to be honest i cant imagine how to fall asleep like this and....


... i stand in my old child room. i feel super stoned and wonder how come that its so early and i feel like this and what to do with the rest of the day. i go to the window and see my reflection. At the hairline i have super light skin where in the rest of my face the skin is darker. i wonder why so? did i cut my hair recently? i am at the verge to lucidity but i seem unconsciously to decide to wake up because i notice that i fall asleep.


i wake up and my body feels very heavy. i could go from here but i decide to turn to my side to have a look at my clock because i have an appointment later in the midmorning and i dont want to oversleep it. okay i have around 1,5h. this should be enough. i concentrate very lightly on sight i think and fall asleep very fast...


...i am outside with someone? [damn i should have journal earlier...] we go to a buildingentrance and a mail delivery girl comes. i hold her the door open and take something from her to help her. i tell her its no problem i can carry it up with her so we move up some floors and we talk about jobs and the earnings. i go down again and this time there is a moving stairway. for some reason one stair dont work appropriate and there are sparks and all. the broken stair moves into the floor and one can see that this is not good. i start running because i dont wanne know if it might explode or something.

outside i get lucid and i meet my GF (that turns later to a friend A.) and the mail girl. i tell them "okay listen i have two goals: 1. visit candyland and 2. let me teach by somebody how to do short distance teleportation. what do you wanne do?`" both girls decide for candyland and so i go with it and "candyland it is! how do we get there?"
we take each others hands and stand in a circle. i look down to the ground and we wave our hands once. for a short instance i start seeing some colorful things on the ground that might be some candy but instantly my rational mind kicks in "hey we didnt even teleport or changed location whatsoever..." and everything looks mundane again. we move around and the girls are in a good mood talking alot and jumping around. i still look out for some candy and instead of candy i see colorfull lights sparkling here and there on the ground. i try to hold the thought that we ARE in candyland already and all i have to do is find the right corner. i tell them "hey here is no candy..." and they answer "not yet..." and we keep going. we past by a christmas tree with some colored lights. the girls talk about some school stuff from the past i think. there is some not too pleasant metal/punk music in the background.
i remember a DV-Thread where they talked about expectation and the example of sivasion with the summon of a banana. okay so i pretend to see some candy on the ground and pick it up and put it in my mouth. as expected i see feel and taste nothing... nevermind i chew and chew and dont stop chewing and imagine chewing some chocolate and after about 10-15 seconds i suddenly taste sweet and "candyland" or my version of it appears. i start seeing some egg formed foiled chocolates inbetween some grass [more like eastern-themed]. and not only one or two but now a lot of candy on the ground. i move around and see chocolate easter-bunnys and little santa clauses and several more sweets. i taste some and feel super happy about it.



next to a building there is a big table and while i want to follow the girls into the building i notice the table and at the head of it Jesus sits there with some (2-4) people next to him. i smile big because now my "fantasy-Schema"-drawer seems to be opened. i jump over a chair and Jesus approaches me. i give him a high five and i think we exchange some words.

but nothing religious i turn around and another guy with a big beard is there that remembers me of someone but we dont talk and i enter the building , phasing thru the door.
and i awe again because this time two aliens approach me and past me. the one has purple and the other green skin. both have no hair and a little bigger and broader head. i smile around and move down some stairs. i approach a girl and say something to her but notice that its someone else. i turn around and see my two girls next to a showcase. while i move to them i think about how stable this dream is and that they still are here around. i hear them talking about some stone that are inside the showcase. something about if it is good or bad to take or use this kind of stones. i have a good mood and while they still debate about it i just phase thru the showcase and pick a stone on a chain outside. one of the girls that was against using the stone starts complaining and i phase my hand thru the showcase again and put the stone back. i look at them in detail. they look something like this:

with some chains or mountings and adornments.
i think about if i might use them as items for performing short distance teleportation? i say "hey girls listen stop this discussion i want to practice short distance teleportation. lets say i want to go there to the xY [i look around and try to find a pregnant location and point at something]" the girls laugh because i pointed on something else or called it wrong or something? "oh come on you know what i mean i want to get there how may i teleport there easy who can show me?" i think about my recall and how bad it would be if i lose something from it and instantly i wake up [damn it!]



nevertheless it was a very very funny and enjoyable lucid from which i can learn alot about expectation and that a typical "teleportation" is not necessary to change the dreamscene. and that if you once open a drawer with the right schema everything will work on its own! i would love to experiment more with it. maybe my excitement will endure long enough to make a smart setup how to practice and experiment with it in future lucids!

So this dream can seem scary and cruel to other but for me in the dream i could care less since i knew it was a dream but still acted along. Anywhoo, lets begin.

The first thing i remember in my dream was riding in the back seat of my dad's car with my big sister driving and dad in the passenger seat and im guessing it was Friday morning? Because i just got paid and i was heading to the bank before work and i was so happy cause of money! So i went inside the bank and there was a good amount of people, old people, mother's with their kids, adults and such. I stood in line and i was thinking to myself, 'why didnt i go through the ATM? I guess i dont have my debit card.' I didnt really care i was in a good mood. "Hey Alma!" I heard, i looked around to see my friend from high school Angel, he's a short guy, glasses, i knew him since 1st grade. I smiled, "Angel! Whats up!?" I said.
We stood there while wating in line to talk and catch up. Then we heard gun shots, everyone started to scream and panic. "Shut up!" A man with a mask said. He held the gun in the air, then started to point around at everyone, "Everyone on their asses NOW!" He yelled. We all did as we were told, everyone was scared and shaking but i wasnt, i knew that this was a dream and it isn't real, i usually act along but this time i sat criss crossed on the floor with the most bored looking face ever. I was kinda thinking to myself, 'This asshole had to show up while im here, the day i got paid, ugh im annoyed.'
I heard alot of honking and it was my sister and dad in the car, "Close those blinds!" The man yelled at a boy, the boy around his young teens got up and started to close the blinds, i looked my sister and dad and carefully signed(i made my family learn sign language) "Hostage Takeover", and "Get Help". They looked terrified for my life. But they understood, they quickly drove away. The young boy was having trouble closing the blind because he was too short to reach. The man was getting annoyed, "Hurry the hell up, you little f*cker!" He yelled as he shot at the boy's feet. The boy started to cry, the man was about to hit him.
"Stop it. If you where smart you should have known hes too short to reach!" I said while standing up. "Alma shut up!" My friend Angel whispered. The man turned to me, "What did you say bitch?" He asked. 'Ah shit, i had to open my mouth, dont care about the other people its a dream!' I thought to myself. "I mean i will close the blinds for him." I muttered. I made the boy sit down and i closed the blinds for him, i walked back to my spot and sat down again.
The guy came up to me and i looked him in the eyes, "Yes?" I said. 'Screw it, im annoyed.' I thought. He pointed the gun at me, and everyone gasped. "You got a smart mouth dont cha?" He continued, "Ima teach you a lesson." I smiled. "Go ahead and try." I muttered. He brought up the gun to hit me but i dodged it and head butted him in the nose, he dropped the gun and staggered back he was holding his bleeding nose, he saw the blood on his hands and glared at me, "I'm going to kill you!" He yelles and he charged forward, i used his strength against him and flip him over my shoulder. He fell to the floor with a loud thud and i ran to the gun and picked it up, i pointed it to the guy, "Now your going to stay there while we all leave." I said sternly. He was laughing and i was confused until someone hit me on the back of the head. I fell to the floor and the gun slipped from my hands, "Really bro? Getting beat up by this little girl? Boss gonna be mad." I heard the guy who hit me say.
I tried to get up but he stepped on my back restraining me. "I sgould have known you had little friends." I said to the bleeding nose guy who now got up and took back his gun. "Nah he doesnt work for me." He said smiling as he used this opportunity to kick me on my side. "And thats for my nose." He finished. I laughed loud, "awh still mad about that? I did you a favor, it probably looks better now." I said. He growled and kicked me again and again.
"Enough." I heard another voice say. I didnt look up but the two guys seem to know this person. "Boss, your here! We already got the money." One of the guys said. "Good, now stand her up." The boss guy said. "Her? Shes nobody, just a brat," the guy with the bleeding nose said as he stepped on my head. "A brat who put you on your ass, now stand. Her. Up." The boss said in a more stern voice. The two guys lifted me and i pushed them off, "Dont touch me." I yelled. The boss guy walked slowly towards me. Now that i actually got a good look at him, he wasnt wearing a mask like the other two but a suit? 'Who wears a suit to a bank heist?' I asked myself that while chuckling to myself. "Your laughing?" The boss guy said. I quickly stop laughing. "Your not afraid?" He asked. "Who the hell would be afraid of you?" I spat. He smiled. "Im going to take you as well." He simply stated. "What? Boss no!" The guy with the bloody nose said. The boss guy sighed, and swiftly took out his gun and shot the bleeding nose guy in the head, with out even looking. I gasped and looked away.(i always hated gore in my dreams) The boss guy looked at me a smiled big, "oh? Your scared of killing? But not of your own death? Well dont worry about that, you'll get over it, the first one is always the hardest." He said as he stood in front of me. I tried not to feel threaten but damn his eyes stared into your soul. "What do you mean?" I said. He didnt awnser me just smiled and snapped his fingers, then out of no where more men in masks showed up. "We're doing "that" again, get it ready." I heard the boss guy say to one of his men. Then in sync all the men started moving, some where forcing the people into the empty bank vault then some came for me, i painced as i felt one of the men grab my arm forcefully, "let me go!" I yelled as i used all my strength to fight, i punched and kicked but these men where more stronger then the other guy. I could only fight off two men before they pinned me down against a chair, they tied my arms and legs to the chair, i struggled to get out but i couldnt. "It had to be one of those dreams where I can' use my powers." I muttered. They beought me to the vault where the other hostages were.(it was kinda funny cause they just lifted the chair to take me to the vault and i felt like i was at a jewish party) The vault was pretty large, kinda long too, the people were all gathered at the back of the vault and i was set down on the other end of the vault opposite of the people. The boss guys men stood all around us pointing the gun at the people and me, at this point everyone was crying and afraid, i felt bad for them. I was lost in thought until the boss guy clappes loud. "Now! We are going to play a game!" He said to me. "A game called, suffer or end it." I was confused, I didn't understand what he was talking about. I guess he saw my face so he continued, He gestured to his men, and one of his men brought out a man from the crowd, he made the man stand a few feet in front of me. "Okay so heres the deal," the boss guy said, "Your going to kill him." He simply said with a grin. My eyes widen and then my head went back with a laugh, "And what makes you think im going to listen to you?" I said. The boss guy stared at me for a bit then grabbed my face forcefully and looked me in the eyes, "Because, if you dont, I'll torture his life and he'll die a slow and agonizing death, and if you dont want that," he continued as he put the gun on my lap. "Kill him." I looked at the man, he looked terrified but yet he was trying to be strong. I looked away quick, "I won't kill him!" I yelled. I heard the boss guy snicker, he walked up the man and quickly shoved his pocket knife into the mans thigh. He yelled a yell that made me flinch, my head hanged down as i heard yells from the man. "What are you doing?! Just kill me!!" He yelled at me, i just kept shaking my head, "I won't! I cant!" I yelled back. I kept hearing the boss guy laugh, after a bit i stop hearing the man yell. 'Finally its over' i thought to my self. But then i heard a old lady cry, i looked up quickly to see an elderly lady standing where the man stood. "Sweetie, its okay to kill me, i understand, please." She said. I started to cry and shake my head, "no, i cant please, dont make me!" I whispered. I looked away, but then the boss guy grabbed my head and made me look as his men torturing the old lady. "Stop! Please!" I yelled and i try to get out of his hands. "Take it all in, let it sink that its your fault these people are suffering." This went on for a while, hearing the screams and pains from each person, there was only about 5 or 6 people left before one of his men dragged out my friend from the remaining people. They stood him in front of me. And once again the boss guy whispered in my ear, "Kill him, end his suffering before it begins, you'll be doing a good deed." He said. I didnt want to hear any more screams, this felt so real and i just wanted it all to stop. Before my friend was about to be hurt, i said, "ill kill him, just please stop" the boss guy untied me from the chair and i slowly picked up the gun that was laying on my lap. I stood up and aimed the gun at my friend, he was crying, "please just hurry up and do it, its okay, ill forgive you." He said. My hands were shaking i felt scared but yet i didnt care, i remember that this was just a dream, "im sorry" i whispered as i pulled the trigger. My friend's lifeless body fell to the floor in a loud thud. The boss guy was laughing, "great! Now kill the rest of them!" He yelled. I quickly walked over to the remaining people and pulled the trigger one after another. I remember seeing thier faces of sadness but forgiveness. I drop the gun after finishing off the people and i fell to my knees, i was crying, alot. The boss guy came up to me and i looked at him, "I killed people! Im a murderer!" I yelled at him. He sighed, "Yes my dear, you are, you cant go back to your old life, your a killer and everyone will hate you, you'll be put in jail, your family will never want to see you, you'll be alone." He finished. I shook my head, "No please! It wasnt my fault!" I yelled at no one in particular. "But you dont have to be alone." He continued, i looked at him. "Come with me, ill protect you, ill give you all the love and company you need." He said with a sincere smile. I was kinda dumfounded, "i wont be alone?" I mumbled. The boss guy crouched down to my level and looked me in the eyes, "Thats right, be mine and you'll never need anything else." He said. I felt like I was blushing but I wasn't sure, i was thinking to my self, 'If i dont go with him ill be put in jail, everyone will hate me because ive killed people' I let my head hang down. "I'll go..." I whispered. "Im sorry darling i couldnt hear that." The boss guy said. I looked at him in the eyes, "Please take me with you!" I said. He gave me a big smile and laughed. "Yes! Finally, it worked!" He said happily. "Boys were done here, lets go" he stood me up and brought me close to him, "This is Alma and NO ONE is allowed to touch her, she belongs to me!" He yelled at his men. I for sure know that i was blushing then. After that his men distracted the cops and we got away, i think time passed and we were in a dark van and it was night driving somewhere, i remember sitting next to the boss guy with his arm over my shoulder, he was asleep. There was another guy sitting in front of us, he looked like the right hand man to the boss guy that I always see in movies. "You know im surprise you made it, the boss never picks out a girl." The guy said quietly. I looked at him, "what do you mean?" I asked. He smiled, "Every heist we do, the boss chooses a new member, usually a guy and does what he did to you." He finished. I thought for a bit, "He made them kill people like how i did?" I asked. The guy nodded, "yea, he does that and if they dont kill them self before its over then they become the new member as one of his men." He continued, "But he's never chose a girl before, well one time but she shot herself, she was weak, guess you got his attention." He finished. "W-will he kill me like he killed one of his men?" I struggled to ask. "Dont know, right now your like a pet, just dont get on his bad side." He said. I didnt say anything i just turned to look outside the window, looks like were driving over water? Wasnt sure, i was kinda mumbling to myself. "I kill people... And i dont even feel bad anymore...dont care about my old life..." Then i started laughing, i laughed so hard that the boss guy woke up, "why are you laughing?" He asked. I turned to him, "I killed people! And i don't care!" I said whiling laughing, "im crazy right? I've gone insane!" I finished. The boss guy grinned, "yes you are, and its okay! Embrace the madness!" He said. He suddenly hugged me tight, i was trying not to blush but i don't know if I was or not. "Your mine and only mine right?" He whispered. The one thing i said before waking up was, "Yes!" While we both laughed. Then i woke up.

Well this dream was a nightmare? But also a romance? Im not sure, i went along with it, i forgot it was a dream at times because it felt so real but whatever, i guess it was fun? Idk i have a bit of maddness in me lol well if you have any questions, please feel free to ask me. Until next dream~

I found myself in the old house I use to live in. I could hear yelling outside in the living room , so I decided to check it out. As I am outside in the living room I notice it is night outside and there were no lights on. It occured to me now that I shouldn't be here and I quickly suspected that I must be dreaming. Despite knowing I'm dreaming ,I didn't feel aware like I knew I am dreaming. So I attempted to turn on the lights but it did not came on. Now I knew for sure that I am dreaming.

I felt this huge wave of electricity zap around my head as I became lucid. I was glad but still like old times, the old back door wouldn't open when I would turn the door knob. I tried phasing through it but it still didn't work. After 4 more attempts the door finally open and I step outside. It was raining, but it was no regular rain. The rain was burning my skin and the ground was also burning my feet. Acid came to my mind, interesting as I begin to observe how my world is. I began looking through peoples window's and had an idea. What if I can make myself become invisible to others around me?


I wonder if I could perform this. So I believed myself to be invisible and walk to a near by store with people sitting around. I move a chair to see if anyone would jump at the sight of a chair moving by itself but instead a woman notice me and said hey. I in disappointment said hey back and walk off. As I am walking I notice a person lying on the ground unconscious in a elevator. The elevator look very risky so I attempted to get inside but it was almost as if these elevators were alive. It would quickly shut close and re open like some monster waiting to eat anything that dare to cross.

I made another attempt and use both of my arms to keep the door open but as I got inside I heard people caling me to come out. So I tried but it was a fight with this machine. I manage to geto ut as I hear the elevator blast off to some unknown place. I started wanting to test how my dream control is like now as I never was good at it. So I thought about summoning someone by random. I look to the ceiling of the store and thought of the person I wanted to summon. I turn around and surprise my brother appeared before me. I smiled and couldn't believe it just happen like that. I decided I wanted to summon someone else, someone a bit more rare for me. However as turn around my brother was um still there.

So I tried again and thought deeply about it and turn around to find my brother looking quite a fusion of another random person. It look weird so I wanted to make my brother look normal again and it happen. My brother look like he wanted to explore so I decided to explore with him but as soon as we started walking he dissapeared. I then continue exploring the restaurant thinking baout how long I can keep my lucidity and could feel myself losing focus. I forgot that I should touch objects and rub my hands to keep the dream flowing. But I manage to last another minute which is ok before waking up. Lucidity Time: 5 minutes

I was looking at the night sky in my back yard when I saw this peculiar planet in the sky. I called my friend over and showed him the object. All of a sudden, It became a cube with characteristics of a Nintendo Game Cube (color, specific shape, etc...)seconds later, It moved and flew right by us. We immediately tried to catch it. My friend helped me on to the chicken coup in my backyard to try and get it. While he was explaining the plan to me, I was thinking (which is REALLY weird in dreams, by the way) "I'm in a dream" over and over again until I was whispering it, and then saying it, and then shouting it, and then screaming it until I reached lucidity and decided to dance on top of the chicken coup. My first effort at using this to help me catch the UFO was when I jumped off, flailing my arms like a bird, It was only effective enough to send me gliding slowly. The second effort was when I jumped off and went flying like superman, which proved to be pretty effective. We kept trying to catch the UFO until my friend's little brother entered the back yard through the laundry room (which for some reason had a trap door that lead to it) in the corner of my back yard. I was like "Oh no..." shortly afterwards I woke up. AT 3:10 OR SOMETHING.

Sleep paralysis from dream by a teleportation. I had a dream in which I go to a some place, I needed to ask a permission, but I went there without it. On the walls were laser sensors, that have marked me. I knew that soon I will be found and was so ashamed. This place has no other exit but to go back, so I decided to teleport out of there, no matter where, closed my eyes and wished to teleport, and I appear in my body.
I understand that I was lying in sleep paralysis, lucid comes, no phantom sensations, no vibration. I decide to stabilize by rubbing hands, started rub them, which I haven't seen, but was a some vision, instantly felt the touch, sensation was unpleasant, rubbed them 10 seconds and felt that I get a stabilize. Has decided to move away as possible from the body, and I crawled on hands and knees, the vision was gone (simply get up out of body at then time for some reason I could not), I got down of bed to the floor, crawled to the window and at this point drew attention to awareness, it was almost like in real life. Further happened that I came out the window, as I climbed through the window or wall, and only after a vision appeared. I'm hovered in the air outside the window. I look into the yard, he is not such as in the real life, only grass beautiful soft green color and light mist over it, I say to myself "Astral Oh My God!" and awake! Apparently lost control of delight. Just wake up without sleep paralysis as if he was not. Fall asleep.

And had a long lucid, with ~50 percent of lucidity, but my mind was worked clear. When wake up I forgot many, write episodes.
Dreamed images of people and a lot of things, moving picture in black-white, place like a shopping mall. I was a immaterial observer, and I decided to imagine myself there to enter inside, I imagine that I'm moving there in the body, trying to move quickly to realize, as a result I appear inside with lucidity. It was the first place and I can't remember nothing of here.
Then I remember another place in huge lobby of some cultural facility, very nice, all in stone. Here were guy and girl with me, we are talking of something. At this place was an unusual sculpture, and this guy jumped on it soaring, did a beautiful flip, and landed skillfully on top of the sculpture. They said me to show something like that. I started trying to fly smoothly, began to wave my hands, and with spurts flew on the sculpture. I was told that it was so-so. After that I stayed with girl, she led me to another place, it seems we moved flying, holding hands.
The cave, light, white sand and underground river. There meeting, a lot of people, and the chief speaks, but I do not remember any of it, I was engaged in other observations are not particularly listening, keeping understanding that this is my lucid dream. Guide girl was still here. Remember I drew attention to the quality of dream, in this place picture become worse, appear dimness, unrealistic, gaps in perception. I restored the quality by concentration, peering, and touching sand on the ground, sensations as in real life. I saw the laptop and there is a message, I read, it was not the words, but sets of letters and meaning I could not understand, then I turned away and looked at message two more times and each time the order of the letters changed. I saw cookies and eat one, it seems tasty.
In the cave wall was a passage, I go into it with a man. We come in the some hall, in the twilight, on the floor a very beautiful golden carpet. And why we have started the fight on the carpet, as if sparring, without anger. He defeated me, hit me in the belly so that I could feel slight pain and knocked the breath. At the same time I kept understanding that it a dream.
Last place, I was at some apartment, there a woman, she immediately began to chase me, with something in her hands, I ran to the kitchen and jumped on the windowsill. Stand on it and call for help, "help me <name>!, help me <name>!, help me <name>!" sounds like a song. Then I think that's so stupid to call him because of such nonsense, I folded hands as in prayer and begin to say, "forgive me <name>, that I called you because of this, I'm sorry <name>!". I could not run away from this woman, and awake.

Morning of November 13, 2016. Sunday.



I find myself in an unknown and unfamiliar area but which is near a public venue. An older male of about sixty is standing near the curb and preaching. He talks about the nature of God as if he is some sort of messenger. However, he seems very mundane and yet also very artificial-sounding, uneducated, and bland in his claims.

Over time, he mostly goes on and on about how he sweats for God. He makes the claim that only people who are chosen by God can sweat large amounts of sugar. At different points, sugar falls from his arms as he performs his sermons. After a time, I get very annoyed and tell him how a person cannot sweat large amounts of sugar crystals from their body. This makes him even more confident about his apparent mission.

For a time, he walks around on his hands. As he does, very large sugar crystals seem to fall from his arms and legs. However, I am aware that, when looking closer, they are just coming from the creases in his clothes. He does not seem to be sweating at all. Still, the sense of the continuous falling of the sugar and the motions of the cloth is very vivid.

My wife Zsuzsanna comes up to me and, since I have had enough of the “preacher”, we walk from the curb to some sort of commercial building. The hand of an unknown unseen female comes out from a dark doorway of a business and hands me a business card. They seem sincere in their approach and seem to understand that I know the preacher is just an irritating fake. However, I am aware the business promotes New Age concepts relating to finding out what one’s past life or alien contact is and thus is also nonsense. Even though I do not need the service of this business, I accept the card without being rude.

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There is possibly an association with “sugar-coated lies”, though there was an obvious influence from a song I like, “Climb the Hill” by the Fixx, with “To me you’re inside out and upside-down” and “Bible thump posturing won’t turn me ‘round”. It is also unfortunately based on a mentally ill male who used to write mindless lies about me (and other posters) on a dream journal site and his own website. I would not even know where to begin with his nonsense. He writes compilations of his “beautiful art” related to his abuse, falsehoods, and stalking of other dream journalists under the “guidance of God”, while pretending to be a man from the future praising himself, and that is only a small part of it.

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