lucid

21:30 put on my new blue-blocking UVEX safety glasses, wear all the way to bed time. People with chronic bed-time insomnia report these help better than sleeping pills. I don't have bed-time insomnia but figure every minute of getting to sleep faster is more dreaming during the night and better rest. I also wear them for WBTB where I need to turn on some lights.

23:00 100mg 5-HTP hoping for REM rebound and deep restful sleep for first half of night + bedtime

Prepared 2x4mg Galantamind, 1x300 choline bitartrate, 2x300mg Alpha-GPC
No REMee tonight, in anticipation of long BTB after taking the G.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-05 LD #36 Galantamine, TOTM

03:47 alarm, took G mixture and banana (to ensure pills actually hit stomach, and get some additional energy to brain for epic long dreaming)

04:45 wide awake, take 0.3mg melatonin to help with getting back to sleep

05:44 not sleeping yet, feeling a bit hungry, eat 3 small corn tortillas with about 1/3 of an avacado and small glass of milk, to prevent staying awake from empty stomach rumblings and to provide fuel for anticipated epic long LDs.

Lots of HH: mostly faint dark blobs flashing in front of my eyes. A few HI: 1) a box of breakfast cereal on a shelf, 2) a newspaper with a headline, and 3) beautiful blonde shepherdesses with some goats in a pasture.

07:45 somewhere around here finally fall asleep. Indulging in stimulating daydreaming too much. Finally stop that and put full sleep relaxation kung-fu into place. Try hard to enjoy where I am, "not trying" to sleep but just float in relaxation. Somewhere in there my thoughts finally subside and I sleep.

+ watching TV and I knew the time on the TV was wrong, it showed 03:00 but I knew I had been up for hours so it should be more like 07:00

+ TV show: (scene from the Sopranos?) Two guys in some sort of tropical hut open to the outside, one guy is saying "we're done for, they're going to find us", the second guy (in Hawaiian shrit?) is important (Tony Soprano?) I'm pretty sure they won't wack hiim, another guy walks in from the left, I focus on him, a somewhat hazy gun is in his left hand he's holding it up pointing it into the room, then somebody off-screen to the left shoots him (the one with the gun), he has no shirt on, I see the bullet shoot through his body, entering around his right side mid-ribcage and exiting from the middle of his chest, bright red blood starts gushing in a stream from the entrance wound, his face goes slack, his hand starts moving slowly to cover the entrance wound, I think that won't help at all because if he covers it up it will just start gushing from the exit wound.

+ wife tells me something and I respond like it doesn't matter (because I'm dreaming?)

+ I'm in a cluttered room in a random house. I'm reaching for a large round cookie tin at the top of a tall cabinet (raided my folk's extra freezer for a tin of frozen brownies yesterday IWL...mmmmm, frozen brownies!), I grab it and am bringing it down to me, and my mantra hits for no apparent reason, "I'm dreaming..."...HEY! I AM dreaming!". Quick nose pinch confirms it, I can breathe! I try to put the cookie tin down on the ironing board to my left but I miss and it falls to the floor, for a brief instant I consider picking it up but I laugh at myself and realize I shouldn't give a sh*t cuz this is an LD and just turn away from it heading to the right. Feel unstable, vision is fading to white, I instantly rub hands. I rub them and feel for them and look for them, this always works wonders for me but not today, I feel them but can't see them. I try my full-body pat-down but only get a few pats in before stopping, I see my dream body a bit but I'm still in vague whiteness. I "bring out the nukes" and spin around counter clockwise for a while [I haven't done this since LD #1!] still in whiteness, I wonder if I'll end up somewhere different, I stop and I'm back in the room. I continue forwards out of the room, there's a small hallway there with a darkened room to the left. What should I do? TOTM! AH! Shots with Angelina Jolie! What is the other task??.....ah ok, the force, I think I'll start there it's easier, just TK something as there's nobody around, I look around and see some notebooks lying on the ground at my feet. I take a few steps backwards into the room I started in with my eyes on the notebooks, hold out my left hand and will one of the notebooks to come to my hand, AND IT DOES! Woohoo, first mindful TK. "That's awesome" I say and toss the notebook back down where it started. OK, SHOTS TIME! I start thinking about Angelina and begin working up a summon for her, but I wake up.

5/5/14* Epic for me!..the part I am referring to starts at the ocean/beach further into the first lucid (blue) section. Got a great balance of self-awareness and dream environment attention and vividness! Weirdness induced second night in a row, but this time intentionally. This may be too personally felt for anyone else to get it. Also I was getting HH's while wife was getting up to get ready and there are only two of us in the house but I could hear the door closing on the other side of the house at the same time I felt my bed bouncing a little bit like when someone gets in or out of bed and that was a little bit freaky but I took it as HH's and I stay calm (which was it...was the bed movement or the door closing the HH...or both? ha ha!). Dream: We are in a big group seem to be traveling and we are in like a passport or visa line in Paris (the dream tells me this but I am not sure how, perhaps from earlier in the dream) but I am disappointed to see that we arrived in one of the suburbs and at first there is a huge line I see over to the left and I hope that that is not the line we're getting in but no we are dropped off to another place. There doesn't seem to be a line and we just have to go down this series of stairs, more and more stairs until finally I'm in this line but it is an amusement park line for some ride. It is a train of 4 to 6 cars each half-dome shaped with space for two. I've lost everyone except for one girl that is with us. But then I notice that I got out of line somehow on the exit side of the ride and the ride operator wouldn't let me get back on with the person I was with so now she was on the ride and taking off and the ride operator said something smart and I got upset at him and I thought it makes me just want to punch the guy and as I think about actually punching him I realize wait a minute that's a dream-like scenario taking control and punching someone and I realize I'm dreaming and I think about the musical performance task of the month and how I had already planned on doing it, but first I punch the guy. So I start playing air guitar and I the guitar appears and then I started doing air drums imagining the song by Phil Collins "I can feel it coming in the air tonight" I forget the title. Everything goes fuzzy but the crowd, I can start to hear the crowd getting louder and louder forming around me and there was already a crowd in the line of the ride but then I imagine them cheering and continue playing the drums and I am having a blast when I feel the dreamscape fading and I remember to try to spin and I fade into the void. In the void I tried to go back to where I was, with me performing, but nothing was happening fast enough so I remember my old reliable happy place, an ocean beach. As I imagine the scene I can start to hear ocean waves very gentle but repetitive rolling in along with seagulls calling and I patiently wait and it feels like I'm starting to float in slightly undulating water and I decide I don't want it to be too deep I want to be close to shore so I can explore the land and I do feel the water shallow...success! I feel the water up to my shins and the scene appears around me it is a grassy ocean with long green something not really kelp but it looks more like thick green grass and it grows above the surface of the very calm waters a little bit maybe half a foot or so and at the edge of the short beach (or high tide) it is like a big ruins wall with an arch opening in it and a column rising up from it up to the right. It looks like what remains of a wall or maybe the façade of a structure. It is maybe 50 yards wide (~50 meters) and maybe 25 or 30 yards high. I decide to fly up to the top of it and have a look around on top of the ruins. At the top of one smaller column I take a closer look and notice that the bricks are made of thin layers of tiny bricks joined together in sheets almost, kind of like reddish adobe clay perhaps, each layer is very intricate there is what I estimate to be about 10 little bricks going across one way with a thin connecting layer between each and then I guess that it must be about 10 going across the other way but when I count I get beyond 12 and I think that there are a few more than that and this layer of connected bricks looks to be only about a quarter-inch thick and it is pliable and I'm kind of messing it up like it is not dry yet and I decide to move on. I fly up over the wall and there are so many miniature things, toys and what not and I fly over to another ruin wall and stop and then fly down again to take a closer look there's this one set of toys that is all in an Arabian theme. There are several guys on camels and they look like royalty, nicely dressed with attire hooded over their head as you might expect from some Arabian tales and not dissimilar to the wise men typically seen in a nativity scene. These are very nice figurines. They were obviously set up in an array perhaps like a kid might set up to play with but neatly or like set up for a museum miniature display. These figures look like they were a good 12-18 inches tall or so. I'm really loving this and decide to keep exploring and go past one of the other ruins and it becomes like a room with a little window box on the far end and more displays inside there. I think about whether or not to fly or phase into that window box display thing but I just think why?..it could cause complications for the stability of the dream. I turn around and there are so many different things in this room and as I head towards the door-like opening I see there is a big glass display case like a curio cabinet and I can see part of my reflection and I notice I'm only wearing underwear and I say well let's see what my thing looks like in this dream. I pull down my underwear and it is kind of a retracted and not much 2 speak of...more like a child's. This dreamscape is so fascinating (and I think that it is some kind of representation of my child-like fantasies of exploring ancient ruins and also the imagination that went along with playing with toy figurines when I was a kid. This was a feeling I recently recaptured when doing the open beta exercises. It is like how when you were a kid you could look at an area under a bush and imagine it as a cool world for your figurines to play in or for your toy soldiers to fight in and I think that is how this world came to be even though I started off imagining the beach and got the beach with the grassy ocean.) As I go on through the door-like arch the dream feels like it is fading but I decided not to fight it because I don't want to forget all of the details of the dreamscape I just explored or the dream before with me performing musically. When I woke up I was quite pleased with myself, and though it may not sound that interesting to many people, it was utterly fascinating to me and I absolutely loved it! It felt like playing somewhere in my subconscious! I can imagine that this is one of those dreams that may only mean a lot to me. I also don't want to consider counting it as TOTM completion because I have more I want to do with that task and I am afraid I won't go back to it if I already have the wings. Awesome fun! 142

Never put last nights LD in my DJ:
5/4* (copying from the TOTM post. I was on a cruise ship vacation in two different dreams this night but only including the TOTM related one here.)

Had an attempt at advanced ii...but I am most happy with my self-awareness during the LD and also breaking away from my typical LD slant (though that kind of sexual thinking helped me realize it was a dream).

I am back on the cruise ship and I see some movement involving a woman in this big glass windowed room/atrium and I think about going in but then it occurs to me that this is a dream scenario for me...I might be...I must be...yeah...I will float up and prove it to myself. Sure enough I float up maybe 20 feet in the air and think that this is a great location to do the musical performance task in front of a large audience on a cruise ship. (Dream control poison removed to protect the dream schema of the innocent). I am now flying over an odd version of a vast ocean. Instead of a realistic ocean it is very light blue for as far as I can see in all directions with symbols in a symmetrical pattern throughout. The repeating symbol was kind of like a yin & yang symbol but with a dolphin on one side and a graphical representation of a wave on the other. I try flying in different directions and still thinking about how to find a large audience and I tell myself that I will begin seeing a city. The seascape starts to change but instead of starting to see a city I suddenly find myself in a large dark, dusty room with a fireplace mantle on one end and a few decorations hanging around it and several old dusty chairs sitting on the right and left side of the room. I find this very interesting to have such a drastic change in scene and look around in amazement. This place looks most like an abandoned retirement home and I feel like this room is probably the recreational room where they would play bingo and what not. I decide that I can still make this work, I just need to summon a bunch of people like I did in last months TOTM, but I tried to summon everyone in with one idea. The idea was that I could hear the crowd building and cheering flowing into the room and I could start to hear it when I felt the dream quickly dissipate. Perhaps I should have brought groups of people in, one at a time, like I did last month thinking I may have tried to do too much at once or perhaps I was coming to the end of my REM anyway. 141

22:10 bedtime, 3mg melatonin hoping for REM rebound in morning, looks like it worked!

03:14

+ in frozen yougurt/ice cream shop I'm at counter a man (and woman) clerk are on the other side of the counter the man is to the right, a woman with a child arrives to my left into line. I'm fumbling with my wallet and money, I'm choosing what to get. I'm trying to see what flavors are available. I ask "what's in that one?" and the man offers me a cookie, I say "no, what's the flavor of that one." It's a mixture: cookies, bizet, caramel, chocolate, he says "the flavor is whatever you put in there", it's not really an ice cream more a dessert mixture, you're supposed to add ice cream to it. I notice that while I've been choosing a long line of people has built up.

05:32

very long series of dreams including a lucid

+ in a car with wife, I'm driving, driving on a road, which is a narrow shelf between a hill sloping up and to the left and a river off to the right. I see 3 animals on the hillside to the left we're approaching them, one is a small orange fox poking out of a hole, and there are two other animals above (1 below) the fox. Immediately after that I see a mother rabbit holding back its baby rabbit with its teeth so that the baby does not jump into the road. Just after that I see a hedgehog walking slowly across the road I don't want to hit it I maneuver the car so that the hedgehog passes between the wheels, I turn around and look behind me out the rear window to see if I hit it, I see the sandy road but nothing else.

Going farther forwards I miss a turn-off to the left, now I'm concerned because this road is narrow and there likely will be nowhere to turn around. I eventually do encounter enough room and turn around. I'm thinking the next time I'm lucid in a car I shouldn't bother with just simple flying, I should summon a Star Wars hyperdrive control and use it to launch myself into a random place deep in space in the galaxy and just turn it off randomly and see where I end up. I think several times about pushing the hyperdrive control to do that.

Approaching the turn off I missed earlier I look up the hill to the right and see city buildings, I think this is the right road and keep heading towards it.

+ With wife fixing something at an outdoor maintenance place, my wife is pumping out water, I'm just standing there watching, 3 guys come up and do something. I see two blue backpacks on the ground against a wall, I think they're mine, I start touching them, the 3 guys get upset I'm touching them, they're their backpacks it turns out, I say "excuse me" in a foreign language. They're still looking at me I say "well I said excuse me." I'm concerned they think I'm not a native because I speak their foreign language with an accent probably. I tell my wife we should get out of here because I'm nervous about these guys.

Then I think hey I'm a man I should do the work, I get down and take over the pumping. It's a bicycle hand pump, and we're pumping the water out from another (stand-up pump), so I screw the stand-up pump together with the hand-pump. We have a sleeping bag/roll spread out on the ground under the pump. These guys are pumping out water over on top of our stuff through a tube of water, over our bags, etc., I'm moving their water hose to the side away from our things it keeps coming back. I keep adjusting their hose and finally make it stick in a better position.

While pumping I look down closely on the ground and see a big frog/toad. I say "Hey, froggy!" I see it close up. I hold out my left hand and it jumps onto my hand. It's gooey/squishy, think I may catch something from it so I turn my hand over and plop it back to the ground.

+ leaving a museum with my mother can't find her, I realize I don't have her cell phone, I think "I want my mother!" I'm carrying a lot of packages, a woman clerk is helping me get out, there are people in my way, I'm pushing through them. Outside there are a lot of people standing around, and there's a guy with glasses who looks a lot like TZ, I think it's TZ at first but I look closely and decide it's not him. There are several guys who look like him. He's teaching a science lesson to a group he's leading.

+ Standing inside my childhood home sister's old bedroom (where I'm sleeping IWL this night) and TZ (really him) is standing also, he's there to collect his things. I look around the room and I see pure white walls, I say "hey did they paint the walls of this room recently?" Then I get a fake memory of them painting this room. I don't know if I should speak to TZ because we've (IWL) had a falling out. Now we'rd both just heading down the stairs I'm in front, I"m still trying to decide if I should speak to TZ. I decide we've been family friends for so long I should say something. I turn around the look up at him and say in a friendly voice, "Hey, how's it going?" He gets upset we're walking down the stairs, he sticks his elbow out at me and says "what you're really doing is this" (his gesture, meaning I'm keeping him at a distance), he's insulted that I"m even trying to speak to him. He's really rude. He keeps waving/poking his elbow at me to brush me off. I'm tremendously offended and upset by this. He goes out on to the deck via the back porch, I go into the kitchen and look at him standing on the deck through the kitchen window. He's with his new girlfriend and I want to set things straight with him, so I go to the back porch door and look out but he's kissing her so I come back inside and say "oh never mind". I'm looking for something in the refridgerator and there's some kind of a book club meeting going on in the house.

+ standing in a sporting good store, talking to several young guys (brothers) and their father, I say if you're working out (with weights) and build up some muscle you'll feel good about yourself and you'll have better luck with the ladies. But the most important thing is confidence...confidence, and .... (can't think of anything else), just be really confident. One of the guys says "but what if they don't choose me?" And I say "Well, you know, then YOU go and choose THEM, be confident and assertive." These guys all look the same and I'm kind of creeped out by this and leave.

Then I'm walking down climbing under ground through very short narrow openings. I have this idea, "Oh, no, not the Jared's again" (they're the guys I was just talking to in the store), "I'm tired of dreaming, I just want to have some restful sleep (and I'm lucid). I'm continuing through the area. I look into one room with huge fat old naked swollen women (like monster ticks or cows), I say "Hello, ladies!" and keep moving on. I continue on walking and come to an open area in a mall, a cosmetic/perfume area. A girl is sitting at a desk to my right. I look at her, she's young & attractive, I say "ok," and walk up to her, while I'm walking she suddenly appears old. Then her face becomes fluid and unclear like her face is switching between many different faces very quickly. I will her to be young again and she is young. I stand her up from her chair with a hand on each of her shoulders and say "OK, come stand over here" and I put her a bit to the left of the desk, on the first step leading up to another part of the cosmetics department. I put her there so I'll be able to embrace her easier. I start getting the waking up feeling and I instantly take several steps backwards away form her saying "Oh, no" (with inflection like "I'm not going to allow this to happen, no way" ). I recite my sivason dream yoga immunity to shock mantra, "My mind controls my reaction, my mind controls my reaction." I step up to her again and I wake up.

08:06

another grand adventure

+ I was with some people and I wanted to show that I was Captain America. My costume was down in a back room, with other giant hockey jerseys lying on the ground. I summoned the Captain America bouncy ball, a child's small bouncy ball (1/2 inch diameter) painted with the emblem on Captain America's shield. I felt things in my pockets and I wondered which pocket I should check. I decided that I expected to find it in my left pocket and reached in and pulled out the ball! The ball I knew has the poweris that if you hold it up against a dream character's head, they do exactly what you want them to do. It takes all the work out of DC mind control. I showed this ball to a guy and I joked that I would throw it and it would fly around the corner into another room and that it would give me control over one of the cute girls in the room.

I was returning to the jersey room to return my costume and the ball and I come across a strange table circular saw with many wavy saw blades built into a cube frame. In a closet there were about a dozen replacement blades (3D) for the saw. Kind of looks like a room fan. I think this is a safety hazard since someone could walk into it and cut off their leg accidentally.

So much going on hard to remember it all.

With a group of people, in a room, we're travelling somewhere, we're on a quest. I'm sitting behind one of the girls in the next booth, behind her, and I move my face up to her right ear and nuzzle against her right cheek through her hair trying to put a move on her, I say "are you concerned for your parents? It's OK because Captain America is on our side and he will help us."

Our group is in a car, we approach a large open expanse of water, it is night, I'm sitting in the back seat of the car. We need to get over to the other side of this lake/ocean. There are dozens of highly bizarre ferry boats and water vehicles in every direction ahead of us. Someone (my sister?) in the car says: "isn't it funny that in dreams your car can always driver over water?" (we're already heading out on to the water in the car. I'm looking around, the view is fascinating and bizarre. To the left I see a 3-foot tall Tyrannosaurus Rex about 10 feet away wading through the water. I exclaim "Hey guys there's a 3-foot tall dinosaur to the left! It's a Tyrannosaurus Rex!" Nobody responds. This huge slug-shark thing with a long body and shark-ish face is approaching us I yell "Step on the gas, the shark-thing is heading right for us!".

We're across the water and it's day time. I'm racing up the stairs heading into the city with one of the group. He's on the stairs I'm on the hill to the right of the stairs. I think this dream is long, I can't wait until I wake up and can compare notes with [my stair racing friend], since we're shared dreaming (fake memory), I want to see if his memory of this dream matches mine. We reach the top of the stairs and we need to find the alligator statue to prove this is the right city. I think where it will be, to the left or the right, where should I expect to find it. I choose the right, I turn there and see strange painted emblems on the ground, I think I say "I've found it!" but my friend says no that's not it. I look into the city and it is covered with billboards and banners, all written in (what I think is) Itailian. I say 'Look the writing's in Italian this must be the right place".

So, after some things happening here and there (I'm skipping them as this is an entry for the small LD), I suddenly realize I'm dreaming.

I'm in a room, either on a rented mountain house, or a rural hotel, but I was looking at a wonderful mountain view, with people walking around. It's a huge window with a big glass. Everything is crystal clear (or that's how it looks like), full of colours, and I'm once again amazed to how nice and perfect does the brain create this dream-world.

I don't know why but I didn't do any RC. I think that even if I was lucid, I was somehow trapped on the dream, like "drugged". I decided to jump out and fly. When I stepped outside, I saw one of those alarm-control boxes on the wall, with a disconnected orange light. I turned it on with my mind, as some kind of RC.

i have my shoes on but laces are not tied. I decide to tie them, but as I'm doing it I think I'm just losing precious time, and look away trying to remove the feeling of loose shoes, and pretend they are tied up. I can't remember if I did it or not.

Next thing is a nose-pinch RC before jumping, once again I think "it's really amazing how I can feel I'm holding my nose, but I can breath!". I jump and start flying in horizontal. I scream in joy. I move over some small paths with people walking around.

I reach an area with a couple small buildings. There's a shop, and on the reflection I see myself, but I'm walking, not flying. I think "it must be because my brain is used to see me walking...", and then I see another guy flying around. This is really stupid, but on the dream I though that maybe it was some other like me having an LD.

I wonder how many time more I have left because last time I looked at the clock it was 6.30, and alarm hits at 7.00am.

Then I "wake up", but I'm on the street. I notice nothing weird and fall for the false awakening. I drink from a bottle of water (as I alwas do with the one I got next to my bed), but I think that maybe it wasn't a good idea keeping in mind someone else could have used it "while I was away".

Then I wake up for real.

Since my last lucid dream I have been actively trying to wake myself up during a dream so I can become lucid. I have found that it seems to be something that takes some practice! I've been thinking about lucid dreaming a lot during day to day activities and doing some 'reality checks' to test if I am awake.
In this dream I was walking through a dim narrow corridor with a work mate called Raechel. There was a slim middle-aged man wearing a blue/grey shirt bald with glasses who was telling me to constantly question if I was awake (something sunk in haha!).
I walked with Raechel through a doorway and looked down to find that I was holding a cup. I became lucid at this point and tried falling backwards and spinning to stay in the dream. When I looked up from the cup, Raechel was gone so I looked back to the doorway I had walked through and called out her name. Then I turned to the door in front of me and called out "Rose", the name of the first girl who I loved and who broke my heart. (I am currently trying to get over her in my real life). I touched the walls of the corridor and discovered they were covered in snow so I wrote in large, looping, connected capital letters "ROSE I <3 U" before waking up to write down the dream.

#312 - DILD - 3:38AM

After that first lucid I go ahead and decide to WBTB since I needed to pee anyway. I spend some time looking at the stars unpolluted by city lights while enjoying strong peppermint tea. When I tired to sleep I found myself really wakeful but I had very strong HI. I entered several dreamlets but when I tried to form them into WILDs I lost them. At one point I think I dosed of and felt the very early stages of vibrations. I thought I could wait for it to get a little stronger and let the usual sensations slip in but I lost focus and fell non lucid for a while. I probably should have tried an RC but I really thought I had that one. Oh well, It didn't matter because I later had a really vivid DILD.

This dream seemed much longer but the earliest I could remember is that I am having some conversation with an old woman while standing in the alley behind my house. There was a lot of distracting abstract imagery but basically she was washing clothes in an old metal tub and hanging them on a line. I had some items in my hand that are hard to describe as I was talking to her. She was lamenting about being a bad mother and parent. I told her not to worry because Emily turned out the be a good person. I say, "See? You are a good granny." When I say that I look up and see a long skinny tornado bearing down on us. I shout, "SHIT! RUN! EVERYONE GET INTO MY BASEMENT!" There were other DC's milling about and we all start running to my house. Suddenly it dawns on me that this is all a dream and I remember that I had a tornado goal once that I never completed.

I stop running and turn around to face the tornado. It looks a little jumbled up but I don't give any thought to that. As the twister hits me, I am lifted up high into the sky. I see nothing but thick cloud as I gently move in a wide circle. I enjoy the feeling of it as I try to look down at the ground. At first I don't see anything and worry that the white void will overtake me. I apply the same tactics that I did in the first LD of the night with the dark void. I peer into the nothing while thinking of the times that I've flown in waking life (always at a window seat). A break forms in the cloud vortex and I see small houses below me. I didn't realize that I was so high up, but I have a thought and take a little control. As I will myself to be higher, the swirling clouds close then open and I see the houses look even smaller. Satisfied, I let myself gently come back down and find myself on my back deck. I look around once and see the tornado again. It gently picks me back up but I decide that I've had enough and I am put back down again.

There's a slight memory gap here but I think I started talking to some kids in the front yard. For some reason I say, "Watch me fly around the house in one breath." I rise up and begin moving around my house but it's more like I am swimming or I am an astronaut in zero G. Either way I am moving way slower that I thought. I look down and see the children running around, jumping and looking up back at me. I hear shouts of excitement and laughter as I slowly float over them. I'm not sure, but I sort of feel like I am really holding my breath now. I worry that holding my breath will wake me and I decide I'll never actually make it in "one breath" so I go ahead and deliberately take a deep breath and return to normal breathing.

As I continue around my house it turns into some sort of tower like structure with an added exterior roof around like it a doughnut shaped porch. The color of the house has gone from white to pink with white trim. I find this all to be really odd but I am committed to circling my house... or whatever it has become. As I almost reach the front, I find myself now inside the house. I there is now a window and a door in front of me. I think about phasing out the window but decide to go ahead and just open the door this time.

I am now alone in my front yard walking toward the street. There is a small red sporty car, sort of like a Miata but more Corvette looking, parked on the street. I pick it up with one hand by the back bumper and absentmindedly carry the car with me as I try to think of something cool to do in this dream. Realizing what I did, I let the car fall down in front of me and jump on top. I briefly consider going for a drive but, nah, I've done that so many times already. Then I remember my old pirate ship goal. I decide that I've handled the void pretty well all night, so maybe I could induce it to actually teleport. I shout out one of the "shanties" from AC4: Black Flag. My voice did not sound like my own but an exact copy of the soundtrack in the game. I either close my eyes or the void came but I stop walking and fall to the ground. I reach in front of me and imagine the feel of the wheel of a ship. I feel some mild sensation on my hands, then gradually it starts feeling like it should. I begin to hear some sound but that when I suddenly wake up.

#311 - DILD - 12:48AM

I had these two lucid dreams while camping last night. I'm really excited about this because this is the first LD Ive had while camping let alone away from home. So awesome first for me!

The first one was a surprisingly long early LD which has been really rare lately. When I went to bed I was mildly drunk from earlier that evening. I did have some prebed peppermint tea mostly because it's just good and melatonin to help me sleep as I felt a little wired up because it was an early bedtime for me. I was shocked to become lucid even-though I had lucid dreaming on my mind, but I suppose it was a combination of light sleep, heavy ADA (for the past 10 days), and prebed goodies. I had totally planned a WBTB to enjoy some night time star gazing while I drink peppermint tea so I really wasn't trying to get lucid in the first part of the night.

I don't remember how this dream started but I find myself completely lucid in my ex-in-laws house. The feeling is that I either had a false waking or had a in-dream WILD. I am in the living room looking at my ex's mother, Karen. There are two kids running around that I assume are my daughters. I have some dialog and I'm feeling very mischievous. Karen seems to be afraid of me and wanting to ignore me. I told to say that she was a bitch. She repeats the line, "I'm a bitch." I find it amusing but the expression on her face kind of ruins it for me. Seems like a dumb mostly lifeless DC so I lose interest. I try to phase out the front door but the void over takes me so I go back in. I float around the room roaring and growling at Karen while she cowers on the recliner. I see her ceiling fan is on and I grab it as I float past. It flings me her direction and I take the opportunity to troll on her a little more. I land with my crotch in her face shouting "TEABAG!" Karen now looks like she is about to cry and this makes me feel a little bad for the whole thing. Feeling half crazy, I decide to control myself and leave. I have some fear that this entire dream will be in a place that I'd rather not be so I become more determined to leave. I remember that I wanted to work on my phasing so I chose to try to phase out the front door again. This time with purpose.

The same thing happen as last time but now I use the darkness of the void to form the front yard and driveway of their property from memory. It's familiar enough in my mind that this was an easy task. As I look deep into the void thinking of what I should see, the first image that forms is the wheel of the blue truck they once owned. I latch on to that and the rest clicks together. Things don't look quite like waking life but I let that go. There is some privacy fence and I think that I see my ex's brother out of the side of my vision. I turn my head to look as I run to the street but no one is there. When I look back in front of my there is a slight feeling of dizziness and the dream gets a little momentarily unstable. Not wanting to give power to instability and making it worse I continue on as if nothing happened.

I wander the neighbor by doing long slow hulk jumps to get around. Things looks mostly as it should but I felt directionless and lacking any good ideas. The only goal that I could recall was wanting to invent and terrorize other nearby campers but that was only if I had and OBE lucid. I become amused when I remember that my body isn't really in this place. I'm actually in a tent in the woods asleep! I'm also excited when I remember this is the first camping LD. I land on a rooftop and survey the area. I am now at the main road/intersection. I decide that maybe I could terrorize someone nearby.

There's a slight memory gap here but I think I must have spotted a lone woman walking on the street because the next thing I recall is running up behind her. I tell myself that I am monster. No. I'm a vampire! I feel myself grow powerful and larger. My nails become claws and my teeth grow. When I get close enough I bite down hard on the nape of her neck and suck. But instead of the flow of blood, I feel warm feminine skin on my lips and the suction is like I'm giving her a hickie. I become aroused and close my eyes as I put my hand in her crotch.

I stop myself from letting this continue like it is and leave the woman. I have a thought much like a daydream in the waking world but see the scenario play out before me. The woman who was only mildly attractive doesn't die but becomes a super beautiful vampire. We have a sexual connection because I was the one to turn her. We are now in some lumber yard. I watch from the shadows as she quickly turns three men to vampires. I become angry when I think that she now has a sexual connection to them. Jealously? Was lucidity slipping?

I jump on top of a large stack of plywood an begin looking for the woman to confront her on her actions. I find her on another stack and jump over to her. She goes into a low crouch as I move in close and I pause when we meet. Her face is in my crotch. I realize I am still aroused and she surprises my by opening the front of my jeans. I enjoy the sensation as I close my eyes. Again, I realize what I am doing and stop it before I have a wet dream.

When I open my eyes I am now standing over a toilet in some type of outhouse made of plywood. I turn to leave and I hear a woman's voice, "Yeah... that's a huge one." It sounds as if she was responding to something someone said. I recognize the voice as OpheliaBlue and assume I was listening to a DV podcast the whole time. I am totally confused now and wonder when I stopped listening to the first part of the conversation. I feel the earbuds in my ears and I strain to listen to the other person speak. What I get is the voice of one of the guys from GetLucid! US. He says, "One on water. One on water. One on water." I struggle to make sense of what he is saying as it turns to, "One to one. One to one." Then it becomes more garbbled like, "wonnaone" and "wonnawomanone" as I slowly wake up I realize my son had started snoring. The sound of seemed to match the pattern of the man speaking in my dream. I had to laugh at that.

My dream started off with me and this blonde with glasses trying to get to a train that's supposed to take us somewhere important. Finally making it on the train I think I left that guy behind. But when we stopped, everyone had to get off for the lay over. The guy reappeared again and was walking with me down a fashion strip. There was a group in a car following us making fun of the conductor and us. The conductor goes on ahead and we continue to talk about things that I don't remember. Suddenly beautiful white dress start appearing. I even stop for one them really excited. It was a strapless dress with slanted ruffles. Going back to the train it leaves us there, we tried running after it but never caught up. Then my dream changed, I was in CVS with aunt waiting on my brother and then I woke up.

The farthest I remember back, I was in my room. I realized I was about to miss the bus (a common theme in my dreams as it is a prevalent fear IRL), so I frantically got ready and left. A few things were odd. My dad's girlfriend was there and they were both awake. It was morning, but it was dark (coulda sworn it was nighttime before). There were more people walking outside than there are usually.

I got to my bus stop in time, but the bus drove right past me and almost hit two people. I went to chase it (in retrospect, I'm surprised I could run in a dream), but I realized it was not my bus. As I walked back to my stop, I figured this was unusual and did an RC; lo and behold, I'm dreaming. I feel myself become lucid and I hop into the air. I'm intent on having a world of fun, but the person next to me starts attacking me, making it impossible to concentrate, so I wake up.

* I go to bed, and as usual, play some Sudoku (hard level with diagonals) to fall asleep. I let an empty piece of paper next to my bed in order to write down my fast notes. I slowly fall asleep while holding the pen and Sudoku in front of me, I close my eyes...

- I see a sinking ship, then I decide it would be a great idea to write down this sort of imagery I see at the beginning. I turn and start writing about the ship...

* I realize I'm still holding the Sudoku and pen in front of me, then I turn and start writing some fast notes and go back to sleep. I leave the game and pen on a side, put my self comfortable and close my eyes thinking perhaps it's a good idea to start writing this fast notes since the very first moments...

- .../then if my brothers have the same chip, I must have it too...
- .../and it's because of they hit the like button just for the first seconds of the videos...
- .../I'm hearing the fast riff part of the song "It is Done" from Mors Principium Est...
- .../I see someone shows me a red thread cone to explain something I'm thinking. The cone is very sharp...
- .../two carpets together. One green and the other gray. There's a polishing head that cleans one of them. I see the heads spinning exactly in the border without touching the other one...
- .../long ago I want to update my DV signature with a spoiler with my dream goals. Perhaps I have found a way to remember these ideas that pop up from time to time just when I'm falling asleep and I don't remember during my WL...
- .../Hey, I can use the orange color for HH to write this in the DJ!...
- .../when you wake up and bring some dream fragment, which looks like a crispy piece of meat, the kids shouldn't touch it with their hands...

* Both kids are sleeping now, I don't hear no more playing noises coming from their place...

- .../I just want to make a sample of how it goes...
- .../Share your dream from last night in <one sentence>. The sentence could be used as the link text to the DJ entry to make it simple...
- .../when I woke up yesterday right after the dream from the "remotest memory", I remembered most of it but I didn't have something at hand to make a fast note or voice recording, of course! I must correct it...

* Then, it came to my mind the first recurrent-never-remembered-until now-fragment of a sequence of dreams, which brought me back a recurrent dreamscape which is a composition of all the city downhills of the former town where I lived... It's amazing to remember all those dreams... a lot of scenes cross in front of my eyes... those dreams were so vivid and were almost left into Oblivion...

- .../that's why it should be loaded the second section first. That way you don't lose the data when loading the first part in the second place...

* That was the last note before falling asleep...

.../I have one-wheel roller skates attached to my knees. I'm skating kneeling taking my little kid to the kindergarten. She has normal inline roller skates. I give her to her teacher (who's a woman I never saw in WL). There's something about Orange color...

* Wake up and write some fast notes, then go back to sleep...

.../I get to school at night, I'm wearing my school times clothing. I find a girl friend who I didn't remember long ago. I ask her about some twin brothers who studied with us because of I forgot which one of them was our classmate. One of them was in another class but I didn't remember who was who. She pointed who was with us. I see the other one at the basketball court, then I tell him: "Of course, you were in the other class because of the uglier from you was in our class". Then I follow the girl upstairs to our classroom. I see a couple of friends more. It's nice to remember them. Then I notice that my place is not free. I look for a free chair, put my bag on it and start singing "Set The World A Fire" from Megadeth. I realize my voice is a little bit creepy, it's funny, then I let it go...

* Wake up and write some fast notes, then go back to sleep...

.../I'm in a recurrent dreamscape enjoying the view, I'm getting to the peninsula which is called "island" by the locals. It's mixed with some ancient ruins. I hear somebody screaming there. I take a closer look and see a young man cutting some logs. I decide to go back when I see another man walking on the road. I prefer to keep my distance. When I turn I can see the roofs of the houses all tight together covering the hills in the sides of the road. The sight is very dreamy. Then I realize it! When I see a person getting closer, I decide to walk on the roofs to avoid him, the roofs are all connected with stairs. The man takes a short cut and climbs faster than me. He gets to the upper side of the labyrinth first, I just decide to go on climbing up since he doesn't seem to bother. I hear a local folk song, it's very sticky. It was the melody which long ago I was looking for, finally I hear something new! The lyrics are not what I expected, because of it's about the opposite team, although sounds really good and this time, I decide to let it go when I reach the roof of my grand parents' house. I sit for a moment to hear it clear. I climb down thinking about the different devil costumes I wore those three years. Then I put a bear dress on. I don't remember having pictures of this one, I have 2 kerchiefs in each hand, I notice I didn't do the blue one although it looks nice too. I see both my Dad and Aunt-mom (she took care of me when my biological mother passed away when I was around 2) getting in the old bakery to talk. I just don't want them to see me. I go downstairs while looking at the costume, I "remember" dancing with this. It was very fun, although perhaps I should take a couple of pictures now. Then I see my Dad absently walking, I evade him very easy...

Journal Entry Lucid #31-34 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:Finally finals are over and I can relax.

Lucid Dream #31, day: 04/29/14 time: 3:10-4:38am " Regular Joes have super powers too. ":
Context of the dream, people have super powers and are being recruited to join and train(I guess military).
I am in my garage,relaxing on a couch, the garage door is open. I see people walking in and out of my house with bags. I thought to myself this remind me of an apartment complex. The people look like teens somewhere around 17-18. Some of them flooded the garage. One girl was wearing lingerie and she start approaching me slowly. She said, "today I feel like I need some attention". I didn't want any attention so I looked at her friends butt. She got mad and left. I hear someone say no and they dropped their belonging in the street. I fell on the floor and it ripped a hole in road. I told them that I will get it for them. The cars were speeding like they were in the freeway. I backed away. I overhear a fat girl freaking out about having superpowers.
I realized it was a dream. I went to the fat girl and I told her that she has more power than she realizes. She started freaking out even more. I was thinking "they don't even realize they are in my dream." I started to look around. I am in a restaurant and nobody had food on the table. I spin again and I saw a women that had a burrito shaped like a purse or vise/versa. So, I flew over and I bit into her purse and it tasted delicious. For some reason it felt like a long time in dream and I felt hungry so I woke up.

Lucid Dream #32, day: 04/30/14, time: unknown" Def Jam Bobble head":
I was at a club of some sort. Purple and blue lights. I am walking in the hallway and I walk past the bar. I see a familiar figure, it was D-mob from def jam and boy did he have a big head. It was a bobble head. I hear the intro of the song "dum dum....dum dum". I did a RC but it failed. I said no way

this is a dream. I was laughing so hard though. He stopped and approached me. He said furiously, "what's so funny? Do find anything funny?" all while his head bobbled up and down. I cracked up in his face. He got mad and tried to swing at me. I dodged them while laughing. I all of a sudden got angry and levitated him. I then threw him through a wall. I knew what I wanted to do next but I saw a baseball and a cup, like bear-pong except it is with a baseball. I wanted to see how much control I have with telekinesis so I set it up. I Tk the baseball and I tried to make it in the cup fast, I missed. I levitated the cup back up and got the ball. I tried again a little bit more slowly and missed. Third time I painstakingly put it in slowly and I made it. I became happy and complete so I woke up. So I didn't do exactly what I wanted but it is ok I will get it.

Lucid Dream #33, day: 05/01/14 time: 3:10-4:45am " Maybe a lesson":
I am on a cruise ship. I am a balloon or I felt like one. I floated up and up. I see a dog next to me.
I realized it was a dream. I was now in my old church's bathroom. I walked out and went through the exit. I see a house right in front of me. I thought how strange. I didn't want to investigate at all. I just wanted to leave. It started sprinkling, I couldn't feel it but I could see it. I went up and flew about ten feet or second story of the home. I see a Japanese girl and her parents arguing. I tried to fly away but it felt like I was bounded by the house. The girl says to her parents, "I don't want to live your dreams anymore". I then could fly away and I sped off which woke me up. Maybe my subconscious wanted me to see what she had to say.

Lucid Dream #34, day: 05/02/14 time: unknown "":
I see a cop get killed and I wanted to leave the area. I am now in the backyard of my house. I then realize it is a dream
I walk towards the house to see my family. A car is in the middle of the yard. I used TK(telekinesis) to lift it then I launched it. I hear my parents inside. My dad is talking to somebody on the phone. For some reason I thought I was going to get valuable information so I stayed. I didn't get anything so I tried to fly out. I woke up.

Me and my brother were complaining about how we hate the gang members in our house. We wanted them to leave so I decided to go downstairs to confront them. There were detective in the living room so I went inside my Father room and there they were, I walk in without bothering either of them as I see they are beating up 1 person so I walk pass by to only get hit in my stomach. Once they did that I grab a large blue scissor as I attempt to stab him with it however push himself back. That's when he pulled a gun and told me what am I going to do now and what will I say now. I look at the gun thinking how many times has this happen to me where I am fighting someone and then this gun comes in to my face, why? The guy began threating say he was going to kill me as he sent one of his other gang members to close the door so the detective will not hear. He decided to sit down on my father bed and point the gun at me. I began walking and left my Father room. The man follow me saying that if I move he'll kill me, I told him detective are right there, you shoot me you'll be jail. He told me he won't kill me he just wants to hurt me. That's when the detective came over but he kept following me. I made it to the front door preparing to leave and I told him when I get back your gang and the gang uptop the stairs should come together to try to kill me. I open the door and left walking outside it was night time. I saw my Father walking on the road so I came to talk to him. I told my Father we should leave this house and he said he will as well, I told him I have been held at gun point so many times in my life that it got tiresome and that I was sick of living here. So me and my Father began abandoning the house not knowing where we'll go. I look at my Father and realize something was off his hair was very long. I ask how did his hair got so long and he told me it's been this way. But I remember his hair being short when I was first talking to him. I started wondering if this was a dream or not. It was too real though, this feels just like real life there's no way it can be a dream. However as the colors around me and around the area began to heighten I began to realize that this was a dream. That's when the scene change and I notice my Father change in to someone I did not know. We were in a park and people were on their laptop so I walk in this hall that seem like others we're waiting. That's when I lost my lucidity. Lucidity Time : 45 seconds

Today's lucid:
I'm standing on the terrace with my mum. We see a familly - mother, father and a boy. I tell to my mum that this boy looks weird. I don't know why, but something's wrong with his face and body. I tell her that only explanation of this is that we are dreaming. She says that we are not dreaming. I tell her that I can show her a proof. I try to telekinesis on the boy and I throw him in the air. You see I tell her. I realize that my mother is ''just a dc'' as well. I had this idea that I need to summon STABILIZATION MACHINE to help me stabilize the dream quicly than my usual techniques and anchoring. Try to summon it behind my back, but nothing appears in thee times. I need to summon something easy. Let's try jelly candies. I summon knitted basked behind my back. There are chocolate candies inside. I try one more time. Just sugar candies. Try it again and then there is sweet red jelly candy!

I went to see a movie today and got my first look at the trailer for "Maleficent" with Angelina Jolie, who seemed to be making recurring appearances in my dreams.

After driving through downtown Chicago, I'm staying in a lakefront house where one whole wall of the house is windows facing the shore. While exploring the house, I come across Angelina Jolie. She's wearing half of her Maleficent costume and seems pretty confused. She gives me a phone number to call to bring her tour bus to pick her up.

I woke up somewhere around four AM and decided to make a WILD attempt. I'm not usually as successful at these when I know I have to be up in a few hours, but apparently I'm on a roll this week.

I'm in a bar. I focus a little bit on stabilizing the dream, running my hands over the bar top and noticing details (where these rounded bullnose countertops?). I even drop a quarter in the jukebox and sit back as a Huey Lewis song comes on. I remember that one of the tasks is to do tequila shots with a DC. The first DC I come across, believe it or not, is Angelina Jolie. She seems like a cool person to have drinks with, so this won't be so back. We order a couple rounds of tequila shots with lime and salt. I haven't actually done this before, so it takes me a little while to figure out how to coordinate taking a shot before doing the salt and lime. Angelina is kind of amused at this. I start telling her about my problems at work and she listens carefully before suggesting that maybe I'm too good for my job. She talks a little bit about her kids and what baby products she found useful (since I sell baby gear). After a few shots, I suggest maybe I could come home with her and watch her and Brad have sex. This makes us both giggly and I wake up.

Hey DV. I had two lucids in a single night a few days ago, I've just been to busy to post about them. I can't recall much from them, but I will say I'm glad because I had four lucids in one month, which is three more than I usually have. But all I can remember is flying in the first dream, and in the second dream I remember pulling an April Fools joke for the TOTM. I'm hoping my recall will get better, as well as my ability to stay asleep longer for longer lucids.