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This place will be where I post some of the dreams I remember,and hopefully will be able to start posting about my future Lucid dreams.

[size=24pt]Wings are the best![/size]

ANOTHER FREAKIN SWEET FLYING DREAM!
This time it was completely lucid.. I love this dream so much.. I was being taught how to gain altitude well by max. Which is the protagonist in a book that I'm reading right now. This dream was probably the best flying dream I've had and if I ever fly again in a dream I'm so using wings. Jesus! some more dreams like that and I would be one happy boy!

My wings are reddish brown, more brown then red.. (funny they're usually white though I"m a ginger hehe)

Unlike other dreams this one started more unrealistic and got super realistic to the point where I became lucid, I was having so much fun though I kept doing what I was doing with being taught how to fly with wings and all, it's a whole different thing to fly with wings for me but I got it down a little. Was at the top of a big hill and I was gliding down. Funny how for half the dream the girl teaching me to fly was Max and the other half was Claire.
We were also attacked by some thing.



>_> Oh yeah!~ another dream.. lolol I could talk telepathically to george. It was sweet!



third dream about me ini a zombie apocalypse, I was gettin "couked up" as I put it and wanted to go waste some zombies, this dream was really realistic and I was tired of being home, besides we needed to go scavenge for supplies. I tossed in our usual weapons and this time put in a crowbar. I remember my brother not really wanting to go but I was ready to go by myself.. I said that I wanted to drive a fredign humvee or tank or something that was lying around town from martial law that hit right after the zombies started coming out everywhere. We set off and we saw people living in tents back sorta by our house.. Like a whole little town of people.

I get lucid spontaneously. I feel ecstatic because I am so sure it is a dream, and I somehow know that I haven't had a lucid in a while. It is nighttime, and I am outside my house, which is one of my dream signs. Perhaps that triggered my lucidity in some way? I am so caught up about gaining lucidity at last that I don't do any reality checks, and I forget to stabilize. Fortunately, the dream seems to be stable enough.

I see my friend – let's call her A – standing in front of a floating fireball. She is trying to manipulate it. Oh cool, she's a firebender. She looks at me and asks if I know how to firebend, and I say, "Yes, but I am better at manipulating fire than creating it." (Which is true, I'm a crappy firebender.) I hold out my arms, look back at the fireball, and proceed to firebend it by making it move and swish around in the air with delicate hand and wrist movements. After, I return the fireball to A, and she accepts it and suspends it in front of her.

I turn away so I could do some other things and not waste the lucidity. Suddenly, I see a little ball of electricity hovering a few inches above the ground in front of me. It was kind of sparking, and making some tiny crackling sounds. I try to manipulate it as well, but as soon as I point to it, it splits into two electricity balls – each one being the same size as the original ball. I am confused. I point at one of them, and again it splits into two. I continue pointing at them until I have about 20+ sparking balls in front of me.

I then decide to walk forward to get away again, but then the balls start electrocuting me as I come into contact with them. I run away in pain.

I stop somewhere beside the street. I decide to try to change the dreamscape. I close my eyes while thinking about being in a hotel room. I specifically choose this because I think that it would be easier to create a small room, as opposed to an outside setting with so many details. Sure enough, when I reopen my eyes, I am in a green-themed hotel room with plush couches and velvet curtains. Suddenly, a man and a woman appear behind me. They look like hotel employees. The woman says, "Oh sorry we didn't know this room was taken. We were just gonna have a quickie."

DAFUQ? O______O <<< yes that's exactly my reaction.

Slightly horrified by what I just heard, I decide to get out of the room. I see my friend – let's call her S – standing outside the door. She has crutches and some leg braces on. I am shocked because S is a dancer in real life, and that would be horrible if it came true. She starts crying, so I hug her. We stay like that for a long time, until I eventually lose lucidity and start to wake up for real.

Well, last night I was as close as I have come to completing my major dream goal, and yet, it still didn't quite happen which now that I think about it kind of just makes me mad, because I was SOOOOO close and yet it still didn't happen...

Anyways, the first thing I remember is that I was at this old walled city, somewhere in Italy I believe. Anyways, in this city, two futuristic armies composed of robots were duking it out for control of the city. It was kind of like a video game, because each robot had a little health bar above its head and stuff like that. Anyways, sometime during my explorations of the city, the alarm woke me up. As soon as this happened, I was able to recall the dream and instantly go right back into it.

When I first got back in, I was a little drowsy, thinking myself to still be asleep. I then realized however that I was back in this city and became lucid. This time, I remembered to stabalize the dream, which is a good step in the right direction. I just told myself over and over that I was in a dream and it was going to stay stable and I would stay lucid so I could work on my dream goals. I then decided to accomplish my major one. (I also contemplated the group project goal as well, but just couldn't help myself. :-/ Anyways, I just began telling myself that as I explored the city, I would find who I was looking for. As soon as I had said this, a little arrow just popped up in the center of the city, floating above a building. I thought that this myst be leading me to them so I followed it. As I made it to the building, the arrow started bouncing up and down as if to say "Your destination is ahead" I entered the building however, to find no one in it. I went into the basement, where there was a kitchen.

I then remember turning around and seeing a shadow coming around the corner. I looked closer, and then they came around the corner and it was none other than who I had been wanting to meet this whole time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In the dream, I was literally speechless and just kind of stood there in shock. They they came over and we were just about to greet eachother and then a bunch of the robots suddenly came in and stormed the building where we were. They instantly came in and violently separated us from each other. I was so furious that I woke myself up, trying to kill the robots so I could get back. Man I was so mad!!!!! Here I was about to finally achive a HUGE goal of mine and these damn robots come in and ruin it!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRR!!!!!!

After waking up from that, I just went back to sleep because I was so angry. I do wonder though... did the robots storm the building because I was so excited t was finally happening, and I almost didn't believe it myself? I just need to be really confident next time so that doesnt happen again. Either way though I AM going to achive this goal soon. I also am going to try and meet some people from the shared dreaming project tonight as well.

See ya

07/01/2012 - 7/08/2012 Fragments

I was on a fairly large boat inside some sort of pull or sink in a bathroom either the bathroom was large or the boat was small. The boat started sinking and when I made it outside it sunk impossibly fast I fell into the water and floated for a bit then tthe boat sudenly came back out of the water completely fine when me and the dc passangers were back inside the flight attendants that worked on the boat were apologizing for the stuff in my mini bar bing on one side since the ship rolled.

Lucid Fragment

I was sitting with people on some place I can´t remember my surrondings but at one point I looked down and realized I was dreaming smilling I looked back up to my group of people and said "Im in a dream aren´t I?" with a bild smile on my face. The dcs nodded somewhat uninterestingly as the dream faded away.

Lucid/Non-Lucid
I was walking towards a warehouse in wich I knew awaited the devil in the form of a kid with dark looking eyes that seemed negative. There was snow on the ground outside of the grey wharehouse witch seemed to be in the midst of an industrial area of some unknown city there were more people around then there should usually be dressed in casual cold wheather cloths. I go into the wharehouse wich is completely hollow and well lit and see him in the center of it with black trench coat and menacing face. I rush him and he starts to alter my relaity suddenly im in another place full of trees and stuff I know it´s a trick but I can´t seem to over come it. Something happens and I end up outside again this time there are some causal dc´s that are willing to help me out and they accompany me when we get in the ware house I warn them about the illusion trick. We all rush him and he does it again for a minute I sea the wooods but I fight it and tell my group to not pay it any mind the illusions breaks away and I grab him I feel victory and the dream fades.

Non-Lucid

I was at the beach with some of my family from Colombia (wich is strange since they dont live near the ocean.) There is a black cable that is as thick as two powerlines going from some unknown place into the ocean like this they creat huge waves for people it seemed to have gone wrong an dmake a huge tsunami wave that I promptly tried to get away from it bare splacehed me but wasnt that bad I went back andwatched as people kept going in the water and come out later with injurieds the rest fades and I wake up.

02-26-2011 -- That was kind of grim. Started out kind of light, turned into one of my darkest, grimmest dreams ever. This one may not be pleasant. Almost all sweetness and light, but the last few parts are ultra-violent.

I'm driving down the road, trying to go to Disneyland, and it is late a night. I'm pretty much driving all right until I make a wrong turn and almost get my car trapped, so I get out of the car and start walking. I am near Harbor, and I should only have to walk a block or two to reach Harbor Blvd and be able to turn toward Disney.

I find myself visiting with a marmalade cat that is mine, and talking with it and visiting with it. I pass a young woman who is moaning about how she has no money and and no food, and will probably die in the cold of the night, and I walk past her, but then start to feel bad for her and come back and give her a little money to help her out. Then I hug her close to show her people still care, and move on.

I'm walking through a sort of crowd, and there are also dozens of cats around, and all are walking the opposite direction I am, except my cat, which is walking along side of me, not going with the crowd.

Soon I somehow find myself working a late night shift at a gas station / convenience store. [A type of work I have never done.] A couple of customers come in and make cash purchases, and I handle their transactions easily. Then one guy comes in with his rich family, and he wants gas on two pumps. He asks for $90 on one pump, and $100 on the other. He hands me a credit card, and it is the first credit card I have been given for payment.

I run it through the machine, and it is very hard to slide, and very tight. A counter next to the machine lights up and shows a map of the internet signal as it is routed to the credit card approval place. A couple of times it goes down a bad path where the signal is lost, and I can see it start a new route from where things went bad, until it manages to connect. Very interesting to watch.

The card comes back declined, and as I look at it, I spot that it is actually broken, and has a corner of the card taped in place. It was the tape that caused the thing to stick, and I know it isn't going to work. I explain to the customer that his card is broken, but notice that in the stuff he gave me, there is another card, so ask him if he wants me to use that one. He says he does.

I don't know what is with this card, but it has no number, no bar code, no magnetic stripe, and I can find no way to run it through the machine. I tell the guy I can't use this card, either, and he becomes very insulting. I try to explain that one of the cards he handed me is physically broken, and the other has no data allowing it to be processed, but he starts telling me that I am an idiot and a jerk, and he is going to get me fired over this.

While his family started out as a small family of four, it has now grown to be something like 20 people, including a bunch of kids. The kids are starting to steal candy and things, and as I confront them and try to make them stop, one of the adults attacks me with a large knife. I take the knife away from him, and go back to speaking with the kids, but an adult near the register opens it, steals the money from inside, and starts to hand it out to all the kids.

I run back toward the register, and they all begin to run out into the parking lot, which is now packed with tons of people. I follow them to a large bus, and the driver shuts the door in my face, and starts to pull out. I have had it, and I snap. I leap five or six feet into the air and grab the door handle and open the door back up, then let myself into the bus. I pull out the large knife I took from the guy who tried to use it on me, and it slowly stretches into a sword as I walk through the bus and kill every man, woman and child with a few strokes, usually putting one or two deep slices in each one, though one guy I aim just right, and take his entire head off.

I'm thinking about going through their pockets and getting my money back, but I don't see myself actually doing it in the dream. I get off the bus and head back to the gas station, while the guy who started the whole mess climbs on the bus and starts screaming as he finds what I have done. I approach the gas station, where I find the next shift has come in. I ask him how the balance was, and he tells me I was about $50 off, which is a lot less than expected, so I guess I did take the money back, and somehow put it back, even though I only just walked back in.

I decide it is time for me to go, and I can see the trouble-maker and a few of his friends in front of the building, so I choose to exit through a window leading onto the hill behind the station. The trouble-makers come running around screaming for my blood, but I fly into the air to avoid them. They are trying to fly as well, and are soon getting it. They are getting closer and closer, and the dream in quickly changing into one of those nightmare chase dreams where you have powers, but so do the enemies.

I can see this going on and on, and don't want to deal with such a long, miserable process, and decide I have to end things decisively. I think up a nuclear bomb and cause it to appear in my hands, then throw it on the ground. For about two seconds, nothing happens, then there is a flash of light, the hint of a sound, and a wave of heat, and then everything goes gray. I can feel it as just this odd, painless feeling as my body is dissolved into its component atoms, and they go drifting apart. Then I wake up.

[I'm sorry, I have no idea where this came from. All I can say is I am reasonably certain I am not anywhere near being ready to hack up a bus full of people in real life, or blow up myself and others with a nuke. But it was a pretty grizzly dream.]

I didn't do MILD last night, I went straight to sleep. I woke up 5 hrs later and I was gonna get out of bed but didn't want to miss my REM sleep. I didn't use any induction technique. I was in a dream and got lucid, I don't remember the dream, I just remember doing RCs. I couldn't push my finger through my palm so I pinched my nose, I had to take a really deep breath to confirm that I'm lucid. I kinda had a plan of what I want to do when I'm lucid but I didn't think of it at all in the dream. I thought I could try the TOTM but I couldn't remember what it was. I did RCs again with the same results. I didn't do anything cause I don't know what to do. I did RCs again but they didn't work this time. I don't know if I woke up or continued dreaming.

08/07/2012
3AM-11AM

I was floating in the air with Tanya, Philip, Sarah, and Kierra when I suddenly became lucid.

I decided that I wanted to begin my dream by asking them some insightful questions. So I blurted out the first thing that came to me. I turned to Sarah and asked, "What is the best thing about me?"

She countered back, "Well, what's the best thing about me?"

I said, "Hey--this is my lucid dream. I get to ask the questions."

But she decided to be difficult and not answer. So I looked to Tanya. I asked again something like, "What's something good about myself?" I looked at her with pleading eyes, because I wanted her to answer the question. She looked back at my eyes and finally answered, "You're sincere." Ok...I would be satisfied with that.

I then asked both Kierra and Philip the same thing only to have them ask the same question Sarah did.

I started getting frustrated. I said, "Darn it. This MY lucid dream. And I'll prove it."

I stuck out my arm, and said, "If this weren't my lucid dream, could I make my arm glow?" And for a second I was worried because I had never tried to make my body glow before. But my dream powers cooperated and soon my arm was bright.

I then said, with my arm still out, "If this weren't my lucid dream could I turn my hand blue. And I focused on my hand until it turned blue.


"Or could I make my hand big?" And soon my hand was growing and strangely large.

"Or could I make it small?" And I then strank it until is was about half normal size.

"Or could I make it white?" I turned it a ghostly white.


Then I decided that I had done enough. I was feeling quite satisfied with this little exercise in dream control. I needed to move on. I wanted to try to go through a mirror again since this has been giving me trouble that last few attempts.

I found a mirror. It was cracked in a few places. I think I was in what was supposed to be my aunt's house because she was suddenly standing with my in the hallway. I decided to run at the mirror and try for the spot that had the largest unbroken area.

I took off running only to hit the mirror. Instead on bouncing right back I kind of hung there for a moment before I rolled myself down off the mirror. I tried two more times with the same result and concluded that I would probably never get through a mirror again since I had somehow developed a mental block.

I decided to try to fly to the moon by going outside and just flying up. I was a little surprised that my dream was lasting this long, but I didn't want to waste it. I knew from past experiences that the quicker I run from one goal to the next the more focused on the dream I was and less likely to lose lucidity.

It was night outside. I could see so many bright stars. The night sky seemed magical. I was in a city. I had come out of a large building. I saw a bilboard in front of me. It had Mickey Mouse and was an ad for Disneyland. It made me smile. I looked around and saw several more signs all for Disneyland. It made me feel really happy about this place that I had found. I started flying upward. I suddenly heard a conversation on the ground below of a man talking to a boy about finding this certain destination. I tried to follow the conversation, but never was quite sure what they were talking about. It reminded me of the odd audio hallucinations that I sometimes hear right as I am waking up in the morning.


And it was right after that that I suddenly was awake. And my alarm went off about 20 seconds later.

I haven't been taking my vitamins like I should, so my dreams are so blurry and fragmented it's crazy when I even have them. But here goes, lol.

Dream One (Fragment): I'm standing on the pier at the lake talking to my friend J. He's talking about how babies are being born with clear skin and insides, and that there is a small glowing blue orb inside each baby. He says my best friend Ambies is worried that I am going to want to have one because I like strange and paranormal stuff, but she really thinks it's a bad idea. I try to reassure him I don't want anymore babies, not even see through babies with blue orbs all the while He's really worried that I'm lying to him.

Dream Two (Fragment): I'm running down a hill past some shops. I suddenly realize there is a big body of water and I'm about to run right into it. I reach out and grab a tree and use the momentum to swing myself around the tree and turn around before I end up in the water. I slide on the hill side though and manage to scrape up my leg as I fall. I get up and start jogging slower this time up the hill. A man with dark hair comes out of one of the shops and asks me if I am ok. I say yeah, and ask why he thought something was wrong. He frowns and says he saw me fall and just wanted to check on me. I thank him for his concern and then wake up.

Dream Three (Semi-lucid): I am bareback on a horse with my arms wrapped around a woman. I realize it's my neighbor, and we're riding the horse over by my dads house. I feel us slipping and I start to freak out that I'm going to get hurt, but then I realize I won't get hurt this is just a dream. I'm not hit by that euphoric wave of OMG this is a dream! but I still understand I can control the situation. I let go of the neighbor and grab the horses mane instead. When I do this the neighbor vanishes and I'm laying flat on the horses back hugging it's neck and mane for dear life whispering shhh shhh until it stops and I slide slowly around it's neck and look at it face to face. I decide it's a pretty horse, but I want to change it. So I think about it being a unicorn, and it's fore head glows and a horn grows on it. I climb back up and ride the horse only a minute or so more to see if it's any different riding a unicorn. Then I decide I'm lonely. I close my eyes and let myself slide off the horse, trying to imagine where L might be with the thought that I'm going to find him and hang out with him. I open my eyes and find myself in a brown carpeted room with golden yellow walls and lots of Manga, alone. I try to close my eyes and imagine falling again to L's side. I find myself in a grassy area with a short wooden table like you see in Anime all the time. There's a woman in a kimono having tea with a man, and then there's L walking towards them. For a moment my lucidity slips and I start to go have tea, but halfway to the table I realize this is still a dream. I change my course and run to L and jump on him. I start yelling, "I'm Lucid! L we're dreaming and I'm lucid. Listen to me, I am lucid and you need to be too!" But of course I must not have been very lucid or I wouldn't be trying to convince the DC he was dreaming lol. He tells me it's ok, he knows, then he leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back a bit shyly of course, but then I'm like what the hell, I'm only dreaming anyways, I'm going to make out with him, lol. Then he shoves his tongue in my mouth and we end up rolling around on the grass making out. A few times I got super excited and realized I'd wake up if I didn't stop so I had to push him back and calm myself down. This is definitely progress for me, because I struggle with waking up when I get too excited. I know I'll never talk to Kurasawa for long if I don't learn to get past it because he tends to end my dreams quickly by kissing me when we meet lol. I am disappointed though that I didn't go looking for him, but finding him will be easier if I work on my control and stabilization anyways.

PMG MU GOD<---------( first thing i typed hahahahahah! i was so excited i couldnt even spell)
!!! I JUST MET MY DREAM GUIDE!

okay so this lucid dream was induced by having a WILD and it was amazing!!!

so as usual when i go form awake to lucid dreaming, im awake but i feel this sensation of my body being pulled out of bed its so bizzare, i feel my skin brushing up against the blankets, and an immense buzzing through me, and as soon as its over, i wake up in my dream.

i was 100% lucid, so much so that i was worried about talking or moving in my way,
shape or form, thus waking up my boyfriend sleeping right next to me.
i tried to fly out from my windows but sometimes the laws of physics are
...still binding in my dreams so i kinda smacked into the glass and decided id rather run because i felt too amazing.

I stepped out of the appartment trying not to wake my dream boyfriend, i was fully clothed now wearing a jean jacket and a pink shirt, my cats tried to follow me out but i shooed them back in and closed the door because hey, theyre still my cats

as soon as I got out, this janator was coming in and i grabbed him by the shoulders
like i was a crackhead who needed a fix...seriosuly i i shook him a little lol and asked him if he was my dream guide
he said something obscure and random and i said "oookay, im thinking youre not"so i asked him agian and he said no

still in the hallway something came upstairs from the basement....
it was that baby head spider robot thing from toy story.....i grabbed its craneum and hesisted to even ask..."oh god, are you my dreamguide?" it shook its head "no" whith a sigh or relief i bolted out of the building,
I was trying to fly aroundbut it wasnt working well. i bumped into cars and as high as i would get, my feet would still brush the grass underneath me and frankly i was just too hyper to concentrate.

I walked over where i park my car which is underneath this giant concrete thing with a tennis court on it.
but it was different, there were no cars and there was a giant hole in the concrete as if someone had bulldozed it open.
the concrete pieces were scattered around and mixed in with rocks,
it kinda made this hill leading down to a little river.
i stood in the quiet space for a moment and then remembered the task at hand.
"DREAM GUIDE i want to meet you!" I shouted into the sky, I stood there and listened/waited.
then some pebbles began sliding down the hill on my right hand side,
there had to have been movement causing those pebbles to fall
i felt it in my gut...this is it.
i walked over to where the rocks had fallen from
"oh god, this is the moment ive been anticipating forever" i thought to myself
i peeked up the hill around the concrete and there he was,
sitting in the rubble............ FEZ from that 70's show HAHAHAH

i knew deep down in me that he was my dream guide, i coud feel it.
after i stopped laughing hysterically in happyness and about how my dream guide is freakin fez
he was so good natured and just sat there smiling calmly while i laughed and tried to get over my hyperness,

i stooped over the rubble and said "okay so you know what i have to ask right?"
he nodded and continued smiling
"are you my dream guide?" his smile turned into a grin "yes"
i even asked him three more times to make sure and he answered yes each time
but I could tell he was making a "you know i am" face.
it was incredible i couldnt beleive it, i then made a joke saying
"dont worry i wont ask about how to get with ladies"
and he just kind of looked at me in confusion LOL woops...
i dont think my dream guide watches that 70s show....
anyways i felt like a bit of an idiot, i always make akward jokes, and if hes my dream guide he knows that already anyways so who cares lol
I then asked "if i didnt ask for you, would you have show yourself to me on your own?"
its weird how he doesnt even really need to talk much or say too many words for me
to understand what hes saying.
he sort of gave me this look which someone would percieve as confusion but i knew for some reason he was saying "i came when you asked for me and needed me, i would only show myself when you felt ready to see me."
then i woke up from too much excitement -_-

after i woke from immediate lucid state into reality I pretty much LEAPED out of my bed and whipped into the living room to write this down.
i met my dream guide. and he is fez. oh my god.
at first my thoughts are "can i change his appearance? would that be wrong? can i take him seriously as fez giving me life advice?" but in a weird way its like....i dont care, something opened up in me about my dream guide that is beyond appearances, he may have looked like a hilareous slightly racist tellevision character but he didnt act like it.
the only thing i would change is maybe for him to have some pants and a shirt on next time lol he probably didnt wanna wear bellbottoms and a ruffle blouse.....understandable.

I cannot beleive this just happened still.it was my most important goal and i got it on my first real successful WILD after like a year of no lucid dreaming, i think he knew how much it meant to me and that ive been struggling to find motivation to keep up with it and this would make a world of differece and fuel me.

my hands are actually vibrating with how much adrenaline is running through me im so frakin happy right now and i cant seem to stop typing!!!BWAAA!!!
i went to bed at 7:23 and woke up at 8:40
and im still kinda tired so i think im going to go back to bed, maybe fez is waiting for me at a disco roller rink, who knows. HAHAHAHA XD my dream guide rocks.
knows that i think about it. fez makes perfect sense! bahahaha
GIFSoup

Well just a little entry to tell you about my first LD.
This happened a few nights ago btw
Long story short, I looked at my cocker spaniel (Abby) and realised her colouring looked like a dalmatian instead of her normal black and tan colourings and that made me realise I was dreaming.
And then I realised I could LD because I was in a dream.
So the first thing I did was fly (I've always wanted to do this) I looked up and just pushed myself up (Had a position like Iron Man does) and I yelled "faster, faster!" and kept going up.
Then I came back down and did a handstand.
Then I imagined a guy as Johnny Depp so one of my "projections" (stole the term from inception hehe) crouched down and stood up and was Johnny Depp. I ran over to him and jumped on him and starting making out with him
Then I woke up.
Greatest. Dream. EVER!@

Non-Dream Dream Lucid Dream

Dream 1:

I am in a very evil place. I am not sure if I belong here as I am kind of on the fence between being good / evil. It looks like an apartment complex being renovated. I have an absolutely amazing stripper all to myself. She has dark hair and is very tall. She tells me that she works directly with the big boss so I can have her always (?!?).

Dream 2:

I am at some wedding in a casino where two groups are sharing the same reception area. The bride (a young black woman) comes up to me and says "I'm doing two dances today: one with my dad and one with you." I get up and leave when she turns away because I don't want to dance in front of everyone.

I find some people after walking away from the wedding and I start teaching them how to fly. The act of flying renders me lucid. They ask if you have to flap your arms like wings and I say "it helps at first but it is not necessary." Then I show them that I can do it without flapping my arms. I start losing the dream so I yell "clarity" but it is too late.

Dream 3:

I am playing a very strange card game with lots of clubs - I recall having a King and Ace of clubs in one hand. My brother beats everyone with a pair of 8's. MF from work is in the game too. There are tons of strippers / hookers.

Dream 4:

I am in high school I think and I'm at a party. I am wearing some fat guys incredibly smelly jacket and I'm making everyone smell it. I think there might have been some drug use in the dream.

Ok so i was in my elementary school's...um... recess area, i guess, and i remember that there was like a random kitten. and it was like running around and stuff, and i was trying to catch it. Then one of these mean kids picks up the kitten and like... drop kicks it ;_; ...then a few other kids are like throwing it around so next thing i know, its on the ground away from all the kids, and it looks like its dead.......... but its not.... i look closer, trying to imagine it breathing, and it works. i start to see its chest expand and contract a little. so i pick it up, and i go to take it inside the school. to do that, i have to walk past all the kids. And i remember as i'm walking past, i said something like "Try to hurt this kitten again, and I'll rip off your head and stuff it down a f*ckin toilet!" ...so i walked in the school, and went to the office to ask if they had a box i could put the kitten in to take home with me. The kitten was small, and had a mixture of black and grey colors on its fur. I don't remember what happened after that.

Awareness - 9 / 10
Control - 9 / 10

The dream started out in this abandoned warehouse area. I have to admit it was pretty creepy, but I had a flashlight. As i was exploring this location, the alarm went off, waking me up. I was able to recall the dream very easily and went right back to sleep. I was able to successfully re-enter this dream and have a WILD!!

Now lucid in the dream, I continued exploring. Then it got kind of wierd because although I was still inside this warehouse, I was also out in this huge open field. It was like a bunch of grassy hills and stuff, just all inside this dark old warehouse. I didn't really mind though and decided to work on my dream goals. I forgot to stabalize the dream however, so it was all a little shaky during 'testing'. First, I decided to accomplish my dream goals, I would need to work on more control, so, the first thing I did was change my flashlight into a screwdriver, because there was this old door that I needed to get through. I went through it and changed the screw driver back into a flashlight.

At this point I was getting anxious to work on my dream goals so I couldn't help myself and decided to do that. Anyways, I came up to this big hill and decided this was the place. I said "As soon as I go around this hill, the person I want to meet will be waiting for me on the other side." Well, it kind of worked... I went around the hill and sure enough someone WAS there, but it wasn't who I had in mind!! It was this little robot thing and then I just went over and kicked it. Frustrated with myself for getting too anxious and not stabalizing the dream first, I went back and just sat on the hill. I thought that maybe if I tried again but really focused on what they looked like and such, maybe it would be successful this time. When I went to do this however, I woke up.

Well, another successful WILD! However, now I just need to work on some personal control and not let myself get so anxious. Just need to stabalize the dream first, master control of the dream, THEN meet them...
Oh well, it's getting better every night!!

Every morning I've woken up and I have written down so...many....pages.... But no matter what I do, when I have lucidity, I lose it just as fast as I gained it, or I'm aware but I can't do anything significant. This doesn't discourage me from repeatedly trying again and again and again until I get it. But it's a little frustrating to know that I have only so much knowledge of what it feels like to be lucid. My basic idea (and when I mean basic, I mean that I really can't confirm it but it would seem about right) is that I suddenly feel like I just woke up, and I went back into the dream or I'm thinking about the dream as if I was awake. There has to be a way to get myself to mount firmly before I lose that control. Because I lose it as soon as I see it. How do I know that the feeling is lucidity? Well I checked back to my first experience (which was the most vivid of them all) and I realized that after seeing that I was in fact dreaming, and then getting my arse knocked around in that tail spin because I got too exited, that same feeling followed, and it was there with me while I was in my spinny, blurry, limbo. then I realized that I've had this same feeling many many many times before especially when I'm in a tail spin. So my question is, how the heck do I mount myself in the dream before I lose the control? I don't think the "I'm an anchor" thing works. Anyone have any suggestions?