lucid

Im in a helecopter and theres a man next to me showing me how to fly it then
The helecopter blades are realy loud

Then out of nowhere im in front of a army base im in front of the front gate

Then I realize im dreaming so I look at my hands and focus everything blurry so I start to spin it stabilizes it enough for me to see my hands so I look at my hands and focus it get clear I focus on what im hearing too then I lick my han to ingage all my sense it salty my shadow looks like it has my hat on but it dosent feel like I have a hat on

I look down and start to fiddle with a electrical box thinking if I shox my self the feeling might stabilize the dream but I worry if im not dreaming this will kill me but I keep telling my self this has too be a dream beacuse it dosent make sense how I got here and just appearing outside the helecopter dos not make sense

So I stick my hands in the wires and pull them out beacuse I still didt convence myself so I try to prove im dreaming to my self by reading thing so I try to read the soda machine infront of me but there a leave design I front of some of the letter so cant read it so I decide to go into this tv store thinking how the tv would work in a dream the tv are black and stack ontop of each other on a brown shelf they all three keep repeating the same images a clown bening over a couch then repeat and so on I look over a bed and see some girl talking I try too stay focused

I climb over the bed take of the robe I waz apperantly wearing and get to excited and wake up

Dream - Lucid

I fell asleep and found myself in a mix between my current house and one I lived in briefly as a child. It was daytime outside according to the lighting in the room. I think I was in my room, but it looked different. I immediately knew I was dreaming. I examined my hands so I wouldn't get too excited and wake up. I then remembered my most recent lucid goal: To confront JP about being in so many of my dreams. I started to call out his name, trying to get him to appear, but he didn't. I kept looking at my hands to keep the dream from fading.

I kept losing the dream and then going back into it (it's been awhile since I've been lucid), but I regained lucidity each time this happened, and I would remember my goal as well. Every time I'd "wake up" somewhere else in the house, and I'd start to call JP.

I finally ended up somewhere that didn't look like the house anymore, but I think it was still supposed to be. I was standing in front of some stairs, and I called on JP. A man in a suit then appeared on the stairs, but he didn't look like JP; his skin was a bit darker, and he looked older. He didn't say a word and kept a strange, small smile on his face as he walked up the stairs.

Regardless of his strange looks, I treated him as if he were JP. I forcefully asked him something along the lines of "what are you doing here?" or "why are you in so many of my dreams?", but he kept on just walking up the stairs with his little smile, staying silent the whole time. Things then started to get blurry, and I tried to examine my hands to keep the dream, but I, again, lost it.

I then "woke up" somewhere else, I'm not sure where, but wherever I was, I decided to try to fly since its been so long. I took off into a blue sky dotted with clouds. Below me was green grass and trees with lush, green leaves. At a certain height I felt a little resistance, but that's normal for my flying dreams; I was glad to even be flying at all since I haven't had many LDs lately.

As I was flying, I passed by some kind of tiny flowers, and I reached out to touch them.

That's all I remember from that one, though I know there was a bit more to it than what I can recall.

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I was in my bedroom, but, of course, it looked different than my actual bedroom. I was talking to someone on the phone, or myself, I'm not sure, but I was worried that the sound would carry through this weird window in my wall that went into the hallway, and my mom would hear my conversation. Later on, she said she didn't hear me, but I knew for a fact that the sound carried extremely well into the hall; I even heard my own voice coming from my room when I was out there.

This requires a lot of explaining. So in other words, a lot of reading, but please bear with me ._.

Ok so about 6 months ago, I lived in a nice house... Everything was normal. Then, out of nowhere I had this one dream where it felt like I was awake. But what happened was, I was laying down with my eyes closed... And I could feel my bed float off the ground a few feet, and rotate 360 degrees before slowly falling back to the ground again. ...It didn't stop there. A few days later, I had another one of these dreams, except it was a bit more intense. Instead of slowly floating, this time my bed floated a bit faster, right up to the ceiling of my room. My eyes were open and I saw the ceiling like 20 inches away from my head. Then it dropped quite fast onto the floor. I started to have these dreams quite often, and they kept getting more and more intense with each one. Eventually I was at the point where I would have a dream like this and my bed would either skyrocket past my ceiling and into pitch black darkness, or carefully aim itself and dive into the floor at breakneck speed. It felt like I was on a roller coaster, except way faster. After about a month or so, I actually started to discover on my own that I could kind of control where my bed was going using my mind. Although it didn't work as often as I had hoped, it still helped. Then I had this one dream... This one specific dream that really freaked me out.
My bed floated horizontally in this dream. All I saw was darkness, but I could feel it moving. And then my bed floated by a white fireplace. I didn't have a fireplace in that room. But the thing that really freaks me out about that is, there's a chimney right outside my room, as part of the house... There WAS a fireplace in my bedroom... 200 years ago.
The fireplace that I saw was white, and there was a small fire in it, and it was brighter than it should have been for such a small fire. Yet, the light didn't go anywhere else. The light itself only surrounded the fireplace.
Eventually these dreams started to happen less often. Then I had to move out of that house. I left my old bed there because I already had a new one ready for the new house, the one I'm living in now. After I moved here, those dreams stopped ENTIRELY. I think those were lucid dreams, though. Because I felt awake in all of them. Even though these events happened not that long ago, at the time, I knew what a lucid dream was, but... I don't know... I have no idea why I didn't take control. For some reason, now, it's harder for me to fully LD... Anyway, thanks for taking your time to read this, it was pretty weird.

Kept having dreams with lots of clues that I was dreaming - back in school, living in a dorm, etc. The dorm was like a giant basement/loft with 4 showers. Roommates were old school mates. Jeremy was working very hard to organize the place. It was an amazing place. I would awake and wonder why I couldn't recognize the dream clues. Got up for a little bit, fed cats, and went back to bed with intention. As soon as I hit the dream world I did a reality check (looked at my hands) and bingo! Dreaming! Flying in the night sky and felt so free. The moon kept getting larger so I wanted to slow down and come back down to earth. I'm still afraid of the moon. I start to conjure JC. I land in an old theatre and one of the tech guys says he is out by the purple loading dock. I run down the stairs toward the loading dock and there he is standing in a doorway. He smiles and walks over to me. He looks 10 years younger. We hug and I just look at him. He comes to help with setting up the basement/loft/dorm. Then I think there was a wedding of some sort - no one I know of.

I've gotten good at getting JC to show up (took about a year). I need to come up with some intentions once he gets here (and stick to them).

[COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I told myself I would go to bed at a normal time, but I tried to figure out a way to upload and play FLAC files on my Iphone so I could listen to the Gateway Experience on high quality sound. I did find my solution but I went to bed very late, 01:15.
I started to listen to the "Energy Bar Tool" Exercise. I did the normal Focus 10 procedure and was then told to imagine myself holding a white light-saber looking bar and Monroe instructed me to change the color of it to, green, orange, yellow, blue and red. When he told me to try it's pulsing energy through visualization I didn't understand what he meant, but then he said "No imagine it bright white again, and imagine it go on and off over and over again". As I did this my whole body started to pulsating almost in synchronization with every clear picture I had of it. "On" My left leg started to twitch and I thought it had gone off!" "Off" I am back in the normal state again.. "On" My right leg twitched! Then in the end he told me to come back to physical consciousness (the C-1) by moving my right hand and thinking of the number one. I did and the exercise was ended, my awareness felt weird, I had my eyes closed and it felt like my awareness had shrink and that my body was 5 times bigger. Not as special as it sounds, but it felt weird. Then I fell asleep...

[COLOR="royalblue"]I did end up chaining the dream to a lucid dream, so I have forgot some details of the first dream, but I was an American time traveling but ending up in Sweden at some farmers house. I met some guy about my age and he guided me around the area. I said that I had been told that the Swedish girls have the most beautiful voice and that I would like to meet one lol :D And he said sure there are tons of girls trying to sell American books in the town.
When I got there I saw my old friend Elna (although not aware that I knew her at the time) and when she spoke I almost melted. :panic: It was such a beautiful voice, and then I told her that I had already read that book because I was from the states (In that dream). And she couldn't believe her ears, I was like a celebrity to her. Then I hang out with her and her friends accompanied with the other guy and I remember having a conversation about drugs and the only drug they knew was alcohol lol. And I thought to myself "Oboy if they knew how freaky LSD was they would go nuts haha.".
( I DON'T DO DRUGS! I MEANT THE EXPLANATION OF LSD) :)
But I didn't tell them about it, it would be too much for them. Then we hear some roaring in the sky and we look up and see a white old airplane, a white airplane with a propeller at the front. They looked with amazement and I was like meh...
Then we see a big black stealth aircraft and I think to myself "Wait a minute those aircraft doesn't exist now?!" and I start to scream UFO! The other look up and say "Woooow". In the group I found my old friend Astrit. We talk about aircrafts and he asked me if I had seen the documentary "something something" about UFOS? And I thought "Yeah I have, but you can have because it came out in my time". I asked him what year it was and he said "1964" and I thought for some weird reason that that made sense... I also remembering saying "Oh then there is going to be a UFO invasion in Washington the 29 July!" Although this actually happened 1952 and it wasn't an invasion, but and UFO incident, but I have no idea of how I could remember the exact date. The others went into a restaurant I think it was Burger King, but that didn't make sense, although nothing made sense in this dream anymore... :roll:

I told Astrit that I needed to go to the bathroom and he said "I'll go with you I have to go too." When I started to pee I thought to myself for some reason "Oh what if I do it for real? Oh right it usually never happens so..." But then I woke up and I had my eyes closed and I wanted to chain the dream. I heard my dad snore in the other room, but I continued to focus on the black space behind my eyelids and suddenly I was back where I had left but lucid! [/COLOR]
[COLOR="blue"]Although it felt different, everything was quiet not a sound was made. I looked at my friend Astrit then he just disappeared! I knew it was a dream so I didn't bother, it was kind of dark in there now but I put a sweater in front of my eyes and focused to stay in the dream. I looked myself in the mirror and it was blurry so I couldn't see myself clearly.
Then I woke up again, still had my eyes closed and I tried to get back again somehow. Suddenly I see my hands and I am back where I had left once again. It was very vivid now although still a little blurry vision, so I started to spin and it did clear up a bit. I thought to myself "Ok this is a vivid as I can get it in a start without glancing at objects, so this is how the guy in the Castaneda book perceived the dream at first. Ok so now all I got to do is to look at my hands and then at some new object to get a surge of energy." But I never looked back at my hands again, because something else caught my attention. :( I saw a body laying on the white floor, and when I approached it I saw who it was. IT WAS ME! :shock:
I thought to myself that it couldn't be the real me since I am in my bed but I was still curious to see what would happen if I touched myself at the left arm. But as I did the body synchronized it's movement with mine but in a laying position.
I looked at my head and it looked kind of freaky, I think I could see a bone structure at the back of my head, or something white reminding me of bones anyway. I was a little scared that the eyes of that double would suddenly open it's eyes like in a horror movie. As I thought that the double got up and looked at me with a angry look and then took a defending fighting position. It looked really freaky :huh2: but then I woke up.

I tried to chain the dream again, but I heard the high pitch ringing in my head that normally let's me know that I wont be able to WILD, but I still tried but as expected I couldn't return. The time was now 07:31

This was a fun experience, but next time I should focus on my objective - To look at my hands then on a dream object and then back at my hands again. Over and over and with different dream objects. :roll: [/COLOR]

This dream is from a while ago... I was with my parents and they said that we had to go visit someone. So we left the house, but next thing I know I'm in a big log cabin in the woods and it's night time. My parents are talking to someone. It's pretty dark inside the cabin too. At this point, I realize I'm in the dream and I go lucid. Since I'm lucid, I decide to practice hovering/light flying inside. (The log cabin itself was big, like LONG) So I was jumping like a 20 ft distance. and was like 8 ft off the ground. Almost like there was no gravity. Then my mom or dad asked "What are you doing?" and I said "Trying to fly.", and then they all laughed... Meanwhile I was floating in the air when they asked. That's all I remember from this dream.

Awareness - 9 / 10
Control - 10 / 10

Well, the first thing I remember about this dream is that I was at my house and we had just got a pool table. I was shooting some pool all by myself and ended up getting a scratch (because I am just such a good pol player ). Anyways, I went to retrieve the cue ball and then the alarm went off, waking me up. Since I was awoken fresh from the dream, I was able to remember it easily. I then went right back to sleep, telling myself that I would recognize when I was back in the dream. Sure enough, I ended up back in front of the pool table, holding the cue ball about to go reset it from the scratch. At this point I was like "Oh ya, I'm back in the dream!"

I then remembered how I had read a thread yesterday about verbal commands and how they can be very effective at perfect dream control. In the dream, my room was really messy, so I thought I would start simple and clean my room. I started off by saying "My room will now be clean", however, nothing happened. I thought maybe if I said it differently. I then tried this... "Stuff, (to all the stuff on the floor) ORGANIZE!" Then everything came to life and started putting itself away. It was amzing. I then went and talked to it as if I was a drill sergeant, honing in my skills. I said "Stuff, ATTEN - TION!" Then all my clothes and everything snapped to attention to hear the next order. I then said "Stuff, AT - EASE!" Everything then relaxed just as I had told it to do. I was dumbfounded at how well this was working. I then decided to go work on my dream goals and went to head outside. For some reason however I decided I needed my mp3 player, but I couldn't remember where I put it. I said "MP3 Player, Please report in." It then just came and kind of walked over and lept into my hand. Satisfied, I put it in my pocket and went outside. When I opened the door however, I must of been a little too anxious or something because a there was just a void outside, like my mind hand't generated it yet or something. I closed the door and returned to my room to stabalize the dream. As I was about to do so however, I woke up.

That was definitely a step in the right direction in terms of having my dreams go however I want. I am just elated right now at how well that worked and super excited for my next lucid!!!

Bedtime 10:30p – 8:30a

1) 1:45a Playing some sudoku like board game with Jess and Megan at our house. I walk into the living room and there are red Christmas lights everywhere. I continue the game on my phone like it was words with friends or something. I also think to play my old supervisor.

I move to recliner and begin attempting WILD. After each NLD I quickly record what I remember on my phone app and resume WILD.

2) 3:29a find myself in SP. I try something a little different to enter the dream. I force myself in a rush to get up out of the recliner. I feel my dream body stumble and fall and then I re-enter SP. This time I relax too much. I have a false awakening.

I have the laptop on my chest and the recliner feels like it is reclining way too far back. I am still trying to WILD. I ear the alarm clock distantly in the bedroom. I wonder how it is 6:00 already. I expect my wife to come looking for me and sure enough I hear her walk in the living room. I just lie still because I really don't want to ruin my WILD. I figure she will just see me asleep and leave. But the computer is on my chest and on. I think she will see a post by RareCola and read it.

Then, I hear her say. “You're going to kill yourself with that.”
I give up my charade. “What?” I look at her as she is going back to the bedroom.
“I said your going to kill yourself.”

I get up because originally I had planned to get up with her at 6 and stay up for 30min and then WILD.
I notice the recliner is turned wrong but when I go to move it there is another recliner in its place but it is a darker brown. The other recline shrinks and slides next the the strange one. I then walk into a strange kitchen. I wake up.

Another SP episode from DEILD. This time I know that I just need to visualize a dream scene and I will enter. For some reason I get too excite and SP fades.

3)4:38a I plant some sort of seed in the crack in the back deck. They are round and small but I don't know what it is. I water is. The water hose floods the area. Then I have another FA. I look next to me and see Janna sitting on the couch. She has marijuana seeds. She tells me she gave a seed to some kids and is worried they will get in trouble. I tell her they probably won't plant it. I go to use my phone app to record the planting dream and I realize “This isn't real”

I wake up briefly

4)I am now watching Johnny Bravo through my window on a TV in my neighbors yard. Then I FA and I am back in my recliner. I feel like I am holding a remote. But wake for real and see I am not.

5)4:42a I am in the recliner. I see Travis and tell him about the fake picture I sent him. He say, “Dude I don't know how those pictures of me get posted.” I explain to him that it was just a look alike with a tramp stamp. He changes the subject.

6)5:28a *LUCID*

For whatever reason I am driving with my wife and another guy was with us sitting in the back but he never says anything. We go down towards my job. It is late in the morning and I decide to just take vacation. I pull into the parking lot. And I tell my wife maybe I should just call it in instead of going in to ask for vacation. Then I notice the time on the car's clock. It is 8:38AM and I realize I can't ask for vacation after 8. So I decide just to use the call in line and not have a vacation day.

Suddenly we are inside in an office. My wife is at a desk typing on a computer. The guy is sitting several feet behind her watching the computer screen. He is behaving like a silent observer. Ignore him completely. I am on the floor putting my shoes on. As I am getting the last shoe on I remember to pay attention to my awareness like I do in RL. I think to myself, “I am dreaming.” But I didn't mean anything. Then it dawns on me. “I AM dreaming!”

I don't have my shoe on but I know it doesn't matter. I look around. I remember to stay calm. I try to focus on various office supplies on the desk. I see things like a coffee mug with pens and pencils in it. Then I look my my wife and see the guy in peripheral vision. I never really look at the guy. Maybe he will be my dream guide. Too bad I forgot to think of that. Anyway I know neither one matters and talking to them at this point would be a waste. They are just DCs.

I stand up and turn around. I see a door that is partially open. It is the only way out of the small room. I briefly remember that if I ever become lucid at work I would have fun with it and do the things I couldn't do in RL. I rush for the door and expect to see the production floor.

I open it and instead... The room I was in is at the end of a long hallway full of doors. Each door goes to a different office. "OK fine. Stay calm. Focus. You are dreaming. Keep awareness." I walk down the hallway and pop into random offices. The walls are wood paneled and with no decor. The doors are those cheap hollow wood doors. They are unpainted and stained a very dark brown. I don't notice the flooring. The color scheme is very bland and boring. All the offices are empty. There are no people anywere. "Ok strange but not that strange for a dream." I hear a phone ring once. I walk into an office room that I thought it came from. I see a desk with computer and a phone that is off the hook. There are a few papers scattered on the desk. I pick the phone up and put it to my ear. I hear nothing so I press zero. I hear a short ring and then, a young woman's voice answers, “Student services.” I think it's odd so I don't say anything. I press the hook with my finger to hang up. I don't hear a dial tone. So I just lay the phone back where it was. I can hear her voice but distantly, “Hello?” The sound of it is as you would expect for a phone away from your ear. I am a little impressed with my subconscious at how vivid the dream is.

I continue down the hall. Now I am looking at double glass doors. It looks really dark outside and I can't see anything beyond the glass. I want to break glass so I rush at it. I can hear my footsteps like I am wearing boots on concrete and I actually feel the impact of my feet on the floor. I note this is really cool for a dream.

I dive head first for the glass but it is soft and doesn't break. I feel my head got stuck. It feels like a wall of Jello. Of course, the natural reaction is to close your eyes. I feel the dream fading. I don't want to lose it so I back out. I re-stabilize myself by looking at the glass doors and focusing. “OK fine. I just want to leave here its boring.” I slowly push the doors with my right hand. There is no sensation and its like the glass is gone but then the door opens and I am looking at the next set of doors. I feel a little frustrated that glass doors are keeping me in this building. I almost feel trapped but I am determined. "Maybe dreams are like being a ghost in the movie Betelgeuse. You can never leave the building. No that's a stupid thought. This is my dream." I push the next doors slowly open.

Then I am immediately engulfed in darkness. I feel myself wanting to wake up. I begin rubbing my hands together. I can feel the friction and heat. It is almost painful. So I stop and clasp my hands together. I am still in the dark void and I think, "Maybe I am awake and I was really doing that with my hands. No, I don't believe it." Then I realize that I in darkness because I just have my dream eyes closed. I slowly open them but cautious not to open my waking eyes. For a moment I am confused because my eyes felt so real. "Am I opening my waking eyes?" So. I only open then halfway. I see that I am at the driver side door of a Grey truck. I decide its safe and I open my eyes fully now. I notice It's not very clear or vivid. The dream quality not as good as it should be. except for my sense of touch. I touch the glass of the door. Solid and feels real. I slap at it a little and am surprised that it sounded normal and I could feel the impact on my hands. Then for some reason I am abruptly jolted awake. I think I heard a noise in the house. It was storming.


7) 8:24a I am going with some people to a house I own. I am renovating and selling. I see a bunch of low class scummy people on the porch. I see a shirtless fat man. His checks hang down real low and he pushes his man boobs together. Somehow it all looks like a giant ball sack. I feel disgusted. I loudly tell someone I don't know how I will ever sale this house will all these kind of people around. I enter the house and the floors are still dusty from sanding the hardwood. There is a little girl there and I kindly ask her to go outside. I wake up.

I had too much recall on exactly what happened in the dream. Kind of scares me. I wrote down everything I could remember, conversations and all. I apologize for all the grammatical and spelling errors but I was going crazy with the typing since I just woke up and had to write it down quickly. I do not feel like correcting it tbh.

Begin dreaming.....now:

I don’t know how I got here. There wasn’t anything wrong though, my family and old friends were there. They were happy and I was happy. There was flirting going on between me and the woman I always thought had an honest heart, and she does.I chat with her online, seperated by only a wall it was our only way of communicating. For a while we enjoy ourselves and it becomes apparent to our families that were are happy together. Although we haven’t told anyone, even ourselves, that we are dating the relationship develops to the point of becoming an “unregistered” couple. Our makes take down the wall and we live together. The house is nice, I have an old fasion balcony, you know? One of those you see on an apartment in France. There is a small jacuzzi pool that is always dimly lit. It is in a rather dark room but seems kind due to the patio right outside. You would never believe me but you can see the world from here. It feels like your heart has embraced the air and towers the skies, it is such a beautiful cliff. The water is just as beautiful as the sky it sits below. The clean blue runs on till the sky and ocean touch. Scattered around this majestic blue are rocks large flat rocks that don’t upset the surface. Like a bruise that doesn’t cause any pain. It adds an important imperfection the the ocean. I can sit there night and day wondering what it feels like to be so utterly……. Simple. No worries, just the waves, the warmth of the sun kissing my skin and the sounds of bthe birds calling while passing above. But I am not the ocean so I must leave for now. I am a person and so are all you. We have secrets, desires and pain. Mine wasn’t too far away.

As I left the edge of the cliff I felt heavy. My mind was in a haze and my heart felt wrong. There was no reason why… my soul just wanted to cry. For now I just needed to think of happy times, current times, to releive me of this burden. Soon I found her, my lovers mother, acting strangely. She was trying to take me away from my lover…..something was wrong. This burden only grew stronger everyday. The world was taking the ones close to me and turning them inside out, revealing the the lies we all hide. The heart that bore the burden grew weaker, I cannot describe the event of days passed since it was all a dream to me. I just know like the hanged man I was between to realities. I had reality a where everyone was normal and the other place where there were a bunch of mannequins claiming to be my reality. I didn’t know what to chose. I didn’t care anymore. There was no reality, nothing had value. There was just fear.

Today I took a trip outside with my “family”. My camera was on hand so I decided to take pictures. Since I didn’t want to spend time with my “family” I headed out to the back of the house. It was here that I was stuck for hours. Fear had immobilized me. Where is this fear? How is it doing this? My eyes searched and my heart searched and I knew… well I could feel it. This made no sense. I felt it coming from the woods as though something was threatening me, telling me to leave. Whatever it was filled me with fear. I broke. I couldn’t help but look and feel so small. If it came after me I would be like like a bush caught in a brush fire. It would consume and leave nothing. My hands move without me tellnig them and look through the lense. My fears are only intesified. Why do I want to look closer? I want to crumble. Please let me disappear. I sound so hopeless and weak.




“….It’s because you are weak. That is what I seek”
Am I weak?
No, I am not weak
Fear is my weakness
Fear is not my own. It is not MY weakness
“… the weakness that you cannot see are those which prove to be the most scary….”
So how can I move forward?
Fear has shackled me
My mind and my body are stuck
I cannot see you or touch you but you have stolen my body and mind
“…fear is yours to alone. It isn’t anyones to own. You must share it even if you think it is wrong”

The world is moving closer to me. My fear is moving away.
I feel it free me. On my shoulder. I see it telling me everything is alright, even though it doesn’t know what I’ve been feeling. It’s a hand. My lovers hand. I look away from the woods and I bearthe. I still feel it behind me looming. But when I look at her I feel it collapsing, all of my fear built up….it’s just crumbling.
That reality… it wasn’t real, was it? I just told myself it was. It was easier to give in. To sever my commitments, my relationships. It was easier to fear.

I always think about it when I sit by the cliff. I always feel it, alive and waiting. Life should be so simple and beautiful as the ocean the lies before me. But maybe it is just like me. The ocean can be calm, warm and predictable but it can also create fear for days or minutes. I don’t know.

It wasn’t long after that I slipped. For just a moment. I was leaving for good. Heading outside I stood by the jacuzzi and looked out at the world. It was then I SAW it. In the bubbling water next to me. The pale, fleshy, dead mannequins reaching for me. They got me. My body now submerged I struggle… I feel the blistering heat. I cannot breathe. The heat is too great.

I am stronger
You are not that man anymore
You are loved
You love
You have always been strong
Your only weakness was not knowing how to use it
Just be happy
Be the person you deserve to be
Love you memories
Now go and make new ones…

I am free. As I glide across the room I know it can’t be… I see the smiling faces all ready to leave… as I get close we all fade away.

End dreaming

That is of course when I woke up.

Usually I rarely remember to stay still to even do this but today I was determined to NOT move when I woke up. I wake up several times in the morning staying still but USUALLY when I stay still when waking up I feel the vibrations instantly but this didn't happen so I just went back to sleep again. This happened several times until I decide to just wait for awhile instead of just assuming I failed because the vibrations didn't come instantly. So I wake up again and I feel a slight tingle. I know what is going to happen. A few seconds latter I feel this powerful vibration coming over me and I also hear this loud noise like I am right next to a train. Once the noise and the vibrations calm down I 'roll out' and at this point I am inside my dream scape. The dream scape is an exact copy of my bedroom.

I look at my hands to see if they are strange. They look normal. I go into my kitchen and I see my grandma with a bag and a red dress. She pays me no mind I think she can't see me. I was about to pat her on the back but I decide otherwise. I then feel myself fading away and soon after I wake up. I stay still and attempt to do a re-entry I feel the vibes coming on again but before they could kick off my grandma says "It's time for you to wake up" Pissed, but at the same time happy I did it I get up.

This is my first journal entry so excuse the possible rambling

So this is one of my lucid dreams from last year, i still remember to this day.

I was in this complex in what i understand to be my room (which was in no way similar to my room)
there were empty wine bottles holding flowers in a decorative way, the flower print wallpaper was peeling, and the trim on the doors and windows were a thick unpainted chipping wood.
It was quaint and tiny, i walked out into the hallway and it looked like a community home. There were people evrywhere, in the kitchen, living room hallways, you name it.

I'm not sure how but I just realized I was in a dream, and i had this curious thought..."can I get drunk in a dream?" So acting very scientific about it I went into the kitchen and grabbed anything/everything that i would recognize to be somesort of alcohol and began to shoot it back. It tasted like nothing and seemed to have little effect on me, so I downed a few more until i could feel something, it was only brief and I immediately sobered when my mom came out of nowhere and started sassing me, I was to put the bottle down, clean my room, and come have supper.

Obviously she wasnt actually my mom, and she was standing in the way of very precious Lucid time, so I just ignored her and made my way out the door, she followed me and pestered me and just would not let up. But I love and respect my mom so I took her aside and said I would be home for supper and would clean my room later.

I ran out to the street and bounded into the sky, I remember being up there and just looking over the scenery, it was amazing, every little detail in the trees and houses, some had pools, some had cars, some were mowing the lawn.

that was the last moment i remembered of it, I think I was so overwhelmed by the infinite things i could do and just let my dream take over from there.

It was still kind of funny how shrill and pestering my mom was.

So, I have been reading about Lucid Dreaming for a while now, and want to get into the topic, as I find it very interesting.
Of course the first thing to do is practice dream recall and start a Dream Journal, but I somehow couldn't find the motivation and time until now.
Nevertheless I can recall at least a dream every night, without practice.

Today I decided to do my first DJ entry, as I had my first lucid dream, and it motivated me to write it down.
It was a DILD, and happened about 4 hours into sleep, as I checked the time after i woke up.
Of course, as it was my first LD, it was very short.

I was in a "normal" dream first, running away, or rather hiding from police, although I hadn't done any crime. At first I wasn't even sure they were chasing me, but somehow I just assumed it and i tried to lose them in smaller streets and alleys. This was probably one dream sign that made me realize it was a dream and made me lucid - there was no reason why the police would be chasing me.
I came from a place I knew into a slightly different scenery, that I had no recognition of (probably another dream sign), where I stopped for a second, and thought to myself: "Hey, this is a dream, stop running away from the police and confront them / your fears" At that moment the police were gone, or rather it was me that was gone, as I found myself in a room with computers (not many, just some standing around) and became lucid. I jumped up and started flying (which I heard is not so easy for beginners, as you can't really "think away" the boundaries of physics, as gravity at first, but somehow I managed it on the first try) I was in the air for a moment when I noticed the dream fading away, probably because I was so excited, and maybe because instead of getting to know the surroundings, I started off with flying. Then I remembered that spinning can help maintain the dream. So I tried spinning, which in mid air was weird, but possible, but it didn't help a lot, maybe a little, but the dream still faded and I woke up.

I took some notes on my phone as not to forget and be able to write it down after I woke up (I went to sleep again, as it was 4 in the morning), but I can recall the dream almost perfectly even without the notes.
It was a great first experience, and I hope I will have more like this and better experiences in the future!

08.04.2012

Dead Bird? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm walking with my father, getting ready to go back to a random vehicle, but he can't move it because some spots on the ground had dead bird residue?

I'm not even sure on that.

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08.04.2012

Essay (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember being in class trying to prepare to write an essay. I see Melissa at some point.

What I find weird is that after I woke up to record these dreams, I slept until around 1:19 PM starting from 6-7 AM.....and I didn't remember any dreams from that second sleep....ugh.

I have glimpses, but I don't know if they were works in progress.

DreamLucidAwake

Basic TOTM

I vaguely remember being in a battle with a large black dragon. Larger than I am anyway. I think I've been fighting with the same dragon in recent dreams. I don't really remember the fight, I just know it happened. I also know that the dragon really tore up my right hand. He most likely bit it and tried to rip it off.

So I was in a sort of forest biome. I was running, though I'm not sure if I was chasing something or running from something. Most likely the latter. I was holding my right hand which was of course bleeding and in a lot of pain. I stopped and kneeled down in front of a rock. I rested my hand on it and examined it. There were a few cuts and a large gash on the back of it. It also looked kind of deformed like the bones had been broken or displaced.

I decided that I would attempt to perform surgery on my own hand right there. It wasn't exactly the right place or time or equipment to do something like surgery, but I felt like doing it anyways. I figured the cuts weren't as urgent as the gash that all of my blood was pouring out of. Since there was already a hole in my hand though I thought I might as well try to fix up the bones.

Before I began I thought, "Am I really capable of performing surgery? Well I did have a few dreams where I was a doctor or went to medical school. I suppose 'dream doctor' is a good enough qualification."

So the first thing I did was transform my left hand into a dragon hand. I used my claw to cut open the wound a little more. There were several broken bone fragments lying in the wrong places. I poked at them and tried moving them back to where I thought they belonged. When I moved a fragment back into place it kind of snapped back together with the other bones. It was a little more painful when I did that.

After a few minutes I managed to get all of my bone fragments back into their place. I pretty much cheated for the next part of the surgery. I simply used my healing magic to close the wound in the back of my hand. My hand wasn't hurting much anymore and was fully functional. I can't remember much after that. I think left the other cuts alone and started running again.

End

My alarm went off at 7:30, I called Kaia right as it did. Then I made a 1.5 minute audio recording of my dreams throughout the night up to that point. My next alarm was scheduled for 7:35, and I probably went to sleep at 7:32. The lucid scenario occurred within three minutes of falling asleep.