lucid

22.07.2012

idiot with a rifle (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm 27 and I have high blood pressure. Realy high. It's not because I'm fat our out of shape, it's a result of bad genes. A long history of heart problems in the family. Among other things that is. If you didn't know one of the weird side effects of having really high blood pressure is that your short term memory starts to fail you. On the other side of the coin your long term memory can become crystal clear.

This is an odd thing but something I'm still dealing with. One of the main problems I have is that I remember my dreams, all of them. Every blurry little detail is permanently etched into my brain. It would be fine if all I ever had where happy little dreams about flying or something typical. But I never do, I always have what most would call nightmares. They seem to last hours and can be quiet chaotic at times. The dreams are quiet lucid, I'm aware its a dream but i go along with whats happening anyway and in some cases get sucked into the role. unlike most who become aware its a dream. Its very apparent to me right away. I don't get scared by these dreams. I used to have nightmares and be frightened but one summer i had a months worth of night terrors. Zombies being the main problem that bothered me. After a while I just stopped being scared like that part of me had finally died of a stroke.

the following dream Wasn't particularly scary but sets as a small example of how things move in my dreams. I'll start with it since it was the dream I had last time i was asleep.

i was standing in a wooded area. Maybe the edge of a golf course or a heavily wooded park outside of a small town. It had to be some time after noon. Standing to my right was a guy in a baseball cap wearing a wife beater shirt, jeans, and boots. He was really thin and reminded me of a typical redneck. In front of me were two guys both in t-shirts one in shorts the other in jeans. Both of them were on the heavy side. behind them was a red van of some sort. and I assume to the left of them was a white car. After thinking for a while now one of the two guys in front of me must of been a friend of mine by the name of Chucky. Since it was his car I recalled. We were there to meet with them and were just talking or hanging out.

Suddenly this loud nose came from behind me, a crash or a thud. I saw myself look over my own shoulder for some reason in a 3rd person view. Instead of seeing what made the noise I could only see my self looking puzzled. At the time i wasn't even paying much attention to how i was not looking directly behind me but more up then anything. the two guys in front of me made a quick dash to the left for there car while the guy next to me and I ran for the red van.

I got in the driver seat (something that is odd since i hate driving and never got my license). I put the van in reverse, moved back, and then drove forward down the pathway. I drove like mad. The trees flew past me in a blur. The guy in the passenger seat was saying something i could hear. I was too lost in trying to get out of there. And then a thud and it went black.

It only lasted a moment and then everything rewound like an old VHS tape. We hurriedly moved in reverse back to loud noise that sent us running. When it came back to normal time we were off again running for the vehicles. This time I threw the van in reverse and we both looked backwards as I drove that way the entire time. When we hit the road in town I spun us around and took off threw a quiet neighborhood.

I swerved into a drive way with the garage door open and pulled in. I got out of the car and more subtle crashes could be heard in the distance. i got out of the van and went around to the other side. Me and that guy slowly walked out from under the shade of the garage door. People had left there homes all of them gathering in the middle of the street looking up over the houses.

I saw myself in 3rd person again still unable to tell what every one was looking at. Even my dream self could see what was causing all the sound when i could not. Back in my body I noticed to my left a man had come out of his house holding a rifle by the barrel. As if he planned to use it until he saw what was making the noise. too stunned to hold the gun properly he just loosely held onto its muzzle. The guy i was with must of saw this too as he quickly ran over grabbed rifle away from him and walked back to where he was standing. As he did he was inspecting the gun before quickly raising it up to aim drastically.

I remember this shocked me and made me very mad. tho I'm not sure why exactly. I had this sense that what he was doing was extremely stupid and careless. Not because he could injure himself or some one else either.

It became very clear all at once. like slow motion i was staring at him as i was starting to yell under my breath at him. I slowly turned my head to the noise and I saw it. with my own eyes I saw it. bigger then the houses. Bigger then the trees. Bigger then a building. A giant creature covered in an exoskeleton like a crab walking on six pointed legs but upright like a human with long thin lobster like arms. it was so large and in the distance that i couldn't even make out the color of it. It just appeared as a gray blur like a shadow puppet on a wall. its heads just under the clouds as lighting struck around it.

That's when i realized what i was yelling at him. I said "you idiot!!! even if you mange to hit it from this distance, all you'll be doing is alerting of a free food source" I grabbed the barrel of the rifle and pointed to all the people standing around dazed and shocked at what they were seeing.

then I woke up...

I drew a sketch of it but Photoshop squashed it for some reason.

First I have to say this is one of the most vivid dreams ive ever had, but only a certain part of it. it is multiple layers.

I had this dream from a previous night of drinking some tea with passion flower wild lettuce and gingko bilbo. some potent stuff ill say!

So, I'm laying on my stomach on a bed, with my arms around Nada whom is facing away from me and sitting on the bed.
We are speaking, im unsure of what.
(the most vivid part)Then suddenly the pressure changes, everything goes eerily quiet.
The lighting in the room is completely different. everything is glowing and has this fluorescent atmosphere. I feel mildy like I can't move, there's this slight anxiety building up.
Then a very large dog, looks like a black and brown st Bernard poofs into existence above me to the left. it continuously looks like its fading in and out of existence. its very stoic doesn't seem to have awareness and is just floating there.

I ask nada if he sees this thing, no response. I am still holding what feels like him. I sit up stil holding him (i can move now) his torso comes undone from his legs, like a barbie dolls would. his legs are underneath me now his body parts are black, not really him.
I realize I've gone to another plane where he is not. I start calling out to him. I am hearing his voice every once ina while but I can deduct he can't hear me, I feel like I want to get back to him.
I start to float up I'm realizing more that this is a dreamlike world but not in fact realizing im dreaming because of the separation anxiety distracting me.

I want to leave this room explore more, suddenly the pressure changes im back on the bed. I call out to nada he is about to leave the room with his arms full of these colorful cups. he was going to help my mother with something.

he tells me that i just passed out, I start explaining my experience.
Then I wake up for real and I start to really tell nada of my experience ( weird doing that twice)

Would like to know anyones opinion on this, if they have ever experienced going to a light realm like that.

This is the nightmare portion of the dream, im unsure where this connects at to the rest but I just remember it,
I am in this dark place with nada, it has many rooms and corridors. I believe its some sort of futuristic asylum, there is one person that started chasing us like he wanted to kill us. I don't remember how we got rid of him.
There are many grotesque scenes taking place wherever there are people, I am scared I also have a strange sense of deja vu.
Thats it, I haven't had a violent dream like that in a long time but this one wasn't very vivid.

7/19/12

DILD

This dream wasnt recorded for a few days so the recall is minimal.

I am able to turn the table on some enemy from the non-lucid portion of the dream. He is driving a semi truck. I somehow grab him and try to think of a way to punish him. I realize it is storming so I grab him and fly up, hoping to get him struck by lightning. I cant stay in the air long and fall back down. I do this a few more times but I cant seem to get him struck.

This dream began non-lucid, and the starting point was on a small sand dune in the desert. Off to one side of the desert, I could see a thick jungle that began right where the desert ended--side by side, as if there had been a line drawn between the two biomes. I headed off towards the jungle (still not lucid yet), and as I began to explore the hanging vines, trees, and the like, DILD kicked in. However, my idiot self completely forgot to stabilize the dream, so I pretty much just continued right on after I gained lucidity, thinking, "Cool!" I continued walking through the jungle, now in control of my actions, but not exerting the amount of control that I could have if I had stabilized the dream. I came to an area that had no trees, but there were vines hanging down everywhere, so I decided to test my control on them. (I was completely unaware at the time that I had forgotten to stabilize.) I began to walk among the vines, attempting to instantly change them into another object, material, or substance, touching them as I tried to shift them. The first vine I touched I tried to turn into a chain, and nothing happened, so I walked on,a bit disappointed, and touched the next one, focusing on making it into an orange-colored vine. Nothing happened to this one either, so I turned around to try and change another vine just by looking at it, but as I turned to look behind me, I saw that the first vine had changed into a chain while my back was turned! I took a second to process that, then I turned around to look at the vine I had just touched, and I saw that it had changed to a bright-orange vine when I had looked away. At this point, I was getting a little annoyed, as if my control was mocking me, so I ran through the mass vines, brushing my hands over as many as I could, thinking of all the minecraft blocks I could as I touched the different vines. As I expected, (sadly) no vines changed instantly as I had intended, but they were all changed to exactly what i pictured when I touched them once I turned around to survey the [very annoying] delayed reaction. I was going to continue to try and instantly shape things, but the scene began to shift, and I couldn't do anything to stop it considering that I hadn't even stabilized it in the first place.

The dream continued and got much more exciting from there, but this entry is already fairly long, and the laptop I'm using is about to die, so I will continue into the awesome part of this dream as soon as I can get a hold of a computer for a good half hour. Please leave your thoughts and comments on my retardation at not having stabilized and the strangeness of the delay that I experienced during this dream. Thanx!

This is a lucid dream I had while listening to ‘The Stainless Steele Rat’
I was in a castle, I could suddenly hear the story playing in my ear at which point when I found I had no ear piece, I realised I was dreaming.
I could clearly see all the cobbles in the half light and spray of the rain, but on going through a door I still found myself inside the castle. As an experiment I tried flying which turned out as more of a semi controlled floating. At one point I was carrying a woman which was obviously prompted by the story that was playing in the background which I could hear and follow throughout the dream. I found myself going through several doors until one finally led to the outside, at which point I woke up.

The Walking Dead

We were over ran by zombies and trying to find a safe place. A lot of people died. We make it to a church. We are inside it and there is a man and woman there. I am up on a stage and there were doors. I hear and see a zombie moaning and turning a doorknob. Open it to kill it but two cups fall out. One was blue and one was turquoise. I treat the cups like they are full of zombie viruses.

I notice some tomatoes pilled high in the corner. I go back to the people and I see Laurie and Hershel from The Walking Dead. I assume now that I am Rick. I sort of hint to Laurie about the tomatoes and how we made "Something" from them to create explosives. She gets it and lets me know we will use them later.

I am now on a 4-Wheeler in my state trooper uniform and hat. I worry that I will attract all the zombies back to our place but I am looking for something. The landscape looks like Texas in the summer. Dry open pasture land. I see a old run down sign that looks like something from a Fallout game. It says something about a resort.

Then I get a flash of memory about how I went there and knocked on the door wanting in so bad. But the people inside where cruel and evil. I barely escaped alive.

But no that's not what I want. I see a trashed out mobile home. The metal frame looks good. I want it. Then I see it hauled off by something.

Now I am standing in an open parking lot. I see three of those mobile home frames outfitted to be solid bug sort of caged looking. They are stacked and hanging from one another independently from a crane. We have attached bits of broken rope and rags of all colors so that it is easy to climb up them and be high up and away from any zombies. I climb up and wonder why it is so easy and why I don't get tired. Then I see a severed thumb with a silver ring hanging from a rope. I am shocked at first. I pause to examine it and then quickly forget about it.

Now we are all in a comfortable living quarter inside one of the mobile homes. It is fully furnished and complete with everything we need. We are entertaining the kids with some sort of projector video game.

I wake up.

Another Poop Dream
I am at my parents and we are getting ready to go to General Convention (a church thing). I am pissed off and don't want to go. I am sitting in a recliner and my wife is next me saying something. I am annoyed because I am trying to read the Bible but she is talking. I get hateful and tell her to leave if she wants to. That I won't beg. As I am saying this I see a bookmark that says "Preach it, Thomas". I think this must be my grandfathers who is now dead.

I go up stairs to the bathroom. I am still grumbling how I don't want to go. I need to poop so I sit on the toilet. Then I find myself suddenly on the floor in front of the open door. I start to go but I see my mom may a face like what are you doing and then she waves me away like go ahead. I stand up and think no I should be on the toilet.

Then I remember that I dream this a lot and I say, "Am I dreaming? Am I dreaming?" I say the words but I don't really ask the question. It is just like something I was supposed to say and had no meaning.

I sit down on the toilet and hear the poop plop in the water.

Alarm clock wakes me up.

Italic Text = Personal Thoughts
Normal Text = Non-Lucid Segment
Light Purple Text = Partially Lucid Segment
Purple Text = Lucid Segment

I was attempting a WILD and became the closest I've ever got. I felt like I was in full sleep paralysis but despite this wasn't seeing or hearing any hallucinations. (I'm beginning to think hallucinations just don't happen for me, each time I've been in sleep paralysis I've never had any. Or maybe I've just not been in complete sleep paralysis yet.) After I while I got the urge to roll over, but resisted and just tried to focus on the HI I was seeing. I got quite uncomfortable, finding it hard to breathe, noticing the heat and weight of the duvet on top of me. But then... I don't remember anything else.

Next I know I'm in a dream, first thing I remember after attempting the WILD is being in this room where I'm checking my hands and fortifying the lucidity.

I walk out of the room and see that I'm in a tropical rainforest, similar to the place I was previously incubating with HI. I walk around for a bit but the dream becomes unstable and incredibly blurry. I rub my hands together and feel all the texture of the world around me, managing to re-stabilise the dream.

I walk into this open expanse. I'm still not fully conscious in the dream, but I guess the incubation I had of chinese dragons in the sky of this tropical rainforest enters my mind, as I take to the skies and try transforming into a chinese dragon. I see myself in the reflections of the waters and I am still in human form, but I am weaving effortlessly through the sky, just like a chinese dragon.

I have a false awakening. I'm laying on the floor in this room, surrounded by people talking about lucid dreaming. I get the impression that I'm a sort of test subject, but I also don't want to be here. I attempt to DEILD while still laying on the floor while in this dream, but I think I woke up properly and DEILDed because the voices of the people disappeared and I vaguely remember the feeling of my bed for a few seconds before I entered the next dream.

I'm instantly lucid in my kitchen. I decide to try turning the lights on and off, just to experiment with dream physics. They turn on, but I'm unable to turn them off again, so I just head outside.

It's early morning, there's sporadic streaks of orange darted about the dark cloudy sky. I begin walking to the street when I hear footsteps coming up behind me. I turn around and my mum's there. She hands me this cup she has in her hands, but when I try to take it she resists me, similar to a lucid dream previously. My lucid DC version of her seems to be very aggressive, I've noticed.

After a short while of struggling, I decide to try yelling commands at the dream, something I hadn't tried before. I yell "Let go of the cup!" and sure enough, she immediately stops. Almost robotically she yields the cup over to me. I wonder what else I could try with yelling commands, so to make sure my DC mum doesn't interfere with my lucidity as she has a tendency to be a pest in my lucids, I yell "Jump up and fly away!" she looks at me, somewhat confused, before leaping into the sky and flying away. I chuckle at how comically she flew away, and then take to the skies myself, flying in the opposite direction. I'm still holding on to the cup, using it as dream stabilisation by focusing on the solidity and texture of it. I decide I don't need it after a while and simply drop it.

I hear a crash and a yell behind me and I assume my mum had crash landed, but I don't really pay it any attention. I'm more interested in the DC that's standing on the street, in awe at the fact that I'm flying. I land and for some reason electrocute them with my hands. There's no electricity graphical representation, but as I aim my hands at them they shake violently before collapsing onto the ground.

I remember the Task of the Month, to find alien life and go on a date with one of them. I try conjuring a portal on the nearby wall, to no avail. I decide to use the door technique to change scenes with the door on the house nearby, but like every other time I've tried it I seem to not focus enough beforehand and simply walk through the door.

I'm inside this house and close the door behind, struggling to get it to latch on. The house has a seemingly endless hallway with lots of tiny rooms with people doing various tasks in each of them. I was looking for another door to try the door technique but every room in this house was open-plan.

Without warning, I have another false awakening. I'm back laying on the floor surrounded by these people. They've moved on to a different topic now but I still don't want to be here. I seem to get this pop-up in front of me, as if my eyes were a computer screen. It asks "Do you wish to leave the room?" To which I click "Yes."

I end up in a different room, I have no clue where I am but don't have time to find out. The dream fades to black and I wake up in my bed, completely confused. I wonder if I should DEILD again but after the long stream of dreams I decide I'd be better off simply journalling them so I didn't forget any details.

woke up did a RC my room it looked normal this time I got up it was still hard to walk I tried to yell more clarity but I just said it I rub my hands together I felt like I had a little more control but I couldn’t get my head on straight literally my head was leaning to the right I started to walk (the best I could) to my door I got their but it turned to my closet I fell to the ground opened my eyes again and I was BACK IN MY BED this pissed me off but I took a deep breath and tried to calm down and got up again fell before I got to the door while on the floor I imagined a grassy felid with a wooden fence felling the fence with my hand opened my eyes and I was back in my bed again finally I opened my door I went into the hallway looked to my right and where the A\C vent was suppose too be there was a gas oven with a oval window I went to the front room and my mom was setting on the side of the of the sofa closest to the front door I do another hand RC and it doesn’t work then I either stop being lucid or woke up.

Awareness - 9 / 10
Control 10 / 10

Well at first this dream started out for a good while as non lucid. I remember I was in this huge outdoors / camping store with a bunch of my friends. They had a hige jungle gym type thing set up that you could go climb on but it was about 6 stories tall!! Anyways, we all thought it looked fun and started climbing on it. As we neared the top, one of my friends fell off and as near as I could tell, plumeted to his death. (here comes a lawsuit) Anyways, this caused the dream to shift scenes very rapidly and then I was at this small lake.

So at this lake, it was evening and it was really beautiful outside. The sky was a deep shade of red with some orange mixed in and the lake was a blue / purple blend reflecting the sunset and the clouds. At first I was by myself. Then out of nowhere, some random guy came running up and told me plainly "Hey, did you forget? This is a dream! See ya!" Then he just kind of dissappeared and I was left there alone in amazement. Everything was so vivid and clear I thought surely I couldn't be dreaming. I then tried to remember how I got there. I had absolutely no clue and realized that in fact I WAS dreaming. (Funny thing that a DC is how I became lucid considering I am usually trying to get rid of them. Hehe)

It was one of those moments you never forget. Not only was I lucid, but I was so aware and in control of the situation as well. I instantly began running through my dream checklist in my head.
Step 1 - Stabalize the dream.
Well I did this by simply telling myself that this was MY dream and it wouldn't end or fade until I let it.
From there I went straight to step 3 - Meet this person I have been wanting to for so long now... Not only that, but it was a beautiful setting to meet them as well!
Well, I got about as far as thinking that and just was overwhelmed with excitement and woke up. Grrr....must... accomplish... dream... goals...

As soon as the excitement got to me I woke up and was just laying in bed looking at my dresser. I did a reality check just to be safe, but sure enough I was awake. Oh well, it was still an awesome dream. It's a good place to try and incubate for my next WILD, and finally accomplish my dream goals.

Current lucid dream goals...
-Stabalize the dream each time I become lucid
-See how fast I can run and if it is consistent
-Meet someone special I have been wanting to for a long time now

See ya!

[COLOR="blue"][COLOR="royalblue"]Non-Aware (Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="blue"]Partially Aware (Lucid Dream)[/COLOR] - [COLOR="navy"]Fully Aware and Vivid (Astral Projection(OOBE)[/COLOR]

I went to bed 22:48 and I lay on my side. I started my Gateway Experience Preparatory process in other words daydreamed as the same time as I did my exercises. I remember that I reached the wandering mind state and that I woke up from time to time in a groggy state and I looked at my hand.
On one of these awakenings I noticed that my thoughts felt more vivid and that my wandering mind become vivid visualizations or daydreams.
The last thing I remember was that I imagined grabbing paper you use after washing your hands on a pupblic WC, because it was easy to visualize and imagine the feeling of. Suddenly I realized that I really could feel it and that I was standing in the room I had visualized!
I had some inner voice, sounding different than my own saying "You can do anything you desire now".
Then I thought that I wanted to summon a person, I imagined my friend Martin and his girlfriend Sara.
But no one appeared...
I decided that i wanted to get out of this WC and get out on the street, and when I approached the exit which consisted of one double door, I see thirteen people's faces staring at me with a creepy stare. I recognize every face they are all people from my old class and I amazed of the accuracy of the details. I get out of the WC and try to start a conversation with them, but they don't answer, instead they start walking away from me and I follow them to see where they were going.
They took me to some kind of party with more familiar faces. I lost my awareness a little bit and then I start to talk to some people at the party, among those was my best friend David. Here I lost my lucidity, and I got worried that I wasn't asleep at all, because it felt so real.

I wake up and kept my eyes shut and remained still, but nothing happened so I got out of bed and recorded the dream.
the time was now 00:55
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[COLOR="royalblue"]When I fell asleep again I dreamed that I was on some concert and on the stage. My friend Axel gave me a microphone and said "It's not on just pretend to sing and we can watch the whole concert for free!".
I then saw that it was an Adele concert.

The dream changed and Adele was my teacher :shock: All people from the crowd was given a bag of candy and then a school test. It had weird questions as "Describe your friend David with on word" and for some reason I thought that was a hard question so I had much trouble with the test..[/COLOR]

When I woke up the time was 04:24

I start by feeling my usual flashes of euphoria into what is normally ecstasy, but today I don't get that oh so pleasurable feeling that makes me call it that. Instead, it feels like the nerves in my brain are stimulated in a liquid sort of way, then it goes down the sides of my neck and I will it back up to my brain and try to transform it into ecstasy, but the dream starts.

I have an OBE, casually getting up and walking away from my body. Sometimes my head gets stuck in the same spot where I'm resting, but not today. Next thing I know I'm falling down to an ocean where a cartoonish shark's jaws are open, waiting for me. Since it looks like a cartoon, I do a midair run right above where the shark just closed its mouth shut, missing me entirely as I zip away.

I am now on a rollercoaster in the clouds, but am not getting the thrill that rollercoasters provide, until I will the scene to become more vivid. It quickly gets 10 times more exciting once that happens. We reach a steep, actually completely vertical drop and while on it, the coaster comes off the track. Everyone, myself included, jumps out of the cars and we end up doing a mass skydive, with parachutes coming open below me. I reach back and do a pulling motion as if I came prepared, but no chute opens for me. I end up grabbing two DC's hands and float down gently.

I am in a hallway, with a room straight ahead of me. I do a quick glide across the floor into that room (think of the glide Android 17 does during the opening theme of Dragonball GT, the English version). In the room I see some DC's, my cousin included, sitting at a table. My cousin tells me that he won the lottery and is going to split the winnings with me. I tell him that's great, now just do that in waking life and we'll be set.

I'm alone in a void with T, one very hot woman. I could just take her right then and there, but I decide to play things by the book. She tells me, "We have to do this together," which is a thought played over and over in my head. So we start to strip together. I take off my shirt and she takes off hers, displaying ample bosom. I drop my pants and she does the same. She's wearing stunning black lingerie. Then she turns around, about to take off her underwear, so I turn around myself, take off my underwear, then turn back around to find that she's now sporting gymwear. I don't have time for this horseplay, it's time for some foreplay. I walk up to her, grab her waist, and kiss her. The dream ends.

I'm starring at a gray table with a fine grid in pin stripes of white and black. Softly and evenly lit. Gray on gray room. --I say out loud: "I can't believe I'm dreaming about a table." -Then I wake up.

I recall the vague impression the table was "somehow related" to my dreaming.

Im at Hama the blood benders house, its full of antiques that she doesnt want us to touch, some one messes up a display. lamb in a drawer. I am walking down discovery drive, powering up like Goku whilst mass amounts of chewing gum bursts out of the ground, pink and brown ect, im lucid, i do clarity now and it gets a bit clearer, gum entwining i wish to send all the gum to my friend. Im kinda half awake at this point, im walking towards my house, where Hama is now located, three black water benders seek to kill her, im an air bender. i ask them to give up, she is to strong but they go on. i wake up.

I was walking home when I saw a neighbor washing her clothes in a basin. There was also another basin beside her, filled with clear water. I got lucid right away because of the unusual scene, and I did the noseplug. It didn't work!!! D: D: D:

But I was so sure that it was a dream! I pinched my nose again, and it still didn't work. I went near my neighbor and said, "This is a dream, right?". She said, "Yes", while still washing her clothes. I pinched my nose a third time, really imagining myself breathing, and voila! I could breathe through my nose. I looked at the basin with water in it, and held my hand out to waterbend it. But all I could manage to do was create small ripples in the water. I tried concentrating hard, but I couldn't manipulate it as well as I normally could. I was getting a bit frustrated, thinking my control sucked so bad. I also recall thinking "LucidAvenger is jynxing me!" (We were talking on IRC earlier about my waterbending)

I walked away, trying to remember my lucid goals for the month. I must've lost lucidity somewhere in between. I remember drifting off into some non-lucids before I finally woke up to my alarm.

The first dream was about sleeping with my friends mum and it was great. It did feel like I was in control as the son walked in and I remember commanding in my head that he would be okay with it and that he would leave. Although when it was getting to the climax she disappeared and then I went out the room to try and find her (it was dark) someone came out of nowhere and grabbed me. I woke up but I wasn't actually awake. I was in bed in a bedroom similar to mine but not totally similar and there was a dog with big floppy ears at the edge of the bed just looking at me and licking it's paws. I was trying to move but I couldn't. I knew this was SP but didn't know what to do and then eventually woke up.

I was still quite groggy when I woke up and knew this state would be prime to falling back into it. Soon enough I was entering a car with a guy and we were going somewhere in a rush (felt like we were the cartel or something) and I was aware that I was dreaming again and the first thing I wanted to do was have sex. So I created a brothel and told the guy driving to stop. I got to the door of the brothel and remember laughing and looking at the letters on the door (the name of the brothel) and said to myself "not it's not called that" and thinked of another name in my head, looked away and returned my gaze and it had changed. I can only remember the letters MU. I'm not sure. I know letters and numbers aren't meant to come up in lucid dreams, basically i think it was just gibberish. I went inside and it was your typical brothel stairway to the left dotted with alluring women. i confronted the first one and said "I want you" and she said that she wasn't for sale. So I walked up the stairs and at the head of the stairs pointed at a women who I initially was a bit off put by her as she looked old. As I got closer though she was younger than i expected. She was wearing a yellow/ golden tunic type thing and she looked at me and stretched the black material she had underneath. We walked into her room and I was so excited but then I started to fear the snatcher guy that was in the last dream and started to panic. I tried focusing on the room but it became all blurry. I started to search for the guy in all the corners of the room and thought he was t the door.

Dreaming in this way is very hard because your constantly dealing with your sub conscience i.e when I was sleeping with my friends mum I kept worrying whether my friend would appear and sure enough he did. Maybe I should stop trying to do things that are so wrong! Although these dreams didn't feel like I was totally in control. I mean I could move around in them and that but the events that were taking place were hard to keep tabs on.

As for the second dream I woke up but again it was in this similar but slightly different bedroom as before. and there was the dog nonchalantly looking at me. This time I shouted wake up! and tried to move my hand but all I could see was a blur of a hand rather than physical movement. Whilst this dog kept sitting there.

What does the dog mean?

How do I get a better grip on these things?

Can you ever not wake up from SP?