lucid

last week during hiking i had 2 LD - but nothing interesting - in the end was sex. Tonight there was LD again. I bought wine and there wasn't enough money in my pocket. I thought - its dream and i can give the customer any paper, and only after that i really understood that it was a DREAM. (I think practise from rinpoche's book works) but i understood that this customer 'hold' me. I paid all my attantion on the flor and he let me go. I flew and made several somersault back in the air. It was really wanderfull. Then i want to make TOTY made portals, but they didn't work and i land. 3 people came to me, and become to fight and i tried to exit and awoke.

A Recent Peak

I recently saw a women's lib chick. I did the Step and Lean to get a better view as she leaned over. I got several good looks.

Last night I woke up to go to the bathroom and started thinking about her and ended up dreaming about her.

I was with J, I saw her breast. Her nipple looked funny, but her breast was really, really soft. That was the story at least. I don't remember feeling it. One of us said something about it and the other explained why it was so soft. I wish I could remember who said what.

A Dream Girl

I was in a weird setting. I don't really remember what it was, but there were girls about. I ended up doing a reality check and my hand kind of looked normal, then I had a thumb and 4 stubs.

I was off on my hunt. There was one really pretty girl with long, dark hair and I went to find her. I did find her and started kissing her, but my dream fell apart.

I had an FA, but I didn't fall for it. Thinking I was awake, and very disappointed, I did an RC anyway and I was still dreaming, so I found J again.

I told her I like small breasts like hers. She told me not to be shy, so I started feeling her up. This was more vivid than the other dreams I had.

I felt the bottom of her breast, and then forced my hand up to feel the rest of it. I got my hand around the rest of her breast. I didn't ever feel her nipple, but it was really nice anyway.

The End

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I meet some guy at an outdoor café. We talk about the lucid plane. I think I say something about reading Castaneda's teachings at the moment and ask him some question about my awakened hyper-lucidity experienced during the day. He is some big head of the dream warrior elite and is handing me out some important info and answering some of my questions. I only became semi-lucid at the middle of it, so I don't recall much.
Suddenly we are approached by two menacing individuals with swords and this guy tells me to deal with it and please cover his retreat. I agree, because he is to important to be caught. He hands me a sword I hadn't seen before and I stay behind to fight the two attackers. The first one is easy. Just demands some brute force. The second one is harder and I have to pick up the weapon of the previous one and fight with two swords. It feels awkward, because I have a katana on one hand and an european sword on the other hand. Somehow I manage, but honestly I feel that he gives up very easily and I don't know why. He simply runs away when he still could keep fighting.
I then had a rendez-vous with a group of dream warriors at some hideout I just learned about (from the other guy). It is some sort of cave. I enter through a round hole on a wall, like an air passage, which takes them by surprise. They point out that there are a bunch of other entrances, like normal sized doors. I tell them I thought they kept all the entrances locked, so I had to find a way to break in. They reply that the entrances are never locked, not even closed, as there are no doors at all. I find that strange. They say it is a much bigger security to simply never allow the secret of this place to be revealed. And if it is found out, why bother locking behind doors? If any enemy wants to confront them, they are always ready to battle, no point in running or hiding and avoiding the inevitable. I find that very brave and valiant. But then it proves to be shitty when we are suddenly surrounded by a bunch of the bad guys. I had been followed and the hideout had been discovered. My fellow dream warriors couldn't be more pissed off with me. I couldn't be more pissed off with me! I prepare to fight alongside them, but they tell me to go get WakingNomad to help out. I think it's a good idea, but I also feel that they use it to get rid of me for a while.
Following their instructions, I go look for WakingNomad and I find him at some art studio looking beyond some canvas, seemingly spaced-out. "Hey Nomad, remember me?" Nothing. "Hey man, you're needed to help some dreamers in trouble." Still nothing besides a vague look, like "Really?" "Hey, you really don't remember me?" (While I think to myself "we had sex on our last dream encounter, bro") I walked around a little bit, but he wasn't really responding. I think I gave up.(...)

Today, I had a horrible lucid dream. However, this is not an exceptional case. Lately, all my lucid dreams have been like this.

... random dreams ...

I wake up to sleep paralysis. I get out from bed, try to walk around, but my vision is very weak. I can barely see anything. So I decide to let the paralysis pass.

I find myself back in bed, having the paralysis. I wait it out until it quiets down. I get up. Vision is better now. I get out of my bedroom, to the corridor. My vision gets horrible. It's like my vision is tilted diagonally, and one side of my vision is black. I can barely walk.

I try to improve my vision by focusing on things. No effect.
I can see the floaters I have in waking life with vivid detail, but that's about it. I desperately try a stupid exercise: I'm alternating between touching a door knob and another thing near it (not clear what). After a bit of doing it, the door knob and the other thing started randomly getting invisible. This startled me, but I kept doing it, and they kept getting in and out of sight.

Then I say "To hell with it!", and I decide to do something fun. I stumble down the stairs somehow, and get out. I can see our old door that we don't even have anymore. I hear beatiful bird chirping outside, it makes me feel better.

I stumble into our grandma's building (she lives next door).
In there she seems like she was expecting me, and that totally broke my lucidity, and I started talking with her about nonsensical stuff...

And that's about the quality of every lucid dream I have been having in the past few months.

5/30/12

DILD

I'm in the clubhouse eating spaghetti. I saw my classmate there in the corner talking to each other. When i got their attention, they come near my place. I decided to join them but they are ignoring me. So I wondered why am I ignored?

Then I said to myself unintentionally, don't worry im just dreaming. Then I realized, WTF I AM DREAMING?! I did reality check to make sure and it did.

My dream starts to fade but I rubbed my hands and my dream starts to focus. Then I saw a stairs, ( NOT VERY HIGH) and i jumped off that stairs and I was to glide but I woke up.

When I woke up, I can't moved on to what happened because It's my first LD! So I decided again to do reality check and I was in a false awakening. I decided to change my dreamscape since Im in my bedroom, but I can't do it. So I just woke up.

5/29/12

DILD (nap)

I was in the passenger seat with Giles driving a car at night. He was really high and decided to not steer for awhile. I grabbed the wheel and yelled at him to drive. He decided not to break either. Someone in the passenger seat reached up to hit the break with his foot. We were coming up to a turn too fast and we needed to break. I yelled, "BREAK!" and then "harder, harder!". Eventually I put my foot over his and slammed the breaks. We turned into a gas station. The car next to us had the cabin exposed from the front. Giles got out of the car, hit the next car, and passed out inside. We tried to get him out as a cop showed up. I dipped out because it was hopeless at that point. He was getting a DUI and I was arguing with some other guy at the gas station.

I was involved in some sort of tussle when I became lucid. I flew around for a minute and ended up in the back of some car. I take a blue and white lucid pill. I can't swallow it, so I grab some coffee from the front seat. It was pretty gross, and the pill was still hard to get down. I start flying around again with little success. Without any targets to look at, I fly for a bit and then fall back to the ground. Every once and awhile I can see a gas station or restaurant sign and fly to that. But I end up just landing on my stomach, barely reaching the top of the target. Eventually I got to the top of the gas station. I was trying to think of a way to fly better. I took a red and white flying pill and vividly imagined the sensation of flying. I built up my confidence. And....no luck.

For awhile every I try and fly I hit some black cables that are impossible to see. I will fly out from under an overpass, but for a few yards outside of it, there would be a series of black cables that I would clip, lose my momentum, and then fall to the ground. At some point I am getting chased by two big guys. I keep trying to fly away and failing. Eventually I see a large red mars in the distance. I focus on pulling to toward me, and I can fly. However, as I approached it, it was only like 8 ft. above the ground. I land on my stomach on top of it and pull myself up. They guys are still within reach so I try to fly from my little 6 ft. diameter planet. But when I jump off, it gives and I don't get any launch.

I find some girl in a gas station and I approach her. I give her a flirty smile and start kissing. She is into it at first. But the I bring my dick into the situation and she refuses. I head back out and try flying around some more.

After awhile I am around a friend of mine and we are on a beer pong team. I look who we are playing against, and it is that girl. I go up to her again and whisper that we are both hot so we should do this. Again, she is into it at first that then backs off.I lose lucidity and start playing BP. They have a normal rack, but we have like 5 cups and 4 bottles of beer stacked on top of the cups. I was wondering how to play with this set up. The girl's teammate said, "It is like an active volcano against a passive volcano." At the time, I understood it as he can't really make our cups because some of them are bottles so we were passive. I lost the dream soon after

My grandmother allowed my sisters and I to stay at her house and watch TV until her favorite shows came on. Ten minutes before her favorite show airs, we pile into her car and she takes us to a hospital. We didn't go inside, we just walked around the grounds. The hospital looked like my old house, and the hospital was next to Barry Street. Barry is my father's name. I was extremely confused for a moment in the dream.

On the hospital grounds an old man was performing a marriage ceremony for two cats. We met up with my parents. My sisters decided to go into my grandmom's car, and I my parents'. I realized in the car that my sisters were being driven straight home, while my parents were going out to Lowe's. Inconvenient, since I had to pee.

I have no idea how I became lucid. I did the noseplug, and that was successful the first try. By that point it was very dark, I thought maybe I had woken up. I tried imaging myself rubbing my hands together—nothing. I was afraid of moving my real body or fully waking up. I decided to move what I thought was my real hands, and rather than feeling friction, they felt tingly. I was still dreaming. I stared at my palms, and I managed to stabilize my dream a little. I then counted my fingers, and there was an extra on my left hand.

I remember also reading text as an RC. I was on a crowded bus; someone had hairy lumps on his chest/chin. I don’t remember what device I was reading off of, but when I glanced at it a second and third time, the sentence that initially made sense turned into nonsense. I decided to float out of the roof of the bus.

I also decided to crawl around the place, it helped a little in stabilizing my dream more. I felt a little bit of sensation on my limbs, but not as much as I would expect. I had to focus on how everything feels in order to feel any sensation.

So I decided to do some metal bending. I did it simply with thought, and don’t do any cool moves with it, so it was not as exciting as I thought it would be. I decided then to fly. I sprouted wings and took off. I couldn’t feel my wings, and had to focus on their movements if I wanted to feel them at all. I felt no air movement while I was flying. I flew around a fort, and I saw some monster decoration on the ground. I saw two other men flying with bows and arrows. I began following one, but then realized that I could summon my fiancé! I saw a portal next to me and threw myself into it, tumbling. I was in darkness again, and rather than stabilizing I decided to wake up.

The dream started with me being in my room, I was in the middle, hidden in a pile of strange stuff, it looked somewhat blueish. A lot of people were coming in but I had the whole room filled with poisonous gas while pinching my own nose (and not noticing I didn't even have to breathe...) so they all died while I just waited there, until the S.W.A.T. came in to stop my evil deeds. They had guns and stuff so I had to came out, I was supposed to kneel on the bed, putting my hands on my legs so I couldn't do anything bad anymore. I complied but I didn't really care, and a moment later I started to RC for fun, the first time in a dream I was looking at my hands as a real RC.
Look at the hand: 5 Fingers
Count the fingers one by one: 6 Fingers...
Look at the hand: 5 Fingers
Count the fingers one by one: 6 Fingers...?
It started to hit me I was dreaming, I tried to see the 6th finger and there it was, in between my thumb and my pointing finger. Suddenly I was on a weird cliff in space, trying to stabilize through the WSS. However somehow it got swallowed up by a passing asteroid, and my lucidity along it. The asteroid was apparently dangerous to a planet which was close so I crushed the asteroid into fine dust with whatever ability, I have no clue what I did. Then the dream became hazy and I only remember random stuff with a weird species, then I fell back into sleeping, probably non-REM.

Spoiler for Improvement Notes:

Got lucid through a new reality check - good
Immediately tried to stabilize - good
Fell back into the dream - very bad

I randomly became lucid when I was in this tall office building. I honestly can't remember how I became lucid, but I immediately left the one office I was in, to go outside and play. I wish I had remembered to do the 5-sense technique that Hyu and I had talked about yesterday. I didn't need it for stabilization, everything was nice and clear. I just wasn't very focused on anything, other than getting out of the building. So I think things went kinda fast and I wasted the dream. Still, I'll post everything I remember. As soon as I opened the door, I entered the stairwell of the building. I could see EXIT signs, perfectly neon green, with odd clefts down the center. Like someone had tried to bend them in half. They still worked fine though. So I went down one flight of stairs, and reached a hallway which appeared to be the bottom floor. On either end of the hallway were doors with EXIT signs above them. There was a small window on each door that I could see sunlight spilling in from, so I knew it would take me right outside. I just needed to choose left or right. I went right, and opened the door: an identical stairwell as the last. I repeated all that and chose the right door again. Same thing. This happened 3 or 4 more times before it dawned on me to go LEFT. As I headed toward the left door, I noticed that something had eclipsed the light coming in the window of that door. It was a person! I got scared, I don't know why. The door opened and a creep asian dude came toward me slowly. I shrieked, but not in a scared way exactly. More like you shriek when you're playing chase with someone, and they suddenly get you. So I started running away backwards up the stairs, and he kept following. I kept screaming and laughing, and he backed me into an office room. I'm still lucid at this point, but too wrapped up in this game to change anything about it. Oh well. So he's coming toward me, and I'm backing up against the wall, but I'm having horrible dizziness and coordination. He's holding an overturned martini glass, and starts pushing it toward my face, smiling mischievously. I just flick at the glass with my fingers, to get it out of my face, when he flips it over, and it fills with a green martini or something. And he says "Ta-da!" Before I could even say dah fuq, I woke up.

I've noticed lately that I'm having these random DILDs at the same time I would be having my previous DEILDs. I noticed that when I wake up and go back several times like I always did, I'm not remaining still. I open my eyes, and turn over, trying to get comfortable, and part of the reason I'm doing this is because it's getting so hot now. I'm going to get another fan and see if that helps. Not that DILDs are bad, I just prefer DEILD's.

dream
lucid

i was living in a smaller house my daughter was a teenager, we were in the front yard playing with my dog i realized that i do not have a dog and knew i was dreaming. i told my daughter this was all a dream and asked her what she wanted to do and she said nothing she was having fun playing with the dog and me

Italic Text = Personal Thoughts
Normal Text = Non-Lucid Segment
Purple Text = Lucid Segment

I was hanging with a friend, let's call them "M". For some reason there had been an event which caused M to lose all memories of the last few years, wiping all knowledge of who I and her other friends were.

M was going slightly crazy, she was getting all the Christmas decorations out in May and setting them all up in her house, me and the other people there were practically yelling at her wondering why she was preparing for Christmas in May, but she didn't seem to care. All she questioned was who we were, what we were doing in her house and what business it was of ours.

We continually got frustrated while she was running around the house finding places for all these Christmas decorations, as more were placed we decided to go along with the Christmas in May idea, but request that she at leasts follows our traditions. She stops everything that she's doing and stares at us before saying, "You tell me you're my friends, yet there is no evidence of that... why should I follow traditions that I don't even know?"

One of my other friends, "E", gets upset. She runs out of the house and M huffs and gets back to putting up the Christmas decorations. Soon everyone else besides me leaves, trying to look for E and comfort her.

That's when the entire dream kind of... resets. It was almost like a false awakening but the dream just bounced right back to the beginning of where it started, only this time, it was just me and M. I start questioning the reality of the situation and before I know it, I'm lucid.

I hold my hand out and inspect the 8 fingers I have, before M turns around and starts laughing manically. At this point I don't think I truly had time to understand what it meant to be in a dream, I was maybe at Layer 2 lucidity. I panic because of how evil M is sounding and try to back away and walk through the wall to escape, only the wall remains solid.

M runs for me, leaping on top of me and a knife appears in her hand. I try my best to will her out of existence, or will myself to another place, but the best I can do it repel her off of me but she just runs back up with the knife in hand and starts stabbing my arm.

I give up on lucid powers and somehow manage to grab the knife from her hand and try stabbing her. She starts laughing again as I thrust the knife down but it just bends as if it was plastic, no damage was made to her at all. In my shock, she gets the knife back off me and starts stabbing again.

The pain shooting through my arm is so realistic and I can't seem to focus on anything. I close my eyes and will myself to be somewhere else.

The pain stops, I open my eyes and I'm back in the waking world.

(i do not remember much of this dream)
as i do my RC i count 6 fingers, i decide to complete the process with a nose pinch, it confirms what i already know, i am dreaming, the only other part of this dream that i remember is trying to fly (i do not remember the setting or if i was successful or not)
when i wake up i am surrounded with a harsh reality, i revive the news from my Dad, my Uncle is dead.)

Woah I've been naughty with the dream journal. Naughty as in not posting my non lucids. Bad ophelia.

Anyway, I was attempting my (formerly) usual DEILD, and there were just too many things waking me up... coughing kids dogs .. it's a holiday today. So around 10:30am, after yelling at Chris to let the dogs back inside because they were barking, and all but giving up on the DEILD, I began to drift off. Then I can't tell if this was real or not, but I heard the sound of a car hitting its breaks, and it lasted unusually long. Like 10 seconds maybe. I just kept listening, waiting for the car to stop screeching and be ok, or hear a crash. I heard a BIG BIG crash! I remember feeling sooo heavy and lethargic, and I wanted to get up and go check for hurt people. Almost felt like sleep paralysis, but not quite. I went straight into a dream, but didn't realise it. I was still thinking of the crash though, and found myself talking to my boss, Claudia, about it at work. So there I was in the bakery, and we were all "Ohhh, did you hear that wreck?" And she started to say something about some regional bakery members in reference to the wreck, but it made no sense. I said "Wait, what? Say that again?" And she just walked off toward her computer. I thought for a second, "That made no sense. I JUST heard that car wreck from my bedroom, but now I'm at work?" DOH! Lucid.

So the dream immediately went all snowy, but I remained calm. I followed Claudia, asking her to wait and talk to me. Hoping that would stabilize things a bit. I could barely see, so I was just following her in my mind, since i know that bakery like the back of my hand. I looked at my hands incidentally, couldn't see much through the technicolored snow. But I could hear and feel around just fine, so I went with that. I made it to Claudia's desk, and sat on the floor for some reason, trying to get her to tell me more about the wreck. Nothing. I stood up, and my vision came back. Now it was Chris on the computer, and he handed me a post-it with some writing on it. "This is the grocery list Mommy." The only two words on the list were: carrots, frosting. I laughed and said, "Oh, so you want carrot flavored frosting?" He said "Nuh uh, ewwwww." And for a split second i was going to indulge this part of the dream, and go shopping around the store for damn carrots and frosting. But then clarity hit me again, and I said, "No I want to play!" So I went down the back hall towards prepared foods department, hoping to find on of the hot chefs that work there. I felt the front of my jeans, and sure enough I had big boy parts. I got to the kitchen but it was empty. So I just messed with myself for a bit. Something I don't think I've ever mentioned before, but when I feel it, it doesn't exactly feel like it's mine. Like it's attached to me, but I don't get alot of sensation. It still turns me on, like if I were touching another guy, but still not the same. So I had the thought to lick my hand. That changed everything. (If this is getting to be too much, stop reading. I'm trying to be vague, but still.) It's like I woke up a non-existent proprioceptor, in a non-existent fallace. A true phantom nerve.. except usually people feel that when they've lost an appendage, not when they've never had it to begin with. Small detail, but noteworthy nonetheless. Then I noticed my assistant manager appear in the kitchen. We'll call him E. Now I've dreamed about him before. I don't particularly like him, but if I were single and desperate. And possibly drunk. And if it was dark, then I might do it once. At any rate, lucid desperation also counts for something, so I said "Yoh E, come here." He was rushing around and said "Ok, gotta do something first, brb." I said "No you don't, COME HERE." So he did a 180 and ran into my arms. Felt incredibly real, like I was really holding someone. I remember the feeling of his shirt, it was this ribbed black polyester, but was flowy and breathed nicely. Vision was still a bit snowy, but I was 100% going on physical sensations now. He went straight for my neck, and started biting it in a really sensual way. Fuck yeah. I told him to grab it, and he started jerking it really fast. I was in heaven. He kinda stopped for a second, as if he wanted to go ahead and have sex, but I said "No no, keep going.." He did. Dream faded. Woke up.

Still don't know if that car crash was real or not. I went outside but I didn't see anything. Cool dream.

I have to say that the day that I had this dream I was visiting my family, so I was sleeping in the room that I slept since I was a kid to 2 years ago when I moved to the city that I'm living now.

Non-Lucid part:
I'm somewhere with my mom and my best friend D.
I'm going to an interview for a job related to psychology in few minutes.
My mom complains about my clothes because they are wrinkled.
I am using a gold social shirt, that I don't actually have.
I fix the shirt and go to the factory, I'm there. I'm in the entry of the hangar where I should answer to a questionary.
From the gate I see one woman inside the building and she tells me that there is a door in the right side of the building.
I do how she said and enter in the building. There is a computer inside of it where I have to answer the questions and I start.
I remember of answering some idiot questions like "What is the origin of your name in your opinion ?".
One cousin of mine appears next to me and start to disturb me and I get worried about don't having enough time to finish my questionary. I tease him calling him "big-headed" but stop doing that because his dad is near. I think "why didn't I come early ?" but I get to finish it and go out from that hangar.
I go to a square near from there and meet some friends, including D and an aunt of mine. They are near to a bush breathing (not voluntarily or not knowing what was that) a gas that is coming from beneath of the bush that causes visual and olfactory hallucinations. They are all saying things like "what a crazy smell" and "I'm high".
I knew that was the gas that was causing all of that things, but for some reason I didn't tell anyone and I couldn't feel the effects like them.
I start flying around like crazy asking why I couldn't feel it.
It's not the first time that I have this behavion in non-lucids when I get angry.
D calls me and says "Come here that I will show you why you can't feel it" and goes start to go to outside the square running, I go beside him flying.

Lucid Part:
I find myself in a street not too near from that square. I'm lucid that I'm dreaming.
It was not a high lucidity level.
I start floating around the streets with not much altitude and the dream starts to fade. I stabilize it.
I want to go to the top of a building and want to do it by jumping, I jump once but not too high, jump again and almost get it, but before falling to the floor I start swiming and get to the terrace of the building.
I'm always repeating "It's a dream, It's a dream" this time.
Over the building the dream fades out very fast and I start spining my body when I couldn't see anything but darkness. It leads me to a FA.

FA:
I wake up in the room of my house feeling "a little of SP", my hand is feeling weird and a big part of my body is dorment.
Some seconds after I wake for real in a completely different position.

PS: After writing the dream in my DJ I realized that the square of the dream is very alike to one square wich is in the way of the bus I used to go to work everyday.

Dream Stats:
Went to sleep: 00:10am
Duration: ~30min (25 non-lucid / 5 lucid)
Woke up at: 4:30 am

I've been slacking on my DJ ;A;
But I'm starting back up! I promise!
So I've had like 5 or 6 'becoming lucid' moments since the last time I posted, but I always just fade to black immediately.

Last night's dreams:

I was at my school(?) and I played a song. I became famous and millions of people came to listen to me play. There was much more to this dream, but I don't remember it. It was nice, though.

I did a reality check and became lucid. I reached over and grabbed onto someone, trying to feel of their hair and their glasses so I could anchor myself, but I still faded to black very quickly u.u

I was at school and had been assigned some sort of story to write and my friend hadn't done it yet.

I was walking down a street and came across a 3-way redlight (the same one in I had in my non-logged Legend of Korra inspired dream) telling MaximumRevolver about that dream. Specifically, that I was walking and was stopped by a policeman when I tried to turn left instead of right. He tells me he thinks he saw my dad and my stepmom, but I tell him he didn't, and he asks me if I can hear him. I say yes, and he says he wants to talk quietly about something (I don't remember what. We were talking about something while walking down the street before we came to the redlight.)