memorable

So today I was feeling kind of transparent, so I took a REALLY long nap and had a really long crazy dream.

I woke up in my room, and for a minute flipped the switch in my head that I was dreaming. I saw my dream self-shift up from my waking body and settle into the dream scenario and within this amount of time I went from aware I was dreaming to red alert. It was very strange. I totally changed.

I got up, looked around for a bit, it was dim in my room and I could make up lumps of random stuff in the room. When I got up my body didn’t get up with me, it was like I was too ‘sore’ to get up so instead of my physical body within the dream walking around only my vision moved around as if I was watching someone and not actually playing a part in the dream. I was aware of this and didn’t like the idea that I was being shut-off.

As I tried to get up I tried and it was almost like gravity was too heavy and pulled me down to the ground.
Then a different scenario popped up. The slumlord was home and he was complaining on the phone to someone about a pirating incident and that there might be some sort of tracking device in the neighborhood. I kind of said “okay…” to myself like it wasn’t weird but it was.

I couldn’t find my mom anywhere. In waking life she was still at work but in the dream the slumlord said she was missing and didn’t seem to give a damn, he was too worried about there being ways to find more ‘movies for free’ and continued to walk around the house in a frenzy, it was really annoying.

I looked sat down on the couch and realized there was a movie with my dogs in it playing except it as like someone edited the video footage and put their creativity into producing a movie about my dogs, which is ironic because in waking life my baby coco died from a bladder stone and this footage was kind of like a gift from my subconscious about remembrance as it reminded me of family home videos I used to watch a lot when I was younger, except it was staring my dogs. I remember in the video one of my dogs was barking at something and then for some odd reason there was pixie dust remnants around the dog, which was one of the edits.


So I got up and checked my phone and realized that all my contacts where replaced with strange names or unrecognizable characters. One of my contacts that I needed, my mom, was listed under some strange name that I can’t remember. I tried calling the number then realized that I got a text from the number when calling, it said something like “I’m over at…..house, not coming back EVER” I took this as if the person, my mom, was serious. I closed my phone while staring at some bizarre photos that reminded me of porn but all blurred out and thought how they could on my phone, apparently one of my unknown contacts was sending me perverted crap. (I have a flip phone that is definitely not 4g or photo compatible) I then went around the room wondering what to do. My imaginary friend in the dream who is also a spirit ghost asked me what I was going to do about this as if there was a reasonable answer. I just shrugged and then I heard some strange noises outside my window. I looked out the window and saw a car pass, nothing unusual. I then saw my imaginary ghost friend pull out an ipad device and show me something strange on the United States map on a very strange map? I then asked “what is that, I app where they tell you about zombie outbreaks?” I said jokingly and then I woke up while still annoyed that the slumlord was truly deserving of his name.

There was a skinny teenage boy that lived with his mother in a big house in the country. Sometimes I was this boy. The mother and son both had some extreme mental conditions that made them do crazy things for strange reasons. They were constantly seeing things that weren't there, but it was so real to them that they never knew what was real and what was in their heads. The boy (Me) took a nature walk through a beautiful landscape on his property. The whole time, the top roof of my mouth was throbbing and burning, as if someone had taken a razor blade to it. I could feel it completely. during the walk, my "brother" was occasionally beside me, however I did not have a real brother. I/He lived a crazy life at home. There were always new "visitors" or a "new Mom", all of which sought to harm the boy. The mom experienced the same situations. Sometimes when the mother was having a spell, she would feel the need to kill her own son, and it was always justified in her head in some way. Other times, she was a normal, caring and lovable mother. one day, the mom spotted a hooded figure walk swiftly past the sliding doors that led to their patio. The mother, son, and "friends" all searched outside, but never found any trace of the scary man who they knew posed a threat. Later, the boy found another boy that looked identical to him in a spare bedroom. System of a Down was playing in the background, and we fought for a long time. We wanted each other dead for some reason. I had always had the upper hand (which is weird since they both were 'me' (the boy).) I was on him, throwing punches like mad and trying to stab him with a wire. Somehow, the fight ended but was never resolved, but it got me thinking differently and set the entire dream in a different tone. "I'm going to escape. Mom wont even notice." I quietly crawled out the front door, and once i was outside, I immediately began to sprint to my car. However like most dreams where you are trying to escape something dreadful, it was like i was treading through cement. I was yelling "We're going to be fine, Mom! We are going to make it just fine!" Unfortunately, my mother was trapped in this sort of bizarre fantasy land of terrible and strange things, and she was in too deep to escape. In fact, the visions only got worse when she tried. However i decided i did not want this to stop me from living a normal life, because i knew i would have a chance at it if i escaped and she didnt come after me. I finally made it into my car. I turn the key and I wake up in a sweat.

Fragment 1 - 1319 house movie night aw yee
My sister and I are watching a movie in the 1319 living room. It starts to get quite violent, at which point mom turns it off. I'm like hey now, and Jess says that she's already seen the movie, so HA mom, can't protect her delicate eyes and sensibilities from nothin' 'cause it's too late. Except y'know she didn't talk like that. That's just me, writing this down now. Hello.

The movie itself featured something about a barbarian camp at night being invaded by women on horseback. Or maybe just a couple women. A small-scale invasion. I'm not sure what happened that was so violent.

Dream - Volcano Nostalgia Blast
I'm looking at a curly-haired toddler kid who's standing at the edge of this fricking lava stream. The point he's standing on is a sort of corner (from the lava's perspective), and he's definitely on the verge of falling in, but his parent, who's standing nearby, doesn't seem to care.

Actually the parent is literally just recording the kid with his video camera, which is what I'm seeing. A really crappy home video. It's like I'm watching it online, and like I'm there, and like I'm the parent looking through the camera lens. So it's basically all of those things. My dream brain isn't great at perspectives but I love it anyway <3

Anyway the kid kept performing this almost sort of childlike ritual, where he'd drop a ring that HE MADE (it looked fabulous, gold with a diamond on it, and he made it somehow I have no idea how it was a Dream Fact) into the lava, where it would sink. And he'd say something sad and regrettable about that. He seemed fairly like, distraught, and also very much in danger of falling right into the lava.

The parent didn't seem to care about this possibility. He just kept recording what was going on, as though very dedicated to capturing his son's antics without interruption or disruption by himself. Really though, an interruption would've been just the thing in my opinion.

The scene replayed a couple times, with the kid opening his grubby fist to drop the ring into the lava, where it would sink in a sort of non-violent kind of way, barely melting. As though it were simply disappearing into the lava. And the kid would rave about that in his childish way, and I'd be concerned for his safety, and then at one point he finally just fell right in. He dropped in like he was doing a pencil dive into a swimming pool, and pretty soon all you could see was his curly hair, and then nothing. Once again, the parent was just remarkably entirely not-the-least-bit upset.

This was probably inspired by the fact that I listened to Gollum's song last night, for the first time in years. It's actually basically the end of Lord of the Rings III, come to think of it. THAT IS VERY, VERY STRANGE.

Another part of the dream (I'm pretty sure) was watching the volcano that caused this lava stream erupt, and watching the glorious golden sparkling lava follow a sort of path down towards a village. There was an indentation down the side of the mountain that led to the village, because that was the path the villagers would use. It was sort of a perfectly rectangular channel, quite shallow, but the lava nevertheless followed it without overflowing.

I distinctly remember walking up the path, only to see the lava coming my way, and quickly going back the other direction to find lava already down that way as well. Crazy stuff! I did a lot of running around and freaking out. Also it was night time or perhaps just incredibly smoggy, and the lava was quite bright and nice to look at. I wasn't super afraid of it either, which was nice. Lava used to be the stuff of nightmares for me, when I was a kid.

Dream - Airplane Game => Infiltration Anime
SO LET'S SEE HERE

Alright so first off I was just watching my brother play this airplane game, where you were this chubby little bumblebee-shaped airplane flying over an ocean in a warzone. Your objective was to sneak past the battlefield without attracting the attention of other planes, because you didn't have ammo (you had to use cover a lot but I'm not sure what the cover was), grab up some ammo from behind enemy lines (two ammo bunkers), and then unload it on these two battleships that were side-by-side in the water (between the two ammo bunkers), apparently sitting targets for an airplane. Also there were these two walls, each between a battleship and an ammo bunker, so you could snatch up ammo in relative peace before curving overtop the wall and divebombing the battleship of your choice with bombs and machine guns. At this point, you'd be noticed by the enemy planes (also bumblebee-shaped, I think?), who would fly in, and it would become a battle mission instead of ... bumblebee stealth. So all in all it was a pretty neat game that I kinda wish existed IWL. OH WELL. Maybe someday.

Anyway I watched him play and then gave it a shot myself, managing to sneak behind enemy lines, grabbing up as much ammo as I could in one go, and then going over the wall and trying to bomb the battleship closest to me. Once the enemy planes engaged, however, I got a bit distracted trying to shoot one down with machine gunnery, and yo it was pretty hard to aim.

At some point I stopped being a plane and became a person, the ocean battlezone turned into an underground car garage sort of area, and the battleships stayed where they were. I didn't actually notice when all these changes occurred. I seriously have no idea, maybe the dream blacked me out or something. I should try to pay more attention to weird changes in dreams, amiright?

Also there was a door and hallway that led to the first floor of the 1319 house somehow. So that was pretty neat! :3

(Oh I could note that in recent dreams it's been relatively easy to see the connections between the dreams and recent real life experiences. I could do a ton of that, but last time I did that my dreams started to reflect reality more and more and that sucked. So nah.

This has inspired my belief that the way you write your dreams down, and what you write down, goes on to affect your dreams in turn. So if you focus on the emotions, you'll start to be more invested emotionally in your dreams, and if you're struck by the details and note them down, it'll show in your dreams by them bein' more detailed, and if you start to notice logical discrepancies you'll notice 'em in your dreams as well. That's my theory~)

Anyway the dream started to have another odd change. It was no longer about the game at all, the battleships weren't even relevant to anything anymore, and it even started to change so that I wasn't a central character, I was myself on the outside of the scenario, watching it as an anime with my boyfriend. But that change was more gradual, because when it started out I was totally a main character, even as the anime's side characters started to show up.

So now the scenario was that I and my group were assassins or infiltrators trying to get into the 1319 house so we could take somebody out (not anyone in my family, although they were in the house as well). Unfortunately, we were pretty incompetent, so we couldn't figure out how to get past this one locked door. (I think, in the dream, I was sort of surprised by the fact that we hadn't planned for any locked doors.)

Then a couple female cops showed up and started patrolling with guard dogs. I was surprised by another thing, which was that the dogs didn't sniff us out at all. Really, they didn't change anything.

At this point I somehow managed to get right past the cops and up to the locked door, now expecting them to have left it open (even though that would've been awfully shoddy of them), and found that it was not simply unlocked but actually cracked slightly open. I ducked through and proceeded without stopping, trying to find a hiding place so that when the cops went back inside they wouldn't run into me. My plan was to head back later and open the door from the inside for my assassin buddies.

The indoor bit looked like the first floor of the 1319 house, heading towards the kitchen. Neat.

I saw white wooden closet doors to my left (all nostalgic with them wooden slats) and went in to find myself in an orange-lit concrete sort of machinery back room. I was a bit nervous about their being bugs, but I hid back there anyway. There was a sort of drop-off ledge thing (FRICKIN. ARCHITECTURE.), basically a drop in the floor by about two feet. I crouched down there, with some junk to either side of me, still worrying about/imagining a cricket or spider crawling up the wall. I also managed to control those thoughts, however. I think I didn't really want my expectations to start being self-fulfilling prophecies.

At this point someone walked by the door outside, casting a bit of a shadow or somethin', and I crouched down against the ledge. It really hid me quite well. Also it was pretty nice and clear, semi-HD. Like, the feeling of crouching there was quite vivid.

Then I heard (and sort of visualized) my Dad walking through the house calling to my sister. She responded from another floor, and he corrected his path.

I think this is about the point the perspective started to shift from first person to me watching an anime with my boyfriend. I saw my character from outside, and saw he was a brown-skinned dude with orangeish curly hair, in sort of an anime style. He presumably let the rest of the assassins in, and they all proceeded to be ambushed by loads of police.

At this point it was revealed that every assassin had some sort of communicator thing on one ear, which was actually controlling their actions and turning them into very professional robots. The police broke them (the communicators now had frayed wires sticking out the end), and at this point every one of the perhaps six or seven assassins was now bleeding from that side of their head. The police were saying that with the controllers broken, they'd be free to make their own decisions ... but judging by the looks on the assassins' faces, they still had every intention of carrying out their mission. Maybe the programming was more than skin-deep, or maybe the transistors hadn't been controlling their actions after all.

ANYWAY THEN I WOKE UP 8)

Dream
Lucidity
False Awakening


I was having a firefight with some terrorists and I was killing them with a desert eagle that had a laser on it. I remember doing parkour and fighting some hobo calling me a fag before that. I was then with C. Alexander and some black girls watching something on world war 2. I remember saying Germany was not as bad as Japan. Alexander and I then laid together and her grandma got mad so I grabbed my stuff and left for the airport to catch my flight. I missed the exit so I took the next one. I was on a hill and there were a lot of buildings and roads that curved a lot. I got mad because the layout of the parking lot was stupid so I woke up. I had a false awakening. I couldn't move my head and when I tried, I could only move it a little bit. I told myself to wake up again and I did, but it was another false awakening. I did a reality check of my hand and part of it was transparent and would appear and reappear and I went lucid. I got excited and noticed my dream ending. I tried to dream spin but couldn't. I woke up again. This time I was pretty sure it was a real awakening and was started to get scared but upon counting my fingers, I realized I wasn't and I became lucid again.
With my right arm, I grabbed my head and pulled it up, making it possible for me to move it again. As I was getting up, I felt as if my mind was rising, maybe I was having an OBE. I looked at the bed to see if my body was still there but it wasn't. Everything felt so real. My objective for my next lucid dream was to explore the dream scene. I was in my room and went to the kitchen, where a purple desk with a fluffly white and beige cat was sitting on. In the living room was a blue sofa and a white cat sitting on top of it. I was going to ask what they represented but then remembered my other objective: Ask my dream to show my dream guide. I faced the door and said "I want to see my dream guide." I turned around and noticed a radio. That couldn't be it. I turned around again and said "When I turn around, I went her, my dream guide, or him to be right behind me!" As I was saying it, I heard a female voice behind me. I turned around and there was a speaker and a vacuum. I was confused why I would have objects instead of a person. I also had a headphone hanging on my left shoulder. Static was coming through it. I knelt down and asked: "So which one of you is my dream guide?" I heard static and murmurs coming from my headphone. I asked again. "Which one of you is my dream guide?" Suddenly, I hear 2 or more girls say "You are!" at the same time. I know they're saying that I am my dream guide. I rose and repeated "I am..." to not forget what happened, I decided to wake up. I told myself "I need to wake up", and I woke up to the waking world.

3.24.14 Monday

Last night sleep 10pm- 7:40am.

Layed on sofa to WILD at 9am, with 8mgs of GM and 900mgs of Choline.

I got relaxed pretty fast and started getting static soon after. I felt top back of my head being active. I was lucid, and I stayed lucid for next 2 hrs, with one short break. Even when i wasn't lucid, I was asking myself "wow, am I not lucid anymore, it sure feels like I'm dreaming" and I checked my fingers and sure enough, I got lucid.

I don't think I had a dream ready for me from the beginning, because I felt like I'm in a dream, but there was nothing. Went back to transition, back to the dream, but there was nothig still.

Then I ended up in a town with yellows and blues. There was a fair, people eating outside, having fun, but nothing was happening. I wanted to go somplace else. I tried flying, but it didn't work. I tried different mental methods. Then I thought I'll fly up to the rocky, partially snowy hills behind the town. I was able to fly there, or more like skimming the surface.

I circled back to the same town. I was up for some excitement. Wanted to be chased, or in a battle. So I did "when I turn back, there will be a military camp". But nothing.

Bunch of transitions, non lucids in which I realized I'm dreaming, DEILDs, that seemingly stretched forever. I was even asking myself, how come I didn't wake up yet. Not even that woke me up. I was askin someone if my eyes are opened.

I remembered what OpheliaBlue said the other day, how she was looking for hell through the opening she made in her floor. So I thought that would be exciting and made an opening in the wall by pushing my hands through like when you swimm, then pushing my hands to the sides. I got sucked in, and tried to move there, but it was like in liquid rubber. Hard to move, so as I was in laying down position, I just paddled a bit, then got tired of it.

Did it with numerous guys, and by myself. Very realistic, I was able to tell the size of guys "equipment". I could swear I was using my real hands, but I wasn't. That was a surprise.

I finally ended up in a chase scenario. Nothing serious, just some scientists chasing me, low key. I'm running through a building and get out. Now I feel like I should really get away, but it was still a game.

I exit into a dark courtyard. It's narrow, with very tall walls, only a narrow slice of skies is visible. The walls are sculpted with some figures. The are tall as the walls are. (They look like spaceships in necromancer movie). Built into the walls are spaceships. They kinda turn into the wall and out of it, so people get get in. Somebody is tired of the slow process and speeds it up. Now I notice there are people hanging on to the walls about half way up. Passengers, or refugees. Now I see 2 people entering the courtyard looking for me. I'm thinking it's good that the launch sequence was sped up.

There was lots more, lotls of little transitions into nothing, return to transition and back again.

Lots of fun. Thank you, subC, thank you my higher self. Come again

I was in the basement of a big house in the mountains, laying down with some girl. She suddenly disappeared and I became fully lucid. I floated through the wall and up into the sky. It was almost pitch black outside, no stars or moon. So I waited for the sun to come up and it started to, slowly. I flew towards it as it began to illuminate the landscape with that early morning glow. A small lake came into view and I swooped down and grabbed a fish out of the water then dropped it back in before landing on the shore.

There were these two Chinese guys that were standing out there like they were confused or something. I thought it would be fun to use them to form an RPG group. So I went over and claimed them as group members in my FF7 game formation. We started to battle monsters and level up while I would sing that battle song from FF7. Eventually during our travels we came across a super market. We went inside and this clerk was being a real dick of a DC and wanted to see their passports. So I magically pulled them out of my back pockets, he was satisfied. As we walked away I stole a bunch of candy and ate it while we walked to the other side of the store to get out. In the parking lot there was a car that I wanted to get into but one of the DCs really wanted to drive and he got into the driver seat immediately. I tried to make another driver wheel form on my side but it wasn't happening. I thought, okay just don't get us into a crash. Woke up because I had to pee really badly. One strange thing I remember about this dream is that it started to fall apart several times but each time I did no stabilization, I simply waited for the dream to become more stable before performing anymore actions and it always re-stabilized.

This was another mountain dream, but I was with another girl that was from France. We were jogging along the road for a long time when I realized, damn I can really run far and not feel tired or winded or anything. That made me lucid and I took this beautiful girl DC and we went up a hillside and eventually came to a SNL set. After watching a skit I decided to join the cast and mess with them a little bit. I saw next to Kenan Thompson and tried to convince a DC that I had magical powers. I turned his skin super white and then super dark, but the DC said it was just fancy makeup. So I changed his eye color from brown to blue to green and the DC said, "Ha, you can't trick me! Those are fancy lenses". This DC was clearly too clever so I gave up on him and performed in a skit. After the skit I summoned Jennifer Aniston. But I transformed her into the young Jennifer Aniston from the beginning of Friends. Damnnn she was hot. I gently kissed her, teasing to build up tension and then a passionate release. She was probably one of the best dream character kissers that I have come across. The show ended and everybody got up to leave, but I didn't want the fun to end so I took off Jennifer's clothes and bent her over but my dick wouldn't fit inside her I hate when that happens. Then I woke up. I left a ton out because I don't feel like writing it all but these lucid dreams in total lasted over 6 hours, it was glorious.

I was going to watch AFC Rushden & Diamonds play, which was at the old clubs ground Nene Park.

My cousin said we couldn't go to the match as Mark & Ben were watching the football on the television.

Therefore I was on my own, I knocked at a door, and my cousin Caroline said it was the wrong door, so I went through the correct door to the ground. I gave the lady at the turnstile £10 to get into the ground, I had to wait for my change, which was £4, there was a queue of people behind me waiting to get in also.

Once I was in the ground, a number of us had to walk on the football pitch, while the game had already begun, the ball kept hitting me which I denied! Paul Underwood one of our former players, was on the ball, shouting instructions in a Geordie accent (he's not a Geordie)...

When we all eventually got off the pitch, we got to the main football stand (The Peter Debanke Terrace).. which was completely gone, all that remained was a sign-post with "The Peter DeBanke Terrace" on it

color legend: non-dream dream lucid

Lucid #6 Success!

I'm in a classroom with a friend. We are sitting cross legged on the floor talking and laughing. We talk about lucid dreaming. For some reason I get cocky and say "Hey watch this!" And I look at my backpack on the floor and try to make it fly to the ceiling. At this point I didn't know I was dreaming, but for some reason I still tried to make it levitate. As soon as I tried it zipped up to the ceiling and right back down to the floor again! I was astonished.

I know I’m dreaming and immediately nose pinch reality check and rub my hands together to stop the dream from fading from my excitement. I get up and try to fly. I can’t even get off of the ground. Disappointed, I step out onto the balcony and see that I am in New York City! This time I think of heaven and I rise off the ground and start flying upward over the city! I’m a bit scared to look down and when I do the view is astonishing. The sun is setting so the city is framed in shadow and an orange glow. The feeling of flying is too amazing to describe. You feel so free. Anything is possible. I see a huge glass tube extending into the sky from the city streets below. Curious, I fly into the pipe and zoom down it. I get shot out at the bottom like a bullet and zip through the streets with incredible speed. I fly sideways along the sides of buildings and

I have a memory gap. I am in a room with a bunch of random objects around me. I try to use telekinesis to make them fly around and succeed with a few, but the majority just stay where they are. I get frustrated and I wake up.

color legend: non-dream dream lucid

Lucid #5 Crazy Night

This was absolutely insane, it was about 9 in the morning and I fell asleep after an hour of trying. I have a memory gap but the first thing I remember is being Lucid in some sort of nursery. I remember there being a baby and an old woman in the room. I rub my hands together but I become conscious of my real body.

I wake up and without opening my eyes and deild back into the nursery. I try to fly and I get maybe an inch off the ground. The scene shifts to me standing on a newspaper, and only a newspaper. As I look at it, it gets bigger and bigger. Probably twenty feet long. I imagine a dream door in the paper behind me. I reach back, take the handle and jump in. next thing I know I’m in a black and white town from the 20s.

I wake up and deild back to the black and white town scene. I try flying again and don’t get much luck. I get a few feet in the air and fall. I try to put my finger through my palm for a reality check but it won't go through. I do my normal nose pinch reality check and I can breathe in. this blows my mind as usual and I try to fly again and I soar upward! on my way up I find I have to flap my arms like a duck-.- some brown haired man says I look like I’m having some trouble I grab his hand for some reason and take him with me. He doesn't slow me down at all. I realize I’m actually going really fast. My goal is space. When we get close he tells me that I won't be able to breathe, but I assure him I will. I let him float back down to earth and I plunge into space.

I wake up and deild once more... Into space again. I imagine I have huge wings like in the maximum ride books that I loved when I was younger. I imagine them unfolding from my back and extending them. I have pretty black wings with some brown and grey mixed in. I try flying this time but it feels weird. Then a small pink boy with wings flies over to me from nowhere and tells me the tips of my wings are caught on my shirt still. So he helps me, and my beautiful wings unfold all the way. 13 feet long wingspan and amazing.

I wake up before I can try my new wings out. This time I wake up for sure because I want to remember the dream so I can write it down. This was a very long lucid for me and a very crazy series of my first deilds.

This is a short info summary from the 15th

Pre bed: l-arginine (500)

Natural wake: l-tyrosine (500)

Didn't do wbtb, no notes on pre bed work. Focus was on sleeping, no review in mind or notes taken until final wake.

The dreams were extremely vivid, wonder about the effect of this combo. Vividness may have also been boosted by lack of sleep in the days before.

NLD: In some very green neighborhood that transitions into a forest, very vivid experience. I notice there are cats everywhere, more and more of them (DS). Further there's a place where this DC is giving a presentation about getting rid of the cats and making some sort of lucid camp on the same place, teaching people how to ld.

Short ld: In the early part of this dream we are in a cool mansion where there is some event and I'm collecting various food items. We (me and some random and changing DC companion) then leave the mansion and I shortly get a game like view of the map where the mansion is. We decide that something is chasing is and go back in the mansion to find some item to helps us with that. The mansion is now deserted, this thing is supposedly after us, we end up jumping on roofs and climbing down couple of trees. I know it is a dream when climbing down, somewhat low awareness here.

On the street, I look at the DC and tell him to repeat this is a lucid dream and remind me of it later on as I would actually like to continue with this scenario. It's a bright sunny day and I catch part of a greek temple/baroque building behind the near buildings and contemplate whether to explore it. Decide to run through my goals first but the dream ends.

I was in my 2nd period class.
Math, ugh.

I was sitting down, and I turned over to notice this girl started yelling at my and calling me names! I was sick of all this, this was my threshold, in dreams and IWL.

I yelled and pinned her on a desk, and I screamed in her face something I don't remember.

I turned around and strangled this kid that annoyed me alot but not the most.

He was dead.

So I had this random broken broom in my hand, and I heard people yelling

then this bulky kid chased me, so I picked up a chair and hit him in the face and he backed off. I heard music and I pounded my feet to the rythm, mixed emotions flowing inside of me about what I did.

I walked around the school, running and smiling in a devilish way.

Then we were at gym, about to dissect a human.

Then I woke up.

Part twooooo of the same dream, after I fell asleep again~

Dream - Devil Destruction ?? wow that sounds really lame
So I was back in the same convention center as before, only this time I was an established hero in my own right, and the Justice League and bear/Godzilla were gone. In their place was a new opponent: the devil. Or basically some dude in a red suit with horns and a goat's tail and all that jazz, wandering around the center with these two inflatable devil minions of his. People were kinda wary of the guy, but I don't think it was the general consensus that I needed to take him on. Too bad though 'cause that's what I did! I wasn't really a hero of the people or anything, more like some suspicious powerful person wandering around looking for threats to dispense with. A sort of semi-paranoid protector. (Also my IRL family wasn't part of the dream anymore.)

So first I encountered him 'n' his two minions and I was like, are those... actually minions? They look like inflatable demon decorations (they were about as tall as he was and super wide), but then they started sort of toddling around on their own, one just sort of pacing a route in the middle of the floor, the other following close by him. People were giving the pacing one a lot of space, but didn't seem to mind when the devil and his other minion wandered off in their midst.

I decided to take down the pacing minion, which wasn't particularly hard and was actually pretty stinking rad. The low-level lucidity was gone, but my expectations were still sort of managing the dream, so when I noticed that the minion could only toddle around on his little legs, MY movement leveled up. Then I had some kinda torch or a brand or somethin', and the fight consisted of me dancing around the dude, dodging his pitiful rushes, jabbing at him with the torch/brand, and moving in this exceedingly quick and graceful way that was just, loads of fun. I quite enjoyed that. Also Imma call that a dream power.

In the end, the minion was just a little deflated pile on the ground. He hadn't even touched me. And the people around me seemed borderline disapproving, but I didn't caaaaare~

After that, it's a bit harder to remember the different pieces of what happened. I remember an interlude where I was sitting in a classroom doing schoolwork, when the clock caught on fire. This was our cue to get out before the place burned down, but I chilled there still working, and so did a few other cool kids, though some left over time. At one point a girl and boy walked by, and the girl noticed I'd dropped a bunch of hair bands on the floor, and decided to claim them for herself. Think I gave her an evil look. Eventually the clock just stopped being on fire, which was sort of anti-climactic.

Another part seemed to be some TV reporter woman trying to explain, on camera, why she couldn't do a certain thing... which had to do with efforts to stop bad guys. They wanted her to be part of the offensive somehow, maybe owing to some power she hadn't known she'd had, but she was pretty persistent in saying it wouldn't work out.

Lastlyyyy the dream took a rather more dark turn and seemed to be falling apart, with details getting mixed up with various thoughts I was having. I do remember that I entirely ceased to be quick and/or graceful, and my method of taking out the devil culminated with me straddling his chest on the ground and wildly stabbing his eyes out with some sort of dual-hooked claw. Also I was watching myself from third person—I seemed furious and out of control, and the devil guy wasn't putting up much of a fight at all. Then I stopped, seeming struck by the carnage, and my thoughts turned to what could've inspired this, which resulted in a shot of some eyeless woman in a white dress. And then I think the same thing happened twice, or something. Which is always just confusing as anything. Repetition is a no-no, dreams.

Think I woke up after that.

So I am an only child, i'm 17 and recently i've been thinking about how if my parents ever passed away suddenly I would have no-one, My dad has no siblings either, my mum has a brother but him his wife and 2 kids live in australia so I rarely see them.

Anyway a few nights ago I dreamt that I was sat on the sofa in my lounge (except the sofa was bigger) and I had a sister who was sat to the right of me, dad the other side of her and mum next to me and we were all cuddled together reading a story. I don't know who she was now.

Last night I dreamt I was about 6 or 7 and again I had a sister who was about the same age, and our parents had adopted this other girl called Kazeema, we all had separate bedrooms but we were planning on 2 people sharing one or something so we were running round finding a tape measure and measuring the rooms to see who's was the biggest so that the 2 people sharing could have that one.

Journal Entry Lucid #14 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I woke up at 12:50 and watched a movie, Waking Life, now my favorite movie. I have watched it 3x now and every time I notice something unique about the movie. I watched it until the point in which he talks to the biker guy in the bar, (not to include any spoilers). Since my dream recall went back up since I started meditating, I was desperate for a LD. I realized that it is the end of the week. My heart ached for a LD. I know that most of my other LDs were when I was in between longing and serenity. Where I had my intention but my intention did not make me anxious. I listened to some music that I enjoyed. I tried relaxing it took a while. I then let my imagination take over as I kept telling myself the next thing I will see is a dream.

Dream fragment 2 from 3:20am-5:00am"":
The dream was interesting, I was in church and I said hi to some guy. I thought I knew him, but I didn't. I see the kids from church running as usual. This guy was telling them about LD. One child believed it and got into trouble. Then I was on the internet, watching some show on youtube. I found this clip of teens, supposedly uncontrollable teens. I am now an observer no longer on a computer. The teens were acting wild they tried to act like they were adults. They were kissing very sexually while holding each other. I then saw a girl and a guy have sex like in the movie scene where you don't actually see it but it is implied. I see the girl and the guy behind her. I then float my eyes to a different room. As I was doing this the dad walks up to me like I am the camera. He said, "do you know what my daughters told me? My daughter told me THAT THEY WOULD PLAY WITH THEMSELVES UNTIL THEY WENT TO BED, they claim they have a sleeping problem". He shakes his head and walks away. I see two girls sitting in the room with their hands inside their pants or in each other pants. Then one girl wrestle with the other. The cover goes over them this served as a transition like the movie.

I am still a spectator, I am in a cartoony environment. It was a tale about the emotion "anger" represented by some big bluish monster. The cartoon's theme was blue and purple which glowed in color. The voice was talking a lot and as he did the environment along with what is happening changed. I don't remember it clearly but I remember the voice say, "...it was in everyone of us..." The voice kept going. I was in awe by the whole experience not understanding what I was experiencing. I paid attention to the details while being in the dream. I woke up, I had the hardest time walking. I thought wow trippy dream, and now I feel trippy too. It felt like my legs was ahead and too slow when I wanted it to do something. I walked into the bathroom, it was dark as if someone replaced the lights with candles. I started peeing inside of a bucket. I thought oh crap I peed in the wrong place. I thought about it all and I thought I could still be in the dream. I did a nose plug. I could breath. I did it again, I still could breath.

I became lucid. I walked out of the bathroom and realized that I wasn't wearing any cloth but a boxer. I thought ah the clothes will spawn later. I see my sister's friend watching me weird. I also see my grandmother putting on her shoe to leave. I went to her room. I did a nose plug check, I still could breath. I started rubbing my hands then I looked at my hands it was blurry and had no real form. It floated all over the place. I went out of grandma's room. I then looked around everything else was spot on. I then lifted my hands and began to fly. I put had down and I gently went down. I knew what I wanted to do, I saw the blue sky when I looked through the back door. I wanted to fly to the clouds. I walked through the front door. I wanted the front door to serve as a portal. The moment I got close to the front door I became anxious and I could feel heart racing for some reason. I thought man I am going to wake up I woke up and I laid there. I was pleased with the LD even though it was short. I didn't move that much
I woke up and started walking around the house unsuspectingly. I was in the dinning room. I was talking to my grandmother. As I was doing that I lifted my hands and my sister's friend got lifted off the ground. Time froze my body was frozen but I was not. She was frozen. I then went to my grandmother, she showed up a picture of my first dream I had today. It was about a women I was talking to. She had a bizarre look. My grandmother said, "look at her face that should have made you lucid, and now this". I looked at it and realized it is a dream.

I was so grateful. I walked into grandmothers room and I saw a man sleeping there. I was rubbing my hands to enhance the quality of the dream. I started noticing him in more detail. I saw that he had a brown hair, beard, and blue eyes. He looked confused. I was confused why he was in my grandmother's room. I thought this might be the weird logic of dreams, maybe that is my grandmother. I was grateful for my actual grandmother making me lucid that I told him I love him. He looked shocked at first then passive to it. I walked out. I see my grandmother and my father in the dinning room. My grandmother was on far left, closest to the backdoor, and my father was on the right of the table. As I was walking out I told my grandmother willingly in my language, "I love you". I wanted to see how I envision my house to look like in my dream. When I walked out I touched the wall. They were very smooth. The wall of the house was circular which didn't represent my house at all.

I then realized that I could fly. I started flying with my hands raised up to my mid section as if I was using telekinesis. I told myself I wanted to fly without the use of my hands. While in mid flight I lowered my hands and started rubbing them together to get a vivid experience. I stayed up. With pure will power I started to fly any direction I want. I saw my backyard and it had a tennis court. I think also a swimming pool. I turn around and noticed that my house was located next to my school. I flew just a little bit and landed. I touched the ground and felt the cold floor. I thought I must not be wearing shoes. I felt every pressure that I applied. The school looked some what like it did when there was no construction crew around. I see students holding books walking around. then saw a girl sitting down wearing a bikini, I got distracted she got up and started running. I turned around and looked at her butt. I caught myself and tried to focus. I turn around and I see death, but closer analysis showed that it was just a guy wearing a costume. A lot was happening at once. I smelled the air, the smell of roses. I tried to stimulate all my senses. I then wanted to do an awareness with the just my vision alone without rubbing my hands. I was losing clarity, NOT LUCIDITY but Clarity. I knew though that I might start losing lucidity soon so I went back to rubbing my hands. I started rubbing them in a circular motion to get a different feeling.

I wanted to find a door and make a portal to a "training facility" like the one in Matrix, so that I could practice telekinesis there with Morpheus(this has been my LD goal for quite sometime now). As I was walking I saw my friend from school, EK, and IN, they just walked passed me like any other dream character. I called their names. EK turned around. I took out my fist to fist bump him. He then took out his and started throwing his hands around very quickly. I thought what is the point, he is just a DC anyways. I walked away. I looked up and saw a dark cloud appearing. I wanted to go inside the building, which now looks nothing like my school(*form transformation). It started to rain. I hear thunder. People started panicking. I didn't feel the rain. I became confused and tried to make sense out of it. The DC started running for the door as if the water would kill them, they were in pain. I was confused I lost lucidity for some reason maybe it was the confusion or maybe I tried to make sense out it and got distracted.

I watched them take a guy into questioning. He was being accused about something. They took out a box, his "weapon". They started explaining how he would use his weapon. He got angry and he said,"you guys don't even know how to use it". You don't know what goddle particles are. He turned in on. And pointed it towards the man accusing him. It started eating up his stomach. The man fell to the floor and died. We were in my kitchen at the time. The device went straight through the food, bread. I started feeling weak and thought maybe it was the device releasing radiation. I quickly put it into a plastic bag. I kept saying that we have to move out now. They didn't listen. I ran around the complex house and I found trash outside. I threw it in but realized that it was sinking in. I knew that I had to throw it some where very far. I told them to leave. My grandmother comes back to check on it. I got angry and frustarted that she didn't listen. I thought that thing gave me cancer. I didn't want my family to suffer. I tried to help my grandmother out of the garage but ended up with this opening that read luch box.

I woke up in another scene that looked like "waking life". Narrator said, "I was now just like everybody else". I see the main character entering the bar, sitting down. His face was gone. I thought trippy dream and remembered that I was dreaming and I didn't write down my other dreams. I realized I had to write down my other dreams, so I decided to wake up before I forget. I did forgot some details though.

Became lucid by: DILD (awareness and nose-plug RC)

LUCID SUCCESSSSSS just in time for the end of the competition (#17)
Imma try extra hard to get the dream timing figured out AHH I feel like my recall is so bad now, I keep losing important pieces of the dreams and the timing gets so confused whyyyyy
To be fair I've never tried to recall dreams every morning. So that might be why. But this is a LUCID DREAM. WHY WOULD I FORGET THE DETAILS OF SOMETHING LIKE THAT ...
is my recall getting worse or am I just gradually becoming more demanding...
you know what, looking back I'm pretty sure it's that I'm being more demanding. I want to have PERFECT RECALL and when I don't I act like that's some huge problem. And my poor brain's just trying its best every time, probably, and I'm just running it into the ground because nothing's ever good enough. so I think I'll just accept what happens and not worry too much about somehow forcing my brain to have non-stop perfect recall.
step one for having a less stressful liiiiiiife~
plus I just feel like crap, maybe I'm getting sick or something. Huh.

*some caffeine later*

expect some tense changes at random 'cause it took me forever to write this...

Dream 1 - At the Beach (Lucid #3)
Alright, I remember for sure this is the first dream I had.

So I think the family's driving to this beach and we pull up, in the dream I was like "aha, this is [Spring Whatever Beach Name from IWL]!" like we'd been here before and it was familiar, but now I'm realizing it was just some place my brain made up. Weird.

Whatever let's call it Spring Beach, we hop out and it's this sweet, Stone Harbory sort of place, with white sand and hotels by the shore. Very nice.

We head into the hotel and get situated. We're all in some room that reminds me of a college dorm or something, and I'm off near the back, closer to the window while the rest of the family's having a grand old time taking pictures. Of each other. In a way that wasn't weird at all. *blacks out memories* Then Ben wandered over to me asking why I was chilling over there and I was like, eh. Just 'cause.

Next, mom and dad had wandered off, and Jess and Ben and I were kinda meandering the hotel because that's the best thing to do when you're at a hotel with your siblings, and then it just starts storming like crazy. I look out this large window to the right, and see the white beach with the waves crashing and all that good stuff, and lighting going from the sky to the sea, looks pretty amazing. And then, probably because I'm anticipating when the lightning stops, it just kind of keeps going, just lightning pretty much all the time. Scary. I start thinking about how close the hotel is to the ocean, and how oceanside storms are crazy or whatever.

Then I look left and there's FLOODWATER WASHING UP AGAINST THE WINDOW. AND RISING. I'm like WHAT. I think this is about when I did a reality check and became lucid, but since I can't truly remember I ain't countin' the reality check. I just know I became lucid at some point.

Uhhh I don't knowwww why there's a hole in my memory at this point, but I believe I wandered outside and I remember quite clearly attempting to summon matches (like I'd been planning since I picked my three-step tasks for Scionox's: pass hand through object, because I'd never done it before, pull matches out of my pocket, and then make a fire and control it). I reached into my pocket (which was very small and tight because jeans) and dug around for a sec, experiencing a brief moment of doubt before discovering a box of matches and pulling them out.

I opened them and took a match out, and was considering striking it ... but I was standing in grass in front of a forest, and some old forest guardian was freaking out because he thought I was going to burn the place down, so I just dropped it on the ground instead.

HMMM I think I woke up. I also know for a fact that I flew around at times, but the memories are hard to fit anywhere.

Oh well I suppose I'll give up on this one.

Dream 2 - FA (Lucid #4)
So I'm lying in bed face-down thinking that I'm going to fall asleep soon, when I feel this crazy wave of vibrations go through my body. It basically felt like, uh, vibrating. I was going to get all fancy and describe it but I can't totally sum it up. Felt familiar though, for some reason. I experience a bit of fear that this might be another SP episode and for a moment it almost seems that way, but then I realize I can move? Or something? GAHHH MEMORYYYYY

Anyway I didn't really get what was going on, was lying still again, then felt a second wave of those crazy vibrations and had the idea that this was my dream body. Did a reality check, success, sat up in bed and looked out the window. Crazy. The blinds were raised or gone and looking outside I see my front yard, except it's not my front yard because it's far more fancy. It looks amazing, actually. Much better than my REAL front yard...

I want to get outside, so I start tracing a hole in the glass. Once I complete a circuit, the enclosed glass just falls out and basically vanishes. I do this a few times, then stop and try to fit through and fail, so I keep doin' it. Eventually I manage to fit through and drop to the ground.

There's a road leading away from my house, which quickly becomes a city street that branches left and right (visual aid: T). I proceed and go right, then left into a sort of alley that opens up into a nice behind-a-restaurant eating area. There are two black cows chillin', and I decide to try to use my arm cannon on them, but it fails. Maybe I just can't make up my mind what exactly is supposed to happen? Then some dude runs up behind me panicking because I look like I'm about to blast his cows. Apparently he came all the way from the countryside chasing these dumb cows.

Think I had another FA, but this time when I did the nose pinch check, my IWL nose kinda sniffled and I realized I was close to waking up. I focused on immersing myself in the dream until I felt that I was fairly distant from my IWL body (sniffling stopped), and then proceededdd...

It was raining and I was thinking about how I'd already done match summoning, and now I had to do elemental manipulation. I decided to try to control the rain, and reached out towards a car going down the street to my right, trying to imagine the rain somehow converging to stop it. Not much happened.

Next I decided to try simply moving cars around (the idea being that it was metal manipulation somehow), but that failed as well. Then I saw a giant firetruck and stepped out in front of it, holding out my hand and imagining it coming to a stop, which it did—but I figured it was because the drivers hadn't wanted to run me over. The firetruck was so large that I only came up to its grill; the window the drivers were looking out of was well over my head.

I reached out, put my fingers under the grill somewhere, and started lifting, still thinking about metal manipulation, and the firetruck suddenly became as light as anything, and the whole thing lifted off the ground. I tried to throw it, but it being so light it sort of drifted backward through the air unsatisfactorily, instead of crashing to the ground with an earth-shattering rumble. I'm not sure it ever really hit the ground, but it did arc somewhat.

I was going for some kind of elemental manipulation but yes, under the stress of the moment I performed mass-TK instead.

And then there was one last bit where I was at some kind of theater and tried to clear a space on the wall for a portal, moving bulletins and junk out of the way only to find more under them. Finally I'd cleared a semi-workable space and drew a tall rectangle on the wall, four sides with four colors, and then tried to imagine Stone Harbor on the other side. It didn't quiiite work...

And uhh one last fragment where I was by my window again, but this time there was some ... video-game, anime sort of girl sitting to my left, wearing odd clothes (black but with bright colorful highlights as well), never seen her before. I demonstrated my ability to drop out pieces of the windowpane by drawing two parallel lines at the same time, horizontally right across the window, at which point a wide, flat rectangle dropped out.

I'm callin' that two dreams 'cause who knows. Could've been more, maybe less, so I'm working with the middle. HMMM.