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Date: 07.11.13
Total sleep: 9 h
Daytime Techniques: wonderings about self and reality + ADA
Lucid Techniques: Mantras between dreams and before sleep, haphazard short WILD attempt
Recall Techniques: weeell - got to learn to write so I can decipher it - first dream, I put down is not retrievable
Fell Asleep: 0:30 am (jippee! and stone sober)
Dream Title: High Romance!

Dream:
This was the last three dreams - and so I have very good recall without having written much.
It started at a festivity where the people having finished school with me met - but there were other people too - like a friend of mine from university.
Somehow, I hadn´t managed to dress up for the occasion and wasn´t "styled" in any way - but the others were looking fantastic.
So - wasn´t that bad, but when that friend of mine wanted to go to some sort of vip party afterwards - a friend of hers, whom I didn´t know, wanted to keep me away from that.

So then something happened which is unusual for my dreams - usually I would have tried and not managed to go with them, or went, looking horrible or whatever.

What would not have happened would have been me getting what I wanted - namely making my friend drop that bitch, she brought with her, and take me home with her to give me a really nice evening dress and her make-up and perfume and whatnot and chastised the doorwoman for not instantly letting me in there too. Lovely friend in real life - but ex-model and always soo beautiful..

Anyway - in we were and it was like in a high-society movie.
Great party - later it had somehow changed scenery to a garden in the morning.
...edited ..
Awake: 9:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) 12/13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) 9 non lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream in 3 parts - twice reentry because it was soo nice - all in all maybe story over 2/3 days
Emotions: Weeell.. right - for the sake of analysis: started with feeling inferior, ugly, awkward - went to self-satisfied, radiant, attractive and confident, then totally smitten, in love, satisfied, hopeful and even sort of calmly confident for what would come, liberated

Dream Signs: People from school, university - the garden party was for some reason in our old garden of the house I lived in my youth (that´s a strong recurring sign, the house+garden)


Conclusions - Overview:

First of all - it is so great, that the journalling and general aim of lucidity and gaining dream-control spills over into my normal dreams and makes them so much more satisfying - amazing!!

Secondly - got to work on readable notes in between dreams.
First dream, after which I woke up got lost because of indecipherable nonsensical scribblings - except the dart-board snippet, which I posted next door - that I can remember vividly.

Then - realization, that I actually always was and am able to re-enter a dream after waking up.

Lucidity:
I did my mantras and expectation-rising for DILD, but looking back - the real inner plan was more to do a WILD attempt after the first inter-dream awakening.
I had talked to my hubby - finding out to my surprise that he had sometimes what seems to be called EHS - extremely loud noises from inside his head while falling asleep - and he hates it with a passion.
Told him excitedly to ride it out next time and try to WILD himself.

But - just like before several times - I felt tired and lazy and unwilling to try the WILD when the time for it was there - thinking - ah I will wake up once or twice more anyway.
Which I did - with even less motivation - see dream-content..

This is so silly - I know, it would have been easy to at least get that far as last time once more - that only took like 2 min. lying still and vibrations and optics came.

This is my first DILD experience that I can recall. All my others have been through SP.

I was sitting in my bed and had just opened up a book on lucid dreaming that I've had sitting on my shelf for awhile. I got maybe a page and a half into the book before I fell asleep....
I don't remember the regular dream part much, I was standing on a train platform and I realized that some facts didn't add up. Don't know what now, but it was enough for me to realize I was dreaming and I thought to myself " I COULD wake up now, but I don't really have to" So I began Lucidity and started to walk around a bit, I was in a deserted city street. It wasn't eerie or frightening in any way, just empty. I decided to get a better view and I jumped up and slowly floated above the city and into the clouds, and immediately decided I'd rather just walk around instead. On my way down through the clouds I caught a glimpse of a man walking by in the clouds below me, dressed in a black suit. I thought to myself that he might be another lucid dreamer and that we're all connected on this different plane of consciousness, and then I thought, maybe he had died and was on this level and that all consciousness is different that we normally believe it to be. But then I got closer to the ground and wasn't thinking about the man in black anymore. I was waiting to feel my feet hit the ground but they wouldn't, I was just hovering. I saw an Ipad Air next to me (hooray for random product placement in dreams) and picked it up and there was writing all over it and it turned into pages of paper and I felt them in my hands. I looked up from the pages and at my surroundings; I thought "how boring am I that I just want to stand here and read papers instead of exploring" ...

Thats when my father opened by door and walked in my room. And I was so mad that he woke me from my LD , I was still half sleeping and wasn't able to open my eyes completely but as he walked over to my bed and sat next to my computer i was able to mumble "get out, i'm asleep, leave me alone".. And he got up and left. i never saw his face. And suddenly I let in a huge gulp of air and startled myself fully awake. So I go downstairs to apologize to my dad for being rude to him... and no one was home. AT ALL!

needless to say I walked around the house with a knife and opened every closet while on the phone freaking out to a friend.

Could it be that the mysterious stranger followed me out of my LD?

I've heard of SP monsters following people from SP to LD but not the other way around! I have had other similar encounters where I've gone into SP and my hallucinations were totally boring and simply that people walked into my room to ask me a question, or came in to grab something. But I've never come OUT of a lucid dream and into Sleep Paralysis without having SP in the first place.

Ive recently watched a movie about the area I live in and all the paranormal things that happen here. I think that added to my freak out.

I don't know if this is the right place to post this question, but If anyone happens to see this and has knowledge about SP after lucid dreams or mysterious beings following you out of dreams please fill me in!

I remember a dream from long ago where i was Lucid but never even heard of Lucid Dreaming before.
I was in school and I was daydreaming in class about doing magic or something.
I felt my hands Electrifying and saw purple thunder come out at the palms of my hands .
I tried to tell my friends that I could do magic, they wouldn't believe me.
I believe I was at a lower layer of Lucidity, that's why my friends or Dream Characters didn't believe me.
I showed them my thunder and they were all surprised and then i woke up right after that.

The past while I haven't been sleeping great and there are often days I don't sleep at all and wait until after college to take naps. Today I took two naps, the first one lasted for maybe 2 hours and the second one lasted for 2.5.

In the second one I had such an odd dream that's stuck in my head. I was trying to walk through what I think was a corn field or something. A blonde girl was following me and had a panther. She had control over the panther and often sat down to pet it like a cat.

I noticed I was afraid of being bitten, but never got bit. I also noticed that I had a greyish wolf with me, kind of like protecting me but the blonde girl didn't seem too afraid of it.

Please help translate this

Honestly, I have no idea what it was. I think it was an unintentional WILD but for the most part the experience was identical to my previous DEILD experiences.

So, I was woken up by my mother at 5:30. She thought I had school today, but I didn't (I had forgotten to tell her that we didn't have school today) so she went to go do some things. I considered doing a more proper WBTB but I was tired so I didn't bother and I went back to sleep. I feel like at some point I had lost consciousness and went to sleep, but the next thing I knew, I was aware (with my eyes closed) and a green and blue spiral was in front of my eyes, identical to my previous two DEILD experiences. I heard a very heavy and turbulent wind blowing around me (think of a strong wind during a storm near the sea; that sort of whistly wind). I immediately noticed what was happening and that I could enter a lucid dream, so I tried to imagine a generic tropical island. For a brief moment, the green and blue swirl faded away and I felt (and "saw" through my eyelids but i'm nearly certain this was a hallucination) an intense, warm light on my face and the turbulent wind stopped, but after a couple moments the wind picked back up and the swirl came back. I tried imagining the tropical island again, and soon I entered a dream, barely lucid.

I was not in my body, yet I could still see. I had absolutely no control over myself at this point, but I was hovering around a tiny ice-covered island dotted with penguins, getting a view of the whole thing before I was taken close to my own body stumbling in some snow (sort of like my first DEILD, where I hovered around a zelda-style dungeon as my mind generated it and my consciousness zoomed back into my body at the entrance when it was done). I looked at myself from a short distance away, and I thought to myself that I had to keep my awareness up. I rubbed my hands together quickly and focused on the heat it generated (bizarrely enough it was fairly warm on the polar island). My consciousness zoomed back into my body. I began to explore the island on foot, but unfortunately my awareness and recall started tanking and I lost lucidity. I can't recall what happened, but I do remember the end of the dream; I was looking for food on some sort of a futuristic base in a jungled area whilst fighting off aliens or something.




What surprises me most is that this resembled my previous two DEILDs a lot, especially the first one. In the first one, I saw the blue-green spiral and heard a turbulent wind. This eventually died down, after which I heard a very friendly feminine voice close to my face saying "Wake up, [name]. Wake up. Can you hear me? Save me..." after which I "asked" to be taken to a dungeon to conquer. Then, as I explained above, I saw the dungeon being generated from a distance without my body or control of my body and my consciousness zoomed back into my body when it was finished. In the second one, I saw the blue-green spiral (so far it has been identical every time, the only time I had a different visual hallucination was in this one when I saw the bright light) and heard and felt the wind, though this time it sounded vaguely magical and it felt like it was spiraling as if it were a hurricane. I imagined a jungled island like I did now, and my (real) eyes opened and I saw my bedroom as if it had been jungleified. I tried to examine it more closely, but it became my real room and I was fully awake.

Very strange how the spiral and the wind crops up every time... I wonder if it could mean something. I'm not sure if this was DEILD or WILD but I don't really care much.

My dream started with me waking in my home. It was one of those dreams that feel so real, you don't question things. I walk into the kitchen and start trying to lift things with my mind. I would extend my hand, then exert some force, and I could get some objects to shake. I played around a bit,, excited about my new found powers.

There were 3-4 other people in the room, friends of mine. I put my hands on one of their shoulders, and made my body fly up so I was hand-standing there. Eventually I figured out how to keep gravity the direction I wanted it, at least for a bit, and spent time lying on the ceiling. It took some effort to stay up though.

I then learned of a school rumored to help people like me learn to use their powers. I was suspicious, but decided to go to it. Some of my friends tried to dissuade me, but I went.

I met someone from the school out front of it. It was in the middle of a field of tall grasses, golden yellow in the November sun. He brought me passed a gate, small wooden one connected to a low fence like you would see around a garden. I probably could have stepped over it (I"m 6'4") or flew, but it felt impassible and I felt trapped. I was taken into a prison like school. We stayed in cells most of the day, had a 2 meals a day and a recreation time. That's it. And we couldn't leave.

I made friends with the cook, a big African man who prepared lunch. I overheard him talking to himself in Japanese, and when I went to get my food, asked for it in the same language. He was surprised and we bonded over our shared language. (The cafeteria only offered sushi, which was the only bright spot about being there.)

After a short time (Though I felt days had passed) I went out into the yard alone, and something strange was happening. There was a strange purple light, and the plants were growing bigger in a twisted kind of way. I debated just leaving and hoping it would give me an opportunity to escape, but the plants felt ominous, and I decide I couldn't leave them.

I focused and somehow was able to cut off the source of the strange light, and turn things back to normal. (Whenever I used any of my powers, it felt like I had a muscle I never new I had somewhere in me that I was using, or possibly a part of my brain.)
I ran inside and told them I was leaving. I talked to the cook, and he decided to come with me. We went into the tall gold field, and up to the fence. We then opened a large gate I had never seen before and left.


Thats the end of what I remember, but I found it very interesting that I was using abilities that I had wanted to learn to use in my Lucid dreams. Lifting things, changing gravity (Flying is natural for me, but I've never sat on the ceiling before) ect. I just Kind of wish I had become lucid, but if I had, I would have gotten less practice, and my dreams don't last as long when I'm Lucid. Yet.

110313*+ 11 ~4? time chg SSILD WILD patience. "The next time I see , I am dreaming!" (and I mean really see not just images flashing by). Fragment remembered when getting up to go to the bathroom involved a group and making sure that everyone is showing that they are thankful. I walk around a little bit go back to bed and think about new goals since I hit one of my biggest short term ones but I didn't make any of the goals real concrete so need to work on that. Anyway I was patiently laying in bed not the least bit worried getting to sleep- maybe a few times and put it out of my head. After a while I feel like I am about to enter the dream state and I get what I assume now were just convincing HH's of my wife getting out of bed probably to go to the bathroom I assume. Since I feel like I'm almost there I try to will myself out of bed and it seems like I can't move out I do get the sense that can rotate parallel to the bed in my sideways position laying
on my side and I began to rotate and it feels like fun and then I think this feels like a rollercoaster and I imagined I really long dive on a coaster and before I knew it I am flying along holding on to the rails of a rollercoaster kind of like my hands became rollers on the track I am enjoying going up and down the roller coaster. Is one of those coasters where you're hanging below the track. Is daytime and it is just incredible when I reach the bottom and the track is getting ready to go back up I release and start flying over a beautiful cream landscape feels like suburban area there's a lot of green rolling hills but there is also plenty of activities cars driving on their way to wherever. This was one of my new goals I thought about when I'm back to bed I wanted to see crowds of DCs is it seems like they're usually just small groups of people in my lucid dreams. I'm focusing on one particular truck like a big cargo truck just too see what the DC
is doing and the truck has an accident and flips over upside down and I think no not interested in seeing what an accident victim looks like in a dream and I continue flying.But then I hear sound from my bathroom that I thought was waking life...I feel some vibrations...and I even thought I sensed the light was on in the bathroom but it seems like so long ago that my wife seemingly got up but it was just a false awakening. FA continued: When she came back towards the bed I asked her where she was for so long and she said that she had to go to the store to buy some medicine and I looked at the clock and it was something like 130 in the morning (in the dream, it was really much closer to 530 or 630 IWL according to the time I actually woke up later). I ask why would you go at this time of the night? And then I started looking for my dream journal to record the incredible lucid experience I just had and it was missing. Ask my wife did you do something
with my papers over there. Where is it? My wife threw it away. Where is it...is it actually gone? And I start imagining all of the journal entries that may be forever lost. I feel heartbroken. She asked me does it give you release before your games? I said yes okay so do you still have it? Then Girl Friday appears to my right completely naked mostly with her back to me (I included her in my new goals also) . Her body looks so beautiful. I realize it's a dream! I start to hold her and we both move towards the bed but now the room seems different . We're kissing and touching each other enjoying each others naked skin and at some point I'm looking at her face and I realize how incredibly vivid and beautiful her face is and then she starts acting strange as if she doesn't know what is happening. We have our tongues in each others mouths and she pushes mine back out with her tongue and I think that is strange, look on her face is strange and I wake up. When
thinking about what just happened I was obviously exhilarated I also wonder what happened at the end there and with my mind running wild it made me question if only for half a second whether or not we were both and some shared dream experience and she realized hell real or weird it was and have that reaction. One of the other goals is to continue the second part of traveling above the earth and continue on to the moon for some fun. I also thought it would be cool to fly around over to Paris or some other places around the world. I also remembered what I wanted to be able to freeze group of DC's in time while I continue to be able to walk around like in the old Twilight Zone episode.

Morning of November 3, 2013. Sunday.



This was another funny connection and recurring dream-oriented pattern. It also relates to my most recent dream. What I saw was a large staff with a golden snowflake design on the top. Inside the snowflake area (the center) was the Blue Pearl floating within an implied globe setup (but the mechanism not visible), but this time I saw it to be planet Earth, shining and glowing, and blue rays emerging at times. It felt very meaningful and timeless and really “shined”. I saw it turn slightly and felt as if it was very deep within my consciousness. A feeling of bliss.

“Suzy Snowflake” was a song I came to really enjoy when young as well. I took another song “Susie Q” (also spelled as “Suzi Q” - my wife usually uses the Suzi spelling for the anglicized form of her first name now), as turning out to be two things, Q for Queensland, and, on a more humorous and lesser note, the omnipotent being from the “Star Trek” series.

The image is another scan of an old handmade pamphlet (made many years ago) which became a sort of personal running gag for my wife and me. One of the first things I had heard about her from a relative the first time we were communicating via postal mail was that she was “fragile”…The play on “I am avalanche” was another thing that caused people to believe the Yin-Yang pairing would bring destruction, but I think it is a reference to enlightenment, or the existence of Universal Mind. I think the comic strip clip is from B.C., the one with the cavemen. The snowflake is usually connected to the six-pointed Star of David (known in Hebrew as the Shield of David or Magen David), though, although it seems eight-pointed in the first panel of the strip.

The craziest part of this dream journal is that I do not remember writing it or having the dream at all. I have gotten into the habit of whenever I awake from a dream in the middle of the night, I already have a Word Doc open on my laptop which is right by my bed, so I can put it on my stomach, close my eyes, and just type what I remember. I read this the next day and was pretty freaked out.

I remember being conscious in my dream at a point where my dream self was trying to replicate an experiment on how an early exorcist type person was able to defeat and drive out evil spirits. In particular I remember a very visceral image of reproduction where I am reenacting it as the mad scientist himself and that I was swinging over a giant swamp full of giant chomping rats. I never got bit or hurt, but the panic was definitely there.

didn't have time to post much lately but i wanted to record a super awesome lucid i had a couple weeks ago or so:

realized i was lucid, flew over this huge body of water at night, super detailed night reflections in the water and it was one of the most beautiful sights i have ever seen. and then i flew over it a second time and there were sparkles in the water and at a certain angle this russian emblem shown through the water's surface and it was in a diff language, i tried to remember it for when i woke up but since it was in a diff language i couldnt. it was a really intricate design.
at one point i was like i want something cool to happen! duh i want a puppy to come out of my purse! so i thought of a cute little puppy and expected it when i opened my purse. hahahha dreams mess with me i pulled out a fucking stuffed dog chihuahua thing with buttons as eyes. i had to laugh at such a warped realization of my expectation and lucid attempt.

DREAM from like two nights ago:
crazy! i was hanging out with this girl like the morattas the blonde one and she was talking about her lesbian ness. i was like i never did that before. and eventually she was obviously gonna say "would you want to hook up with me?" and she did and i was like alright why not but i was SOOOO SCARED and then we were naked and making out and i was like into it but i didnt know really how to have sex so we just kinda grinded on each other and then for some reason i felt a dick even tho shes a girl and she doesnt have one but its a dream so it doesnt make sense. so anyways the sex was good and weird at the same time but nonetheless a new experience for me.

god damn why so much fuckin lesbian shit in my dreams. horny as fuk for guys n this is what i get in my dreams lol at least it feels just as good in dreams. plus in waking life i was lookin at this girls fb before bed trying to see if she was a lesbian bc she just seems like it n i was curious bc i have known her forever.

other dreams happened that aren't lucid but sucks bc i dont remember now....

110213**+ 1030 ~3 mini-wbtb ~5 wbtb SSILD WILD. On my first noticed awakening I only remember a fragment of a dream where I was wondering why would the church be teaching this(what?, I wonder if it was LD related as it feels like I forgot something important). I remember a title or something: "Witchcraft in the Church." I get up go to the bathroom remind myself the date and quick review of goals and go back to bed and do my variation of SSILD cycles...shorter version. I get the HH visuals fairly quickly and am mostly letting them float by but attempt to engage a few of them later on. Eventually I get one with N's friend M in it...usually they don't make any sense or are not recognizable so I engage this one but was probably already dreaming whether I engaged it or not. M is sitting on the ground in a flirty pose in a dress with her left knee up and the other laying mostly flat exposing her underwear. Another woman thinking it is unintentional tries to push her dress down with her foot but M lifts up her knee again and this time I can see even more clearly...white lacey underwear. Knowing this is a dream I tell her to remove them with my thoughts. Next thing I know we are both completely naked and sitting on a seat or could it have been a toilet (weird) but we were rubbing out bodies together enjoying each others naked skin on skin when I woke up. I turn over and write down my lucid and I get up go to the bathroom, go to my home office where I thought about reading a few pages from "Are You Dreaming" but realize the light will be too bright and is shining across the hall and might wake my wife. I walk around a little then lay down and think about my goals and focus on the back of my eyes thinking the next time I see I am dreaming over and over maybe 15 times. Do my SSILD, longer version and decide to enjoy the quiet time and patiently wait like Sageous talked about. Again I start getting the HH visuals and some audio fairly quickly but they don't seem to be going anywhere so I decide to roll over and hope for a DILD but then it happens I half suspect I am dreaming but worried I might still be awake but decide to will myself out of bed and I roll out of bed without actually engaging any muscles lest I wake myself. Sure enough I am light as a feather where as I normally feel very heavy when getting up and know I am dreaming but my vision is very foggy so I pause and decide to do one of the TOTM I just read about last night. I recited the months from November backwards starting slowly got a few of them more quickly and going faster almost tripped me up at April to March as I thought what comes before April but slowed down and finished. I continue out of my room slowly float walking and I see the railing from the overlook and everything is very clear now. I fly down over the railing down to the first floor. As I open the front door I think for a moment if my wife might hear the door opening and should I lock the door and I remind myself no worries, no need to even lock it my dream for any reason I can think of...keep going! I fly/float down my street kind of sluggishly and think that I must have read too much about how some people have various trouble with flying and realize I have flown well for as long as I can remember and I zoom off quickly to Girl Friday's. I think for a moment if I should go direct to my goal of flying out into space to look back at the earth but the temptation is too great. I arrive at Girl Friday's and I see a few other people outside that are often around her and might look sideways at the married man coming here at night but remind myself it is a dream - no worries (something I have been working on - reminding myself it is a dream - in conjunction with my daytime awareness check-ins and RCs). I float around back up to the back room and imagine that she will be there getting undressed. Sure enough when I look in the window she is unbuttoning her blouse. I knock on the window and give her the big eyes look and she is into it. I continue to float out side and she continues to undress one item at a time. I feel myself getting excited and I ask: you want to see this don't you. And as I start to pull it out I imagine it will be abnormally large and it is! And then I noticed that kind of hurts as if has expanded too much. I say you want this but I decide it is time to move on and I fly up into the atmosphere at super speed probably for 10 or 15 seconds towards my goal. As planned I look back down towards Earth but I must have flown too far earth is tiny and not the site I imagined so I flew back down towards Earth and stopped when it was in nice view. I could not make out the continents, the atmosphere was cloudy just blue ocean and clouds it seems, but so beautiful. The planet was glowing...I just sat there completely in awe and actually started to cry overwhelmed with emotion and I woke up. I get teary eyes just recalling it. I had planned to also fly to the moon and do a little bounding around on the moon and surgery with a piece of moon rock...but maybe another time. A little later on after laying in bed while recalling what a wonderful lucid dream I just had on top of a good one earlier in the evening I have a dream where I'm laying down on the floor on my side and I am apparently at work as I hear several of my coworkers talking and going by and R greets me in his normal up-beat way and I realize its Saturday there's no way I'm at work I'm dreaming again I tell him I'm sleeping and I notice how cool is this but then I focus on drool that seems to be coming out of the corner of my mouth and I wake up. I must have dozed off because I did not enter the dream consciously as I normally do with a DEILD, so I am thinking it is a DILD and possibly an FA caught(since I was in the sleeping position in the dream). I decided that's probably it for the night and decide to get up. Sweeeeet!!!!

was in this huge ass class room and probably close to hundred kids (mainly scu students) were having an insane rager, the crazy part was no alcohol but everyone was freaking the fuck out and making tribal noises and flipping tables and there was this huge slide and it was just mayhem. yannick was in the dream and we were BUDS wtf like i was all endearing to him and shit. and
me and bryn were friends again like old times but she was clearly lesbian for me and i wanted to be her friend but that was freaking me out bc she kept saying suggestive things and talking to other people about how she wants to hook up with me. then i walked out of the classroom with gabby p and i was like "gabby i neeeeed to talk to you " it was about bryn but gabby thought that i meant i had a problem with gabby herself, i never got to tell her what i wanted to say because we reached our destination too quickly. the destination was this place where .. actually it is irrelevant and not interesting.

bloody scene involved a good friend of mine (dont kno them in real life) but they were an alcoholic mess, blood blood blood everywhere and his arm was cut open and the bone was revealed he looked like a bloated red dying drunk and he didnt care he just had a beer can in his hand still drinkin. i took him to the hospital.

got home and parked my car and rand into mom on some street. alex was there too. mom was normal and then suddenly her eyes got big and she was like "wait a minute... I don't feel good." and then she started breathing hard and fell to the ground blood was coming out of her nose. i was freaking out and trying to calm her down at the same time and also call the police. i told alex to feel her heart beat and then i would call but he was so freaked out he didnt do it right away, so i had to scream and it was so fucking chaotic. i tried to type in all these numbers to call but i kept messing up bc i was so freaked out. alex was so pissed at me bc i insisted i do it myself but i was doing a shitty job. suddenly, we turned on each other. he started saying things like i am a selfish person with so many vices and that i financially drained the family. i felt this huge wave of aggression like i have never felt in waking life (rarely) and i stared at him like a demon and he stared at me too and the feeling built up and up and i finally just pushed him and then i was like WAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT this is so fucked up and i love alex and he loves me and wtf is going on. looked at my hands. looked at them more than other dreams. in other dreams i was like self-conscious bc i thought "what if this is actually reality and im just standing here staring at my hands like an idiot while my mom is having a heart attack?" but my hands were clearly dream. there was 6,7,8,9 digits each time i looked, the fingers were all varying in length, and i had a solid, true feeling THIS IS A DREAM and i said that in my head a lot. i knew about not telling dream characters i knew it was a dream, but i was SO sure that it was a dream that i didnt give 2 fux and i told my brother "OMG its ok alex!!!! it's ALRIGHT dont worry mom's ok this is a DREAM!!!" and i just wanted to see what he would say. he was actually happy and he was like "well, that's great!".

went outside waiting for the ambulance with mom, i just flew away. which would b a dick move in real life but its a dream soo yeah. peace out ima go fly, i flew a bit and then i decided i fly too much in lucids i want something better!! so for some reason i thought it would b cool to have an item of my choice just fly to my hands. so i thought about a coke can really hard and then put my hand out and it flew over and i caught it. i did that with a couple other items that unfortunately i do not recall.

Third-person P.O.V shows a kid about 8 or 9 who is in some ghetto place of Africa. There are several floors laid with loose old bricks. The kid does crazy and dangerous life-threatening stunts. He says he does these stunts because he pretty much has nothing to live for. After he says that, the view ascends up the brick landscape slowly. As it gets onto the higher levels, a series of miniature skeletons appear on the rugged and dirty brick floor. As we ascend, the skeletons get much smaller. These are the skeletons of impoverished human beings. I now understood why the kid never cared if he lost his life doing those crazy stunts. I felt an overwhelming sense of sympathy and felt sorry for the kid.

i am in bed with a very heavyset woman. She is on top of me and is kissing me with slightly stinky breath. Her much slimmer but thick sister is in the kitchen behind the counter watching us. My attempt to make her jealous works and she comes to the edge of the bed. i take her hand and gently pull her towards the bed to invite her. She stands on the bed and tells her sister to, "get her fat ass away" or something of that nature. I take her body in my arms and feel her silk robe. I put her on her back while some creepy music plays on the radio which makes me kind of uneasy, but it eventually gets a little less creepy and more sensual. i moan and give a "mmmmmm" sound and i pick her up and feel the lightness of her body ripe for domination. She rides me for a second only, and literally twists my dick. As she exited, i see my penis is unshapely. I try to crack it back in place.....and it cracks but never goes back in place. I say whatever and try to continue. Something happens and she leaves the room in a rage and locks me in it. I turn around and look on the wall to see the nutritional facts of myself on a poster. I realize i am in a holding cell and I am not the only person they have done this to....I am probably being sold to cannibals. This leads me to my next dream.

Was at my G.ma House again. My sister was there as well. It was dark outside... maybe raining... There was a sense of forbodding within the house and I knew something was wrong. I go up and into my old room, but hear my sister yelling to get out. Suddenly there's a dragon im my room thrashing around, and i quickly fall back out of the room and slam the door closed. My sister has this annoyed tone, dripping with sarcasm, that i "didn't know" about the dragon.

I'm starting to try to cover the widows on the house and remain quiet becuse we don't want to attract others to the hosue.

There's a crash and my sister is there... apparently the dragon has smashed through the upper level and was now in the bathroom on the lower floor. It was stuck there for now.