memorable

[Wednesday, 19th, 2012][12:30 PM]
I'm in a giant open house filled with clutter. The lights are very dim and there are two main rooms. On one side of the house there's just a
windowed wall that overlooks the sunset scenery of trees. The house is slowly getting darker and there are no lights. Alex had just left me- I'm
alone.

Nothing is wrong, I'm just alone. I sit down and start to just relax on the couch. I slowly drift off to sleep... I wake up a minute later, a noise
springs to my attention. On the dark side of the house, where the shadow's hugged the corner, I heard a noise. I figure it must have been my
imagination. I shrug it off, but feel a strange alien thought in my head. I feel so alone... so... so alone... I just want something to hold on to- or talk
to-

I slowly trudge over to the shadow side of the house... I hear dull clicking noises, reminiscent of Amnesia. In the far right corner of the dark side, I
bend down to pick up a stuffed animal... there was a lot of them, but I choose one that I'm most familiar with. It was a cute patchwork animal-
yellow with purple and green... Alex had gotten it from the claw machine. I pick it up and hug it- and look at it. I could have sworn I saw it move.
I let it drop to my side and I pick up another... I set them back down and watched them come to life. I was amazed- but didn't think anything of it.
I must be seeing things, but nothing too out of the ordinary. It's just little movements, like an arm twitching, or an eye blinking.

I bring the patchwork with me into the other rooms and set it on a table. Walking into the other room, I see shadows flicker and move, and things
shift around the room. I'm convinced I'm going crazy. But I'm okay, I accept it. "It won't be forever. And this isn't so bad. It's kind of interesting.
It's like I can control what I see." It reminds me of a lucid dream. My hallucinations started to become more real and vivid. Now I'm hearing
whispers. The patchwork shakes violently in my hand and drops to the floor. It begins crawl around... Oh my... then it stops in its tracks... and...
and it turned its neck to me. It whispered, "Don't be lonely. I'm here for you." I blink a blank stare back at it. (My subconscious didn't know how
to react.) I dismiss it- and forget about it.

With an empty mind, I drag myself across the house, like a ghost haunting eternity. I had no aim or goal, just to exist. Minutes passed and I knew
that I was fully insane, and descending extremely fast. Everything was talking to me now. More stuffed animals were alive, but only ONE at a
time. Next thing I know, I see a human in the room. It's- a waking life friend of mine that I know fairly well, but I don't remember who in specific.
I know it's just in my head, and I'm making him up though, so I'm not exactly freaked out. I'm just so interested in the fact that I have this much
"control" over my reality- I start to talk to the hallucination, "What's up, man?"
"Not much." He replies.

I take my attention off of him and he vanishes, and I begin to search around the house... playing with my hallucination power.
I could stare at something and focus on it, and it would begin to move. I have "control" over this at least. I scan the back wall again, seeing
stuffed animals that I recognized from real life and some that I did not. The house had gotten pretty chilly in the last few minutes. I can feel the
cold wrap around my skin. It's very very quiet. Dead silent. Not a noise in the place, save for my breathing. Out of the corner of my eye I see the
hallucination take a human form again. It's another person who I know. (but don't remember. I wasn't paying extremely-close, conscious attention
yet at this point. He follows me around the house as I start to pick things up and clean the cluttered house. He watches me closely like a hawk. That's when the
dream becomes extremely real. In fact... It ISN'T a dream anymore. There's no way something this real is a dream. It's a full-blown reality. I can't
tell the difference one bit anymore. I'm semi-lucid too... I have control of my body- but without realizing it was a dream.
I look back up at my hallucinated visitor and he smiles at me.

That smile... it's the most horrible evil fucking smile I've ever seen. One that stretches across the face and make me choke back tears of impossible
fear. I'm descending faster into the deepest and darkest corner of my mind. I'm very uncomfortable
"I can't believe how insane I am." I reach into my pocket and pull out my phone to call Alex- the only person that I want to talk to right now...
even if I was bat crazy, she would talk to me. I call, with my eyes on the hallucination that was smiling so wide, his black eyes were chinked
behind his grin. Straight to voicemail- "We're sorry... the number you-" I hang up.

The hallucination now has a long boning knife in his hand now. He's at my neck before I even have a chance to react-
"Do... you know who... I am?"
"No-" I sob.
"As long as Alex is... gone... I get to... come out and... play."
He casually drags the knife loosely against my neck. He vanishes when he finishes the knife's trail. I'm shaking uncontrollably. But at the same
time stilled by my muscles. Everything is frozen in fear. My open eyes scan the room and notice new stuffed animals that I don't recognize-
countless of them. The sun is almost gone, the light choked by the horizon. I turn around slowly 'til I'm facing a third room behind me. I watch the
opening for a whole minute... waiting... swaying back in forth in silence... then-

I sprint to the third back room... I jump into the room and stop... panting for second. This room closely resembles my old room of my Mum's old
house. The TV is on and static lights up the room with white noise. I slowly make my way to the far end of the room, where I put my phone on the
charger and try to call again- that's when I saw Alex had left her phone on the charger. I won't reach her at all now. My heart sinks so deep into
my chest. "Oh my god... I just want to talk to Alex... I just want to talk to her... please oh god..." I cry hysterically

My head feels very hazy, and I'm having trouble remembering the situation. What had just happened? I remember a stuffed animal... I'm crazy... a
man in my house... I took in a shallow breath- and walked back out of the room.

A body flickers into existence and blocks my path. Nathan appears very suddenly in the doorway, like a scream piercing silence. He has a
wicked grin on his face. He cocks his head to the side, and smiles more, almost saying, "Where were you?" Then he vanishes again. I push my
eyes closed to blink a few times- they were getting dry from holding them open so wide for so long. The house is caked in twilight- but this time
I'm back in my Mom's old home. I emerge from my room into the computer room. To my left is the futon. I walk into the kitchen and hear,
"Unwell" playing by Matchbox Twenty.

"I'm not CRAZY, I'm just a little unwell- I know, right now you can't tell- but soon enough of you're gonna think of me, and how I used to be." I
listen to the words and begin to sob. "This is so real. I can't do this...

The music stops playing and Nathan is there again. He's right behind me, smiling his cold smile. It shocks me again how suddenly he appeared. I
keep my eyes on him and slowly backtracked... then I stop. I'm suddenly filled with HATE for this DEMON. HOW DARE HE USE THE IMAGE
OF MY BEST FRIEND!? Tears slowly well up in my eyes..

...until I scream and lunge for his throat. I use every bit of my strength and force him onto the futon and begin to choke him. I shake and shake
and squeeze as hard as I can. He just smiles. I choke him for a full minute, letting my hate seep out onto his neck, before I realize there is no
effect. I stand back up and take a step back.

Suddenly, the futon vanishes and so does he. It repositions right where the computer used to be- to my immediate left... where we had moved it
the second time, when we lived there. Now, Tyler sits there on the futon with a smile on his face. The lights flicker in the house and then the
power fails. It's pitch black, but I can still see his black eyes. He can change form, but he can't change those beady black eyes.

Alex had gone away and wouldn't be back for three days. Three days of hell... My soul was going to rot here
<I woke up.>

(I cried for 10 minutes upon waking. I called Alex right away.)

Last night I had quite a few dreams, but my recall has been lacking lately and I remember the main themes of two of the dreams.

In the first scene, I was visiting my friend Marykate and her mother Wendy in a trailer home of theirs. In the dream it had been about seven to ten years since I had last seen them. It was a very pleasant visit. After a while I began to wonder where Marykates younger brother Kyle was. In real life he's currently in elementry school, we used to be somewhat close in a psuedo older brother type way when I was over at their house a lot- and I wanted to say hello. I asked them both what Kyle had been up to, to try to gain some information about where he was at. Marykate didn't say anything, and her mother's face went dull. Wendy leaned in a little closer and said, "You haven't heard what happened?"...
"What do you mean?" I asked, and became a bit conserned. They both paused, and Marykates expression became very strained. "He died, Zech." She said, and began to cry. Wendy chimed in, "He had an accedent on a nature trip, he got attacked by an animal."
"Oh my gosh..." I gasped... I couldn't believe it. It was so horrible, I sat closer to them and began to tear up myself. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know." I added. It was a terrible moment in the dream, but my dream turned it around thankfully. Wendy then flipped a swhich in emotion and said, he's in the other room- we were just messing around. (Now, in the dream they weren't at first. But the dream made a swhich, that meant they were all along.)
"No fucking way you guys just made me think Kyle was dead. You guys are dick wads, major ones." I said relieved and pissed at the same time. An older version of Kyle then walked in the room and said Hey. I got up and hugged him and said Hey man, what's up- thank goodness. He said, "Yeah, they're assholes." and sat down with us. That was as much as I remember from that dream.

The next dream I became lucid in some random place, walking down a suburban sidewalk. I remembered that I wanted to find out how well I could actually 'Hear' in dreams. Because I usually remember conversations and people talking, but I don't remember the voices or hearing their words after I wake up. So I yelled "HEY!... I'M DREAMING!" I could hear it loud an clear, it was pretty awesome. It made the dream more life-like. I began to float around checking things out, still yelling on the occasion. Then I got an idea. I've been curious about these things people call "Dream Guides", and I wanted to see if I could find one for myself. So I began going around, realizing there were no people around. I found a few people in the distance and cars driving by, and yelled at everyone "Hey! Where is my dream guide!?", "Hey you! Where can I find my dream guide."
While doing this, I was playing around , trying to make little 'Resengan' like energy balls from that show Naruto. It worked like once, but my attention wasn't all the way there. I continued to fly around for awhile, and... I thought I might have found someone who knew something about my dream guide, but they got in a car and drove off. I was going to hunt them down, but my dream dissapated shortly after. I'm sure other things happened but like I said, not much dream recall lately. I'm hoping to fix that somehow. But that's it for now.

For the past few years ive been dreaming about this guy, i dont know who he is and ive never seen him before, and every time i dream about him he arrives the same way. Im standing on a little walkway on the side of a house the walk way is prolly 2 feet wide, then in front of me is a drive way and to my left is a fenced yard wih a willow in the middle of the yard. i continue to walk and this car drive up, and in every dream its the same car, i cant see who is driving, the car pulls up next to me and there he is, sitting in the passengers seat. This handsome guy, blonde hair green eyes, perfect smile, the first time i saw him we were hiding from someone, in a hollow tree, i dont know who we where hiding from, just hiding and he said i was in danger and that he was protecting me, after that dream i didnt dream about him for a long time, but when i did it was the same house same tree and the same car, he would say to me" i havent seen u in soo long, how r u, i missed you"... sometimes i wonder what if when we dream we enter another dimension into someone elses world. He remembered me...ive never been able to forget him but wheneever i would try to ask wat his name is, he would hove this look on his face, he'd get serious and looks at the driver ,which i still to this day have no idea who it is, and tells me its not the right time, and he kisses me, says till the next time....and i wake up.........................

So here's where I'm at. I'm at home trying to decide what I should get Quynh(friend) for her birthday. I think she was still mad at me for yelling at her in this dream. There's a couple of guys in the home walking around the house with small notebooks in their hands. I asked one of them if I could see what was inside this book. A couple of the boys gave me a chance to read the book but as soon as I opened it, I found some secrets. This was a gift for Quynh and inside this book, I read the word, "J'aime". I thought it meant love in French, so after reading it, I was shocked. I felt like doing something insane to these boys, like killing them. But I woke up instrad.

So these are dreams that happened over the last 2 days, surprisingly they have at least a small reason as to why my brain is going to them.


This one was 2 nights ago, I had been talking with a coworker Henry that day about an issue for like a half hour, though I usually never talk to him so it was odd when he was in my dream.

I was getting ready to go on vacation to see some family in Florida. My parents and wife were all going and for some reason Henry was coming to join us. One problem though, Henry was wearing a freaking Bear costume, I'm talking like full on bear costume.



Not sure why, he didn't say why and we all kind of just assumed it was normal. Well we were all the sudden out eating with my Florida relatives in some fancy restaurant. Henry meanwhile was like frolicking outside and like jumping around in his bear costume. Then this bear comes out of nowhere and we are all yelling for henry to run. For some reason the bear doesn't care about anyone else outside, only the dude in the bear costume. Henry is running away and then he throws his hat from the costume at the bear and it stops it momentarily. Henry things he's in the clear and starts walking, then the bear runs at him again, pins him and literally bites his face off. I just remember screaming and being sad but then the dream ended.


Same night I do not know where this came from at all really. Though I feel it is slightly offensive to people from Russia.

I was in the middle of some secret undercover spy thing going on in some submarine in the ocean. It was between like Russians and Americans except I was like a double spy on both teams I guess. The Americans were searching on the submarine for secrets i guess with some reconnaissance robot, it would like come back to them and give them the info. The Russians however had a pet squid that would search around as well then come find them and I guess tell them the secrets somehow, I guess they could talk to squid.

Last night I had two dreams, one of them I literally was just patching around fiber optics cables throughout my house to get internet connected to like the upstairs part. I have been running fiber cables at work so I guess my brain really liked the idea of this mundane task. The enxt dream I do not know what the hell happened.
I was at the grocery store and there was this cupboard there that was like chained shut. I went up to it and I touched it and apparently was cursed. I got like threatening letters at home and I didn't know who they came from. I went back to the store and like every worker told me it was a terrible thing and I needed to stop it. I ended up breaking into the cupboard to see some monster and he made me play some endless game to get rid of him. It pretty much involved me playing a slot machine against him until I got like a bigger jackpot I guess. I don't think I ever beat him though I think I ended up playing for a long time and then woke up.

[Wednesday, 19th, 2012] [After Midnight- before I had fallen asleep]
I turned off the lights, turned on the LSD dose from iDoser (a binaural beat that induces a drugs effects), and lied down with headphones. I folded a shirt over my eyes and I zoned out and began counting down from 847. After awhile I became more and more relaxed, letting my mind become numb... I would recount numbers and forget where I was and restart at random numbers- this is when I knew I was in a trance. I felt detatched slightly... and tried imagining something.

I imagined myself in a blank white room. Suddenly a potted plant appeared in the center. It grew and grew and grew until it became a Venus Fly Trap plant of giant proportions. It ate "me". But it was just the body, the vessel, for my consciousness- I understood this and made a new one, and walked up to the plant. "You are simply a creation of mine and you cannot hurt me. I love you because I created you." The plant did not try to hurt me again. I walked through the wall to the left with such force, it shattered reality. The scenery outside the white room was a beautiful beach scene; the sun just setting a dark red velvet and vibrant orange against a dark navy sky and ocean. I was high in the air, far above the smooth sand or the water, but I was walking on air, on invisible pulsating steps. I walked a distance and then decided to travel along the pulsating steps like monkey bars. I dropped down so that my hands could hold on to the level where my feet just were and I pulled myself along as if they WERE monkey bars. Still pulsating a clear crystal light.

At that moment I reinvented the scenery. I was in a blank room again, but this time I was seated behind a table. I invited my subconscious and/or dream guide to appear and they did. Four figures walked in through the door instantly and each took a seat on the opposite side of the table. I made note of their appearance first... on the far left was a fiery feline female with fiery-colored hair, a mix of orange, red, and yellow. Second, was a huge muscular, black-iron-armorered figure with a fiery green skull with flames licking high into the air. Third from the left was a human walking-stick. Almost simply put, a bamboo man. Just a stick of bamboo going straight up into the air. Last, on the very right- I couldn't make them out very well. It was as if they were invisible, and I could only sense their Galka like presense.

I announced the reason for this gathering first, speaking in a pronoun that was mixture of I and We: "I/We are in a state of great confusion and despair. I/We are broken and must do something. We must become one, and work together to solve the problems we face." I stopped after the sentence and asked if anyone would be willing to finish my sentence due to how cloudy my conscious mind was. The 1st aspect chimed in and tried to finish, as my conscious mind jumped into her body- I saw from her eyes and began to talk... but trailed off, most likely because I, without meaning to, took control of her. Someone else chimed in right after, it was the 4th invisible Galkan aspect... I don't remember what he said, but it was full of force and meaning... and it made perfect sense. After he finished I stressed the importance of lucid dreaming: "It would be beneficial to US to lucid dream. We could solve a great deal from it and the daily link between all of us. We need to lucid dream." I was conditioning all of us- we all knew that I was hypnotizing the whole room. I was strengthening the importance of my conscious mind being present in dreams. After this I asked: "Okay, so who are you?" I was referring to each individual aspect of me. The first, the female aspect spoke up immediately: "I'm your female side, and I'm the one who emits light! I keep you on track and keep you afloat with joy!". I believed every word she spoke. I turned my attention to the stick. It radiated the answer: "I am your intellect. Your intelligence. The one who collects wisdom and shares it with everyone here." I couldn't sense a strong color from him. The next to speak was the ghostly presense of the armored man. He spoke something like this: "I am the one who keeps you alive. I know what you need- I make the hard decisions that benefit you, that you don't want to make." I understood. He was the line that knew when he was crossed. I looked at the invisible aspects seat- but never got an answer.

"Are you my dream guide?" There was no reply.

I was thrust back out of my imagination and into reality. I could feel a slight tingling sensation all over and I felt slightly detatched from my body. Thinking about this re-inforced my attatchment and I was back in my room again, listening to the vibrations in my headphones. I lied there for awhile and until the crackling in the headphones that's ALWAYS there kind of made my neck-hairs stand and I had to sit up. I sat up slowly and looked around. I could DEFINITELY feel something. The room was dark, but I could see exceptionally well. The clock on the wall was stretching and breathing. The whole room was stretching and breathing! I put my hands up in front of my face and I can't explain how alien my movements were... I felt like I was viewing from far, far away. I looked down at my blanket and it resembled a tangled mess of brain. The light coming under the door pulsated gently a light green mixed with turqoise. The patterns on the pillow moved like vines- just like in Fear and Loathing's Casino Carpets. The wall to my right was Tiger striped; shadows dashed ever-so-carefully across the white. The entire room was a calming, breathing dark mess of storage- it was new to me, as if I had never been there before. I brought my hands up to my face again, not exactly sure what I was doing, and I drew a cross on my left palm with my right index, then drew a circle on my right palm- then I clasped my hands together gently.

The dose still going on- I got impatient and took my headphones off. I heard a noise that did NOT exist in real life. My computer was making it... it sounded as if it was some sort of alien technology... making vibrating laser beam sounds. Like a woobawoobawoobawooba, but much faster and much higher pitched. I knew it was just my brain being confused from the binaural beats, but it was still fun to listen to. I crawled across my bed and crawled into the computer's chair and turned the screen on... after a few seconds of another strange feeling, I sobered up and typed this.

Despite my totally crappy dream recall, I've managed to remeber two dreams I had. Yay!

In the first dream I was Spider-Man, or was playing a Spider-Man game (doesn't matter really).

So, I swung around the town to get to my objective, which was apparently, an Oscorp building. So, I crashed a glass panel and jumped through it to enter the building. What happened from there is hard to recall, but I think I fought seveal rows of enemies. Then Hulk came from nowhere and I wanted to leave, so I jumped back through the glass I'd broken before.

Yep, pretty dumb, I know.

And I've also had a dream where I was playing a game on my ipad... And that's it...


Oh well, at least I did recall something

This dream perspective was me and a friend of mine, sitting in the dark on a laptop, and I was watching him play minecraft. About when he started playing, the perspective changed to the players screen being all I could see hear or feel. He was with other players and they were on an expedition to find diamond (pretty average for minecraft actually). He went underground and eventually lost his group. When he got plenty of iron, he started digging faster and faster and then...

Creepers.....


*picture sums it up*

He started finding creepers everywhere and they weren't hard to fight off at first, but they got to be in groups of two or three at a time. Digging became difficult and soon they're everywhere and we could only run. We ran for a good while, but not back the way we came, but down further into the mine.

We hit a room that had some sort of vessel in it and creeper print on the outside of it and two diamond were inside! Then, a super creeper came out of this vessel and he was dark bluish colored and had bright green eyes! We found two diamond in the room before the creepers came in. He ran back the way we came, dodging creepers left nad right, but when he reached a dead end, there would be a dark brown block that would teleport him to a higher section of the mine and closer to the start. He grabbed the last one and we teleported out.

We weren't exactly back with the expedition as we planned, but instead the start of the mine was flooded! We swam to the base (a floating ship) and told the crew of the vessel that contained two diamond. They excitedly stored them in a vault. We found out we could craft movies and dvd discs out of iron on minecraft next, and we started making minecraft videos on minecraft with the craftable dvds and playing them on the minecraft ship's dvd player (still in minecraft game). The rest of the dream was us making videos of minecraft, on minecraft.

May not look like it, but this dream was pretty intense! Creepers everywhere O_O

*I haven't been typing my dreams online lately but I have written them down. So I am about to go on a typing spree to catch up on posting them.*

It started with me in a theater and a new batman movie was coming out. We got the tickets and went into the theater and after the movie started I don't remember what happened but it transitioned to me in the bat-cave as batman.

I rush to a scene and scale a huge skyscraper, and there were cops at the top. Cat women I noticed, was also climbing the building and when I got to the top I fought some bad guys and then the cops started coming for me. They pointed their guns at me and I jumped behind an air-conditioning unit and searched around the roof for an exit. I jumped off the ac unit, ran toward cover, and jumped off the roof.

I don't quite remember the transition to the bat cave, but when I got there, I undressed from the Bat-suit and I was in my underwear! I thought I would have some pants on under this suit. As I walked toward my room to get some clothes, I heard cat woman walk into the cave. I hurried back to get dressed and then walked back out in a suit, looking like Bruce Wayne. The next thing we did, was go invade the villains base. We had to invade a base in an extremely tall tree with a dome-like building near the top of it. We fought some bad guys, saved the world, and then said some corny one-liners before the scene changed to me in the theater watching the ending credits!

Another scene of my head movie that night involved me fighting some 7' tall mafia dude for sport. I won and he complimented me over my skill and strength.

Pretty fun dream.

The dream setting starts on a cliff side, the cliff is easily accessible until you get about 10 yards from the top, and my male friend and I are climbing this mountain. We are currently about 20-25 yards from the top and we are moving up towards the top slowly and methodically. We each take a different route to get to the top and we meet in the middle, however my route seemed to lead to the quickest way up and in real life I would be the one leading the group on a trip like this. However once we reach the 10 yards to get up at the end, we encounter an obstacle, the cliff ahead of us too tall and steep for us to climb up and its the only way up. I have a small pickaxe with me, one used for mountain climbing and since we are having trouble getting up this part we try to think of a way to get both of us up safely. Quickly enough I see that the cliff seems to be burnt in some manner, however it has more of the qualities of some what seems to be an old lava flow. Its just the right consistency for me to whack some holes for us to climb up. So I start beating on it with my pickaxe making a large indent in this cliff side so I could pull myself up. I struggled up as I got up but was greeted with a nice view of a highway. I thought this seems out of place for sure and I remember to help my friend up. When he gets up there he says something about "Kristoff Krane", the artist I listened to before sleeping. This made me partially lucid for a moment because of the randomness of it but it also inspired me. I was gonna freestyle. Kristoff Krane does freestyle rapping and I am a fan of anyones freestyle but I especially like him. I dont remember what I said in this freestyle but I felt like it was bad. As I finished though, I was feeling very self aware and being in the woods makes me feel as if im hunting. So I start looking around more and I see a white building and a fence. I realize and say aloud "Private Property, we gotta go." I quickly see two fences and a clear path down one side of the mountain, and we start charging down a small hillside thinking to get on the highway somehow. Well as we get down further I see that this building is built into the mountain and its wide open for some reason and we are looking into it from our position in between the two fences. My former male partner now turns into an unknown female whom I seem to be only recently acquainted with, however we share a past experience that makes me seem to be the one who is helping her. My female partner is ahead of me and without noticing has got caught in some kind of wire trap that has her feet, she is looking at the highway through the fence, when I realize I am caught in one too. I get a burst of adrenaline as I see security personnel from the building coming our way and I look at the small wires holding me. The trap is attached to the fence on the side of the building and I move the wire trap along the fence somehow unhook the trap. I am free and my partner see this. She says "GO NOW, leave me here, Ill be fine" very seriously and I know this is my only chance. For some reason I was gonna go into the building, I hadn't planned this but I seemed to just know to go there, as if my partner had told me to do so. I easily sneak past the guards because they are focused on getting the girl, and I very simply walk past people in the building, which I now am seeing is some kind of laboratory. I walk directly over to a corner of the lab that has some kind of giant machine. I quickly jumped into a part of this machine which somehow was like in the movie Tron. I was talking about this movie earlier in the day with a friend. I was aware of me traveling through into a different world of some kind and I was turned into a mechanical ball then pushed by some kind of large robot and propelled down a tunnel. I traveled down this tunnel for what seemed to be a large amount of time, but that only made me tired of traveling and since I was a ball I had no way to propel myself, hence the robot pushing me in the beginning. The tunnel seemed to be taking me somewhere but as I went on I realized gravity was pulling down on me and the tunnel up ahead was going upwards. I awoke when I didnt have enough momentum to travel further up the tunnel.

The first dream I had was of very little importance. I don't remember much of it, literally the only piece of it I can recall was Mulder from the X-files was gay. It didn't really make sense.

The second dream that was actually memorable started out with me and my sister Rose at the park. I've been chanting a reminder in my head the past few days to attempt one of the DreamViews monthly challenges where you shrink your perspective down to the size of a tiny bug and explore the world. I finally remembered to do that in this dream, but it didn't last as long as I would hope. So, back to the plot.
Rose and I were walking around with my niece in a stroller, like we have actually done in the past- nothing seemed out of place. I actually visit this park frequently in real life, it's down the street from my house. We walked along the pathway going through the grass and saw a small commotion over by the Park&Recreation office building, that's also next to the main playground. We made our way over to the side of the building and saw what everyone was buzzing about. There was a strange red-orange orb of energy hovering next to the sidewalk near the street. The orb had a dark ominous larger field of energy surrounding it, but you could tell the it the dark energy was radiating out of the smaller red one. I began to analyze my setting, trying to figure out what that could possibly be. It felt dark, and foreboding. I started to become lucid just then, I'm not sure if it was out of luck or if my critical thinking during the day is just paying off.
I decided then that I wanted to get rid of that energy in the park. I attempted to create a orb of white and good energy to blend with the red one and nullify it but my white energy didn't seem to last very long. This is the part where it gets interesting. I decided to take an alternate route. I wanted to harness whatever this orb was, it obviously was of great importance in my head. But I also was reminded of my goal of shrinking, so I decided that if I DID get to explore the world of a bug or bacteria, it would be a well precaution to absorb the energy of that orb before going under, incase of any potential difficulties. I calmed my mind and focused on the perspective of my size. I wanted to make focus on both making myself smaller and the things around me larger. I focused my intent and closed my eyes for a technique that I usually use to summon things in front of my vision, but instead- I opened them to be standing next a forest of grass!
I made my way just through a few blades and onto the side walk. The building next to me was much, much larger than it had been before and the projectile of my vision made the dark orb look like a red sun. This new light made the orb seem even more ominous, and what happened next- I guess I should have left undone. I began to expand the orb in my mind before I attempted to absorb it. I made it grow in size about twice as large as it had been but then, it ripped appart my dream. I guess it turned into some sort of black whole, the world went dark and I saw shapes of space and matter flying into it's spot until everything went dark and the dream ended. I woke up later, excited about the incredible visuals of the explosion but... it was unfortunet that I didn't get to roam around as a tiny me a bit longer.

Well, last night I my homework was amazing lacking, so I was able to go to bed around 9:30 instead of the typical 11:00. I blame my AP Chemistry for causing my late night excursions. I mean really, should it take me from 4:30 (when I get home) until 10:30 to get my homework done? Ah well, at least last night was better. Anyways... dream time!

#1 - I remember this one started out and I was in this little byplane, way up in the sky. I was in the bak seat and whoever was in front was driving. Anyways, we decended in for a landing on this REALLY short runway (it was more of a stop and fall out of the sky deal). We managed to decend very nicely though and we were coming in for a smooth landing when I randomly went against gravity and floated straight up out of my seat. I looked down and realized I hadn't had my seatbelt on but I was still puzzled. Either way though, it was quite interesting although I'm not sure why I didn't see this as a good opportunity to become lucidl. I then went and explored this farm we had landed at and that is all I remember.

#2 - This dream had a strange feeling to it. At first it was like I was working on my game, typing away at some code. Then I guess I ran the project or something, because then all I could see was a screen with Sonic running along. It was one of those wierd things though where it is like you are in it, but you still have control with some invisible keyboard type device. Anyways, the other wierd thing is that the game was 3d (mine is 2d in real life), it was in this level called Crisis City (which is also not in my game) and it was the little chubby Sonic from the 90's (I'm using Modern in my game). Anyways, this level was going on for a REALLY long time. I swear, it was like I was there for an hour just going through this level. It was like I could see the end the whole time but in slow motion or something. Anyways, I FINALLY made it to the end and that is all I remember.

#3 - I think this dream was my failed attempt at a DEILD last night. I think i tried to re-enter dream #2 but this is what happened instead...
It was still a 3d Sonic game, except now it was Modern and on some level from Sonic Colors. Anyways, now I was at my computer watching a playthrough of this game and then the guy got to this part where he would not stop complaining about some really random glitch. He basically went and found this one area where if you boosted or something at the right time one of the enemies would get stuck in the ground by a couple pixels. Even though it didn't affect the gameplay at all, and was just one of things that you would usually laugh about and move on, he just would not stop complaining about it. It was then really wierd because I kinda just hopped through the screen or whatever and somehow fixed the enemie's placement with my invisble keyboard again. By this point it was more like I was in the game again and the playthrough guy wasn't there anymore. I seem to be having these invisible keyboard dreams a lot recently. Hmm...
At least i got some good dreams last night.

I don't remember much about the first part of the dream. I can remember recalling earlier dream events later in the dream, so I know at some point in the begining of the dream K was telling me some history of a bridge. The first part of the dream I can really recall thought is being in the middle of a very small town, but the town had several really old looking Japanese buildings as well as a couple of newer looking buildings. There weren't really paved roads, it was mostly gravel and dirt drives. I was running around in a dirt square playing with some young kids like I was baby sitting or something. The kids were all ten or younger and wearing Kimonos and such. We're running around picking up rocks and playing tag. K is standing by a set of double doors at a new looking building watching us but I don't pay him much mind. When it's starting to get dark, I decide to go inside the building. K follows me. The first room inside was fairly small and looked like a den or a waiting room. There was a corner couch on the left with end tables and lamps. There's a young man with longish blondish brown hair on the couch talking to a little old woman. The woman tells K and I to sit, so I do sit on the other side of the couch but K positions himself against the wall watching the double doors we came through. Beside him is another set of double doors and I see that the guy on the couch has a clear view of it, and briefly think they're in spots to keep an eye out for danger or something. The woman is talking about our clothing not fitting in, and that the village would be happy to dress us like them so we'd blend in a bit better. I'm not really paying attention, instead I'm looking around the room. I notice a gift bag and some Bath and Body works things on the end table next to me and I "remember" that we brought them as a gift to the women of the village. Then someone comes in with kimonos and such for us to put on as well, and the woman leaves so we can change. I'm not at all bothered by changing in front of K or the other guy, and the old woman didn't seem to care that she was leaving me in the room with them to get changed either. I am facing the double doors we came through when I change but that's all I remember about changing. I know I had a jacket and pulled it on over the kimono because I felt odd and awkward in such clothes, and I had a pair of black gloves on as well, with red tips or stripes or something on them. When we're changed, we go through the double doors K was standing next to, not the ones we had entered through. There was a hallyway, and on the left was a gymnasium with folding chairs set up and people sitting in the chairs listening to a woman speaking. On the right were some drink machines and a door to a game room. The game room had a pool table by the door, and we went inside there. K and the couch guy took off their jackets and laid them on a chair then started playing pool. I stand next to the door and can sorta hear the lady in the auditorium talking, but can't make out what she's saying. I want to go listen, and so as much. K tells me to be careful and leave the door open so he can see me. I walk out and leave the door open, and peek into the gym. Its a highschool girl talking now, but what she's saying doesn't really register with me. Instead I get a gut feeling to look left. I glance to the left without even thinking, and see a white man with normal clothes on and a big expensive looking watch walking towards the pool room. There are two men dressed in black behind him. The man looks right at me, and then says something about the kimono being a good try to blend in, but that my coat and gloves give me away. He motions to the pool room and tells the two guys in black "The others would be in there" then starts to slowly walk towards me. K comes walking very quickly from the pool room to put a hand on my back and lightly push me so I'll start walking along with him. The man frowns and starts to follow us, so K puts hi arm around my shoulder and pulls me closer as he starts walking faster. I make the comment that if we're supposed to pretend to be brother and sister for this cover it's never going to work if he's holding me like that. He tells me not to worry about it, that it doesn't matter right now bc it's already blown and all that matters is keeping me safe. Somehow the couch guy is keeping the guys in black and the man with the watch busy so they can't follow us, but I don't look back to see how. K rushes me to the door we entered the building through, and stands me by it and tells me not to follow him, but to run away if the guys in black or the man with the watch show up, he has to go back and help the other guy. I stand by the door, and hear some people talking outside about being late for the town meeting bc they were out hunting for food. I took it as hunting game, not like looking for a place to eat lol. I look out to see whos talking, but it's so dark I can't make it out. The K comes walking very quickly again from the hall, takes my hand, and starts pulling me outside. I follow him, and a girl comes up and follow us as well but I don't catch her name or anything. We get in a car that I "remember" putting my rocks I collected in earlier, and we drive a couple of blocks, then park the car and start to walk away. K jokes that if he'd had a sword we wouldn't have needed to leave the village, but then I tell him I think owning weapons is illegal there and a sword is a weapon. He tells me that to be honest he doesn't know much about this place, that he only knows about the bridge because he wrote a paper or something about it for class once. Then I remember I wanted my rocks, and go back to get them. Neither K nor the girl are happy that I want to go back, but they don't argue with me really. When I open the trunk of the car I find that my rocks have been cut into shapes. There's a wizard made of quarts and a rabbit made of some sort of quarts crystal or something with brown spots. I marvel at them a minute, run my fingers along the rabbits rough surface, then realize I can't carry them all b/c they're too heavy. Around this point my mom called and woke me up >.<

Date: September 19th, 2012
Lucid: No?
Location: A river, a town in the past (1981), a subway system?
Tone: Scary, fun, entertaining

The River

Going as far back as I can remember into this dream, I recall sitting in a small clear-water river two other people. There is a raft behind us, made of logs tied together. The river has clear water, and lots of brush on the skirts of it, meaning there is no beach around most of it. The river is in the shape of a “T”, with us being situated at the bottom part of the “T”. To the north of us, there is a small beach with a few stereotypical looking tipi huts. To the west, the river extends into a bend, and to the east, the river continues a bit further. A woman sits on the beach, staring longingly out into the river. Suddenly tons of tiny little arrows start being shot at in our general location. We swim back a little bit towards the raft, but do not go under it. One of the small arrows hits one of the people I'm with in the head. It does not kill, or even seriously injure her. Even so, we make the assumption that these arrows in large doses are deadly.

I decide to get under the raft, and swim my way (using the raft as coverage) to the beach. The others think this is a bad idea, but I do it anyway. The river opens up and is much wider in the upper beach section. There is no current moving me at all, in any part of the river. I arrive to the woman on the beach, and my memory is foggy at this point, but I recall swapping out the raft for a blowup horse that I use as cover. I switch back to the raft at some point, and I recall the woman being upset that she isn't able to leave the beach. At this point, I assume that the arrows are other “tribesmen” or something sitting in the brush beyond my sight, protecting her. Set around the brush by the river near the beach, there are giant traps. They are giant planks with nails and spikes in them, that swing down into the water if you trip them. The raft does trip one of the traps, and I am not harmed, but this is how I see them in action.

I use my raft to swim over to the east side of the “T” river, and find myself at land. However, it is simply a set of three doors in a very small tunnel. One is to my left, one is to my right, and the other straight ahead. I remember the door to the left being orange. On the door, there things written (like how most doors have “Emergency Stair Case” or “First Floor”), but are in another language. I recall it reading something like “Dans Alfred”. From the other two doors, I can hear that they are like large staircases (like the kinds you find in hotel). The echo of the staircase makes me able to hear people. I can hear them running up the stairs, so I open the door in front of me, and run down.

The Diner

As I run down the stairs, there are a set of men with guns and in uniform (similar looking to the police, but more military) facing down the stairs (opposite of my direction). There is a gap where there seems to be two men missing from the unit. I jump through the gap and when the rest of the unit take notice, I yell “Alred is the other way!”. This is the only thing I remember repeating. I'm very keen on making sure they know I'm not “Alfred”, whomever he is.

I open the door on the other end of the short staircase, and find myself in a diner. I recall a slight flight/tussle with someone here, but I do not remember the specifics. I walk towards the entrance of the diner (which is shaped more like a coffee shop), and find people sitting at a table there. I recognize them in my dream, but I do not remember who they are now. After sitting there, my father walks up. He is holding a stack of newspapers that are taped to his chest with pink duct tape. For some reason, I believe that they are hiding a piece of bulletproof material, in case someone wants to shoot him. We speak, I do not remember of what, and he gives me one of the newspapers in his large stack. I look down, and it seems to be a catalog of sorts. Everything is super expensive in the catalog.

The Town/Convenient Store

I walk across the street, and judging from the cars and atmosphere, I have deducted that I am in the past. It feels like late 60's, but I come to later find out the year is 1981. I walk into a store that has a layout of a general store. The shelves are stocked with random items. Inside, there is also a man selling tattoo stuff. I decide that I need some lotion for my fresh tattoo (which in real life, I do not have any recent tattoos that would need this), and ask for assistance. One of the cashier clerks walks me to the back section of this small general store (there is only three or four isles), and I find a bunch of specialty tattoo lotion. There are all sleekly designed. It's sort of the setup you would see at a high-end fashion salon or hair stylist. He suggests two types of lotion to me, both orange in color. He says that most people don't like one of the things he has suggested, but he finds it “amazing.” I set down the forementioned item and explore the store a bit. Lotion in hand, I find the store stocked with various items, such as perishable food, toys, etc. It's like a convenient store for everything. On the side closet to the front of the store, there are old video arcade games (old time-wise, not in condition or look), that are available to play. There is a man at the front of the store, who asks me what kind of candy I would like. As I tell him my choices out of the selection, he begins filling up different cups with different candy combinations and then hands them to me. I didn't ask for them, he just gave them to me. I walk to the counter to ring out my purchase (which is now lotion and some candy), and there is two long lines. I get in the left line, where the checkout counter is set up like a spare table, with an old man sitting down. There is a small boy and an older man in front of me. They are taking forever ringing out. The old man clerk tries to entertain the boy by showing him that he is on surveillance camera. The clerk points an old camcorder at him, which then immediately shows the young boy on the closed circuit television. I laugh for a while with them.

Note: I'm not sure if I was lucid at this point, but you'll understand why I'm confused soon.

I then slam down my hands on the counter and tell everyone to hurry up. I'm not truly mad, just feigning it. I then smile at everyone, and set my candy and lotion down on a nearby counter, and then focus myself, and spin in a circle a few times. I'm doing this in my dream to regain focus. I do not remember being lucid here. Perhaps I was lucid for a short period of time and do not recall it, or somehow the idea of spinning to gain clarity in a lucid dream has found its way into a non-lucid dream. Either way, I pay for my things. The man asks me tons of questions about my age, birth year, car, etc. He is filling out things on a form. Realizing that I am in the past, but truly from the future, I have to do some quick math to figure out what my fake birthdate and car stuff should be.

It is at this point in which I figure that I'm 18 years old (I'm actually 21 in waking life), and that the year is 1981. I give him my information, he gives me a keychain of some sort, and I walk out. I consider stealing a reese's bar on the way out, but don't.

The Train/Bus

Everything from the past section to now is a bit fuzzy, and I do not remember getting here. The next thing I remember is sitting in a car with my friend (we are still in the past), when my friend gets out to get into an argument with a man in a large bus. It is now night time, and I step out to hear their argument. The bus is large, and my friend is on the other side arguing with the driver. I crawl under the bus (which is very highly suspended, might I add), and start pulling switches and levers. The lights start flickering in the bus, and other things start going wrong with it. The argument ends with my friend and the driver, and as I drive away, I see all the passengers of the bus looking very frightened out the window at me.

The Rest

Everything else after that is fuzzy. I remember being in a subway like tunnel, and meeting up with my friend. The “bus” that I had early messed with turned out to be a train that I had crashed. I have no clue how this happened, but I take my friend's word for it. My friend Jeff and I stand on a balcony, throwing panties (yes, panties) off the balcony towards this small hole in the ground. The panties stack in the hole, making a sort of netting around it. In the distance, there are horses feeding and frolicking about. The horses seem drawn to the large stack/net of panties, and surround the hole. They all fall into the hole, which sucks them down and out of sight, like the hole is on the ceiling of a giant cave.

This is all I can remember

Retrospective

The only thing that really interested me (besides the idea of being in the past in a dream, which I've never done) was the fact that I cannot remember if I was lucid or not. If I wasn't lucid, I'm even more interested in why I was doing clarity stabilizers in a normal dream. Oh well.

Okay.
I whined about dry spells yesterday, then I had another brief lucid.
The differences is that I didn't wake up right away and I already knew I was in a dream before I fully went lucid.
The same is that I forgot to stabilize, goddamnit.

I was on the Cave Story Tribute forum. I receive a message from one of the members saying that my signature is against the rule. For some reasons my signature have a Futurama picture. Have I mentioned that I am sitting in the room that I physically sleep while I had the dream? The only difference is that it is now on the middle of a city.

Then my computer acted up, but I managed to close it down. I noticed the light was on for the first time. Then I saw my reflections on the screen and realized that the clothes didn't match up (I wore a Hawaiian shirt), so I became partially lucid. My roommate woke up, which meant a DC added to the equation. He asked me something and I intentionally allowed myself to say something very idiotic, which satisfied him and he went back to sleep. I realized I can't actually speak, and I tried to utter something until I could. Then I did the nose plug and it seemed weird, but I don't really know. I walked out the dorm and counted my fingers, and found out my left hand has extra fingers.

There was another door in front of me, and when I opened it it lead to the outside. There are roads on the left and a power plant in front of me. I jumped down from the fire escape stairway I was standing on. I tried to jump over the fence but it was too tall. Then I tried to find a way around it but I woke up first. Then it dawned on me I forgot to stabilize. Argh.