nightmare

Hi all,

For my first dream journal post I thought I would post one of my craziest lucid dreams. This dream was wrapped up in so many metaphors and symbolism for different parts of my life and mind that I literally feel like I took a walk through my mind the night I had it. Most of the other lucid dreams I've had have been far shorter and much more subtle and impressionistic but this lucid dream was definitely the longest, and darkest of all I've had.

I'm not sure if it would be considered lucid or 'semi-lucid' as while I was fully aware of the fact I was dreaming I was still afraid of certain things in the dream that, had I of been fully conscious I would have known couldn't hurt me. I also had many moments of doubting myself and thinking that maybe I wasn't dreaming and maybe I'm awake. Anyway, you decide for yourself.

On to the dream...

It started out as a nightmare, I can't remember much about what happened before I went lucid only that in the moment my mind decided to let me know I was dreaming and 'woke me up' so to speak, I found myself in a giant black room filled with darkness and death and basically everything horrible my mind could conjure up. The room wasn't so much a 'room' as such, but more like a space that seemed to go on forever.

The space was filled with all sorts of bad things everything from demons and dead bodies hanging to negative people in my life that I've encountered. I didn't particularly feel threatened by anything, like what you would in a non lucid dream, I wasn't thinking 'oh god that demon is going to eat my eyeballs as his entrée' but more like 'make it go away, I don't want to look at it any more' This is what I mean when I say I don't think I was fully lucid as while I knew nothing was physically going to hurt me, I still didn't have the control to change what was occurring.

Anyway, I was trying really hard to make all this bad stuff go away and make things happy but I just couldn't do it. I began to have a full blown freak out, soon after this is where I began to doubt myself and for some reason I started to think that maybe I wasn't dreaming and maybe I was just going insane. Going insane has always really scared me so I started to freak out even more wondering why I couldn't control what was happening or even wake myself up.

I became so desperate to wake myself up that I started screaming out to my boyfriend at the time (who was lying beside me) to wake me up, hoping I would say it in real life and he'd hear me. Obviously this didn't happen.

After a while, I gave up trying to get out of the dream and instead tried to focus all of my energy on trying to make something appear that would help me or tell me what to do. I closed my eyes and focused and when I opened them a man sitting in a therapist chair appeared.

The man was sitting, waiting for me in classic therapist manner (one leg crossed, clipboard in hand ready to make notes) and he looked a little like Steven Spielberg. Since apparently everyone we see in dreams we've seen before there is a chance maybe the therapist actually was Steven Speilberg (haha!)

I sat in the chair in front of the therapist and told him frantically that I wasn't sure what was going on, I thought I was going insane, that I didn't know why I couldn't control anything and that I couldn't make it go away. The therapist told me that I couldn't control everything, that I just had to stop fighting it and embrace it and that I would find out more later.

This conversation went on for a little while before I ventured off into the vast darkness, still quite terrified although wanting to take the therapists advice, I tried to embrace it, I tried to let go of my fear. I kept walking and the darkness began to transform into a beautiful dream landscape. Bright colours, patterns, like something from an acid trip. I was literally bouncing off the walls and floating.

Soon after this moment of psychedelia the colours began to change back into more natural colours and everything started to look more real again. I looked ahead and the landscape transformed into my old primary school assembly hall. It was like walking back through a memory and I could see the childhood version of myself at assembly. I examined myself for a second before I went up to child me and hugged myself. I felt at peace and happy, like I had reunited with a piece of myself.

Then my childhood self turned into some kind of tiny demon and started attacking me, I couldn't get it off me so I bit it's throat out and ended up waking up panicked and scared.

I remember walking towards a room in a building, to "investigate" something (my recall was a bit fuzzy during the non-lucid part). It was a two story building, with an opening to the first floor in the center, kind of like a shopping mall. I had these keys in my pocket, and they kept duplicating, which I think was part of the thing I was supposed to investigate. As I was walking towards the end of the hallway thing, it became completely enclosed (you couldn't see down to the first floor anymore) and the walls were covered completely in religious scriptures. And as I got closer to the end where it turned right into a room, the architecture of the building kept CHANGING, and the text on the walls was moving around.

Right as I got to the end and turned into the room, my vision suddenly flashed for a second, and all I could see were lines and lines of strange symbols (almost like the hallucinations in the Dead Space games). Right at that point, I realized that I was dreaming, and did an RC (nose plug) to test, and became lucid.

Naturally, I was kind of freaking out about the really demonic events happening, and right as two people that looked like missionaries walked up, I thought "oh crap, what if they're demons instead!" No points for guessing what happened next. They suddenly got bright red eyes and snake tongues, and started walking towards me.

I just thought to myself "nope nope nope, just a dream, no demons here," and they returned to their human forms, but still surrounded me and tried to keep me from moving away. I just pointed at each of them, and said "you're gone, you're gone, you're gone, and you're gone," and they all just disappeared.

I turned around to exit the room, and instead of the wall that should have been there I was walking into a large lobby/lounge area, full of people and with huge windows on the far wall. I looked around in the crowd, and thought to myself about how I could make someone appear. As I was thinking about that, out of the corner of my eye I saw this girl I've been interested in just walking around with everyone else. I walked up, said hi, then just grabbed her and started doing the deed on one of the couches in the lounge (hey, no judging, everyone's tried it, right?). I started with foreplay, but when things got to the point of actual penetration, things got weird. She got hesitant, and every time I looked away she would wind up dressed again. Eventually I gave up, and walked off.

At that point, details get a bit fuzzy. I remember trying to make a phone call, but the phone was acting "weird" and wouldn't do what I wanted. At one point I was afraid I accidentally called my cousin, but wound up talking to a friend with the same name. I might have lost control around this point, I'm not too sure. Right after the phone call, I suddenly woke up and everything ended.

Fragment

I was at the path intersection by the middle school from my old subdivision. It was summertime.

Fragment

I was on some beach or pier looking across a harbor to some high-rise apartment building. It was overcast/very cloudy and raining.

Fragment

Some kind of conspiracy about NASA. Supposedly there had been a shooting at the nasa offices and 26 people were killed. They locked the building with all of the bodies in it. Nobody had found them until "now" and they had all become skeletons. I remember seeing horrific imagery of skeletons and being told the story, that's all.

Dream. (Saturday Night)

I was given the power to create my own planet. I began creating this world with beautiful tropical forests and mountain ranges. There was a large sinkhole that all of this water was falling into.
Eventually some people came along in this high tech vehicle. It was a sort of grayish green color with huge wheels and this large satellite dish on top. When they activated it, it began sucking things twoards it, like some kind of gravity ray. There was a sort of blue aura to it.
I wanted to stop the ray, being the creator. I flew in (I had been flying the entire time I was creating the planet.) But I got trapped myself.

Dream (Last Night)

I was out on the ocean, in a dingy. I think my mother was there, as well as this old man with a beard and a cap on. It was nighttime and very dark. Although there was some light from the huge full moon.
The old man explained to me that there were dangerous snakes in the water. He explained that if they try to bite you, you have to shake them off quickly or they extend their teeth and poison you.
Then, the dingy started sinking. (Of course!) I swam clear and looked around, the shore was only about a quarter-mile away, and I decided to swim. I looked down and saw the snakes in the water.
They were only about three-four feet long and about an inch or two in diameter. They had a black and yellow diamond pattern down their backs. The issue was, there were at least a dozen just in my immediate area.
I felt one of the snakes bite my hand. I shook my hand off and I saw him fly back. When he did, it was kind of in slow motion, and I saw that he did not have teeth, just knobs in his gums where the fangs should be. But the knobs would open and the teeth would come out.
I kept swimming, but there were so many snakes, I had to shake my whole body constantly to keep them from biting me.

Another Dream (Last night)

I was standing on or near the ground. Someone was behind me. They did not show themselves or anything, though they told me that I was dreaming. I could somehow sense that they were behind me.
Then, they lifted me up into the air. We flew many miles up until the clouds were way below us. They said that they were going to drop me, and that I would have to start flying on my own.
I looked down, and realized that I was so high up that I could probably start flying before I got too close to the ground. If not, atleast have fun "falling with style"
When they released me, I fell the entire distance in only a second or two. When I hit the ground, I was paralyzed, and couldn't move. I slowly started sinking into the ground and realized that the ground was turing into small colored squares. It was around this time that I lost lucidity.
I broke through the ground and saw the whole world that I had just been to crumble away into colored squares, until eventually it was just one square and the square slowly faded away.

So anyways, I don't think this officially counts as a lucid dream. Not a good one anyway. It was way to hazy and unclear. I can say I was lucid, but I can't really call this lucid dream on that issue.

So this is my first nightmare I had. My bf and I were down in the basement in my dads den watching tv. Now as a normal teenage girl, if somebody rubs my arm I WILL fall asleep in a matter of 2 minutes. And I did and he eventually fell asleep too. Now this is where things get weird..


It was a dim lit hallway. It had no ending so it seemed. I looked around me and saw nothing but the walls and some light. I saw him, standing there. I was happy because I wasnt alone and I knew he would protect me. I ran to him but slowed and slowly approached him. I looked down to see both his wrists were cut, and bleeding. He looked at me with sorry eyes, and a tear fell from his blue eyes and whispered to me, "I'm sorry..." and turned and walked away. I started to cry and ran after him but he just kept walking. It seemed like a glass wall or an invisible wall seperated us. I tried escaping it but no use. He continued to walk down the no end hallway and soon faded off. I pounded on the wall and screamed and cried but nothing changed. He never came back. I soon heard a loud bang and a scream. I stopped wailing and soon saw a face come up close to the glass wall and awoke in fear. I jumped so high that i scared him too. I asked how i was and he said that my breathing was unsteady and that my chest went out very far that thats when he knew something was wrong but he didnt want to wake me. I started crying and layed my head on his chest, curled into a ball and wrapped my arms tight around him never wanting to let go because i felt safe, knowing he was actually there. Untouched and not hurt. This soon became a re-occuring dream for the both of us. Twas a true terror I would never want to experience or witness ever again.

Saturday, October 8, 2011
Strength: Neutral
Type: Creepy-Solid
Lucidity: No

I know it's been a while, but I feel like this dream is worth writing down. I'll try to get back into the schedule.

I'm waiting for a ship at it's port. I don't specifically recall what my destination was, but I need to get on it. It finally arrives, and I get on. It starts out as a peaceful voyage, but as time goes on, the sea begins to get rough. Soon, we find ourselves steering away from waves and trying desperately to stay on board and keep the ship afloat. Sadly, we don't succeed. As a mighty wave crashes against the ship, our boat capsizes, sending us all overboard. I find myself swimming through the rough tides, searching for others. I finally find a few of my friends and we begin to swim to shore. After a while of swimming, we come across an odd, carnivalesque island.

We're greeted by an odd looking man, who's tending to the entrance of a roller-coaster. He welcomes us and informs us that the only way to reach the center of the island is through the roller-coaster. As I get on it, I can't help but feel that I've been on the ride. The ride is horror-themed, and pretty basic, providing weak scares and basic horror elements, up until the end. We round a corner and see a bloodied woman, whispering to herself in the dark, when she sees us, she lets out a blood-curling scream. Our trail then turns away and goes down a drop before ending. While I'm exiting the ride, I awake.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Strength: Faint
Type: Scary-Solid
Lucidity: No

Haven't had notable dreams lately. When I do, they aren't as vivid as they usually are. Go figure. I start a dream diary and I stop having dreams. I'm almost hoping for nightmares.

Anyway, as fain as this one was, I'll try to give it the best description possible. I was somewhere in the mountains, strapped to a table with some kind of force preventing my escape. I don't recall if I managed to escape or if I was tortured there, but I remember a strong sense of terror. I also had the faint idea that I had been there a long time, perhaps my entire life.

I might start trying lucid dreaming to see if I can trigger a more vivid dream, but I see that as a last resort. I will turn to it if these weak dreams persist, though.

Non Dream
Dream
Lucid

All of a sudden my vision turned from black to bright red. At this point, I realized I was dreaming. I looked towards the wall and saw shadows of flames materializing. When I got up and looked around though there were just cheap cardboard cutouts of flames scattered throughout the room. I jumped out of the window to escape. I was in another room with more cardboard flames. My vision turned from bright red to somewhat black and white. It was as if I was in a cheap 1920's silent film. I dodged the flames and jumped through another glass window into another room. I could finally see the outside through another window. Then, K (a big girl) came up from behind and bit my arm! I got away and when I looked back I saw that K had a shovel and was trying to hit me! Luckily, I was able to grab the shovel from her hands as she was taking a swing at me and got away again. My dream ended just before I could make it outside.

Sleep – 11:00pm
Wake ups – 1:56am
Finial Wake up – 9:00am
WBTB - 5:00am-5:35am

First Dream

I was sat in my mum’s car while my mum was driving and my sister and her friend were talking in the back. Then we passed this creepy looking house and my mum, sister and her friend all made comments on how it’s meant to be haunted.
Next I remember looking at myself in a mirror. I was in a room I don’t recognise. It was filled with Victorian furniture and wallpaper. The lights went out and there was no light in the room but I could still see myself in the mirror. I didn’t even notice this in the dream. About 5 seconds later the mirror cracked and the face of a dead woman was right behind me. She had been brutally beaten up and blood covered her face. As soon as I looked at her face she let out the loudest high pitch blood wrenching scream and everything went black.
The dream faded back in and the mirror wasn’t cracked anymore. However now I was looking through the eyes of my dad. He was in the same room I was just in and next to him was my mum. The room went dark again and neither of them noticed. All they could see was themselves in the mirror.
The mirror cracked but nothing happened this time. About 10 seconds later the mirror cracked again and behind them about 10 feet was the same women as before. My mum and dad both turned around and both of them screamed. The dead women looked like she was wearing a nurse uniform but it was hard to tell because it was ripped in places and covered in blood. She then let out her scream again and then everything went black again. This woke me up at 1:56am.

Next Dream

I was around my friend Brady’s house. He had found an old puzzle game. You had to put all the pieces together and it would make a pyramid shape. Then you had to make another pyramid shape but this time it was hollow. Then these two fitted together. I was trying to do it when Brady’s mum walked in and started talking to him.
I finished the puzzle and it started to glow. For some reason this made Brady’s mum extremely angry and without think I threw the puzzle across the room at the wall.



Dream Fragments

- Brady and I were drinking coffee at a coffee shop. He pulled out a clock from his bag. It had a picture of a lion in the centre of it. As time went by the picture started to change and the lion got more and more angry. (This may have been part of the same dream as above but I’m not sure.)

- I walked into my bathroom and it was full of Christmas presents. They were only about 1cm3 big and there was at least a thousand of them all stack against the far wall. I picked a few up and they were all addressed to someone named “E” and they were all from my brother.

- I found about 15 darts. At the end of the dart, instead of there being stabilizer fins there was a round picture frame. In each one there was a different picture of people I know from school.

- My family and I were sitting at a table in a restaurant. Next to us was another family praying before they ate their food. A guy a few tables away was throwing stuff at them and shouting offensive things at them.

Jan 10, 2013

Dream:

It's in the middle of the night, I'm standing in the kitchin and it's dark outside while the light is on inside so I can pretty much just see the reflection of myself when I look out the window. I think I'm on my way to the bathroom or going to grab some food from the fridge (I've walked this exact route so many times I can actually walk it with closed eyes, tried and tested).
As I'm walking I get this feeling, like someone is watching me, so I look out the windows and I see a dark silhuet standing just outside, but I can't see it properly so I switch off the lights and look out the window again. As I look into two tiny black demon like eyes my heart starts beating faster and I'm having a hard time breathing. I'm struck by a loud high pitched noice. It's so loud that I'm deafened by it and I'm literally paralyzed for what feels like an eternity but in reality was more like seconds. My eyes are locked with the eyes of this creature. It feels like I'm getting drawn into the bottomless void that is it's eyes and I'm filled with stress and anxiety. It's as if I'm about to burst.
But then with a snap of the fingers I'm freed from it's grasp as it turns away from me and start walking. My angst is instantly relieved to some extent and I can move again though with great effort as my body is still weary and I have to lean against the kitchen table to remain on my feet.
The entety has seems to have grown smaller only about a few feet high and it seems confused or panicy like it is just as afraid of me as I am of it. It doesn't move in a straight line and it moves weird. It seems as if it can't bend his legs and it's arms are stiff down the sides. The way it moves actually resemble the way a penguin would move. A vicious demon penguin of evil anyway.
It's dressed like Chapin so i guess 'it' must be a 'he' and his head is completely unproportionate. It's huge compared to the body. The head alone makes it for atleast one third of his height. His face looks as if it where painted on, he looks very old with long wrinkles like the rings on a tree stub. He has a blank expression on his face and pale skin.
I'm still having trouble breathing properly, the pitched noice is still there and my hearth is still pulsing through the roof.
I'm trying to yell out to this demonic midget or whatever it is, but I can't. I'm yelling so hard that my chest is getting sore but no sound escapes my mouth. My efforts are brought to a halt as the noice increases in volume, louder than ever. My hearth is pounding away faster and faster for every second and I seem to lack the ability to breath. My legs are tremblind beneath me and i seem to be on the verge of a collapse as the creature turns around slowly. I stare helplessly at it as I'm paralyzed once more. At the moment where our eyes are locked the noice, my breathing, my hearth, everything just explodes everything becomes a dark blur as I in my bed.


Notes:

As I woke up I was breathing really fast and my pulse was definelty faster than usual. Though I realized pretty much instantly that it had just been a dream so i closed my eyes quickly and relazed all my muscles to try and recollect the dream. I seemed to remember some fragments of an earlier dream that night aswell. Namely it seemed like Charles 'the Demon Midget' Chaplin had been haunting me in an earlier dream aswell. All I could see though was a flashing image of 'Chaplin' on a brighter background. Could have been my imagination i guess.

I haven't had a nightmare since i was a kid, and much less have I actually woke up from one. (as far as i can remember)
I used to have nightmares somewhat often and i was scared of the dark and everything. I can't honeslty say that I don't feel weird about darkness anymore though I'm easely supressing any weird feelings with logic. I have often experienced my fantasy making me imagine there would be someone watching me at exactly the spot Chaplin 'the Demon Midget' was standing at (just about a yard from the kitchen window). But again I've had no problems brushing it off as mere fantasy.

I have never had very good dream recall as far as I can remember, but then again i don't remember much from when i was a kid. I never remember more than maybe 1 dream each month.

That is why I was and am focusing on gaining a good dream recall before trying seriously for lucidity.

This dream occured after about 2 hours of sleep on the very first night that i attempted to do anything about my dreams.
I had been researching a lot on lucid dreaming and I was very intent to at the very least recall a dream that night. I also tried to perform a WILD, knowing I would probably fail. And sure i did fail but I had some very interesting hypnogogia before i fell asleep. Furthermore i had set my phones alarm to 4:30 am to attempt the WBTB tecknique.

I suppose it the sum of all this preperation and my state of mind that caused me to have this extremely vivid dream.
By far the most vivid dream I remember. The fact that I hardly ever recall my dreams (even when I do recall dreams they are more like fragments and certainly not very vivid) and the fact that it caused me to wake up (a thing no dream has done to me for several years) all made me truly believe that lucidity is very much possible for me.

This made me sign up here on dreamviews, cause now I'm officially working towards my first lucid dream!

ps. I've uploaded a web cam photo of the drawning I made of Chaplin. ( keep in mind it was drawn at about 1:30 am )

pps. Sorry if there are any spelling or grammar errors. The text is too long for me to look through at the moment. Maybe I'll revisit it later to correct errors.

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10.01.2013

Two Executioners After Me (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's a Resident Evil 4 and 5 themed dream, and I believe I'm walking along with someone who's my partner. I ask them to be cautious of the Las Plagas enemies and any other random enemies; I even tell them that killing one enemy a certain way would be easier in the long run.

I believe it was the Las Plagas enemy in the game that wears a red robe, and he wasn't wearing the mask in the pic below:

I realized I'm all alone now, and I'm walking inside of a dark hallway with white floors and gray walls. It seems there was something in this hallway I was going to get, but I don't have really good recall of it.

The dream shifts where I decide to turn around and get out, and there's two Executioners in front of me that have mid-ranged weapons connected by chains.

The environment outside looks like a derived section of the Village section in Resident Evil 4, and the skies are dark brown with thunder randomly appearing. There are dark brown trees with no leaves whatsoever, and the surface is mixed with autumn leaves and a dirt trail in the middle.

I try to see what they're going to do, and it seems they're going to take turns in trying to kill me, so it's basically a 1 vs 1 encounter.

I don't know why the other one in the left is here, but I focus my attention on the one to the right because he flings things large metal start spiked object at me, and I'm deflecting it with something I can't recall too well.

I hear the metal clanks, and I can feel the aggressive force this executioner is exerting when using the chained weapon at me. I bounce back, and I'm honestly having a hard time, and since he has two of these weapons, I have to keep myself aware even after I deflect one weapon.

It took him maybe 2-3 seconds to chain the attacks together before taking a 4 second break to prepare for another chain, and there were two moments where I almost got injured.

I keep deflecting the attacks, literally on my toes having to spatially expand my awareness. I don't know what I do next, but I get used to his attacks and I presume that I would make a final kill somehow before I have to deal with the one on the left.

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10.01.2013

Cowboy Bebop Final Episode Simulation (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I only remember being at an elevator, pressing the up or down button on the glossed dark brown panel.

The elevator dings, and random men in black suits start aiming their guns at me from both elevator doors.

I duck for cover somehow and kill them off, and I can't really feel myself being injured or anything like that. I try to press the button several times after dealing with this onslaught, and it just keeps going and going maybe 2-3 times....I can't remember anything after that.

Sleep – 11:00
1st Wake up – 03:23
Finial Wake up – 06:30

I was talking to a child that I apparently had met before. He had what looked like a radio hanging around his neck. He was telling me his life since we last met which, from the feeling I had, was a long time ago. Apparently last time we met I had said something along the lines of rain melts you if it touches you. I think I was only joking around but he seemed to take it deadly serious. He told me ever since that day he has been scared of the rain and would refuse to leave the house if it got too cloudy. He then went to talk about a new religion/cult he joined. The main thing I remember about it was that they believed that they would be enlightened if the gouged their own eyes out. He then went on to gouge his own eyes out with his fingers.
I woke up there and could feel my heart beating rapidly.

Last night i finaly managed to get my 4th lucid dream after long break!

I used to do reality checks everyday and got no results, but this night somehow i was thinking that something is wrong about my surroundings... So i just thought "Wait a minute!" and yes i just got lucidity, i got exited as usually

So what i decided to do first was to reality check. I knew i was dreaming so why would i do RC?!

Cause i never did RC in a dream so i never knew how i would look like

So i tryed to push my thinger through my palm... And i was always thinking it would go through just like in to the hole or something. But in my surprise it was streching my hand like it was a gum, like sticky thing and is very flexible

So ye, was kinda nice doing RC in dream (FINALY IN DREAM NOT RL )

But after spending some time doing RC in dream, i got scared thought about some scary things, like someone was catching me and i was running...

I knew that nothing wrong can happen to me, since i had previous expieriance with scary lucid, so i could simple close my ice in dream and scream to wake up, but i didn't, i wanted to spend some more time in dream, but ye, i woke up.

But i am still glad that i had my 4th lucid dream.

I don't know if any of you have that strange feeling, like i am in dream and i am lucid, and i scream or yell something loudly and i think that my girlfriend can here me in RL, like i was talking while i am asleep, but this time i knew i was sleeping and i was contacting my girlfirend

07.01.2013

Avoiding Saddler and Escaping To the Ocean (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

First of all, this was quite a scary dream because I was trapped in a room for a while, and it took some creativity and a lucky distraction to get away from Saddler, the main villain in Resident Evil 4.

There are maybe 2-3 resets in this dream, and there were other dreams mixed into them I believe. The first thing I can remember is simply being inside of a tool shed made of gray bricks and a decent rooftop.

I go inside, thinking Saddler wouldn't find me there, but I left the door open, and he slowly prepares himself to come in. He takes a peek to see if I'm there, and I'm pretty sure he knows I'm there. For this part of the dream before the reset, it was because I was afraid of what he would do to me that made me shift into another dream.

Before the dream goes into a reset at that same event, I'm in a first person player dream where I'm holding a gun and I'm running around randomly. I'm listening to someone showing another person how to prepare their gun.

He screams out,

"Lift your Arm!"

"Hold!"

"Shoot"

The person practicing this was doing the same procedure stated to him, and I was confused on what he meant by "Hold," so I looked at the person and saw they cocked their gun and I did the same.

I noticed when I was doing this, I get a more detailed version of the gun, and I see #1 and #2 near the holding base of the gun. I decided to press number 2 since 1 was already pressed.

I hold my arm up, cocked the gun, but I didn't want to shoot. I just repeated the process until I realized I had a different gun. Now I'm shifted back to that same dream I mentioned of me trying to escape Saddler.

This time, the dream shift skips whatever I did to get out of the dead-end situation I set myself up for with Saddler. The area around me was an island and the borders for this section of the island had light gray bricks that pretty vivid for something that would just be a filler in a dream like this.

The surface I'm standing on is a trailing path of pure brown dirt with green grass left and right. There's randomly generated trees spaced out maybe 10 feet from each other, but if I remember correctly, there were maybe 2-5 trees overall on this section of the island. The sky above is blue and has little clouds, and it feels likes a tropical environment.

It feels kind of awkward to have this nice little paradise of an island with evil lurking within in. So I aimed my weapon that's now a grappling gun to the roof of castle-like structure 20 feet away from me.

I think I'm going to miss, but the grapple just extends a bit further probably to ensure that I get a hold on to something at least. So I shifted my gun downwards a bit and now the grapple is in place. I thought I had to manually climb up, but apparently the grappling gun does an automatic pull for me...sweet!

So I immediately take a right and head for the sandy beach and find that the water stretching god knows how long. The water is a turquoise type of color that's a bit more on the green side, like pastel green, except a little darker and a bit more yellow to give it a limey kind of color.

There's a submarine with its top exposed, and I realize I'm riding a balloon like mini submarine. Things are going fairly well for me, and my worries of the balloon like structure popping from sharp objects is eliminated, which allows me to speed up to follow the older man who I believe helped me escape from Saddler.

I wanted to go into the submarine since the old man was apparently going for it, but he moved forward instead, and I clearly shifted my vehicle to the right. I'm keeping a pretty steady pace, maybe 30 feet away from him, but now I'm shifted to the right, and I think I plan to go on my own into a even DEEPER ocean that's right UNDER this one.

That's all I remember for that one.

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07.01.2013

Bacteriophages Infecting The House (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside of a house, and basically, there are brown bacteriophages that are about as small as my pinky, maybe smaller than that, infecting this random house I'm in.

I'm trying my best to avoid them because someone told me that they can cause your memory to degree. They weren't really affecting me, or at least I didn't feel as if they were after me, but I started to get paranoid because they grew by the number at random places in the house.

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07.01.2013

Running Away from White Tiger With Black Stripes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There's this female that I'm close to in this very cold area completely saturated with snow.

There's not much I can remember from this, but I do remember saying something to her, and then I was trying to run away from her.

She transforms into a white tiger with black stripes, and while I'm trying my best to get the hell away from her, I think I'm saying some cruel things at her along with someone else running away from her.

The other person does most of the insulting, and I realized that these insults I'm giving to her are petty and just completely disrespectful. I'm pretty sure she was someone good to talk with, but I don't know that triggered this negativity.

She comes at me fast in her tiger mode, and I'm now in this weird position where I'm controlling my dream body to run away from her, but I also have vision to see what's behind me.

She's just coming at me with all her might, and I'm barely able to keep up a faster pace than her.

I noticed the glacier and icy areas I'm passively acknowledging as I'm going maybe 60 mph or even 70 mph, possibly in an animal transformation of my own, are starting to crack.

But we're going so fast, it doesn't even matter.

I can't remember much after that.

Then there's this other dream I had where my father reads my text messages and what's on my computer, and I don't want him to know I have a girlfriend. He seems to be a bit passive, but I still quickly take back my phone and laptop away from him.

It is the day. I'm with another man I do not recognize and we are running away from some people. We are on the street and see a house in ruins and decided to hide in there. Inside the men feel that we are pursuing are getting closer and start looking for a solution. I see a hole in the ground and below me to look inside. I see that this hole will give a lower floor repair but also that the passage is too narrow for passing them to me. Nevertheless feel fear because our pursuers are closer. i get into the hole and try to pass. When I realize that I can not start to try to kick from the cement and widen the hole. I literally every kick, I hear the loud noise in my ears and also its echo. I look at the street and see one of the men we're pursuing. He has short hair and big beard to do. Has a dirty face and body, typical of a man who was in a fight. Seeing it increases my fear, feel the adrenaline to join my muscles. Do nothing now I became that man. I go to the house and look at the hole. My companions arrived now. They ask, "Where are they?" And I point to the hole. When looking to see that as there could not dig down, dug to the side until you find the ventilation and thus reached the lower floor.
I am again. Me and my friend are in a sort of hospital and there I remember the beginning and tell you that we have to be careful because this place is haunted. This was a madhouse and something happened. Many people died here and so we have to be careful not happen in the same. While you say that I am terrified but does not want to show. We started walking through the halls. I see trash on the floor, all messy. You do not see anyone here but in the middle of the hallway are some stretchers but empty. We turned to the left and entered a hallway and darker as we enter there will now repair it is full of people. Nurses, doctors, patients. As the hospital was operating normally. But moreover also notice that I am now a woman. This experience is perhaps a leap in time and is now reliving the memory of someone.
I'm talking to a nurse about patients and so the conversation just take a look around me. Repair the light coming from the windows, flowers and plants that decorate the room. I hear the noise of people talking and feel that everyone there is busy. I'll come back to me and I leave the room and go to the street. On the street against a football field equal to that my old school has. In the field are some kids playing baseball and start talking with a man who is there. He seems to be the coach and ask them to give me a lesson because I am one of the best players. Caught at bat and give some shots.
But alas I turn back and say that this is not my sport but basketball. He sends me a ball into the hands and start to dribble a bit. But something happened now I am a boy again. I'm playing but I feel that the ball is not very good and should be in the competition. I see a guy there that this also fails to play a launch and I'll try too. Before launching the ball I hear people talking that I'll fail but to hear it so I want to prove them wrong and throw the ball but to my surprise it failed. Beginning to dribble the ball to the foot of the coach and even that hard to do this. I feel that the ball does not jump well and that I have to hit too hard. I tell the coach that the ball is broken but he did not believe me. I drop the ball on the ground usually to show you because that's how you test a ball and show him that the ball is not even good.
I leave the field and go to the foot of a wall. That wall as the field is equal to my old school but here's an entry that does not exist in my real life. I notice that my dog ​​(who died a few years ago) but there is a Luna has puppies. There are some people around her will decide which puppy to take and then I get. I say they are all beautiful but I prefer the one with the blue hair. I look to the side and there he is, the dog just imagine.
Woke up.

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04.01.2013

Akashic Records Reading Real or Fake? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I remember that I'm inside of a hallway where things are quiet but peaceful. There's a very big book in front of me, and the exterior is a brown color while the pages are slightly yellow.

The room was a little dark, but there was a window right above me that was conveniently placed right behind the book so that I could easily read it. I couldn't remember the first pages of this book, and I probably wouldn't have been able to decipher them if I wanted to.

So as I'm going through more pages, I finally noticed something comprehensible. For some reason, that page came out to me, like it tore out on its own or something like that. It stated about me having a 53% of something, and by doing these actions, I would an augmentation leading towards that event being more probable and in my favor.

It was kind of hard to bear at first, and I don't really recall embracing the magnificence of the Akashic Records, probably because I felt I was in the lower levels of my own Records. The paper showed a graph somewhere on the right, and then there's a table that shows actions I can take that gives me a certain percentage if I accomplish them.

Then I had this mentality where it was Thursday of next week I believe, or maybe Thursday that already passed for this week. But to be practical, I'm going to presume the dream or astral scenario was for the week coming up after this dream journal entry.

So if I wanted to be in the clear for the event to be in my favor I had to get at least 10% to make it 63%.

With the options below on the table, it seemed I had a pretty good chance in making this happen. After realizing this, it gives me a sense of relief, but I'm still not sure if this was simulated or not.

Then the whole experience starts go into dream like qualities, and I see random people like Nick from Young and the Restless, so now as I'm typing this, the Akashic Records reading was either:

- Real, but I dozed off and got the experienced intertwined with a random dream

-Simulated along with the random dream

- Real, but how I conceptualize it was associated with how I analyze dreams.

Now the dream shifts where I'm planning out some of the activities on the paper that's torn out (this was obviously a simulation or something, because I don't recall your own pages actually being able to be ripped off or being able to be torn out.

It was mostly things related to college, and then it felt like it was Friday, and I didn't have any kind of awareness on any percentage increase. I felt my time here was limited, and that things would start crashing down for me.

Going into this self-induced pit of negative emotions, I start to phase out of my planning, if I had one, and I can't recall the rest of this experience.

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04.01.2013

Trying to Call My Father (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a house I'm currently residing for the New Years break, and I find myself trying to call my father. The phone starts blanking out pretty frequently, which irritates me.

My father picks up sometimes, but most of the time I can't even hear him at all. I didn't bother to check if the phone volume was on mute, but I didn't really want to do anything but to call him.

The house itself has the kitchen light turned on and the T.V. on the left is on as well I believe.

There's someone wearing an orange shirt and brown leggings or velour pants in the house that starts becoming annoying after a while and starts screaming, and I'm not sure if it's at me or my father.

But when she's screaming, I hear the response from my phone. I get confused, and I can't remember what happens after that.

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04.01.2013

Weird Creature & Dave Chappelle (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

There's a creature consisting of orange and a slightly green tentacle. It's as small as a human fist, and it's moving around like crazy where I'm too scared to do anything.

Dave Chappelle randomly comes into this dream, and I'm trying to throw a ball at the creature, but Dave catches it with his butt cheeks. He starts going random mode on me, and I'm trying to look the other way before things go into the shitter for this dream.

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04.01.2013

Kaomea PMs me (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Kaomea PMs stating that I could PM her every now and then.

Huh?

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04.01.2013

Alyzarin makes me Respond Quickly (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Alyzarin wants me to respond to a thread with preset responses, and I do it quickly because she says it to me in a rush.

I thought I created the thread, which was something related to putting what describes you as a tag or something, but it seems Erii created it before me.

After reading my reply the second time, I felt this didn't really describe me. Then some random user below me with a Kid Goku picture for his avatar stated how he was going to describe himself, but I pretty much took part of what he was.

A lot of people liked this, and I feel confused on what I actually did to "steal" part of his identity in the first place. I felt guilty either way, and then as I'm scrolling up to see who liked it, I saw Kaomea and 6 other people liked it.

I was still speculating what I did wrong, and I felt guilty....lol...guilty over people who liked something that basically makes me look like the bad guy.


I turned to Alyzarin and told her that she shouldn't have made me do that, and she instant messages me with (paraphrasing here):

"I tend to do that a lot, get used to it."


Huh???????????????

This dream so random and incomprehensible to piece together.

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04.01.2013

Don't Bold, Italicize, or Underline! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

It's pretty much the whole dream; someone tells me not to bold, italicize, and underline.

It wasn't like that exactly, she made a blog post on how "Brandon" is violating the Terms of Service by doing these actions. Then she goes on to ramble on and on and on and on.

Then I looked at the comments that seemed automated and a bunch of one-liners. Then after speculation, I realized this whole blog post was a bunch of BULL, and this didn't make sense AT ALL.

Could've done a reality check, but nope.